#shree writes shit

[shrxe]

that any glimpse of light feels like a threat

shree 💿

they / enfp-t / aspec / pan / desi (abcd) / cabin 7 / slytherin / minor / star.

[nerdreader]

Song ask:

Saiyaan by Kailash Kher

I dont want anything, no rubies, no gold. I only want us; Together; Growing old.

Ever since I have heard your voice, It keeps echoing, Like my favourite song, like that one melody that won't leave me alone.

I keep chanting your name; like a sacred prayer. I want to be the beads on your necklace So i could rest on your chest, near your heart.

I want to be the air that you breathe, Spread in your body, Be enveloped by you Reach your heart and Be huffed out; all warm.

Your presence is oh so intoxicating. It makes me smile, giggle and hop. My name on your lips is a drug That I am addicted to.

I can lose everything My words; My voice; My mind; My existence; But not you. You are the only prize that I want to win.

Just one gentle touch And i will leave this world In hopes of merging my soul woth yours

My love Please make me yours Kiss my lips Shut me up. Because I can never end a poem about you Without ending myself too.

[nerdreader]

oh honey, what could i possibly write for a great poet like you? i don't know enough words to describe your beautiful mind. You know how i sprained my neck to keep staring at the moon; You know that being in awe of you just shuts my brain. thinking of you just my makes blood warm. I am blanketed by your thoughts. It is unfair, my love, to ask me to write you something clever, when all i can do is stare, like a child looking at twinkling lights. So unfair. The way poetry flows from your pen, it makes me want to replace your ink with my blood; just to show you how desperately i want to show you yourself how I see you, just so i can be a part of the pages that are filled with pieces of your soul

:) <3

You know what I want? I want to be the focus of someone's awe, someone's poetry

[i-am-perryshmirtzed]

What We Know About Murphy’s Law

I’m not going to even bother with an opening or ending, i’m going to fix this up later. I just need it all out of my drafts before the special.

Let’s get right to this!

Murphy’s Law is conscious

Let’s imagine Murphy’s Law as a sort of deity, shall we? It’s easiest to imagine when it it personified.

Murphy’s Law is a proud force. When its existence is disputed by Zack’s father in “Time Out” it turns its attention away from its primary targets, Milo and Martin. As Mr. Underwood disputes the Law’s existence time and time again, it just drags him through hell until he admits it. First his hat is tossed in the water by Milo, and torn to shreds by birds, and it is dismissed as “inexperienced casting”. Murphy’s Law then decides to kick it up a notch with the swordfish. Finally, it does  the whole pelican-eating-the-fish-bumping-into-the-side-of-the-boat-and-getting-a-box-of-bait-to-the-head-and-falling-into-the-water trick. That’s what convinces Mr. Underwood that Murphy’s Law is real.

And what should happen in the very next scene? Martin tries to start the motor and it breaks off of the boat. After getting its revenge on Mr. Underwood, Murphy’s Law is happy to go back to terrorizing Milo and Martin. After Mr. Underwood’s muttered acceptance of the Law being real, it immediately goes back to its original job. Murphy’s Law’s got a bit of attitude, doesn’t it? Reminds me of of a scene in Phineas and Ferb, actually. In the episode “Just Our Luck”, you’ll remember that Candace is hit by one of Heinz’s -inators and becomes lucky, while her brothers become unlucky. She taunts the boys as they get down from their project of the day, saying “Just take your time, it's not like the earth is gonna open up and swallow it!” moments later, the ray is destroyed and reversed, and Candace’s bad luck and the boys’ good luck returns. Perhaps the Mysterious Force was kept at bay by the stinklekrampen-inator, maybe it was the reason the -inator broke, but as soon as Candace was unlucky again, the earth split open and swallowed their structure. The Mysterious Force has a similar personality to Murphy’s Law. “You dare taunt me? Here you fucking go.” Both forces have an attitude and sense of irony. They have some sort of conscious and awareness of the situation at hand.

However, this can be entirely disproven by “Rooting for the Enemy”. If Murphy’s Law knew what was going on, why did it comply, and allow Milo’s plan to physically root for the Tigers when he wanted the Geckos to win? Did it just let this one thing slide? Or is it not as conscious as we think it may be?

Murphy’s Law hates whomever it inflicts having friends. There is a great meta about this by @allieinarden, analyzing Milo and Zack’s first meeting and what Murphy’s Law had to say about it. The same principle applies here. Just as Murphy’s Law gave Zack hell the first day he and Milo met, just like that girl got her arm broken by sitting next to Milo, just like Mort fell into a dumpster after attempting friendly conversation, just like Dakota’s pistachio cart was destroyed after he simply introduced himself, Murphy’s Law does its best in this episode to convince Mr. Underwood that it is real and to drive him away from Martin, just as Zack was made to be driven away from Milo. Perhaps it didn’t even notice that it was insulted.

Murphy’s Law can make mistakes

This is a very simple point. Murphy’s Law may have the unlimited power to wreak havoc in the Murphy Family’s life, but the fact remains that nobody, not even a semi-conscious force capable of laying waste to Swamp City, is perfect. Murphy’s Law makes mistakes.

The first that comes to mind is the pistachio stand in “The Doctor Zone Files”. The only noticeable Murphy’s Law incident that occurred on this day was the pistachio stand blowing up, just preventing the group from getting snacks. This goes back to Murphy’s Law being conscious- it’s battle strategy for that day was to do nothing, simply to fray on Sarah’s nerves. It must have decided to just trouble Milo a little by not letting him get the nuts to scare Sarah even more. It did not, however, notice/care/prevent the pistachio cart falling from the sky. Surprisingly enough, Murphy’s Law was fine with that.

That takes me to “The Note”. For one, when Melissa was stuck on the conveyor belt, Milo’s first attempt to save his friend went awry when the rope he was using to swing to her snapped. While trying to reach her, he accidentally knocks over a metal pole when he falls from a rising wooden board, and it jamms the shredder, allowing Melissa to escape. Murphy’s Law is weird in this scene, keeping Milo from rescuing Melissa, and at the same time helping her to escape.

The last thing I want to talk about here is “Athledecamathalon”, and Murphy’s Law in predicting the future.

In the end of the episode, Milo is the only contender for his team left in play. He gets to the final question- President Garfield’s blood type. We see the flashback- several times, he has been close to learning the answer, but he never got to actually hear it. Not being able to hear a teacher during a lecture, a power outage, and a nearby jump roping game going awry isn’t unusual for Milo. But the fact that he was interrupted just as he was about to learn the information is rather unnerving. Can Murphy’s Law predict the future? Did it want to make sure that he didn’t get the answer right by preventing the knowledge from reaching him for at least weeks, if not months ahead of time? Of course, Murphy’s Law made a mistake by allowing Melissa to mention the information. Murphy’s Law can make mistakes, yes, the the fact that it may be able to predict the future is much more unnerving.

Murphy’s Law will never kill Milo.

This time ‘round, let’s imagine it as a sort of parasite, shall we? A genetic, sentient parasite that exists to give bad luck to whomever is unlucky enough to have it passed on to them

This parasite wants to keep infecting. It wants to keep getting more victims to torture. But it won’t ever kill Milo.

It reminds me of how the River Phelgethon was potrayed in “House of Hades” from the Heros of Olympus series. It is stated that the River is not meant to heal. It keeps the dead intact so that they may endure more torture. It keeps you alive so that you may suffer more.

If Milo were to die, what would it be to him? He would be dead. It’s those around him who would suffer. “Your death is something that happens to everybody else. Your life is not your own….” (BBC Sherlock, The Lying Detective.)

Milo has to live, not only so he can continue being harassed by Murphy’s Law, but so he can have children who are also cursed. The parasite lives on.

The worst thing to happen to the Murphy men would be having to live though their loved ones’ deaths. So-Sara, Bridgette, Melissa, Amanda, Zack...I theorise that everyone Milo or Martin love will die before them, perhaps as a result of Murphy’s Law. I’ll remind you, that Zack would have been crushed by the concrete pipe had Milo not told him to move closer, that he was the one who had peanut butter stuck to his back when being chased by wolves, that the wolf and bees later nearly jumped on him, all in “Going the Extra Milo”. Not to mention that Murphy’s Law thoroughly enjoyed freaking Sarah out during “The Doctor Zone Files”, or that Melissa was trapped on the conveyor belt heading towards the paper shredder in “The Note”. Murphy’s Law doesn’t want to kill Milo- it just wants to torture him.

On that happy note, I’m going to wrap this baby up. I typed this all up in the past hour, and it’s getting pretty late. I’m going to do minimal editing now; I can always fix it up, fine tune, later. I needed to get this meta out of my system, and I want to put it out before anything can contradict it in the special. I’m on a short hiatus, until I find a place to watch Missing Milo, so...bye!

[yeli-renrong]

Yeah, the "Si" in "Si Racha" is the same "Sri" in "Sri Lanka", etymologically, and obviously Thai prefers to write all of its Sanskrit/Pali loanwords in a way that maintains the original spelling (so it's ศรี, but pronounced สี).

The original pronunciations would then be borrowed with ʃr-, but the original pronunciations are obscured by the fact that we don’t use diacritics and nobody knows Sanskrit.

Unless there’s enough cultural memory of the Shree Rajneesh shit that went around in the ‘60s(?) that people could 1) recognize zrI as an element 2) figure out that it’s the same element as in Sri Lanka and sriracha. But this seems implausible – what probably happened is that native English speakers assumed an original sr- and adapted it to English phonotactics.

(The Correct transliteration of Sanskrit is the Klingon one. I’d say this is because i’ve somehow ended up adjacent to the part of Twitter where people use Sanskrit all the time and it’s what they use, but it’s really because I haven’t MSKLCed a keyboard layout that can type IAST diacritics yet.)

[myjackiejackie01]

“Thwarted” Chapter 59 Review

@perrydowning y u kill me

Break time so I get to read about how you destroyed my heart even more. Why you have to kill me, Perry. WHY. THIS WAS STILL AMAZING as I type this with tears in my eyes, damn you, Perry downing for making me cry. Also this might be a bit short for my usual comments.

Right. Onto angst.

Kylo and Rey, my babieeeesssss DON'T BE SAD. Oh, pre-goodbyes are always hard. But why do they have to make me CRY AT WORK DAMMIT ALL.

My babies are sad and I am sad and I don't want that for them. I don't get WHY they need to be separated because if they do leave each other for a while, how will they have all beautiful children - dominantly girls and one boy - and have a beautiful house on Naboo and a blue koala-dog that can lift houses and a happily ever after?!?!! No doubt you have a trick up your sleeve you're not telling us. *narrows eyes* Though it WOULD be interesting to see them separated for a bit, to be honest. It would give Kylo time to breathe and learn that he doesn't always need Rey there and he can learn to cope. Though this time around, I believe he's reached a level where he won't freak out again. He'll be sad and miss her lots for sure, and she him, but I think they both need a kind of "break" so Kylo can get his shit together. He's now seeing that he's been fucking up a lot for this story but is going to do his damn best to make up for it and make it right.  

And them telling each other they only want each other and Kylo will never want anyone but Rey and she will come back for him *cries for thousands of years* WHY DO THEY HAVE TO BE SO CUTE. And I do love how Rey heals Kylo's arms; she doesn't like that Kylo cuts himself BUT she accepts that he'll stop when he's ready and will support him and still love him. *DIES* I absolutely adored how she healed his arms brand new so he could have a a reminder that shows him he doesn't need to be a canvas of scars, that they don't need to define him and who he is.

AND THEN THAT LEMON THOUGH. I nearly burst full of love and all the lemon-y goodness.  Argh I fucking love how you write lemons, dammit. They're so passionate; you can feel the love Kylo has/feels for Rey whenever they make love. I still need to ask you for help on how to write lemons. You are a Lemon Queen.

Awe, Hux is so nice, giving his condolences to his one-time rival. I really loved seeing Hux's development over the story. I don't always like Hux (he's too much fun to make fun of, like in my story hehehe), but sometimes there's stories that write him properly nice. Like this one. Even though he and Kylo had a sort of rivalry before Snoke died, they now have a kind of begrudging work acquaintance relationship/friendship and they kind of/sort of respect each other. And for Hux to put that all aside and offer Kylo what he can is really amazing and shows he isn't all about the First Order and ruling the galaxy. He's human like every one else. Like how he is with Vitok/Shree or his beloved Millicent who I sense is having kittens in the future ;)

BUT WAIT?! WHAT'S THIS?!?!!?!?!

LEIA IS ALIVE!!! *throws a party* As I knew. And a little birdie told me *wink*. But come on, Leia wouldn't fall for a First Order trap. Not that it was at first, but she knew SOMEONE wouldn't be happy with her coming, and she was right. BUT SHE CAME AT THE MOST APPROPRIATE TIME because now my babies don't need to be separated. Right? Right? RIGHT??!?!!?! I MUST SEE MY LEIA AND BENNY REUINION. Clearly she's happy to see him, no doubt hearing about how he helped people on Eshara - but then went back and killed some, hehehehe *sweats* - and that her son isn't some heartless monster. I NEED LEIA AND KYLO HUGS DAMMIT. Can I have that, Perry? Can I have towering Kylo hug his tiny momma? Please? *gets on hands and knees and begs*

ARGH WHY DID YOU LEAVE US ON A CLIFFHANGER LIKE THAT, PERRY. Next chapter nooooooowwwwwww I neeeeeeeed iiiiiiiiiiiit. I'm just so happy Leia is back. And space hobo Luke, I guess. Even though he's been sucking the last few stories. I guess he gets participation points. BUT YESSSS. I can't wait to see how Rey will react to seeing momma Leia is alive and has arrived!!!

Happy writing!!

xx

[i-am-perryshmirtzed]

Busting “Phineas and Ferb Get Busted”

“Phineas and Ferb get Busted” isn’t a considered a canon episode, as the entire thing takes place inside of Perry’s dream, with only one real scene at the very end. But the events in that episode give us valuable insight into Perry’s psyche and his relationship with his family. The latter has always been difficult to see, as Perry spends most of the average episode with his nemesis. By analyzing this episode, however, we can see what Perry’s fears are, what he thinks of his family, and the things from his life that have bleed into his subconscious.

What can we infer about Perry’s psyche? First of all- the obvious. We see some of his fears. I have a headcanon that this episode took place the night after “Cheers for Fears”, and that Perry was thinking of what his fears really were (he was quite scared when the -inator was firing up, probably wondering if something would happen to his family) and that this all got reflected into his dream. Perry is scared of his boys’ spirit and imaginations being crushed, and them becoming dull and average (as we again see in “Phineas and Ferb Interrupted”) because he loves their imaginations and ingenuity (“Across the Second Dimension”). We also see that he cares very much about Candace, and about her relationship with her brothers. More on that later. And last, but certainly not least, the O.W.C.A. team breaking into the Flynn-Fletcher residence to wipe the family’s memories and relocate Perry. We see his fear of losing his family several times in the show’s run- most notably in “Oh, There You Are Perry” and “Across the Second Dimension”. What’s most interesting is that that segment of the dream is what causes him to wake up, and Phineas realizes he was having a bad dream at this point- he could probably feel Perry moving around. So, it is safe to say that we can confirm Perry’s worst fear to be losing his loved ones.

Another thing we learn is that Perry undoubtedly knows about the talking zebra calling Candace Kevin ("The Ballad of Badbeard"). How else could he have dreamed it up? My favorite headcanon from the world of the (amazing) ‘Ask Perry Fletcher’ blog is that Candace is transgender and her birth name is Kevin. This I attach to the theory of the talking zebra being Candace’s old imaginary friend, and voila, we get Perry remembering Candace’s childhood insecurities and troubles in his dream. Another headcanon of mine is that Perry’s a source of comfort to all three Flynn-Fletcher kids, and that they talk or rant to him when they're​ having a tough time. I believe Dream-Candace’s confession that she is proud to be Phineas and Ferb’s older sister is something she actually feels in real life, and this does support her concern for her brothers and how much closer she gets to them in later episodes. The Flynn-Fletcher children assume Perry doesn’t understand anything, so he’s safe to rant to. We know this isn’t true, and all these anxieties, on top of his nemesis’s horrible backstories, end up bleeding into his dreams.

Perry seems to know his family very well.The first time I watched this episode, I seriously wondered if Heinz would have an ‘amnesia-inator’ to erase what happened that day. The characters were in character, and it seemed quite real. Even Stacy’s odd behavior at the end of ‘Little Brothers’ can be explained by subconscious symbolism. Stacy is always Candace’s voice of reason. She helps her stay grounded and focused, such as in “Robot Rodeo”. The logical side of Candace’s mind wants her to enjoy the freedom of not having to deal with her brothers every day. However, after Stacy walks away, Candace is helped by Jeremy, who is her crush and therefore the representation of her more emotional side. He even says that he’s “always liked her brothers”- Candace really does love her brothers, deep down, and what Perry knows of her emotional side is acknowledged in this scene.

Perry seems to think Linda will initially be angry at Phineas and Ferb should she see their inventions. Instead, in the bad future of “Quantum Boogaloo”, and before she got zapped by the ‘forget-about-it-inator’ in “A Real Boy”, she panics in her worry for her sons. We see this side of her again in “What Do it Do” when she acts similar to Candace when faced with something unknown that may be threatening her family.

Perry also seems to be a realistic dreamer, as the only continuity errors I could find were small- such as the dancing trophy appearing in the living room when it was previously in Candace’s room and Candace driving the flying car when Jeremy is older than her and had his licence by ‘My Sweet Ride’.

Something I noticed in my most recent rewatch of the episode is that the first few scenes of ‘Little Brothers’ are still frames, as if they were photos. We know Perry was not adopted until some time after Linda and Lawrence’s marriage (“Across the Second Dimension”), so it is entirely plausible Perry is recalling photos from albums and not his memories. In the first moving sequence in the song (the scene where Phineas and Ferb have been shown to rebuild Candace’s dollhouse) the children seem to be around the same age as they were when Perry was adopted. So, this could possibly be a real memory that Perry had from his youth.

This next point somewhat supports my headcanon that the episodes are not aired in the order they occur in the show’s universe. The haircuts the boys are given upon arrival resemble those they had in the alternate dimension in “Across the Second Dimension”. They also act somewhat similar to their dystopian counterparts, but while Phineas-2 and Ferb-2 grew up under creatively oppressing laws and were taught against imagination, Dream Phineas and Ferb seemed more robotic and brainwashed. I could go on and on about this, perhaps write a whole new meta on the second dimension, but I digress. The point is, both pairs of brothers believed creativity and fun to be wrong, though in different ways. Perhaps there’s no difference to Perry.  

When the boys are being taught to not reach for tools, they are sprayed with water. You’ve probably seen this in other cartoons- an animal is sprayed with water as negative reinforcement for bad behavior. To me, at least, this seemed odd. Considering how hard the boys fight against the Smile Away Reformatory’s imagination-crushing treatment, it seems to be highly unlikely that water is the breaking point. Of course, I am not well versed in torture techniques, and being sprayed with water is safe to show on children’s television, and repeated negative reinforcement was what probably led the boys to give up. Still, it is an unusual choice. So, why the water? Perry works with a variety of other animals, and many, especially new agents, may have bad habits due to not being properly trained by their owners or the O.W.C.A. The agency probably uses spray bottles to break bad habits in agents, and though they probably don’t go to the extent of what we saw the Drill Sergeant do, and though the purpose was certainly not the same, it must have been something that Perry’s mind inserted into his dream.

Perry has a wonderful character arc throughout the series. He goes from having little more than disdain for his nemesis and affection for his family to becoming a vital part of Heinz’s life and becoming a sort of ‘guardian angel’ figure to his host family. We see many different sides of Perry as the show progresses, and this episode helps tremendously with his characterization-something difficult to see with the secret agent’s inability to speak. Analyzing this episode has shown us what Perry’s subconscious is like, what his fears are, what he thinks of his family, and what little things stick in his brain. It’s always helpful to get inside your character's heads, and ‘Phineas and Ferb Get Busted’ helped me understand Perry more. This, I hope, can help me should I write about him. Perry is so dynamic and so intriguing, so shrouded in mystery due to his silence, and, while probably a joke or unintentional, in this episode the authors have given us a peek at what goes on inside the platypus’s mind.

[shrxe]

i guess ill always be a thief stealing all these personalities there's so many to chose some will win, some will lose who will i pretend to be?

i could be happy go-lucky always a smile on my face a tiny bit dumb and a tiny bit brave

i could be smart have a heart be energetic not aesthetic but get the answer right

i could be bold and somewhat brave not do as i am told not stay afraid

...i could be me but who is me? after stealing all these personalities...

each new community is an opportunity

each new beginning i could be winning

is this one here to stay or will i just decay into what everyone else will say

which personality will i take? taglist: @ad1ya-is-cool

[shrxe]

books romanticize other universes.

thinking about it truly is not lucid.

the idea of our bodies meaning less in the giant spectrum of life makes me queasy.

though the idea of living freely without any instructions makes me uneasy.

although, in another universe so many things could be true…

if i was in another universe, what would i pursue?

in another universe I wouldn’t be aware.

in another universe i wouldn’t care.

in anther universe i wouldn’t stress.

in another universe i would be the best.

i wouldn’t get mad over the unfair.

i wouldn’t dare cry at the words in my mind.

i wouldn’t try to hide

i wouldn’t try to change.

i would never, ever ever, be afraid.

if another universe exists, and i did too.

i wouldn’t be me…

but neither would you.

[shrxe]

take me not her let her live first i'll take the curse let her live first

take me not her give me the worst she has more worth i wont avert

take me not her leave her unhurt can we reverse?

take me... not her...

[shrxe]

once i had a dream i was happy and free it wasnt real of course what a fake reality! and everyone was smiling no tears allowed because in this circus we are a very "happy" crowd! and there was not a frown not a drop of hate until the happiness died and along came fate

taglist: @riyanasuri @the-slowest-turtle @ad1ya-is-cool @hijabi-flavored-nerd

@horsearenotdeer

[shrxe]

why?

why are people so mean?

why do people kill trees?

why do friends just disappear?

why do i have so many tears?

why are the glaciers melting?

why is life so overwhelming?

why cant i just stay quiet?

why am i so good at lying?

why am i so calm with dying?

why are answers just denying?

[shrxe]

nostalgia is a weird thing i hear it when the late bell rings i see it when my name’s in the paper i smell it when i use pepper i taste it when i eat mac n cheese i feel it when my heart gets a squeeze

nostalgia is a happy thing i hear it when my phone goes “ding!” i see it when the birds can fly i smell it when i smell hair dye i taste it when i eat maggi i feel it when i feel free

nostalgia is a sad thing i hear it when the tears begin i see it when there’s eyes on me i smell it when i smell toffee i taste it when i eat lettuce i feel it when i use your methods

tag list! @ad1ya-is-cool @book-girl4eva @hijabi-flavored-nerd

[shrxe]

look around

flowers sporout

trees grow

water flows

dont look back

to fire and cold

witches realm

this that is the witches realm

keep walking!

to the bees!

not the fleas!

to the trees!

to the geese!

please dont cease-

to walk

through the

horrid happy realm

not its the happy realm

this might’ve symbolized how america paints itself as the “free” country and showcases its beauty, but in the end the horrid of genocide and guns and much more surfaces as people realizes just how fucked up the country is

[shrxe]

one day itll be okay because thats what they always say one day one day one day when is that one day? next year next month next week when can i speak? when can i say? when will i be okay?

[shrxe]

its not perfect until all the tears are gone and the only ones left are mine its not good until sadness is withdrawn and im not okay by design