#so draining...so tiring
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Like I just wanna be left the fuck alone
#girlblogging#girlhood#hell is a teenage girl#just girly things#this is a girlblog#this is what makes us girls#gaslight gatekeep girlboss#i wanna kms#im going to kms#im just a girl#female hysteria#i’m just a girl#girl blogger#tumblr girls#girl hysteria#feminine hysteria#hysteric glamour#whimsical#relatable#blogging#lana del ray aesthetic#lana del ray aka lizzy grant#lana del rey#fuck everything#i’m going to kms#i want to kms#cute#i’m drained#im so tired#sadgirl
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AD MORTEM CURRERE INFINITUM
please click for quality it helps a ton with the images lol
FINALMENTE i got it done!!!! yayaya! i wanted to add a littleeee flair so i did animate it! originally the chest was supposed to glow too but i accidentally merged those layers… hope this is okay!
extra version:
and translation: AN ENDLESS RUN TOWARD DEATH
yap session below: ignore if u don’t wanna know abt the thought process on this lol
OKAY so! my 1x design changed a little bit, this piece felt a bit more dark so i tried really heavily to go towards dark, ominous colors for 1x, and lean straight into that demonic / skeletal look, rather than the more tree-like one mine is usually meant to look like, and i also tried to make his limbs more armor - like! this is loosely based off of my actual avatar of him, which i’ll add here later. she also wasn’t actually supposed to have her other eye visible (it was going to be a socket/pit instead) but the glowing eye added more contast in so i did it
as for tela, i actually struggled with him a lot! he originally was going to have those mandela catalogue looking eyes, and i was going to animate tjose blinking or glowing (probably both), but i wanted him to blend in a little more, like an omniscient, oppressive sort of background piece, so i dialed it down. he was originally going to have WAY more wings, but again, i wanted 1x to be the star (as she should be lol) and it was already feeling cluttered, so i pushed that away too. it took FOREVER to draw his clothes cause that’s not something im great at, so i hoped that turned out okay lol, he was also originally going to have a SUPER creepy smile but it looked meh so i removed it, also! his halo (sorry it’s missing on the other version, i layered my stuff wrong so it got covered) is meant to be the fire ring in sfoth! i dunno if that’s noticable, but i hope yall like that idea :D
overall im pretty happy with this piece, but it still feels a little muddled/unclear in a lot of places, if that makes sense? it was fun to make regardless, i like drawing these guys! tytyty if u read all the way thru! hope u enjoyed!
edit: the more i look at it the more im starting to dislike it, urghhh… but it’s one of my only finished pieces so i’ll still keep it on here though
WHO REBLOGGED THIS 40 TIMES.... THANKS KING
someone reblogged 61 (i can’t count so probably not) times…. i was not aware this was something you could even do LOL, thanks guys!!!
holy 1k.
#forsaken 1x1x1x1#1x4 roblox#1x1x1x1 fanart#1x4#1x1x1x1#roblox forsaken#forsaken roblox#forsaken fanart#forsaken#betrayed 1x4#betrayed 1x1x1x1#telamon forsaken#forsaken telamon#telamon#forsaken shedletsky#shedletsky forsaken#shedletsky#shedletsky fanart#1x1x1x1 forsaken#forsaken 1x4#this was definitely tiring to work on lol#but so worth it!#i like stuff like this a lot#even if its draining#more art coming soon!!!#homicidalporkchops#homicidal porkchops
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You know how speaking in a language that isn't your native one is really mentally draining ? Nikolai who has just been flying around all day, switching between several of the 8 languages he speaks, until he ends his day laying in bed, trying to listen to John talk about his op, but his brain just refuses to acknowledge anything. He mumbles an apology that might just be half in russian at this point, fingers rubbing at his temples as he's trying to fight off a migraine.
It's rare to see Nik struggle to keep up with a conversation. The man is smart, too smart, really. This worries John, who decides to order them greasy food and throw a Russian movie he knows Nik enjoys on his laptop for them to watch in bed. He can struggle to keep up with the subtitles tonight while he's busy letting his hand massage the back of Nik's head, fingers gently stroking his jet black hair while he feels his man relax in his arms.
#nikprice#cod#cod nikolai#john price#Just a quick thought I had earlier this week#international couple nikprice come on#I know Nik is smart and speaks a million language but even he must get tired sometimes#seriously switching between language or speaking one that isn't your native one is so mentally draining#someone give Nik some ibruprofen#wanted to post this yesterday but I forgor 💀
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I am totally normal about them
#tadc#tadc spoilers#tadc episode 3#tadc pomni#tadc fanart#tadc kinger#kinger#kinger fanart#pomni#pomni fanart#vaz sketches ✨✨#royalcourt#tadc royalcourt#Imagine if before returning with the others they took a lil nap because kinger saw how she looked super tired and drained#and we did see her waking up in rhe middle of a nightmare on ep 2#so yeah girly is not eeping#sure maybe they dont need it bc its alm digital but her exhaustion for all the shit she's been through is SHOWING#and tge lack of rest isnt doing much to help her mental state tbh#anyways yeah
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you know. fandom is so fun when you have like. ten or so specific people to participate in it with. even if there's just the one. theres something very cool and special about creating, whether art or music or writing fics, alongside a group of people who are all insane about the same thing you are. its a strange kind of vulnerability and openness and love. id write a novel for my friends if they asked
#hi im on pain meds and incredibly tired and loopy shdhjsd this probably doesnt make any sense#FANDOM FRIENDS ARE JUST COOL OK#IVE MET SO MANY NEAT PPL#ALL CONNECTED BY THE LOVE OF SOMETHING#MEDIA OR OTHERWISE#and even if we dont talk often i think about a lot of you fondly#i dont. make friends easily. trying 2 change that#caspost#anyways. falls off the stage and dies#1 more day til i can get these goddamn drains out and actually see. MY CHEST#gonna spend tomorrow writing silly things for my friends i think (:
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so i tried to draw the drain- talk abt process in cut
okay so. have to stress just how much of this is kin shit. one- thespius is there because my thesp friend actually remembers going to the drain once while still being a human. the person beside him is unnamed, they weren't intended to represent anyone specific, maybe just someone leading him through. but uh.. yeah.
lots of water. like- inescapable. lots of crumbling infrastructure, buildings built on top of one another, not a lot of natural light- if any at all, the further down the drain you go. electricity going out all the time. resources being scarce- clothing, food, just basic needs for survival. using a lot of the flora that grows in wet, cold environments like this- mushrooms, algaes, etc, and cooking with that. communities coming together and being pretty tight knit, making sure everyone has what they need. and that was something that hector was particularly skilled at doing- organizing people, getting resources to those who need them most, etc. helping rewire downed power cables. finding and rescuing a beloved item swept away in the current and further down the drain. being a community leader and beloved team member. and upon finally leaving the drain, it's these skills that the gods see and decide to grant him godhood for
#great god grove spoilers#great god grove#my art#ggg#the drain#the drain ggg#i'm not gonna comment on my rendering i had this thumbnailed originally and blew it's resolution up huge then fixed it#so it's weirdly artifact-y and blurry in some spots and different brushes and stuff used in others and. spek. i'm tired. sorry#maybe someday ill fix it up and make it an actual painting instead of whatever weird little study this wound up being#other#bizzyboys
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Hey errybody, I got in a fight with a surgeon and lost! Well, actually this was a win for me.
After over 5 years of consultations, shifting insurances, therapists that wouldn't sign off, and other things, I finally got 10 pounds off my chest on Wednesday! Yeah, 10 pounds. It was not a Small Amount.
Because it was a major surgery, I'm on bedrest now. Work's on pause (they will be taking me back on happily once I am able to actually work and accommodations are all set up), and that leaves..... bills.
I WAS able to get rent for the next two months sorted out with my health care and that's another weight off my chest (haha heehee), but that's not covering Internet and power costs sadly. Not to mention my credit card bill, boooo.
If you wanna help me make ends meet for the next couple months, you can donate to me through paypal here. (I've tried Venmo? Venmo doesn't like me.)
I do also accept Zelle!
Every penny helps! I'd like to get up to about $400, if feasible. Again, these funds will be used for Internet, power, and my credit card, while I'm unable to work. If you can't donate anything, sharing is also appreciated!!
Thank you for reading! And if you've followed me a long time, thanks for accompanying me on this very long journey. We made it you guys!!!
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DCXDP prompt : 4? 5? Whatever.
Yk how we all collectively at some point in our minds Killed Amity Park and made Danny get Adopted by the Wayne's? You can't deny. Anyways this is not that— the only thing here is the Danny gets adopted by the Wayne's part with little additions.
Danny Fenton's Parents Jack and Maddie Fenton going to Jail for Obvious Child Neglect & Attempted Murder + Child Abuse(Vivisecting Danny). Danny and Jasmine are far too young for this. Dan and Dani are de-aged and are acting like Danny's Twin(Dan) and little sister ofcourse. It depends if Dan is there, cuz in most of my AUs he's redeemed but that's not the same for everyone.
Ages:
Dani : 7-8
Danny : 15
Dan : 15
Jazz : 17
Anyways Imma just...
Imma start this with a chapter like prompt because I don't know much on how to actually make a descriptive prompt and more of a go with the flow type of— yeah imma just write:
Danny held onto Jazz's arm as if it was his last line of Sanity, he hasn't been able to sleep due to nightmares of Jack and Maddie's Cruelty, Understandably enough Jazz had Danny in her lap clutched to her chest in her arms. Her Gaze hard and serious, ready to defend and talk without mercy to whoever talks to her that she didn't trust. Apparently Jack had a distant cousin, Bruce Wayne assigned as a God Father as well.
Jazz held onto Danny's hands sharing her warmth that contrasted to the cold temperate of Danny's body. He buried himself further into her chest yearning for more of her warmth shutting out the noises he's hearing as they sat in the courtroom. The judge soon in between the two billionaires, Vlad Masters and Bruce Wayne, the Judge asks softly, with their gentle voice to Jazz.
Jazz looks up her hardened gaze that seemed frantic and anxious immediately softening upon looking up at the trusted adult, "Tell me Jasmine, I will give you the option to choose." The judge finally says, "But—" Vlad tried to protest but was immediately shut down. Dan shifted uncomfortably and holding onto Danny and Jazz's arm desperately, also anxious. He does not want to be with Vlad. Dani was in his lap also trembling. The siblings are all anxious and Jazz is the only one they could trust to make the decision.
Dan looked up at Jazz, her eyes tainted with darkened eye-bags due to nightmares as well but she's staying strong for her baby siblings. ".... I choose the safest option..." Jazz started with a sigh, looking down for a moment at Danny who looked exhausted and reliant to Jazz's warmth. "I choose Bruce Wayne." She looked up with a determined gaze at Bruce and the Judge. "JASMINE—". Vlad started to protest and whipping his head to Jazz's seat.
Jazz felt, Dan and Dani flinch, Jazz grit her teeth, "Shut up Vladimir Masters. You are not gonna be me and my sibling's guardian. Never in my life will I let that happen." She breathes out, despite her form trembling a trusted adult placed their hand on Jazz's shoulder allowing jazz to relax knowing she and her siblings are protected. "Very Well." The judge merely says hitting the Gavel made of hardwood on the sound-block placed on the judge's table hence announcing the final decision.
It all went too fast, well too fast for the Fenton's to now new adopted Wayne Siblings, Danny and Dan stuck close to each other, Danny was exhausted and they could all tell by his constant groaning and almost accidentally scratching his not yet healed stitches especially the Scar of his attempted Vivisection. "Shhh...." Jazz just kisses Danny's hair and made them all lean on her body, Dan's Head on Jazz's Lap, Dani in Danny's Lap and Danny's head resting on Jazz's shoulder on the backseat of the car.
Jasmine Jade Fenton, now Jasmine Jade Wayne sighed in relief, feeling her body relax. She eyes the rearview mirror and saw Bruce who was driving them personally, His eyes was soft, a gaze that could only mean care and worry. Jazz stiffened for a moment and analyzed Bruce's Current body language, She could tell he was relieved. She guesses that being able to understand his emotions quite literally is being part of her liminality, being somewhat of an empath helps her understand other's emotions quickly.
"Hey... You guys comfortable back there...?" Bruce softly asked and Jazz nodded and smiled. "Yes... Thank you... Uhm... Sir Wayne." She responds, the hardness of her tone now long relieved as she's successfully kept her family away from Vlad. "Just call me Bruce.." Bruce smiled back and Jazz nodded with appreciation.
Jazz looked down over to her siblings, all fast asleep as they could finally relax their bodies. 'I won't let anyone hurt any of you...' she thinks to herself, tears welling softly down her cheeks. Quickly she wipes them off before Bruce could notice, she took a deep breathe and quivered slightly at the thought of the future.
[End of Prompt(?)]
Edit/Additional:Sam and Tucker are alive, AMITY is alive and ghosts are now in JL tracker but they've become much more peaceful and cooperative and refusing to state who their king is due to his request of "Animosity" (Danny? Or Dan— or Clockwork as a Ghost King Proxy)
I'm someone who adds Dash/Danny ship but here idgf— Sam helps Danny and the others adjust to Gotham(I'm thinking of my HC where she's actually a Gothamite) and Tucker being Tucker, the Tech Geek, emotional support and absolutely loves his PDA
That's all I could think of! This is probably an angsty type of healing, Identity Reveals, Found Family. Hurt/Comfort, angst with a happy ending(?), Familial Love/Platonic Love. :33 have fun with this prompt!
Please tag me if anyone finds a fic like this or someone writes a fic of this! >:33
#danny phantom#danny fenton#danny phantom fandom#dc x dp#dp x dc#dcu#dc x dp crossover#dcxdp#dp x dc crossover#dcxdp prompt#dc x dp prompt#dpxdc prompt#dpxdc crossover#dpxdc prompts#dp x dc au#dp x dc prompt#Jazz Fenton will do anything to protect her family#Danny is Tired#Dan is also tired but fighting through to keep Danny from damaging his stitches#Dani is traumatized and possibly selectively mute due to that? :33 interesting for her#selectively mute but she slowlt gains the confidence to speak again letting them hear her voice and see the real her!#Danny is so tired and so drained & Clockwork is kinda helping with keeping Danny alive despite him should have been staying with frostbite#Dan is redeemed ; he is a very protective brother in my POV like a Damian stabby stab with no stab jjst punch scratch and hiss#he's always gonne be there to peotect his sibs and same with jazz who will not hesitate to take down anyone considered a threat
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Hatchetfield @femslashfortnight Day 6: Protect
#some campfire confessions for yall :)#I had a very draining day today so we’re not doing long tags for this one#I have a drawing im still working on for day 4 so its gonna be a little out of order#but whatever it is what it is#I used the fun brush again for this one :D#fun fact: bears are my favorite animal#look I never said I wouldn’t ever do personal facts#also I’m too tired to go looking for facts#so there’s some Ricky lore#what’s YOUR favorite animal?#let me know in the tags if you feel like it /nf#idk yall#campfire confession#abstinence camp#nerdy prudes must die#hatchetfield femslash fortnight#karen chasity#girl jeri#nightmare time#Starkid#hatchetfield#team starkid#Kim Whalen#hatchetfield axe man#man- Axe Man is such a banger- it’s my favorite hatchetfield song#it’s just too good I love it#that episode has a lot of good songs#my art
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I am so……..
physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually,
Uncomfortable
#uncomfortable#actually borderline#actually bpd#borderline personality disorder#borderline problems#borderline things#borderline thoughts#bpd feels#bpd problems#bpd stuff#bpd thoughts#living with borderline#borderline pd#being borderline#borderline culture is#borderline blog#sad thoughts#sadgirl#i'm sad#I’m so tired#I’m so fucking tired#just let me die#su1c1dal#su1c1d4l#mentally ill girlies#im mentally ill#mentally unwell#mentally tired#mentally drained#actually mentally ill
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finally watched venom; eddie brock is so soggy i love him
#jaydraws#had a real tired week so havent been drawing much welp#and thanksgiving family gatherings last weekend and yesterday#which i find quite draining T-T#venom#eddie brock#eddie brock fanart#fanart#sketch#marvel#venom fanart
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IT IS OVER!!!!! WORK IS OVER FOR THE DAY!!!!! EVERYBODY CLAP!!!! YAY END OF WORK DAY!!!
#end of workday would also be good but we will celebrate what we can#i have been part of this charity committee which we love bc its a good cause bUT IM HAPPY ITS OVER!!!!#i am so tired we have done so many team dinners / lunches/ today was the charity happy hour and tomorrow we have a lunch#i cant socialize this much. i cant. im antisocial i am so drained.#i had to drink a Yuengling at the happy hour like a straight dad and worked the door
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Argenti! I might not be playing rn but I love him and I've only seen people being salty lately so I wanted to give us a pretty guy to look at and appreciate with no drama.
#honkai star rail#argenti#truly tired of the fact people seem so upset over a voice change like i get it might be different!#but dude you do NOT have to be mean to the new VA or compare the two voices when its done#like please just appreciate him without being mean to anyone ya know???#hes just a silly lil guy and i want his vibes to stay fun and silly not clouded in va drama#once i get my gaming energy back i really wanna return to hsr but i just cannot play much rn#its too draining
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I feel like I'm in a different world from other artists and can't connect because so much of what I see is professional artists in the sense that it is their Job and there's their portfolio and shop link and commission prices and patreon and buy their art so they can pay rent and eat this month and on here if you don't reblog then you're killing them and if you only like the post you might as well just give them a big middle finger and on other places it's retweet repost for visibility or else you're condemning them to death (no engagement) and there's so much trend chasing and algorithm posting and here's their name (real) and face (conventionally attractive) alongside their art (product) and here are dozens of carefully edited videos of their process and behind the scenes and a link to their paypal (legal name) (business name) and reassuring posts about Make the art you want and be proud and don't let anyone tell you you can't do x technique (which actually seems quite antithetical to the rest of the stuff they do) and idk??
I'm so very far removed from all of that. And as someone who mainly lurks online but has a very extensive art project and yeah is an artist because of that, it's weirdly alienating that most of what I see labeled as being an artist is tailored to a highly commercialized and specific kind of personality and lifestyle. Doesn't usually bother me, but sometimes it kinda sucks when all of those super relatable artist posts and memes go around and I just absolutely do not relate at all.
#text#blogger lore#i know that in many ways im fortunate to be able to.. work on this project to the degree that i do#but its something i do for Me and all the social media stuff is just an extra thing that happens sometimes#and it is nauseatingly tiring seeing the grindset artist life everywhere#i get why people do it. i do. but how tiring. how very divorced from what my kind of being an artist is.#theres a post out there that is like 'every writer is expected to be a social media expert nowadays in order to get published and sales'#all so draining isnt it?
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You dont have to share if you dont want to but why are you sick
Tumor.
As far as they can tell its not currently cancerous but it is still draining on my health. But it can't kill me unless it develop into cancer. Hoping to get a set date for surgery soon.
#pages are going to be slow until i can get it removed and hopefully recover#im getting worse so im being more open about this because its draining me and i feel bad#i wanna make art and put things out but im to tired 99% the time#it could be cancerous but the scan looks like its non cancerous so I'm really hoping its not cancerous
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i wanna write (in concept) but i also don't wanna write (in actuality)
#🌧 raindrops#❌down the drain#why must the wheels of creation grind like this all the fucking time#im tired why can't i just zoom into a semi-possessed state like i used to at like age 19 and wake up on the other side#with a fic fully formed#oh. yeah. bc i have rent to pay now and a corporate job and cannot spend all my time marinating inside my head#so im further from that creative divinity bc it takes times to get there sigh
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