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#got an incredible burst of energy just now and i don't even know what kind of energy it is#am i excited? am i anxious? i cried a bit so maybe i'm sad?#but also i can't explain any of these feelings#like why am i happy-scared-sad now. it's 1am and i'm usually asleep this time#i guess the closest word is restless but still idk why... and i don't even know what kind of stuff i feel#so i can't really process it#and i haven't changed anything in my medication...#maybe i'm overthinking#i literally have 'feels too much sometimes' disorder#huh#chr-txt#vent
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in spite of everything, I had fun <3
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#jjk leaks#yuji itadori#fushiguro megumi#nobara kugisaki#itafushikugi#jjk 271#well we made it :'>#im kind of ignoring a lot of the tag rn ghsdff ik people are upset#if u follow me u know th full extent of my thoughts on the wrapping up of the series but tl;dr the caption says it all#this series meant a lot to me and im working on a bigger tribute to fully express that love and gratitude#but take a redraw 2 tide u over for now#im just so happy. its bittersweet but those r my kids n theyre tgt and theyre okay#i think the return to normalcy is good fr them. i say let them rest n b together n process everything in time#/i'm/ satisfied with what i got out of jjk as a whole and that's all that matters to me#however ik that not everyone shares tht sentiment n thats valid!#regardless of how u feel abt the finale i hope that u at least take time to remember things abt the series that brought u joy#thats all i can say#oh yeah anyway i lightened up megumi's expression his face is so funny in that panel i can't believe he really said -_- until the very end#still tho i think megu deserves a content lil smile
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one day, I will set this right
#kh#kingdom hearts#kh terra#kh fanart#my art#I finished terra's part of bbs today#I knew WHAT happened but not HOW y'know?#ouch man. ouch.#honestly did not expect him to become my favorite wayfinder#I should've known really I'm a huge sucker for possession tropes#especially if they're super tragic#AND DUDE WAS LITERALLY SPLIT INTO THE 3 FUNDAMENTAL PARTS OF A HUMAN BEING#which is in the process of doing something terrible to my brain#so um. if you're a terra enjoyer hmu seriously#I'll probably be making more fanart for him anyways#sorry for the ramble#can't wait to see him again in III <3#hashtag terradefender4ever#hashtag eatshitxehanort
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infinite kisses! [reuploaded]
I learned that Fire Alpaca has an animation option, so I could actually see it moving while editing instead of just guessing in Medibang. So have had it adjusted to make it less snappy as originally intended.
#I didn't private/delete the older version in case one prefers it. Though I really don't like how I made Connie's bangs move on that one 😅.#Can definitely make this as snappy as that one. Reupload that with it as a fixed version. But maybe some other time.#Steven Universe#Can't add audio on Fire Alpaca and the exported animated gif is crunchy though#so you'd probably want to use a different software to combine the frames.#Or you can just do all the process in Krita. It can add audio and the exported quality is actually good. I like Krita. Frustratingly my#laptop could bot handle the app so I would have to make these extra steps. RIP#connverse#animated gif#my shiz#SU fanart#Connie Maheswaran#Steven Quartz Universe#kisses#I animated the frames in ezgif. The funky thing is: I first uploaded this as transparent. And the produced gif erased my signature. ??#I don't know what's that about. I was a bit too impatient to figure out fixing that so I opted to make it nontransparent instead.
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I cannot wait for this Stan to reconnect with his Ford.


I still haven't figured out HOW exactly they'll meet yet, but I do think that Ford would ATTACH himself to Stanley and talk his ears off forever when they eventually get comfortable :] and Stanley would listen because HOLY SHIT, THAT'S HIS BRO HE HASN'T SEEN FOR 40-ISH YEARS, HE MISSED HIS VOICE. Nonstop certified Yapper & Listener relationship <3
Stanley looks dead faced because of his ingrained poker face, but he's thouroughly enjoying it, even if sometimes he has no idea what the fuck Ford is saying. He never interrupts him though, since he knows people usually ignore or interrupt him mid-talk already. So sometimes Stan gets stuck in awkward situations where he has to leave or do stuff, but also doesn't have it in his heart to stop Ford and extract himself out of a (one-sided) conversation.
#Stanley: that motherfucker just ignored you completely- would you like me to kill him.#Stanford: Who? What are you talking about? Anyways. Have you ever seen gnomes before? Because just yesterday I-#I imagine conversations with Stanford to be very stitled and all over the place.#Since his thoughts are quite literally scattered- he can never really process them fast enough to actually verbalize them.#Or even understand them.#So he often only catch the tail ends of a thought- or cutoff half formed thoughts- or only the beginning half of an idea- memory- or opinio#And when he talks- you can really tell with the amount of tangents he goes off into and how everything he says#are completely disconnected and unrelated from one another.#I think the reason he talks so much is because it's his way of desperately trying to get himself understood by someone- including himself.#He's hoping that maybe- by verbalizing EVERYTHING in his mind all at once into some incomprehensible word vomit- that someday-#those senseless- useless words will one day magically order themselves into the right sentence for him to be finally be able to say what#he actually MEANS.#But because he's ''that crazy Town Kook Ford'' he just never really gets the chance to talk to anyone.#People in town baby him- treat him like a child.#And I mean- it must really hurt. For someone of his former intellect to have lost all ability to express himself eloquently#Not because he's any less smart- but because he just can't talk anymore. At least- not in any way that matters#I think Stanley understands him though. I think Stanley would understand his struggle to not be labeled as just stupid by others#Anyways- that was my ramble <3#my post#asks#sput chatters#stanford pines#ford pines#stanley pines#stan pines#gravity falls#gravity falls au#Town Kook Ford AU#my art
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Good evening,
You'll never guess what I just posted.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/60479521/chapters/156202336#workskin
Enjoy 10k more words of content.
From,
Someone actually studding to become an engineer
I ENJOYED EVERY BIT OF IT AND CAINE ESPECIALLY BUT THIS -
THIS BIT MADE ME LAUGH SO HARD
#tadc#the amazing digital circus#tadc jax#tadc zooble#tadc pomni#Okk ok but I can't wait to see how Cain's adventure for Zooble goes#DONT WORRY THE NPCs ONLY LIGHT ON FIRE AFTER 10 MINUTES OF BEING IGNORED ITS SO REALISTIC#You write their dialogue and actions so well#im having trouble with words tonight but I took all day to process your chapter and read it through a few times and its really fantastic#thank you for blessing me this day I needed it#WHEEZING
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the world is at an imbalance. I fear redesigning and making fanfiction of King Shark as an anti-colonial queer demigod and protector of Indigenous nonconformity is what will bring the world back into tune.
maybe in my Superboy retelling I could indulge this itch.
#ramblings#can't believe yall got me hyping up king shark but here we are. i dont appreciate smack talk on a pacific islander man#for those not in the know nananue was originally a superboy rogue. and I've perhaps formed ideas in the process#we already have a reimagining of tana so. there are opportunities for really cool things.
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Okay! Obviously, I love Wolf 359. The available scripts for Wolf 359 are recording scripts, meaning they're inaccurate in a ton of places when it comes to finalized or improvised dialogue, and don't function well as transcripts (especially since the scripts for the live show and some of the mini episodes were never made available.) That said, I think everyone should read the scripts; the sheer amount of physical description that you can feel in the show, even if you can't see it... I guarantee it will enhance your listening experience. Most visual show to ever be an audio drama. So, in pursuit of both of these goals at once, I went over every word in the scripts, and wrote up new scripts for the unavailable ones. Some of the sound effects described - especially in early episodes - might not line up exactly, because I didn't want to mess with the non-dialogue portion of the show, but I hope this strikes a good balance and can be a useful resource.
#wolf 359#w359#i went back to standardize some s1 formatting last minute so um if i accidentally deleted anything in the process. let me know?#or if there's anything else that stands out but. it should all be there more or less. the dialogue should be accurate now.#do whatever you want with these. compare them to the unedited recording scripts.#use them for screenshots of things you couldn't accurately screenshot before.#use them as actual functional transcripts for dialogue you can't parse. though i had to make some choices with cross talk#especially in the sound and the fury where most of it isn't really meant to be heard and it doesn't easily. format together.#anyway. um. that's it! i hope someone finds this useful and i hope it gets some more people to check out the scripts. maybe.
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my son is such a princess
#the process was MESSY for this one#and so is the result. i didn't feel like doing a full illustration so sketch it is. sorry your highness#can you tell. can you tell i used my own hands as a reference#anyway this was really fun to draw. kind of turned my brain off for a good portion of it#as usual the hardest part was drawing a fucking circle for my signature#it's embarrassing how bad i am at basic shapes. i don't use circles as guidelines because i can't do them lmao#anyway enough about me being the world's dumbest artist#my art#alois trancy#kuroshitsuji#black butler#kuroshitsuji fanart#black butler fanart#kuroshitsuji ii
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#kirby#daily kirby#my art#digital#hal laboratory#nintendo#I do really love that post encouraging people to go ahead and start positive changes in their own life now#no matter what age they will be when they finish the process#I was having a similar conversation with a friend today#although like. as a person who genuinely can't just up and do it right now (can't do much of anything right now)#it's a little bittersweet.#the sentiment feels a little different when you just spent two years so sick that time *didn't* pass for you.#even as everything else continued to move along without you.#anyway! just been a weird week sometimes it be like that
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Seeing as we're at the halfway point of the year and some of these situations are (hopefully) no longer ongoing, I can actually talk about them. So, new Marlin Life Lore in no particular order:
- Left a cult (don't worry about it)
- Kissed someone who was enbyphobic (boo)
- Quit my job part 2 electric boogaloo
- Tried manifesting as a joke and think I got cursed instead
- Three month long situationship 🥳
- Five older people were hitting on me, but at least 2 of them were actively evil (3 if we count enbyphobic woman)
- Burned bridges with two long-standing industry connections within 3 weeks of one another
- Gathered a Google Drive worth of evidence on my ex-boss (because we can always nuke the remains of the bridge)
#my boss tag#the conclusion of this is I have so much like. wild shit to talk about but oh my god does she suck#cult/pyramid scheme idk what to call it; when the music industry is involved it's all treated as normal#I honestly didn't have 'Joined and quickly left a cult' on my bingo card of Things My Mother Did In Her Twenties That I Will Also Go Through#unreality#<- to be clear this all happened i just don't want anyone to stumble across the manifesting joke without context and worry about it#I think I jokingly thought Yeah I'd Like A Hot Blonde Gf when I'd already met the woman I ended up Briefly dating#and who know? maybe we'll get back together at some point#it's just really bad timing As Accelerated by the Toxic Workplace/Cult vibes#can't sleep and I'm just processing things#delete later maybe#personal log
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Thinking bout that specific behaviour where someone eats somethign and starts to make a "this is yucky" face and the mom of the group naturally reaches out ezpecting a spitout
#specifically i am imagining olivine doing this.#idk how much younger his siblings are#imagining that oli got the ultrastrict treatment as the firstborn#then his siblings afterward get a bit more leniency and are... allowed to reject food or be picky or whatever#but if he had to take care of baby aged kids or.idk. picky eaters or smth#and he got used to BEING the hand that offers the 'out' to a sibling eating a yucky thing#i didn't notice this behaviour until i watched my friends with young kids#because. i'm not used to seeing my friends do that behaviour. yet. here they are#the toddler makes a scrunched disgusted face#and the parent immediately sticks out their hand. ready to accept the bolus of rejected toddler food#armed with a nearby napkin#it's a strange behaviour. never really thought about it until i saw it in action.#i guess the baby CAN't grab the napkin and spit food out politely into it (on their own hgahaha...)#is there any way to force the kid to just eat the thing? like. if you don't offer your hand or a napkin or whatever and they just concede?#that doesn't sound like child behaviour. that kid (if not heavily traumatised in a specific way) will probably find a way to spit it out#yucky is yucky. this is how old time baby survive. by gettinb rid of the yuck#anyway i'm imagining olivine and garu at the dinner table#garu is eating something he doesn't LOVE... >︿<and it shows on his face#olivine mindlessly offers his hand in front of garu's face#but garu is an i-wont-waste-food kinda wolf so he won't actually spit it out#he's just makin the face before he inevitably swallows his food (bc what's the point of concealing emotion)#but for a moment. before either of them can process what is happening#oli has his palm extended in front of garu's mouth. garu's face is scrunched up as he tries to endure the yucky taste#garu is confused as to what oli is doing because no one has demonstrated this gesture to him in this specific situation#does. does oli want garu to share his food? but... he's chewing it. should garu grab some off his plate and offer it now?#oli might be sleep deprived or something before he realises and withdraws his hand like haha! oops! sorry;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;muscle memory;;;
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i believe that to some extent Andre knows he's fucked up and this headcanon is one of the hills I will die on in the farewell tape, Cal says that “you can’t cure somebody who has nothing wrong with them.”
Andre, on the other hand, admits they might be seen as hypocrites. he's not gonna back out, he still thinks it's the right thing for him to do, but he seems to acknowledge that people will not perceive it the same way. he tries to explain that no matter what it’ll look like, it’s not murder for the sake of murder - not in his eyes at least. there's a (sick and twisted) lesson hidden in this tragedy.
to some extent, Andre is aware of what’s going on with him, what exactly shaped him into who he is now. he sees the cause and effect of being bullied, of feeling rejected and alienated, and not being able to do anything about it because that's just who he is. he can kick and scream and shout but he will never change who he is at his core and this realization is crushing for a 17/18-year-old. this and all the implications of a missing sense of belonging.
he knows he’s messed up. he knows what would fix him and he’s convinced it’s out of his reach. he looks at other students and he thinks: it’ll never be me. and he's angry that they have something he will never have.
his awareness doesn't help though. if anything, it fuels his frustration. what adults know to be a temporary problem (high school) seemed like an insurmountable obstacle, the end of everything.
#dont mind me im just thinking how so many high school problems seem like the end of the world#and then you grow up and you're like 'ok that was some insane shit and I didn't deserve most of it'#and then you process it and heal and go on with your life because the world is too wide for you to dwell on all that stuff#alternatively you're shocked that you really let yourself wallow in sadness over shit that now just makes you laugh and seems so trivial#my point is that if he had decided to drop the zd plans and then graduated and grown up he could have been happy#he could have made it but he didn't give himself a chance#high school is not where your world ends#in fact it's barely even a beginning its a fucking prologue#and when people are so down that they can't grasp it - this is what leads to tragedies#zero day#zero day 2003#andre kriegman#cal gabriel
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hey wouldn't it be fun to give Hunter a bunch of Grimwalker things that no one but Belos knew about and everyone assumes is just Belos being cruel until they try something different and then it turns out it was actually necessary for Hunter's wellbeing?
so like one day Hunter mentions never having ice-scream or cake or really any other type of dessert. and everyone's like "that's so sad we have to get him ice-scream right away." but then Hunter spends the next couple hours being violently ill and it turns out Grimwalkers can't handle processed sugar
or he was never allowed to go to the healers when he was injured and he always had to stitch himself up (or Belos would do it sometimes if it was bad enough). and everyone's completely horrified because that's terrible and evil and what could the point of that be except to make Hunter go through more pain? and then someday he breaks a leg or something and they take him to the healers and it just. doesn't work. nothing happens. and it turns out healing magic is completely ineffective on Grimwalkers
anyway I think it would be fun to make the line between what was care and what was abuse a little blurry every now and again
#I may write a fic about this idk#anyway Belos being an unreliable narrator except sometimes so you can't just dismiss what he says you have to interrogate all of it for#essential information and it makes the whole process so much worse bc you can't just say “that's bad and shouldn't have happened to you” bc#you might be wrong actually. maybe that was right and should have happened to you. you don't know#“I regularly was made to sleep on the balcony without any bedding” and his carer/s are horrified but what if that's good for him??? they#don't know weirder things have happen. did you sleep well. did you feel rested. did you feel safe. how did you feel about it emotionally#was this packaged as a punishment or reward or just a thing you were told to do. they have to check#grimwalker#grimwalkers#the owl house#toh#hunter toh#belos#toh hunter#grimwalker things#that should be a tag can we make that a tag#tw child abuse#abuse tw#<- I don't really know what other warnings to tag for filtering purposes. if anyone knows pls tell me#nuclear war speaks
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She is my silly bean. The woman of the hour. My poor little meow meow. The most beautiful and interesting girl in the planet. Every single one of her crimes should be forgiven on the basis that your honor she's having a rough couple of weeks and she's being so brave about it. Also just look at her. Case closed
#WAUGH this scene turned out so good..........#I've been drawing the comic on a scene by scene basis#and giving myself deadlines(2 weeks per scene) so I don't get stuck on the details#this is scene 3 so far. the previous ones I rlly struggled with#while trying to find my footing with the process yk#I've been experimenting a lot while trying to find a balance between something that looks polished AND doesn't take too long to finish#which. has been. A Struggle 🫠 BUT#I feel like I really got somewhere with this latest one#it was the fastest And most stylistically consistent I managed to do so far AND I love how it ended up looking ahhhhh#I'm so happy I'm so excited <3 finishing this one rlly motivated me & now I can't wait to start the next one#hehehehe I'm so HAPPY clapping my hands clapping my hands#sleep.txt#sketch tag#viper comic#oc.pepper
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Would kill to read animal POV fiction that has the animal POV’s interaction with humans be like, semi realistic to the level of caution most predators take with large prey and/or competitors (including humans).
Like instead of the usual - “the human is such a weak, pathetic creature... so slow, no claws, blunt teeth… completely helpless without its 'Fire Sticks'. how is it the master of the earth?” type crap it’s like, the bear protagonist or whatever approaches some dude who spreads their arms and yells and the bear is like “FUUUUUUUUCK THAT THING JUST GOT HUGE. IT'S LARGE AND MAKING NOISES. HOLY FUCK.”
#A lot of this realm of fiction tends to severely overestimate how physically weak humans are in the grand scheme of things..#A human body ft. no tools has a pretty average level competency at escaping predation. WITH tools it's significantly above average.#Like a lot of human physiology IS the way it is because of reliance on tool/fire use but interspecies competition/predation is really not#a literal battle won by physical strength + teeth + claws (at least until the actual process of killing)#Intimidation and shows of strength/threatening behavior can go a long way. Healthy predators (who aren't unnaturally#accommodated to humans) are generally going to be cautious and may avoid confrontations they absolutely COULD win because#the risk of injury is judged as too high#And most animals can't weigh risks in the most objective manner and won't understand that you aren't any 'bigger' just because you#wave your arms and yell. That is why puffing up/spreading out as a threat display is so ubiquitous in nature.#Massive tangent but this is why I fucking loved Prehistoric Planet so much like the commitment to having its dinosaurs behave like#actual animals is fantastic and tragically rare#Like having a scene where a T Rex gets bullied away from a carcass by two much smaller azhdarchids.. Yeah that is probably#how it would behave. It's not a mindless killing machine it's an animal so is going to avoid confrontations it deems too risky even if it#WOULD win in an all out brawl. thank you so fucking muych.
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