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moicaire · 1 year ago
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neonbonded · 28 days ago
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They Hear You Insult Yourself—and Decide to Correct It. Thoroughly
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♡ ft. Caleb, Xavier, Rafayel, Zayne, Sylus x fem!reader ♡ cw: body image insecurity, soft angst, intense husband-core reassurance, protective hands everywhere, ends spicy ♡ a/n: it’s just a passing comment. a little sigh, a muttered insult, a careless pinch of skin in the mirror. You didn’t think it mattered. but to them? it’s the worst thing you’ve ever said, and they’ll prove exactly why you’re wrong—slowly, desperately, until you’re gasping their name and forgetting what you ever doubted. PC: @chiaki_0219_3 on X
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Caleb
It happens in the bathroom.
You’re standing in front of the mirror in nothing but a pair of pajama shorts and one of Caleb’s old t-shirts. The cotton clings a little more than you’d like, highlighting the soft lines of your stomach.
You pinch at your side, frowning.
“Ugh. Could stand to lose a few.”
It’s quiet. Barely more than a mutter under your breath. The kind of thing you’ve said a hundred times before without thinking.
You don’t realize Caleb’s there until you hear the sharp inhale behind you.
You freeze.
Your eyes meet his in the mirror—and the look on his face guts you. Wide, shocked, almost hurt. Like he just watched you slap yourself across the face.
“Sweetheart,” he breathes, voice so soft it nearly breaks.
“Caleb—” you start, cheeks hot, already trying to wave it off.
But he doesn’t let you.
In two strides, he’s right behind you. His hands slide around your waist, big palms splaying over your stomach like he’s trying to shield it from your own words. His chin rests on your shoulder, eyes dark as they meet yours in the glass.
“Don’t do that,” he whispers.
“Do what?”
“Say things like that. Look at yourself like that.” His arms tighten. “Talk about yourself like you’re anything less than the best damn thing that’s ever happened to me.”
You swallow hard. “I was just—”
“No.” His voice dips lower, a rough little rasp that turns your legs to water. “You were tearing yourself apart. And I won’t have it.”
His hands slip under your shirt, palms warm and reverent as they stroke over the skin you were just criticizing.
“Do you even know what I see when I look at you?” he murmurs against your neck. “Because it’s sure as hell not flaws. It’s this. All of this.” His hands squeeze, slow and adoring. “Soft and warm and mine.”
Your breath hitches. He catches it with his mouth, pressing a slow, deep kiss to your neck that makes your knees wobble.
“Caleb…”
He turns you gently, until you’re facing him. His eyes are molten—devastated and starving all at once.
“Say something good about yourself,” he whispers.
Your heart twists. “What?”
“Just one thing. For me.”
You hesitate. His thumb strokes your cheek, patient but insistent. So you whisper, “I… like my smile.”
Caleb’s face breaks into this soft, awe-struck grin. Like you just told him you love him for the first time all over again.
“There,” he says, breathless. “That’s the woman I married.”
Then he kisses you—slow at first, then deeper, hungrier, until he’s walking you backward toward the counter. His hands slide under your thighs, lifting you effortlessly onto the cool surface. His mouth never leaves yours, a quiet promise against your lips.
“I’m gonna remind you how perfect you are,” he breathes, hands already pushing your shirt higher. “Until you never doubt it again.”
Xavier
You’re in the bedroom, fussing with the hem of your tank top, trying to decide if it looks too clingy over your stomach.
It’s not like you’re planning to go anywhere—you just caught your reflection in the mirror, and couldn’t stop the little frown that tugged at your lips. The soft exhale that came out more like disappointment.
“Should probably start running again…” you mutter under your breath.
You don’t expect anyone to hear it.
So you jump when a low, quiet voice says behind you:
“…Why would you think that?”
You spin around. Xavier’s standing in the doorway—half-shadowed, hair still slightly damp from the shower. He’s watching you with that usual calm, neutral expression… except his eyes are tight at the edges. Concern. Confusion. Something sharp he doesn’t quite know how to name.
“What?” you try to deflect. “It’s nothing, Xavier.”
But he doesn’t move. Just tilts his head slightly, studying you like he does when reading—like if he stares hard enough, he’ll understand the problem.
“You said you need to run again,” he repeats, voice careful. “Why?”
You shift awkwardly, arms coming up to cross over your stomach. “It’s not a big deal. I just… thought I was getting a little soft, that’s all.”
His brow furrows.
“Soft?” he echoes, like it’s a word he’s never heard before. Then even quieter: “Do you think I would care?”
You blink. “No, I just—I care.”
Another long pause. You can almost see the gears turning. Then he steps closer, hands coming up hesitantly to rest on your sides.
“You think your body is less than it should be,” he says finally. “That it’s wrong somehow.”
It’s not a question. Just this soft, sad realization.
Your throat tightens. “Yeah. Sometimes.”
Xavier’s hands slide up under your arms, slow and warm, until they cradle your face. His thumbs sweep lightly over your cheeks, like he’s trying to memorize every small imperfection you seem to hate.
“I don’t understand,” he admits, voice so quiet it nearly cracks. “When I look at you… all I see is mine. Exactly the way you are. Nothing else even exists.”
Your eyes burn. He dips his forehead to yours, breath stuttering.
“If you ever felt less, it means I’ve failed to show you how I see you,” he whispers. “I won’t let that happen again.”
You start to shake your head, but he stops you with a kiss—soft at first, then deeper, more insistent. His hands slide down to your hips, gripping them gently, pulling you flush against him like he needs to feel every curve.
When he finally pulls back, his mouth brushes your ear.
“Let me prove it,” he breathes. “Let me show you what you do to me.”
And by the time he’s done—lips trailing down your throat, hands learning every inch of you with reverent desperation—there isn’t a single part of you left doubting how wanted you are.
Rafayel
You’re alone in the studio—one of his old, paint-splattered shirts hanging off your shoulders, brushing your bare thighs. You’re not even really trying it on for him. Just grabbed it off a chair because you were chilly.
It doesn’t sit quite right, though. The hem clings a little. Your hips look wider than usual. Your stomach presses soft against the fabric.
You frown at your reflection in the smudged window. Tug at the shirt’s sides, sigh.
“Not exactly a masterpiece, huh?”
You mean it as a joke. An easy, self-deprecating little jab.
Then you hear it.
A sharp intake of breath—like someone punched the air right out of him.
You turn, startled.
Rafayel is standing a few feet away, palette knife still in hand, paint drying on his fingers. His eyes are wide. Bright. Almost glassy.
“What did you just say?” he asks, voice low, careful, but vibrating with something you can’t place.
“Raf, it’s nothing—”
“No, no.” The knife clatters to the floor. He crosses the room in three long strides. “Repeat it. I want to hear it again.”
You flush, heart stuttering. “It was just a joke—”
“Repeat it.”
“Not exactly a masterpiece,” you mutter.
He stares at you for a heartbeat. Two. Then laughs—short, breathless, completely humorless.
“You know what’s tragic, my love?” His hands slide up to cup your jaw, thumb brushing your cheek in this devastatingly tender way. “You stand there wrapped in my clothes, in my colors, and you dare insult the only work of art that’s ever mattered?”
Your throat tightens. “Raf—”
“No,” he cuts in. “No more dismissing it. Do you want to know what I see right now?”
He doesn’t wait for your answer. Drops to his knees right there on the paint-splattered floor, palms smoothing over your thighs. Tilts his head back, eyes dark and shining.
“I see curves that haunt my sketches. A mouth I’ve drawn a hundred times and still can’t get right. Skin that makes me want to abandon every canvas and worship only you.”
His hands slide up under the shirt, fingertips ghosting over your hips, your belly, reverent.
“You’re not exactly a masterpiece?” he breathes, voice breaking into a soft laugh. “Darling, you’re the only thing I’ve ever created that matters—and all I did was love you enough to be allowed this close.”
You shiver. One of your hands finds his hair, tangling there.
“Let me prove it,” he murmurs, lips brushing your stomach. “Let me show you what art was supposed to feel like.”
And then he’s pressing hot, open-mouthed kisses to your skin—slow and adoring, trailing lower until the shirt is bunched around your waist and you’re gasping his name.
By the time he’s finished with you, you’re breathless and wrecked—and there’s no room left in your mind for anything but the way his mouth keeps whispering, “perfect, perfect, perfect.”
Zayne
You’re half-dressed in the bedroom, standing sideways to the mirror—one hand resting on your hip, the other pinching lightly at the curve of your stomach.
You frown. Tug the skin a little. It’s soft. Softer than it used to be.
“God. Look at this—no wonder he doesn’t touch me like he used to.”
It’s barely a mutter. A little jab at yourself, not meant to be heard.
But then there’s a low, flat voice behind you.
“Excuse me?”
You whip around.
Zayne is standing by the door, tie gone, the top buttons of his shirt undone. His eyes are hard, narrowed, dark in a way that’s never been turned on you before.
“What did you just say?”
You flush, wrapping your arms instinctively over your stomach. “It’s nothing. I was joking.”
“Try again.” His voice drops even lower. “Say it exactly the way you did before.”
You swallow. “Zayne—”
“Say it.”
You breathe out, quiet. “I said… no wonder you don’t touch me like you used to.”
For a long moment, he just stares at you. Then something sharp, almost frightening flickers through his eyes—like you’ve insulted him personally.
“You think that’s why?” he asks, stepping closer. Each word slow, deliberate, dangerous. “You think I don’t touch you because of… this?”
His hands catch your wrists, pull them gently but firmly away from your stomach. Then he places them on his chest—over his heart, which is beating hard and fast beneath your palms.
“You are out of your goddamn mind,” he murmurs.
You try to look away. He tips your chin up, forces your gaze back to his.
“Do you know how many times I’ve stood right there,” he nods to the doorway, “watching you get ready, wearing less than this, and had to physically stop myself from bending you over the nearest surface?”
Your breath catches.
His hands slide down to your hips, gripping tight. “How many times I’ve laid next to you in bed and thought I’d give up everything I have just to feel your skin under my mouth again?”
You shiver.
“That softness you hate?” His mouth dips to your ear, voice rough. “It’s what makes you real. It’s what makes you mine. And it’s why I can’t keep my hands off you.”
His teeth scrape your jaw, the tiniest bite, enough to make your knees weak.
“Now,” he breathes, pulling back just enough to look at you—eyes dark, pupils blown. “Say it again. Tell me why I wouldn’t touch you.”
Your lips part, but nothing comes out. Your throat is too tight.
He smirks. Leans in until his lips just ghost yours.
“That’s what I thought.”
Then he kisses you—hard, deep, his hands already sliding under your thighs to lift you up, carrying you to the bed with single-minded purpose.
And when he finally lays you out beneath him, he doesn’t just prove how wrong you were. He makes sure you never dare to think that way again.
Sylus
You’re in the closet, half-dressed for bed. Just a tank top and your underwear, the overhead light stark and unflattering. You catch a glimpse of your reflection—skin folding a little where you’re bent, faint marks on your hips—and sigh.
Pinch lightly at your side, muttering under your breath:
“Looks worse every year.”
Then you hear it.
A low, dark chuckle from behind you.
Your heart jumps. You spin around—Sylus is leaning in the doorway, shoulder propped against the frame, arms crossed over his chest. Watching you like a cat watching a wounded bird.
“You want to try that again?” he drawls, one brow arching. “Because I must’ve misheard.”
You cross your arms, feeling small under that sharp red gaze. “Forget it. It was just stupid.”
“No,” he says easily, pushing off the door and sauntering toward you, slow and predatory. “Don’t walk it back now. I want to hear it.”
“Sylus—”
“Say it,” he interrupts, voice low and dangerous as he stops right in front of you. “Tell me exactly what you just told your reflection.”
Your throat tightens. You try to look away. He catches your chin between his fingers, forces your eyes to meet his.
“I said…” You swallow. “It looks worse every year.”
There’s a beat of silence.
Then he laughs. Not warm or amused—dark. Almost cruel.
“Oh, sweetheart,” he breathes, mouth curling into a smirk that doesn’t reach his eyes. “You really don’t have a clue, do you?”
Before you can flinch away, his hands are on your waist—big, hot palms sliding up under your shirt, dragging you closer until your hips bump.
“You think this”—he squeezes lightly, fingers digging into the softness you were just criticizing—“makes you less? You think I look at you and see something aging, something spoiled?”
He ducks his head, lips brushing your ear in a breath that makes you shiver.
“No. I see something I’ve ruined so thoroughly you can’t even recognize your own perfection anymore.”
Your breath hitches. His teeth graze your throat, hands sliding lower to grip your ass, pulling you flush against the hard line of his body.
“Every year, every mark, every soft edge—proof you’re mine. Proof of how many times I’ve had you, bent you over this very dresser, made you scream.”
His mouth trails down your neck, biting softly.
“You think I’d ever want you any other way?”
You manage to shake your head, breathless.
“Good,” he growls.
Then he lifts you effortlessly—like you weigh nothing—sets you down on the dresser, steps between your knees. His hands bracket your thighs, thumbs pressing little bruises into your skin.
“Because I’m about to remind you exactly how beautiful you are,” he murmurs, voice like silk wrapped around steel. “And tomorrow? When you catch yourself in the mirror? You’ll remember who put that glow there.”
Then he kisses you—deep, claiming, a little rough—like he has something to prove. And by the time he’s done, your reflection is the last thing on your mind.
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shellem15 · 1 year ago
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Can I just say, I really appreciate how Critical Role plays the Devil trope straight. There's been this phenomena in a lot of modern media (I'm not going to mention specifics but I'm sure a few examples pop up in people's minds) where Hell and the Devil aren't scary or malevolent forces. Hell is portrayed as being basically the same as our world just "edgier", and the Devil is a pretty decent guy actually. Heaven are secretly the real bad guys!
But Critical Role doesn't do that. In Exandria, Asmodeus *feels* like the Devil. He's malevolent and manipulative and terrifyingly powerful and he hates you, personally. We never see that type of portrayal anymore! And it's amazing! And he still manages to be sympathetic and tragic without losing his edge!
And the "Good Gods" are portrayed as flawed without being secretly evil or something! Like, actual nuance? In my Heaven/Hell dichotomy? What!?
It's just such a breath of fresh air after so many "The Devil was right, actually" stories. So props to Matt and Brennan and the cast.
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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 9 months ago
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Burning Rotten Bridges
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#mianmian#nie mingjue#jin guangyao#JGY is nothing but outwardly calm and carrying on his duties as the chair for the meeting#but in that small pause after Nie Mingjue commemorates Mianmian for leaving...you can feel the tension.#Because Nie Mingjue comes from a place of privilege. He's always been in a position where his legitimacy and political standing-#-were never challenged. He didn't have to fight for respect. He was born into this world respected.#For people like Mianmian and JGY who clawed their way up from the bottom...this is a huge deal.#Truth be told I have a lot of things to say about what it means and feels to be in a position where leaving is messy.#There are times where the situation is bad but to leave means that those years of your life will have been for nothing.#That all the other suffering incurred will be fruitless. So you just *keep going*. Because it *has* to be worth it.#Because going back to what you were before is even more terrifying than the hell you are boiling in.#My concrete example for this is post-grad academia.#Because that cohort will have spent over a decade pursuing a goal and leaving means...well...it means throwing away those years.#It means losing (likely nearly all) your connections. It means going into debt you'll never pay off.#It means putting up with some pretty heinous abuse from your supervisor because what are you suppose to do? Leave?#Leaving is for those with the privilege to have options.#And even if you do have options...#Ultimately we would rather love the pain we know than risk the unknown. Hoping it's worth it one day.#With that mindset established; never say JGY should have just left like Mianmian. He couldn't. This was what he dedicated his life to.#He never had the option. Even if it seemed like he did - no he did not. He never conceived this ending ever happening for himself.
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ghost-bxrd · 1 year ago
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Prompt:
It’s not that Jason forgot, per se.
But between smuggling a toddler out of the League of Assassins, trekking halfway across the world, and finding a suitable hiding place that’s also child friendly… well, it kind of slipped his mind that he’s supposed to be… dead.
Something that comes back to bite him in the ass when he takes Dami out for some ice cream and just so happens to run into non other than Brucie-fucking-Wayne
#look I’ve found a new fave trope and it’s Brucie Wayne having to keep up his act while internally LOSING HIS SHIT#Jason isn’t very into the whole revenge thing here#his mind is 85 parts ‘keep Dami safe’ 5 parts ‘kill joker asap’ and 10 parts ‘avoid bats at any cost’#Jason doesn’t know who Damian’s father is#dealer’s choice if Jason establishes himself as Dami’s dad or older brother#his build certainly makes him look old enough#if you don’t look at his baby face lol#Jason runs into Brucie and goes straight into survival mode#Damian who is very observant for a toddler immediately clocks Brucie as THREAT based on Jason’s reaction#Brucie blue screens and desperately tries not to lose Jason in the crowd#jason is absolutely trying to lose Brucie in the crowd#while clutching Damian like his life depends on it#for all he knows it does#the visceral terror that your pseudo dad will take away your little brother/baby#Bruce who just wants to know if he’s hallucinating again: W A I T#jason who is terrified of being put in Arkham for killing people: no FUCKING WAY#hm maybe Jason plays the ‘I’m not Jason’ game again#it’s not gonna hold for long#but Bruce absolutely thinks that Damian is Jason’s bio child for a while and he’s on the WARPATH#Jason was sixteen when he died and never showed any interest in dating so literally every red flag is waving in brucie’s mind simultaneousl#or maybe Jason manages to get away and all Brucie is left with is the memory of his supposedly dead son#running away from him#and clutching a tiny kid#prompts#jason todd#batfamily#Damian wayne#batdad#brucie wayne
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turtleblogatlast · 1 year ago
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I love Raph and haven’t said that enough so to be more specific I love that Raph is a soft boy who loves bear plushies, a gross boy who eats an assortment of things that are definitely better left alone, a smart boy who is more than capable of taking down villains through planning and fortitude alike, a strong boy who is dedicated to training his muscles and fighting prowess, a teenage boy who loves his brothers but is more than happy to tease and roughhouse with them, an angry boy who sometimes lets his anger take a hold of him to cover the fear, a gentle boy who is generous with hugs and affirmations to those he loves, a capable boy who takes on more than should ever be expected of a teenager, a good boy who just wants to be a hero and slowly comes to realize the cost of that duty, a good boy who has no reservations about putting himself in the way of harm coming to his family, a good boy who’s a great brother and son and person and deserves only the best the world has to offer.
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt raph#rise raph#he’s so wonderful frfr#my poor boy is traumatized but still so proud of what they accomplished because they’re HEROES#what started as something fun - Saturday morning cartoon-like heroes vs villains esque - soon becomes his calling#and he loses himself a little along the way#because the world is TERRIFYING now#if they don’t do something about the bad things in the world then worse things will come#and Raph CARES too much to let it happen#even at the expense of his own happiness and youth#and he luckily reigns back that fear - knowing his family is there to keep an eye out with him#and he finally lets himself be a kid again#he’s very well rounded and his flaws are so good because (like the others) they are ALSO his strengths#I like how it’s softly implied that bears are his fav animal too bc that’s cute af#headcanon that he likes them so much because a stuffed bear was the first toy splinter managed to get Raph#but yeah one of my favorite things about tmnt is that the characters are well rounded and rottmnt exemplifies that immensely#with raph being no exception!!#amazing big brother and character#there’s a REASON in my tmnt main character tierlist he’s S tier!!!!#hot take but in terms of who should be leader I think it should be less who’s the better leader-#-and more who’s the better leader FOR THIS SPECIFIC MISSION#bc all four can be great leaders fight me on that#APRIL can as well 100%#doesn’t need a designated leader for them to succeed#they just need ~communication~#one of my favorite things tying Raph and Leo together is that they both *hide*#I’ve talked about Leo’s many masks a lot but Raph has one too#and it’s the mask of a hero - the mask of the protector
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bunnieswithknives · 3 months ago
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More AU doodles. I dont think the kids fully understand what's happened
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dykedvonte · 10 months ago
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The absolute terror Curly must've been in upon realizing he was going to be hit dead-on during the crash and the dreadful agony that dawned when he realized he survived.
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cosmicmenacee · 4 months ago
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i adore how cubfan can simultaneously be the most endearing and the most terrifying person to ever exist
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arkangelo-7 · 6 months ago
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Imagine being new to the Justice League and being assigned to Bat Carrying Duty.
Like, it’s the end of the battle and everyone’s getting ready to go back to the Hall of Justice for some ret-con or something, and Green Lantern turns to this terrified newbie and tells them to go pick up Batman. Why? Because the Bat-plane got hit and that bitch can’t fly, so he needs to get back to headquarters somehow.
And this poor baby superhero has to awkwardly go over to Batman and try to pick him up, all while Batman’s grumbling about the League’s incompetence and telling this kid not to touch his utility belt bc of they press the wrong thing it might explode. This kid then has to bridal-carry the fucking Batman across state lines, enduring what is the most painfully awkward silence in all of human history. And the whole time this newbie is praying that they don’t drop Batman bc that would piss Bat’s off and that in turn would piss Superman off—and that’s a recipe for disaster.
But then they finally get back to the Hall of Justice and the entire league is there laughing their assess off bc apparently getting assigned to carry around the League’s resident Scary Human is an initiation ritual/hazing thing.
And the kid is red in the face the entire time. Batman is unamused
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sanhatipal · 7 days ago
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PH BAG CHAIIIIINNNNNNN
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I figured out how to make DIY enamel pins so OF COURSE I had to make this. It's a bit extra but honestly I'm really happy with it
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I'll make a video tutorial on enamel pins eventually, and I might make another copy of this,to keep with my merch
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neonbonded · 1 month ago
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Late Isn’t Just Late—Not When It’s You
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♡ ft. Caleb, Xavier, Rafayel, Zayne, Sylus x reader ♡ cw: emotional panic, protective husband-core, soft fear turned desperate kisses, subtle possessiveness, implied spicy aftermath ♡ a/n: you didn’t think it was a big deal. your phone died, you stayed out a little too long, lost track of time. But for them? it was hours of empty rooms, worst-case scenarios on repeat, and the sick, cold feeling of what if you never came back? PC: @KikiZhouU on X
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Caleb
It’s well past midnight when you finally push the door open.
You’re not trying to be quiet—just tired. The kind of heavy, achy tired that sinks into your bones after a long day out. You didn’t mean to be gone so long. Didn’t think to text after your phone died. Didn’t realize how dark it had gotten.
Until you walk in and see him.
Caleb’s on the couch—still in his jeans and t-shirt from hours ago. Shoes half-kicked off. Hair a mess from running his hands through it. One foot taps the floor in this tense, uneven rhythm that only stops when the door clicks shut behind you.
His head snaps up.
“Where the hell were you?” he blurts.
You blink. “I—babe, I was just at Tara’s. My phone died—”
He exhales like he’s been punched. Closes his eyes. For a second it looks like he might actually get angry—like he’s gearing up for a frustrated rant.
But when he stands, it’s not anger in his face.
It’s relief. Blazing, gut-deep, almost painful relief.
He crosses the room in two strides, grabs your shoulders, and pulls you into him so hard you almost stumble. One hand cradles the back of your head, the other grips your waist like he’s terrified you’ll vanish again.
“You didn’t text. You always text,” he breathes into your hair. “I didn’t know if—what if something happened? What if someone—”
“Caleb—” you start, but he’s already shaking his head.
“You can’t do that to me, sweetheart. Not you. I can’t—I was picturing every damn thing that could’ve gone wrong. And then I kept trying to tell myself I was overreacting, but—”
He pulls back just enough to see your face. His eyes are rimmed red, tired in a way that makes your heart twist.
“I’m sorry,” you whisper. “I didn’t mean to scare you.”
“Yeah, well…” His voice cracks on a laugh that’s way too close to a sob. “You did.”
And then he’s kissing you.
Hard. Messy. Hands on your face, tilting you just so he can deepen it, mouth moving against yours like he needs to memorize every taste. Like he’s trying to remind himself this is real—you’re real, warm and alive and back in his arms.
When he finally pulls away, breath ragged, he rests his forehead against yours.
“You come home late again,” he murmurs, voice low, rough, “I’m not letting you out of this house for a week. I’ll tie you to the bed if I have to.”
You smile, lips ghosting over his. “That a promise or a threat?”
His answering grin is shaky, but it’s there. His hands slip lower, grip tightening.
“Oh, sweetheart,” he breathes, eyes dark, “with you? It’s always both.”
Xavier
You expect darkness when you step inside.
It’s late. The streets were empty on your drive back. You were already rehearsing your apology for not calling—battery dead, didn’t think it’d get so late, I’m sorry, I’m sorry—when the door shuts behind you and you see it.
The lights are still on.
Soft golden glow spilling from the kitchen, faint shadows dancing in the hallway.
And then there’s him.
Xavier’s standing by the kitchen counter. Perfectly still. One hand resting over his mouth, the other braced against the countertop like he’s been leaning there for a long time.
His eyes snap to you the second you enter.
Not annoyed. Not relieved. Just… intense.
He doesn’t move right away. Just stares at you—like he’s making sure you’re actually real, not some trick of the light.
“Xavier,” you start softly. “I’m—”
Before you can finish, he pushes off the counter and closes the space between you in three long strides.
His hands come up, cup your face so carefully it makes your chest ache. His thumbs sweep over your cheeks, under your eyes, as if he’s checking for damage. As if you might vanish if he doesn’t hold you just right.
“You’re late,” he says, voice low. Controlled. But there’s something off in it—something rougher than usual.
“I know. My phone died, and then Tara wanted to—”
“I thought something happened.”
Your heart stutters.
His hands drop from your face only to slip around your waist, pulling you in until your chest is pressed to his. You feel his breath stutter against your temple.
“You’ve been gone for hours. I ran a hundred scenarios,” he admits quietly. “None of them ended well.”
You rest your hands over his chest. Feel the steady pound of his heart, faster than usual.
“Xavier… I’m okay. I promise.”
He nods—once. Short. Like he’s accepting it because he needs to, not because he’s fully convinced.
Then his head dips. His lips brush yours—light, almost cautious. Until your hands slide up into his hair and you kiss him back.
That’s when he breaks.
His arms tighten. The kiss goes from soft to starved in a heartbeat—his mouth moving over yours with a hunger he rarely shows, breath catching on tiny, almost desperate sounds that he swallows down.
When he finally pulls back, there’s the faintest tremor in his hands where they rest on your hips.
“You’ll tell me next time,” he says—not quite a question, not quite a demand.
You smile, breathless. “Of course.”
His eyes flick over your face, lingering on your lips.
“Good,” he murmurs. Then softer—closer to a confession than anything he’s ever said before:
“Because I’m not sure I’d survive it twice.”
Rafayel
You don’t even make it past the front door.
You’re halfway through dropping your keys in the bowl when Rafayel comes barreling out of the hallway—barefoot, hair mussed, paint still drying on the cuff of his sleeve.
He stops dead when he sees you. Stares. And for a terrifying half-second you think he’s angry.
But then his mouth parts on a shaky exhale, and you realize he’s not angry at all.
He’s terrified.
“Where were you?” he breathes. It’s not sharp. It’s hoarse, like it’s been clawing up his throat for hours.
“My phone died,” you start, heart sinking. “I was just at Tara’s—”
“Just at Tara’s,” he repeats, voice rising, hands flying to rake through his hair. “Do you have any idea what my mind does when you’re late? When I call and call and it goes to voicemail? I pictured your car crushed on the highway, I pictured—god, I pictured—”
He cuts himself off, eyes wet, jaw flexing.
“Raf—”
“No, don’t ‘Raf’ me,” he snaps, but it’s weak. His hands drop to his sides, clenching and unclenching like he doesn’t know what to do with them. “I had paintings to finish. Commissions, deadlines—I couldn’t even pick up the brush. I was too busy seeing your face on a morgue slab in my head.”
Your throat goes tight.
You step toward him.
He steps back. Shakes his head, blinking rapidly.
“I’m being dramatic, I know—what else is new—but you don’t get it,” he says, voice breaking. “You don’t get what it’s like to need someone the way I need you. It’s visceral. It’s ugly. It’s—I can’t create if I think you’re gone.”
“Hey,” you whisper, reaching out.
He catches your wrist in both hands—almost too tight. Stares down at where your skin meets his.
And then the dam breaks.
He tugs you into him with a desperate sound, arms locking around your shoulders so hard you’re breathless. His nose buries in your hair, breath shuddering against your ear.
“You’re here,” he whispers. Over and over. “You’re here, you’re here, you’re here—”
Your hands slip under his shirt, feeling the frantic drum of his heartbeat.
“I’m here,” you promise.
When he finally pulls back, his eyes are glassy, lashes damp. But there’s a crooked smile curling on his lips.
“Next time you decide to terrify me,” he murmurs, thumb brushing your cheek, “at least let me paint you first. So I’ll have something to haunt me properly.”
You laugh. He kisses you—soft at first, then rougher, hungrier, hands sliding into your hair with a low groan.
And by the time he’s backing you against the nearest wall, muttering “never scare me like that again” against your mouth, you’re pretty sure the painting will have to wait.
Zayne
You don’t even get your shoes off.
The door swings shut behind you, you’re juggling your bag and keys, already rehearsing your apology—when you see him.
Zayne is standing at the end of the hall.
Still in his scrubs. Shoes on. A faint smear of sanitizer on his wrist like he’s been compulsively scrubbing his hands. His glasses are pushed up high on the bridge of his nose, but his eyes are darker than you’ve ever seen them.
You open your mouth. He cuts you off.
“Where were you?”
It’s not sharp. It’s worse—it’s flat. Completely stripped of inflection, like he’s trying to keep something dangerous from breaking loose.
“My phone died,” you start, heart sinking. “And Tara needed help with—”
“You were supposed to be home at six.”
He doesn’t move. Doesn’t blink. Just watches you.
You try to fill the silence. “I know. I lost track of time, it was stupid, I’m sor—”
“You didn’t call.”
It hits you then—how tightly he’s holding himself. Arms folded. Shoulders locked. Like if he lets go, he might fly apart.
“Zayne, I’m okay,” you say softly.
And that’s when his composure cracks.
He takes one slow step forward, then another. By the time he reaches you, his hands are shaking.
He cups your face like he’s afraid you’ll flinch—thumb brushing your cheekbone, eyes searching yours so intensely it hurts. His breath hitches, chest stuttering against yours.
“You can’t do that,” he murmurs. Voice low. Rough. “You can’t just disappear and expect me to function.”
“I didn’t mean to scare you,” you whisper.
He lets out this soft, unsteady sound—half a laugh, half a breathless sigh. His forehead tips to yours.
“You didn’t just scare me,” he says. “You hollowed me out. I couldn’t focus, I couldn’t think—every worst-case scenario was playing on a loop in my head.”
Your hands slip up to his shoulders. You feel the tremor there, the tight coil of muscle that hasn’t let go since you were late.
“I’m sorry.”
He swallows. Closes his eyes.
Then when he opens them again, there’s something new there—dark, possessive, desperate.
“Don’t ever do it again.”
Before you can answer, he’s kissing you—deep, hungry, nothing like his usual restrained affection. His hands slide into your hair, grip tightening until it almost hurts. His mouth moves over yours like he’s starving, like he needs to memorize you all over again to prove you’re real.
When he finally pulls back, breath ragged, his voice drops to a hoarse whisper.
“Next time you’re late,” he mutters, lips brushing your ear, “I’m putting a tracker under your skin.”
You laugh—shaky, breathless. ��Romantic.”
His answering smile is faint. Crooked. But it’s there.
“You think I’m joking.”
And the way his hands roam your hips, tugging you closer, says he absolutely is not.
Sylus
The door barely shuts before you’re pinned.
Not by force—just by presence. Sylus is leaning against the entryway console, arms crossed over his chest, dark eyes tracking your every move like a sniper scope.
“Late night?” he drawls. Voice smooth. Almost lazy. But there’s a razor edge beneath it.
You swallow, forcing a small smile. “Tara's party ran long. My phone died—”
“Convenient.”
You pause halfway out of your coat. “Excuse me?”
He pushes off the console, stalking toward you with that predatory grace that always sets your pulse racing. Except this time, there’s no teasing glint in his eyes. Just something sharp. Barely restrained.
“Sylus, I didn’t mean to worry you—”
“Don’t flatter yourself,” he cuts in, stepping close enough that your back hits the wall. “You think I was worried? Please.”
But the way his jaw clenches, the way his hands curl at his sides like he’s stopping himself from grabbing you—says otherwise.
You tilt your head, breath shallow. “Then what’s this? Because you look ready to murder someone.”
He laughs—low, bitter. “Murder’s easy. It’s waiting for you to walk through that door that almost killed me.”
Your heart stutters.
He leans in, one hand braced on the wall beside your head. His breath fans across your cheek, and suddenly it’s hard to think.
“You can disappear for hours without a single damn word, and I’m left here imagining every possibility,” he murmurs, voice rougher now. “You want to scare me? Congratulations. You did.”
“Sylus—”
“Don’t do it again.”
He doesn’t give you time to answer. His mouth crashes to yours—hard, hungry, almost punishing. One hand tangles in your hair, the other grips your waist so tight you whimper against his lips.
He pulls back just enough to rasp, “If something ever happened to you…I wouldn’t just burn down this town. I’d salt the ground so nothing could grow back.”
Your breath hitches. “That’s...dramatically romantic.”
A dark smirk tugs at his mouth. “That’s me. Always sentimental.”
Then his hand slips lower, squeezing your hip, voice dropping to a dangerous whisper.
“Now get upstairs. I’ve been waiting all night to remind you exactly who you belong to.”
And by the time he’s done, you’re pretty sure you’ll never dare come home late again.
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finnyfinster · 1 year ago
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WHY DO THEY ONLY SAY I LOVE YOU WHEN THE OTHER CAN'T HEAR THEM GOD DAMMIT
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kaynes-missing-socks · 2 days ago
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2000s MTV dating gameshow but its all the entities that have fallen in love with Arthur trying to win a date with him. Unfortunately, as a result of stalking Arthur's entire life, Kayne is able to answer pretty much every question about Arthur's preferences correctly. And Yorick is the host. Arthur hates this entire idea.
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kat1nkulta · 11 months ago
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I can’t stop thinking about Loop. Imagine doing everything, anything, to get out of a traumatic situation but the price is you. Your body is gone, your name is gone, your family doesn’t recognize you, you feel like most of your memories of them are gone too anyway. Suddenly you’re denied your identity. It’s like YOU never existed… and someone else took your place. You, whose biggest fears are forgetting and being forgotten in turn. You, who’s hesitant to change and now you’re forced to. You can’t even really blame anyone else because you did get your wish, right?
It’s explained clearly in the game, but the implications of it just hit me extra hard sometimes. Siffrin is as much of a study of Loop as Loop is of Siffrin. They share(d) their fears too so mal du pays words essentially becoming the truth to Loop is just… 🪨🪨🪨🙁🙁🙁💥💥💥💥
What do you do when all you have is ripped from you, all your worst fears come true, and youre forced to just… come to terms with it?
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mandareeboo · 3 months ago
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The funniest thing about Scrooge McDuck as a character is that he's never gonna die to something lame. He's constantly making deals to extend his life, cure ailments, and ward off curses. He's canonically like three hundred years old and has no intentions of stopping. The ONLY way Scrooge McDuck is going out is by some very expensive, very ancient artifact; probably Scottish, probably a blade, and probably encrusted in like uranium or some shit. Maybe shoe polish.
And, honestly? I think he'd be super impressed if someone managed to do it and would be like, fair play to ye, gold star, obnoxious slow clap.
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