#randompostisrandom

[silverhakai]

Even as a child, I have always been fascinated with, and been wanting to operate, heavy machinery. #ViewFromAbove #Construction #HeavyMachinery #Constructicons #RandomPostIsRandom #BakantengLote https://www.instagram.com/p/Bt2ekiAhziV/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1pwok0flnbqa

[lifeweightsandpavement]

So today I had a Dr’s appointment. I’m still on leave, seeing him again in 3 weeks. I still feel I get tired so fast. Just the drive there, the appointment + an unplanned trip to the hospital so that Boy gets an ECG, and the drive back = totally burned out. The boys are playing on the xBox: a good month means we rent a game that weekend. We went and got it yesterday morning, so we only have to bring it back before 5 (and it’s Spring break here this week). I’m having coffee (went and bought me some as I’ve out since Saturday). Took more Advils, the massive headache woke me at 4 this morning… I haven’t weighed myself since early January. But I’m kinda sure I gained some weight. My head is at war with itself about it. I wouldn’t mind it as much if not for the belly. That’s where it feels I gained most… Well, I’m making moves in the right direction. Grocery shopping cost a bundle yesterday as I bought fruits and veggies. I know frozen veggies are cheaper, but I like the crunch of raw broccoli or cauliflower… anyway, working on making healthier choices for snacks and meals. #randompostisrandom #43and205 #5everchubby #oldy

[healthyallthewaynow]

I am constantly trying to “decide” who I am, trying to choose between the girl that loves waking up at 5:30am to go for a 9 mile run, or the girl who never wants to leave bed because she has a good book and a cup of tea, or the girl who loves to eat a little bit too much junk food with her friends, or even the old me who used food as a weapon to show the world that she had more control than they did, it’s exhausting trying to pick and choose the parts of my life and trying to stick with just one personality and I’m learning that real life isn’t like high school and maybe it’s alright that I am a mixture of everything, maybe it’s alright that I don’t fit in this perfect box and I probably never will, because I am slowly learning to love every part of myself.

[im5]

Hmmm... I should really update my theme now.. Maybe even add a playlist. Do you guys like playlists? (I know some people don't like them, I might set it so that it won't autoplay though..)

[huskyway]

Did he make it? 🌩️⚡ #BTTF #RandomPostIsRandom https://www.instagram.com/p/BrvtgkigzOm/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1uejemsf30tg7

[turningoftheshadow]

This isn’t Heaven’s first war.  He was there for the first.  And the second.  And now there is another.  And he is…tired. Angels have existed time immaterial, have literally seen everything.  And yet it still surprises Castiel sometimes…how much free will has changed them all.

***

As Dean sits quietly at the dinner table staring into his whiskey glass, he can almost see Sam, his Sam, in the glass. Lisa and Ben have learned to just let him be when he gets like this.  It’s easier that way. Neither of them will ever understand anyway.  What he’s been through.  What he’s lost. He never tells them, but he’d rather be with Sam, in hell, than here at this table.  And so he takes another sip of his drink, hoping the burn keeps his tongue silent and wishing he could drown in his glass.

***

The new sheriff in town.  That was what Dean had called it. Maybe it feels that way at first.  Things are chaotic; trying to create order out of the shambles Zachariah left is proving more than difficult.  Michael is gone.  God knows where Raphael is.  And no one knows where God is.  Joshua speaks in riddles and references Castiel doesn’t understand.  And he talks to the plants, which makes no sense. Balthazar is missing, presumed dead. Uriel is dead. And Anna. Castiel is alone. The only sheriff in town.

***

Sam and Samuel are just coming off of a hunt in Bristol, RI, having killed an Arachne and her prey. Sam is bleeding, but easily gets into the vehicle anyways. Samuel asks him not to bleed out on the way out of town. Sam thinks he can manage it.  Hunting and its assorted issues have seemed easier since he came back. He has more focus, efficiency and speed. And he doesn’t sleep.  Although, he’s not sure why, sometimes he notices Samuel staring at him out of the corner of his eye.

***

Castiel is trying, but he was never meant for this. Administrative decisions. Unilateral decisions. Apparently things have started to go missing.  Apparently angels steal things now. From heaven. Castiel knows how to be a soldier and he is good at following orders. He’s far more comfortable killing his brethren than he wants to be.  Even with the Winchesters, things were at least a group effort.  Now the decisions are solely upon his shoulders.  And they are heavy.

And he is tired.

***

Dean wakes ups. Again. He knows where he was.  It was hot. Or cold.  The temperature was never really important.  It’s the numbness that comes from the temperature either way.  That’s what hurts.  He looks at the clock. 3:19AM. At least he didn’t wake Lisa this time.  Or maybe she’s just gotten used to it.  He wipes the sweat off his face and lies back on the pillow.  Starts counting motel rooms he’s been to. Tries to calm himself down. Until he remembers that’s what he used to do. When Sam was still here.  And they would take turns counting off the rooms together. He turns over and watches the clock, waits as the minutes pass slowly.  The hole in his chest doesn’t heal, but if he’s quiet enough, he almost doesn’t feel it. Almost. Until he breathes again.

[silverhakai]

Took a break from work to look for food earlier tapos hetong pusa nakita ko sa mall. #PakyuKaMgaDalawangBeses #PixellatedSelfCensorship #RandomPostIsRandom https://www.instagram.com/p/CcZnSb_vlnt/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[thegreyscalerainbow]

Funny Poetry from an unknown source.

Yeah, so my brother and I used to recite this to each other as kids. He just walked into my room saying it for the first time in years. Don't remember the source, but I thought I'd share~! One bright day in the middle of the night, Two dead boys got up to fight, Back to back they faced each other, Drew their swords and shot each other A deaf policeman heard the noise, And almost killed the two dead boys.

[submarinesunderneath]

I ran out of chocolate syrup today so I thought I'd go all the way to Wal-Mart just to get some more. I like chocolate milk too much to not have chocolate syrup in my house.

[diyaffe]

Physical Therapy.

I've never been affected with my grades before, but now.. It seems like it has certainly affected me way more than I thought of. Since I started receiving failing grades, I also started thinking that I'll never conquer this field. I'll fail no matter how hard I try. I'll never be good enough for this career. And I will disappoint my parents. As far as I can remember, I never had a grade lower than 70%, but now it has become a part of my record, even lower than that. It's frustrating knowing that you study hard but still, it's not enough for you to pass a single quiz or exam. :( Our school year is ending in a week or two and I still have to catch up a few more points to pass this semester. I don't know what to do to come up with better grades! I can't even. I think I'm failing. No. I AM SERIOUSLY FAILING. 

Why does Physical Therapy has to be like this, anyway? Hay.

I don't wanna be judged as to my scholastic performance. I want to be judged by what I do and what I CAN do. Grades do not tell how great and intelligent you are. They're just numbers used to stereotype people. Intelligence is the ability to take in and use knowledge. Application is what's needed in clinics - not theoretically-based information.

[lasombrayelalma-blog]

Making Nutella Swirled Banana Bread (compliments of Karly @ bunsinmyoven.com) and perhaps playing the Sims and crocheting on the porch (!!!I HAVE A PORCH!!!!) the rest of the day. Then babysitting from 9am-12pm tomorrow for two wonderful little boys (ages 3 and 1) and possibly some more work for FYE mixed into there. One week from today the new freshmen arrive and Bulldog Welcome Week officially begins!! I can't believe it's almost here!!! :)

Also my wonderful, amazing, lovely, beautiful friend Kate will be coming to stay with me and Aaron in our apartment for that weekend. She makes Welcome Week that much more amazing! <3 s

[silverhakai]

Because egg pie, that's why. #RandomPostIsRandom https://www.instagram.com/p/CTUNfBgBo_x/?utm_medium=tumblr

[couldhavecoped]

perfectalexkingston -> couldhavecoped

[universalugly]

Brief Pause

Update: 

I moved into my new apartment a few days ago and started school around the same time. I have no structure yet, no routine yet, but most relevant to Tumblr I have no internet yet. Bear with my absence a few days, there's a lot in archive for you to be entertained if you want to procrastinate for a while. I'll be back in the groove of things as soon as I can. 

Enjoy life, be happy with it.

- Ana

[silverhakai]

Here, have some cake memes on a Friday. #FridayAfterWork #MEMEs #RandomPostIsRandom #NapulotKoLang #FromTheIntarwebz #WalaLang #BecauseCake https://www.instagram.com/p/COAbnVdBG1g/?igshid=1pd8no4tfjk0q