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[mrchalamet-mrstyles]

a good read about pr not being a thing and a cute photo of Tim + Kylie

https://www.pajiba.com/celebrities_are_better_than_you/the-myth-and-the-reality-of-the-pr-romance-conspiracy-.php

Truth is more boring than a classic red-string-on-the-wall conspiracy. The idea that two hot famous people might like one another and want to use their relationship for a bit of good press seems too calculating for fans who see their idols as reflections of their own moral worth. For some fans, it’s too nefarious to imagine their faves as having a calculating interest in their careers; they must be untainted innocents forced into the grime of Hollywood sleaze by a faceless evil known only as PR. The nuances of fame, love, and image maintenance can be curdled into something sinister even as their intentions seem utterly banal. A couple calling the paparazzi on themselves is not instant proof that their lives and feelings are fake. It’s just another symptom of the transactional nature of fame.

If I were smarter, I would do a PhD-level deep dive into the ‘celebrity conspiracy to QAnon’ pipeline, an area of culture that is sorely under-researched. For now, I just hope that we find ourselves more willing to call out tinhat nonsense when we see it instead of letting it fester as a pseudo-ironic joke until it’s too late to change tack. I’ll take boring over madness every time.

Thank you for this link, anon. A much-needed read by most of Tim's "fans". Friends and I have said for years now that the tinhatters and MAGA share scary parallels.

[ddivilove]

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[sharona-sims]

If you get this, answer w/ three random facts about yourself and send it to the last seven blogs in your notifs. anon or not, doesn’t matter, let’s get to know the person behind the blog!

Ooh, thank you for this @matchalovertrait. 🥰 1, Back when the Sims 2 was the current game, I used to have a small website where I would share clothing that I had created for my sims. It was called The Sims Boutique. I was very proud of it at the time because I had taught myself how to code HTML, and also some basic PHP, plus I also learned how to make sims clothing as well. 

2, I was obsessed with another life simulation game series before the sims games came into existence. It had cute little creatures to take care of. They were called Norn's and I loved them so much. 

3, Dogs are my absolute favourite creatures in the entire universe. I'm of the belief that if angels exist, then they most likely exist in the form of dogs. My dog makes me smile and feel better every day without fail. If that isn't the work of an angel, then I don't know what is. 

[veedyveen]

Hi! I'm the anon who's a Grizz fan lol. I'll stay on anon for now since I don't post Grizz stuff (yet).

I am a massive UConn fan, hence my love for Cam. He's my favorite so now I'm a Grizzlies fan too lmaooo

There was an interview with his mom in the Daily Memphian where she talked about Cam's little incident with Durant.

Cam's like this all the time. Has always been. You really can't describe how crazy he is cause he really is a psycho like Ja said lol.

He has such a cool story too. I think this is a good article https://www.ctinsider.com/sports/uconn-mens-basketball/article/cam-spencer-rutgers-huskies-18435623.php lol. He played lacrosse in high school, only had one D1 basketball offer, and transferred between 3 schools in five years. His older brother is just as crazy as him, he's on the Warriors.

But yeah the Grizz got an absolute dog in Cam. Basketball is like the only thing he thinks about. UConn legend.

ooo thank you for sharing the article!! cam and pat’s story is so interesting!! and thanks for sharing why you like cam! i also enjoy how much of a psycho he is. if youve been watching summer league this year he has already been committing some hard fouls LMFAO but its okay bc he may be a psycho but he is our psycho 🩵💙

if you ever start posting about the grizzlies feel free to send another ask so people can know your blog! theres not a lot of us so any new fan is welcome

[thepollspace]

Roughly how often do you have a scheduled appointment with a therapist/adjacent individual who checks on your mental health/well being?

I am currently in inpatient/res/PHP/etc

thrice a week or more often

twice a week

once a week

twice a month

once a month

every few months

less frequently than that

i do not have any scheduled appointments

other

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reblog for reach/bigger sample size!!

[sims2packrat]

Hi, does anyone here have the file to spieldose's aftopshirt's default? The file is linked here gardenofshadows(.)org(.)uk/gardenofshadows/index(.)php/gardenofshadows/index(.)php?topic=26168(.)msg631052#msg631052 but it only leads to an error 404 page :( Thanks in advance!

Hello anon! :-D [link in question]

It seems the download's filename was: DEFAULT_Topshirt_TF_AF.zip

And here is the preview:

Unfortunately, I could not seem to find them anywhere :-( does someone seeing this have this default from spieldose and and could re-upload for anon?

If the original download can't be found, I can probably toss together the default again for you when I get home at the end of March :-)

[bballlvr8]

https://www.ctinsider.com/sports/uconn-womens-basketball/article/azzi-fudd-acl-family-18514227.php

For the anon who asked for the article

here you go, anon

[trans-axolotl]

hi! i'm 15, and currently in a PHP program for my mental health. I'm scared as fuck because my new therapist is telling me I may need antipsychotics and made me do a dissociation questionaire and was like "wow you scored real high on this" and psychosis has always been that thing I can't have because I'm not /that/ mentally fucked right?

so your post about psychosis and schizophrenia was really helpful! thank you!!

💜💜💜💜

I'm glad my post was helpful! I can definitely understand how it could feel overwhelming to learn that you might be getting a new diagnosis and getting put on new medications, especially if it's in a context where people might be talking about those experiences using more stigmatizing or negative or clinical language that feels scary. but know that there are people experiencing psychosis/altered states of all kinds that are still living the lives they want , and that psychosis is not always the "worst case scenario." there's a lot of resources out there and a lot of people living with psychosis who we still build valuable and meaningful lives and adapt and cope with the particular ways our distress and pain shows up in our lives.

truly wishing you the best, anon, and feel free to reach out if you end up wanting some more resources about living with and coping with psychosis that aren't just talking about it in a pathologizing way!

[breederconfessions]

oh IM a stupid teen?? remind me how many ppl you knocked up in high school??

and now ur THREATENING me??? im already so big with ur dumb twins and you want to stuff me up with THREE? id be so huge I wouldnt be able to even sit up straight. i cant even imagine how stupid heavy that belly would be on me. plus my tits are already 2 whole cup sizes bigger thanks to you, and me nursing two babies plus 3 more?? id look like a fucking fertility idol. id just be a huge belly and tits with legs and stupid wide hips after i push your babies out. just so big and fertile and pregnant i could barely even walk and when i did my huge tits would bounce and jiggle on my huuuge bump and i uh. uhhh. what was i talking about

-php

BRO YOU WERE LITERALLY THREATENING ME FIRST

Bit hard to fight me when you're so fucking weighed down with my babies that are YOUR FAULT YOU'RE CARRYING IN THE FIRST PLACE and your brain is so swamped with pregnancy hormones you can barely think straight and it takes almost nothing to get you wet and needy for more of what got you like this in the first place. Just looking down at what my cum did to you, how much your body has rounded out because you were stupid and reckless and horny is enough to get you rubbing your thighs together

Anyway. Wanna meet up or what

[vegan-kaktus]

hii vk! i came across this post at mts where you were working on editing the pointy skirt outfit to remove the necklace? (db modthesims info/showthread php?t=654152) I'm totally interested in it! Sorry if this is an abandoned project, but just in case you finished, where can I get it please? I saw those defaults by slig, but like your idea, I'd love to have the edited original colors. And thanks very much, even if you dropped this project <3 I just love your cc and couldn't miss on this one! ^-^

Hello anon! I remember those! They are pretty much done, I just needed to take previews and.. never did, haha, so they were left to rot (like so many of my projects) in my wip-folder. I don't think I did the shoeswap or any of the other things I said I'd do, but I can take a look and upload (and/or finish) them for you tomorrow :-D

[thepolyamorouspolymath]

My Mother is fucking something else. I had just had a goddamn breakdown a decade ago and lost fucking everything. Then she cut me out of every family event, after I spent a fucking year in treatment to get better -- not therapy every couple weeks treatment, I'm talking psych wards, PHPs, residential facilities. For a goddamn year straight I did everything the doctors and therapists said (except go to Al-Anon, it makes me wanna throw chairs at dumb selfish bitches), took every pill without complaint, dealt with fucking judgment from shitty program people, went over the same sht so much I could teach it -- did teach in the psych ward during my stays in fact, I taught yoga as part of movement therapy.

Every time I was in anybof them it was because *I* put myself there -- because at my worst, I recognized when I was a danger from depression or manic delusions or insomnia for 5 days or too many flashbacks or dissociation episodes... not once did anyone have to force me or even convince me. I took my ass to the ER said, I'm a danger to myself I'd like to sign in.

Got done, learned to drive, got an apartment myself, maintained my med schedule religiously, kept it reasonably clean, maintained my regular check ins with my shrink.

I did EVERYTHING I was supposed to.

And then my mom cut me out of every family event -- I'd hear about it from my sister in law later.

When I confronted her about it being fucking hurtful to be left out of family Christmas, which had been my brother and me and our families from the time I moved out, she had the nerve to get passed at me and yell "I wanted to be able to enjoy one holiday without your fucking drama." (BTW, my suicidal ideation started at 7 and I begged for therapy and the bitch called me a drama queen. It took a suicide attempt that I flatlined during and a court order to keep me in weekly therapy until 18 to get it, and a threat to go straight to the cops with all 3 siblings willing to back me to stop the abuse).

Except it wasn't ONE holiday. She has seen me ONCE since 2014, and I was only invited then bc my oldest sister was in town and she insisted it was us both or neither.

A few years ago I gave her her goddamn wish. She didn't want to be burdened with my drama? Wish fucking granted, she was told I was blocking her and if she ever tried to contact me again, I'd file a restraining order, citing the many medical records documenting her abuse and her enabling of abuse.

She tried calling B and screamed at him for shit none of her business, so I unblocked to say if she ever spoke to my husband that way again, I'd make sure not only I got a restraining order but that everyone in her podunk town she was so concerned about their opinions knew every fucking sordid detail of my entire life under her roof -- I'd pull a goddamn Reynolds Pamphlet of my own.

She's now whining to my mother in law that I'm keeping the kids from her -- I never said fucking boo to them about whether they should talk to her, and they're fucking adults, I couldn't stop them if I wanted to. Hell, no one has ever able to stop my second from what he really wanted in his whole life -- not that my mother would know. They chose not to.

My mother in law keeps saying how she hopes we work it out. I'm like there's nothing to work out. She asked to not deal with my drama as she calls the mental illnesses she caused, so I granted her request and she'll never have to again.

[growandrecover]

Hey, I hope you are doing well.

I only just found this blog and spent awhile reaching your posts and a lot of them really resonated with me. So thank you for that. In a moment of bravery and sleep deprivation I wanted to send an ask.

I have been in serious ana recovery for a little over a year now, eight months of which I spent hospitalized or in a partial hospitalization facility, and the entire time my primary and pretty much only driving force for recovery has been my job. I am a daycare teacher and it is the first and only job to bring me real genuine joy. It was also the wake up call that I needed to actually try to recover because my restriction was heavily affecting my ability to work (energy levels, strength to pick the kids up, etc) And I care about my ability to take care of the kiddos more than anything. Even when I had to miss months of work to try to recover with professional help it felt worth it because I knew when I came back I could be the teacher they deserve. And for a little while it was true, I had more energy and strength and endurance. I was more mentally present and able to focus, I had more patience and honestly I felt like I was feeling the joy of it more deeply.

The problem I’m facing is that with the severe teacher shortage my daycare is now facing the very real possibility of permanently shutting down. This week alone we lost two teachers and now we don’t know how we are going to last through the summer months. The closer we get to what feels like the inevitable end of my job the harder it is to keep the urges at bay. It feels like my only reason to recovery is slipping through my fingers and I don’t know what to do. I know logically I can get another daycare job but it doesn’t feel that simple. I fear at the rate I have been going with relapse, that this will be the opportunity ana has needed to get me fully under again. I fear that I wasted all those months trying to recovery when I could have just been working with the kids and making the most of the time I have left. If my daycare shuts down I likely will never see any of the students again.

I guess I’m looking for advice on how to find reasoning to recover when it all seems to be slipping away? I know the ‘why’ is supposed to be a personal thing but now it’s leaving and I don’t know what’s left. My ‘coping mechanisms’ are what I spent months of treatment trying to conquer and now I don’t know how to deal with all the upcoming change in my life. I know I learned actual skills and coping mechanisms in treatment but the actual motivation to use them aren’t there. I know I have the knowledge I need to recover but I have no Why anymore if my daycare shuts down.

Even now after being in recovery for so long I only have a stable meal plan during the work week and the weekends it all falls apart. I fear that the habits will only grow if I don’t have work helping stabilize me.

The only other thing I have helping in the mental recovery is that after finishing my last round of PHP I adopted two cats. I hoped that they would help inspire me to stay healing as if I get worse enough to the point of needing hospitalization I don’t know who could take care of my cats. So I have a reason to stay out of the hospital because I love my cats dearly and don’t want to have to give them away, however what about the inbetween. There’s so many unknowns and I don’t know how to effectively cope with it and figure out a safe plan.

Any thoughts or help would be greatly appreciated. Thank you for your time.

Hi, anon :)

I'm not going to lie, as a nanny, this made me tear up a little bit. Last year I went through my worst relapse to date, and the kids were my reason to get through it as well.

First things first, congratulations on being in recovery for a year! That's amazing!!

When I'm struggling to find reasons to stay in recovery, I focus on the absolute necessities. You've already done that (nice job!!). You said that the kids are the main reason, but the daycare may be shutting down soon. Your cats still live with you and depend on you 100%. Is there anything else that you would hate to have to leave/not be able to do if you were to relapse? Like if you were to leave your friends/family/partner? Or say the daycare doesn't close or you find another job, you won't be able to work if you go back to the hospital. Will you need that money you're missing out on? How will your bills be getting paid? etc etc

Whatever it may be, you need to keep that in the forefront of your mind during meal times, and whenever you need it throughout the day. Make it your phone wallpaper if you have to. You can write a list of things that matter most to you in the world (other than your ed) and look at that when you need motivation to keep going. In the app we used at my treatment center, it had a section for us to put pictures for reasons for our recovery. I put pictures of my friends and family, my dog, and my favorite bands because I wanted to be well enough to see them in concert one day. Looking at those when I was struggling was pretty helpful. You could do something similar. :) If you have to eat your meals at home sitting next to your cats as a reminder that they need you, then so be it.

Next, I'd say that you may want to have a chat with your boss if you haven't already. They might be able to tell you if you should start looking for another job or not. In the meantime, you still have kiddos who need you to be on top of your game, even if your daycare doesn't stay open much longer. Which I'm sorry about, by the way. That sounds very difficult. :(

One part of your ask really stood out to me the more I reread it. You fear you wasted all that time trying to recover, when you could've just been working with the kids and making the most of what time the daycare has left.

For starters, any time at all spent trying to recover is not a waste of time, no matter the circumstances. That's a huge thing to do, and you did it. You should be proud of yourself.

Secondly, I want you to think about what that time would have been like if you weren't in recovery. When I was nannying last year while in a relapse, it was very, very difficult. I had no strength to pick up the kids (like you mentioned), I couldn't run around with them, I wasn't eating while they were eating, and my mind was not there, with them, it was on food. I was simply not performing at my best because I was tired and hungry all the time. Would you have been able to enjoy that time with them if you were actively in a relapse? Would you have been able to keep up with them physically? Would you be treasuring that time or thinking about food/your next meal/your body/etc?

When I got out of that relapse, I realized how much more I enjoyed being with them and doing the things they love to do because I was able to focus on them.

Another thing that jumped out at me was your eating schedule. Are you not doing well on the weekends because you're not at work? If so, maybe think about it like this: You need to be nourished every day of the week, not just 5 of them, for those kids. If you're restricting every weekend, that doesn't put you in the best place to start the week on Monday morning. The kids need you to be nourished even when they're not there <3

I know you mentioned this, but I'd tell this to anyone who was facing a problem like yours. I think you need to start looking for other teaching jobs. Even if you're not applying for them, you still might want to look. That could give you a safety net so there's not much time in between jobs for you to relapse. If there aren't a lot of jobs like yours open, I'd check out nannying websites since you love working with kids. There are always so many people looking for nannies, and some of them are looking to hire quickly.

I really hope this was helpful and I'm so sorry you're going through all of this. Hopefully your daycare is able to stay open! <3

If I missed anything or you just want to talk, don't hesitate to send me another ask or a message!

[kyra45]

This year has been exceedingly rough for me, and she came to me pretty early on in it. I tried to do a little research but I didn't know her full name yet, so just searching her username brought up posts talking about it being unfair that just because she was Filipina people were accusing her of being a scammer.

Plus at the time she was messaging me every other week about a new tragedy, I was having a similar experience, with my FiL constantly going to the hospital, storm taking out our electricity, my FiL running out of oxygen, etc. She told me things like her house needing repairs, then that house was flooding, then I believe her mom was in the hospital, and then either hers (or a neighbors?) house caught on fire, and then after that was when she faked her arrest and death, but those may be out of order.

I only ever sent her about $23 total, but she asked for more money than I made. I tried to ask her like "how can I help today?" since I didn't have much to spare, and I consistently got answers in the hundreds of USD. (Ex: asking for abt 45k PHP and then down to maybe 11k PHP) I wasn't sure if she wasn't understanding bc she had a different conception of how much money I had or something else, but she would constantly message me telling me how everything has gotten worse. The fact that the same thing was happening to me made me more sympathetic and made me feel bad for doubting her.

The messages were very guilt trippy, and it was to the point where I just pretended not to be online for a few months. It was around the fire that I started having serious doubts about her validity, and by the time she posted the picture of her in the hello kitty sheet claiming to be deceased I was able to laugh to friends about ever believing her.

But it's incredibly upsetting seeing how many people not only believed her, had the resources to help her, and she continued to claim no one was helping her. But I guess a fake crowd funding campaign that seems successful isn't as profitable as one that's portrayed as tanking.

Hi anon, thanks for the ask!

Unfortunately, she was always targeting certain communities for fundraising. The trend of tagging certain blogs, messaging users constantly, and also pretty much guilt tripping everyone she talked to into giving her money even if they couldn’t afford it. Even when someone had sent her hundreds of dollars, it’s pretty much shown now that she would claim no one’s helping her.

I often like to think Laura started the trend of blogs who made fake fundraisers and would start tagging random people in it or messaging people constantly sharing unprompted images and using guilt trippy methods at the same time. It doesn’t seem like these existed all that often until Laura did it. But who knows, really xD

Early on, no one really knew she was a scammer. She looked genuine enough after all and there wasn’t any real reason to doubt her. It took a while before some things started not making sense. I hope you’re doing alright now.

[sims2packrat]

Hi, I'm the person from the simblr birthdays post lol immediately after sending the ask I found the stuff was made by shasta and it's been reuploaded here sims2artists(.)com/index(.)php?board=477.0

Hello anon! :-D I didn't get your first ask, but great that you found it yourself! And thank you for coming back with the link<3

[angiethewitch]

that anon is so awful. i was forcibly medicated, told i either had to "agree" to injectable antipsychotics or they would court order me. since i developed schizoaffective, ive tried 5 different antipsychotics, but often went off of them and ended up in crisis care. now, i choose to take meds because it's the best option for me personally. but that's not the option everyone should or needs to choose at all. and i absolutely agree that being schizospec does not make us inherently dangerous, i almost got turned away from an iop/php program after residential bc they thought i might be too big of a risk to others, so that prejudice is even rife in psych circles. idk this is kind of a ramble but yeah. navigating psychosis is difficult and looks different for everyone bc we all have different needs, traumas, and preferences surrounding meds or therapy. no one is lesser or problematic for choosing a different route, and i wish psychs were more compassionate rather than just throwing meds at us.

my heart breaks for you. I was never threatened with legal action, but I was essentially coerced into taking them, the doctors said I would have to take them or be deemed non compliant. I already had the awful label that sends clinicians running away of "complex case" on my file, I didnt want "non compliant" being slapped on as well. I hope you're doing better these days <3

[eldragon-x-moved]

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it feels like my wife has returned from the war thank you anon