#actually bpd

[stxrbpd]

remembering the fact bpd is considered a terminal illness and my own brain is trying to constantly kill me. im never going to be okay.

[asadgirlwithaprettymind]

my handy helper 📘

[templetv]

why is it so hard for you to want me and only me? why am I so hard to want? why am I never fucking enough for you?

[burned0utstar]

It hurts.

It hurts so much.

I need someone, anyone, to love me.

Being unlovable hurts.

It's the pain of knowing that noone can ever love me the way I love them.

To love the way I do is to burn and scratch open my skin just to try and show you a part of me.

It's to always wait for something.

[ashen--nightmares]

im not pretty im not cute im not sexy and it makes me wanna die. i hate my face, my body, everything about my physical appearance. living this way is hell

[caninezzz]

i think i was just made to look pretty and sit on a shelf

[buriedasylum]

I wish people could realise how hard their words are affecting me

[yanderepoet]

relationship status: eternally devoted.

[werewolveswithdiaries]

fear of abandonment is not always intense fits of rage and spells of uncontrollable crying at the thought that someone will leave you

it also is

the paralysing anxiety and just swallowing your tears while staring into the screen until your eyes hurt because they haven't texted back

is stupidly testing everyone's loyalty and your heart pounds at the idea that they will make the tiniest mistake and it means they never cared in the first place

is isolating months on end because self induced loneliness became strangely more bearable that constantly awaiting the loneliness because you cannot trust that anyone will stay

is having your heart dropping in your chest when they hang out with someone else and all your bones ache because of course, it must mean they prefer anyone else over you

is asking yourself over and over again if it would be less painful for you to be their second choice or not a choice at all

is feeling shame for craving intimacy and privacy because you feel unworthy of it all, and and unworthy person will not matter for anyone right?

is having every emotion, thought, move, plan consumed by your favourite person and this obsession cuts deeper than anything else could ever do. they become your entire world, they are your solace, your existence is not present outside them

[asadgirlwithaprettymind]

new book 📕 it’s actually quite fascinating.

[xawiii]

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idk what to put here but what u think bout my newest?

[bnnuyguts]

im sorry im sorry i don't mean to be like this im sorry

[actuallymagsdump]

i feel trapped in my own body

[mewos-laptop]

Fags love me for my doglike qualities and BPD

[blownawayy]

i can’t trust my thoughts

[drowningbpdbodies]

The horrors persist, but me? Not so much