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"Children in the woods" 5/5
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#art#fanart#comic#digital art#crk comic#crk#crk fanart#gingerbrave#wizard cookie#strawberry cookie#the snatched up trio#this was enjoyable experience#the trio got tricked and snatched! heh#if I was not clear about it?#why? what's gonna happen now? honestly not sure at least for one of those questions#i just really wanted to have more of that trio stuff around#plus them getting adopted#... I was in part inspired by someone on here telling how it's clearly a lost opportunity that there is so little fics and stuff#where they get adopted#which yea#and yea I suppose this snippet doesn't concentrate on this point#but who cares! I liked doing it! so all is fineee!!!#Pure Vanilla and co are just now gonna do a saving operation#while Shadow Milk gets to suffer with the trio in his temporary custody#is this happening after canon? instead of canon?#ehh.. we will see#probably#maybe#thank you to anyone who decided to read through those ramblings#may you have a good day!
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i think thats supposed to be about sex things but Not One Of Those, this is the fourth, fifth? couple youve given a lil baby and i think you maybe love lil babys
i too, give the Characters lil babys, because i love them
as well as the myriad of Situations it puts the blorbos in
fourth or fifth publicly/in recent memory, i've been doing it for Years in art i haven't posted akfdhdjhd
i do just really love putting them in Situations you're right
#ramble#nobody really asks 'hey juno why do you keep doing this' but the fact that people know it'll happen comes up a Lot lmao#the short answer: it's fun to write#the long answer (and to why it's usually seahorse dads)#as a queer person and especially a transmasc person when it comes to family stuff you feel kind of. invisible?#like everything surrounding having children is So cishet focused to the point where it never registered as an option for me#at least not until i was an adult#and on the other side of it. being in fandom in the 2010s as a baby trans boy there was just NOTHING#and what there WAS was always fetishised#like CONSTANTLY i cannot stress enough how that's all it was#and that's fine genuinely i don't judge. but sometimes you just want to see yourself Existing in a way that isn't someone's kink?#and i've never wanted it to come across that way in my art and i hope it doesn't bc it's never been about that for me#it's just sort of like. if i keep doing this it might normalise it for someone somewhere#and if they see it in real life (which does happen ALL the time) they'll be less inclined to think it's weird#and queer family rep is way better than it used to be but there's just not enough of it#idk i just like to draw a world where queer families just exist and nobody asks questions if that makes sense#the Situations are also fun
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Speaking of Barry being able to read Leonard Snart scarily well, imagine that Barry notices how Snart reacts to people Barry knows, and files that away in his opinions of that person
Barry is in the cortex with someone he finds kind of annoying but harmless, Snart walks in for Definitely-Not-Flirting-While-Doing-Business Reasons, and starts lowkey acting like this guy is an Immediate Threat that he's trying to act cool around to not set him off. And Barry immediately knocks like 5 points off of the "how much do i trust this guy" ranking. Subtly starts telling him less things, looks into what he's doing on the downlow, treats him as potentially suspicious And turns out... The guy does have bad intentions
Leonard comes in and meets some of Barry's new friends/coworkers, and clearly seems to mark one of them as more trustworthy/less of a threat than everyone else. And when Barry needs help or someone to confide in, he goes to that person over everyone else
Barry comes in to Saints and Sinners and sees a regular he's run into before, but hasn't seen interact with Snart. He thought the guy might be pretty cool. But today he walks into them talking, and Immediately sees that Snart is closed off, jumpy, does NOT like that guy in his space. And Barry immediately takes cues off of that, turns the guy down when he later asks to have drinks together next time Barry drops by Saints
If Snart seems unnerved by someone Barry knows, Barry trusts his instincts. Even if Leonard never says anything to Barry out loud, he still takes note of that. If Snart likes someone, or just thinks they're reliable, Barry will trust that instinct.
Even if Snart doesn't say his feelings out loud, Barry trusts him so innately that he will listen to Snart's instincts when it's clear he's feeling a type of way
#so on that note.#imagine all of that being true AND#snart being around and showing up during the harry-being-around and pre-zoom-reveal stuff#he meets “jay” one (1) time and he picks up that this is a manipulative liar IMMEDIATELY#say nothing. plays along.#barry seeing this: oh okay. this guy is NOT SAFE. Got It#also thinking about: snart so subtly putting himself between anyone that he sees as a genuine threat and barry#even -and especially- in Star Labs#he meets Harry. doesnt know what's going on yet but absolutely knows that Dr. Wells was a threat to barry and doesn't trust this guy one bi#is weirdly always between them whenever he's around#comes over more often just to watch this situation#listen. barry trusting harry would have been a VASTLY different journey is snart had been allowed to stick around#bc he would have been subtle about his deep distrust of harry#but barry would have noticed Anyway#and he prolly would have still trusted harry eventually#once he proved himself and stuff#but the plot would not have happened the way it did in canon#if barry's not-boyfriend-but-not-enemy who's protective and a damn good read on is someone is a threat -esp men- was around#yeah so. just thoughts#barry allen#leonard snart#the flash tv#coldflash#i mean. not EXPLICITLY#but to me this is coldflash#there are romantic VIBES to how well barry would read snart and how much snart wants him safe
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I still have hope that AidaIro will someday use Akane's title as 'The Representative of the Present'
I am on my knees for it to mean something
#tbhk#toilet bound hanako kun#jshk#I am once again really emotionnal about him#half of what I assume is not canon tbh I am just insane about Time#someone asked why Akane was my fav and this is one of the big reason tbh rip#even If AidaIro doesn't seem to want to do more than just give him this title in the manga#they can do whatever btw I just kinda wanna see more Time stuff (not as in.. time travel) as in implications of what Time is#... or isn't :)))#(I put my hopes in hell so I am not disappointed *spoilers* it never works)#Honestly I will throw all of this once we really get the whole arc finished#but I still have hope for now with how last chapter was talking about the importance of the present time#rambling#once again going insane over Time but I can't draw I have to work on a new project dsghjds#oh the feature movie I worked on will be at Annecy's animation festival :DD I know people don't care but it's really cool I am happy yay#aoi akane#the three clock keepers#it's always about them somehow
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Consider: character-exclusive trinkets.
#dandy's world#vee#vee version 1#vee dandys world#vee dw#dandys world vee#dw vee#glisten dandys world#glisten dw#dandys world glisten#dw glisten#glisten the mirror#so basically‚‚‚ vee gains the reflection ability but for machines and it works alongside camera hijack#glisten gets mic check but for toons and it works with reflection <3#and if you're curious about lore stuff for the trinkets. related to stuff i'm writing with a very dear friend of mine...#vee made the tracker as a gift for glisten after a. Particular Incident™ occurred#which eventually led to her learning the depths of his insecurities and issues. at least to *some* extent anyway#originally the tracker only tracked vee's location. just. so he could feel more comfortable.#know that he's never alone even if he can't actively sense anyone nearby with his abilities.#and so that if he ever needs vee for *anything* then he'll know exactly where to find her#but! it's got utility for vee in runs too! means she's always got someone to watch her back who can see when she's in danger and help out#but anyway. the fact that glisten could use the tracker to teleport longer distances was actually unexpected for vee!#and once she found that out she upgraded the tracker to show *all* the toons' locations#but only in runs and on the current floor because it relies on the machines to broadcast a signal. whereas vee can be tracked anywhere#the hand mirror was admittedly more of a 'hey it'd be cool to give vee a matching trinket. let my girl teleport to machines' thing gfhdhdf#but. while my friend and i haven't fully confirmed it? i've had thoughts of it being like. a 'thanks for putting up with me' gift#that glisten gave to vee sometime after the aforementioned Incident. because that mirror has Issues#and struggles to fathom that anyone would still want to be around him after learning that he's. broken. imperfect. even his best friend </3#the hand mirror has glisten's sweater skin's colour palette because i wanted to differentiate it from the vanity mirror#but also. it's silver. second place. it's enchanted with glisten's magic but it still doesn't measure up to the real deal (gold) <3
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Saw one of those theorizing Reddit polls on the P4 Reddit, asking if people would want a possible Yosuke romance in the remake and it's breaking my heart that so many people in the comments are either "Eh, I'm straight so it doesn't matter" or "No because I'm romancing x other character anyway" or "No because it ruins his character by forcing us to reject him if we don't want to romance him" (That last one is like... uh.... then what about all the OTHER romanceable characters?!)
#persona 4#yosuke hanamura#Souyo#Seriously?!#I mean chances are no he isn't gonna be romanceable in the remake#If they didn't see the value in adding Kotone to the game then I doubt they're gonna see value in making Yosuke romanceable#Also considering all the other stuff they never included from P3P it make sense to me#But aside from all of that#“Eh it doesn't affect me so I don't care/don't want it” is a HELL of an argument to make#The ones that are actually breaking my heart though are all the “Noo it ruins his character!” because why? Why does it ruin his character?#Do you just not want to have an actually confirmed gay/bi guy in the game?#Do these people understand that you can be best friends with someone even if you or they reject a confession?#It just... it urks me#Not even in a “These people just don't get Yosuke as a character!”#But in a "These people actively just do not care/do not want to deal with a gay dude in a game they'd have to possibly reject#AND THEY'D ONLY HAVE TO REJECT HIM IF THEY FLIRTED!
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Okay I know I'm the most biased person about dadmare, but you can't honestly tell me that if Cross started to mention the way xgaster treated him and his brother as children - the way an adult bullied and belittled and abused them - that it wouldn't make Nightmare see red
#UTDR#UTMV#Dadmare#Like the call is coming from inside the house again!!#Nightmare trying to be detached and collected to prove he doesn't have a familial attachment to his henchmen#And then he hears that Cross was treated badly by adults as a child and he's instantly like ''I'll kill him myself''#I just#Okay#Wick very nicely talked to me about Cross and dadmare yesterday and I'm still whipping it around like a dog with a new toy#LIKE I just think it could be a little healing for both of them#For Cross to get someone in an authoritative role who praises and appreciates him and refuses to treat him like that#And for Nightmare it must be at least a little rewarding to see someone who went through hell as a child and do everything you can to make#-them comfortable and tell them it wasn't their fault#Like I'm sure he still has stuff from his incident to process and maybe sharing it with Cross could do that#Obviously it's not 1 to 1 on what they went through but it might be similar enough to be cathartic#I don't know I just want to see them get along#I want Cross to have a father figure that would tear the multiverse in half to save him#I want Nightmare to learn to love and show it#I want 16 days off work in a row so I can lie in bed and go insane about this
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I finally got to mourn with others tonight. My synagogue was as full as a high holiday service. Seeing my rabbi I admire more than anyone crying broke my heart, she gave me a hug and told me I was so important to her. I think that's one of those voice clips that will stay in my brain forever. I don't have a mom so it just hit me hard. A 70 year old woman I'd just met insisted on driving me home, we talked about our worries for innocent Palestinians who are suffering while mourning the horrors we've seen the past few days, the stories of all the people who are gone that people knew personally at the vigil tonight. The lady told me if I hid the 10$ I offered her for gas in her car she'd hunt me down.. So I left 11$. I hope I see her again
#hyde text#personal#negative#israel palestine#tagging just in case someone doesn't want to see this stuff#I have a little more hope now that I've been in a space with people who arent online#its still so bleak but at least i feel human again
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swap au or something
ekko -> viktor
viktor -> jinx
jinx -> ekko
i read this fic and got inspired. it doesn't follow the canon to it but it inspired me (do check it out though it's really cool)
if you got any au questions then throw em at me (i've only watched arcane once tho so i might not have answers)
(more in the tags)
#diinoposting#yippee diino art#random au ideas#arcane swap au#arcane#ekko arcane#jinx arcane#viktor arcane#forgot to add#viktor gets 2 hexclaws for braid equivalent#they also are what he uses the stolen hextech to power#as like equivalent also to jinx's guns and weapons#it's cool#ekko here still becomes machine herald in place of vik#it's less religiony but he is still saviour in the eyes of the healed#jinx at first still quite likes bombs but switched to more defensive weapons after creating the firelights#definitely will still create time travel too#jayvik probably won't happen in this au except for maybe really later. they kinda fought at the start and it was pretty irreversable#viktor hates jayce and piltover with a passion because viktor created a bomb and was gonna use it on enforcers but jayce thinks now that al#-zaunites are chaotic and violent. he doesn't want to work with someone who's making bombs that will kill their beloved police force#this is like really far back tho. a couple years or so after viktor's boat scene. so it's not exactly fully rational thought yet#since they got small child brains (in terms of development and core values. they're still both super smart)#then since hears their argument and viktor accidentally sets off the bomb. jayce retreats and takes their main notebook back to piltover.#singed i mean. typo#meanwhile vik gets adopted by silco who promises that jayce and the rest of piltover will see his potential someday (likely violently tbfr)#the bomb and the boat are currently his best work and silco sees use in all of it. the bombs are well. bombs. but the boat has really well#-made mechanisms which can be used for other stuff#i think im gonna stop rambling in the tags now lol#any questions feel free to ask cause this idea has definitely split off from it's source inspiration#ok thanks gang
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have a snippet from the lil kwami swap thing i'm working on!
High above the streets of Paris, Mister Bug and Lady Noire talk about love.
It's a dangerous topic, to be sure; one that has to be tiptoed around with utmost care. A balancing act for Mister Bug. For Lady Noire too, perhaps, but she never seems like it affects her quite as much. Maybe that's why she's the one who brings it up.
"Are you in love, Mister Bug?"
His feet, from where they'd been kicking back and forth rhythmically, come to a stop. "Huh?"
"I'm just curious," says Lady Noire. On the rooftop they sit, there's more than a few centimeters of space between them. A gap that they're both waiting for Mister Bug to bridge. He only wishes he could. "Are you?"
Mister Bug tries to catch her eye. "Are you sure you want to talk about this? We... we don't have to--"
She waves a clawed hand in the air dismissively. "It's fine," she says, even though he knows it's not. He wonders what it is that's fine: talking about love, or talking about love when they both know he won't -- he can't -- reciprocate her feelings? "I wanna know. Is there anyone you love?"
There is.
#miraculous ladybug#mister bug#lady noire#misternoire#kwami swap#fic snippet#kwami swaps are fun but also frustrating#bc there is SO much behind the scenes stuff that needs to be considered#like if adrien is the ladybug then that means he would be the guardian right#wouldn't that affect his hero persona then? wouldn't he be the one to be more responsible and careful?#and for marinette wouldn't lady noire be more of an escape? a time in her life when she DOESN'T have to be so responsible and careful?#and kwami swap means reverse crush#which comes with its own complications#because if lady noire has a crush on her partner and also sees her persona as an escape#then wouldn't SHE be the more flirty one? and wouldn't mister bug constantly hold himself back not wanting to give her the wrong idea?#the one time in his life someone has trusted him enough to give him a responsibility#wouldn't he do all he could to uphold that and take it seriously?#whatever...you get it#tldr#this is way more character work than i thought it would be#nemali writes
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That moment when you kinda have plot armor but only really because the person who is in-universe running the plot is obsessed with you and would rather see you live through hell than have you killed <3
#this is about#457#inho for sure likes to see gihun be absolutely tortured either physically or emotionally#and idk i made a post about it before how gihun in season one didn't survive just cause of plot armor or cause he was lucky#because some people think that about him#but i think it's very interesting how in season 2 gihun is kind of protected from death#but not because he's the main character or better than any other character#but simply because the one who is in charge of stuff is very interested in him and likes to analize him like a bug#it's very obvious that inho is in some fucked up way protecting gihun not just when they try to take the games down but also Inside the#games themselves#but i really wonder how long this will last#will gihun simply not die because inho wants to see him suffer#how long is gihun going to survive like that?#will inho make bigger exceptions? breaking his own rules of 'everyone has the same chances' just so gihun doesn't die?#when gihun possibly gets to a point where he Wants to die will inho actively stop him? just so he can break him more? watch him suffer?#anyways i hope this makes sense#just very interested in how gihun does have an advantage this time around but really only because of a very Fucked Up reason#he was just a player in s1 just like everybody else#but then he got Interesting#for inho#so now he's special#not special as in he's the main character but special as in somebody high up in the system is very interested in him#and that someone high up can make it so that gihun has different conditions#lea's random thoughts#seong gi hun#hwang in ho#NOT a 457 hate post btw!!!!#just analizing gihuns role as a main character inside the plot while taking into consideration the system that he is put in (the games) and#how somebody in charge of said system can change it to gihun's advantage (without gihun knowing or wanting that of course)#squid game
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really not a fan of boston very explicitly saying "I want to be exclusive romantically but not sexually" only to be told "You're lying to yourself. I think you should be alone."
#like... p'jojo. you gave us 3wbf??? what's going on bud#only friends the series#ofts#am i misinterpreting boston? did I miss something? is this just a poorly executed representation of something else entirely??#idk this really just did not sit well with me#i love pretty much everything else in this show so i'm disappointed that this was the last thing we got#bc I've been saying this the whole time!! boston DOES want a romantic relationship and he's spent the whole show coming to terms with that#he really does love nick#and he wants romantic exclusivity (see: Boston getting upset and jealous when Nick is with other people)#but physical stuff doesn't need to have the same exclusiveness for him and that's literally fine#idk i just wish that last conversation had been written slightly differently. a couple different wordings could have fixed it all for me#like if Nick had SAID ''i can't do a non-exclusive relationship but i hope you find someone someday who wants that with you''#that would have been fine#not ''i think you should be alone''#idk. just really sat wrong with me#lgbt drama#thai drama#theo.txt#100
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Very weird experience having someone who used to be one of your best friends slowly stop being your best friend
#ROBIN IF U SEE THIS. THIS IS NOT ABOUT U. U ARE VERU MUCH MY BEST FRIEND MWUAH MWUAH#Anyway going into it in the tags#Vent#Like.. This person will always mean a lot to me cos i met her when she and i were like 14#But we have barely talked in a year#And even before that we kinda just grew further and further apart when she went off to uni#And its partly my fault for not texting her but its two sided (also im shit at texting even my closest friends)#And i dont harbour any bad feelings about it. Its amazing when i do hear from her#But she has new friends she loves and i think shes in a place in her life she just doesn't really need me#And going to uni and becoming close with a bunch of other autistic people made me realise how much ive kinda always struggled to connect-#-with her#Not that autistic and allistic people can't be close. But I've never felt comfortable infodumping around her like i do#With my current friends#A lot of that is definitely my own insecurities that have gotten a lot worse over the past few years#Because shes very popullar and cool and i admire her sm#So ive never wanted to like.. Idk bore her with autistic stuff#Not that she would be mean cos shes so lovely#But I've just grown apart from her a lot i think#And i think she has with me too#Also she is someone who prioritises romance a lot (not a bad thing) but its also very difficult to connect with her on that front#Anyway i have a lot of complicated emotions around this cos i love herr and she is still very much my friend#Still a close friend even. And i'll hopefully get to see her again during the summer and itll be amazing to catch up#But i dont think we are best friends anymore
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Does Janeys know that Brakul has a wife and son? How would he react if he learned?
He actually does know and has known pretty much from the beginning.
Early on in his stint as a POW turned mercenary, Brakul would repeatedly invoke his wife and son as reasons he could or could not do certain things + to insult Janeys like 'okay but some of us have actual, tangible responsibilities in this world and people who depend on them. Like my wife and son, who I will be returning to immediately when my contract is over. You're never going to see me again. On account of my wife and son.'
When he started actually Liking Janeys and wanting to be with him, and seeing a chance to Avoid All Consequences And Never Go Back Home, he gradually reversed course (and attempted to rationalize it to himself) like "Ahhh they'll be fine. I mean everyone probably thinks I'm dead and/or an oathbreaker anyway so Sirudan's gotta be remarried by now. My brother probably got in on that, and he really has his shit together so they're in good hands. Honestly it will be worse for them if I go back. They're better off without me. They're fine. It's not a big deal. I'm soooooo single and unattached btw" And Janeys was like "Okay. Yay."
13 years down the line Janeys almost never thinks about it and when he occasionally remembers it's like
He does not give a shitttt about the wife/child abandonment angle whatsoever, but he's aware that Brakul still has some attachment to them and regrets over skipping out, and he's kind of insecure about it. The concept of Brakul having a child out there completely independent of their whole Thing also makes him uncomfortable in ways he can't really put his finger on. He's not actually scared that Brakul will return to his ex-wife though, like even with all his profound insecurities and abandonment issues he knows there's not a chance in hell that he's gonna actually attempt to make amends. Bottom line is he doesn't like to think about it, and mostly doesn't have to.
#Hibrides found out about his Abandoned Wife And Child while she was first pregnant and after their relationship had begun to sour#and Will Not let him forget it#She doesn't honestly give a shit about them either it's not really out of concern for the people he left behind but#more a way of Very directly confronting his avoidant tendencies (and also just an easy way to emotionally wound him)#Like she sees him as someone who will do everything in his power to avoid discomfort and the consequences of his choices and#then has the audacity to whine and mope about how guilty he feels. And then will make excuses if confronted.#And Janeys coddles and enables him like 90% of the time so he just keeps doing it. Which is absolutely infuriating to her.#(Her perception is pretty spot on btw it's just Occasionally applied unfairly to situations where he was actually a victim)#So being like 'hey how about the wife and child you abandoned huh. You gonna do that again when things get uncomfy?' gets#through to him. And making him actually acknowledge it or at least feel really fucking bad about it is like. emotionally satisfying#I want to be clear that she has the least control of her circumstances of the three and the vast majority of my authorial#sympathies but I just didn't want to write her as an absolute righteous perfect perma-victim.#So when I describe her doing stuff out of vindictiveness or occasional straight up cruelty it's not like 'she is a bitch' I just want#her to be like. a full human being who shouldn't have to be 100% innocent and devoid of malice in her circumstances to be#sympathetic.#Which I think Should be clear but the whole situation is one that like. In a fandom context would ABSOLUTELY get warped into#her being an Unsympathetic Mean Bitch while her associated gayboys get to be Sympathetic And Nuanced
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every time I hear someone say "oh you have to listen to Dear Evan Hansen it has such good mental health representation" I cry in Next to Normal
#next to normal#and yes this is based on a true story#generally I dont try to juck anyones jum so I of course didn't tell that person what I was thinking at that moment#and if someone found Dear Evan Hansen a useful text in terms of their own mental health journey who am I to discredit that#but this is the internet and I am back on the ntn train#in a way it is my saf autumn musical#and yes I am a survior of the 2017 Tony Awards why were you asking?#no but seriously#it is so interesting how many narrative devices Dear Evan Hansen took from Next to Normal#but turned them into a less complete piece#like Gabe in ntn is a representation of unadressed grief and trauma and the family has to accept that he will never be really gone#and connor is just...idk not fully thought out?#idk I'm rambling#but also#how the love story between Henry and Natalie means something#Natalie sees her parent's relationship and desperately doesn't want that for herself and Henry at the same time also stand for#a piece of normalcy that seems attainable#you don't sit there and think hu why is there this completely separate love story thrown in there?#it mirrors the problems#and dear evan hansen#do I even have to say it#I thnk the thing I resent it most for is that it has a love story#naja#I'm of listening to net to normal some more#sorry I someone who really likes deh stumbles accross this#I feel like espechially musicals can be something that can be so personal#and I don't actually want to contribute to more stuff like#ew why do you like this when theres xyz that is so much better or morally purer or whatever#I guess what I do want to say is: if I had a nickle for everytime they made a musical about mental health where theres a ghost on stage and#the sister of the dead kid falls in love with a funny guy while her family is falling apart
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studying Philosophy is really like
you think this is going to help you understand the world and your place in it better,
but actually all it does is confuse and befuddle you farther than ever before
and also you make friends with the most annoying (read: great, smart, lovely, kind, but argumentative as ALL GET OUT) people in the world and then you realize you've BECOME one of those people and you kind of want to just curl up in a nice quiet little hole in the ground with all your books and read and think until a complete and total understanding of the world falls out of your noggin and everything makes sense; but actually you just want to take a walk in the woods with a friend and not think about anything for at least a year.
#I have a paper due on the philosophy of math#at 8 AM TOMORROW#and my brain is NOT WORKING#and I really want to go cry for a while#but that's not really going to fix anything at all is it#on a related note if y'all want to pray for me... my emotions have returned and they really just want to process everything that's#happened for approximately my entire life at one time. and it's kind of hard to do all the things I think I should be doing right now#when that's going on#also thinking too much about trying to love people well and what that means and how bad at it I've been and it's hard not to get stuck ther#when there's basically nothing I can change anyway#(need to have an awkward convo with someone soon... for my sake probably more than theirs#I fear I haven't loved them well and it matters to me to know that our friendship hasn't been compromised#but unfortunately it's also strike one) a boy and strike two) a boy I like#and unfortunately he figured it out and I have a pretty good indication that he doesn't like me back. and I can't tell if he's interested i#a mutual friend#and I am AwkwardTM and trying not to let it bother me. but Fake It Till You Make It#(my philosophy since getting to college)#isn't really going that well for me in this case.#and I think an honest conversation would be the best thing for everyone... except I'm kinda terrified of that lol :') and I want to serve#him well not just serve my own emotions and need for validation)#prayers would be appreciated#that I will love others as they are meant to be loved and not just as I want to love them#or as my selfish emotions and desires think I want to love them#and that I'll be able to know when something needs to be said and when nothing at all is the best option for everyone#God sees and knows. and He loves me. and that is so /so/ hard to believe sometimes but I try to hold onto it with everything I have lately.#gurt says stuff#college stuff#philosophy#one day I'll look back and laugh at undergraduate me#personal tags
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