#so that is the vibe i'm trying to bring to this function do you understand yet

[hood-ex]

All I see is Dick clinging to Vic to try and slow him down while they're playing basketball with the other Titans. Gar of course would follow in tripping Vic up, and it would end with everyone dogpiling Vic.

[dippubear]

It's my v-pet collection aaaaa

This is random but I posted this to my Bluesky and I want to yap about it in more detail so here I go.

This is my V-Pet collection so far. I started with the Digimon Pendulum 20th which is the grey/black one on the left. I grabbed it back in 2018 and those things command for outrages prices on the secondary market now. I only now started taking it semi seriously after the re-release of the Tamagotchi Connection since I grew up with that specific device.

I don't really have a goal in mind when it comes to collecting Tamagotchi and/or Digimon and may just grab the ones that are reasonably priced or catch my interest. I know Bandai is starting to do crossovers with the Digimon V-Pets but I can't bring myself to buy those especially when the general gameplay loop is the same as the DM-20 as far as I understand (please correct me if I'm wrong).

That being said, I've been gravitating towards Tamagotchi more due to cost, accessibility, colors, and general variety. I could turn this into a mini rant of sorts when comparing Digimon to Tamagotchi but that's not the vibe I wanna bring...not yet, anyway. I just like how different a lot of the Tamagotchi devices are and I'm so excited to grab a Paradise when those drop.

The Tamagotchi that I definitely want to grab when I have the money would be the 4u and Meets/On. I hear those devices can allow for custom content and that sounds like another fun project that I would love to do. Sadly, all those devices are pretty expensive on the secondary market and will cost close to or well above the triple digits. The Tamagotchi Smart (white box on the right) also allows for custom content but that requires additional hardware and software. I *may* try it out but I feel like that's more trouble than it's worth and I don't want to risk bricking it.

I don't know if I have a favorite V-Pet yet, but I've been gravitating towards the Tamagotchi Uni (purple/green one) and the Digimon X (blue and highlighter yellow). The Uni is relatively low maintenance and, admittedly, a bit too idle but I think that works for me as that's compatible with the life I'm living right now. For something more involved, I have been enjoying the Digimon X as well. The Digimon X is probably the one I would recommend people if they really want to get into V-Pets. While the roster is smaller than the other Digimon devices, the gameplay makes up for it and is like...the simplest little RPG that would can interact with throughout the day. Also, it has a pause function which the other V-Pets don't offer other than the Pendulum 20th.

The Tamagotchi Connection (the blue bubble one) has been a treat for me as that's the main one I played when I was a kid. I believe it was the same shell too so I got blasted by nostalgia when I turned it on. It's still a fun device but I think I need to grab another one so I can take advantage of the connectivity features. It's also missing the companion website from back in the day, TamaTown, so that's also a huge bummer.

The only other one of note is that I did a custom paint job for the Digimon 20th, the one on the far left. You can see the original colors at the top where the connection is. I found the orange to be really unappealing so I tried to make it a bit more...personal! I'm glad with how it turned out and it was surprisingly easy to take apart. This is probably my least favorite device out of the bunch but it's still fun! And also the only Digimon device here that you can get for, like, 10 bucks which is a steal.

I've been rambling too long about this but I wanted to get my thoughts out there because why the hell not? Like I said, I definitely want to grab more when I have the chance to. I'm still a newbie to this scene so I want to try and get into the nitty-gritty of these funny little creatures and see if there are any hidden gems amongst the crowd. I'll also probably figure out a better backdrop for it because my bookshelf is not the most appealing thing in the world. There are a lot of art books there that are way too big for it but one day I may ramble about that too.

if you read all of this, thank for taking the time to do so. I hope that you were at least as interested as I was when I rediscovered these nifty little devices.

[padawan-snack-packer]

You ever have a dream so VIOLENTLY good about your fav blorbos that you wake up and immediately start writing notes on your phone with your eyes still 75% closed like some kind of cryptid trying to speedrun mortality???

Because anyway. Anyway. I had a dream last night about BEARDED EZRA (sorry to the shaved!Ezra enjoyers but this is my personal biblical event. Like the second I saw the concept art where he was shaved at the Ahsoka panel recently, I CRUMBLED like a dying star. Like. Bring back the scruff 2025 I am NOT WELL).

LOOK AT HIM- ANYWAY.

And. Listen. BESTIE LISTEN TO ME. He was a guitarist. A guitarist. Do you understand- Do you COMPREHEND what it DOES to a person to see a man with mid-length messy hair, ocean-in-a-storm blue eyes, a beard sent directly by the Maker, strumming a black electric guitar like he’s personally exorcising demons??????? I was like a medieval peasant seeing a comet????????

And it was a Band AU. A BAND AU.!!!!!! In my dream. Like what am I??? Some kind of Mortis-visioned DELPHI ORACLE?? Receiving divine transmissions from the Force itself????

Sabine was obviously there because if you think I’m dreaming about Ezra without Sabine that’s actually a CRIME punishable by law. She was the bassist, looking like she could and WOULD crash a hoverbike through your living room just for fun. Colorful undercut, ripped jeans, eyeliner so sharp it could cut kyber.

And THEN. THEN- They had that spicy little backstage argument energy, the kind where you KNOW it's about to turn into something else. Probably about something stupid like Ezra refusing to follow the setlist and Sabine calling him "tough guy" in a tone that made him lose all higher brain function.

Ezra, tuning his guitar backstage: "You gonna glare at me all night Sab, or are you saving it for when I forget the bridge again?" Sabine, not even looking up from restringing her bass: "Depends. You gonna actually play it this time or just fake it and pray your 'charm' saves you?" Ezra, smirking: "You admit it. You think I’m charming." Sabine, deadly calm: "I think you’re an idiot with nice hands. Don’t make it weird." Ezra, grinning like he absolutely plans to make it weird: "You watching my hands, Mandalorian?" Sabine, snapping a string with unnecessary violence: "Only so I know where to stab first if you screw up the encore." Ezra, cocky: "Knew you were thinking about my hands."

And mid-argument??? He just SNAPPED. Like grabbed her face snapped. Like he kissed her so hard I almost woke up from the psychic whiplash alone.

It got HEATED IMMEDIATELY. Like they were about to start a whole separate concert backstage but FOR ADULTS.

And THEN I WOKE UP.

No plot. No backstory. No "this is why the band formed" lore. Just chaos, static, and vibes. Just a force vision beamed directly into my brain like I’m some kind of tragic little mortal at the mercy of the galaxy’s whims.

What am I supposed to DO with that??? I already have 300 WIPs standing by like Red Squadron but apparently we’re adding band!Ezrabine backstage kiss tension slowburn rivals-to-lovers-to-bandmates-to-lovers-again fic to the queue now?????

God. GOD.

Not that I'm complaining, OF COURSE, because spiritually I am a Victorian child getting handed an iPad full of ezrabine content. But my sister in Mandalore, I ALREADY have like six main fics running weekly like some kind of deranged hollow tree filled with plot squirrels, and now THIS?? I am CRUMBLING. I am disintegrating. I am holding it together worse than my weird little tomato/red onion-carrot breakfast cakes which, by the way, are collapsing under their own weight on the counter like tragic, savory soufflés of shame.

WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO-

[batsarebetterthanpeople]

Ok if you want to understand why it hate the word transmasc so much I need you to walk with me. If you're a trans person coming out in the 2020s you might not understand this the same way I don't really understand why trans people who came out in the 90s and early 2000s want to get their surgeries and then pretend they were cis the whole time. But I hope we can get to the level of at least intellectual understanding that I have of where they're coming from even if I don't emotionally get it.

So I'll set the scene for you. I'm a young trans boy aged 12 who identifies as a butch lesbian because thats literally the only words I have for my discomfort with my own body and my burning desire to look like a man. I look upon pictures of my favorite male rock stars with an almost cancerous jealousy. The hypocrisy of dressing like Siouxie Sioux and identifying as a butch is not lost on me and neither is the irony of jerking it to slash lemons on Fanfiction.net while identifying as a lesbian but my language is so narrow that I can't really do anything else. I think my nice liberal parents explained transgender to me but in a way that excluded me as someone who used to play with Barbies and wanted to be a figure skater when my mom made me play hockey. So butch I was. And then I kept seeing Pinterest screenshots of a blogging platform called Tumblr and a lot of the Percy Jackson yaoi I was reading would link there so I said maybe they'll have some neat fan art and more pictures of [pedophile band redacted]

So I made myself a blog.

And I bet if you're a gen z millennial cusp you already know where this is going. Not only did I learn what being transgender really was, I learned neo pronouns and words like quiosexual and demiromantic demisexual demiboy and you know a lot of these things were made up by bored and isolated kids like me who knew they were queer and didn't have any friends because they were queer and wanted to know something their bullies didn't and didn't end up sticking. But to me, someone who's options were previously bisexual, lesbian, and straight, none of which fit, I felt like I was Dorothy seeing color for the first time. Its trite and cringe but without the internet trigenders I would have killed myself before I ever encountered a proper queer space in the wild to put the idea that I as a skirt wearing goth girl terrified of boys calling her the g word (girlfriend) could grow up to be a fudge packing faggot in my head where it needed to be.

TL;DR: the culture of radical acceptance on 2013 Tumblr literally saved my life.

And there's a few things I need to explain about this culture. I'm gonna show you a comic. Some of you might not have seen it, I think it's fallen out of circulation by now, because I can't find it with Tumblrs search function and the gender politics of this website have moved on from this vibe (which I think is a bad thing but we'll get there) I want to apologize in advance to the artist for reposting their work and if you know who made it please let me know so I can properly credit them.

This was an incredibly popular comic to come out of this Tumblr era. I think I reblogged it at least twice on my old blog which I deleted when I was 16. (Don't even remember my URL if I'm honest) This was the energy we were bringing. Gender was intensely personal. Nosey cis people were always up in your business trying to figure out what you were but they wouldn't take cloudgender for an answer so they weren't getting one. Amongst other trans people we would say any old insane shit we liked to describe our genders (I had migrated over to being bigender at this point. She/he type shit. I've always been pretty basic tho. Mad respect to the people who actually had weird ones) but cis people were not intelligent enough to get it so they would simply be memed on. I'm not saying this culture didn't have problems. We were generally unapproachable, but who could blame us when we were mainly getting shoved in lockers in real life. I also wonder about racial politics of learning stargender in the same infographic I learned hijra and two spirit in. But the spirit of being androgynous and refusing to conform to the gender binary was the part I need you to take away.

The mainstream culture and Tumblr both have gotten quite a bit more conservative since then. Since my trans awakening I've watched in horror as cryptoterfs and transmedicalists have invaded the community that saved my life demanding that I disclose what's in my pants. The radical nondisclosure that I think was one of the things that made the community so special in spite of all it's microlabels and discourse was replaced by anons demanding to know whether you were TMA or TME, transmasc or transfem and duping us into it by using progressive language to sell us on these binaries.

Gone on tumblr were the days when it was generally accepted that men were one thing, women were a different thing and nonbinary people were neither or both or a secret third thing or whatever they wanted to be. Now if you have a vagina and you're nonbinary you're trans man lite and if you have a penis and you're nonbinary you're trans woman lite. Fuck you multi gender people. And if you're a trans man or a trans woman you have to be ok with your gender being watered down to euphemism.

And I do understand the appeal of having umbrella terms to build solidarity. But we already had that. That word is transgender. That word is LGBTQIA2S. That word is Genderqueer. I have no problem wearing those labels because those boxes don't prescriptively assume something about my personal journey with gender. They don't ascribe a certain aesthetic presentation or assume I've had this specific experience but not that one. They're a nice wide container for my gender to lay in amongst all the other ones without being constrained by prescriptive assumptions.

And those terms (genderqueer, transgender, LGBT+), generally speaking, are the ones with which I've been able to build the most solidarity in real life. They're good words that people who came out in the 70s and 80s understand just as well as people who came out in the 2020s as well as everyone in between.

Conversely Transmasc feels like a box. You're a trans man (or a CAFAB nonbinary) so you must be masculine. That's the thing that my parents believed that almost killed me. That's the belief that made it so that I had to spend 6 and a half years knowing exactly what I was but not able to do anything about it. And it's what made me spend at least 3 years but probably more of my very short life before that knowing that there was something wrong with me but not thinking the word transgender could be the thing. Its a corrosive belief that seemingly progressive cisgender people have that was responsible for two decades of debilitating gender dysphoria and 3 suicide attempts, and now I have to put up with it in the community that saved me from even more of that? Fuck off.

And thats not even to mention the complete destruction of solidarity between trans men and trans women. we are way more alike than different. I talk about it with trans women in my real life and it brings us closer together. It builds connection and solidarity. I talk about it on Tumblr and I'm told I'm lying about things that actually happened to be because no TME transmasc could ever go through that because that's a tma transfem experience.

But if I'm honest. This community hasn't been the community I grew up with in a long fucking time. I came to political consciousness through engaging with the BLM movement on here in 2014, I grew up reblogging #blackout selfies. I had a lot of black mutuals. Their accounts were mostly terminated. I had a lot of sensible trans people especially trans women around me who lost their accounts in a hammer car explosion. I initially came on here in part to look at fandom porn because I was quirky and going through puberty, but those people jumped ship in 2018. And I'm still here because algorithms are arcane to me and other social media sites won't let me talk for this long.

Basically if you read nothing else in this post, read this: not everything about old Tumblrs gender politics was great. I acknowledge that. But the fact that we've abandoned the principle that gender is personal in favor of demanding to know whether you fit into the F box or the M box is the result of how much more conservative society has gotten to the point where I'm almost inclined to believe the terms transmasc and transfem were introduced by a psyop. If you're too young to remember listen to your elders and if you remember but you've fallen for this bullshit get back up and stand with me under one banner, the blue pink and white, and stop dividing yourselves and hating your siblings.

[elaho]

Stardew Valley MBTI x Enneagram: Abigail

Following my last post about the Stardew marriage candidates and their MBTI types, I've been learning more about Enneagram, how it pairs with MBTI, and how it changes some of the typical characteristics of each type.

The Enneagram and MBTI complement each other wonderfully, providing greater depth and understanding of how a person interacts with the world [Cognitive Functions] and their motivations why [Core Desire/Core Fear].

Here are my thoughts on Abigail's MBTI and Enneagram pairing.

Abigail - ENFP 7w8: “The Opportunist”

“ENFPs are the campaigners of the MBTI typology. They bring good vibes and excitement that’s hard to ignore. You’ll also agree that their happiness and charisma can be infectious. It’s not a surprise then that most ENFPs identify as type 7 in the enneagram of personality.

[ENFP 7w8s] enjoy a good adventure and good conversations. They can also easily be the life of the party when they are excited. However, having a type 8 as their wing makes things a bit interesting, [creating] a lot of changes in this type of ENFP.” - Personality Hunt

Abigails’s Core Desire: To be happy

The core desire of the ENFP 7w8 is to be happy. ENFPs need consistent intellectual stimulation and external engagement to be truly content.

Bringing their ideas to life is incredibly important to them, and the 7w8 tries to achieve this by reaching their goals and getting everything they desire.

“The birds were happily chirping today. They're too simple to understand the future. It's better to be like them, isn't it?”

“I always loved this place, long before you moved in. Now I can explore the farm whenever I want!”

“There's always something new happening on our farm... I love it.”

"The sounds of the night are louder out here. I'll never stop enjoying that."

“It's pretty cool that we have a cave on our property. It's something I always dreamed about.”

Abigail’s Core Fear: To be deprived

The core fear of the ENFP 7w8 is to be deprived. Because they lead with Extroverted Intuition [Ne] ENFPs get bored quickly and easily if they aren't given enough freedom and flexibility to explore new ideas and chase after their dreams [both old and new].

Because of their fear of deprivation, ENFP 7w8s do everything in their power to ensure they'll never be in that position.

“Hey, this is my favorite magazine! My Dad won't let me have a subscription, so I have to get it on the black market like this...”

"Don't tell anyone, but I snuck into the old community center last night... I think it's haunted!

"I heard you've been exploring the old mines. That sounds like fun! ...I'm working up the courage to go there myself...”

*sigh*... Can you believe my parents were ever young? They don't understand my perspective at all. I know, I know... they grew up in a different era, with different values. It still ticks me off sometimes, okay?”

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How Enneagram 7w8 changes typical ENFP behaviour:

New Strengths

1. More Direct

"ENFPs are feelers. This means that they use emotions as their first point of call. However, you get another vibe with ENFP 7w8s. While they retain their emotional intensity, they can now express these feelings directly and clearly. This can make the ENFP better public speakers." - Personality Hunt

Abigail isn't afraid to speak her mind or speak up when her values are threatened. Although she can come across as blunt in some instances, her emotional awareness allows her to temper her responses so that she still gets her point across without going overboard.

Examples:

“Hey. Sorry in advance if I say anything rude. I didn't get much sleep last night. What do you want?”

“I felt like making some soup for dinner. I hope it's not too disgusting.”

“I hope you'll still like me when I'm old and shriveled. It's going to happen some day!”

"Stop trying to make me feel guilty. I appreciate that you and Dad are helping me out, but expecting me to dress the way you want is ridiculous. I'm not a little girl anymore, Mom.”

2. More Likely to be Assertive [ENFP-A]

ENFP 7w8s are more likely to be Assertive [A] than Turbulent [T]. Because of their more direct nature, they can come across as opinionated or assertive. This can make them seem more determined and focused in the long term.

More information about the ENFP-A can be found here.

Examples:

"Ew, I hope I don't get a tan this summer."

"I used to think Pelican Town was kinda drab, but lately I'm starting to love some things about it."

“No matter how much we clean, the house keeps getting dirty again. I guess farms are kind of dirty.”

“Congratulations on the marriage. I guess this means Sebastian won't be moving to the city like he always talked about. That'll be nice. I'd be kind of sad if I never saw him again. We've always been good friends.”

3. More Disciplined

ENFPs aren't typically known for their discipline and following through on plans or projects.

Their Extroverted Intuition [Ne] constantly makes connections and seeks out new opportunities, and an idea that once had merit can no longer seem relevant or the best use of time, especially when more information and opportunities are made available later on.

Though ENFP 7w8s also struggle with procrastination and follow-through, this is reduced thanks to their 8 wing; however, the extent of their follow-through will depend on the strength of their wing.

Examples:

"I'm still mad that you beat me at the egg hunt last year. You'd better start practicing..."

"Feeling pretty good about the egg hunt, huh? Well, next year you won't be so lucky...

“Hey, the egg festival is tomorrow. I'm sorry, but I won't go easy on you because we're married! I plan on winning that egg hunt. Go ahead and try to beat me.”

"I guess you're wondering why I'm in the graveyard at this hour... Well, I'm here because it's the best place in town to find some privacy. And I'm all sweaty because I've been practicing my swordsmanship.”

4. More Ambitious

ENFPs are the adventurers and campaigners of the MBTI world. While they have big dreams, they don't crave financial success or riches. This is also true for ENFP 7w8s, but they realize that having money or power is one way to achieve the life they want. Thus, ENFP 7w8s tend to be much more ambitious when compared to typical ENFPs.

Abigail doesn't seem ambitious in the traditional financial sense, but her ambition is clear when it comes to making a name for herself: she wants to do something memorable with her life.

Examples:

“See? You understand why I'm out here, then. I've lived in the valley my whole life, but I've never really done anything memorable. I want to go on an adventure!”

5. ENTP Look-Alike

"ENFPs and ENTPs are cousin types. Thus, it’s only natural that they look alike. However, ENFP 7w8 will look a lot and behave like the ENTP to an extreme level.

They will be more rational, charismatic, and argumentative than your normal ENFP. Thus, a lot of ENFP 7w8 can easily misidentify themselves as ENTPs." - Personality Hunt

ENFPs and ENTPs have the same dominant and inferior functions: Extroverted Intuition [Ne] and Introverted Sensing [Si]. However, the main difference comes from their 'sandwiched' functions: ENFP ENTP

Extroverted Intuition [Ne] Extroverted Intuition [Ne] Introverted Feeling [Fi] Introverted Thinking [Ti] Extroverted Thinking [Te] Extroverted Feeling [Fe] Introverted Sensing [Si] Introverted Sensing [Si]

On the surface, Abigail may appear to be an ENTP. However, when considering the cognitive functions and their application between ENFPs and ENTPs, Abigail uses Fi much more readily to determine and defend her values and Te to implement her values in real life [ENFP], rather than use Ti to ensure her decisions are logically consistent and Fe for external feedback as to whether her logic is taking other people's values and opinions into consideration [ENTP].

For this reason, I believe there is strong evidence that Abigail is an ENFP 7w8 rather than an ENTP, though she does share qualities of both types.

Examples:

“Hey! I'm just debating what I should do today. I'm not used to having this much freedom!”

“Oh, that's right... I heard someone new was moving onto that old farm. It's kind of a shame, really. I always enjoyed exploring those overgrown fields by myself.”

“Disgusting... I love it!”

"Whoa... Where'd you find this? The workmanship is fascinating...It's a little too rusty to use, but I'll add it to my collection."

“Sebastian mentioned that he heard strange music while having dinner the other night...I didn't tell him it was us! It seemed better to keep it a mystery.”

“I may fight with my parents a lot, but I know they're just looking out for me. They're doing what they think is best. I dunno why I'm saying this to you. Don't tell anyone.”

6. More Focused and Determined

"Their wing beings a steely attitude to the ENFP. Thus, they will be more focused and determined. This might show in school, the workplace, or even at home.

ENFP 7w8s are go-getters and will achieve their goals or get close to doing so. You’ll see a clear difference between this ENFP and the stereotypical ENFP you have probably heard about." - Personality Hunt

Examples:

“*sigh*... so I've been playing 'Journey of the Prairie King' for hours and I can't even beat the first level...”

"Hey, I finally beat the first level of Journey Of The Prairie King! Watching you play helped a lot.”

“Maybe I'll boot up Journey Of The Prairie King today... one of these days I swear, I'll beat the whole game”

7. Less Impulsive

ENFPs aren't the best at considering long-term implications when jumping into something.

Their Extroverted Intuition [Ne] is great at taking advantage of opportunities in the here and now; however, their Introverted Sensing [Si] function is the weakest in their stack, meaning they aren't the best at examining past experiences to help navigate potential pitfalls in the future.

This can cause them a lot of trouble and lead to repeating avoidable outcomes that could have been prevented with some reflection. Depending on the strength of their wing, ENFP 7w8s will be slightly less impulsive and more considerate of the consequences when putting themselves in a position that may lead to the loss of power or control.

Examples:

“Whoa, that's a creepy looking book... I love it! *Flip* *flip* *flip*... Ooh... It's full of monsters...I'll have to study this before going into the caves... Thanks!”

“If I knew how to use a sword I would be exploring those caves by the mountain lake right now. It's probably nice and cool in there.”

New Weaknesses

1. They Have a Temper

"Type 8s are known for being confrontational. So, no matter how soft and emotional this personality type might seem, they have this in them.

Thus, ENFP 7w8s can have quite a temper. This might only be displayed when they are pushed to their wall or when their feelings have been hurt. It can be quite scary." - Personality Hunt

Examples:

“Hey, I heard you and Sam got together... He's a really good guy! We've been friends for a long time. You'd better be good to him, or you'll see my bad side!”

“Oh, it's because I'm a girl... isn't it? Ugh...Why? I'm just as strong as you! I'm not some fragile princess… I can take care of myself.”

"Mind your own business [Dad]! You think I should be at home cooking dinner because I'm a girl, don't you?!"

2. Manipulative

"This personality type will be more manipulative. Type 7 loves to have influence over others while type 8 loves power.

These two types blend to form an individual who knows how to control or influence people’s decisions.

While this is true, this does not necessarily mean that they might use this to hurt others. However, it is definitely part of their arsenal." - Personality Hunt

Though Abigail isn't manipulative throughout most of the game, when her marriage to the farmer is on the rocks, her manipulative tendencies start rearing their ugly head:

She becomes passive-aggressive, wondering out loud if she'll eventually get bored living on the farm.

She also asks if she could have done better than marrying the farmer and brings up her old flame Sebastian in front of them.

A low blow, if you ask me.

Examples:

“I wonder if I could've done better... I was very good friends with Sebastian before we met. He was probably the one...”

“I wonder if we'll live here our entire lives? I might get bored.”

3. Distrustful

"There’s a lot of talk on ENFPs being naïve. While this personality type loves ideas and wants to trust others, they can be especially distrustful.

They realize that people might not be exactly what they sell themselves as. Thus, this personality type might play the fool but understand exactly what is going on.

You’ll probably know where you stand with them when the chips are down." - Personality Hunt

Examples:

“One thing I've learned living here... everyone stares at you if you look different.”

“I can't trust a person who doesn't like animals...Oh, don't worry! I know you're an animal lover!”

“Hey. I know you're smart, but I still worry about you sometimes. The world is full of monsters. Just promise me you'll be careful. I don't want to lose you.”

“Hey! What... you think I'm too weak to swing a blade? Sorry, I guess I'm getting a little defensive.”

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Conclusion

Abigail is everyone's favourite goth gf in the Stardew Valley community: she's outgoing, quirky, energetic, and marches to the beat of her own drum.

However, there is a lot more to Abigail than her renegade lifestyle:

Though her character arc isn't as dramatic as other bachelors and bachelorettes, Abigail struggles to find what many of us yearn for in our lives: happiness.

Though she hides it well, Abigail is deeply unhappy with her life and life circumstances. Her parents are overbearing and controlling, demanding she conform to their traditional lifestyle and manipulating her into doing what they want by holding financial support over her head:

"Stop trying to make me feel guilty. I appreciate that you and Dad are helping me out, but expecting me to dress the way you want is ridiculous. I'm not a little girl anymore, Mom.”

"Mind your own business [Dad]! You think I should be at home cooking dinner because I'm a girl, don't you?!"

Even her community doesn't seem to understand her or make an effort to. There are few people she feels she can trust to be herself around, and those are few and far between.

“One thing I've learned living here... everyone stares at you if you look different.”

Her Enneagram type 7 desire for happiness, paired with her MBTI cognitive strengths as an ENFP, leave her wanting more than what Pelican Town can offer her. That is until the farmer arrives and embraces Abigail for who she truly is: encouraging her to follow her dreams, and supporting her in all her adventure-filled endeavours.

“I always loved this place, long before you moved in. Now I can explore the farm whenever I want!”

Do you agree that Abigail is an ENFP 7w8? If not, what type do you think she is? Let me know your thoughts in the comments :)

--------------------------------------------------------------------- References:

Personality Hunt: ENFP 7w8 - The Complete Guide

[prettyboysdontlookatexplosions]

medialog june 2k24

watched

wordplay - rewatched this documentary about crosswords and particularly about the annual crossword tournament put on by will shortz while waiting for the anesthesia from my wisdom tooth extraction to wear off and found it about as charming as i remembered... i love a doc about a subculture made up of endearing nerds. i first saw it when it came out and on revisit it also has some intensely 2004 vibes - in particular jon stewart shows up as one of their crossword-fans talking heads and it really brought home for me how influential he was on the development of internet tone (like to this day the reason so many people on reddit sound Like That is because they're trying to be jon stewart and failing...)

the bourne ultimatum - movie go zoom zoom! still not convinced matt damon can act

artists and models - i had never seen a dean martin/jerry lewis film before and i don't really want to again but i'm glad i saw this one (this is how i feel about the two (2) wes anderson movies i've seen, and also pulp fiction & tarantino). some great colors & costumes, a plot that goes surprisingly bonkers in a final third turn that reminds you it was the cold war (between that and all the stuff about comics & violence this one also functions as a real time capsule), and (my main reason for watching) shirley maclaine the love of my life is so adorable and funny as a daffy sweetheart in a role that really lets her (a former dancer) show off her gift for physical comedy.

the secret garden - the cast in this movie is so good, including the children in the starring roles, and while it doesn't even attempt to do anything with the book's deranged relationship with things like the british empire and the concept of disability, watching it really did bring me back to why the book has been so beloved - the fantasy at its heart is ultimately about hard humble work paying off and about friends teaching each other to be nicer, which are i think deeply appealing narratives for children in a way that people sometimes forget. it's so funny that part of what cures mary and colin of their bad personalities is meeting another unhappy rich child for the very first time!

humanist vampire seeking consenting suicidal person - this was slight but sweet, a darkly funny romcom with some style and heart. also i had never seen a french-canadian movie before i don't think and it was a fun surprise to hear them talking like "frenchfrenchfrenchfrenchRRRRfrenchfrenchRRRR." not an accent with which i have much familiarity!

jurassic park - my somewhat inexplicable, even to me, aversion to raiders of the lost ark had me avoiding action spielberg for basically my whole life but i gave this a shot thinking maybe i would appreciate it if not enjoy it and was absolutely GLUED to the screen from about five minutes in. i understand why other directors are like that about spielberg now, and also what jj abrams is trying to do all the time and failing because he doesn't understand how it actually works. this is like the most famous movie in the world basically and i've seen so many clips from it over the years and yet even waiting for them and expecting them to come i was ON THE EDGE OF MY SEAT! like WOW! truly a movie that feels like a theme park ride more than any other i've seen except maybe fury road. anyway as you statistically speaking probably already know this movie absolutely rocks, and not just for (1) laura dern and (2) jeff goldblum with his tits out.

citizen kane - spent the last weekend in june at two different marches & closed it out sunday night with a screening of the movie that made me bisexual <3 one day i'll figure out a way to articulate how this movie did what it did to me but for now i will just say that it is great and its reputation is deserved and orson welles is one of the most entertaining screen presences of all time and it looks so cool and beautiful all the way through and it is so so so so gay

interview with a vampire season 2 - my opinion on this is at this point well established lol finally some good fucking food!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

read

megan abbott, the turnout - this & the zadie smith book are further steps in me catching up with authors i lost track of during some bad reading years! when i heard that megan abbott was coming out with a book about sisters who run a ballet school i was like LOL because that's like the peak ultimate megan abbott premise (girls and the nastiness of both feelings and bodies and ambition and hunger and an atmosphere of nightmares and filth and the insane dynamics of a tightly knit but deeply dysfunctional world, all to the nth power), and guess what as a megan abbott fan i loved it :) all the bad reviews on goodreads for this are like "why is this book so gross? why is she sexualizing the nutracker? there were scenes in this book that made me feel dirty reading them. way too much focus on the wet leotard crotches of little girls" and i was sickos dot jpg the whole time. but actually i think the reason that this wound up being my favorite abbott since dare me is that at its core it's a book about a woman with an unbelievably fucked up childhood due to her incredibly fucked up dead parents and the suspense that gives the book its tension and its form is less about what's going to happen with the plot and more about whether she is at any point going to put it together that the things that happened to her when she was young were actually bad; the further the book goes, the more deeply you understand the walls of denial and distortion around her entire life. it rules.

david j. skaal, something in the blood: the untold story of bram stoker, the man who wrote dracula - as previously mentioned, i have some real qualms with some of his dracula readings, but overall i found this an addictively pleasurable tome - 600 pages and he kept them turning the whole time. i love a biography that starts off with some background on medieval ireland, you know? skaal is a good writer with an engaging but learned style, and the book is clearly both exhaustively researched and intended for popular audiences (albeit popular audiences who have definitely read dracula, but, i mean, who else is reading 600 pages about this guy?); reading it often feels something like having a drink with a professor who knows his stuff and is NOT afraid to gossip. dracula qualms aside i may investigate some of his other books, particularly his book on dracula screen adaptations, since i'm curious about those but don't necessarily want to, like, watch most of them, lol

bonnie jo campbell, the waters - book club book that was objectively certainly not terrible and which had some things i did like or appreciate, like an 11 year old girl obsessed with math (representation matters...) but which i found just about the most boring thing i have read in my life. like i would definitely say campbell is a better writer than, say, taylor jenkins reid (to name another book club book) or whatsherface who wrote the book of fried green tomatoes which we also read las year... but i found those books much more aggravating but also easier to get through than this book, which really requires you to have some level investment in, like, the natural world of rural michigan, but mostly made me feel so glad i don't live in a small town where all the men have guns.

zadie smith, swing time - it's funny because when i started this i was spending a lot of time thinking about how maybe plot and structure have become underrated, but then this was like a very long book written in the style of someone just kind of talking at you about their life, with plot events technically happening but never feeling like the driving force of the book, and i was totally riveted, which was a good reminder that you can get away with anything if you're a genius! smith is just such a keen observer of people and how they operate, and so allergic to relying on any kind of obvious assumptions about the relationships between demographics & personality or beliefs, even as demographic realities are such a key part of the fabric of the book... i was a little worried i would be disappointed by the fact that she abandoned the modernist-leaning experimentation of NW for a more straightforward, even chatty, style, but "you can get away with it if you're a genius" applies to that too. this book is also an absolute masterclass in the universal through the specific - i cannot emphasize how much literally not one thing the protagonist experiences has ever happened to me, how much our lives and backgrounds and personalities overlap not at all, and yet constantly i found myself aching with resonance over things like "it's so true that's what it's like when you have a mom" or "that really is what it feels like when you are young and sort of smart but also sort of stupid" (which if i were to define it briefly is i think more or less what the book is about).

listened

charli xcx, brat - i remain after all these years a true romance truther and continue unfairly to measure all her subsequent work, much of which is frankly too sophisticated and experimental for my listening taste even if i recognize she's Doing Something, but this album sounds great and has some bops. as a straight-through listen it was too rich for my blood, but i find myself enjoying the songs on shuffle mixed in with whatever else i've been into more than i would have expected from that first exposure, and also 360 has been stuck in my head more waking hours than not for like a month and a half now and i'm still not sick of it (although i think my favorite song on the album is 365, and not just because i think it's really funny that she ended the album with "the opening track coming out of the bathroom after doing cocaine"). plus as someone who HAS been listening to charli since whenever the video for "you're the one" dropped it is nice to see The Culture finally rally around her even if i remain a little puzzled over why now, the all-star remixes getting rolled out have been pretty delightful (LORDE!!!!!!!!), and it's nice to have the zeitgeist coalesce for a moment over something i too think is fun (especially since the other thing gay people love this summer is chappell roan on whom i have yet to be converted sorry to everyone i'm sincerely glad you're having a good time)

[death-in-a-handbasket]

I swear to myself I am done making idv ocs,,,,, but I have an obsession with character design & making ocs and here I am AGAIN with my next one so I can build a nice big story where all my ocs are definitely happy ٩( ᐛ )و

He is finally the 'staff are a part of the manor' concept you inspired me with,,, hes the key holder ,,has the key to every room in the manor and is just kinda there in the background of everything,,, he brings that 'fading away into the flowers' vibe to the function that the haters just can't understand yknoe

I swear I don't abandon my original ocs they are all very loved and I'm trying to stop this creation addiction now💯

His name is Lavinia (or Vinnie) but he doesn't really share his name aside from theoretically some of the other workers? Raghhh,, sorry it's late by me so this is probably senseless rambling. I think he'd get along somewhat well with your character staff (I think that's the. Only way you've reffered to them,,, idk I cannot remember rn I'm sorry I need to go sleep, the one with luca)

He's not really shipped w anyone because he's very averse to most relationships in any way but,, yea

I enjoy him greatly !! he's rather solemn and gorgeous, I fuck with this. ALSO KEYMASTER JOB IS SO BALLER >>> I approve 10/10 he is canon 2 me. I'm imagining anyone who has been accidentally locked out of their room damn near falling over in surprise as this guy manifests next to them like he spawned out of the floral wallpaper and asking very morosely if they need some help. he just pulls an absolutely massive ring of keys out of his pocket and as he's unlocking their door for them they ask very nervously how he manages to keep track of all of them but when they look back he's fucking gone

also don't worry about relentlessly making ocs, I do the same thing, I love making self inserts and I have a shitload of fandom independent ocs but I fear I don't attend to them often enough </3 I am an absent father for sure I fear

as for staff, don't worry, they don't have a name, staff IS their only name, that's the only one they give out to people and they stubbornly refuse to give themselves a name or have anyone else give them one. they have a complex of sorts surrounding not existing, where because of their status as a non-human and their deep seated feeling of mundanity they consider themself not applicable to the title of being real

him and luca have a whole dynamic surrounding names that I'll put below the cut if you wanna read :0 !

okay. okay. so.

their dynamic to start involves staff trying to keep luca at a distance and luca trying to learn more about them and their non-human design as is his curious nature, thus they have a stubborn vs stubborn type feud that isn't really addressed as a feud but is there nonetheless

staff calls luca by his last name to enforce a sort of social distance and hold that divide of human vs non human, they are nameless and he is not, it’s also meant to hold him at an emotional distance because to use his first name would imply closeness. staff enforces this distance this because all they know as their identity is being separate from the manor guests they serve--further yet, sometimes when they do it it’s out of rudeness and to deflect him from them and sometimes it’s more out of self destruction than anything, such is the refusal to acknowledge one’s own being as worthy of humanity

on the other end of the situation it is a double edged sword of sorts for luca, being called by his last name has become strange to him as it’s been a long time since any part of his name has been spoken with even the slightest air of politeness, after being in prison it feels good to be referred to by any name at all, especially without ardent malice and disgust. however he’s aware of the separation they are creating which stings a little because he really would pay to hear them call him by his first name, even once would be pleasant. plus being called by his last name solely makes him feel a bit like his father, which stings in its own right,,,,,,he has mixed feelings on his last name for this reason

circling back once more, staff prefers not being referred to at all because it enforces the idea that they are in fact nothing, and while being called staff is a vague compromise of sorts, they are still off put by being given any title at all, not just for the humanity implication, but for the strange feeling that not referred to at all feels more comfortable and in tune with who they are (non-existence complex aside) than any name they could possibly have, such is the indecision of someone struggling to decide whether to be real or not

luca struggles in both situations, both options feel degrading to him, especially in the eyes of someone who has felt degraded and sub-human while in prison, to place someone in the category of less than human makes him feel oddly guilty despite the fact that he’s not the one enforcing this standard

he still finds it degrading to see them as nothing, names are very very important between these two and their choices of which moments they decide to address each other has its own subtext to it

that's all !! have a good day :33

[thessalian]

Thess vs Opinions

Sometimes the comments on any gaming-related YouTube video are just ugly. Other times ... they remind me of dinner with the parentals. When I say that, I mean that people take their position on a topic and make it the hill they're going to die on so much that anyone who holds a different opinion is worthy only of insults and derision. For some things, I can agree with that - mostly ones that involve intolerance to others (something something can't be tolerant if you tolerate intolerance). But some of this is just stupid.

I was watching a Yong Yea video regarding the Switch 2. News on this particular console is slow because Nintendo refused to send out review copies before launch - something about "there are patches that need to be sent out on Day 1 for the full functionality", which is really weird to me, but okay. The thing Yong was bringing up was something about which there'd been serious discourse with the original Switch - JoyCon Drift. Apparently the way they build their little wiggly joysticks is such that there's a lot of wear and tear and the possibility of debris getting in it, and all of that obviously affects the connectivity and tells your little avatar on the screen that something's touching the sensor in a way that was not intended by the user, and thus makes the little avatar move in a way that was not intended by the user. Which sucks when you're trying to play a game that requires any amount of precision. So he did some research, after Nintendo promised that they "rebuilt the JoyCon from the ground up" but never actually mentioned getting rid of the drift issue, and turns out that the rebuild uses the exact same drift-prone technology as the originals. Yes, you can get your JoyCons replaced for free, but only in some areas and it takes up to fourteen business days, plus some people just never got their free replacements for whatever reason. This means that a lot of people just don't bother and shell out for new JoyCons - which for the Switch 2 cost nearly $100 USD. So obviously that's a black mark on what is apparently otherwise a pretty good bit of hardware.

The comments, however, have a whole bunch of people going, "You're shitting all over it when you actually bought it, you sheep". Which ... what?!?

Yong Yea is a games journalist. If Nintendo won't send him a review copy, what choice has he got? Do these people really expect him or any other games journalist to wall off an entire section of gaming news for the sake of this one principle? Games journalists get hold of this stuff so that the average member of the public doesn't have to.

I am well aware that there are two kinds of games journalists - the ones who work with the big gaming news sites, and the indies. I honestly prefer the indies. They don't have to be as careful not to offend the gaming companies that control the free review copies. That they're willing to shell out for copies of games - or hardware, in this case - to review them because they don't want to be beholden to one of the big names is laudable, as far as I'm concerned. So I'm obviously not going to shit all over them for spending their money on something they need for their job.

(Also there's the fact that the more I read of gaming news on those sites, the more concerned I am that they're written with ChatGPT. Even if they're not, I applied to be a writer at one of those and the clickbaity vibe they wanted on every single piece felt like a slap in the face for actual journalism.)

I just don't understand why it's necessary to insult a man for buying what he needs to do his job, just because he wasn't 100% ravingly complimentary about it. Like, Yong admitted that the hardware was by and large good - he just flagged up the planned obsolescence that plagues the machine same as it plagued the original Switch, and honestly plagues damn near everything else technological we buy these days. That doesn't make him a sheep - that makes him diligent at his job.

I'm kind of glad I didn't read the comments on the Jimquisition episode about the Switch 2. I bet it's the same but worse over there. ...And being me, and being thorough, I'm probably going to have to now, because I dislike expressing an opinion about something that I have no direct experience with.

.........Which is the whole point of what I'm saying, honestly! I mean, I'm the one who read all four Twilight books because I refused to shit all over it without firsthand knowledge of it! Library copies, thank goodness; at least in part because it prevented me - and my now-ex, who did try to hack through Twilight but got frustrated after four pages - from tossing the fucking thing out a window. There are going to be games that only come out on the Switch 2. There's backwards compatibility to test. There's how something like, say, Cyberpunk 2077 plays on the Switch 2. If Yong or anyone else wants an opinion on that, they need to get it firsthand, or they're frankly hacks. I like that they're willing to spend money to do their jobs properly and not be hacks. But some people are so high up on their high horses about not buying the damn things that apparently "buying equipment I need to do my job properly" equals "being a sheep".

I do not understand people at all. Have they not heard of business expenses? It's just that independents don't have a company they can turn to and claim these purchases on expenses, the way I did with my new monitor so I didn't have to squint at a laptop screen to do my WFH job.

[rainbowcarousels]

11 - SephGen for the ship asks 🥹🖤

What their first impression was of each other?

You know, it's funny, I've definitely done first impressions from Angeal and Genesis's perspective but I'm not sure I ever have when it comes to Sephiroth.

I think Genesis's is multilayered because I think the very first time he heard Sephiroth - and I do think he heard him speak before he ever saw him, just a few words that were likely stumbled off script that he probably assumed was designed to be awkwardly charming until he realised Sephiroth is just the epitome of an awkward turtle - that he was in disbelief. It was a challenge to his own mind, like no way, this one person cannot be doing what they say, so when he finally got a chance to see news footage (I like to think it was on one of these old sets so colour distorted and grainy), obsession set in. Because his skill is undeniable. It's captivating to watch.

Then we run into the very real issue that Sephiroth is not what it says on the tin if you get up close. This is a post-First Soldier Sephiroth that has likely learned what can happen if you get attached to the people you work with: they die or they disappear, and the man is a poster child for abandonment issues. I think he's trying to keep his distance at that point and Genesis is perceptive, I think he can pick up on some of that and the mix of the two....well.

If we go by my personal canon for these two? Genesis got floored by his enhancements way more than Angeal did (there's something up with Genesis's DNA that isn't in the others so I think it stands to reason) so Angeal had already met Sephiroth by the time Genesis did. As such, I think he was already on the defensive, picked up on Sephiroth's vibe of trying to keep everything at an arms length and together with Sephiroth's awkward way of treating SOLDIERs in training at that point more like dogs or weapons (GEE I WONDER WHERE HE PICKED THAT UP), they did not mesh well.

As such, I think Genesis got upset - this wasn't the Sephiroth he built up in his head, this was someone detached, withdrawn, someone who did not recognise and foster such talent as he knew he had but rather just corrected it without a social word at all.

The kicker is I think Sephiroth actually did notice he was different - how many baby Third's come in with that kind of magical skill? How many SOLDIERs in general at that point have a specialty with magic? It's used in a utilitarian way and Genesis doesn't function that way at all and I think Sephiroth just doesn't - understand it? I think he's curious about it but he doesn't really know what to do about it. Has no idea Genesis is operating under the idea they're now mortal enemies fallen from the grace of potential friendship. Honestly, he's really only processing every other sentence - he doesn't know that he's ever known anyone who talks that much.

I think it's only on the third meeting, the ones where they're seeing each other on their first missions together, that they come to an understanding of each other. Genesis starts to process who Sephiroth actually is as opposed to who he thought he was, sorting him into categories of what is propaganda and what is actually him peeking through the presses clutches, and there are a couple of moments that I think highlight it for him that actually, this is the real him and he's actually far more interested in this version than any theatrics. If there's to be theatrics in a relationship, it's coming from him ta very much.

From Sephiroth's perspective, Genesis just makes absolutely no sense - he should not be that chatty, that much of a show off, that headstrong and independent and still be effective as a SOLDIER. He brings this effusive fancy to everything he does and it should be a hindrance but somehow, it's not. There is so much beneath the surface that Sephiroth has no real grasp of - he can't grasp his own nuances, let alone anyone elses - but he's curious, then fascinated. He's inefficient, but he's fast and distracting.

I HC that in fact he did manage to distract him long enough to result Genesis himself giving him a good yank out of the way in a fight because he just is trying to put it all together in his mind and he doesn't know how. How can someone be so wild yet so precise? So fast yet saunter about? So emotional and it not a crippling vulnability but somehow, a strength? WHAT IS THIS CREATURE.

It feels a little funny to me that what Genesis is eventually truly fascinated by is Sephiroth being more awkward teenager trying to figure out how to person - in other words, more mortal and human than he appears - while Sephiroth is trying to figure out how some teenager from a little southern village where they make apple juice is somehow fire and chaos incarnate and why he likes that so much.

[ohwyrd]

What did you think of the uni 2 arcade mode routes?

Hello I return after playing the uni 2 arcade mode routes.

take under cut

I hate them <3. World's most disappointing conclusion after a 4 year wait since the previous game and this isn't even just because there isn't a dedicated story mode . Ok now I will elaborate further.

Obviously I am not expecting a full story since they retired Chronicle mode entirely, and as a frame of reference I enjoy arcade mode story! I play kof games through arcade over and over to get story parts because I Like them and I enjoy seeing the perspective of different characters across the whole game. All this to say the story mode being put inside arcade mode is not the issue to me.

The part I hate is that the continuity in which every character starts is different and doesn't even clearly carry on from their route in the previous game or something, it's just a totally separate context given to you in their character blurb on the select screen. We don't even know where Kuon came from or what his grand plan was aside from comically "I going to destroy da universe with voids" there is no actual story aside from "Yeah we need a big boss villain character and the player character to go beat them to death for hero reasons". There isn't any actual reason for your mid-game fights, you just get a corny line of dialogue like "Oouuhgh I have to test you to see if you can fight Kuon for real" or "You're sooo stupid and I want to fight so bad we have beef now for no reason". It does not get any better and we do not get any actual motivations or character development from anyone, which I guess is a joke on me for maybe wanting any form of development in my silly visual novel fighting game characters.

Still, I spent a while trying to play through all of them so I could piece together the order of events to understand what happened in universe in Some way and I could not even make it through all of them because they read like shit, which brings me to my second point of

The translation is so ass. I don't know who they got to do the translation, but it reads like early Blazblue TLs with the characterization from crosstag. Which is fine in that game because everything is non canon and I don't care if they want to reduce the character to funny characteristic joke that sounds better in dub, but it sucks ass in a mainline story game where I'm actually trying to pay attention to what the character would have said according to the actual dialogue track, and I care way less about the "localization" or modernization of what they said. Months ago I was making a joke with @scharfkugel about the shitty TLs from crosstag and what it would be like if they were in uni 2 and it's genuinely funny how some of the lines have this exact vibe

including the funniest receipt I have. Feels like we really put the last nail in the coffin for uni's story with this one

Anyway.

I'm not making this post to rain on anybody's parade because I know the whole unib fanbase was waiting for very long for a new game without any expectations, I didn't have any until I paid triple A pricing in my region for this damn video game that didn't have functioning online on release and also did not give me a good singleplayer experience. If you enjoy the uni2 arcade modes, more power to you I'm glad you do but personally I can't believe the game released with these lol. legitimately reads like a joke

[lifesver]

𝘒𝘕𝘖𝘞𝘐𝘕𝘎  𝘠𝘖𝘜𝘙  𝘗𝘈𝘙𝘛𝘕𝘌𝘙  𝘞𝘌𝘓𝘓  𝘊𝘈𝘕  𝘗𝘖𝘛𝘌𝘕𝘛𝘐𝘈𝘓𝘓𝘠  𝘔𝘈𝘒𝘌  𝘞𝘙𝘐𝘛𝘐𝘕𝘎  𝘛𝘖𝘎𝘌𝘛𝘏𝘌𝘙  𝘈  𝘓𝘖𝘛  𝘌𝘈𝘚𝘐𝘌𝘙.

NAME :  kels

PRONOUNS :  she/they/he

PREFERENCE  OF  COMMUNICATION : ims on here are fine, im kind of bad at discord until i know people better, but i prefer to talk to my pals on discord obvi

NAME  OF  MUSE(S) : leland mckinney, tommy jarvis, jake park are most recent. but we were also out here for a long while w richie tozier and five hargreeves.

EXPERIENCE  /  HOW  LONG  (  MONTHS  /  YEARS? ) : oh god uh........... it really goes back to something like 2013? like i started in oc rp groups on and off mostly, i think i didn't get into actual tumblr rpc until maybe 2018? and w leland well we have been out here since last may agjsdk

BEST  EXPERIENCE : honestly like... as much as i sometimes still get embarrassed trying to explain [scare chord] Tumblr Roleplay to people outside of this particular circle, it's been such a large part of my enjoyment online for years and years. i've met some really close friends here, i've done some of my best writing here. and a lot of it is just the ability to bounce off my friends and their huge brain ideas. collaborative writing, to me, is just so much more fun than doing it alone. i really like taking one character and getting just way too deep into who they are, i like learning and picking things up from the variety of other writers on here. improving my writing from reading what my super talented friends do... and in particular this last year has been probably??? one of my most positive rpc experiences in a long while. having people jump into the tcsm rpc, making new friends, and putting together just completely off the shits wild aus and whatever. idk! my creative brain loves to go stupid mode in the paint. and besties we have written some good fucking horror narrative on this stupid website.

and also i'm cringe and i'm free (:

RP  PET  PEEVES  /  DEALBREAKERS :  i'm kind of just chilling like i really am very much non-confrontational in this space because it's... for fun. it's just imaginary internet collaborative writing hobby. mainly i just don't need passive aggression of any kind. i believe that you kind of get back what you put in on this kind of space, so make it comfortable for yourself, be kind to others, and understanding as often as you can be. if people aren't hurting anyone, let them vibe in their own space. not everyone has endless time anymore for rp, so don't make it weird or take it personally when people take time to get back to you about plots, or if they never get time. soft and hardblock as you need to to make your space chill for You it's just never that deep

MUSE  PREFERENCES  FLUFF,   ANGST  OR  SMUT : we like a bit of everything in this house (except anything remotely usfw goes to usfw shadow realm blog). like be serious i am always in the horror rpc for the angst and suffering and exploration of trauma but that needs to be balanced out by fluff and gentle vibes. [loudly into the megaphone] its about LOVE and HORROR-

PLOTS  OR  MEMES :  i like both! i think it's easiest to get things rolling with just whatever memes thrown my way and vice versa. i love plotting stuff out, but sometimes that takes a bit of existing in each others rpc space for a while. so i can be sort of slow w building dynamics, but i do like to!

LONG  OR  SHORT  REPLIES : i don't mind either, it's kind of refreshing to switch between the two, more rapid fire stuff is nice esp to start with, though i am known to be insane in the reply lengths for some prompts once stuff is plotted out.

BEST TIME TO WRITE :  i'm a morning person it's very cringe

ARE  YOU  LIKE  YOUR  MUSE(S) : idk if much really? but i do bring a sort of idiot jock(joth) energy to the function at times. i def project on him on the emotions side i think. and truly whoever i write at a given time reflects a bit on me bc hyperfixation go brrr

TAGGED  BY  :   did steal this from tsari thank u legend TAGGING  :  hands u it

[ghost-proofbaby]

Hi again. I am doing okay despite the circumstances. A lot of drama went down the past month and my mental health really took a hit but I'm starting to bounce back slowly. I had a really rough few weeks after seeing him at his housewarming party and didn't go to work for a whole week bc I could barely function. Then my mom has the bright idea to send him a very scathing message a few weeks later and while I appreciate her having my back, she just doesn't understand what boundaries are and that I didn't want her to do that. Then I told him off for going to a bunch of concerts and stuff even though one of his reasons for breaking up with me was not being able to financially handle a relationship while he went through everything. So he blamed being distant with me on the message from my mom and while I probably wouldn't want to talk to somebody if their mom sent me that message, I'm tired of everyone leaving me bc of her. I told him that and we haven't talked for a week. 😃 I'm trying to focus on myself and get into college and hopefully meet new people and not let my mom push them away. Yesterday I went on a solo shopping trip and it kind of helped my mood to buy some stupid stuff just for myself to bring myself some joy. And I bought myself a Lego set and I built it all by myself which was hard and healing all at the same time bc I always built Legos with him. Who knew little plastic bricks could bring up so many emotions?

oh, love.

first of all. i am so so sorry i’m seeing this days late.

second of all, as someone in a very similar situation in regards to the mom factor of it all — i get it. i think the important thing to remember is that other people’s actions do not define us, and the people who matter or care enough about us are going to recognize that. your mother’s actions are not your own; you can’t control her, you cant babysit/stop her from getting involved as she has, and he should know all of this. especially if he cared enough to get to know you, understand you, so on and so forth. it’s super exhausting, and it definitely makes making new friends extremely difficult sometimes. but i think the people meant to stick around are going to see past it all. gonna realize you aren’t your mother, and would rather help you set boundaries rather than just shut you out for what she’s said or done.

i hope you continue to focus on yourself, my dear. the lego building sounds like a really good healing exercise in all honesty! don’t let people ruin things for you has to be my top advice in life ever. there’s so many bands/songs/musicians i struggle to listen to, so many places i won’t even go anymore, even a decade later. and that’s unfair to us — life keeps moving. if he can move on and do all that, you most certainly can.

sending you all the hugs and love and good/healing vibes right now <3

[henrike-does-writing-sometimes]

chocolate ganache, caramel, white chocolate, fluff filling 🥺💛

I'm choosing to be quirky and use three wips for this one. The Divine, because of course, A Guardian's Tale, and Realm of Mirrors, because they've been on my mind lately

Chocolate Ganache: what made you start writing this wip ? was it a trope ? a vibe ? a character ?

I initially got the idea for The Divine back in I think 2019, when I was watching Go Princess Precure. I've always loved magical girl shows, but like I've said had trouble identifying with it. And so I thought, why don't we just make them boys ? And here we are today !

AGT came about in 2015. I was watching some show with toys that came alive, and there was some talk about how they each represented one of the elements. I found that really cool and so made a story were four kids were given small animal figurines that gave them elemental powers. Then it spiraled lmfao

RoM can about mainly because I wanted to try and write a cast with more girls than boys pffft

Caramel: tell me a bit about your favorite scene, and why it’s your favorite.

Ooooo this is a hard one. I think as of right now, it's a tie between Andie's kidnapping, the encounters with the Messangers, and the Abyss Trials.

Andie's kidnapping is very neat because if The Divine was a show then that scene would be the ending of an episode. It goes from hopefull, with the boys undoing their locks and getting their Aetherium restored. And then Arahmen arrives, breaks the key before Andie can use it, and then just disappears with them.

The scenes with the Messamgers are all cool, because they're the only times we get even close to Cosmia and Ome. And they're all set in alternate planes, the space between divinity and mortality. Their first time with the Iri Wolf is also funny because the boys are calling it names for killing their Lumens and the Wolf is just like ??? I was doing my job ???

The Abyss Trials are fun because I get to torment the boys but also give them euphoric realizations about themselves lol

There are a lot of cools scenes in AGT, but the most iconic one has to be Robin killing Eden. It's a very intense scene that functions as Robin's absolute lowest point in the series. As well as a way for him to get out some pent up anger, because boy's been through a lot. He didn't do anything wrong tho, Eden is an inconsiderate asshole who basically triggered Robin's psychosis so, yeah.

My favorite RoM scene is the climax of the second book. There's a lot going on that I can't really mention because spoilers. But yeah, it gets really heavy.

White Chocolate: tell me a bit about the happiest moment in your wip.

While I don't think it's the happiest over all, the boys realizing that their Lumes are back is up there. The post battle scenes are more soft, but I'm still going to count them.

Definetly the post final battle scene. It's a very intense and emotional scene with a lot of crying and hugging, and it's this overwhelming understanding of "It's over and we're alive." that brings it all together.

Funnily enough, the happiest scene in RoM is the first scene in book one. It's downhill from there. That's not me saying there are no happy moments, but the first scene is of Emil returning to his hometown the the gang being back together again. Kinda hard to beat even without the bullshit about to come.

Fluff Filling: tell me a bit about the softest relationship in your wip.

The relationship between the main boys, no doubt. While the dynamics differ between them, they're brothers and should not be separated. Like, again the post battle scenes where they patch up each others wounds and talk about anything and everything besides the battle. I'm very weak <3

For AGT there are many but I'm giving it to Amber and Louise. Just two neurodivergent girls slowly realizing they're in love and then panic because how do you flirt ?? Like most of their interactions are them fumbling around and trying to impress each other. Trying to be cool and not stim too much because that might be wierd, and they think they're failing so hard but are actually making each other fall in love even more. I love then lots <3

Softest relationship in RoM is most likely Emil and Tess. They've known each other the longest, they're both never in charge of the group's braincell, they're both in awe of everything they see. And spoilers, but Emil's final 'speech' is between him and Tess. So yeah, they <3

[energy-healing-with-jen]

TODAY'S LEARNING Increase Your Good Vibes Our vibrations originate from a variety of sources;

Your mind

Actions

The people you surround yourself with

Enhancing positive energy in each of these domains would thus lead to an immensely improved quality of life. All three of these aspects are important.

Lets do this in sections…

Mind

How to use your mind and thoughts to enhance your positive energy;

This is probably one of the most difficult things to train to choose positive since it is so easy to be negative quickly.

You have a lot of ingrained habits in your head, and everyone gets set in their ways. The individuals in your immediate environment will also have a big impact on how your mind functions. This is why you need to think about who influences you.

Therefore, having one's own sense of self, opinions, and thoughts is the finest thing one can do.

The best approach to handle this is to avoid merely agreeing or following the unfavorable trends. You will learn to control this impulse and these negative thoughts eventually. It resembles forming a new habit.

It takes practice to rewire your brain to think more positively and to persuade yourself to act more morally. But you'll make it, and everything will be alright.

Here are some things that might help your mind choose the positive and let in the good vibes.

Don’t get sucked into negative media and other peoples thoughts. Make your own decisions.

Learn what works for you in the sense of gathering thoughts before acting on them.

Create more positive actions for yourself. Take action. Produce. Step outside.

Make sure you are being healthy, hydrating, and sleeping well.

Actions

How to increase your good vibes via your actions;

Your actions convey your sentiments about something and elicit feelings from other people as well as from yourself. These can be verbal or non-verbal.

This implies that it encompasses your actions, words, and behavior. One of the biggest lessons you will ever learn is realising that you probably do act in ways that need changing.

Once you have figured this out, your life will improve dramatically. Making positive choices for words and deeds will not only make you feel better about yourself, but those around you will also notice and benefit from this.

Your good vibrations can bring others up too!

Here are a few things you can do to change your actions to increase good vibes;

Stop being horrible… Not that you are BUT if you feel yourself talking about someone else, saying negative things ‘bitching’ then just stop. When you act in this way, your negative energy grows.

Choose better vocabulary. Use words with good meaning, and talk when it’s positive or useful. Don't say anything to start a fight or to generate a response.

Follow the rules of just being a good human. This essentially means to act appropriately. Don't hurt other people or pretend to be someone you're not. Act morally upright. You understand this one, I'm sure.

Be helpful. Give forth what you would like to receive in order to increase your good karma. In all you do in life, try to be of assistance to others, but remember to look after yourself as well.

Don’t burn out. Take care of yourself as I just described. Spend some time learning to appreciate your own company and become an apprentice with yourself.

Circles

How the people you select to surround yourself with can help you feel better;

This is one of the biggest ones, yet they all work together.

The people you are around will affect your vibrations massively.

Surround yourself with people who enhance your life. Individuals who make the decision to better themselves and their own lives.

Avoid surrounding oneself with negative or unsupportive people. Select to surround yourself with individuals who exhibit the qualities you hope to possess yourself.

Assess the connections that you have. Do these individuals positively impact your life? What emotions do they evoke in you?

Don't waste your energy on individuals who won't treat you the way you want to be treated.

Tighten your circle to the people who matter the most, and the people who influence you the most. Remember who is there to encourage you and provide you with constructive criticism.

Changing the circle you are in is difficult. I don't think cutting people off is a smart idea. Start by discussing your feelings. Reassess the individuals in your life if nothing changes and you still feel like you're being pulled down.

[uncle-fruity]

Actually, yes, I want to reblog this version too, because the tags are so correct, and speak to intersectionality. We learn more about each other and how to stand up for each other and you know what??? If you're paying attention, you'll see that all forms of oppression rely heavily on the same tactics, just packaged up differently depending on who is being targeted. In reading about anti-racism, I was able to better understand dehumanization (a big problem for POC). In understanding dehumanization, I can see how it also affects all corners of the queer community. Or, to flip it around, learning about how queer folks are accused of hypersexuality as a means to discredit them helped me see those patterns when racism is afoot!

Caring about the bodily autonomy of queer folks led me to learning about bodily autonomy in general, and how it isn't just trans folks who are gatekept from decisions about their own bodies -- intersex folks, disabled folks, folks who need high levels of support, children, and tbh plenty more groups than that also have to deal with not having a say in what happens to their bodies. If we are standing up for our own bodily autonomy, we have to care about everyone else impacted by the problem. There is no problem with seeing our struggles as inherently linked, even when those struggles are vastly different based on our individual situations. If anything, the more folks we have with skin in the game, the more likely we are to succeed in our goals to change things -- IF we work together.

And this is why, when it comes to infighting, I will not entertain it. If you think one oppressed group is less deserving of rights, less deserving of being heard out, less deserving of community support, then I'm sorry but you can take your separatist attitude and separate yourself from all the folks trying to make real change. It's cop behavior, and whether or not infighters and discoursers are literally feds or not makes no difference. Anyone who functions to divide us and make us nitpick over pointless shit like who suffers the most and which people are most deserving of being listened to -- those folks are doing the work of the people who most want to keep us separated, powerless, and oppressed.

The Civil Rights movement in the United States was literally undercut by feds who infiltrated the activist groups and caused internal conflict between members. Fred Hampton was murdered in part because his work in bringing the queer community and the black community together under one cause was so alarming to the people in power. Call me paranoid, but I'm not gonna take the chance that the anonymous user calling me a transmisogynist over tumblr dot com with nothing to back it up aside from imagined vibes is doing so in good faith. As if my understanding of history and oppression and the levels my own government will go to to stop a movement is going to illicit any reaction aside from assuming that person is a cop, just in case they are.

My assumption when queer folks start enforcing queer gender roles and hierarchies is that they have not done any of the work necessary to fixing the real problems we face as a community. My best faith assumption is that they're kids, that they're new, and/or that they've rarely met people outside of their own little cultural bubbles. My worst faith assumption is that they're cops trying to undermine our movement, because that is what their words and behaviors serve to do, whether they intend to or not. When you use the tools of the oppressor, you become a tool of oppression yourself. You can't unlearn that shit if you don't learn from and listen to people who aren't like you. And you can't learn from and listen to people who aren't like you if you never learn to shut the fuck up and actually listen. Even when it's something you don't fully understand or even fully recognize as a problem. You'll never understand someone else's point of view if you never hear them out to begin with, or if you get angry at someone when their experiences don't line up with your expectations of them.

Anyway, all that to say... we're all in this together. Learn some stuff about decolonization. Read Ibram X. Kendi. Type "COINTELPRO" into a search engine. Get a book from the library about a minority group you don't belong to. Either show up or shut up. We cannot afford to hate each other.

idk chat i just dont see how hard it is to admit that trans women, trans men, and non binary people all face their own forms of specific oppression and also transphobia as a whole. why do we act like we can only believe in one or the other

[cristel-is-noveling]

New Schedule! (august 28 report)

It's 6AM on the 29th, and I've slept through the night for the first time in weeks, so I'm going to take a moment to pat myself on the back here.

Yesterday I implemented the new schedule as planned. It went well, if unremarkably.

REFERENCE 📚

I started reading Spiral Dynamics, bascially because KM Weiland kept bringing it up in relation to archetypes, a topic I'm deeply interested in. I'm not sure I like it yet, and I would like to reserve judgment.

But if I'm honest? It's giving me cultish, pseudo-sciency vibes.

The concepts introduced so far are that:

a) Human nature evolves in a cyclical, yet increasingly complex, well... spiral, as we solve old problems and create new ones in turn. The apparent cyclical nature of history isn't a back and forth between known worldviews, but actually treads new ground with each go 'round. This happens in all leves of existence, from the individual, to the group, to humanity as a whole.

b) Understanding how this happens is Very Important if we are to affect change in the world.

I can't disagree with any of this. I also wish the book would get to the point already, but so far it's spent its first 35 pages out of 300~ (that's 10%!) trying to convince me of its own importance and breakthrough-revolutionary-ness. With no signs of stopping.

WRITING 📝

I decided to start easy and build stuff from my history notes. Did some character study and filled-in some backstory.

Total Words Written: 1999

I'm pretty happy with this for two sprints, but I'm under no illusions. It's going to go down once I'm alone without notes to serve as prompts. But hey, that's what all this research was for in the first place :D

BIOLOGY 🌱

I read the chapter on plant physiology, and it took me all the way to Part 5, Animal Structure and Function.

Learned a ton about how fluids actually move through a plant, why and how it responds to different stimuli, a bit about hormones. I'm surely going to understand all of it better once I start taking notes. I wager I'll be doing that all through this week.

I. COULDN'T. BE. MORE. EXCITED! These are the levels of organization I came here for!

Part 5 is going to take me all the way to page 320/400, and I wonder if, in light of the content I'm getting, I'm going to bother with Part 6. The completionist in me really wants to, but it takes me so long to complete a single chapter of this thing, it would be out of place once it stops being relevant to the novel. Then again, you never know what might end up being relevant. Then again, defining my scope is a problem I've had before. Sigh.