#some of them are more difficult bcs i just think they don't have a preference

[hencheri]

types of pussy eaters in nct (bcs that's important to know)

begs to eat it, literally cries : taeyong, doyoung, winwin, jungwoo, xiaojun

likes it, will initiate it often : yuta, ten, haechan, jaemin, yangyang, jisung

ask and you shall receive : johnny, jaehyun, mark, hendery, jeno

wants a blowie : johnny, kun, mark, renjun, chenle, jisung

ass eaters : yuta, winwin, jungwoo, hendery

[ln444]

my english love affair

cw: MDNI+18, f!reader, strangers to lovers, soulmates au, fluff, smut, maybe slight angst? depends on how you see it lol, fingering (f), penetration, soft dirty talk, a lot (like a lot) of kissing and sharing long gazes, whipped lando again bc im obsessed sorry.

now playing: english love affair by 5sos, let me by zayn.

notes: omg this took so long 😭 i'm not really confident abt my smut, i feel like i'm writing fluff way better but i hope you like it!! i might write a part 2, let me know if you like this one! enjoy🤍

requested by anon | requests open!

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“when the lights go out, she's all i ever think, i can't forget my english love affair, today i'm seven thousand miles away”

the thought of finally going back to his f1 driver life fills lando with excitement. sure, lando loves england — it's his home, after all. but nothing can compare to the rush he feels when he's in an f1 car, traveling all around the world and meeting his fans.

for his last night town, lando's friends convinced him to hit the club. normally, he prefers staying in to rest before the start of the season but a little fun doesn't hurts, right? he won't have much time to do it during the grand prix.

despite his fame, lando still gets surprised when someone recognizes him, especially at the club. he knows he's known for his looks, and he's aware of the attention from admirers, but it still catches him off guard in real life. sometimes, the attention can be overwhelming, especially when he just wants to have a good time with his friends and ends up with some overly clingy girls.

lando decides to excuse himself, seeking some fresh air. the pressure of the coming season is getting to him, and the situation doesn't help. he finds a quiet spot with a few people smoking and making out, leans against the wall, and closes his eyes for a moment, letting out a relieved sigh.

suddenly, a voice startles him from his thoughts, "did your friends force you to come here too?" his head jerks towards you, and you're standing beside him, out of nowhere. he takes time to answer, surprised by your unexpected presence. after realizing that he left you without any response, he clears his throat, a bit confused, "nah, just needed some fresh air" he mumbles, a small smile forming on his lips. you chuckle slightly, and comment "not surprised, having so many girls fawning over you must be exhausting", there's a small hint of tease in your voice that makes lando's smile grows.

finally, as he turns to study your features under the soft glow of the night lights, lando finds himself entranced by your captivating beauty, the grace of your features leaving an indelible impression on him. he can't help but get lost in your eyes shining in the dim illumination, making it difficult for him to look away. it takes him a good minute to quickly look away, thanking the night for hiding his rosé cheeks.

he gazes at the sky, trying to think of something to say that doesn't sound awkward — and also trying to get his shit together. he suddenly feels the need to make a good impression. "i mean, it's not that i don't appreciate the attention, but wow, they can be quite persistent."

his hands find their way into the pockets of his jacket, and his eyes avoid meeting yours, fearing he might get lost in them again. "yeah, i know. they're my friends," you say with a small chuckle, not because he's making fun of them, but more because of the use of the term 'friends.'

lando's eyes widen, and he turns to you, 'i'm sorry, i didn't mean to-' but he stops himself, looking down, feeling too embarrassed to find the right words. you laugh softly and move closer to him, your shoulders brushing and lando can feel his body tense up due to the closeness.

"hey, it's okay. i don't really consider them my friends, anyway," you say nonchalantly and lando lets out a sigh of relief, a smile slowly spreading on his face. "wow, that's nice for them", you both laugh and lando doesn't miss the way you subtly lean into him, your shoulders finally touching. he turns his head away from you, clearing his throat once more, trying to control the warmth spreading through his body.

"hey", you suddenly call out after a minute of tranquil silence and lando dares to meet your gaze, instantly regretting when he's captivated by your radiant eyes. he finds himself unable to look away and you both share an intense, unspoken connection, as if you've known each other for years. everything feels perfectly right at this moment.

"wanna get out of here?" you finally suggest, your words barely more than a whisper, your focus entirely on lando's mesmerizing eyes. you take his hand, both fitting perfectly like two puzzle pieces and you let him drag you in the dark streets.

after a walk filled with stolen gaze and silly conversations, you found yourself on lando's couch, engrossed in his f1 souvenirs and you have never felt so much passion, feeling your heart soften every time your see that sparkles in his eyes. lando never thought that his night will end up like this. sure, he might ended up with a girl from the club like he usually do, but this time was different. he never really experienced this; having sweet and innocent conversations with a stranger from a club. the atmosphere is tranquil yet there's a subtle tension in the air.

lando couldn't help but be his flirty self, playfully teasing you from time to time. however, your responses makes him somewhat nervous — it's a new sensation to him, having a girl making him feel this way. perhaps it's the way you gazes at him with patience and attention, your lovely smile that you share generously with him or how closely you listen to his random f1 stories. lando and you end up scrolling through photos in his phone, with him recounting the stories behind each one. he couldn't help but feel his heart melt your reactions; your smiles, your laughs, and your curiosity as you ask for more details and share your own anecdotes.

a soothing silence descended, and the two of you sit beside each other, thighs and shoulders lightly touching. lando struggles to contain the fluttering feeling in his stomach when you turn to look at him. he dares to meet your gaze, trying to focus on your eyes rather than your enticing lips. lost in each other eyes, you can't tear your gazes away. a brand new emotion envelops both of you, one that's strangely familiar yet undeniably unique, as though destiny has brought you together in this very moment and lando can't help but wonder if soulmates might actually exist.

you finally speak, after what feels like an eternity, in a soft voice, "you can kiss me, lando", you whisper like it's a secret. lando stomach tighten and he don't even take the time to answer, gently placing his hand on your cheek to pull you for a shy kiss. your lips discover each other, timidly and your hands instinctively slides around his neck to pull him closer.

you can't seem to get enough of each other, savoring every moment as you explore each other's mouths. lando's hand venture on your hips, and the chill of his touch sends shivers down your spine, as you suppress a soft moan in your throat. the kiss grows more intense, both of you yearning for more. without the need for words, you share an unspoken understanding of each other's needs, as if you've been intimately connected for ages. out of breath, you both finally pull away, foreheads touching, sharing a playful gaze, giggling and blushing like teenagers experiencing their very first kiss.

after one last sweet peck on the lips, lando takes your hand and stands, guiding you towards the bedroom, careful not to stumble due to both your impatience and the lingering dizziness of that passionate kiss.

not wasting time, he gently guides you onto the bed, positioning himself on top of you. he can't resist the urge to pause and admire you, your eyes shimmering in the soft glow of the dim lights. before he gets lost in that gaze, his eyes roam to study every detail of your face, causing you to blush and squirm beneath him. your arms tighten around his neck, and you chuckle, bringing lando back to the present. "like what you see?" you whisper, stealing a smile from him as he draws closer, his lips teasingly brushing against yours. "oh, absolutely," he murmurs before capturing your lips in a kiss. this time, it feels different; electrifying.

lando's hands slips, beneath your dress, and this time a whimper escapes your lips, making lando smirk through the kiss. his hands dares to explore the skin of your thighs, creating an unusual feeling in your stomach — and making your pussy slightly throb. your fingers finds their way into his curls, gripping onto them as the kiss becomes messier; your tongues dancing together.

"just take it off already" you huff and puff, seeing lando struggling and he lets out a chuckle "damn, someone is impatient", he says, teasing you, before finally taking your dress off. his eyes travel your body, and you've never felt so vulnerable, your cheeks burning. lando let out an unwanted groan, completely loving the view and he stares a bit too long until you pull him for another kiss to put him out of his thoughts. he takes a moment to kiss you back and it's your turn to slide your hands beneath his shirt, playing with the lines of his abdomen, making him moan softly against your lips.

after a good minute of kissing and touching, you finally take off his shirt and his pants, on the way, leaving you both in your underwear. lando leaves kisses along your jawline, going down to your chest, his hand sliding in your back to unbutton your bra and the way your boobs bounce out of it makes lando groan, feeling his erection grows. your grip on his hair gets tighter as you watch him play with your nipples, flicking it and licking it and the view drives you crazy.

you moan his name softly, pulling on his hair to make him look at you and you share a long stare, full of lust, both craving for more. you pull him for a sloppy kiss, trying to show how impatient you are and lando gets the message, pulling down your panties and getting rid of his boxers.

lando's mouth leaves yours and is replaced by his fingers, stealing a whimper from you. your eyes meets his as you suck on his fingers and, if they could, his eyes would burn holes into yours. lando found himself getting more and more impatient, the way you suck on his fingers with that irresistible look making it harder for him to contain it.

pulling out his fingers out of your mouth and without leaving your eyes for a second, his two fingers found your hole, slipping gently in it and you throw instinctively your head backwards, a moan escaping your mouth. lando take a good look at you in that position before taking the opportunity to leave kisses on your exposed neck, fighting the urge to suck on it to not leave marks, not wanting to overstep your boundaries.

"feeling okay?" he whispers softly, his breath hitting your skin, making it difficult for you to fight the whimpers escaping your mouth. lando takes a minute to look at you, to make sure that you don't feel any pain or discomfort.

"mmh'yes, you can move, please oh my god" you desperately says and lando can't help but pull you for another messy kiss. his fingers start moving in you, stretching your walls and you become a moaning mess, your eyes closing and lando takes advantage of it to admire you, his moves getting faster and faster.

"are you close, princess?" he murmurs close to your lips, feeling your body trembling and hearing the way your moans gets louder. you can only shake your head; feeling the bottom of your stomach getting warmer and the nickame almost make you choke on your moans. lando slows down to make scissors movements, his thumb rubbing your clit to help you reach your climax. he can't take off his eyes of you, inspecting every aspect of your face; the way your face crunches and your mouth is slightly open to let multiple sounds out of it. he could almost come just by this sight, his own crotch getting bigger.

with a loud and long moan, you finally climax, arching your back and lando plant soft pecks on your neck, whispering sweet words to you and telling you how good you're doing. breathless, you absently stroke his hair and close your eyes for a moment trying to calm the beat of your heart but lando makes it hard; his hands traveling your body and his lips attached to the skin of your neck.

the sudden emptiness when lando pulls out his fingers make you whimper and he lift his head to meet your gaze — he lost count of how many times he got lost in your eyes tonight. your hand make its way to his cock and the sudden touch makes lando slightly startle, a groan leaving his mouth. before you start stroking it, his hand comes to stop you immediately and you look at him, confused and with a hint of worry; silently asking him if you did something wrong.

"wanna fuck you now or i might go crazy", he says, almost whimpering and you slightly laugh, pulling his face closer to yours. "someone is impatient huh", you tease, a small smirk forming on your lips and he can't help but mirror that smirk. "how can i not when you look at me like that?" he takes your bottom lip between his teeth before kissing you again, his body getting closer and his cock brushing on your pussy makes you both moan through the kiss. you take his dick, once again, in your hand to guide it through your hole this time. and slowly, he penetrates you, a long groan escaping his lips at how tight you feel around him and you break the kiss to moan loudly.

"so fucking tight, baby, just for me", he mumbles close to your lips and you can't even answer, too overwhelmed by the way he's filling you — and his dirty words. when you finally adjust, he doesn't waste any minutes and start moving. you both moan in unison, holding into each other like your life depends on it. he watches you go crazy over his cock; the way your eyes gets watery, the way you hold into the sheets — your other hand too busy pulling his hair —, the way you can't control the continuous moans, his name slipping out of your mouth from time to time and encouraging him to go deeper into you. and he does go deeper, slowing down the pace to thrust into you as deep as he can, reaching your sensitive spot.

"right here? like that, baby?" he moans, feeling you tightening around him. his voice makes it harder for you to hold your growing orgasm. your hand leaves the sheets to hold onto his shoulder, your nails crawling into his skin. lando suddenly feels the urge to look at you in the eyes — maybe because his orgasm is getting close too. his hand finds a way to your neck, his fingers wrapping around it gently "look at me, angel", he says in a husky voice that could make you come at any moment. struggling to keep your eyes open, you try your best to hold his gaze, the way he's looking at you making you insane.

his thrusts gets faster and you can't control the sounds escaping from your mouth anymore. you look away for a moment, too overwhelmed and lando's hand travels to your face, cupping it gently to keep it straight "eyes on me, love". you obey, meeting his gaze and it's all too much for you.

you don't even have to use words for lando to understand that you're getting close, the way your eyes gets watery and your body shakes is enough. with his hand going back to your throat, lando accompany you into your orgasm, enjoying the way you scream his name and you manage to hold his gaze. his own orgasm comes a few minutes after yours and he makes sure to pull out before ejaculating, his groans echoing in the room. he immediately falls besides you and you both just stay like this: his leg over yours, your hand still in his hair as you try to catch your breath. lando uses his last drops of strength to grab a tissue from the nightstand and clean his fresh cum on your stomach.

he pulls you close again, linking your legs together and letting you play with his hair. the silence is so peaceful; the warm of your bodies making you both relax immediately. a smile unconsciously forms on lando's lips at the sight of your tired face, your eyes shining in the almost dark atmosphere of the night. you look back at him, smiling back and giggling, making lando raise an eyebrow in confusion.

"what's so funny?" he says, fighting the smile growing on his lips. "i just slept with the lando norris", you tease and lando groans, hiding his face in his arm. "i knew you were a fan!" he replies playfully, playing along. you laugh in sync and lando's heart feels at peace; all the worries about the incoming season completely forgotten. your hand gently plays with his curls as you absently stare at the ceiling, an unbeatable smile on your face.

lando, on the other side, can't take his eyes off you, watching you slowly fall asleep and enjoying your fingers in his hair. and just before you completely close your eyes, you turn to him, offering him a last kiss; so tender and passionate that your hearts both might burst out of your chests. pulling out, lando watches you fall asleep, not fighting the smile on his face anymore.

he usually struggles to sleep before an important day but this time, his mind is only filled with you and this night spent by your side. and just like that, it's lando's turn to meet the sandman.

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with a groan, lando struggles to reach and silence the blaring alarm. the morning sunlight aggressively shines through the curtain, making him shield his face with his arm, staying in half asleep state for a minute as he gradually gets out of it.

then it suddenly hits him; you're no longer beside him.

lando suddenly starts to panic, jolting him into full wakefulness. he springs out of the bed and desperately search for any signs of you in every room of his apartment but you're nowhere to be found. he mutters curses under his breath, passing a hand to his messy hair — the thought of you messing his hair last night making him even more frustrated. defeated, he returns to the bedroom, his gaze falling on the tousled sheets where everything happened. as lando realizes that he didn't even ask for your name, frustration festered within him, causing him to clench his hair.

however, amidst his self reproach, a small piece of paper on the nightstand catch his attention, and he immediately rushes to it.

"we will meet again, i promise. you're going to kill it, lovely boy. y/n, x"

lando can't even fight the smile creeping on his lips, his heart softening — it was beating way too fast just by the thought of not even knowing your name. he sinks back onto the bed, your smell immediately hitting him and making him even happier. he reads those few words repeatedly and his hands falls onto his chest, holding the paper close to his heart as he whispers your name again and again, savoring its melodious sound. lando can't help but tell himself that soulmates might exist.

"i am going to kill it,", lando murmured to himself, a foolish grin etching on his face.

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[ducksido]

Hi! Could I maybe ask something with Jade in it. I was thinking about how there's always fics about the reader being insecure and unsure if Jade is sincere about their relationship and not only seeing them as a plaything for the time being.

But what if Jade was the one being insecure....seeing as he is an eel and he's worried that his partner might not like that, or at least not fully. Like some relationship stuff would maybe be a bit new and different for him, for example kisses since he has sharp teeth(extra jaw and probably long tongue thats slippery bcs hes a merhuman) (and like maybe seeing as they're (hormonal)teenagers he is a bit nervous about doing the deed later on in life, like what if his partner gets freaked out(no smut tho )). And like culture differences, like the mouth opening for eels is kind of like a mating ritual lol. Also looking at how others will probably judge them for dating a fish. Preferably with a good ending, maybe like his partner proving/showing him that they really don't care about all that and just genuinely want to be with him.

Something else is fine too! Change it however you want, especially since you don't do smut and I don't know if this crossed some kind of too suggestive line if yk what i mean 😭

Thanks a lot!

CW: Insecurity, references to body differences

The Mostro Lounge was quiet, for once. The dull hum of the tank filters, the occasional drip from a water pitcher—these were the only sounds as Jade sat across from you in one of the VIP booths.

You noticed he wasn’t touching his tea. Strange for him.

“Jade?” you asked softly. “You’ve been stirring that same cup for five minutes.”

His golden eye flicked toward you, slow, unreadable. Then he gave a soft chuckle—not his usual playful one, but something more subdued.

“Apologies,” he murmured. “I suppose my mind wandered.”

You set your elbow on the table and leaned in, curious. “Thinking about mushrooms again?”

“Not this time.”

Silence stretched between you. He tapped the side of his teacup once, twice, then looked up. And you saw something rare: hesitation.

“May I ask you something,” he said, voice low. “And I’d like an honest answer.”

“Of course.”

He exhaled through his nose and folded his hands. “Do you ever… find it difficult? Being with me?”

You blinked. “What?”

“I mean,” he said, eyes not quite meeting yours, “I know I have a way of unsettling people. That’s always been useful, in business or in… information gathering. But it’s different with you. I don’t want to unsettle you.”

You reached over, taking his hand. His fingers were cool, as always, with the faint texture of scales. He didn’t pull away, but his grip was light.

“I’m not unsettled,” you said, gently.

He smiled—but again, it didn’t reach his eyes.

“You say that,” he said softly, “but I am still an eel. I’m aware my physiology is... not quite charming. Sharp teeth. A second jaw. A tongue I can’t always hide.” He chuckled again, humorless. “When I was younger, Floyd once joked that I looked like something out of a horror film. He wasn’t wrong.”

You squeezed his hand.

“That doesn’t matter to me.”

“It might,” he said, and this time he did look at you. “Perhaps not now, when everything is still new. But when things progress—if they do—what if you flinch? What if you see what I am and change your mind?”

You saw the tension in his jaw. The way his usually perfect posture had a slight hunch to it tonight.

“I wouldn’t blame you,” he murmured. “Even among merfolk, the moray are… not always considered attractive. And in human culture, well, I’m sure you’ve noticed how surface-dwellers recoil at fish. At eels.”

“Jade.”

He stopped, golden eyes flicking up.

You reached across the table, gently cupping his cheek.

“I didn’t fall for the teeth, or the tongue, or the charming threats. I fell for you. The guy who teaches me about tide patterns and brews weird teas with even weirder names. The one who smiles like he knows every secret but still looks surprised when I call him kind.”

You leaned forward.

“And for the record,” you added, smirking just a little, “I like your teeth. I think they’re cool. I’ve never flinched, have I?”

He shook his head slowly, eyes locked on yours.

“And if we ever get to a point where we’re more than just kisses and hand-holding,” you said, voice quieter now, “I’ll still want to be with you. I’m not scared of you. Not your instincts, not your biology, not your culture.”

He was quiet.

You thought he might deflect—make a joke, or turn the conversation with that smooth, practiced charm.

Instead, he exhaled.

“Thank you,” he said, and this time, there was something raw in it. “I didn’t expect this to bother me. But it has. It does.”

You rubbed your thumb over his knuckles. “Then I’m glad you told me.”

His eyes softened, lips curving up just slightly.

“Would it be strange,” he murmured, “if I told you I wanted to do the mouth-display thing for you someday?”

You blinked, caught off guard.

“Wait—the… eel mating thing?”

He gave a rare, slightly bashful smile. “It’s instinctual. A kind of offering. Symbolic. It’s... personal.”

You tilted your head. “Then I’d be honored.”

That got him. For a moment, you saw it—the crack in his cool exterior. The slight parting of his lips, the flicker of something vulnerable and deeply sincere in his eyes.

Jade squeezed your hand back.

“Remind me,” he said softly, “never to underestimate you.”

[pomefixre]

If none did this until now, lemme be the one to give her 2 cents about PV and SMilk's charts LMAO (I am bored). Or well, at least the main 6 placements. (Sun Sign, Moon Sign, Rising Sign, Mercury Sign, Venus Sign, Mars Sign)

So the devs confirmed PV as a Virgo time ago so that's his Sun sign. Considering his emotional maturity, Cancer Moon fits him the best bcs that's the Moon's home sign/the sign that rules the Moon. Deff Virgo Mercury considering his whole way of speaking being very Mercury coded ("Anything can be solved through conversation") and Mercury is ruled by Gemini and Virgo. Obv he doesn't have a Gemini Mercury so that leaves Virgo. Which fits with his self-judgement and perfectionism. Considering his pacifist and fair nature I do see Libra Mars. These 2 placements are still smth I'm debating on but: Leo Rising and Virgo Venus/Taurus Venus are my takes so far for these 2 placements, might change my mind on these 2.

Noooow SMilk. This one is a bit tricky and maybe y'all won't agree with me but hear me out: Scorpio Sun. He's obsessive, passionate, spiritual, and if the theory I saw that he's a product of what society made of him/he got corrupted bcs of the way ppl were denying the truth and preferred the lies and that's why he started lying, he fits the usual Scorpio trope of ppl projecting onto them and seeing the dark side of the world. Scorpios are also incredibly stubborn since they're a fixed sign and unhealthy Scorpios can be controlling. Now onto the Moon, after some debating, I got to the conclusion of 2 candidates: Aquarius or Capricorn Moon. Why? Because the Moon is ruled by Cancer, the opposite of it is Capricorn and by default Saturnian Moon is a detrimental placement bcs it makes emotions and being in touch with your own feelings extremely difficult through life. Now, why Aquarius? Because Aquarius in old and new astrology rules Saturn along with Capricorn besides Uranus. Aquarius is considered a Saturnian placement. So by default, Aquarius Moon is also a detrimental placement to the Moon by extension. And it's the Saturnian Moon SMilk has Imo. Capricorn Moons at their worst tend to isolate themselves from the world and avoid being emotionally open in any manner whatsoever and can drown themselves in work or anything else they wanna do. They crave an emotional connection but they're stopping themselves from that.

Meanwhile Aquarius Moons are desperate. Desperate to find a place to belong, desperate to have someone that understands them in their lives because they are incredibly prone to being misunderstood by everyone. They're the type of people that can feel alone even if surrounded by people simply because there is no depth in the bonds they have with said people and they want more than that. At their worst, Aquarius Moons have trouble connecting with themselves on an emotional level, autopiloting a lot and having identity crisis moments. And they can also develop a God-Complex.

Aquarius Moons are also humanitarians and have a sharp eye in noticing everyone, the things they do and why, but they can't do this for themselves. Which explains...a lot from SMilk's actions in ep 8. So yeah, he is a Saturnian Moon in my eyes, specifically Aquarius Moon.

Speaking of ep 8, after what we saw there is no deny that this guy has Scorpio Venus. I don't think I have to explain this one.

Mercury-wise, since it can only be in 3 signs according to its law/passing time, (Libra, Scorpio and Sag since he's a Scorpio Sun), I'm undecided between Sag and Scorpio Mercury, this is still smth I'm debating with myself about.

Same goes for the rising, considering Gemini Rising as of now since the first impression ppl got of him before and even now is just how knowledgeable he is (Gemini rules Mercury, they're gifted in the brains department by default) alongside being a total goofball but again, I'm still debating on that.

EDIT: I forgot to mention, SMilk is deff a Leo Mars. Dramatic as hell, screaming/yelling when mad and saying stuff he doesn't mean in the heat of the moment but still emotional. Bonus: Leos are the actors of the zodiac from what I learnt

Whoever read this till the end, thank you 🤧 Was thinking about this ever since I started loving these 2 but wanted to wait until ep 8 to assign SMilk a Moon sign and oh lord did he deliver!!! Besides the things I'm still debating about, I won't change my mind about anything else, I just wanted to share this in case anyone is interested!

I wanna end this post by saying PV sure has a type since White Lily was confirmed a Scorpio by the Devs LMFAOOOOOO

[threelionsgirl]

karma is my boyfriend| mason mount

part II of better with me

summary: y/n and mason finally arrive in cancun with y/n having to make a serious decision; while trying to understand her feelings for mason warnings: none word count: 1.760 notes: it's been a long time since i've posted anything, this was a sequel that i've been writing for a while, i even thought about posting it on wattpad bc i really like the plot, but i don't know, do you want a sequel? let me know!!! also i wanted to say that english isn't my first language so sorry for the mistakes, not reviewed (ignore the title too, I couldn't think of anything better

After just over two hours of pure sex with Mason, Y/N had decided that this was the best way to travel by plane, but she wasn't iron either. She was exhausted, and he wasn't much different either. For the rest of the time, realising they had no choice, they silently agreed to raise a peace flag, at least until the plane landed. They were still sharing that small sofa, but decided to put on some warmer clothes while the same blanket covered them. Y/N had discovered that she could occupy the same seat with Mason without fighting with him or fucking him… She hadn't felt that sensation since… Since they were 15, when things started to change between them and a part of her, however small, missed her friend. "So why didn't you break up with him?" Mason asked. They had been talking for a while about trivial things, and that was one of his biggest doubts. The low light and the cold climate made the atmosphere of the plane pleasant for that. He had one arm under her body and his Serbian bicep as a pillow to support her head. "Him who?" "Your boyfriend, Jake." Y/N grimaced as she remembered him. She didn't want to remember him while she was still with Mason, because she knew that cheating on him had been wrong.

"Well, I don't know… He's a nice guy, he treats me well, and I know he loves me." Guilt seemed to consume her even more after saying that, Jake was a nice guy, he didn't deserve what she was doing to him, even though she wasn't sorry. "I guess I was trying to focus on these things, thinking that it would be immature to end a relationship because of sex; Sex shouldn't be the basis of a relationship, and it shouldn't matter so much. I mean, there are people who live just fine without sex, right?" "You're not one of those people, so you're not going to live well that way." He said, and she looked at him, thinking that behind all that arrogance, Mason actually had a thinking brain. "I also agree that it shouldn't be the basis, but sex is fucking important." "You're right, I was just fooling myself. When we get there, I'll give him a call." "To break up?" He asked unassumingly, but with a faint thread of hope running through him. "Yeah, maybe, I guess. I mean, I don't want to hurt him, but I need to tell him I had sex with you. I'm sure he won't be happy to know." She pondered, knowing it would be difficult, but confident that it was the right thing to do. "What about you? Why did you break up with Karen?" She turned sideways to look at him, no longer feeling awkward about having his body so close and wanting to look him in the eye. Mason wanted to pull her around the waist with his other hand and entwine his legs in hers, but somehow it didn't seem right.

"She was suffocating me." He let off steam, remembering how sometimes, or almost always, Karen could be annoying. Mason preferred to summarise the story, the details were too stupid to hold Y/N's attention. "The Euro final was too difficult, and I really didn't want to bring her to Cancún with us." "Hmm." It was the only thing she decided to say, realising that Mason didn't want to prolong the subject any further, and neither did she. Y/N stared at the roof of the plane, listening to the noise of the wind and the engines, the two of them there, it seemed like a parallel reality, and she began to wonder what it would be like when the plane landed. A part of her didn't want things to change because it scared the shit out of her. "Mount?" "What is it, princess?" His eyes were almost closed, but he opened them wide when he heard her voice. "I was serious at the time, let's not tell anyone about it." She said, pointing at him and herself. Mason stopped to think for a moment, in his mind this was the start of something new, but Y/N wasn't really interested in making things change. This fuelled something bitter inside him, so he decided to act the same way.

"I also think it'll be better if they don't know." She shook her head, sure that the subject was closed when he whispered: "So, do you hate me again?" "Wait until the plane lands, now I just want to sleep." Y/N spoke as if sleeping in his arms was the most comfortable place she had ever slept. It made Mason angry, but he couldn't do anything as he watched her eyes grow heavy, as Y/N fell asleep so close to his body. Not while that moment was all he ever wanted.

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"Look who's finally here? So? How was your trip? I guess you got through it without killing yourselves." Declan laughed as Mason and Y/N got off the plane. They had finally landed, and Y/N's brother decided that he would be the one to meet them at Cancún airport. Y/N couldn't believe it when the plane finally landed. When she woke up on top of Mason, from the window she could see that it was morning, she locked herself in the bathroom and only came out when they were minutes away from landing. It was time to get back to normal, and she had to get ready. She changed her clothes and dressed up as much as possible, trying to look like she hadn't had a hectic night of sex. Y/N left first, coming through the door like a rocket. She stared at Declan with fire in her eyes. Unlike her, he was in a good mood, smiling and wearing sunglasses to protect his eyes from the beautiful sun. "You're a terrible brother, you know that?" She grumbled, walking past him and handing him her bag to carry. He looked at Mason for answers, Declan thought that Y/N would get so angry that she would storm out of the plane swearing a thousand words and slapping his arm, but she seemed quite calm.

"What's up, bro." He greeted Mason and the two of them started walking side by side, behind Y/N who was a few steps ahead.

"I really thought she'd be angrier, what happened there?" Mason bit the inside of his cheek, flashes of the trip flooded his mind and he remembered every moment with Y/N, but he also remembered the deal they had made not to tell anyone, and that included Declan, so it was inevitable that he would have to lie to his best friend. He looked ahead so that Dec wouldn't notice. "I don't know, I slept the whole journey. Do you know how hard it is to put up with a girl as boring as the princess for so many hours?" "Don't be late next time then!" Dec slapped him on the back, laughing. He had thought he was a genius when he came up with the idea of putting Mason and Y/N on the same plane. That experience must have been the worst for both of them, and he found it amusing. The journey out of the airport was uneventful. They had decided to rent a mansion on the beach instead of staying in a hotel with the excuse of having more privacy. Lauren, Alex and Ben were already there when Dec, Mase and Y/N arrived. They hadn't really done much while waiting for the other two. Their plan was to set aside a few hours to rest and go out in the evening.

The house was big enough for everyone to have their own room, with the exception of Lauren and Declan, who preferred to stay together as expected. Y/N discovered that the last two rooms left were facing each other, which meant that Mason would be her next door neighbour. It was for these reasons that she hated arriving after everyone else. She went to her room to unpack and Alex went to help her so they could talk. The only thing Y/N could think about was taking a nice shower. "So, Y/N, is Jake coming?" Alex asked, throwing herself onto her bed after a while. Y/N was on the floor with her suitcases open, looking for an outfit to wear for the evening. Jake. She hadn't even stopped to think about him because remembering that she had cheated on her boyfriend wasn't the best thought. "I'm going to break up with him." "What? Why?" Alex stood up quickly, surprised. In her mind, Y/N and Jake were the happiest couple in the world, she couldn't imagine that they were facing problems to the point of breaking up. "Do you want me to be honest?" Y/N paused. "He's terrible in bed, and I've realised that I can't live without cumming." "Is that serious?" Alex was dumbfounded. Y/N just thought that she would only be more shocked if she knew that it was Mason who had made her realise all that. But Mason was her secret under lock and key.

"Very serious. I'll finish this" She indicated the clothes in her suitcase. "And call him." "You're going to end a year-long relationship over a mobile phone?" Alex looked sceptical, it was all so sudden. Y/N stood up, pondering. God, she had betrayed him, and now she was going to end it all with a phone call. She was a terrible person. That's for sure. Karma was her boyfriend and would come for her at any moment. "Do you want me to make you come here just to finish?" Either option was terrible. She could also pretend that nothing had happened and carry on with Jake, but that seemed even worse. As well as lying to him, she'd be lying to herself. "It makes sense." Alex agreed. Y/N shrugged and took a towel out of her bag. Through the crack in the door, she saw Mason, shirtless, entering his room, and bit her lip. A few hours later and she was already missing his hot body, but NO, it wasn't going to happen again. Ever.

"You look strange, Y/N." Alex's voice roused her from her thoughts, and Y/N stopped staring at the door, trying to forget that Mason was half-naked next door. "No, I'm not. I'm just… thinking about what we're going to do today." "Well, I don't know what I'm going to do, but you'll definitely be looking for a guy who can make you come." Alex laughed, walking past her and slapping her on the bum. Y/N sighed and laughed back. Alex had no idea that Y/N had already found this guy, and he was only a door away.

[makowo]

Hi welcome to my pjeg romance/kinda sexuality headcanons. explanations and further insights for each are under the cut 👇 not too many complex thoughts but do know that i have an aromanticism bias

Grace and Wolfgang: I don't think there's much to say here. Both have taken a look around and decided they do just like the opposite gender (each other). Grace definitely did more exploration of this than Wolfgang when she was younger, but both are pretty set in their ways. If we factor multishipping into this though then Grace has smth goin on with Eloise that's not so nice for either of them, but I don't think it's enough to warrant a change in labels. Transfem Wolfgang is also possible but I don't feel strongly enough about it to think it warrants a change in labels here.

Ingrid: Less stubborn about her preferences, she just has other things to worry about and lacks the time to explore her options more thoroughly. I don't think she's particularly attracted to anyone because she views herself as more of a mother/authority figure than in a position to have romantic partners. I don't ship her with anyone either, so she stays straight.

Jett: A beautiful bear that deserves the world. I could see him previously flirting with some other drivers before/after races, but has put his love life as a much lower priority due to his accident. Keeps an upbeat mood, but is more scared of actually fooling around with other people like that bcs the topic of his appearance is inevitable. Dawnteago or Jettmon will win out in the end though 🙏 in my mind. Might like Mark but Mark does not like him back.

Jean: Literally has a line about being "YMCA at sea." He's a ship captain that has lots of alone time around strong men and surely has needs. Man-liker through and through.

Ulysses: Okay here's how the lesbian part of this category factors in. He's a transfem lesbian in the making she just needs the time to think on it (which she doesn't get the time for).

Kai: Now he HAS explored a lot of his options just by nature of being on the internet. Says he's bi for clout when he's like 15 and then it comes true. Definitely still feels a little weird about liking men because of the lingering identity crisis.

Eloise: She was the hardest placement on this entire list. I don't think I have a strong enough grasp of her to feel confident about anything else though! Her being bi borders more on her not caring, but it feels like too much to put her in the uncaring category bcs she Does care. Idk idk. She's a situation.

Diana: Pansexual ^_^ She's very open to her possibilities and accepting of whoever, since her whole job is basically about prettying up anyone she meets.

Desmond: I think he also has an open mind but doesn't have his mind on who he's attracted to, really. He kind of gets along with most people, so he makes his judgements when people approach him, rather than considering if he should approach other people. If he enters a relationship though, he's gonna have to do some major restructuring of his routine, for obvious reasons.

Damon: The man of the hour, but also the most simple. I will be clear that I'm partially projecting and think that he's an aromantic bisexual because I am also that, BUT. I think he also just really struggles to feel romantic/sexual attraction in general. He doesn't like having to get close to other people, so he's very difficult to want and has a hard time wanting. Feeling romantic attraction takes a very long time for him under normal circumstances*, but when it hits, it hits hard. *Desmond is the exception. Damon likes him the moment he meets him and it spirals into a serious crush in a matter of days. Takes him so long to actually realize that he's feeling romantic love though.

Eva: Girl who has been neglected and unloved and self-isolates sooooooo god damn much. Doesn't feel any romantic attraction to other people and thinks of it as a waste of time. Pretty mean about the topic of romance until she's had friends for a while and feels more confident about herself. Gets into an aro4aro relationship with Cassidy, I know this in my heart.

Cassidy: Never has her mind on romance, and gets pretty awkward about it when she sees it or it's brought up in conversation. She does not know why for a while and plays it off. Maybe someone confesses to her and she's like "... Yeah, sure! Let's give it a try!" and then immediately feels bad bcs she doesn't feel aaaaanyyyyything for them besides like, being friends. Takes about a month to end that whole issue, and she loathes talking about it. Later on she latches onto Eva though, and they eventually agree on a low stakes friend-relationship thing, where they can just be friends but they're allowed to hold hands and casually kiss each other whenever they want. That's my Cass thoughts I hope u liked and enjoyed 👍

Mark: Okay. Can't say I have much to say for him. Might be gay, might be aro, kind of flip-flopping on it. Mark is my least favorite so as much as I do still like him, my thoughts on him are minimal.

Tozu: "Are you gay?" "The only way I get my thrills is through the chills that run down your spines when I walk into the room. Thank you for asking ^_^!"

Mara: No character yet. Next year 🙏 We'll see.

Wenona: I think she's gotten so many questions about this that it's wrapped around to complete apathy towards the idea of labels. Gets with Ulysses after she decides she's trans, but ultimately Wenona settles on the answer that she is "neutral to everyone, and more focused on business than her personal life."

[bellanoche-oxo]

I'm sorry this isn't a commission, but I just have a question about your art. Feel free to ignore this, of course. I was really amazed by your Miku drawing from December 16th. Seeing such a high-level piece, I wanted to achieve something similar, but no matter how much I try, I can't replicate your shading and highlights. I was so genuinely curious that I couldn't sleep. Could you possibly give me any hints or advice?

Hey, sorry for making you wait so much for this answer, i've been finishing some projects and i barely had free time. Anyways i'll try to do my best on explaing my coloring and lighting methos and you also asked me to explain how i create the folings of the clothes. Please take in consideration that 1 i am not native in english so it's a bit difficult for me to explain myself sometimes in this language and i may have some misspelings, sorry about that, and also 2 i am not great at explaing my drawing process bc i kind of turn off my brain when i draw lol, but i can explain the fundamentals that i know and help me create! Last thing i want to let you know is that i've started glazing my art, this is a metho to protect the images for AI images generators and it leaves a kind of pattern /effect on the image that i did not put there during the drawing process.

with all of this said let me start explaining things!

Learn the basics:

This may come as a cliche i guess, but yes my first ever advise to anyone is learn the basic theory on lighting and colors (on anything related to art tbh). You don't really need to spend a lot of money on books and such as there are lots of resources online like videos and documents you can read for free. It's not necesary to be an expert and even the smallest mount of knoledge is enought to inpruve your art a lot! , i find it very interesting to learn the way things work too so don't think you'll get bored of it!

To be frank, i am actually not very good at lighting lol. My lights and shadows are not very correct, but since i do have a lot o control over my colors and i know very well how to used them it kind of compensates and creates a very recognisable (i think) style.

just u know basic shitty advise that everyone is going to give you but it works! if you have free time try watching some videos or reading some documents about color theory shadow and lighting!

Your working space:

So this is something that works FOR ME not everyone likes it, you can try it see if you like it and if you do, cool! if you don't … that's cool too! When drawing on digital i prefer it when my base layer is grey instead of white. It helps with my headaches too but it's more about the fact that starting in a middle tone when coloring (in my opinion) makes the process of briging out both shadows and lights easier, let me give you an example:

Drawing from complete light (white) to compplete darkness (black) may condicion you to actually lose control in the contrast betwen these areas, i prefer staring in a middle place (grey) and that way is i want to show darkness i'll use a darkr color and if i want to show light i'll use a lighter color, but if i start on white i can't use anything lighter. I think i did a HORRIBLE job explaing myself there, but yeah it just helps me control my color valius a bit more lol.

this is the color that i used:

Another inportant thing about your woking space is you brushes, in my case i prefer using textured brushes that mix well, and i prefer using very thick strokes, if it's too think i'll just color pick the transparent color and ease it! I work in CSP i don't know what you use, but just in case i'll give you the setiings of the brushes i use the most with their codes so you can find them

Sculpting with lights and shadows

As i said before, i am not very good with light yet, so this is something that i do to help me with the process. When you think about it, lighting is used in art to give volume to the piece, not in every case bc rules in art are not there to be followed but to asist us when we need to take a creative decision. The way that we can start with our Sculpting is by creating a very easy first guide othe the shadows and lights and to do it with very big block, so that we get the general shape first,we don't neet to get lost in the detailds yet

The actual coloring

When drawing my process is divided in three stages. I first create the doodle/lineart, that doesn't neet to be super neat as i will fix it during the rendering. The basic colors, and the rendering.

During the preparation for the rendering when doing the base colors i recomend that you give special atention to the focal points of your illustration, in this case for example that's her face and the top of the hair, that's why i gave so much more atention for this part in comparation to the shirt, that it's literally not shadowed yet. Then another step that i use normally before rendering and that i can NOT RECOMEND ENOUGHT!!!! GO WILD WITH THE COLOR CURVES!!!! OMG!!!! THAT STUPID LITTLE TOOL IS SO FUCKING COOL!!!!!!!!! like for real, it gives effects that i have not been able to achive in any other way and omggggggg use the fucking color curves pleaaaaaaseeeeee

ok i'm notmal again , lets continue.

For the rendering i usually convine all the layers of the drawing on one layer, then use a textured brush that has low opacity of mixes very well fot the actual work. Tbh here is very i can't really help you a lot, bc i have no idea what i'm doing when i render i just don't know, the only thing i recognise is that i try to esare or clean the lines from the doodle/lineart, and i focus a lot on creating volume in the places that are more important.

Skins

An specific thing that i do a lot when it comes to coloring skin is using an undertone in red (literally) I will put the basi color, use the brush to mark where i want shadows to be in a very vibrant red and then use a blue / green / pruple (depends on the skin) to finish the shadowing. Thios metho is nice for lots of occasions, but take in consideration that it doesnt work for example for very dark scenarios where the character is suppoused to be in the shadows, as that red tone works as a outline for the light. It just depends on the situation.

Clothes foldings:

Ok so here the only thing i can give you an advise with is to remember that the way that clothes fold dependes on gravity and that gravity works in curves most of the time that have two (or more) attachment points that are going to determinate theit trajectory. Example:

And remeber that this creates (again) a volume, that there is an inside part, that it's probably going to be draker, and an outside part, that it's going to be lightter. With this info you can start practicing with images of clothes.

this is as much information as i am able to recolect on my coloring process bc i am horrible explaining , spacially on text and in english, and i am also not very much aware when i draw, i kind of disconect. I still hope this is enough to help you a bit on your learning journy.

I may try doing a video at some point if i ever have the time so i can explain my coloring while i actually do it bc if not in that situation i'm not sure i'll be able to remeber what it is that i did.

My last piece of advise is to watch speedpaints and livestreams of artists you like during their drawing process and maybe even tray to imitate them while they are drawing to see what it is that they do exccly.

hope you have a good day and lot of lucks ! be proud of being able to create and be proud of being an artist!

[yuukei-yikes]

domestic kanoshin is so funny to me because kano gets home from the salon and fully lays across shintaro whos been chilling on his couch for hours at this point while gossiping about all the weird customers that came in and then turning on some trash reality show or sitcom.. like you two act like a married couple and are surrounded by cats i wish the world didnt do that to you guys youre both capable of being soft. forever thinking about the kissing scene in kagepro where kano slows down for him. vinnie im going to eat drywall about them

OMG I SAW YOUR ART EARLIER AND I WAS THINKING ABT IT AND I WAS GONNA EDIT MY TAGS TO ADD how cute it is for kano to be like omg and momo was like... hhehheheehe shintaro's dumb i think he'd let it slip around momo some anecdote of something she did but momo's like how tf do u even know that. hehehehehehe

domestic kanoshin is funny bc i fully think they agree on most things like sorry to kanoshinaya this but when shinaya were dating i think they'd argue about cuddling for example. ayano's like i WANT to cuddle in my sleep. and shintaro's like for a little bit yes love it but not all night like that's crazy and ayano's like Ok haha yeah it's CRAZY isn't it IT'S SUPER CRAZY I'M CRAZY. and shintaro's like erm. yeah you are. because he's a fucking idiot. lol. and then when he's with kano all that time later, the contrast is big. shintaro will in fact take it to the grave he sometimes compares kano and ayano in his mind not as a way to prefer one or the other but as in, they're the only people he's ever been romantically involved with like it's kind of inevitable LOL.

shintaro's like ok i won't be as snippy i don't wanna have those idiot arguments i used to have over stuff that's, at the end of the day, a positive thing like who tf argues about cuddling of all things. but then kano's like hey you're breathing on me UGH enough like stay on ur side man. LIKE HE'S VERY MUCH DIFFERENT FROM AYANO

i do draw kanoshin being cuddly but i don't think they're that sweet, realistically. like i've got a doodle somewhere in my art tag of shintaro hugging kano in his sleep and even when i was doodling away i was like he so wouldn't do this. BUT I LOVE LOVE, OKAY?

i think shintaro's more affectionate but kano's okay with it only if he initiates it. literally like a cat. and shintaro's kind of extremely into the idea of not putting effort in it because to him that's difficult he's an idiot loser he CANNOT initiate a kiss or a hug or anything for that matter so they actually are complementary in the sense of kano liking to have control because he HAS to be in an affectionate mood otherwise he'll just snap and shintaro sort of going along with it cause he's too shy anyways. like they could spend days together without ever hugging or kissing and they're both okay with it. heeehheheee sorry i've been yaoi diseased all day somebody sedate me

also im like dying bc i know u meant "scene in kagefuture" and not "in kagepro" but it killed me 'cause yesss i love the scene in kagepro when shintaro and kano are kissing on the mouth

[midnight--sadness]

Some more found family thoughts but it's a Saturday and Gihun is going out with a friend to have some fun!

The day before, Hyunju texted Gihun if he wanted to go see Swan Lake ballet with her. She got the two tickets from a coworker who couldn't make it, and of course Gihun wants to go! 🦢🩰

Gihun getting ready for a day out with his bestie~ But he wondered if he should prepare something for Inho and the kids before leaving. Inho wrapping his arms around his waist, saying "You don't need to worry about that. Go out and enjoy your day, alright?" he took Gihun's hand and pressed a kiss on it. Both had the half a mind to have a quickie right there but stopped that thought when they heard footsteps of the children getting closer. And Gihun doesn't want to be late.

He says goodbye with hugs and kisses for everyone, then meeting up with Hyunju at the subway station (they just prefer public transport than cars, they feel like they can be more social that way and have better views of the enviroments). First they're going to a fancy café where they're grabbing a bite to eat. I can imagine Hyunju and Gihun catching up together, talking about everything and anything 🥺

Meanwhile back at the house, Inho doesn't want this Saturday to be very boring for his children, so they're going to hang out at the spacious backyard. Bringing out the big guns, SPORTS ⚽️🎾🏐🏸 KEEP THE BLOOD PUMPING or read a book by the bench, it's up to them. But everyone's included and encouraged to have fun when they get to play together 🥹 some good activities, you know?

Hyunju and Gihun loved Swan Lake, it is a timeless masterpiece after all. After the performance it's time to decide on what to eat for dinner, a very difficult task (true story: this is me and my best friend whenever we go out because we're both so indecisive lolsjdjdkjf). They go for vietnamese phở! 🍲 while Inho and the kids are making sichuan malatang hotpot. Inho is really good at delegating tasks, some of the kids are cutting up vegetables and the others are preparing the sidedishes.

Before Gihun and Hyunju part ways to return to their homes, Gihun felt the need to make a quick stop at a convenience store to buy some snacks for his children and husband 🥺 Hyunju thinks that is so cute of him, and she's right! Gihun with his endless kindness pays for Hyunju's snacks too. Without her even asking! Hyunju says she owes him but Gihun refuses, this is just something he loves to do 🤍

When he finally enters his home, Gihun sees everyone on the sofa watching a movie together (it's Forrest Gump). The kids are curled up besides Inho. Gayeong is sleeping on his lap. Oh, my babies 🥹 Gihun thought to himself, feeling his heart soar.

However when Gihun placed the shopping bags full of snacks on the kitchen counter, the movie was paused and all the children sprung back to life as they heard the rustle, rushing towards it (like cats djskfjskdb). They didn't dig in before saying hello and hugging their mom, obviously! Inho shook his head and chuckled, standing up to walk over so he can give Gihun a peck on the lips. Well, not just one peck but maybe three or four, he is glad Gihun got to be with his friend today - but he did miss his wife a lot 🤍

They resumed watching the movie and stayed up until after midnight, maybe playing a boardgame or having deep conversations about life, just bonding with each other. Because the children spent the whole day with Inho, they still sat close to him. What a beautiful home 🥰

this is absolutely perfect, stunning, amazing, briliant!!! 💖🤧🥹 i have no notes!!

i especially love gihun and hyunju's friendship!! she hadn't appeared in this au yet bc i can see her and gihun being co owning like a coffee shop/bakery thing!!

[thefirstknife]

i unironically hope Eris stays in her Hive form at least physically bc im already loving how both her & Immaru are pointing out Ikora's (and humanity's) inherent dehumanization of the Hive.

Eris being all "If this form does not leave will you still view me as a friend?"

Immaru when asked where the Experiment Subjects come from and responding with "Don't act like you care."

Honestly, it's so good. I really love the Eris stuff and some of these questions being posed. A lot of people react negatively to Eris doing this, forgetting that Eris has already been part-Hive for a long time. She was just hiding it behind the eye cover.

Technically, nothing inherently changed about Eris; she just embraced that part of her. And that's super important for her arc I think because she's been on a journey of accepting her trauma and her losses for a very long time. We helped her face her fears and traumas in Shadowkeep and she came out of it victorious. And the story never treated it as her traumas being gone; she still has them, but she has the means to tackle them and handle them and live with them. Since we helped her, she became more open and more involved with what we do to save our home, even if it meant tackling dangerous things.

And the thing is, now that her traumas cannot be exploited by Darkness anymore, she's capable of involving herself in these things, knowing that she has friends to fall back to and a support system and better mental fortitude. We've seen it through her endurance beneath the Pyramid on Io, and her grasp of stasis, and her dealing with the Crown of Sorrow and egregore and the Lunar Pyramid nightmares. And now with her embracing her Hive self. It doesn't change anything about her, but people prefer when she hides it so they don't have to see it. And she knows it (Sororicide lore book, page 1):

It's a perfect example of how we inherently view the Hive as untrustworthy. Obviously, there are good reasons for it! The Hive have caused immense pain and trauma to pretty much everyone in the universe, Eris included. It must take an incredible strength of character to embrace the fact that you're physically half-Hive, creatures that traumatised you in the first place. No one else has dealt with anything similar so naturally they're afraid for Eris. But I believe in her strength. And so does Drifter and Drifter is never wrong:

He'd read the reports. He saw the theories on VanNet. He didn't trust them. He trusted her.

There's a cutscene that people skip and can cause people not to see it, I recommend replaying the thing on a different character or seeing it online, but it shows Eris taking off her bandage in front of us:

It's such a powerful image to me. A symbol of her taking off her mask. Not pretending to be the same as us anymore. Because she isn't! The Hive are a part of her and have been for centuries. And she's always been in control. Our mistrust has always hurt her, but before this, we could act with pity towards her. Now that she's fully in Hive form, people's perception of her changed, for really no good reason other than prejudice. She is still Eris.

I definitely think that eventually we will have to reconcile with the idea of the Hive not being inherently evil in totality as a whole group of people. Obviously this is going to be difficult, especially when their leaders act the way they do, but eventually I do believe we will have to accept some of them, even if it's only Eris for a start.

[hell-drabbles]

It's 3am and I'm suddenly in the mood to proclaim my love(?) for your works so here we go 🍪🥛

Your works (for this fandom) have these gory and uncomfortable....themes sometimes that just really makes it absolutely fascinating to read. To make MC and the reader be so...unique? Like neither this good innocent blorbo nor quirky girlboss (which isn't meant to degrade them) but a secret third thing.

I usually prefer to read xreader romance or light(er) yandere works but this territory of not quite romance or yandere but just....obsession in its rawest and ugliest form is so addicting. I love reading tragedies that end terribly for everyone (or at least the aggressor) and embittered companion is like peeking into a deep black hole that you know is not gonna end but you jump anyways bc the curiosity is too great.

Idk it's too much to read smts, companion always being 2nd kinda hits a bit too close home and what a disappointment Raon is (I just need to squeeze him real good like slime) but I wouldn't have it in any other way. It's like watching something burn in front of me and I can't look away. Scratching a healing wound. Squishing insects. Wouldn't think of it usually but when presented with the opportunity, it's hard to ignore even though I know better. Not to say that your works are "bad" and 'immoral' or anything, I just get the same vibe when I read them. Disgust, satisfaction, guilt, fascination, hatred.

Anyways, thx for your hard work and I wish you a nice day and weekend 🍀🫶

Man I kept this in my inbox for so long. I just, want to keep it in my inbox forever because reading it every time just lifts my mood up instantly!

Anyways, here's me rambling.

I've spoken of my distaste for the canon MC of this game time and time again, and while the easy solution could've easily have been to just... cut out all of the things I hated(the rampant insecurity, goldfish memory, doormat kindness, passivity), I'm a believer that anything can work and I figured "let's make you worse. I refuse to let the narrative brush all of those aside." And, obviously, I have to further satisfy my need to put my Ra-on in his place, so here be the Companion! Force of nature extraordinaire! They too shall suffer, because that is how I show my love!

Honestly, I can't really write pure innocent blorbos for the life of me. I need them to be a little fucked up in some form or another for my brain to be interested. That and I love nothing more than to see two messed individuals tear at each other, be it emotionally or physically. It's just fun. But also, an innocent blorbo that can do no wrong just wouldn't fit in the setting I have in my head. I know Solomon referenced the devils as being similar to that, but that defangs the devils, you know? They've lived a while. I think they deserve to be fucked up in the ways devils should be.

(That being said, I need to write the ways in which Lucifer is fucked up, you know, beyond the self-mutilation.)

Definitely keeping that though, the fact that Solomon sees the devils as innocent as a way to showcase how favoritism completely and utterly blinds him in the same way it does my Ra-on's. God, I bet the Companion would despise him. They go out of their way to discredit his statement on their innocence, and then he acts as if the Companion is the ignorant and naive one here, it's so fucking condescending. "You don't know them that well, then. With time, you'll come to understand. You are young, after all." Don't you just hate that?

Anyways...

I do aim to make people feel uncomfortable, or at least unsettled, so I'm glad to see that's the reaction I got. It's gotta strike that careful balance of discomfort, but also still be fascinated to see how it ends.

Oh obsession, how I love you so, and I love the way it manifests in different ways beyond the "you're mine and I want to keep you trapped always." My brain doesn't like eating just one flavor of obsession, it needs them all. I do enjoy yandere but it's very difficult to find stuff that's made for me, because often writers use them for romance specifically. I use yanderes for horror. Horror for both the object of obsession and the person sinking into that obsession. I think it's neat!

Fun fact, my first exposure to yanderes, before I even knew the term, was a character called Kizami Yuuya from Corpse Party. My second exposure I think was that pink-haired girl from Future Diary, but I dropped it as soon as it was made clear the main character was going to return her feelings. I'm not into that. I just want horror. Gimme. I want everyone to have a horrible time!

I'm glad to see that is does scratch a specific itch. My Ra-on is certainly a piece of work and is certainly not beyond saving, but boy is he frustrating to deal with. A cycle of guilt, self-loathing, selfishness and passivity. Oh, what a mess he is! He's been pampered for too long, the Companion will knock a thing or two into him. Eventually. There be a lot of things happening in Hell after all.

Anyways, thank you for enjoying my works, as horrendously slow as I may be.

[erbiumspectrum]

hii how are you? I'm currently studying inorganic chem, mainly coordination compounds but it's proving difficult. I'm unable to fully grasp what's going on. Can you please advise me on coordination compounds and inorganic chem in general? thank you!!

Hi!

Inorganic coordination chem is part of my thesis, you've come to the right place :) Also, I'm going to make this a university-level thing - I didn't study coordination chem in school, so I'm assuming that's the level you expect - but if you actually need advice on studying high school inorganic chem, please let me know!

First, a textbook rec: I studied off Cotton's Basic inorganic chemistry a lot and I liked it. My professor recommended Atkins' Inorganic chemistry too; I admit I didn't use it that much bc I also had some Polish textbooks I found very helpful, but from what I did see, it seemed very comprehensive and in-depth - so if Cotton isn't enough, Atkins might be better for you.

Inorganic chem

orbitals matter: I think it's important to grasp orbitals and hybridization before going any further. This stuff keeps coming up again and again, so if you find yourself struggling with understanding concepts in inorganic chem, I'd suggest making sure you understand atomic and molecular orbitals first.

periodic table trends: please don't memorize them. Please. Understand them. There's a reason why, for example, atomic radii decrease within periods even though both electrons and protons are added as you move to the right (the screening effect - and again, orbitals!). Once more, I liked the way it was explained in Cotton's textbook.

I found flashcards very helpful for studying the properties of the elements and their compounds as that's mostly memorization. Same for HSAB, really.

if your inorganic chem course covers elements of group theory too, here is a website my thesis supervisor told me about :) I think it's pretty great. If you're digging really, really deep into it, Cotton has a whole textbook on group theory in chemistry (Chemical Applications of Group Theory), but I doubt you'd need it for a basic inorganic chem course.

I've also answered an ask on studying chemistry in general - perhaps you'll find it useful too.

Coordination chem

surprise, surprise: ✨ orbitals ✨. Once more, to understand what's going on with coordination compounds, first you need to understand the molecular orbital theory well.

metals oftentimes have a preference for a specific coordination number. Frequently, a whole group will have a preference for the same CN (group 7 ions, for example, prefer CN = 6). That doesn't mean other CNs don't exist, but knowing there's a pattern can be helpful while studying.

coordination numbers aren't totally random. The rules may not be strict and foolproof, but again, there's a general pattern that's worth keeping in mind: bigger ion usually = higher CN (duh?), CNs are usually even (and we still don't really know why that's so! Although it may have to do with geometry and symmetry) and sometimes depend on the charge of the ligand.

crystal field theory. Okay so CFT is really cool, but I see how it can be super confusing too. I'm not sure how deep you have to dig into this stuff for your course, so apologies if I go a little overboard 😅 My advise for studying it would be:

try to visualize the given complex, actually see the position of the ligands in relation to the orbitals

remember: it's all about lowering the energy. That's the core of CFT. Pauli's exclusion principle always, always stands, but CFT tells us coordination compounds are systems that "want to" have the lowest possible energy so bad they'll sometimes break Hund's rule to obtain it

keep in mind CFT is only a model. Some parts of it may not make any sense to you (like the fact it treats all metal - ligand bonds as purely ionic). It just so happens that despite its many simplifications that are obviously not true, CFT still accurately describes many complex compounds

I've had an ask on studying nomenclature, too.

again, I don't know how complex (pun not intended) you need my tips to get, so if you have any specific questions, feel free to hmu :) I'll try my best to explain

[obsolete-stars-if]

Top-Mikhail anon here! Thanks for answering my ask, I'm really glad to know he can top (I can work with a sub!top lol). Also thanks for the info on the other ROs! My only problem is, I'm a gay man who plays as semi-self inserts so the ladies are a no go lol.

Sammy, Sascha and TK were all interesting to me (especially the latter two) but the reason I kinda settled on Mikhail is that I don't know if stuff like bottom surgery/magical equivalent exist in this setting, and if it does, I don't know if any of them have had it?

Also, with Sascha, I think it was said that to romance him you have to be poly with Gigi, which is a no if triangle because she's a woman and if V because it'd make me/my mc feel like an extra/bonus. Like "these characters actually want each other, but Sascha is cool with boning you too" or something.. Especially since he has to get paid to do it lol.

I hope this didn't make me sound awful 😔

No worries! I get what u mean. It's always an awkward situation to explain preferences with gender and genitals. (U can be attracted to any combination of them, and if sex plays a role in ur relationship, it's totally valid to ask. I am just one trans dude with a very non stereotypical relationship about sex, gender and genitals, so other trans ppl have different opinions about how okay it is to ask about junk, so also take my words with a grain of salt.)

To your luck, Sascha has had magical bottom surgery, so to speak. Glueing a dick to someone can't be THAT difficult. Esp BCS autopsies, experimentations, and magic to stabilize the patient and help sort things out, is a common thing in the universe. Taking a skin graft, rerouting the urethra and taking a womb out with the stabilizing magic that also heals a lot of wounds quickly, is a much easier procedure than our own modern bottom surgery (also there's way more research and common use of the surgery than in our world). And getting rid of some misplaced fat in boobs is a no brainer. Sascha works with his body, being comfortable in it is kinda a must to survive for him.

TK hasn't had bottom surgery, but that's mainly BCS they've been busy and just came to ignore their entire body and comfort as a result. While healing from burn wounds, getting ur junk fixed is a secondary goal. And by that time the queen died, they were busy mourning, taking care of you and all sorts of other tasks the king demanded, that they never really had a moment to just. Sit and be themselves. Consider themselves. Their job is to watch over you, so it doesn't matter how they feel about their body. (DW once the events TM are over, and may possibly be in a relationship with mc, they have the time to consider themselves and their body.)

Dating Sascha and Gigi is an option not a requirement. U can date them separately, and you're not destroying a relationship between them for doing so. They've known each other since they were little and grew up together, Sascha developing feelings for Gigi is more of a "this is the only person I could ever trust" situation. So if u gain his trust? You can just have them not get together, romantically or platonically. I just ship them in my heart BCS I know how close they are, and BCS I like problematic relationships. (Startled my cats with giggling BCS y'all have NO IDEA what I'm doing to those two.)

Also Sascha's relationship with sex is weird, yeah he likes sex, but he has never had anyone want him for anything else. So.

Me about everything in this post:

[makowo]

This post relies on so much headcanonning/extrapolating details from Nifast's imitation/echo pieces so bear with me, but I do seriously think that Damon would have a lot of weird feelings about being a human because he has such a large disconnect with the experiences of the people around him.

(I put the rest of this post under a cut bcs it's a bit long + im shy. but you should read it because im right)

He suffered a lonely childhood where making friends was difficult or impossible for him, for reasons that he may not have even understood as a kid. He fixates on debating eventually not only because it has the potential of bringing his parents out of poverty, but because it could give him a sense of belonging. He fits in by being good at picking apart other people's words and using those mistakes to tear them apart in turn. He puts himself in greater opposition to people, accepting that he's in some way fundamentally different from other people.

I don't think it'd be a farfetched idea that Damon would connect with being inhuman, in that case. He wouldn't understand it as more than awkwardness around people because he "prefers being alone", but getting into Eden's Garden Academy and being around people that are a lot more online than him, talk of non-human people would eventually come up, and that would end in Damon doing some research on it between studying for debates.

One thing leads to another, and Damon ends up reluctantly accepting that he *really* aligns with nonhumans, particularly Therians. He can't help seeing so much of himself in snakes; simple yet dangerous creatures living solitary lives, viewed as strange and scary despite how little of a threat they really pose to people. Being harmed just for being difficult to understand and humans unwilling to leave it alone.

Ultimately, it doesn't actually change that much about his life when he's accepted this. Kai is sending him any instagram videos that have snakes, and he's getting a lot more snake-themed presents around his birthday, but other than tiny habits and some changes in how he refers to himself, it's ultimately just to fulfill a part of his sense of self that's been missing for so long.

[lavrach]

I love your Sweden x Germany art, they're so cute.

What are your SuGer/Sweger headcanons?

(Your Ludwig radiates bottom energy btw)

(I had to wait 'till I had time to sit down and write the headcanons out properly although I don't know how many I have, so sorry for the late answer ! c':)

First off THANK YOU!! :3 They inspire me to practice anatomy bc I imagine them both as being well built.... which leads me to my first headcanon (that's also kinda canon)

They're both like very well built but with Berwald it's not so obvious, he has more of a "sleeper build" or whatever it's called.

Berwald is taller than Ludwig, not that much but just enough that Ludwig has to raise his head slightly when talking to him.

Ludwig tends to get flustered WAAAAAAYYYY more than Berwald who thinks it's cute that a serious guy like can "get like that" but like Ludwig only gets flustered around Berwald.

Their love language is mainly physical touch, especially Berwald's. Ludwig's also but he's more of an words of affirmation kind of guy. Although Berwald is way quieter than Ludwig he always makes sure to tell Ludwig that he loves him or that he's pretty or handsome or beautiful...

At first Ludwig was a bit hesitant with everything when they started dating. Berwald would always initiate everything but he was very gentle, very slow and very patient with Ludwig because Ludwig wasn't really familiar with how relationships should work.

It took Ludwig some time to gain the courage to come out of his shell and be the one to initiate things. A lot of the times he had to kind of force himself to make the first move if he wanted to be for example intimate with Berwald.

They both love dogs. Ludwig prefers big dogs and Berwald smaller to mid-sized ones. They have a German Shepherd and a Danish-Swedish Farmdog.

They love going on walks together (with their dogs).

It's not often that they get into arguments since both of them are fairly reasonable people so they talk out most disagreements. If they do argue they usually end up walking away from each other and then after they've cooled down, drag themselves back to one another and apologise.

They live in a cozy cabin :3

Ludwig is a warm blond and Berwald is a cool blond.

None of them are huge fans of PDA. Sometimes they hold hands if there's not many people around. Ludwig likes holding Berwald's arm yk just above his elbow.

Berwald likes sleeping with his head on Ludwig's chest while Ludwig runs his fingers through his hair.

Berwald wakes up before Ludwig, but Ludwig is the one that gets up first and therefore faster. Ludwig is very much a morning person and while Berwald has no problem getting up early when he has to he prefers to stay in bed a bit longer. He's more of a night owl.

What Ludwig likes the most about Berwald is how rational and collected he is most of the time.

What Berwald likes the most about Ludwig is how easy to read he is. Of course he had to learn how to read him but it wasn't to difficult since he likes watching him do his thing.

When Ludwig has a bit too much to drink he gets much more affectionate. If they're out with other people while they drink Ludwig leans his head on Berwald's shoulder and holds onto his arm. Berwald barely drinks any alcohol.

After Ludwig got over being flustered over everything he became quite upfront with what he wanted when he wanted it.

The reason he radiates bottom energy is because he is one!

That's all I think. I mean all I can think of for now. If I think of any new ones I might add them. Hopefully they're mostly clear, it's been a hot minute since I wrote out any of my headcanons, so this was quite refreshing lol!

[fuckyourchampionship]

you know what's so funny that everyone is defending the team based on what stella said after the race that LN was saving his tyres, but if you watch the radio replay for this race he literally says at 10:15 (lap 34) that he can't get any closer. I think andrea was just trying to cover their asses for their pathetic strategy calls again, as we can literally see them pushing flat out and all the drivers coming out and saying there was no deg.

don't get me wrong I don't like using team orders to get ahead at all and it is oscar's fault that he qualified behind. but I still don't understand why mclaren at least didn't even consider swapping them to try something different? like ofc if oscar couldn't get lando then it would've been difficult to get max, but if oscar could have gotten closer to max as he clearly had more pace then it could've forced max into an error, bc oscar literally did that in australia.

it just annoys me that this team is still so conservative with their strategies and somehow was content with a p2/p3 rather than at least taking the chance to go for the win, and what was there to lose? if oscar couldn't get max just swap them back? do they not trust oscar to follow team orders when he has always done so without hesitation?

not to mention in mexico 2023 when oscar had damage and lando was coming from behind, they had no hesitation to ask oscar to swap with lando so he could go attack ahead. god it just annoys me.

at least we can see now that at three different tracks that oscar really struggled with last year, he is just as fast and even faster than lando, which makes me really excited for the european leg where oscar has a lot of experience.

www.youtube.c om/watch?v=ASGHc3pjuZQ&ab_channel=FORMULA1

^ THIS

I was just about to make a post about whether the Andrea haters — and Lando fans (we all know who we’re talking about lol) — accidentally changed their minds about him.

And yeah, Andrea once again defended Lando. He does that a lot, but some people are just too stupid to notice.

Andrea said Lando was saving tires throughout the whole race until the last few laps. Right, because Lando probably decided to save tires the entire race just to have them for the next one — since his pace didn’t really change much later and he still wasn’t a threat to Max.

Same way Andrea defended him before, saying it’s the car’s fault that Norris has poor starts — total bullshit. Sure, one time it was the car’s fault, and that was at Max’s home GP (though I’m still not convinced), but the rest? That was all on Norris.

But of course, his fans just can’t see it

Honestly, I’m so satisfied with these last three races — even if two of them didn’t bring amazing results. I’m thinking about Australia and partly Japan. He really does have the pace, and I can’t wait for the next races. In an interview — I’ll post it once I find it — he even said that he “prefers to have pace rather than results,” because now he can actually fight.

And thanks to last year’s shitty strategies, where they kept him out on tires way too long, he’s now managing them really well (so I guess there are some benefits to those shitty strategies).

He just needs to be like Max now — no mistakes in quali — and he’ll keep winning.

In Australia, he had better pace, in China it was obvious, and now in Japan… it’s a shame he waited for the team’s decision, and after the radio went silent, he just stopped pushing. But maybe now he finally realized how the team actually treats him, They could’ve at least said something to him 😭

And the most annoying thing is that this has happened multiple times already, and everyone says that if the roles were reversed, they’d swap them immediately — because that’s just the truth.

But alright, now I’m waiting for the situation where Oscar is the slower one, and they don’t swap them. If they do swap in that case, then all those people saying McLaren treats them equally should finally stop talking — but we’ll see in the upcoming races.