#probably to delete later

[taino-ti]

"completely irrelevant shit". least racist tumblr user

[queenlua]

if your movement spends a bunch of time whining and crying and bitching about how intellectuals don't take you seriously while your movement is also overwhelmingly anti-intellectual like. come the fuck on. be so fucking for real now. you're either defending A Version Of The Movement You Wish Existed (But In Fact Exists Only In Your Head), or you're just sad because you want the social cachet that comes with being an intellectual while fundamentally spitting on their core values. fucking asinine behavior

[charmwasjess]

cut for mental health stuff

This time of year is so strange because my depression is so regular and seasonally tuned, it's almost as predictable as clockwork. It starts in the middle of August, gets bad in November, peaks in December, and then starts to level off in January when the light comes back. I know this. I've lived with myself long enough to be aware.

Now, here, in August, I can feel myself in real time turning into a different version of me, but at this point, I have one foot on both sides of the change. It's a weird kind of self awareness and preparation. I want to write myself letters from home that won't reach me on the front lines for a couple months. I can already tell it will be bad this year, but what does that mean? It feels like preparing for a season of scarcity but not knowing exactly what to prep, what the famine will take. Is it like a snowstorm, when people will inexpiably raid the shelves of Wonderbread and milk? Should I invest in batteries for my weather radio? What about nonperishables? I don't really like peanut butter crackers, but I can light my gas stove with a match and cook almost anything when the power is off.

[fulminare-within-her-soul]

If I wrote out and posted a roleplay starter for Euphemia and Eleazar, Urvashi, or even Trudy, would anyone be remotely interested?

I want to, but I also really don’t want to put in all that work to make a post specifically for interaction if it won’t get any. Not to sound suuuper desperate and pathetic, but my blog is quite tiny and my inbox houses dust bunnies. Gotta make sure. ;^^

[abadarkade]

It's strange, to imagine my everyday—without you. Without waking up next to your face. It's strange, that I don't have a clue what'll happen when I leave this place. But I know for sure:

It's. What. I. Have. To. Do

[keldae]

Today's bullshit has included:

The obesity clinic not telling me that the bariatric clinic rejected me for a surgery candidate IN 2022. I found that out TODAY. WHY YOU NOT TELL ME FOR ALMOST THREE FUCKING YEARS. I NEED TO REAPPLY FOR THAT SHIT. (Apparently I failed the mental health/ADHD triage?)

The therapy office jerking me around. I had my intake for therapy in January. They FINALLY deigned to book my first appointment for April 1... after they told me 4-6 weeks wait time. FROM EARLY JANUARY.

Got screeched at in Facebook DMs and unfriended because I agreed with an apparently offensive opinion.

Coworker keeps setting the work thermostat to Satan's Asshole temperature.

And my asshole of a father has decided to rear his head again and demand my siblings and I all apologise for expressing our anger and not being good little doormats to his narcissistic ego.

*screams into a pillow*

[missimbalance]

...you know what? You're right!

Not exactly a pirate hat, but fancy enough.

[sololosabelaluna]

had the wooooorst week in a while and my therapist is on vacation till the 28th. help

[demacianpuppet]

Feeling so shitty that I got up to go tothe city only for a fucking bubble tea. Great start to the weekend.

[monstermonger]

Fantasy-ifying the Pacific Coast 🐲

(journal sketchpage wip)

[adreamingrevenant]

You know, there's some things you don't expect to hear from those you're close to. And the only way you can react is "Huh. Guess this may as well happen."

I'm so tired, wish I could sleep for 500+ years.

[whookami]

I am having a super hard time leaving my house lately to the point I haven’t been to work since Thanksgiving (Canadian Thanksgiving) and haven’t made any money since then and OW keeps losing my applications and I haven’t paid my bills and my mom’s money is basically going to pay our mortgage and condo fees and that’s about it. I have to force myself to go to the OW office tomorrow to beg for money and mom had to try and turn in some stocks she may or may not have or else we don’t pay our bills or eat for December and it’s really stressful and we could have done this sooner but we’re both deep in this depressive funk where we can’t seem to get anything done and can’t seem to get out of it. Doesn’t help that on top of not affording anything else I can’t afford any of my pills, except I miraculously happened to have a backlog of my anxiety meds and some old migraine meds that I was taken off months ago to try a different med.

Everyone loves Christmas but to me it’s just the most stressful time of year. Got a phone call today from the gas company to kindly remind me I missed a payment. Like. I know. Trust me, I know. Every sleepless night I lay awake there knowing and promising myself that the very next day I’ll go out and fix things and stop fucking my life over worse and then I just lay in bed instead and cry until the next sleepless night comes.

If God were real he really fucked up when it came to wiring our brains to deal with modern problems.

[noirecheris3]

nightmare mission trio

[zarla-s]

Valve went through and banned a whole bunch of bots yesterday and when I last checked a couple hours ago, the Casual servers are still 99% actual people! If you want to try out TF2 DO IT NOW while you have the chance! Believe me when I say that having matches this clear of bots is RARE. They'll be back in force inevitably in probably a couple days so the window of opportunity here is small. Take the chance to play a normal round of TF2 Casual while you can!

[greengoddesssmoothie]

In the recent past, women were told by society that they could have a fulfilling relationship or a career, but not both. There’s been a push to “have it all!” more recently, of course, but that’s not what this post is about. This post is about how James T. Kirk occupies the unique position of a male character who had to choose one or the other. There are few male characters other than him who are genuinely and unabashedly hopeless romantics who want to settle down but aren’t allowed to by the narrative. And if you view The Search for Spock as a romantic drama, then Kirk also kind of fulfills the typical female character trope of “learning that romantic love is actually more important than a career.”

As you can see, Captain James T. Kirk’s arc mirrors many female romance protagonists, and he is therefore, textually, wife material. In this essay, I will—

[batboopp]