#sr boss: yera/‘vanilla’

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Okay so I fell off the face of the earth for a while there- anyways I kinda forgot have to draw/write for a good bit there but I’m back for now! Yay, anyways here’s a small snippet from the early-mid way through something I’ve been writing between Tanya & my Boss but it isn’t the start because I don’t like the start a 100% just yet!

CW: intox(? Idk if it counts but just incase!!) anyways this isn’t openly nsfw but it’s implied to end up that why & I don’t want minors on my blog.

Tanya’s other hand still holding onto that bottle of their two favourite alcohols mixed together within a almost sinful but still amazingly passionate taste, she brought the opening of the glass bottle back upon Yera’s lips, lovingly pouring it into her mouth ever so slowly as a slight smile tugged on her own red coloured lips, the mixture of wine and vodka soon began running down the Saints bottom lip and then side of her pale cheek, then finally and slowly down her chin before Tanya pulled the bottle away once again.

Yera would just lick her lips soon after the top of the glass bottle was moved away, seemingly trying to savor the moment…savor the taste of the drink, the things she has let this woman do with her in the past, her right hand moved downward and to her hip while the left remained on top of her wooden desk of her office as her pointed fingernails gently dug into the covered skin as she felt Tanya’s own fingers pulling her hair back and she melted into her pulling touch with a small gasp-like noise leaving her mouth.

She wanted her touch, she wanted her closeness and the heat of her body, she wanted her love..or at least whatever could even be considered ‘her love’ nowadays, not that Yera would care about it-..no, no she wouldn’t care, not openly that is, she truly never did even within their younger years, but her closeness? Her relationship with her? That’s what she cared about for all this time, all the times they have spent together and away.. she has always craved the attention she has given her over the years and in return Yera has always tried to give Tanya the same attention no matter what, even if she has been lacking in that aspect of things.

She was desperate for the touch of another woman, even more so when said touch was from Tanya, even in more simple situations like this..if you could even call a stranger sitting like this a ‘simple’ one, but maybe because between them it technically was.

Tanya’s mostly bare, upper leg was soon enough found itself in between Yera own thighs as she herself leaned her lower back up against the wooden desk, a smaller, almost mumbled sounding chuckle leaving Tanya’s lips as she brought that bottle to her own mouth this time around, opting to have tease of the liquid herself before she would give it back to the infamous gang leader that was a melted mess in front of her, she has always associated the taste of vodka with Yera in all honesty, it was the only alcohol that she knew of her drinking throughout her life thus far, it being mixed up with her own favourite made it even better for herself truthfully..

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I’m thinking about how my boss would actually end up reacting to the events of SRTT as a whole- & all I can really think about is her trying to just focus on the rest of the gang/saints as a whole but mostly Shaundi & Pierce, (mainly because I like working on her dynamics’s with them rn)

Like I honestly do think she’d worry more about them then herself for a good while throughout the events until it becomes closer the end of SRTT, she just doesn’t really know how to show that she cares for them though, or at least not all that often that is, she’s just not good with words or her own emotion/feelings, so her trying to deal with everything else like that just doesn’t work out all that well.

Idk, this might make sense

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HC time about my boss Yera & Shaundi:

I like to think that at least one of Yera’s older tattoos was from Shaundi doing it for her, it’s probably a pretty bad & small one but I think it still be one of Yera’s favourite ones

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I’ve been revisiting some of the dialogue within SR3 for a few different one-shots I’ve been working on between my boss & all the different gang members- & omg I’ve never noticed that when using the Russian-voice for the boss it’s seemingly hinted at that she has a crush on Pierce & now I just need to do something with that whenever I have the chance

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a little piece of lore about Yera is that she got ‘courier 6’ed in what would be SR4/SR’reboot, or as I’m calling it SR’Reborn-arc for my AU rn, but yeah, she gets shot in the head at some point in my canon/AU.

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Fun little fact about my main boss:

She has a lot of dogs, like prob about 8 &/or 9 of them, this isn’t really all that important but I think it’s fun.

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I’m having SR4 thoughts about the ‘nightmares’ some of the characters had throughout the game & I just don’t think the 50’s thing fit my boss the more I think about it, like yah- it’s kinda funny to play through but still.

I feel like for my Boss her ‘nightmare simulation’ would be different times the other gang members could’ve died, just because I feel like there was a lot of different scenarios where they logically could’ve died if something were to have went wrong.

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Sooo- I said I was going to post this, it’s another Tanya x Yera(my boss) fic- but I wanna give everyone a fair warning for the content/ implications within this WIP with only about 1k words, give it take a little bit.

CW/TW’s here ->   implied child abuse,  implied mother/daughter violence, unhealthy relationship between parent & child.

None of this is being romanticized whatsoever, that isn’t my intention and nothing will actually be shown because I’m not comfortable with that & i don’t think others would even want see that whatsoever.

Now, with that being said- as usual and  especially with this I don’t want children  interacting with this post whatsoever, I already don’t like kids on my blog, you’ll be blocked if you’re a child caught interacting with this post.

Yera sat next to Tanya on top of an old rooftop of an long abandoned building, neither of them fully knew why it was abandoned but they do remember that when they used to skip classes back in the day they would almost always come out here, talking about both everything and nothing going on within their own lives.

They haven’t been out here ever since their teenage years, hell-..they haven’t even been in this damn nowhere town for just as long, maybe given a few weeks in between the time periods but still, that was about it from what they could both remember, it was also a late, cold but nonetheless it was a clear night for the most part, the stars were bright and easily visible and beautifully so, Tanya never really liked the night sky, she could appreciate it, sure-..but never actually cared much-.. but whenever she was with Yera she somehow managed to appreciate it much more, something about Yera’s own enthusiasm about the night sky always struck something within her own heart, how the other woman looked up at the night with such child-like interest made her smile no matter what or how bad her own day has been.

They’ve been talking for a while now, but now they’ve just been sitting down in some sort of silence for the past few minutes, though..soon enough Yera went back to talking about what they’ve been talking about for the past little bit this night. “…I don’t know, my mother-..I do love her-..but everything she’d done, everything she let happen to me-..what I had to do..” Yera soon said, her tone of voice only a quiet murmur if nothing else, her voice softer than before and coming out in an almost uncomfortable way-..or at least Tanya could’ve sworn there was a small hint of that within her words.

Tanya couldn’t help herself but cringe at the thought of Yera still referring to that sickly woman as her mother..in her own opinion she never thought that women deserve that title, that much respect-..but no matter how clear Tanya made that statement she knew Yera still cared, for whatever reason she had and she couldn’t take that away from her no matter how hard she tried to.

“..you know, I-..I don’t know how that woman can claim she doesn’t remember it, why does she get to not remember-?..Why do I need to remember everything..?” Yera simply continued on to say after a few more short moments, she wasn’t asking, she very much knew Tanya couldn’t answer her question whatsoever-..she would be asking the wrong person if she even was asking.

“I wish I could just forget it..she-..she wants me to forgive her, to move on and make amends-..but I just can’t..the way she still looks at me-…like she’s looking through me…I can’t..” Tanya would just stay quiet as her friend continued on talking, she knew what she was talking about-..what she was referring too in this moment in time, hell-..she herself used to see it first hand back in high school but never understood it back then, now she did as she became an adult..it was sick to even think about it herself, how she didn’t help her because she didn’t understand what was happening to her back then.

But the entitled gall that woman had, to want the woman sitting next to her to forgive her after everything.?..it was a disgusting thought, the irony of claiming to not remember that just couldn’t have been the case in her own opinion.

“What a disgusting joke, she doesn’t and never deserves your forgiveness, she should be happy you didn’t fully cut contact with her at all-…I'd've done that by now..” Tanya would just quietly say underneath her own breath, she wished she could just make Yera fully and finally cut all contact with that vial woman but-..she also knew she couldn’t force that even if she desperately wanted to, she knew that would probably help her, she just wanted to help her..

“…ha-..yeah, maybe-..it just hurts, I wish I could just forgive her though, just be able to move on like nothing ever happened…but no-..no, I can’t..hell-..I-..” Yera would soon say once again but was surprisingly cut off by another thing Tanya was now continuing to say, this factor would make the black haired woman look at the other women with a new hint of curiosity but some understandable surprise. “…Tell me, does your little gang of street rats know? Have you ever told them.?..I don’t need details but I’d like to know.” Tanya would simply ask, she felt the deep seeded need to know, she wanted to be on the same page as the gang leader that sat next to her on this cold, metal rooftop. She was looking deeply into her blueish-gray, almost barely brown eyes, looking for any hints..of anything at this point.

“I-..what-?..um..no-?.. no, no-..they don’t know..” She’d simply say, she was telling the truth but wasn’t expecting the conversation to take this turn somehow, she wasn’t sure why she wasn’t thinking about that possibility but she just wasn’t. “..I can’t tell them, they-..they can’t know, I can’t have them looking at me with pity-..I can’t-..i don’t want them to not believe me…and I-..I can’t-..it was with another woman..with-..my mother-..who would believe that-?....” That was it, that was all that was said from Yera’s lips, she hated the idea of answering such questions but equally couldn’t stand the thought of lying about this topic when talking with Tanya of all people, she felt that she deserved the truth after everything they’ve been through and everything she has helped her with. “Oh-?…oh, no, no they wouldn’t-..no-..sweetie? They’d believe you..don’t think that lowly of them..” Tanya would say while just carefully placing her non-dominant hand up to the side of Yera’s face, her skin both soft and cold, cold to the touch but soft on her fingertips, her fingernails gently touching on to her cheek. Yera would shiver at the careful touching of the other woman, she’d stop talking for a few short moments, just enjoying the warmth of their closeness while thinking to herself about what or how to respond to her words. “..Just because it was with another woman doesn’t mean anything, what happened between you and her was evil, anyone would know that-..they’ll believe you if you ever tell-…don’t let anyone tell you otherwise, alright?..for me, I need you to understand that much...” Tanya would just go onto say, they have had this conversation over and over again in the past, in real life or over their phones..Tanya’s response always remind the same as a whole, she wasn’t a overly cruel person..not to Yera at least..not to people who she believed that didn’t deserve it for one reason or another, but even if she was, she’d never claim that what happened to Yera didn’t actually take place, that it wasn’t real, that she was lying, maybe that was because she over at Yera’s house just enough back when they were children, back when they were teenagers..she saw how the girls mother looked at her, how her touch, no matter how innocent lingered far..far too long, even if she didn’t understand it then, she’ll always believe her and had a good feeling from everything she knew about her little gang, they’d at least tell her they believed her even if they didn’t for whatever reason-.. that was, if they actually didn’t.

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Thinking of Yera’s many dogs, they like to just stare at people during the night for some reason, particularly Johnny, he has woken up to them doing this many, many times.

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A song I think fits Yera

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it sounds like your boss had something going on with tanya? have you played SR1? what was the progression of their relationship like?

Ah- yes she does have a thing going on with Tanya to a kinda odd extent, it started as a joke because of the mission in SR4 that involves her that slowly became something serious as I thought about it more and more, however I have yet to play the older games, so- that  means I haven’t played through the first one, though i have looked into a lot of stuff that involves Tanya so I think have a good enough grasp to answer this to a somewhat satisfying extent, (though I’ll probably be trying to play them both in the up coming months/weeks but besides all that- let’s get into their relationship as of this point in time before I get to play the older two games.)

As of right now I have them being old friends that are around the same age that knew each other and happened to have had a on & off romantic relationship long before everything that has happened with the different gangs during the events of SR1, and she’s also the reason my Boss has two distinct nicknames, the one in her tag ‘Vanilla’ because of the fact that things flavoured with Vanilla stereotypically has an lighter-cream/off-white, if not fully white colour to them & Tanya’s clothes have that colour to them (& because I HC that Tanya likes vanilla flavoured sweets & such-) and her second nickname being ‘Passion’, particular because of ‘passion flower’ cuz of the religious symbolism, but I’m not fully getting into that right now.

But basically, during the SR1 mission where Tanya ends up dying, my Boss, Yera has opted to let her live instead of just killing her, manly because she just couldn’t let go of the past that the two have had at one point in the past and because of that she ended up betraying King when push came to shove in that whole situation, and I think that when her and Johnny walked into that room they both knew that to an extent-…but this post isn’t about him or her relationship with him, or the other’s so I’ll leave that there for any future posts about them.

But anyways, she ended up letting Tanya live and walk away from that room after betraying King that night, though she doesn’t end up actually seeing her in person again until SR3, or at least my own version of SR3, particularly not until what would be days after Johnny’s funeral as the gang wound still be believing he’s dead at that point in time, as Tanya in my AU has a club on the outskirts of Steelport and that all would lead to with them both meeting together at her club in person for the first time a good few years at that point.

I also believe that would end up being the turning point of their new relationship together, it would be a slow thing of course- but still, it was definitely a bit of a catalyst for their relationship and eventually the fact that she ended up joining up with the Saints during what would be my rework/AU of SR4.

It isn’t all great though, I’d think they might not be the best for each other in all honesty but at the same time I honestly don’t believe either one in this would be wanting/willing to fully move on from that, from their past together, because I honestly believe that they both remind each other of a much more simpler time in their lives to some extent, even if they both wouldn’t be acknowledging that factor of their relationship anytime soon, if at all- or at least not in the way that they’d need.

This is the most basic answer I can give in one post without it going on and on.

TL:DR:

Tanya & Yera are old friends that probably had an on & off relationship of some kind & she the reason for the nicknames.

Yera betrayed King because she just couldn’t kill her because of their past & lets her live.

Years later they end up meeting again because of Johnny’s ‘death’ & they slowly end up back to how they kinda used to be together & Tanya eventually joins up with the Saints.



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 Random thought, i might give Yera a womb tattoo based/themed carnivorous plants, it would go with the rest of her tattoos she has of different kinds of plants.

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My boss is a simple woman, she sees a pretty woman or man & immediately is down bad

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I like her design & it be an interesting plot point for my boss to have a half/full sister in the gang(s) she’s fighting against, so these two are going to be her sisters for the time being.

I’m so god damn tempted to make the ‘morningstar soldier-7’ my bosses half or even full sister for my SR rewrite/rework-

Because like- look at her! She looks so cute

Clara (pretty sure that’s her name lol) is pretty looking so I feel the need to do something with her for the plot soooo yah, maybe a double agent of some kind for the saints against the morningstar- idk let me just cook for a lil bit