#refuse to come to terms with that so

[sensitivedead]

FINE ILL SAY IT SOMETIMES I WANNA OPEN UP AND BE OPEN TO PEOPLE but god thats sooo lame and uncool *puffs cigarette* so sike losers not me maybe you

[aashiqeddiediaz]

you know what boils my blood.

over the last 2 weeks, i've seen countless patients walk into my urgent care center, symptomatic for so many things, refusing to get tested for covid and flu, citing that they don't want to knowingly bring it to their holiday tables. i had a patient tell me, verbatim, "i don't want to test for covid, because i don't want to be the asshole who brings it on a plane."

i understand that - i understand that holidays are times where people look forward to meeting loved ones that they might only see once a year, or where they get a break from the hectic back and forth of their lives.

but here's the thing - whether they get tested or not, they will bring whatever they have to their holiday tables. it's pure recklessness to know that you're sick, and walk into someone else's house spreading the disease.

today, january 2, i saw 91 patients, many of them who have tested positive for covid and flu. many of these patients are the same ones who didn't want testing 3 days ago, until their events were over, and now, they will have to reach out to everyone they know to let them know that they were positive because they were showing symptoms well before their event.

the next week or two? we're going to see many, many more, all people with symptoms that started around christmas. these are the only two viruses we test for rapidly in our office, but they are potent and can be fatal in many people.

so here's why i wrote this post, and maybe it's a little late, but - if you care about your loved ones, please get tested if you know you're sick. it doesn't have to be at a clinic if you don't want it to, because the over-the-counter tests work just fine too (if you test within 5-7 days of symptom onset). just...please don't try to run from the knowledge that you might have covid, because immunocompromised people, elderly people, people with co-morbidities like asthma, pregnancy, diabetes, etc...many of them may not recover. and they may not be sitting at your holiday table in the future because of it.

[benevolenterrancy]

Li Yu is on!! a mission!! which is really hard to do when only one of your three currently viable forms have legs and it's not like. the ideal form.

[divorceblogger]

it’s the fantasy of submission!

[justaz]

semi-dark king merlin au, someone from ealdor tells king cenred about merlin and he is captured and held as a slave in essetir. since merlin despises captivity and servitude, he’d rather be dead and free than alive and in chains so he acts out and pisses people (especially the king) off so they’ll think him too much trouble and kill him. at first they stick to beatings until merlin manages to get his chains around a few necks and now has a body count so they kill him…..only he wakes back up a few hours later and king cenred is Intrigued and keeps him close. merlin keeps acting out but no matter how many times they kill him, he won’t stay dead. merlin has this moment after waking up perfectly fine after his twenty seventh death where he is hopeless and believes there to be no escape, not even thru death. a few other sorcerers in chains come and help him clean up and give him a lil peptalk, realizing him to be emrys, and then they revolt and take over the kingdom and crown merlin as king and now uther is like “wtf” bc his neighboring kingdom who was kinda sorta on his wavelength about sorcery, though uther did not approve of keeping them alive, is now a kingdom ruled by magic. he goes to war with them but with magic running free and fucking emrys on the throne, they don’t make a lot of headway. anyways merthur meet on the battlefield, enemies to lovers, you get it

[altarfates]

I’m gonna yap in the tags rq

[symbologic]

Will Zoro leave Luffy after they achieve their dreams? Not likely

Saying Zoro's gonna voluntarily leave Luffy at the end of OP so he can "live his own life" (i.e. get married, open a dojo, hang out in bars) is so wild to me. That's like saying Luffy's gonna give up adventuring so he can sit around and gorge himself on meat

First of all, it ignores that Zoro genuinely enjoys traveling with Luffy. Luffy (who's always getting into trouble) gives Zoro the chance to be his best self. And Zoro (who very much wants to be his best self) will always seize that chance with both hands

Second, both characters are like...the poster children of wanting to have their cake and eat it too. If you're Luffy or Zoro, you rarely need to make either/or choices. That's what makes them unique. It's why they've both got conqueror's haki! Basically: If Zoro wants to drink until he blacks out? If he wants to nap all day? Hell, if he wants to get lost in a paper bag?? He is like a big cat. He will do what he wants, wherever he is. He doesn't need to leave Luffy to get those things LOL

Third, Luffy's made it clear the Pirate King needs no less than the Greatest Swordsman by his side. Why would that suddenly stop once they've both achieved their dreams? Is Luffy going to quit being Pirate King? Why would he? Luffy wants to be the most free in the world, so he can live the life he wants...with the people he wants to live it with

In other words, Luffy isn't letting Zoro go without a fight — not unless Luffy genuinely feels he's no longer the type of man Zoro would want to travel with. And wouldn't that be the worst ending for both of them?

[balkanlila]

can't stop thinking about lila and nino's time in the shoe shop for no particular reason (lie), but she brought books to that shop... the whole affair started by the sea... the books, the shoes, the sea... all symbols of lila's childhood that have been morphed into something else, something eerie and adult, and she attached their original shape and meaning to nino, just like she has always done with elena, because he was supposed to be her way back to these things, if only indirectly, if only the small way she could possess them again existed in watching him have them. and i've mentioned this to mal the other day, but the heart of this relationship is based on a cruel contradiction: on one hand it is an attempt to reestablish childhood innocence (the books, the shoes, the sea in their original fairytale, dream-like form), but on the other hand it's overwhelmingly defined by adult themes like adultery and sex (melina and donato's relationship) it's a warped perspective on both childhood and adulthood ultimately. it's got the spirit of each right, but the motifs are all wrong, like they've crossed to the wrong side of the timeline. so, in many ways, nino, to lila, exists as both the essence of elena and rino, the gods of her childhood, and as the essence of marcello and stefano, figures tied to her brutal push into adulthood. and lila is already an extreme example of adult motifs crossing into childhood's territory so when nino appears, her understanding of sex and adultery hasn't been sugarcoated, but is rather present in, not the only possible form sex and adultery can exist in, but certainly in one of their truest forms, vulgar and dangerous in their banality. (thanks to stefano and melina and donato respectively) thanks to that, lila's relationship with nino can't be a new beginning because it's only a response to preexisting experiences and everything good about it is only good because it's better than something that happened before, but ultimately it stays within the circle it appears to be rebelling against.

[camgoloud]

he still has his tonsils. by the way if you even care

[nobodymitskigabriel]

The idea that girl Dean would perform femininity over masculinity is ridiculous to me not only because canon Dean's entire concept of gender is based on John but also because people seem to believe that the gender nonconformity involved--a woman acting masculine--is necessarily a form of like. freeing gender exploration? That it's like..inherently progressive or suggests some sense of internal security? Yeah I know that today we generally associate gender nonconformity with those things but gendered expectations can always be restricting and oppressive even if they appear "nonconforming" from an ultra strict cisheteronormative perspective. There are PLENTY of women who can and do perform masculinity which has absolutely nothing to do with freedom and everything to do with locking themselves into a set of roles they feel is appropriate in order to prove themselves.

[3416]

i’ve always said the only world in which auston isn’t a leaf for life is if mitch also isn’t. people really should be thinking seriously about austons future if mitch doesn’t resign

i will be curious to see what happens with him if mitch doesn't stay tbh. i don't think he's solely here bc of mitch or doesn't value his legacy as a leaf or anything like that, but i do think they want legacies Together. and i do think for as much as this sport is a business, there has to be a level of belief and love in that room to even achieve the cup, and mitch is a big part of the room and that's not an easily replicated thing. mitch and auston's entire careers have been spent next to each other... they clearly like to celebrate each other and excel for each other and play together. i personally don't think the team has a shot at winning without mitch (as in.. if the leafs w their shit prospects and draft capital get nothing but cap space in This Current Market, they will not be improving esp under treliving lol) , and if that becomes clear over time or there's no progress i can easily see am34 leaving, lol.

[ibikus]

it's really hard to find the strength to do anything but drown my worries in mindless gaming/video watching these days, i am not made for this world, i was made to care too much and it's ruining my life :')

[burningcheese-merchant]

Dear merchant, as an Airfryer shipper, please forgive my fellow shipper if they ever attack you for shipping Pitayafire.

Also, *cough cough* "it's dark in my imagination" next chapter?

I have no idea what Airfryer is, but thank you for your kindness anyway 🫡 no one has given me trouble for shipping PitayaFire (yet), thankfully. (Sometimes I wonder why? Never got too much trouble for shipping BurningCheese and Beast x Ancient, either. Maybe it's because I'm pretty unknown? 700-ish followers isn't much in the grand scheme of things. I suppose being such a small fry is a blessing in disguise.) I don't intend to pay them any mind if they ever do. Best not to bother with people like that. "Do what you want and be happy" is the way to go about things, I think. And I've got thick skin and more important things to worry about than internet randos bashing me for wanting the fire man to kiss+fuck the dragon lol

(as for It's Dark In My Imagination... Soon 👀 I'm sorry that's so late, I never meant for it to be. I've had a lot to deal with irl the past couple of months (major crisis of confidence + legitimate emergencies, like the scare with my dog) and it took me away from writing. But I'm trying to get back on the saddle! I'm about 4k words into the final draft, chapter 3 should be posted in the next day or two hopefully! I didn't abandon the fic, I promise! Chapter 3 exists and you'll see it soon!)

[eddiediazenjoyer]

buddie is awesome for many reasons but what a lot of it boils down to is that i’m OBSESSED with the dynamic of one guy knowing that he’s gay but absolutely refusing to think that he’s in love with his best friend and the other guy knowing that he’s in love with his best friend but refusing to acknowledge that he’s gay . so so so good

[mostrottenestboy]

i used to strictly headcanon Koujaku as bi (or at the very least somewhat attracted to femininity) but at this point I think if he had to have sex with a woman again he would cry

[maybe-boys-do-love]

First Note of Love has just developed the most precarious delicate tone throughout its run. Once the Sea and Neil musical partnership was established, it's just been like watching sunlight on a clear morning glistening on the water, a kind of ephemeral beauty. The show's shimmering pop gems and the color grading are weightless and crystalline. And this week, Sea and Neil touch each other so softly in their sex scene, as if they're made of butterfly wings. Over and over again in its direction, First Note, has depicted how precious life is in its impermanence, and I watched through tears as Neil was finally able to accept that.