#program will now override and think about cartoon ninja ethics

[evilkitten3]

so first of all, that's. honestly something you're going to have to work through with or without therapy bc it's a roadblock you can overcome, one that will seriously benefit you to overcome, and once you do successfully learn to if not permanently put it behind you than temporarily maneuver your way around it your life will probably get better, BUT

and i cannot stress this enough

a mental health professional is only the solution if that person is both good at their job and the right match for you. me, i got lucky. my mom found me a therapist when i was 9/10 who was perfect and i still see her today, the better part of two decades later (note that "perfect" is an exaggeration; she has her flaws and we've clashed more than a couple of times). more than that, i've been pretty consistently lucky overall when it comes to the people i'm entrusting with my mental health, but that experience is far from universal and absolutely should not be taken for granted

even the most well-intentioned of people can make mistakes that can do serious harm. i'm not trying to scare you away from this btw if you're in a place where you may need a therapist or psychiatrist, you should absolutely look into finding one! but you do need to be careful. i personally have no clue what a good vetting process for finding somebody would be, but i'm sure someone on tumblr (or if not on tumblr, then definitely on reddit) has made a detailed list concerning what to look for and what to look out for.

lastly, remember this: progress isn't linear. people can say that easily enough, but i need to be clear exactly how true that is - your therapist/psychiatrist/secret third thing is not a magical button that can swoosh away your problems, they're a human being using the tools they been taught to help you help yourself (cliche as that sounds, it is true. if they're y'know. doing their jobs, i mean), and that is something you may be forcefully reminded of in even the best case scenario (my own therapist's reaction to losing to me at sorry! once when i was in middle/high school comes to mind. never letting her live that down lmao)

ok that's all take care of yourself i love you ok bye

extremely unsexy of adhd to make me both very annoying and very sensitive to the concept of being perceived as annoying