#soft Simon Riley

[ethe-realfantasy]

„I don’t need time, I need you.“ (Part VI)

(ANGST, slow burn, Simon can’t believe his ears when you invite him into your apartment that night…with some fluffy nsfw in the end…mdni!!!!!

and no this wasn’t self-indulgent in the slightest, oopsie

aaaaand I’m 100% sure “Can’t Lose You” by Type O Negative would be playing in the background )

♥︎ also this is the last part in the series ♥︎

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Simon parks the car right in front of your firm. The glass building is catching the soft gold of morning. The street is already humming with early chatter and footsteps.

He doesn’t move right away, his hands are still on the wheel. You shift beside him, your eyes flicking to the clock, then outside to the tall entrance of the firm. Your stomach knots instantly when you recognise him.

Shawn's standing there, fidgeting with the strap of his bag. His head is ducked low in the collar of his coat. His expression is all shame, nerves and lingering guilt.

Simon reaches over and unclicks your seatbelt with a smooth click.

"That him?" he says as he gestures to Shawn with his head.

You nod quickly and exhale, your hand slowly moves to the doorhandle.

His voice cuts through, low and unshakeable. “I’ll get it."

Simon’s already out of the car. His boots hit the pavement with a slow, weighted step. He doesn’t look at Shawn. He looks... oddly calm.

He opens your door with quiet certainty. One of his arms rests on the top of the doorframe as he leans slightly in, offering his other hand to help you out.

You swallow and place your fingers in his. The second your hands touch, he steadies you. It's not just physically, but his energy shifts entirely.

You step out and feel the shift, that weight of him beside you. You feel the warmth of his body standing so close behind you, the way his hand lingers at your lower back, barely grazing, but unmistakable.

Shawn straightens when he sees you. His eyes widen slightly when he sees Simon.

Meanwhile, Simon looks completely unbothered. He doesn’t blink, doesn't say anything. His silence is louder than anything else.

Shawn's lips part, like he’s about to say something. He looks like he wants to apologise, to explain himself, but he doesn't.

Simon steps a little closer to you, his body half shielding yours. His arm curls around your waist, slowly, possessively and you don’t resist. If anything, you lean into him. Your hand lifts instinctively to rest against his chest.

Then, catching you completely off-guard, Simon pulls you in for a kiss. He kisses you like a man who hasn’t seen you in years. His mouth is warm and his certain hands are curling around your hips like they were meant to be there. There’s no room for confusion in the kiss, it says everything.

You're his.

Shawn looks away before the kiss even ends.

Simon pulls back slowly, his eyes not leaving yours. His eyes are searching, but there's heat in them, too.

“You good?” he asks lowly.

You nod a little breathless and he brushes a thumb across your jaw. It's just a small touch, almost reverent. Then he leans down again, just enough for you to hear him.

“Go in. I’ll wait till you’re inside," he murmurs.

You step back, your eyes never leaving his, but your fingers are lingering in his for a moment too long. Then you finally walk toward the firm.

Simon watches you go with his arms at his sides and his jaw clenched. His eyes are fixed on the entrance until the doors close behind you. Only then, does he move back to the car.

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The day drags on in an uneven rhythm. You keep your focus where it needs to be, but your mind is only halfway in it. You've had a few meetings and calls, but nothing important. The distant hum of the elevator and sound of the coffee machine bring your focus back to the workload in front of you.

Suddenly your phone buzzes on your desk. You stare at the screen for a long second, it's Simon.

I’ll pick you up from work.

It's simple and direct and so entirely him. Your heart skips beat and you exhale carefully, as you set the phone down beside the files on your desk. You're biting the inside of your cheek to keep from smiling too hard.

All these weeks, the space, the careful distance, the unspoken pause... and still he never really left. He gave you room, he gave you time, but still, he stayed. He's still here.

And he’s been trying, really trying.

You've seen it in the way he shows up without asking for anything. In how he’s been talking slowly and cautiously about what’s going on inside him, about what Price says, about the things he’s working on. His hands shake less now and his eyes hold yours longer. Even his voice carries more weight.

He’s getting better every day. You see it, it's like sunlight cracking open something long shut inside him.

Maybe it’s time. Maybe the storm has passed and it’s safe to start building again. Not the way you were, but build something stronger, now that he knows how fragile it can get and he chooses to stay anyway.

You can already feel your body anticipating him, the heat of his hand against your lower back, the way he always hovers without caging you in. Even now, your skin prickles at the memory of his breath against your neck.

You want to melt into him and let the whole mess fall away. You catch yourself smiling just thinking about it. About Simon, his arms and his steady presence.

Quickly, you glance at the clock. You still have a few more hours, but it already feels like something inside you is moving toward him.

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The moment you step outside after work, your eyes sweep the parking lot almost instinctively. You see him parked just where the street curves.

Your heart skips a beat before you can stop it. He steps out as you approach, already moving to the passenger side to open your door.

You let out a breathy little laugh, light and giddy and and he blinks down at you like you're a puzzle piece he wasn’t expecting to click into place so easily.

“Y’re awfully happy to see me,” he mutters and there’s a glint of something almost smug behind the softness of his voice.

You shrug, slipping past him and into the seat with a grin tugging at the corners of your mouth. “Maybe I am.”

He shuts the door gently and when he rounds the front of the car, he’s still smiling, barely, but it’s there, a soft huff of breath that might’ve been a laugh.

Inside the car, the silence settles comfortably between you. His hand rests on the gearshift, his body is angled slightly toward you and you can feel his eyes flick to you now and then, like he’s trying to understand what’s changed, what made you light up the moment you saw him.

“I’ll drop you home,” he says after a few blocks. “Got a quick check-in with Price at the pub after.”

“Alright," you say slowly and you try no to let the disappointment show. Of course he has things to do. You press your palms into your thighs and keep your eyes out the window, not trusting your mouth to say the right thing.

Initially you wanted to ask him if he‘d like to grab something to eat. Just a bite, just an hour more with him. But now you decide not to. You don’t want to pressure him, not when he’s obviously working so hard on getting better.

You pull up outside your apartment and the engine ticks softly in the quiet.

You don’t reach for the door right away. Instead, you turn slightly in your seat, fingers twisting at the hem of your blouse. You want to, you want to see him again tonight. This drive isn't enough... so you summon up all your courage.

“Do you want to come over... after your talk with Price?” you ask shyly.

Simon’s entire body visibly stills. It takes him a full moment to respond, like his mind’s trying to make sure he heard you right. His jaw ticks once, but there is only surprise in it and his hand flexes slightly against the wheel.

“You sure?” he asks, his voice is low.

You nod, sure and delicate. “If you want to.”

Something in him cracks. Simon only looks at you for a second longer, like he’s checking your face for any trace of hesitation. There is none.

“Yeah,” he breathes. “Yeah, I’ll come over.”

You nod, trying to suppress the smile threatening your lips and then you gently let yourself out of the car. He watches you walk to your door, as he always does, his eyes trained on you until the key turns and the light in your apartment flickers on. Then he drives away.

You start slowly. At first you tackle the mess in your apartment and quickly whip up something to eat. Then you go straight for a shower. It's hot, steam rising up in heavy swirls as you scrub away the day, all the tension, and the memory of Shawn's touch. The water pelts against your skin and your pulse hums louder with each minute.

By the time you step out with the towel wrapped tight around you, your phone buzzes from the counter.

1 new message:

omw

Your heart stumbles.

You race to finish drying your hair, flipping it forward to add volume, with your breath held like your seventeen again and about to sneak out to meet someone you shouldn’t. But it's Simon, your Simon. Still, you can’t help the rush, you can't help the stupid giddy thrill in your chest.

You toss on underwear and an oversized shirt that brushes mid-thigh, it's cozy, but flattering, even if you don’t mean for it to be. Your skin smells like vanilla and something sweet-berry-soft and it fills the room as you move. You're smoothing lotion over your legs, your arms and even under your jaw. You know it's indulgent, but it’s for him. Not because he asked, he never would, but because something in you wants to. You want to feel radiant, want to feel wanted again.

You stop in front of the mirror and hesitate. You quickly curl your lashes, add a touch of blush and gloss your lips a little. It's not too much, but just enough. Then you quickly fluff your hair one last time.

You don’t even know why you're trying this hard. Simon never cared about any of that. He’s seen you at your worst, crying, messy and still held you like you were the most beautiful thing on this earth. Because for him, you are.

But still, you care.

You check your phone again, your heart fluttering wildly now. He'll be here any minute now.

Then the knock comes a little quieter than you expect. You barely hear it over the hum of your own heartbeat, but you know it’s him. When you open the door, you're all smiles, unguarded, warm and lit up like you can’t help it. The sight of him in his jeans and hoodie, his broad frame leaning just slightly into the doorframe, nearly knocks the air out of you.

Simon’s expression shifts the moment he sees you, he's caught mid-thought, blinking like he wasn’t ready for the way you look. His mouth opens, the corners twitching like he might smile or might say something, but forgets how.

“Are you gonna stand there all night?” you tease softly.

“Didn’t think I’d walk into this,” he mutters, a little rough around the edges, eyes dragging over your face, down the length of you in that oversized shirt that’s not quite long enough, the scent of vanilla and something sweeter drifting out the door like it’s reaching for him.

You laugh, stepping aside. “Come in. I made some food.”

It feels too easy, the way you fall into rhythm again. You plate a few leftovers you whipped up and guide him to the couch. You sit, drawing your legs under you while you're eating and talking.

You catch him watching you a few times.

"What?", you say softly.

He only shrugs. “You’re just… smiling a lot tonight.”

You don't deny it, you just smile wider.

Once you've eaten, you pick up the plates and stand up, telling him you'll just rinse them off real quick. He mumbles something about helping but you wave him off, carrying them to the sink while the conversation continues. He follows you, drawn to you like something magnetic and walks up behind you. He stands close enough that you can feel the warmth of him at your back.

You keep talking, trying to sound unaffected, but your voice shifts a little.

“You look good,” you say lightly, still rinsing the dishes, your eyes focused downward. “It’s been driving me a little crazy.”

He stills visibly.

“And I missed this,” you whisper. “You. Close like this.” You try to sound nonchalant, but your hands tremble just slightly in the stream.

Simon still doesn’t move. He stands behind you, silent and barely breathing and you can feel the tension spool tight in the air. You know damn right he’s processing what you just said like it’s a live wire.

You finish with the dishes and shut off the tap. Then you turn slowly, drying your hands on the towel slung over the oven handle. Simon’s still right behind you and when you turn to face him, you catch your breath.

You're so close you could count the flecks in his eyes if you weren't already getting lost in them. Your gaze lifts, soft, vulnerable and open.

He looks so… completely thrown. His brow is creased, his jaw flexing, like he’s caught between reaching for you and reminding himself not to. Like he’s unsure what this even is.

“You’re looking at me like I’m a ghost,” you murmur suddenly shy.

“I just…”, he says, his voice is low, rough. “You’ve been so..”

You give him a little smile and tilt of your head. “So what?”

He huffs and it's the smallest sound, confused and amused all at once. “Don’t do that.”

“Do what?”

He narrows his eyes. “Pretend you don’t know what you’re doing.”

Your lips curl and you can't help it anymore. You tug gently at his belt, it's not rough, but rather certain. The moment you pull him in, your bodies meet like puzzle pieces and you lift your face to his.

The kiss you give him is slow. Simon exhales through his nose, hands gripping the edge of the counter behind you as he kisses you back, like something inside him is breaking open, spilling all over you.

Your voice brushes his mouth mid-kiss, wrecked and wanting. “I missed you on me…” Then another kiss follows, this one is deeper. “I missed you.”

His control shatters completely. In one motion, he wraps his arms around your thighs and lifts you onto the counter. A spoon falls to the ground and the clatter of it fills the kitchen. He doesn’t break the kiss. He presses into you like he’s been waiting months to remember how this felt.

Your mouths part only long enough to breathe and then they're drawn back in, lips moving slow, like remembering. Your legs tighten around Simon’s waist where he stands between your knees, his hands grip tightly at your hips with restraint as though he’s not quite ready to let himself feel how badly he wants you.

He kisses down the edge of your jaw, then lower, tracing the delicate slope of your neck. Your head tilts back instinctively, offering him more and a soft sound escapes your lips.

He lingers there, mouth hovering near your ear, his breath warm. You feel the way his pulse quickens under your hands, the way his chest rises against you.

“I’ve been trying to be good,” he says, words curling heat through you. “Trying to take things slow. But you…” He stills for a second, his lips brushing just beneath your ear. “You wrap those legs around me like that and all I can think about is how good you’d feel again.”

Your breath catches and your fingers curl tighter around the fabric of his hoodie. You close your eyes, your pulse racing now. You can feel the gravity of his restraint and the truth humming inside you, just as alive.

“Mhm,” you breathe, voice trembling with want.

He draws back just enough to look at you, his gaze is dark and reverent, like you're something he’s barely allowed to touch. Then he leans in and deepens the kiss, hands sliding from your waist to the small of your back, holding you closer as if he's grounding himself. Your fingers find their way to his jaw, your touch is tender and wanting.

“This feels,” he murmurs, as he's breaking the kiss momentarily, “like I never really left you.”

Your arms wrap around his shoulders, pulling him closer gently, your lips brushing against his cheek. “You didn’t,” you whisper. “Not really.”

He lets out a breath, not quite a laugh and then his hands move to cradle your thighs, warm and firm, his thumbs brushing slow circles against your skin.

“You make it hard to leave,” he says quietly.

Your gaze softens and you brush your nose lightly against his. “Then don’t.”

He tenses for a second, like something in him short-circuits and then his fingers curl tighter around your legs.

“Tell me you mean that,” he whispers inside your neck.

“I mean it,“ you whisper back. “Stay.”

Simon finally lets himself believe that this time, there’s no need to hold back. That maybe this time, you can begin again.

His lips are on you again, slow at first, unhurried and deep, as if he’s savoring the feel of you, the weight of finally being here with you again.

Your hands slide up under his hoodie, your fingertips meeting his warm skin, the solid lines of his back beneath your palms. You touch him like you're relearning it, the way his muscles shift when he moves, the way his breath catches when your nails dig just slightly.

Then you scratch. Hard. You're dragging your nails down his back in a sudden wave of need and the sound he makes in return is low and guttural, caught somewhere between a grunt and a growl, his mouth still against yours.

The sound sends a jolt straight through you and your spine arches almost immediately, your thighs tightening around his waist, drawing him impossibly closer. His mouth opens against yours at the same time yours parts in a gasp, the air thick and heavy around you.

Then you lean in, your lips brushing over his ear with warm breath. Your tongue flicks against the curve of it, slowly and his grip on you tightens instinctively. You can feel it in the way his fingers dig into your hips, in the way his breath rushes uneven against your neck.

He pulls back just an inch, his eyes meeting yours, they're flushed, intense and wanting. “Y’re gonna kill me,” he murmurs, voice rough with restraint.

"Oh, I'm not done yet," you grin.

He lets out a breathless laugh, his hands are still gripping you. He looks at you all flushed and smiling, your legs still wrapped around his waist and your chest rising and falling in shallow breaths. There’s something so unguarded about you in this moment, something he didn't see much of these past months.

Without a word, Simon slips his arms beneath you, steady and sure and lifts you effortlessly from the counter. You let out a surprised laugh, it's quiet and breathy and you clutch at his shoulders.

“God, you make me feel like I weigh nothing,” you say against his jaw, giggling into the warmth of his skin.

He smirks and presses a quiet huff of air through his nose. “Y'don’t,” he mutters, like it’s obvious, like carrying you is the easiest thing he’s done in months.

He walks you down the short hall, with unhurried steps and then gently lowers you onto the bed. You land against the sheets with a soft bounce and you're giggling up at him, your hair splayed. You're still cradling his arm with both hands as he leans over you.

His weight doesn’t touch you yet, but his presence is everywhere. His arms are braced on either side of you, his face hovering just above yours. The room is quiet, your breathing the only sound between you. The eye contact between you doesn’t break, it’s thick with history and longing.

You lift a hand, fingers tracing the inside of his elbow slowly and whisper with a smile, “You’re staring.”

His mouth lifts at the corner, but he doesn’t look away. “Can you blame me?”

That earns him a soft flush on your cheeks. Your eyes flick lower, soft and playful, just for a second and then they slide back up. You spot the visible bulge in his jeans and your grin deepens as you murmur, “You’re…uh...kind of hard not to notice.”

He stills, but a quiet laugh escapes him, low and warm in his throat. He dips closer, his nose brushing yours and murmurs in return, “You did this to me, you know.”

You start giggling again and Simon buries his face in the curve of your neck, his breath warm against your skin as he presses slow, open-mouthed kisses there. They make you sigh, your fingers threading through the back of his hair like instinct. You tilt your head, giving him more and he hums softly, lips trailing just beneath your ear.

Your hands move almost before you're aware, slipping down between the two of you, finding the hem of his jeans. You fumble eagerly with the belt. “Come on, Simon,” you laugh, as you just can't get his belt to unbuckle.

He chuckles low into your skin. He's not mocking, just surprised, pleased even. There’s absolutely no resistance in him, when he lifts his head up to yours.

Your smile softens under his gaze. It's not just the want anymore, there’s trust. There's a quiet invitation in your eyes.

Still, he stays right where he is, one hand brushing gently down your side. “y/n,” he says, voice rough again, “can I…?” His eyes don’t leave yours. “I need to hear it.”

You blink, not because you're unsure, but because of the way he asks. Like he’d stop in an instant if you needed him to.

You nod, your hands resting on his chest now. “Yes,” you whisper. “You can.”

But that isn’t enough for him. He leans down, kissing your neck again. “Say it,” he murmurs. He's not pressuring you, he just needs your voice, your words.

You smile, cheeks warm, fingers curling into his hoodie. “You can have me, Simon.” Your voice trembles just a little, from emotion, not fear. “I want you to have me.”

He breathes in sharply, as if you gave him permission to breathe again.

“Okay,” he murmurs and continues to splay kisses on your neck.

Your hands trace lightly over his chest as you pull your oversized shirt up, slipping it over your head with a shy glance. The soft fabric falls away, revealing your bare skin. You let the shirt fall somewhere forgotten on the floor, your breathing steady but quickening.

Simon’s fingers brush along your ribs, gentle as a promise, as he peels off his hoodie, letting it drop beside your shirt. He moves slowly, discarding his jeans and then climbs over you with care, like he’s crossing a fragile bridge. His body settles atop yours, your warmth mingling, the cool sheets beneath you become a quiet contrast to the heat you share.

You're still in just your underwear, his hands roaming with reverence, memorizing the curves that had been out of reach for too long. Your fingers find his hair, threading through the strands.

Simon leans down, brushing a soft kiss along your collarbone, then on your shoulder, each touch careful, as if he's afraid to break the delicate balance between you. You sigh into him, lips parting slightly, inviting but still gentle.

His eyes flick down, catching the glimpse of your underwear. It's soft pink, dotted with tiny fruit patterns. A slow, amused chuckle escapes him. “Lucky me,” he teases.

You laugh wholeheartedly and the sound is light and infectious. Without hesitation, you pull him closer, your legs tangling around his back. You press him down onto you with a confident ease that makes him gasp softly, caught off guard.

He’s not ready to feel you yet. Three months had stretched long and hard and if he isn't in control right now, he fears he might come too soon. His gasp isn't just surprise, but a silent warning he gives himself.

Your laughter bubbles again, brighter this time, cruelly delightful and he has to bite back his own smile, fighting the urge to laugh with you. You're merciless.

He swallows and exhales, readying himself for what's to come. Then, tender and deliberate, he pulls the delicate fabric down your legs and gives your calf a kiss, as he lets your underwear fall to the ground, his eyes locked on yours. He positions himself again and moves inside you raw in a slow and measured motion. Halfway in, he hisses shakily, before he pushes in completely.

“Ohhhhhh, I missed you,” you gasp at the delicate stretch.

The familiar warmth sends a jolting shock through him. For you, it’s a soft surrender, a moment where everything around you blurs except the steady rhythm of Simon’s presence inside you. He feels every inch of the connection between the two of you, it's a mix of reverence and desire, a raw vulnerability that he rarely allows himself to show. The weight of the months spent apart presses into him, but beneath it all is an overwhelming tenderness.

Simon moves with deliberate slowness, every fraction of an inch measured and careful. He knows how much time has passed and how fragile this moment is for him. His body tightens with the effort of restraint, afraid that if he forgets himself, he won’t be able to hold on for long.

Your breath hitches, a soft, almost helpless sound escaping your lips at the murderously slow pace he is going. Your hands clutch at his shoulders, your voice trembling with need and trust.

“Simon!” you moan loudly.

The way you say his name stirs something deep inside him, but he keeps his movements gentle, steady, not wanting to overwhelm you... or himself. He can feel your pulse racing beneath his skin, your body pressing closer, searching for more, yet knowing that this slow unfolding is what he needs.

“’m here… ’m right here,” he murmurs into your hair, his voice is low and thick with emotion. The outer world doesn’t exist anymore. You’re trapped between his massive frame and the mattress.

You whimper again, the sound small and raw and it breaks something open in him. Still, he doesn't rush, he can't. His next stroke is so unimaginably deep that you scream his name again. Loudly.

„You okay?“ he whispers just below your ear, suddenly unsure.

„Yes,“ you moan, out of breath.

Your fingers trace tentative patterns on his back, leaving red marks all over him. He senses the moment tipping, the delicate balance between desire and restraint. He feels you trembling beneath him, your breath hitching in soft, needy whimpers.

“Simon,” you wail vulnerably, “please, please!”

Your nails dig into his shoulders again and he immediately grunts in return, you're clutching him like you're afraid to let go. The pressure makes it harder for him to concentrate, a low chuckle rumbling against your skin.

“You’re going to make me finish early if you keep squeezing me like that,” he breathes into your ear. His voice is rough but gentle, he's mixing humor with tenderness.

You laugh breathlessly.

He quickens his pace, just momentarily, gifting you with what you need to finally reach your high. While your body is trembling with release, he feels you pulse around him. His breath hitches, a quiet sound of surrender escaping him.

Simon tries to hold on, to stretch this moment a little longer, as long as he can, even as his body trembles with the effort. His breath is ragged but steady, focused only on you.

"Say it,“ he whispers into your neck. "I need you to say it."

His words send a shiver through your entire being.

"I love you," you whisper back, as you begin to come down from your release. He grunts in approval and the sound ripples through you. Aroused by how vocal he is, your body instinctively arches upward, pressing into him with quiet delight. A loud, almost breathless sound escapes your lips, a simple, pure cry of how much you're enjoying having him inside you, right on top of you.

In that instant, something breaks in him.

“Fuck,” he swears softly, the words slipping out without thought, a raw, honest release of all the tension and feeling coursing through him. He immediately draws a shaky breath, his eyes locking on yours as he lets himself go with uncontrolled grunts. You can hear him moaning and wailing your name shakily, as he gets lost in his high.

Simon lowers himself over you with quiet care, his weight pressing into the mattress more than into you, but he doesn’t pull out. He can’t, not yet. Your warmth wrapped around him... it just feels right. Your legs curl instinctively around his hips, holding him there and your hands come up to his back. Your fingertips are grazing along the ridges of his spine, as you begin pressing soft kisses to his temple, then his forehead, gentle as rain. Each kiss feels like a silent I missed you.

He exhales, chest sinking into yours as he lets himself relax for the first time in a very long time. One of your hands drifts upward, threading through his hair, while the other stays on his back, as you murmur against his skin, “You make me feel so safe.”

He twitches and buries his face in your neck, not because he wants to hide, but because it’s the only place he knows he’ll survive this moment. Without a word, he slips his arms under your back, pulling you impossibly closer. The emotion in your voice, the feeling of being allowed to be here, to hold you like this, after everything you've been through these past months, it swells up in his chest like a tide.

Your breath catches softly at the way he presses you to him and your legs are tightening around his waist. He’s still inside you, still warm. You just lay there in the quiet, still pressed together. At some point he pulls out and for a while, you stay like that, tangled into each other. Then, without warning, he jolts his head up.

His eyes meet yours and playfulness flickers across his face.

“Round two?” he asks lowly, voice raspy, but laced with a grin that is all mischief.

You blink and surprised laughter is bubbling out of you. “You’re joking,” you say between giggles, squirming beneath him, but the look on his face tells you he absolutely isn't.

“’m not,” he says, mock serious. “You should’ve heard yourself earlier. Pretty sure the neighbors did.”

“Simon!“ you gasp, laughing harder now. Your hands are flying to his shoulders to lightly shove him, though you don't really mean it. You only pull him closer.

He leans down again, brushing his nose along your jaw and whispers, “I knew you’d say yes.” Then he presses his lips to your ear. “Your sounds were… a lot to recover from.”

Your face flushes deep red and you bury it into his neck, still giggling, still clinging. “You’re shameless,” you whisper against his skin.

“Mhm,” he mumbles, chuckling as he tucks you tighter beneath him, “didn't seem to bother you a few minutes ago."

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Walking up Simon up on his day off goes like this:

First you’ll open the blinds, letting a little sun in before starting the kettle. Then, you return to the bathroom in your shared bedroom to brush your teeth, wash your face, starting your morning ritual.

You’ll come back to the kitchen, as the water boils, adding the tea bags (maybe a couple extra as he likes it strong).

Returning to the bedroom, you softly call out his name.

He doesn’t move, face pressed into a pillow. You sit down on the side of the bed, drumming at the mattress with your fingers as you try again.

“Si? It’s 10:17AM.” Your voice a little bit louder. He still doesn’t move.

Your hands find his thigh as you pat gently- albeit quickly- as you whisper again.

“Simon? Si? Si baby? Si wiggly biggly boo bear?”

He lets out a snort of amusement. Gotcha.

You’ll lay down to spoon him from behind, even wrapping your leg around him.

“There’s my shmookie wookie pookie.” You coo, giving him a squeeze. He just lets out a half-assed groan as he shakes his head, eyes closed extra tight.

“You wake up at the crack of dawn almost every day. It’s a problem now?” You tease gently.

He flips around to pull you close, trapping you against his chest.

“‘s my day off. I’mma war hero.”

You just roll your eyes.

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Just thinking about Ghost having a shy, quiet wife. The glaring opposite of Ghost, painted in black and blood while you’re adorned in lace and frills. Smooth skin and delicate flesh, warm eyes and a bashful smile. Soft-spoken and so fucking sweet.

No one else knows about you, or that he’s married, not from lack of wanting people to know he has such a pretty dove waiting for him at home, but because he knows all the men on base would eat you alive.

But one day, he forgets the lunch you made him. It takes everything in you to refrain yourself from driving to base to make sure he has something to eat— you know he doesn’t have the healthiest eating habits.

You choose to message him, something he usually responds fairly quickly to. Always at your beck and call just in case his sweet girl needs him, but he doesn’t answer. Your lips are pinched raw with worry by the time you decide to get in your car.

So, imagine everyone’s surprise when a sergeant interrupts the meeting Ghost’s in— ‘Lieutenant, um, Mrs. Riley is waiting outside for you.’

Ghost is on his feet in an instant, it must be some emergency if you’re there. He rushes to the hallway, everyone else in the room stumbling behind to snoop through the thin crack of the door, see who their big bad Lieutenant is married to.

And there you are, Tupperware container in your manicured hands, white dress covering your frame with matching ribbons and bows in your hair. The look on your face is anxious, right up until you see Ghost, your eyes softening as he approaches you with wide strides despite the fact that he’s twice your size, hulking and threatening.

“Sweet’art, everything okay? You’re not hurt, are you?” He asks, brows furrowing as he does a once over your figure, checking for injury.

You exhale a quiet laugh, “No, baby. You just forgot your lunch, and you didn’t answer your phone so I got worried you would go the whole day without eating.”

He cups your jaw, a smile breaking out on his face. His sergeants are baffled for several reasons— they did not expect their Lieutenant to be married to such a sweet thing, nor had they ever heard their Lieutenant speak in such a soft, hushed tone, never seen him touch something with such care, like you were so fragile in the palms of his hands.

They would’ve thought it was all a joke if it wasn’t for the massive diamond ring on your finger, or the way you pushed deeper into his touch.

“Sorry, dove, just been in a meetin’ all day.”

He stamps a kiss against your lips, lets himself linger just a little longer than he should because he knows the whole room is watching from behind the door.

“Sweetest little wife, aren’t you?”

[soupsandwich64]

Simon Ghost Riley

RANT

About my husband..

EVERYONE WRITES SIMON AS THIS COLD SCARY "STEP ON ME DOM DADDY" TYPE OF CHARACTER BUT HE IS NOT!! HE IS A STUFFY OLD MAN IN A LATE TWENTY YEAR OLDS BODY!! THIS MAN WAKES UP WITH STIFF SHOULDERS AND GETS CRANKY WHEN THE MESS HALL RAN OUT OF HIS FAVORITE RASPBERRY LEMON TEA BAGS!!! HE LIKES CALM AND PEACE, NOT DEATH METAL BARS. I WILL DIE ON THIS HILL.

[asherwesley]

“Even Stone Can Break”

₊˚ ✧ ━━⊱⋆⊰━━ ✧ ₊˚

Moments when Simon Riley cries #1 Not because he’s fragile. But because he’s been strong for too long.

1. When he thinks he lost you

The mission went sideways.

Your comms cut.

Radio silence.

For two hours, Simon fought through fire and gunpowder with only one thought pounding in his skull: Please be alive. Please be alive.

When he finally sees you. Bloodied, but breathing. He can't help himself.

He walks. Fast. Desperate.

Then drops to his knees right in front of you.

His hands tremble as they cup your face.

His eyes are wide and wet, lips parted as if completely forgot how to breathe.

“I thought- I thought I’d never see you again.”

You place your hand over his heart.

“You did.”

“But I… I wouldn’t’ve survived it.”

He presses his forehead to your chest and sobs into your shirt.

Not loudly. But it feels like his ribs are cracking open.

───── ୨୧ ─── ୨୧ ─────

2. When he sees you hurt and can’t fix it

It’s not even physical.

Just a rough day. A breaking point.

You try to smile. Try to act like everything’s fine.

But he knows.

And something in him just shatters.

“I’d trade every scar I’ve got to take your pain away.”

You reach for him, and that’s when his voice cracks.

“I can’t… I don’t know how to fix you. I’d kill for you, and it still wouldn’t be enough.”

Tears spill down his face like shame.

And you kiss each one.

“I don’t need you to fix me, Simon. Just don’t leave.”

“Never,” he breathes. “Never, ever.”

───── ୨୧ ─── ୨୧ ─────

3. When you say “I’m not going anywhere”

It’s late.

He’s curled around you like armor.

You whisper, soft and sure:

“You’re safe now.”

“...Am I?”

“With me? Always.”

He goes quiet. Too quiet.

But then you feel it. His chest jerks once.

Then again.

Not shaking from cold.

It's from something deeper. Rawer.

He hides his face in your neck and whispers:

“Why are you still here?”

“Because I love you, Simon.”

“Even like this?”

“Especially like this.”

“I'm not going anywhere.”

And that’s when he finally lets it out.

Tears soaking your skin.

Fingers clinging to you like a lifeline.

A grown man finally felt safe in someone's arms for the first time in a lifetime.

───── ୨୧ ─── ୨୧ ─────

4. The first time you say "Home" and mean him

You’re laughing, throwing your keys on the counter.

You glance back and smile at him:

“God, it’s good to be home.”

Casual. Offhand. Natural.

But Simon… freezes.

He’s still by the door.

Fists clenched.

Eyes wide.

Like he’s just been struck.

“What did you say?”

“I-uh… I said it’s good to be home?”

“You meant here. With me.”

“Of course I did.” I meant just that, Simon.

He closes the distance fast. Real fast.

Holds your face in both hands.

“You called me home.”

And he just breaks.

Tears falling freely.

A man who’s always been wandering, finally realized, someone chose him back.

───── ୨୧ ──────

Simon Riley cries quietly.

But when he does… it’s like the sky opening.

Not because he’s broken.

But because he finally found someone he doesn’t have to be bulletproof for....

[ghost4love]

Another roommate Ghost!simon;

You and Simon co-parent a beautiful German Shepard by the name of daisy…. Or should I say Daisy is Simons dog but once you moved in she loved and doted on you like she was your own.

You spoil her rotten always gaining a huff from Simon followed by a gruff “she’d trade you for a bit of steak , ain’t nothing special love” which you learnt just to roll your eyes at.

One thing you didn’t expect was the day you were working away at your laptop when daisy came trotting into the living room holding a slobbered card in her mouth.

“What you got girl?” You say as you gently take the card out her mouth as she pants with a big smile on her face.

Between the streaks of slobber you read the card out loud… “Happy Mother’s Day to the best adopted mom love daisy …. Woof woof” you let out a hearty laugh as you give her a love thanking her as you kiss her on the head.

“She made me get you one” simons voice bellowed from the doorway.

“Oh yeah …. Just like she made you write in it for her and write woof woof”

you laugh as you smile soflty at him your heart full as daisy gives you the much needed kisses. As he just shakes his head.

“I’d do anything from you love...” Simon whispered to himself as his gaze softens as he watches over his two girls.

[alkalineapparition]

Jaws

Simon "Ghost" Riley x Reader | Sneak Peek

Part 13- Wash away the blood on my hands

The moment your head meets his chest, you are home.

Solid and warm, he cradles you like summer rain, washing the copper tang from your mouth, the lingering stench of gore and smoke from your skin.

For a precious few moments, it's just you and Simon. His face buries in your hair, hands gripping your waist so hard you know there will be bruises.

Author note: I know some people were tweaking out after the last chapter update, so here's a little something to soothe over the ache ;)

[royalty-purple]

[rosegolden13]

Just imagining Ghost who’s not used to all these warm fluttery feelings for you, the medic that patched him up a few weeks ago. He’s had hookups and knows the thick power of lust well. The brief connection of bodies is familiar territory for him and that’s all he’s wanted. But this?

God, he’s fantasizing about holding your hand and blushing under his mask at the thought, the pillowy pads of your fingers pressed tentatively against the rough and veiny back of his hand. He knows the feeling would undo him, cause irreparable damage.

Yes, it’s pathetic but he can’t get over the way your gentle hands patched him up. No one’s ever treated him like that, so careful, so delicate. Like he was the fragile one.

He’s an insomniac but can fall asleep by imagining your soft, warm form cuddled in his arms. And for the first time, he wants more, even if he has no idea how to ask for it.

Meanwhile, reader’s terrified out of her mind cuz why is the scary lieutenant on base staring at her so much?!??? I love cliches so much. A rugged, huge man who’s all soft and flustered for you? Is that so much to ask??

[maryangelex]

loser!reader x simon riley

loser!reader who’s hired by lasswel to help price with the immense amount of paperwork that he never gets to. who’s assigned to sit pretty at the beaten desk outside of his office. but I like the idea of reader not being the typical “sexy assistant” but more like loser girl frumpy sweater and thick rimmed glasses type of assistant who still gets these Kyle and Johnny riled up working extra hard and making dorks out of themselves trying to woo you but you’re just too oblivious to men’s advances. not simon though, he’s the one that’s the most awkward yet somehow effective? you get hired and on your first day, as you acclimate to your office with your matching pastel supplies that you so delicately organize across your desk to give this t-filled office a feminine touch, one by one the boys drop off their report files at your desk to be revised and handed over to price. the first one’s Kyle, who showers you in compliments that go way over your head, “sargeant Garrick sure is polite!” Is all you really think of it; kinda frustrating for him. the next one coming over is Johnny, who hands you his files with his eyes eating you up like you’re a bar of chocolate. Johnny makes you feel um, intimidated? it’s the way he’s got that look in his eyes that feels like he’ll eat you whole, like he’s got X-ray vision staring right through that bulky knitted sweater. It makes your cheeks turn beet red in embarrassment when he makes comments and one-liners to get you worked up. the last one to visit your desk that first day caught you off-guard. while you were turned around alphabetizing the manila folders in the file cabinet behind you, you turned around to the large apparition of a skull-faced man that might as well have been a hallucination because 2 seconds ago he was not there and a man that size should be impossible to go unnoticed. your heart jumps and gets caught in your throat when you turn around and see him; dark and massive and the only visible human feature in him are the dark brown eyes behind that mask. you greet him politely through a stutter as you return to your seat, and all he responds with is an extended arm with the reports in hand. you mutter a thank you, your throat constricted, and what you get in return is a grunt before he turns on his heels and disappears down the hallway.

you’re scared shitless of that man on your very first day.

little did you know, simon’s face under the mask was scarlet red and flushed hot the second he saw your innocent glimmering eyes behind your skewed frames, making him unable to get a word out and having no other option but to retreat.

[differenteagletragedy]

Something about Simon having seen and been through so much in his life — he’s killed, been shot, beaten, left for dead, just piles and piles and years and years of death and destruction — but he will still treat all of your problems with the utmost care and kindness.

But like, ANY problem. You stayed up too late playing some dumb game on your phone and the next morning you’re tired and grumpy? Poor little sweetheart, he’ll get you some coffee. Had too much caffeine and now you’ve got the jitters? Rest your head on his chest and just let it pass, he’s got you.

Of course if there’s something seriously wrong, he’s your man — he’d do literally anything for you, always — but there’s just something so nice about him having seen the worst humanity has to offer and then putting some goofy little mess you got yourself into on a similar level just because he loves you so much.

If it matters to you, it matters to him. If it bothers you, he’ll do everything in his power to fix it. If he’s bruised and bloody and broken but you have a paper cut, guess which he’s tending to first. You already know.

Because, above all else, Simon is SO PROUD to be yours. And he’ll never, for one single second, give you any reason to regret giving him the opportunity to love you.

[ethe-realfantasy]

It's late and you’re curled up on Simon’s couch as the movie you were just watching comes to an end. Riley lays snoozing at your feet, one of her paws twitching in a dream. You're nestled into Simon’s side beneath a worn but warm throw blanket. When you shift beside him, suddenly overcome by sleep, you let out a soft, high-pitched hum. A tiny release that escapes you as you move, a little sound of contentment.

Simon’s body freezes immediately.

You don't notice it at first, with your eyes still half on the screen, half lost in the sleepy afterglow of the movie. But he does. Every nerve in him reacts to that sound like someone flipped a switch inside him. He is rock hard in an instant.

His jaw clenches and his heart starts to race.

You tilt your head toward him, catching the sudden tension in his body. “What?” you ask gently, with curious eyes.

He blinks at you like he's trying to rejoin reality. “Do that again.”

“Do what?” you ask, genuinely confused.

“That sound,” he says, shifting slightly away from you, like he needs space to get a grip on himself. “The little sigh. Just… do it again.”

You narrow your eyes, now smiling, but still confused. “What sound, Simon?”

“You know what sound," he says and his energy changes. His voice is low, almost a growl, but playful. "C'mere."

"You're hearing things."

"Am I now?"

You sense the shift in his energy and move slowly toward the edge of the couch. “I didn't do anything!” you giggle.

His eyes flash and there is something hungry behind them. Without warning, he shoots up and you shriek with laughter, jumping up from the couch as Riley blinks awake and watches the sudden chaos unfold. You dart toward the hallway, still giggling.

“Simon!” you squeal, laughing breathlessly as you dodge away from him into the kitchen. He's already chasing you. "What's gotten into you?"

“Do you think you can get away with that?”

“I don’t even know what sound you mean!”

He catches up in three long steps, grabbing you gently but firmly around the waist and lifting you clean off the ground. You laugh even harder now and it echoes through his flat like sunshine. Both of you are breathless, both smiling like idiots.

“You’re insane,“ you laugh, as he presses his face into your stomach, ”put me down!“

„You have no idea what that did to me.“

You twist in his hold, cheeks flushed and your arms come up to wrap around his shoulders as your giggles soften. “You’re being ridiculous."

“Let’s see if you can make more of those,“ he murmurs, already carrying you back to the couch.

[softaestluv]

more of Ghost’s sweet wife from this blurb! | mlist ✎ᝰ.ᐟ

Ghost’s sergeant’s are still trying to figure out how a sweet thing like yourself ended up as their Lieutenant’s wife. Rumors spread, ones that bruise Ghost’s ego just a little— ‘Did you hear the Lieutenant is holding a poor lass hostage as his wife?’

It doesn’t help that anytime anyone asks he chalks it up to his ‘irresistible charm.’

The truth? Well he can’t let his team know how utterly soft he is for you.

It would ruin his image if he told them that when he’s not on base he spends his spare time at his elderly neighbor’s apartment. Carries her mail up the stairs everyday so she doesn’t have to climb up the stairs herself, helps her up them whenever he does see her shaking and stumbling up the steps.

Asks her if she needs anything from the market when he’s going shopping, takes her to get refills of her medicine. Always makes himself available to her no matter how minuscule, opens stubborn jars for her, helps her read the tiny font on her prescription bottles, fixes the time on her clocks when the time changes.

Her glorified maintenance boy, and truthfully, Simon was more than happy to help. It felt good to be needed for something normal, so he replaced her light bulbs, drained her clogged sinks, fixed her lopsided wash machine with a smile.

Every Sunday morning, the same routine, tea and biscuits while she taught him how to crochet. It wasn’t exactly easy to hold the slender hooks in his thick fingers, but he could hold them steady long enough, zero his focus through a needle after years as a sniper. He was quite a patient person, and the stitching helped pass the days he was alone, numb his mind to nothing, but loop and thread.

Loop and thread.

It’s not like she was the only one benefiting from the agreement. It was quiet, peaceful, a much needed contrast to the draining and stressful occupation he put himself in. Most days he fell asleep in her recliner, always had her heater a little warmer than needed, the smell of pastries she was baking wafting from the kitchen. Made her living room entirely too comfortable, but she didn’t mind when he took naps, even if he was sure he snored like a bear.

Insisted he call her ‘Gran,’ even if she wasn’t his grandmother. Though, he supposed she acted like she was; baked him an abundance of pastries, always made more than enough dinner for two people. Gave him left overs for lunch— ‘a little lady like myself can’t finish it all alone, Simon.’

Plus, it led him to you.

There were days their conversations strayed to his relationship status. Single, of course, something Gran tried to change, dropping hints throughout their time together:

‘A young man like yourself should have a wife and kids by now, Simon!’

‘You sure are a handy man, you’ll make a great husband someday.’

‘You should meet my granddaughter, I think you two would get along swell.’

‘You know, my granddaughter can cook just as well. Taught her all my recipes.’

He always brushed it off; he wasn’t exactly looking to be in a relationship, but Gran was cunning, sneaky, and set the two of you up. Invited him over for dinner and to watch the football game on the telly one day. Except when he walked through her front door, calling for her, he saw your figure in the kitchen, adorned in an apron, covered in flour and sugar.

And well, he already called her ‘Gran,’ why not legally make her his grand-in-law?

[stargirlrchive]

i love soft!simon so badly it makes me physically sick.

literally the line “his hands so calloused from his pistol softly traces hearts on my face” in icfhnric makes me fully ascend out of my body because i think of soft!simon !!!! :(

simon who is so in love it makes him nauseous. simon whose hands tremble with nerves as he fumbles with the keys to open your door, getting frustrated because he’s so nervous he can’t get the door open.

simon whose knees threaten to give out at the sight of his lover lounging around in one of his shirts.

simon whose calloused fingers cup your face, tracing gentle shapes across your skin and melting into your embrace because he’s so in love and he’s home.

[circlebuttons]

Simon Riley as a father

-father!simonriley who returns home from deployment to his toddler son wanting nothing to do with him

Simon Riley doesn't just want a wife and kids. He wants to be a husband and father, so when your toddler starts to velcro himself to you Simon tries very hard not to take it personally. It was merely just a coincidence that your toddler developed this new obsession with you during Simon’s last deployment, but that doesn’t make him feel any less guilty. Your son is in a phase where he just wants to be under you twenty four seven, even having meltdowns in Simon’s arms some days when you have to leave home without him. It's endearing how he follows you around like a little duckling and gives you the sweetest little hugs and kisses just because, but the issue arises the more he starts giving Simon glares for even daring to try to join the two of you in hand holding or wedging his little footie covered body between the two of you in bed. Your son meets Simon with rejection just about any chance he gets no matter how many times you try to remind him to be kind to his father, and you can tell by Simon’s expressions and body language that it stings a lot of the time. You make sure to love on him extra when you have moments alone, assuring him often that in a few days this new phase will be over, your hand lightly massaging his shoulder, reaching across said toddler who's sound asleep with his arms and legs strewn across the two of you.

It isn't until Simon saves the day with his remarkable dad strength that he's no longer on your toddlers shit list. You're in the kitchen making lunch for both of them when your son appears at your side with a juice he's pulled from the pantry with your permission. He hands it to you to open but the character head attached to the nozzle always makes the bottle hard to grip and open, especially when your nails are done. You grunt softly after trying to open it a few times, an idea popping into your head after your last failed attempt. You crouch down slightly to be on his level before flitting your eyes over to Simon sitting quietly at the kitchen island, eyes glued to the screen of his laptop and by the way he quickly typed and furrows his eyebrow you can tell he's answering last minute work emails. You nod to him and quietly suggest that, "Maybe if you go ask daddy nicely and give him a big kiss he'll open it."

He thinks it over for a few seconds before pattering over to Simon, determination in his eyes as he pulls at his pant leg. You watch as his eyebrows shoot high up, surprised at the interaction before he effortlessly opens the bottle with a smile. His eyes catch yours when he leans down to receive his "thank you" and cheek kiss, mouthing an excited "You see this?"

You nod excitedly at him, happy that your boys are loving on each other again, what more could you want?

[ghost4love]

Thinking about roommate Ghost!simon;

You knew what he did for a living it was hard not too when he would disappear into thin air then appear weeks or months later. You also knew that he wasn’t a physical touch kinda guy, he froze to a point you even felt his heart stop when you tried to hug him when he returned from a 3 month mission.

So you develop the “air hug” even if it was one sided. Whenever he returned home, whether you caught him returning or you walked in on him cooking in the kitchen one morning. You would simply raise your arms and open them in the air and say “welcome home si” always followed by a “I’m glad you’re home safe “ before dropping your arms after having a successful hum or a small chuckle from him.

But today …. Today was different.

You was lounging on the living room couch watching some tinpot reality show, too lazy to change the channel when the door opened, a tried and fragile Simon stood 5 feet away. You could tell this mission took it out of him, you never pry into details but you have learnt how to read his eyes.

You sigh softly as you stand up, blanket wrapped over your shoulders as you lift your arms open to do your air hug but … instead of the emptiness you was meet with Simon… his arms wrapped round your waist as he bent down to rest his head on your shoulder. Holding you… hugging you tight like you wasn’t real. Your froze before gently wrapping your arms and the blanket around him as you whisper a soft “welcome home love; I’m glad your home safe” which caused a soft sigh and a little squeeze as you stay embraced in eachother arms.

But what you don’t see is Simons soft smile as his eyes slightly water after finally breaking down his walls to come and hug you back… the person who he keeps fighting hard for… the only person who makes him feel seen… the home inside his home.