#relapseandrepeat

[pipedreamsandpunchlines]

Self-saboteur

I spend so much time in my mind.

Things are okay, I am okay, I am loved.

I am growing, learning but have a purpose.

Then, here it comes.

Self-saboteur; Criticising, putting myself down.

Convincing myself that others see me the exact same way I see myself.

The snowball effect of overthinking and catastrophising the ‘what if’s’.

It’s a never ending cycle.

Rinse and repeat - why?

But no matter what.

Since from when I can remember.

My flame has never completely dimmed, my family taught me resilience, to be humble.

Thank you.

Because, in the darkest of times, when the negatively around me is inescapable.

It’s overwhelming, I’m scared.. but.

That flame still burns.

It’s ironic that when things are going well, my mind is consumed by what will bring it all crashing down,

and when things do get a little tough, my mind.. eventually.

But always reminds me, that

“you’re okay”

-UR