#pulls out my chewlery

[spaciebabie]

everytime i come back from the dentist i have to start teething

[7ndipity]

Them With An Autistic S/o

Ot7 x Reader

Summary: How the members would handle/react to their S/o being on the spectrum.

Warnings: Mentions of sensory issues, feeling over/under stimulated, depression, meltdowns, stimming.

A/N: Thanks to the lovely anon who requested this! This is a list I’ve actually wanted to write for a while, but I’d been slightly nervous/unsure about it. But as someone who’s also on the spectrum, I know how much comfort similar posts from other blogs have brought me! I also tried to keep this one a bit lighter, since someone asked for a separate list about meltdowns/shutdowns, but if there’s any specific reactions/hcs like this that you guys want, let me know! (Please note that these are based off my own knowledge/experience, so I’m sorry if they don’t fit for everyone)

Masterlist

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Jin:

I feel like he’d be slightly confused and worried at first because he’s not sure what to do/how to help you, but once you explain a bit more, he gets a lot more comfortable, and really is such a good caregiver when he needs to be.

Catches onto your different stims pretty quickly and what each one means.

Like, y’all have whole conversations solely through funny little hums and stim noises.

Really good at reading and matching your mood/energy. You wanna talk about the Mayans nonstop for two hours? Cool! You want to just sit silently and do nothing? Also cool!

He’s really good at normalizing your symptoms and making them seem like nbd(because to him, they aren’t) Food sensitivities? He’s got them too! You hate loud noises and crowds? Same Honey, let’s get the fuck outta here! He knows they’re not quite the same thing, of course, but if it makes you feel more comfortable and safe being your true, unmasked self with him, then that’s all that matters to him.

Really good at calming you down when you feel overwhelmed or on the verge of meltdown.

Does his absolute best to bring your mood up whenever you’re struggling or feeling really down, pulling out his best dad jokes(even if they don’t make sense to you), bringing your favorite snacks, etc.

Yoongi:

I think he would handle it really well. Does his research after you tell him, and asks you about it casually during dates/hangouts.

So fucking respectful of your boundries. If you prefer to have your own space, he’s totally fine letting you do your own thing. If you need more closeness and cuddles, he’s all over that too, letting you sit right next to him while he works.

Not only lets you rant about your special interests, but makes the effort to take interest in them and asks questions. Randomly buys you little things related to them.

He’s so calming and soothing when you’re feeling stressed or overstimulated, understanding whenever you randomly need rest or quiet time(stress nap buddies)

Keeps things like extra sunglasses and headphones in his bag for you, just in case you forget yours.

Would have a lot of fun if you have audio stims, letting you listen to his new songs because your reactions and enthusiasm are so cute to him. Makes you panning audios as gifts.

Always there to look out for you whenever executive dysfunction decides to kick your ass. Washes the dishes, doing the laundry, restocking your safe foods, etc. He would also be really good at body doubling.

Hobi:

I honestly think he would be really good with an S/O on the spectrum. Like, he literally designed Mang, who is soo ND coded like omg😭, so I think he would be able to understand you really well.

(if you haven’t seen the videos of him talking about Mang’s personality and character traits during the re-design process last year, pls go watch them, I almost cried)

Loves buying you new fidgets and stim toys whenever he finds new ones to try(he even has a collection of chewlery that he wears bc he thinks they’re neat).

Is really good reading you and distracting you when you start to get overstimulated or anxious, sometimes noticing before you do.

Lowkey protective over you in spaces and situations he knows are stressful for you, positioning himself next to you whenever he spots things he knows bother you.

You know how Yoongi described him as a vitamin? That’s how it is for you now too.💛

He’s so stimmy himself, so he would find a lot of your stims really relatable and endearing. Like, if you start happy stimming, he can’t help but join right in, bouncing or squealing with you. It makes him so happy that you feel comfortable enough with him to share those parts of yourself with him.

Namjoon:

Instantly super supportive when you told him, making an effort to research on his own, as well as listening to your personal experiences to understand as much as possible.

Happily sits and lets you info-dump about your special interests. He honestly loves seeing you so passionate and animated about whatever you’re talking about and loves getting a glimpse into how your mind works(it was probably during one of these moments that he realized he was in love with you)

Surprisingly good pebbler, he’s always finding cool rocks or shells for your collections.

Doesn’t mind speaking for you on days when you’re nonverbal.

The sweetest when you’re feeling overstimulated. He closes all the curtains to make it dark and cozy and sits with you, talking as softly as needed or not talking at all, tapping your hand gently now and then to let you know he’s still there.

Soo protective over you, almost to a fault at times. Like, you might have to scold him once or twice about babying you, but he really doesn’t mean to, he just wants to make sure you’re safe and happy.

The world feels a lot less scary tho with him next you. You know if you need anything, he’s got your back.

Jimin:

The softest boi🥺 He was honestly a little scared when you first told him, because he didn’t want to do anything wrong and was worried he wouldn’t be ‘good’ at looking after you, but he quickly relaxed and grew more confident as he learned more from you.

The best comforter when you’re feeling overwhelmed or depressed, full of quiet reassurances and long hugs(if you’re okay with those). He’ll gladly cuddle with you under your weighted blanket for however long you need to feel better.

Literally set up a little “nest” for you at his place with a like beanbag chair and your favorite types of blankets/pillows, so you have your own place to just ‘be’ and recoup when you need it.

Carries fidget toys and sensory aids like sunglasses and headphones with him at all times, just in case you need them.

Really good at communicating with you on days when you’re nonverbal, whether through texts or little notes(which he always adds little doodles on to make your smile😊)

Makes sure you never feel guilty or like a burden to him for letting him in on those tougher days. If anything, they make him love you even more because of the trust you have in him.

It really makes him feel so proud and happy inside that you find so much comfort in his presence and that he gets to take care of you.💜

Taehyung:

Another that I think would be particularly good with a neurodivergent S/O. Like, everyone jokes about how he’s weird, so I think he’d love that you’re both your kind of own unique kinds of ‘weird’.

Happily rewatches your favorite comfort shows/films with you, and speaks in fluent film quotes with you.

Loves when you fidget and stim with his hands or fingers.

If you like pressure stims, he’s a dream come true. Like, the man’s a living weighted blanket, so when you basically give him a doctor's note for cuddles? He’s never gonna let you go.

As relaxed as he might come across sometimes tho, he’s super observant of your stims and triggers and takes it so seriously whenever you start feeling overwhelmed or stressed.

It doesn’t matter where you are or what you’re doing, if you need a break, he’s getting you to a quiet place where you can sit and just recalibrate.

Rivals Jin and Yoongi for top spot in the acts of service department on your bad days, making sure you eat properly, doing any household chores that need done. He even learned how to wash your weighted blanket so you don’t have to.

Jungkook:

Was definitely a little lost and overwhelmed when you first explained everything to him, but he really takes it in stride and tries to learn as much as possible to help make things easier for you where he can.

The King of comfort squeezes. Like you’ve seen his arms, he gives the best hugs, I just know it(especially on those “the weighted blanket isn't enough, I need a hydraulic press” days)

Loves learning about your special interests. Like, It’s no longer just your special interest, it’s our special interest. He’s even studying and finding things for it on his own to surprise you with.

Honestly plays with some of your fidget toys more than you do, lol! You might even end up giving him a few of his favorites😊

Gets super happy and smiley whenever you get echolalia of his songs.

Another member of the protective squad, ain’t no bad stimuli getting to his baby if he can help it!

The gentlest with you when you're overstimulated or having a tough day. Anything you need, he’ll do without question. All he cares about is making sure that you feel safe and comfortable🥺

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[imlivinginyourtrashcan]

Hi hello and howdy

Since I can't contain my thoughts here's all the "Mirage" logicistics. Basically they either swap or enhance ones personality, heres a few examples:

Mirage Lenore is way more looney and impulsive, with a practically nonexistant off switch having to be dragged off screaming before she sets anything on fire, her group mainly sticks with her for fear of their own lives and she and Annabel are ALLOWED TO BE GAY!!! HOORAY!!! They still have the pretend to hate each other thing but thats mainly due to Annabel's paranoia

Mirage Duke is a shit magician who constantly looses parts of his tricks, he's also like WAYYY too overdramatic, the kinda mf to fall over if you steal his chip,

"MY CHIP!!"

"Its... its just a crisp.."

"I WAS GOING TO EAT THAT!"

"Oh my god..."

So yeah, pathetic cringefail looser LMFAO, but he is the kinda person to pull a "OMG MY BEST FRIEND! MOVE!" And shove whoever out of his way

Mirage Pluto is if you took a wet cat and made him a golden retriever. He's very hyperactive, social, easily distracted. Mf is like "wanna hear abt my hyperfixations?!" Talks and doesn't wait for an answer a neat thing i did with some characters Mirage's is i inverted stuff abt them like hair, emblems, all that. He still thinks M! Duke's magic is cool

Mirage Berenice is a feral little creature, constantly biting or nibbling on things (mainly Eulalies arm, or her own. I dont think chewlery exists in the victorian era). She's also the queen of being unhinged, in spectre form shes somewhat normal at least. For the most part she's in her own world

Mirage Eulalie is the mean autistic, less into creepy/old things n thinks their lame and/or weird. She's the one dragging Berenice around and keeping the gang from falling apart. Her and M! Morella really out here sharing the only group braincell, shes also blunt as fuck and wont hesitate to tell you you look bad. I wanted to lean more into the japanese part of her character so she just kinda- speaks more of it now (lol idk how else to explain it)

Mirage Morella, like M! Eulalie, is a mean autistic. She's less emotional, and more of "I dont give a damn just get me out of here.", sticks with whatever group she's feelin that day tbh. Won't tell you you look bad, will probably just call you a dumbass and leave

Mirage Annabel is kinda like regular Annabel but without the "Life is like chess" mentality. So more jumpy, kinda a walking talking mental breakdown waiting to happen. Excess paranoia and increase of hallucinations cus pookie and I decided we aren't giving her a break

Mirage Prospero is no longer fancy and polite, he is sopping wet germaphobic wet cat. He will go through great lengths to avoid disease, faints around blood and puke, screams at the sight of his own rats (or just rats/bugs in general), actively raising his and Annabel's blood pressure with how scardy he is.

Mirage Montresor is imo the funniest one cuz he's just a polite little gentleman, doin all the chivalry shit like opening doors, pushing chairs in and out, saying his pleases/thank yous/welcomes, he's even calling everyone "Sir" and "Ma'am". He's still an asshole, but you really gotta provoke him to see that

Tbh, I didn't think much abt Mirage Will since Will to me is kinda just there as Monty's lackey who gets kicked around. SO he's less of a pushover, more demanding, up and refuses what people tell him, bullies M! Monty, he tried bullying M! Ada and M! Morella but bro got his ass kicked. On top of it, he's unfortunately more sexist and stubborn. No more people pleasing ig 🤷‍♀️

Finally, Mirage Ada. What I wanted to do for her is have her be an absolute girlboss who is always serving 100% of the time. Everything she does is her choice and for her and her friends, and and and shes Aroace too, pretty chill when she has to reject someone just like:

"Hey i like u"

"Oh! I don't feel the same but we can still be friends?"

"Ok"

EPIC HIGH FIVE

She also beat M! Will up, good for her

So uh, yeah! Thats all i got. If you have questions, feel free to comment or ask in the askbox. :)

[neptunedada]

Baby’s comfort

Baby noticing the way I pace around the kitchen, biting my nails and stewing over the way the countertops look.

I just can’t seem to figure out what’s wrong with them.. and the more I try to fix something, the worse it seems.

Baby knows I’ve been having a hard time lately, ruminating on my intrusive thoughts.

He stops me in my tracks, stepping in front of me and looking up at me with his cute puppy dog eyes.

Speaking of puppy dogs, he pushes his stuffed dog into my arms, offering me a distraction from picking at my nails.

I push back his bangs and press a kiss to his forehead, softly thanking him.

I give his puppy a squeeze and he takes my hand in his, pulling me over to the couch where he has a space documentary cued up, the kind of thing that always serves as a useful distraction from my thoughts.

He nudges me to sit, dragging a blanket over my lap and shyly mimicking my forehead kiss.

He steps away for a minute and I turn my attention to the tv for the time being, enjoying the soft narration and visuals.

Before I know it he’s returned, offering me a coloring book and some pens, curling up next to me with his own coloring book and crayons.

He nuzzles up to my side and I wrap an arm around him, happily holding him close.

Out of his pocket he pulls a couple fidget toys for me to play with, and I can’t help but smile.

He places one of his chewlery necklaces around my neck in case I need it.

Once we begin to color, I find that my hearts finally slowed down and my chest doesn’t feel so tight anymore. I give him a gentle squeeze, complimenting his coloring job.

Baby knows just how to help when the thoughts and compulsions become too much for me, helping me in his own subtle little ways.

[garnettfox]

Miracubots AU: Bits and Pieces

Thought about doing a vague timeline for the AU, but this one was niggling at me more.

So I've detailed about the main Rescuebots, but what about the others and the Autobots? Mostly the main Rescuebots want them to STAY. OFF. GRIFFIN. ROCK. They are having a rough enough time with just the four of them, they don't need to be worrying about other Cybertronians getting Akumatized. Hightide is mostly the one taking care of that. The moment he get's told about Swallowtail he pretty much goes 'Welp, I'm staying out to sea because I'd be a weekly Akuma' And agrees to help wrangle the other Bots and especally Optimus to keep them off the island, and offers his ship for the others to come to, to let off steam without worrying about Akumas. We've actually joked that he pulls a Swerve and just opens a fucking bar XD

I vaguely made mention of my OC Dusk who's this universe's Evilistrator and becomes Graham's boyfriend, he also has a little sister Claire who's the OC of my friend @beesquared whom I made this AU with. We go back and forth on it quite a bit because we play about with different versions of this AU but we typically agree. Dusk ends up with the Rooster Miraculous becoming Asmodeus and Claire the mouse becoming Pinkie.

Taking some Inspiration from Lady Luck, the Miraculous if you hold them for long enough have a physical and minor psychological effect on the holders. Not much but enough that if you know what's happening it's pretty obvious. The physical is pretty much just that no matter what the animal related to your miraculous is, you end up growing fangs. Even the Kwami don't know why and are confused when this ends up being true for the bots as well.

Food cravings relating to your Miraculous also start to happen. Cody develops one hell of a sweet tooth thanks to Tikki, and discovers he's gotten a taste for rarer meat as Ladybugs are voracious predators. Frankie and Plagg bonding over using science to make more camenbert and her also developing a hunger for meet, Doc Greene (Who despite not getting a Miraculous is let in on the secret) has to stop keeping mice in the lab for experaments because it is a constant test of Frankie's will power. Chase's to.

Chief, Kade and Graham end up developing a slight aversion to meat. Not too much in Chief and Graham's case as horse and goat meat are hard to get, though Graham can't stomach goat milk, and find themselves drawn more to vegetarian options. Poor Kade though starts getting nauseous at just the smell of beef cooking and the family agrees to stop stocking cow milk completely. Dani is just laughing at them slavoring anything she can get away with in honey

The bots *also* develop cravings, mostly for meat as most of them are carnivores, though Boulder when he's using his holoform is usually happily noshing on mushrooms and the vegetarian options the family starts having.

Other ways the Miraculous effects them, Cody and Dani end up accidentally making a flower garden together, they both enjoy unwinding by taking care of it, though Cody trys to make sure he never does it on an empty stomach as the aphids on the flowers look....*way* too tempting when he's hungry.

Graham starts chewing on anything and everything, especally when thinking, to the point where exasperated with him destorying some of his paint brushes Dusk as a joke gets him some baby's teething toys...Only to notice it's actually helping Graham and more seriously getting him chewlery he can wear all the time.

Other effects are a bit more subtle, Kade snorting like a bull when angry, Dani having the urge to move constantly when she's trying to explain or give someone directions.

And others are the bots literally starting to purr (Heatwave) Yipp (Blades) or snort (Boulder) when happy and hiss (Chase) when upset/stressed. Chase get's whammyed by Sass's miraculous quite a lot, if the familys ever on the beach and not on a rescue, Chase will just flop on the sand and bask for a while. And when he starts getting grumpy in winter the other bots set up sun lamps for him.

The snake miraculous literally gave the guy seasonal affective disorder.

[rebsrebsrebsrebs]

Obey Me! Characters and.... stims!

You know this emoji from the game?

(Thanks @sailormango​ for grabbing the picture for me!)

That’s a happy stim my friends!! Flappy arms of love!! @katattacktime​ and I both read the emoji as a stim and talked about how it made us feel like the Obey Me characters would be comfortable with us stimming. Then we put our gigantic neurodivergent brains together to come up with stims for them because of course we did!!! It’s our headcanon and we make the rules! tbh we barely had to even converse about it because we were so on the same page.

Let’s check out those stims!!

Lucifer pushes his hair back and runs fingers through his bangs when he's hyperfocused. It keeps his bangs out of the way and the motion helps him think and prioritize. Being so on top of things isn’t easy after all.

Mammon hums when he's doing things that don't require a lot of concentration, like showering, getting dressed, or doing chores - pretty much any time. He hums when he’s on cooking duty. When he thinks hard or is looking for something, he clicks the tip of his tongue against the roof of his mouth (it makes him easy to find when he's snooping for treasure unfortunately). Also he reflexively squawks at crows whenever he sees them. the crows squawk back. They are friends. Do not separate them.

Leviathan has a lot of physical stims, especially when he’s excited or thinking. Leg bounces! So many leg bounces. He’s self conscious about it but since he does online school it doesn’t bother anyone and that helps a lot. Anything that makes him excited (new anime season announcement, winning idol concert tickets, etc) means happy flaps!! Just like the emoji. He becomes that emoji hearts and all. He also has a variety of fidget cubes; he likes the joystick and button gadgets the most.

Satan pulls and twirls that one strand of hair at the front of his head while he's reading or studying, which is pretty much all the time. That's why it sticks out.

Asmo!!! Best quality: his wiggles. He balls his fists and shakes them in front of his chest when he’s excited. He also bounces on the balls of his feet if standing, or sometimes switches his weight between feet rhythmically. Like he’s always got a little bit of a beat!

Beel of course is a chewer. He’ll chew gum, pens, pencils - but he also has chewlery! It’s rubber jewelry meant for chewing - check out this doodle from @otomeman​ showing just this. (I have one that’s a big lego brick and i love it). He can also twirl things between his fingers. Pens. Coins. It's effortless. Boy is dextrous af. If he’s stressed he repeatedly tenses/relaxes different muscles in a set order. It's repetitive and gets a little endorphins goin’ which is good for relaxing.

Belphie gently pulls at his bangs when he's thinking or trying to stay awake. that’s why they’re long and also so in front of his face. Occasionally he rocks a foot side to side if he has a hard time sleeping, which admittedly is not often.

Diavolo loves texture stims!! He plays with the pin in his tie a lot, but also touches things that feel nice at the palace: velvet curtains, engravings in various wood furnishings, the crown jewels, If it feels good to touch he wants to touch it. Barbatos has to keep him from shoving his hand in the kitchen’s stockpile of rice. He has only failed once.

Speaking of Barbatos, he quietly clicks his teeth in rhythmic patterns. It’s quiet and can be done hands free so it doesn't detract from his work.

Solomon taps his writing implements. It’s pretty quiet when he’s using a quill (which he does sometimes because old wizard aesthetic) but can be louder. Sometimes he forgets that he does it and chooses a fountain pen and uh. Let’s just say all his clothes are mostly black for a reason. You can’t see black ink stains on a black shirt.

Simeon is prone to daydreaming! The whole TSL series probably started as a daydream. He also repeats the same words or phrases over and over in his head. It feels good to him to think like that. It also means he’s more likely to remember poetic lines when he comes up with them while not able to write them down.

Luke is a doodler! All his class notes have shapes and drawings in the margins. He’s more fond of soft and round shapes like bubble clusters, waves, clouds, and spirals. Sometimes he will do little doodles of his classmates! But never those icky demons okay maybe sometimes.

[zdux]

Always here for the BEASTARS content

fuck, *inhale* YEAH YOU ARE!!

Beastar headcannons ba-BEE!!!

Legoshi

The reason why his nails are so gross is because they grow out so fast that if he tries to make them look nice, they just grow out and get nasty within a few days so there's no point

He's pulled the "Hey leave my sibling alone!" card for more people than just Juno, he does it all the time when he sees young wolves getting bullied

He actually used to get bullied all the time, and someone used that Sibling Lie to help him, hence where he learned it

He sheds enough that you could make a fur rug after living with him for a week

His tail wags as a stim when he is focusing

Haru

She actually has a really cool wardrobe, she just doesn't wear it often because of the school uniforms

She can play clarinet

People like to make carrot jokes at her, but she actually doesn't care for carrots all that much

She uses chewlery because it helps keep her teeth in check

Juno

Her favorite Color is red

She has a LOT of jewelry, like a fucking LOTTTTTTT

Most of her jewelry is bangles and ear cuffs

Her favorite anime is "Love is War"

She went through a Twenty-One-Pilots phase

Lmao these are kind of random as I was making them up off the top of my head, but I think they all fit

[hargrove-mayfields]

Oh my god I love your autistic billy! I would love to hear about billy facing more ableism from Susan when max or Neil isn’t around

Thank you! <3 So I know I’ve mentioned it before, but Susan gives me autism mommy vibes so that’s what I’m sort of going to go into with this post! Also I’m assuming this is going hand in hand with the supportive Neil headcanon!

-Susan totally tries to get pity from literally anyone she can because of her step son being autistic. Like she goes to her little wine mom groups and complains about how hard and thankless it is to have to deal with a difficult child, just bullshitting about how she hates to see him ‘suffering’ If Billy ever tries to be like hey, Susan, it kind of sucks when you talk about me like I’m a burden on you instead of like you know, a person, she gets very angry at him. The excuses she uses turn into weapons against him, things like telling him that it hurts her feelings when he treats her like she’s a bad person even though he’s just trying to get some respect. Basically, there’s just lots and lots of guilt tripping.

-Neil works a lot and Max goes out with her friends more than Billy does, so it’s just the two of them at home a lot of the time. Susan hates having to spend time with Billy without the rest of the family and she’ll very unsubtly avoid him or say nasty things to him until he just locks himself in his room because the whole rest of the house feels very hostile.

-She says lots of little things that slowly build up, like constantly peppering in the fact that she thinks he’s stupid because his grades feel behind (not his fault, special ed sucks and the minute you get thrown into coed you’re on your own) or calling him annoying when he infodumps or meltsdown. He internalizes every last word of it, and starts pushing himself way too hard to be “normal” so he’s not so much of a disappointment to his family. There’s a point in time where basically there’s just nothing left of Billy’s personality because he’s too self conscious to even try to be himself.

-She hits Billy sometimes. If he’s making too much noise, she’ll slap him, if he’s melting down, she’ll hit him to try to make him stop, if he’s doing a repetitive motion and she gets sick of it, she’ll smack his hands away. He flinches really hard when people reach for him without announcing it because for one thing he doesn’t like people touching him without his permission anyways, but also because he’s afraid they’ll hit him like Susan does.

-When she gets called out on something she did, be it by Max or Neil or anybody else, she’ll deny it entirely, claiming Billy was lying about her because he doesn’t like her, trying to act all sweet and innocent like she’s the victim. Billy defends Susan too, because even though he’s scared of her and he can’t stand being at home half of the time because of the way she treats him, he’s more scared of causing a rift and breaking up the family, and he doesn’t want to be viewed as just some wimp who gets bullied by his step mom either.

-She tries to get him to cut his hair all. the. time. They’ve explained it to her time and again, haircuts are just a no good sensory experience, and he’s not trying to be rebellious or anything, but she still just hates that he keeps it long so much. Whenever there’s nobody else to hear it she constantly rags on Billy’s appearance to try to pressure him into cutting it, telling him it’s ugly and girly, unnatural for a boy. He puts it up sometimes so she’ll stop and so it won’t touch him, but he knows he likes it better long and doesn’t take what Susan says to heart (not too much at least)

-She’ll do things spitefully too. Like if Billy’s already feeling a bit overstimulated, she’ll do the dishes and ask for his help, or make him sit and watch the TV turned up too loud with her, and if he tries to refuse she pulls the I’m just trying to bond with you, why don’t you ever spend time with your step-mother anymore excuse so he can’t get away and destress. This leads to many a meltdown, which she also tries to unsuccessfully stifle.

-She gets very angry with Billy for not being the model son. If there’s something he can’t do for Max, he’s incompetent, if there’s around the house he can’t do, he’s lazy, if there’s a social event he doesn’t think he can attend or tries to walk away from, he’s trying to tear apart the family. She doesn’t understand (or just refuses to understand) that Billy is autistic and not doing these things to be bad.

-She also gets mad at him for doing anything that makes it obvious he’s autistic because “it’s embarrassing, William” No stimming in public, no melting at any time, no talking about a special interest, no chewlery or other stim toys, just nothing. Without stims he’s prone to more meltdowns, more meltdowns means Susan’s more prone to yelling at or hitting him, more of that leads to less trust in her and so on and so forth. It’s a horrible awful cycle that could entirely be prevented if she was willing to let go of her prejudices.

-I will say though, if it ever really came down to it and if he wasn’t worried about Max’s well-being, Billy is always Neil’s first pick over his Susan. He does everything in his power to make sure she doesn’t do any of the stuff above, and if he knew how bad things really were he would absolutely would remove her from Billy’s life.

[guessimjoiningthespidermanfandom]

The Zone

Peter Parker x bisexual!reader

Peter Parker x fem!reader

Peter Parker x black!reader

Peter Parker x villain!reader 

Warnings: Mentions of violence, bruising, allusions to corrupt government, drug use, underage drinking, knives, mentions of neo-nazis, bad eating and sleeping habits, a mention of sex, mentions of death and the dead. 

Word Count: 3.7k

Songs: Changes- Charles Bradley, 4 Morant- Doja Cat, Prey-  The Neighborhood, Stay Together- Noah Cyrus, Without me- Eminem, Colors- Halsey, Where’s My Juul??-Full Tac, Pork Soda-Glass Animals, Everyday- A$AP Rocky, Facts- Kanye West,  Why’d You Only Call Me When You’re High?, Immortal- J.Cole, High Enough- K,Flay, Drugs- UPSAHL.

A/N: This is pretty short but it’s also the fasest I’ve released a chapter after the other was released.

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I smashed the keypad multiple times with the handle of a knife before the metal finally fell. I pulled all the wires out before hearing the words ‘System Malfunction’. 

If I hadn’t disarmed the alarm system already. I’d probably be worried right about now. I manually slid open the cell door. 

That’s when she glanced up at me.

“Took you look enough,” She smirked. 

“I could’ve gotten you out sooner if you didn’t get your ass locked up in solitary,” I tossed her the Black Cat suit. 

“You know I still don’t know your name or what you look like,” She stated pulling the suit up “and I don’t think that's fair seeing as you know those things about me,” She cooed. 

I pulled my mask over my face “It’s Y/N. Happy now?” 

“Wow I always knew your voice sounded attractive, matches the face,” 

“Okay, we can kiss my ass later but now we have about 2 minutes to get out before the guards come and get us,” 

Leaving the building the same way I came in through the vent. You’d think they’d have better security. I was thankful they didn’t when we finally reached the car. 

“Who’s car is this?” Felicia asked hopping in the passenger seat. 

“Dunno,” I said, putting the car in the drive. 

“Hold on tight,” I warned before ramming into the fence at full speed successfully knocking it down. 

I was definitely not holding my breath that whole time. And I definitely was not doubting myself. Okay maybe I was, a little.

“I’m surprised that actually worked, none of this was planned at all,” I laughed in relief.

She laughed along with me 

“Plans are for the ‘good guys’, if you’re smart enough you don’t need plans,” 

“If that’s not the truth,” I replied turning onto a deserted road “You owe me again, I’m not counting, but I believe the score’s 3:1,” 

She was right, you never need a plan. Second moral to the story is that even “villains” never work alone. I know I always talk that “every man for themselves” mess but everyone needs a support team. And for people who supposedly have no morals they haven’t betrayed me yet. 

There are the bad guys and then there are the bad guys. The heroes didn’t seem to care which you were, they just wanted you locked up or dead and to get all the glory for it. I think it’s time one of us gets the glory.

“Ow!” I exclaimed, pulling myself out of my thoughts. 

“Sorry,” Olivia muttered, “You need to be still,” She said, dabbing a cloth on my leg. 

“Well it’s hard to be still when your leg is burning,” 

I was expecting some jab or joke like normal but it was silent. She looked up at me and I could see the tears forming in her eyes. 

“Y/N…” Her eyes drifted over my bruised and cut up body, her voice breaking. 

“You don’t have to worry about me, I promise I’m fine,” 

“How am I supposed to believe that when you won’t tell me anything?”

“I don’t tell you anything cause then you’d worry,” 

“Well I’m already worried!” 

The next day of school was very ordinary. Well as ordinary as it got when you were a kid who was wanted in multiple cities. My body wasn’t as sore as it was the day before, the bruises were clearing up, but honestly these new weapons were no joke. I’d seen them burn straight through buildings and a ferry now. Anyways like I was saying before today was ordinary, nothing exciting unfortunately. 

Rich kids in Queens take homecoming a little too seriously. For the most part, I’m not complaining penthouse parties were fun. Rich white kids love their molly. 

Harry Osborn was one of those rich kids. If we’re being honest I feel like he does coke on occasion. I don’t think he actually liked homecoming all that much seeing as he’s pretty new to our school. I just think he likes being able to brag about his parties and get wasted at parties. 

One of those parties would be the one I was getting ready for right now. 

Olivia walked into the bathroom and stood in the doorway. This bathroom was very modern as well as the whole house. Like an art gallery.

“Hey kitten,” I said since she wasn’t going to say anything. 

“Hey,” 

“Are you sure you don’t want to come?” I asked.

“You know how I feel about Harry’s parties,” 

That I did, her dad and Harry’s dad seemed to have some sort of beef. That I didn’t care enough to get into. But Olivia's family took it pretty seriously. I guess I could say Felicia and Olivia’s family. It’s still weird to see them as siblings. It’s not surprising, just weird. Just a weird family of kleptomaniacs. 

This isn’t something I say often but I looked really hot. Like really fucking hot. I had even winged eyeliner. A nice black tube top. A pastel pink tennis skirt. I had black thong type thing on, you could see the thin straps resting on my waist from above the skirt. It wasn’t like I was trying to get fucked or anything because I was not planning on being the slightest bit of sober. 

I also had thigh high socks on but only because they could conceal a knife and I’d been on high alert lately. Just because I wasn’t going to be sober didn’t mean I couldn’t protect myself. It's a sort of muscle memory when it comes to knives, at least with me 

If I wore this anywhere near the kids at my old school they’d probably call me a wannabe white girl, but those kids aren’t there and they have no part of my life anymore. 

I just wanted to get so fucked up that I couldn’t think at all. 

I couldn’t help but think. That’s all I could do lately. My brain wouldn’t slow down to let me breathe for even one second. I just wanted to breathe and go to bed. I still can’t sleep. At least now I have a valid reason. I don’t like talking about it because it’s not a big deal or anything, but today is the anniversary of-. It’s the day Rose died. No use sugarcoating it. It passes every year, no use being in my feels about it. Couldn’t help it though, every year I’d get sad about it for about 5 minutes until I did so many drugs that I couldn’t blink. 

As soon I stepped into the house. I was hit with the buzz I hadn’t felt in a while. I missed it too. It wasn’t like Liz’s “party” her thing could’ve been fun but the whole headache, Vulture thing and lack of drugs made it suck. 

Anyways who cares about that. I’d been at this school long enough to know who had molly. I’d either have to flirt with them or pay which I was down for either. 

See I knew the chewlery gem rod I had attached to a necklace would come in handy one of these days. Now I wouldn’t bite my mouth. 

Only problem is I could still think.  Which wasn’t good. There was some sort of jungle juice on the table but I just went straight for a bottle of beer sitting on the counter, because I was shaking too much to pour anything. 

Beer has to be the nastiest form of alcohol out there. It looks like pee, tastes like pee, it’s like they didn’t bother trying to mask the taste of yeast in it. 

My body was vibrating in a good way as I started talking to people. By the time I’d made small talk with the third person around me. I’d finished the beer and I went back to the kitchen to fill a cup with some form of alcohol and soda I wasn’t picky. Harry must’ve had the same idea. 

“Hey,” He said. 

“Hey, where’s your groupie,” I said referring to the blonde that’d I seen around him earlier. 

“You mean Gwen?” He said, bringing a solo cup to his lips. 

“Probably,” I moved over grabbing the orange soda next to me. 

“Why’re you wondering, jealous?” He asked being his signature flirtatious self. There was this one time that we… you know. But we were both drunk so it doesn’t count. 

“You wish I was jealous,” I rolled my eyes “We both know you're the one obsessed with me,” I laughed. 

“Yep, dream about you every night,” He joked back. 

I took a sip from my drink squinting as it slightly burned my throat. 

“I’m sure you do,” I headed out of the kitchen. 

I could feel my brain slowing down as I started to calm. That was until Facts by Kanye came on. Then suddenly it felt like my blood was boiling in my veins and I couldn’t breathe and not in the good way. I made my way to the nearest bathroom and hoped no one was making out in there. 

I opened the door and the coast was clear. 

I splashed water on my face. When I looked in the mirror my pupils were dilated and my face was flush. Normally my skin tone masked the effects of blushing but not this time.

 I wasn’t drunk. Maybe I was but I wasn’t enough. I was still laying on the bathroom floor because it was cold and felt good in contrast against my hot skin. I was going through my phone and landed on Peter’s number. I texted him because I was bored and I can text whoever I want. 

you: helo 

About thirty seconds later he responded, guess he was already on his phone. 

P 😜🤚: Hey 

you: do yuo like pengwings

pengns 

fck 

penguns 

penguins 

He read the messages and responded rather quickly 

P 😜🤚: ? 

You okay? 

you: yesh im fine d you like penfuins 

P 😜🤚: Are you drunk 

you: no im nt drunk i m jst hPpy 

P 😜🤚: yeah sure, where are you. 

Before I could think, I clicked the option to send location. Even if I did think it wouldn’t have done much help. None of my thoughts were coherent. I was actually happy, like really really happy. 

I was still laying on the ground when I felt the floor vibrate with the knock at the door. 

“Who is it?” I asked. 

“Peter,” The voice called out

“Come in!” I said in a sing-songy voice. 

He opened the door slowly and looked around before looking down at me. 

“Hiii,” 

“Hey, what are you doing on the floor,” 

I shrugged after slowly pushing off the floor so I wouldn’t lose balance.

“How’d you get here?” Since I know he couldn’t drive. 

“I got an Uber,” 

“That’s adorable,” 

“What’s adorable,” 

“You, you spent money on a ride just to come see me,” I pointed out, voice cracking halfway through the sentence as tears started to well in my eyes. 

 “Wait don’t cry, I’m sorry, did I do something? If I did sorry for whatever it was-” 

“No you didn’t do anything, it’s just me,” I moved a hand off the counter I was holding onto for balance before wiping my face. I don’t cry, at least not willingly and definitely not in front of anyone else.

“Well I was going to…” He fiddled with his hands before continuing “I was going to ask if you needed a ride because I didn’t know if you drove here or not and you’re clearly drunk-“

“I’m not drunk!” I said. “I don’t drink how could I be drunk,” 

“Okay, but like I was saying do you need a ride?” 

I was going to say I didn’t want to leave yet but it’s not like I was doing anything but being pathetic and hanging out in the bathroom. 

“Fine, yeah” 

Peter opened his mouth like he was about to say something but a knock on the door interrupted. I immediately opened the door and grabbed Peter’s wrist running, for no reason except I felt like it. I bumped into a couple doorways 

By the time we’d made it out by the pool Peter was hunched over trying to catch his breath. 

I started running toward the water and I could hear a faint 

“Y/N don't!” As I was running but it was too late seeing as I was already in the water. I laughed as I broke the surface as I floated on my back. 

Peter came over to the edge of the water and squatted down. 

“Y/N” 

“And nothing hurts anymore I feel kinda free!” I sang splashing around in the pool. 

“Y/N” 

“We're still the kids we used to be,” 

“Y/N!” Peter yelled, snapping my attention back to him. 

“Hmm?” I asked. 

“You need to get out the pool,” 

“I don’t wanna,” I whined. 

“Yeah I know but don’t you wanna go home?” He asked. 

The last place I’d ever want to go is “home” 

“No, get in the pool,” 

“Y/N,” He said sternly. 

“Pleaseee,” 

“Get out the pool it’s cold you’re gonna get sick,”

“Fine…” I made my way begrudgingly to the steps of the pool. 

Peter gave me the hoodie he was wearing so I was able to take my skirt and socks off. I put the knife I had in the hoodie pocket. 

The last thing I remember is getting in some car. 

Oh shit 

I woke up in a room that I did not recognize. I swear to God if I got kidnapped again. I sat up quickly and hit my head on something. It was dark but there was a nightlight. Thank God if we’re being honest I’m scared of the dark. Long story I don’t wanna get into it.

I was definitely hungover, headache prominent. It only worsened when I stepped out the room and the light from the TV hit my eyes. I glanced over to Peter laying on the couch. 

Oh yeah I forgot about that. 

“Hey…” I whispered. He shifted a bit “You awake?” 

He sat up and looked at me rubbing his eyes before bombarding me with questions. 

“Did you- Are you okay? Does your head hurt? Do you need painkillers? Sorry that I brought you here and didn’t ask. That's really creepy but you were asleep and I didn’t want to wake you because you seemed tired. Again sorry it’s just I didn’t really even know where you lived and I was-“

“Oh my God, shut up!” I interrupted. 

He looked stunned, blinking a few times. 

“Sorry,” I held my hand to my forehead in exasperation. “Sorry, it’s just you- you were making my head hurt.” 

“Oh I’m sorry,”

“No, I promise it’s not you, if it’s okay with you can I go back to sleep? I don’t really feel like going home right now,” 

“Yes of course you can!” He sat up and pushed the blanket off of him before standing. “Wait I’ll be right back,” He said. I nodded before hesitantly sitting down on the couch. 

He came back rather quickly with a glass of water and some painkillers. I mumbled a quick thank you before taking them. 

I yawned, surprised that I was able to actually feel tired. Normally it took at least a few hours before I could sleep if I even got the chance. 

“You can take the bed,” Peter informed. 

“I just wanna stay right here,” I said lazily. 

He tried to scoot over but I already had my arms wrapped around him so I squeezed him tighter. I looked up and his face was tinted red, smiling before I drifted off. 

I felt light hit my face and I heard the squeak of a door. I sat up and slowly unwrapped my arms from around Peter. Walking over towards May. 

“I’m sorry I didn’t know if it was okay for me to stay here I should’ve called and asked,”

“No, no it’s perfectly fine,” 

“Okay…”

“He talks about you all the time you know,”

I smiled at her and she smiled back.

“Thanks for not killing me for being in your house,” I joked. “But I should probably get home anyway,” 

I didn’t go home. Mostly because I don’t have an actual home. I didn’t go to any of the almost 13 places I’ve stayed at, at some point either. I went to some shitty hotel. I had enough money to stay for about a week. Which was great I could stay for all of homecoming week then I’d have to find somewhere else to stay before I got more money at least. 

The last step for this day was go to Olivia’s house and get my stuff back. I made my way into the house through the back door, and sure enough she was sitting on the couch like parents in movies when they catch you sneaking out.

She eyed the bag in my hand.

“So you’re leaving?”

“I-“ I didn’t get the chance to speak.

“And you weren’t going to tell me, oh okay,” 

“Olivia…” 

“Where are you gonna stay?”

“I’m going back to my grandma's house,” 

“Yeah?” 

“Yeah, again I’m sorry that I tried to leave without telling you I just-“

“Didn’t want to be interrogated?” 

“Yeah…”

”It’s okay, I get it, come give me a hug,”

I moved giving her a hug and she mumbled 

“You smell like booze,” 

As soon as I got back to the hotel I turned on the movie Frozen. Which I knew was a bad idea because the movie always made me cry. 

I ended up crying myself to sleep and by the time I woke up I was late for school. I slept for 18 hours straight.  

If I was going to be late might as well have had a reason. So, I got smoothies. 

“I love smoothies a lot, but banana is so so strong. Which like makes it pointless to put anything else in it. People should stop saying strawberry and banana smoothie because in reality it’s a BANANA and strawberry smoothie,” I took another sip of my smoothie.

“Damn bitch, you’re saying a lot and fast what’d they put in that smoothie,” Bri said examining the cup before turning to me again “And can I have some?” I laughed before lighty shoving her shoulder. 

“Noo! Continue talking you were my reference for my excitement portrait,” MJ said flipping her sketchbook towards me “I’ve missed my one and only chance to see you happy,” 

“Now I know you’re not talking, I don’t think anyone has seen you smile ever,”

I slid down the bench of the lunch table 

“Whatcha watching Phineas?” I asked Peter. He quickly swiped out the app. “Was it porn?”

“No! Wha- What?” 

I patted his shoulder “Relax dude, I was just messing with you,” 

That was the last I’d spoken to any of my friends. In all actuality that was the last time I’d spoken to anyone besides the hotel staff. I hadn’t been to school since...what’s today? Wednesday. Well then I hadn’t been to school since 3 days ago. Which also means I haven’t eaten since a week ago? 

Okay I know how bad that sounds but it’s not like I’ve been eating nothing. I just haven’t been hungry lately, I have had snacks though like goldfish and chips. I’ve just been too lazy to cook and don’t have the funds to cook. I’ve also been too lazy to fake a smile or whatever so I just haven’t been going to school. 

However what I have been and haven’t been eating is the issue of concern here. It’s that alien shit from the Avengers a few years ago is so much deeper than anyone could have ever thought. I’d been in research mode for a while now. I call it the zone, anything you say to me will go unheard, I mean business when I’m in the zone. If I want something to happen it will. 

“Okay so, I’ll start with the government flash drive. So the aliens that attacked a while back in 2012 were called Chitauri. So Loki had control of them and was using them as an army. Loki being Thor’s brother and the God of mischief,” I clarified. 

''And Loki was attacking because he wanted to be king but his brother was king instead. I mean I think, I don’t really get that part. So there was this thing called the tesseract and it’s supposedly like super powerful. This branch of government called Shield doesn’t want Loki to have this so they keep, then the invasion ensues. This tesseract however is some space stone and Loki used it to bring in the aliens. It’s some sort of infinity stone whatever that means. Howard Stark found the stone in the ocean, because a Stark is always gonna be the one to fuck the world up when they think they’re helping. Then he and someone else founded Project Pegasus-” 

“What’s project Pegasus?”

“I don’t really know but I know it stands for potential energy group alternate sources,”

“Oh, so it’s Shield that’s over this… Tesseract?”

“Exactly!” I clapped and the papers with all the information I printed from the flash drive rustled underneath me. 

“What are you going on about?” Carmen asked. “Like what’s the bigger picture?” 

“That’s the thing! I don’t know, this is like so covered up and coded that I can’t figure it out with information that I have,” I turned towards her “But I will, and that’s where your help comes in,”

“Y/N, when’s the last time you slept?” She tilted her head like those dogs in Minecraft when you have food. 

“Last night,” I waved her off. 

I looked down at the information I was able to find out about Kingpin since he was mentioned in the video my mom made for me. Apparently she worked for him for a while. So did Felicia but all she’d ever tell me was “He was an ass he did give me a gift I’m grateful for though,”. He had affiliations with everyone. 

From what Black Widow released out unto the world he had connections with a Neo Nazi group called HYDRA which brainwashed people from what’ve heard. 

Before I’d just wanted to take down the Vulture out of pettiness if we’re being honest, but now. Oh now? I knew I’d have to. 

Another paper I’d printed from Kingpin’s affiliations caught my eye. 

“Hey Carmen,”

“Hm?”

“Ever been to Vegas?” 

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How do you handle stress when regressed?

Question answered by: 🦊

I usually cry or whimper, if I get really stressed, I put on my onesie and get my pack, sometimes I even put on my pull-up or got out my baby snacks like apple sauce and out on some shows or movies I like when I'm small. I surround myself in my stuffies and sometimes even get out my coloring stuff. When I'm out in public, I usually have my stuffie and my headphones/earbuds so I play my little space music or my favorite younger kid books.

I also use self-soothing copes like wearing my favorite hoodie or biting on a teether or chewlery or play with fidgets like popits or play doh.

I'll even call my friends or boyfriend if I get too upset and want them.

I'm usually good at self-regulating my emotions but sometimes it's hard and in those cases I do all those things ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[pumpkinheadspacestation]

1/25

How do you handle stress when regressed?

Question answered by: 🦊

I usually cry or whimper, if I get really stressed, I put on my onesie and get my pack, sometimes I even put on my pull-up or got out my baby snacks like apple sauce and out on some shows or movies I like when I'm small. I surround myself in my stuffies and sometimes even get out my coloring stuff. When I'm out in public, I usually have my stuffie and my headphones/earbuds so I play my little space music or my favorite younger kid books.

I also use self-soothing copes like wearing my favorite hoodie or biting on a teether or chewlery or play with fidgets like popits or play doh.

I'll even call my friends or boyfriend if I get too upset and want them.

I'm usually good at self-regulating my emotions but sometimes it's hard and in those cases I do all those things ¯\_(ツ)_/¯