#so yeah it's gonna be so much fun idk if I document all of it but will try to show highlights because I mean this is where it all started

[melien]

Been a bit quiet (aside from story posts that I occasionally draft) but I've been archiving a lot of old stuff including my OG Fletcher legacy to have easy access to it in the docs (and maybe get some inspiration/thoughts for the characters who are still relevant in my verse by seeing how their original development went) and damn one of my main takeaways was that I absolutely slept on Kyle and Lyra as a couple. Now that I have a special soft spot for couples that are best friends first I see their beauty and I love them both separately and together😭

[lunarmoves]

I don’t know if anybody has asked this but can we have an idea on what the next chapters for who I see looking back at me is gonna be about? It’s literally my favorite x reader so far I cannot wait for the next chapter to come out 🙏

sure! i dont mind spoiling little tidbits LMAO. i cant lie, i have not touched that document since the last chapter was uploaded bc uh. no motivation <3 but ill copy paste some of my outline under the cut LOLLL (sorry if its incoherent this is LITERALLY straight from my outline document pfft)

in no particular order:

You go out for that coworker dinner. You tell him and you’re like yeah i haven;t really… gone out much over the years. And he’s like mm self isolation is never good. 

Seems very quiet/ruminative but tells you to have fun

Bring back food for him lol

He’s still out of it and you press him for details and finally he’s like. THAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN ME!!!!!!!!!

Glad you’re going out and not staying inside like a hermit but fuck!!

Playing a game with him - something fluffy

You are not the same as you have been. quieter

Music

Gettinghim a guitar again and having a moment where he’s like “this one’s for you” and absolutely shreds it lol

HUGS!!!!!! fucking FINALLY 

Idk, more kissing. longing/yearning

PREDATOR/PREY SHIT

Smiles at you and you notice his lil cheek dimple

yeah thats all ur getting from me LMAO

[explosionshark]

btvs- death bed confession looks interesting

Okay I've talked about this one a couple times and it makes me CRAZY I've started two separate drafts and I've worked on and off on this one for idk. Probably like two years at this point and I just can't get it to feel right. Realistically I know I'm probably just WAY too in my head about it now, but I still love the premise so I'm not quite ready to let go

The pitch is super simple: Faith, grievously wounded and thinking she's about to die, confesses her love to Buffy with her last breath. Unfortunately for her, she survives and now has to live with the consequences. Such as: oh shit now Buffy Knows. Such as: Buffy's well-documented traumatic history with self-sacrificing love interests.

Just for fun, I've taken the opening parts of both versions and added them below

Anyway, here's the opening paragraph of version 2 (Deathbed Confession)

Sure, of the two of them, B has the most experience with actually dying. Twice, of course, because she was always thorough like that. Accomplished. Always had the most of everything - the most friends, the most averted apocalypses, the most kills on any given night they went out together, no matter how hard Faith tried keeping up. It used to be the kind of thing Faith really hated. Made her more than a little crazy actually — literally, for a while. But over time it’s the kind of thing she’s come to appreciate about Buffy, be a little grateful for. Besides, it wasn’t always peaches and cream for Buffy anyway. The most deaths of anyone they knew — and they dealt in the undead.

Still, though, it’s not like Faith is some stranger to death.

She’s wanted it. Run from it. Dealt it herself. Breathed it in like warm rich steam off a fresh cup of coffee. Choked on it like acrid, too-thick smoke from an out of control fire. She’d drawn it around herself like a cloak, like a shield, laid down with it at night and taken it inside herself like a lover. She’d drenched her hands in it, poured it out onto people who weren’t strong enough to stop her, even when they hadn’t deserved it, even when they’d begged. She’d screamed for it and shaken and ached for it like a junkie, like a bawling child who hadn’t ever wanted anything more but had still been denied.

So, yeah. Safe to say she knows death pretty well. Experienced it from pretty much every angle but one. Damn close, but never quite across that big dark line.

Until tonight.

--

And here's the opening of version 1 (Die for Your Love)

When it happens, Faith's pretty sure she's dying. Like, for real.

And the thing is, well, she's kind of good with that.

Not, like, hungry for it. Not manic, the way she used to be; she doesn’t feel any of that old giddy desperation. There’s no craving. No exhilaration, or pride in it, or smug self satisfaction. There’s not even really much fear.

Nah, it's a quieter kind of feeling. Something closer to peaceful. A little like it had been when she was ready to lay it all down for Angel, that time with the Orpheus, after he lost his soul.

Maybe that's just the way it feels when you're gonna die for a good reason. For someone you love.

Rolling the bones again - her life for another.

Maybe it's how Buffy felt, when she was up against a God.

Ah, shit. Buffy. Faith blinks hard, until her vision clears, and the vague shape looming over her goes sharp and clear.

She's scared, Faith can tell. Eyes huge, chest heaving, breathing loud out of her mouth, blood trickling down her nose. Faith wishes, pointlessly but sincerely, that she wasn’t quite so used to seeing Buffy scared. That she wasn't so used to being the thing that scared Buffy.

Faith opens her mouth to say— well, something. She’s not sure. Thoughts are flying in and out of her head like panicked little birds trapped inside a room, smashing into windows and walls, twittering and chirping, chaotic and frenzied. She wanted to apologize, maybe? Or else something stupid — try to make her smile? But all that comes out is a pathetic little strangled noise and some blood up the back of her throat that makes her cough and sputter, like how she did at thirteen, choking on her first pull of whisky — only more internal bleeding this time. God, what she wouldn’t give for a little whisky to take the edge off of the pain flaring out from the crater in her gut. It’s a sharp, deep, breath-stealing kind of pain, worse than almost anything she’s ever felt, and it makes it hard to think. Hard to focus.

Fuck. She was gonna say something, wasn’t she? Faith tries again — opens her mouth, pushes some air out of lungs that feel painful, half-deflated -- but nothing much like words comes out. All she ends up doing is splattering Buffy’s shirt with little flecks of blood and spit.

Goddamn. Typical. She’d laugh if she wasn’t half convinced that would finish the job the mythical sword in her guts already started.

"Dammit, Faith," Buffy hisses, shaking her head, still looking scared but a little pissed off now, too. Great. Buffy blinks fast, eyes wet and adjusts her grip, pulling Faith a little closer to her body and it hurts a little, jostles the blade lodged in her belly but she doesn’t mind it. Not that much because, well, Buffy’s not that pissed off then, right? Not if she wants Faith closer? “Don’t try to talk. Just shut up. Wait for Willow to get here. God, what were you thinking? What did you do?”

What did she do? Something stupid, she knows. Something brave, she hopes.

Something worth it. She’s sure.

"Saved your ass, I think,” Faith finally manages, words coming out on a sick wheeze

[velaraffricate]

i think im kind of burnt out from worldbuilding/conlanging btw. idk, theres just so much stress in my life right now and all artistic ventures of mine have suffered. and i think - idk, i really wanted to make a proper naturalistic evolved conlang, cus it seems like that the pinnacle of conlanging, right - all the best ones in the business do it this way, and i wanted to be good at conlanging so bad, it's something i love so much, but this is the second time now ive sat down to really really try and properly evolve a conlang and i just get so burnt out. its mostly the grammatical and lexical evolution that are the problem. its just all so fucking complicated i dont even know where to start or how to document it.

i wanted so badly to make these super complicated naturalistic conlangs that you could write whole books about just explaining the grammar but i just can't. it's just not fun for me. and i think i'd rather have fun and make something mediocre, but still keep making conlangs at all, and just accept that theyre not gonna be as impressive. ive been doing this hobby for like over three years now but ive scrapped and reworked everything so many times that right now i have nothing to show for it, no language at all that im really happy with. wanting to improve is good obviously but i was chasing a perfection i was never going to achieve.

im still working on my worldbuilding and stories here and there. i reworked my spell and deity system a little bit and im rewriting the info for the spells, just chipping away at it slowly. but yeah im kinda doing it a bit uninspiredly. i just want to keep doing it so bad. i dont want to lose this

honestly this all was mostly fueled by linguistics being my autistic special interest. and dont get me wrong, ive always been interested in linguistics and it'll likely always stay that way, but in the past couple months or even just weeks music (and specifically metal) has kind of supplanted linguistics as my SI and so much brainspace is devoted to that that im not spending on linguistics anymore. it really does terribly pain me to say that im just not as interested in it anymore as i was a year or two ago.

so idk, all this to say that ill probably take a bit of a break from this blog, privately reassess how i wanna proceed with this hobby and try to get over my feelings of inadequacy and hopefully come back one day when im feeling more inspired and confident.

[knickynoo]

Back to the Future Part II, The Novel by Craig Shaw Gardner: Thoughts, commentary, and general ramblings

Part 1: An Interesting Start

About a year ago, I picked up a copy of the ridiculous, off-the-walls novelization of the first Back to the Future and had a thoroughly enjoyable time, which I documented in a series of posts (you can check out here).

Well, guess who got her hands on the Part II novel? And while it's not nearly as wild as the one written by George Gipe, the few chapters I've read have been fun, so I decided to make posts to go along as I read. Let's jump right in.

• The book begins with a recap of the major events of the first movie, then catches up with Marty on the morning he wakes up to find that his life is now very different. As Marty thinks about the changes in his parents, he recalls the versions of them he had grown up knowing. There’s description of what a pushover George was, followed by this: “And his mother had reacted to all of this by quietly stepping back from life. she had also started drinking more than she should. They had both been good parents, had raised Marty and his brother and sister the best they could, but still…”

Then the thoughts about his parents just end there. And there’s something so sad about the little reflection and the way it trails off and leaves things unsaid. Dysfunctional as they were, they had been good parents. They had tried their best. But still…

Still, it wasn’t the greatest environment to grow up in. Still, it was difficult. Still, there was brokenness. I cry.

• As Marty takes in all the new things in his life, he finds himself wishing that Doc had waited a bit before taking off into the future. “The way all these things had changed—Marty thought they were great and all, but still—if you looked at it a certain way, all this change could be a little scary.”

THANK YOU, BOOK. Yes! All these changes ARE scary, and there’s no way a kid could be expected to just shrug and carry on when the very foundation of his life has been altered so dramatically but he doesn’t remember any of it and now he’s a stranger in his own life with no memories of growing up with these significantly well-adjusted versions of his parents and even though things are technically better how can he not miss the way things used to be and the parents who raised him and honestly Doc could have waited a day or two before jetting off into the future ya know?

Just gonna drop this here

Eric Stoltz wasn't the right fit for Marty, but he was right about this. He Got It.

Yeah, so ANYWAY

• Marty is so happy to see Jennifer that he has to “keep himself from jumping up and down.” Marty’s so cute. Lil’ jumping bean guy. Golden Retriever of a boy.

• When Doc is rifling through the trash for stuff he can throw into the Mr. Fusion, it refers to the banana peel (twice!) as “banana skin.” Which is. An interesting choice.

• As Doc backs the car out into the road, it’s mentioned that Marty lives on a street with a dead end. Idk why this tiny little tidbit is intriguing to me but it is.  

• After they arrive in 2015 Doc responds to Marty’s questions of if he’s a rich rockstar by saying maybe this whole thing was a mistake and he should just take Marty right back home. Which, to me, is the equivalent of a flustered parent doing the whole, “If you don’t behave, I am going to turn this car around,” thing. Very funny. Marty scrambles to apologize because he Does Not want to go home.

• Little confused about the clothes Marty is described as wearing when he arrives in the future. I mean, since the opening scene to part II is just a re-shoot of the ending scene in the first movie, we know Book Marty is also wearing those same clothes: checkered shirt and red tee underneath, yes? Well, as Book Marty gets changed into his future clothes, he’s described as wearing a purple t-shirt. Purple??

I’m sorry, that is not purple. What happened here? Didn’t the guy writing this novel know that Marty’s character color is red? He wears so much red. How did this shirt being described as purple make it into the book?

• Also!

I feel like the entirety of the first two movies can be summed up with those two sentences.

• I’m glad the movie went with Marlene trying to break Jr. out of jail and ending up in prison instead of the horribly depressing route the book (and script its based on) mentions. Good move.

• Intrigued by a bit where Marty is thinking about skateboarding and it's mentioned that he skateboarded “once or twice during the week he had spent in the 1950s.” I’m sorry?  Once or twice?? Mr. Gardner, I don’t know about you, but we see Marty skateboard one whole time in 1955, which is not a difficult number to keep track of. Are you trying to plant a headcanon in my noggin’ in which Marty might have snuck in another round of skateboarding for funsies in 1955? Because if so, you’ve succeeded.

And that's it for now. Gonna go ponder the idea of Marty doing some Secret, Forbidden Skateboading during some downtime in 1955. Perhaps I'll even picture him wearing a purple t-shirt.

[libra-cant-just-dance]

That last chapter of Mirrored Walls. Dear god. We’re in the home stretch, and you’ve done such an amazing job of building the tension and progressing the plot with each chapter!

I really liked how you did this chapter through Brezziana’s eyes, which lets a lot of the action remain more objective while also not letting Brezziana herself get lost in the shuffle. I found it interesting that she’s able to note things like Mihaly being horrified about Night Swan as a human, but she’s not able to piece together their behavior with Jack- it seems like she may be close to the revelation later? It’s also interesting in light of Night Swan seeming to not recognize Mihaly- was she so caught up in the moment of a power trip that she didn’t process that, or does she not even know they’re alive?

Out of all the character connections you’ve created or developed- whether it’s Cygnus’s tie to Jack and Leda, Mihaly’s lineage, the Traveler and his involvement with historical mistakes, or something/someone else; which has been your favorite to write and flesh out? I really love how you’ve given the characters so much more depth! It always makes the chapters so interesting to read, and outstanding update as always!

Aaaa thank you so much!!!!! 😭

And also thank you for giving me an excuse to ramble skdjsj

Maybe Night Swan should be able to recognize Mihaly and that’s actually kind of a plot hole? But the way I’ve thought about it, Night Swan only ever cared about Mihaly as a potential heir and pretty much stopped thinking about them as soon as she gave them away. Also, the last time NS saw them was when they were a really little kid. Since then they’ve grown up, dyed their hair, gotten a whole new name and pronoun, etc. Idk if “mother’s intuition” should apply here, but NS doesn’t have that cuz she sucks. She’s only a mother on paper #ThrowNightSwanDownAWell2025

Mihaly’s backstory has been really fun to write, especially since I kept forgetting what my plans were there every time I stepped away from the document for too long. I thiiiink I was the most excited about Nithe Long’s whole thing? I feel like what I did with her is way different from what the canon lore implies, but as soon as we got her name I refused to believe it wasn’t some kind of pseudonym for Night Swan. I mean, Nithe Long, Night Swan, come on. So I had to make a connection there, but I don’t really remember where my ideas for the rest came from. God I’ve been writing this fic for too long.

Also a bonus fun fact about that because I wanted to allude to it but then uh,,,, plans changed. I had this idea of Mihaly, Nithe, and Cygnus being sort of a little informal found family unit later on after the story and I still think it would be really cute. All three of them have the beef of getting basically used by Night Swan and made into who they are by her and then having her just cast them aside when they weren’t useful to her anymore. Night Swan hate club! (I will forever hate on night swan the way most of you people hate on the traveler) Nithe is already Mihaly’s robo-mom and Cygnus was sort of their caregiver in the past and wishes he had a second chance to help them because he regrets letting Night Swan give them away. Also,,, Nithe x Cygnus? Wasn’t originally the plan but,,, yeah I could totally see Cygnus falling in love with a robot he created. Might be weird but hey no one’s gonna stop him. We live in the future, you can marry your iPhone, it’s fine. (Also I’ve hinted that Nithe’s capacity for emotions might be a lot more than everyone thinks it is but we don’t have time to explore that cuz she’s a side character)

[ihaveneverbeentothemoon]

ok i was gonna make a post abt my rh oc kitty but i got distracted like usual so i gotta say 2 THINGS!!!

first of all, im kind of getting back into warrior cats...not rlly the books, but moreso the game clangen which im legit obsessed with, and its kind of similar to how i act w royale high. ill randomly be like 'oh hey i havent been on clangen in a while' so i hop on, get attatched to it for a week or 2 at most, and then wham bam thank you MAM!!! im sick of it and leave

but rn im back on it! and im kiiinnndddd of maaaaybbeeee considering starting a new clan and recording the events and stuff on a new blog/account/idk whatever thingy here on tumblr (for the billionth time... bc u have NOOOOO idea how many times ive started a new clan, been like 'oh yeah, this is the one', documented it for ages, then just gave up on it. i probably have like 10 random google docs floating around that are documenting random stuff in random clans </3) so yeah, idk if its gonna happen, especially bc i kind of need to focus on school rn, so idk. i might leave it to do it on the holidays but who knows if ill still be interested by then....theres always too much things going on around me and in my brain for me to even keep up

and also if anyone was wondering, yes i kind of am into warrior cats, i useed to love it as a kid and i still do. i remember playing the old roblox roleplay game back when it was just like rlly shitty cylinder morphs of cats back in grade 8 but let me tell u....the poor quality just added the more fun and charm to it. not even kidding, i loved it so much. i literally would stay up every single night so late just to rp, that game used to be my life, like i cant put into words how much i loved that game. every night i played the warrior cats rp game, that would be the highlight of my day, or the thing i was most esxcited abt after school was over. but things are different now, dont get me wrong the new and improved version of the game is rlly impressive, but ill always miss the good old days with the bad morphs of the cats </3 they will always hold a dear place in my heart, and same with all the fun and memories i made playing that game

also bc of how often i used to rp i became like a pro, like i was rlly confident and everything came naturally, but now ive left it for too long, i havent roleplayed in what feels like a billion years, and im hella rusty </3 it rlly sucks bc rn id love love looooveeee to get back into roleplaying on roblox. even if it isnt on warrior cats, id be happy, i just miss roleplaying in general

anyway im going soo off course rn. i did read the warriors books as a kid but i didnt rlly read the series in order tbh, like i remember reading into the wild, but thats it. otherwise id only read the special edition books lmao, idk why but i did and i loved them, and even tho i basically didnt follow the chronological story line, i still loved warrior cats sm

anyway that abt does it for the whole warrior cats stuff. idk where its gonna go from here but for now ill just enjoy clangen as is

and now that i said all that i cant be bothered mentioning the second thing lmao. its legit almost 2am im not even kidding, and i have to wake up at like 9am </3

sorry for any spelling mistakes and stuff btw this isnt proof read

[callsigndreadfrost]

@apothecaryforwearysouls

Lmao I don't even know where to start. So Oracle is a paramilitary PMC that has ZERO ties to any government, country or anything really. Like there are no ties.

Oracle has several goals but the biggest one is making sure humans don't obliterate non-humans and vice versa. Aside from that this world, setting, whatever you wanna call it deals with anything and everything paranormal.

Look, my dumbass 14-year-old ass was watching a James Bond movie one day and I thought, "Huh, what if this shit had werewolves in it?" and so Oracle was made. Actually, it was made later during the summer of 2000 'cause my mom's ex had promised we'd have a fun family summer of traveling the island and doing so many fun things. I bought a journal to document it all. Midsummer rolled around and we did nothing and my journal was blank so I took that previous idea and fucking RAN TO THE HILLS WITH IT. 23 years later we have this massive as fuck all world in my brain that I bother everyone with.

Anyway, Oracle started with 3 men. A werewolf, a vampire and a human during the height of the Akkadian empire! The werewolf is actually the man that is now known as Aleksey Malakhov aka Angelus's grandfather aka Jelani's father-in-law/mentor.

He had a different name back then I just forgot and I don't feel like looking through my hundreds of notes and files to find it.

By the way, Aleksey is Sumerian. He's been around for a while now. In fact he was one of the very first werewolves. All 4 of the first werewolves are Sumerian and yes, they are still alive today in 2023. How? Werewolves are VERY long lived but not that long. It's part of the original curse. The first of every breed inherets the curse and has to live with it forever.

Spoiler alert. With Angelus being the FIRST and frankly the only Crossedbreed he is also cursed. He can't die. He just hasn't realized that but Aleksey knows it and doesn't feel like telling his grandson will help in anyway. Is that a bad thing? Probably but he's doing it out of love. Angelus had been suicidal for decades and had attempted suicide so many times he lost count after 200 times. He's doing far better now a days though.

We don't have just werewolves here in Oracle. There are werewolves, vampires, fairies, monsters--shorter list is what we don't have: aliens. Idk it's not my thing. If you wanna say there ARE aliens in Oracle then who am I to say there aren't any.

As I kept expanding Oracle I wanted to add people from different cultures, backgrounds, ethnicities, believes, religions, faiths. We have EVERYTHING here. When I say I have a metric shit ton of OCs I mean it with my entire chest. I want to represent everyone. Easier said than done 'cause I wanna be accurate and respectful and a lot of times that means doing a lot of research and sometimes it gets tedious. I'm just one man behind all of this fantastical nonsense.

Yeah, I mostly talk about Loke, Jelani, Trevor and Angelus because those are my comfort characters and I know them better than I know my own damn self. Not gonna sit here and lie, Jelani's at the forefront for any and all Oracle things. Everywhere I am online I use him as a pfp. He's the mascot if that makes sense. I am extremely proud of this character and I love him so much. He's to Oracle what Pikachu is to Pokemon. Idk if that makes sense.

Oracle doesn't just focus solely on the PMC. There are so many things that make up this setting. There's groups of humans that hate and fear anything that isn't human and want to kill them all off. The most infamous being the Council of the Knights which admittedly has been a thorn on Oracle's side for a few centuries now. We have problematic vampire covens who think of non-vampires as cattle and make shit difficult for others. We have a death cult led by a very unstable woman who created a virus that destabilized actual fucking deities into destroying shit with the help of a deity (actually it's a Concept but that's too complicated for now). There's also deities themselves that every so often wanna start shit. Because of that we have people like the Nyota tribe from Kenya who have dedicated their entire lives to keeping a rogue and exiled Maker imprisoned so They don't start Their stupid nonsense again.

What the fuck is a Maker? There is a hierarchy when it comes to deities.

Iirc it's demigods, gods, and finally Makers. Makers are the gods of the gods. Those are like actual creators, they make the rules and shit but they also break 'em. They're complicated. There is NOTHING above a Maker...except for the Concepts. The best way I can explain a Concept is that they are ideas and the very first Concept is the Concept of Existence. There's the Concept of Evil, Concept of Concequense, Concept of Good, Concept of Nothingness and many more. CoE and CoN are opposing ideas that have been at each other's throats since always.

Concepts intervene in life but they don't at the same time. They also only exclusively communicate with Makers. Only Makers. Jelani has an...interesting role with CoE and some other Makers and by extension with CoN. I can explain that in another post cuz it's a lot and complicated.

So as for what kind of creatures Oracle has? Like I said I wanna add any and all cultures so there's everything to pick and choose from. I've even invented a few. Are there cryptids? Yes! In this setting things like the Mothman, Bigfoot, Nessie, Jersey Devil and just basically all cryptids are just creatures from other planes/realms whatever you wanna call them. Some people use planes others use realms some others use other words. How the fuck did they get from one to ours? Easy. Portals. Portals are unstable and quite frankly scary natural phenomena that happens randomly all over the world. Sometimes creatures and animals get caught in them and get trapped in other realms. Sometimes it's a building, sometimes an entire town gets trapped.

Is there magic? Yes, there is!

Can anyone use/learn magic? Yes! We don't do that stupid "chosen one, only a select few can use or learn magic" bullshit here. Magic is an ability that anyone can learn to use.

Are there rules? Yes!.....I just gotta find that stupid file where I have it and I'll post it if anyone wants to know more about it.

Oracle deals with things of magical natures too as well as portals and planes. There are actual black sites where, and I use this word loosely, "stable" portals lead to other planes that need to be checked every so often. Not many Oracle agents have access to this kind of op by the way. It's really need to know level type shit.

So back to the founding of Oracle. These 3 men, these sell swords got together and went into business together and were like unstoppable. As time went on 3 became 6 then 6 became 9 and then we get to 2023 with Oracle still very much alive and kicking with thousands of agents all over the world with 6 branches spread across the world and 2 training facilities.

If Oracle is 100% independent from any government then how does it pay it's agents and employees?

Aleksey has invested very wisely, owns parts of companies, owns whole ass major companies that generate a bitch ton of money. All of these are made up by me obviously. Part of the profits from those hundreds of companies go into the pockets of agents, assets, and Familiars. It pays for weapons, gear, vehicles, gadgets, ammo, facilities, housing--EVERYTHING!

Look I don't know how realistic that is I'm horrible at math and economics so just go with it.

Wtf is a Familiar?

A Familiar is a person (non-human or human) that indirectly works for Oracle. They give information, keep an eye on certain groups, areas, phenomena and the like. Familiars can be approached by Oracle to join as agents IF they so choose.

There are certain rules that apply to certain characters, places, ideas, creatures and stuff but for the most part I like living things open to enterpretation and flexible.

I think C said it best. Oracle can be described as "weird espionage with a cosmic horror twist". It's got a tiny teeny alternate history to it too.

I hope that covers like the basics of Oracle. If you wanna know something else about the setting as a whole or specifically about Loke in this setting just ask.

[catusbeanius]

tagged by @smollestduck-sketches !!! thankies!! also i'm gonna extend this to fics ive written but never published bc the only fics I've published were my frantic fanfics with some friends LSKSLKDJ

1. how many works?

If we count each franfic fanfic, then easily over twenty. A lot of my fics are half-finished though so if we discount them and the frantic fanfics, then more like 3 or 5? Probably just 1 actually smh

2. total word count?

Uhhh...... Lemme count rq. 1800 on the frantics (not distinguishing between my writing and my friends' writing), and then 7200 from whatevers in the obsidian document I opened. Theres more on scrivener and random sheets of paper, but my laptop is slow and I don't have time to find them all :(

3. what fandoms do u write for?

Twst and Enstars, pretty much. Technically some crossovers with Sam & Max as well!! Ig technically OM as well then

4. top 5 fics by kudos

Don't have any :(

5. do u respond to comments?

I would if I got them!!

6. fic u wrote with the angstiest ending?

That one fic about Cherio angsting over Trickstar (i think it's on my old laptop and that one's even slower smh. I gotta transfer these things at some point. If I find it, maybe I'll post it!! But it was a mild vent fic)

7. fic u wrote with the happiest ending?

All of my fics are mildly hopeful (if I finish them) but I liked this one Cherio lore Mally birthday fic I wrote where rat-kun showed up and ate his cake. I could probably post that one, but it doesn't make much sense without the Cherio lore context (which I haven't written down yet :( )

8. do u get hate on fics?

Yeah, from myself (I'm jk, I don't hate my writing)

9. do u write smut?

Teehee :3 Technically, I have. Probably won't do it again, though. Eh, we'll see.

10. craziest crossover fics?

OM and Sam & Max

11. have u ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of

12. ever had a fic translated?

Very, very technically yes though bc I would write fics in class in a secret script and then decode them at home SLKD (but, as I said, that's more decoding than translating)

13. ever co-written a fic?

Yes! The frantics

14. all time favorite ship?

Lilia Vanrouge x urmom /j Serious answer, idek ;v; Anything that makes Mika or Malleus happy, I suppose! (ShuNaruMika especially). I'd also say anything that makes Lilia happy but you can't really ship him with anyone bc he's so old it'll always be a little weird

15. what's a wip u wanna finish but doubt u will?

Cherio Lore :( I can write a synopsis of it, but I really want to organically present the ideas through typical novel writing as practice before I really write my own stories. Alas, idk what happens in the middle (as always)

16. writing strengths?

Abstract descriptions! I hope, at least. I love writing them!!

17. writing weaknesses?

Dialogue fs. Idk how people talk. Also, sentence variation. I'm a predictable guy and I have my favorite words!!

18. thoughts on dialogue in another language?

The thing is, if it's in a different script to the language you're writing in (for example, English and Japanese), there's not a way for the reader to read it, yk? And idk if there's a way to organically integrate a translation. Even if your reader isn't supposed to know what they're saying, what's the point in including the dialogue in the first place? You can just say they said something in Japanese. Unless it's assumed your reader knows the other language, then it adds some dramatic irony. Ofc, there's gonna be ways you can fit it in well since each situation is different, but I wouldn't add it explicitly in quotations, per se. This is coming from a semi-bilingual language nerd semi-studying to be an editor (aka, don't take it to heart bc I'm not a professional)

19. first fandom u wrote in?

Bnha. Bad, bad, bad stuff. I get chills thinking about it.

20. fav fic youve written?

Any Lilia angst, tbh. I don't even care for angst why do I always write Lilia angst istg (and it's delicious every time)

This was fun!! Hopefully it was interesting!!

I pass this game onto you, my friends :>

@unnecessarilysalty @multilevelwriter-blog

[sluttyhenley]

4, 15, 18, 19!

a story idea you haven’t written yet

there are so many i have floating around in my head that i haven't written yet, but ummm, i'm gonna go with the mavnix soulmates au i floated a while back where neither of them have soulmate marks. and this is a fact that affects them both differently. for phoenix is relief, there's no one out there who's her match, who she will get so attached to that it will kill her when they leave her. and for maverick it's a gutwrenching disappointment, because that man has spent so much time chasing love, so like. he doesn't even get a soulmate mark?? and anyway. they're not soulmates but they choose each other anyway. yeah. that. it'd be fun to write that some day.

15. favorite weather for writing

god idk. probably rainy because then i'm not sitting there like, but what if i were doing something else, because i don't like going to do stuff when it's rainy

18. If you keep them, share a deleted scene or paragraph from a published fic

huh, they mostly just kind of get deleted since 99.99% of the time i edit the same document i wrote in rather than a copy. (the exception being #NotDating). i know i've deleted whole paragraphs before, but i can't remember any of them to share. so uhhh, i'll idk cheat and go with the bit that i know i won't write that would technically belong in this mota voyeurism fic i'm trying to write:

gale has to go into work (he used up his fucking leave when he went hitchhiking (???) after the war) but bucky is still in casper visiting. so it's just him and marge in the cleven house. and here's the thing. marge is trying to make this work, because she Loves gale so much. and gale and bucky have a love that is so deep that she doesn't want to break that. and she's falling in love with bucky. but bucky (giant fucking messy king of unhealthy coping mechanisms) is being so weird around her that she comes to the inevitable conclusion that he doesn't even like her. so she confronts him while he's sitting on their couch reading, like 'do you like me, bucky?' and he just kind of looks at her like ...... and she clarifies all that. how she can see how much he loves her husband. how she loves them both. and she's not going to do anything to disrupt the two of them and they'll figure something out but it will hurt like hell if he doesn't even like her. and he just blurts out 'i do! i do like you, marge' to which she says, 'don't you dare lie to me john egan,' and he promises her he's not, but he doesn't deserve them, either of them, doesn't deserve this. and blah blah blah, conversation happens, and uhhh she makes him help her with dinner, and that's how gale comes home to find the two people he loves most in the world actually enjoying each other's company in the kitchen.

how's that for a deleted scene?

19. The most interesting topic you’ve researched for a fic.

ok so you remember that spuhura fic that like technically finished but also definitely didn't because it definitely deserves more work? i spent a lot of time researching specific linguistics topics for that, and that was genuinely so much fun. i was basically out there being like, this is the paper i'd write if i were still in an academic setting, because it's so interesting and compelling To Me

ask me about my writing!

[ilysungho]

kati sweetheart hows ur day been? i love asking people this :3 anyway i just booked my ucat (ᗒᗣᗕ)՞ im so scared i hate this... im going to go bald before i even write it... anyway fun part is that i have two internships lined up until aug 22!!! im so excited!!! ★⌒ヽ(╹꒳╹) life is so good rn except for the yk studying part... ☹️ ANYWAY THE WEIRDEST FUCKING THING HAPPENED TO ME AN HOUR AGO SOME1 COMMENTED ON MY NEW POST basically they accused (idk it sounded like an accusation) me of using ai... what the fuck... i sat there reading it over like atleast 30 times before i replied bcs i was like what abt my writing is ai coded?? then i figured it was the em dashes but thats even worse like its just a piece of punctuation?? me using it doesnt mean i used ai??? anyway my good mood has been ruined cuz now im like discouraged ig from writing bcs what if they keep saying i used ai? (ಡ‸ಡ) ok now my day is not going so great.. 😞😞😞 anyway im going to go get coffee and drown myself in studying so i dont think abt it.. ly bye

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HI LOVELY! love seeing you in my notifs hehe my day just began but so far it’s good! caught up with seunghan stuff cuz i was a bit down yesterday to do so, BUT IM SO UPPPPP!!! also started the glory (but i’m on ep10 already help) anyways!! GOOD LUCK WITH THE UCAT!!! you can do it lovely, just focus on the exam itself, not the timer! you can always train yourself to be faster if you feel like ur not able to answer everything on time yet. but i’m sure you know that and don’t need tips from me 🙂‍↕️ and congrats on the internships omg!!!! you’ll do so well i already know 😁 also that’s really 😭😭😭 don’t let the comment affect you sweetheart :( people are downers, and especially in this day and age, it’s hard not to be questioned for your craft because of rising technologies like ai. ok im gonna put this under the cut so you don’t have to read it if you don’t wanna! just rambling about ai

so, to preface this, i’m a compsci student so i’ve been very exposed to ai and everything related to ai. how it works, how it learns, the code, all that stuff. it’s so so so unfortunate that people’s writings get flagged as ai generated because ai training models get everything from the internet. and a lot of how it learns is through fanfiction since that’s one of the largest forms of written media on the internet and constantly gets updated. apart from all the energy consumption (which isn’t really going to get better any time soon… the market only wants to expand so that they have have faster processing speeds for better ai models, and those better ai models will be further enlarged by building neural networks and stuff because at the end of the day, one of the main goals of ai is to imitate the human brain, so that the computer is able to be the same as humans, but also that is just impossible because humans haven’t even figured out 100% of our brains yet so we can only do so much as we know. that’s also why neuroscience minors/majors are a growing demand in within tech because of the understanding of the brain), the way models are trained is very unethical because of how they scrape everything from the internet. i’m sure you’ve heard of how google has been using people’s documents on docs to train their ai models, and (i believe) that may be the reason gemini (google’s ai model) is so powerful: because it has the material to learn from. anyways back to my point, fanfics get used for training purposes, whether you give permission for it or not, and that’s why people get told that “ur writing is ai generated” yeah no shit cuz it’s learning from ME and from US. it’s also due in part to schools not being able to teach all children about english and humanities, because stem is most of the times shown to be “superior” and in a capitalistic world, what makes you money in a sure way will be preferable to the opposite. that’s just the unfortunate truth 😞 anyways this was a whole load of yap bruh i hope i made sense though, i tried explaining it with minimal jargon so i hope you got it! obviously you can ask any questions you wanna. but either way, you’re writing is good and don’t let someone on the internet tell you otherwise!!! good luck with studying and try doing something that will make you happy again alright? take care 🫂

[iamheretoyell]

what's this about a document of character dynamics now????

This was the first ask I got and I literally saved it for last because I feared this would take me the longest.

I'm screaming.

Crying.

Throwing up.

I gotta open the doc for this. (I have opened so many fucking docs to answer asks today and I am having so much fun????? Thank you??????????)

Okay, so I'm only going off of stuff that I haven't crossed out in this doc, though some of these I have actually done. I'm separating this into platonic and ships though because it's important, I fear.

Platonic Stuff:

-Craig and Butters as best friends. I think it's so fuckin' cute idk.

-More Stan & Craig. Idk. They're fun to write.

-Kyle and Tweek. Thank Morning Glory for this one. I love them.

-Tweek and Cartman. I have literally written EVERY idea I have had post this one note since and am now crossing it out. I love Tweek and Cartman as friends. Idc. I'm not gonna stop writing it.

-Christophe, Dovakien, and Kyle as a friend trio. I did it once as a way to take up space and I honestly really liked it. But also just Christophe with literally everyone bro.

-Christophe and Clyde is specifically mentioned.

Shippy Stuff:

-Clyde/Leo. Apparently, according to this doc I haven't opened in a hot minute tbh, 'I saw it once and I need to do it once and I will not be defending my actions.' I genuinely don't even know where I saw it. OH MY GOD WAIT I REMEMBERED ACTUALLY, yeah no I'm not defending my actions here fuck it we ball

-Clyde/Scott, because I have to do it like once, apparently.

-I never crossed off 'more Clyde/Kenny bc I'm obsessed with it rn'. Apparently it wasn't a phase, I guess. I'm not gonna cross it out.

-'I will eventually write Clyde with his main ships it's just difficult when Kenny's right there.' <- this is a fucking lie guys I am never writing him with his main ships I'm sorry.

-Kenny/Wendy

-Stan/Marj <- HA I DID THIS QUITE A BIT AT[ AND GET TO CROSS IT OUT HELL YEAH.

-I'm gonna quote myself again here because this actually genuinely makes me laugh. It's been literally a fucking year since I wrote this. This has sat with me HEAVILY since June of last year. 'Damien/Craig (I saw it one fucking time and now I’m curious) honestly, I’m so curious about the mechanics of this like how would I even make this work?????????'

-Red/Heidi (this is on here for one specific person, you know who you are)

-And then there's the love triangle to end all fucking love triangles. I'm pretty sure I drummed this up fighting my medication because I just wanted to read a love triangle that was like actually a fuckin' triangle. (This wound up not even being a legitimate triangle though but whatever fuck it we ball) I'm just copy and pasting this one in.

'Wendy is in love with Tammy

Tammy is in love with her childhood friend, Kenny

Kenny’s in love with Marj

Marj is weirdly obsessed with Mysterion. (Not into Kenny.)

Kenny knows all of this and knows everyone’s secret identities and is trying to get Marj withouuuuuut exploding his friendships/life 

Tammy is trying to convince Kenny that something is off about Marj bc she knows he’s into her. Also there is something off about Marj. 

And Marj has NO idea Kenny is Mysterion.' (I'm redacting the rest of this for my own peace of mind here, but when she finds out she actually crashes the fuck out because she was not expecting this and is now actually terrified LMFAO)

[pizza-rollzee]

Heya. Wazzup, Pepperoni peeps?

So...Paranormality, huh? I must admit, my dumbass doughy brain likes procrastinating. I've had the project on my mind for a while, mostly daydreaming or doodling new ideas down when it hit me. Like an ominous firetruck rushing its prey down an alleyway that defies reality to fit in- I had an idea. An idea that may take a while for my brain to fully catch up on. Idk, maybe all the pizza jokes finally got to it.

Paranormality is still in its really, really early stages as of now. A ton of ideas that I had written down or made mental notes of don't gel too well with what the project currently is and what the finished thing will eventually end up as. However, don't worry! This ain't a reboot or anything like that! All the gameplay stuff is gonna be the same. (except for some minor tweaks to the battle system and figuring out balanced stats for items as well as party members and foes) it's still going to be an RPG- so don't expect Jestoro to be the protagonist of a 1st person shooter lmao.

Mostly, I wanna touch up on the writing side of things. Character dialogue, lore, certain plot elements and ESPECIALLY working on filling in some of those pesky plot holes. Again, I'm not planning on fully rebooting the project or anything. I'm content with a lot of the established rules and goobers of the universe and doing a total do-over would not only be a pain in the behind...but it would also just wouldn't be fun to invest myself in anymore. I've grown way too attached to the themes I want to explore with this project, so expanding upon those key story elements with both personal investment as well as constructive criticism will help the project grow as opposed to rewriting the whole thing.

Whole "reboot" tangent aside, I'll mainly be focusing on rewriting specific sample dialogue to be more in line with the personalities of characters as initially pitched to ya'll, planning ahead (a tad) so that foreshadowing can be more natural, giving previously glossed over or underutilised concepts much more depth, condense the overall lore into a digestible size, reworking ideas such as the "Sanctuary Charms" design wise to have a better link to the main themes, and some other stuff.

All the stuff that is written out within the "Lore", "Dialogue" and "Extras" documents will remain there for reference and archival purposes. The sections that have been written so far will still be present but specific sections or sentences will be labelled as "old" with the new version either being at the bottom of the corresponding document or on a new one entirely. (I'll see which one my brain yanks me into doing first)

So...yeah. Basically, light tweeks and add ons to the current story will be popping up from time to time.

Oh- and...uh...major character designs will also remain the same. Which is pretty neat-o considering Larenza has had WAY too many designs until a couple of months ago lol.

Now, with all off this "Rewrite" malarkey outta the way, I've got some cool new reveals brewing up, so make sure to check back when it's out. You don't want your coffee to get cold.

Until next time, cowabunga dudes!

...Wait. Wrong thing.

[revoltinggirl-urethra]

feeling like a boy and like having a weird attachment to that idea tonight but simultaneously wishing i was born a girl a little and that's. that's just so coherent baby. i'm so good at having feelings. grah. save me journaling. journaling save me

this is sort of new to me. maybe i should port this journaling shit over to a side blog actually. eh. whatever it doesn't matter if someone stumbles across this and doesn't wanna see it they can just keep scrolling tbh. but like,,, yeah. i'm sort of like that scene in Tangled when Rapunzel first leaves her tower and is wildly switching between "eee omgomg i'm finally out i'm gonna have so much fun :DDDD" and "AHHH i'm making a MISTAKE and i'm STUPID and i'm gonna DIEEEEE" about the prospect of transitioning currently.

i've always been quite the indecisive person so i'm used to this but when it's being applied to a big life choice like this instead of what flavor of tea to get at the store it becomes significantly more annoying. i guess the crux of it is i don't feel like a girl. i feel like a dude. a guy. a regular ole,,,, adult man. i've been trying to convince myself i am a woman because that seems kind of cooler than being a boy but uaghhh idk

my brain keeps shooting back with telling me that all of these behaviors and things i'm associating with being a girl can be done while a guy. which is,, true i guess but there's an appeal to embodying them as a gal that is hard to shake. i'm hoping with documenting my thoughts like this i can get a broader overview of how my thought trains tend to run instead of just pulling my conclusions from whatever i happen to remember in the moment (which often isn't much)

i keep thinking about going back to school and getting to be a girl there. meeting everyone as a girl. rooming with women, presenting as Lily full time. having that name on academic papers and performing as a woman on stage in female roles. having FRIENDS who know me as lily, who see me as a woman. and it feels. good. i get a giddy feeling in my torso about it. i really hope that i am a trans woman and that this is all right for me because i want to hold on to that feeling and make it real forever. even if things are scary and make me want to crawl into a hole and avoid them. even if being a man would be easier.

saying things like that is pretty indicative of how this will go i think. wanting it and being excited for it and finding joy in the prospect probably bode well for the outcome in these sorts of matters. or at least i hope so. i've never been a wonderful judge of my own character,,, but there's a first time for everything too! gonna do my best to stay positive and find things to get excited about. maybe it's less genuine if i have to actively work to make myself happy about this but like ldsfjslslfkjsl i'm gonna do it anyway so i might as well try my damnedest yk. weed does good for chilling the nerves but i think i need anxiety meds cuz i can't be stoned 24/7 that wouldn't be great LMAO

[potatoesandsunshine]

hi anna!! 7, 8, 11, 17, and of course, 9 i love to quote lines and i know u also love to do this and now is ur chance <3

hi abby!!!!

7. What’s a troupe you love to write?

i’m not really sure how to answer this one! i guess if i took a really broad view of it what i like writing about best is characters knowing they’re making bad choices and then still doing it (this is basically the whole point of she moves through moonbeams slowly and your skin, wearing thin which are probably my favorite two things i’ve published this year). it’s kinda easier to think about what i don’t have a lot of interest in writing—namely any ‘fix-it’ fics. i as a writer have moved beyond the urge to write fix-it fic. consequences are so much more fun.

8. What kind of document do you use to write? Microsoft Word? Google Docs? Straight in the AO3 text box?

google docs—and idk if you’ve seen that post going around lately about their suggestions/corrections getting worse but i agree with it. they are getting worse. but i simply will not pay for microsoft office

11. How many words do you have on AO3 (if you use that platform)

430,707! wow, that feels like a lot!!

17. Are there any writers and/or stories that you consider an influence? 

not really specifically! i have a lot of stories and authors that i would recommend to other people, but not really ones i consider touchstones for me as a writer. i guess the closest thing lately has been discworld but it feels way pretentious to call that an influence? i’m just a really big fan? but reading these books is such a good reminder that writing can be funny.

9. What’s your favorite line(s) or scene(s) that you have written? 

yeah i’m gonna do a bunch of these

“Astrid in Nicodranas, who drinks from a tea service that doesn’t have a single piece in common with itself, doesn’t think about the dignity of her station at all. She thinks about the price of fish at the market, about the cool breeze blowing over the water, about a cantrip for making letters weatherproof. And if she wants to wear a red hat with a wide brim that dangles with silver stars, paired with a cloak that’s pine green and a shirt that’s sky blue and pants that are patched at the knees and socks that are purple and orange respectively, well. She has no reason not to.” from feel the ground beneath your feet turn into the sky. i wrote this fic out of what a commenter correctly divined was a wish for astrid to have a “crazy bitch gone girl redemption arc moment”. she could outdress howls movingcastle if she wanted. and she should have everything she wants. i know i just talked about how much i love consequences and stuff but once in a while maybe a character should commit arson and murder and then run away to a seaside town and become The Wizard there. have we considered that.

“Raishan purrs with pleasure, smoke dripping lazily from her mouth. She turns her gaze to the focus and takes the speaker in: it’s one of the small things, with hair like flame and horns like a young wyrm’s first set. And it is draped in green: her color, poison and rot and sick smoke, the lovely gleam of her scales in the dark.” from you are coming down with me. raishan can always be 5% hornier and 10% more obsessive than she is in canon it is always correct for a dragon to be so.

“He sighs loudly, rising and stretching hugely, not even bothering to fix his robes as he walks past her. But as he goes he pauses, setting a hand on the back of her chair, close enough for her to feel the heat of him. She doesn’t look up—but she does tilt the datapad so she can catch his reflection.” from your skin, wearing thin. this story is about two people who hate each other so much but have so much history there’s never gonna be any escaping it. this marriage is a black hole and their good friend is going to be spaghettified in one of the most toxic threeways coruscant has ever seen. first time i wrote about star wars and it was just me arguing that they should make this relationship worse by adding another person (and i’m right). perrin is being honest for once in his life because it hurts mon more than lying would. she needs to see him through the reflection; it’s like a filter between herself and reality.

“It’s the kind of spell that only looks simple to amateurs. From Vivian’s lungs comes a falcon of night-blue feathers, the tips of which gleam with stars. It soars above the gathered guests, chirruping and crying and showing everyone—Vivian Kensington can make magic move, make it speak, make it beautiful.” from like flowers and blue skies. i have a pretty hard time with descriptions sometimes, and i’m really proud of this one! i feel like everything in this fic that had to do with Vivian and stars turned out well, but this is the point in the story where the magic felt most like magic to me.

“She’s a sort of placeholder for Keyleth, she thinks, which would be infuriating if it weren’t so very useful. Every minute Raishan spends with her gaze fixed on Cassandra’s cut throat is a minute she isn’t murdering everyone in Whitestone. But the distraction...

There’s a little bit of a whisper, a bug in her ear, that tremendous instinct that drives mortals to steal fire and challenge gods rising up and saying: well, why shouldn’t I do the worst possible thing?” from she moves through moonbeams slowly. there’s something to be said for sheer audacity.

[sourbombz]

I was litrally thinking about this earlier today, and tbh my thought was probably Tripitaka? And yknow what I'm using this as an excuse for me to elaborate on why I think that

(Gonna put this under a read more it's like kinda long. But yeah this entire thing is simply me being speculative and just. Thought dump!!)

Mostly I thought about that place they found in the s3 special that Tang mentioned belonging to the Great Monk (? I beleive at least) and like, considering how thay place as a bunch of like, images in refernce to the journey & also the staues of everyone I kinda assumed that place got use AFTER it, and, maybe at least part of that places use was for him document said journey. Hence how the JTTW books came to be in universe (though also I don't remember the exact words used to describe what the place properly was so forgive me if that's dumb and I'm way off)

And I think the possibility of things being left out is completely possible too! Jttw in the series being differnt than it is for us is pretty obvious, and, hell, like, there's also situations like with Macaque where MK doesn't have the full story/much of any knowledge at ALL depsite supposedly at the very least reading the parts of the book that have Monkey King in them (hell I don't think even Tang properly said a THING about Macaque so, the possibility of exclusion based off a lack of knowledge/maybe even just Respect For Some Privacy is totally possible I think)

When it comes to the stuff about Monkey King BEFORE the journey? Well, best I've got is writing based off things Wukong hismelf has talked about? Also applies to events that Tripitaka was busy being Captured too. maybe the others just told him what happened so he was able to write it down/recount it Idk, it kiiiinda works as an explanation I think

And also I'm gonna bring up Tang more too because I can: He loves rambling about the journey!! And he ALWAY so obviously had an intense passion for it! And like this says nothing about Tripitaka inherently of course I know this, but I feel like the trait in Tang about how much he loves talking about the old legends would be quite fun if the book in universe came from Tripitaka himself recounting everything!! Does that make sense?

Anyway those are just my thoughts! It COULD easily be someone else, but, I think Tripitaka would make a good amount of sense and I personally have my bet on him 👍

Random thought-

Like, who wrote JTTW in LMK?

Like, I feel like the obvious is Wukong, maybe Tripitaka, but one would be bias and the other wouldn't have known EVERYTHING

And if Wu Cheng'en isnt here, the actual author of JTTW, I propose Gold Star, because A) He's already does lots of writing being the Envoy of the Jade Emperor B) I feel like he has seeing abilities or at least omniscient powers C) Friend of Wukong but not bias ans D) I love him and yes this is just me spewing random reasons but guys my boy:(

If anyone else has any ideas do list em👀