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The thing that was the most expensive in Bruce's life, that had cost him the most dearly was control. He needed it. Needed it worse than breathing- each exhale cutting sharper - needed it like it could pull apart the strands of a life. It was the cost of staring at Joe Chill's dead body. It was the cost of disappearing from Gotham overnight. It was the cost he had impressed most on his children.
What we feel in here- Bruce's heart was a bat trapped in a cage, shrieking and flashing wings, fast-paced -he touched a hand over his chest. What we feel in here, we don't take out into Gotham. We don't give it to other people. We don't hurt. If we hurt, we don't, we don't.
Selina was leaving. He'd asked her to go. He'd told her he didn't love her. Couldn't love her. Not the way she wanted. Not the way he wanted.
Another failed relationship, Bruce concluded. Something the children would come to their own conclusion when they saw that he'd left her crying alone in the drawing room. But for now, he'd shelter them as best he could from Bruce's latest pearl in a necklace of mistakes.
He wasn't exactly the picture of mental health; and deep pain came out heavy, blunted and wishing it had a gun to shoot out Joseph Chill's brains. That was the monster not allowed in Gotham. And it was not allowed in the Cave, and certainly not around his children.
Breathing too fast, shoulders rising and falling, Bruce locked himself in his room. And then because that would never keep them out, shouldered his wardrobe- a heavy, old, expensive thing -until it was in front of the door. He couldn't put the security shields down on the windows without signalling the cave, but he could lock and secure them with one of Tim's expanding bo staffs.
That might keep the kids from worrying.
Or at least from getting in.
Long enough for Bruce to suddenly, control ripping out between his teeth with a roar of grief, lunge for the nearest object- a mirror over the desk. He picked it up, ribs singing with sore pain, and threw it across his room.
Alone.
Alone. Alley.
There was no method to it. Nothing meticulous. Just taking apart the room piece by piece, snarling and sobbing and keening.
Alone. Blood. He'd done everything- done anything- except be honest. Admit to being broken- wood splinters jammed in the heel of his hand, and he snarled aloud. Taking only a moment to bite them out with his teeth, before resuming the brutish, unexamined punching of his own things.
Wanted to exhaust himself. Wanted to curl up in the wreckage, panting and coated in sweat, no longer needing control. Remembering how even just a week ago, he had been so frantically desperate not to be alone, he had offered his body up like an apology.
How saying the words had been beyond apology: what was he thinking. He didn't need authenticity, didn't need to be a person, didn't need to be- words like aromantic, words like asexual, words like I can't love anything, I can't have what my parents had, is this how I was made or what I was made?
Exhaustion didn't come, only destruction. Only Bruce Wayne throwing a violent tantrum after a break-up he should have seen coming. Only trying to break anything but someone else. Knuckles bleeding, but numb as a boy in blood, Bruce just- he gave up. Dropped down onto the floor of his room. Knelt in the wake of his own faults and dropped his head into his hands.
G-d he hated himself.
#ooc. 'how to not worry the kids?' 'lock myself in a room and cry and scream where they can't see or hear it' '-cue worrying noises'#ooc. reminder that bruce wayne's default emotional outlet is violence#ooc. he works very hard to control it#ooc. but this isn't something his kids should be handling so no kid interactions here please#ooc. they'd notice but it's not their job#ooc. but if they happen to give their dad a hug later that is probably smart#t: i'm the problem
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So my friend and I made an important discovery...

✨THE MÖÖN.✨
He's the Samsung moon emoji.
#house of the dragon#aegon ii targaryen#house of the dragon memes#team green humor#minions tonight we are stealing the möön#i love that sh*t-eating grin so much#it's me hi i'm the problem it's me
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You know, this is not the Star Wars x Star Trek comparison I would have thought I'd make in a million years until I watched TOS and discovered just how skewed the pop culture osmosis version of TOS is, but...
"Operation: Annihilate":
MCCOY [looking at Sam Kirk's corpse]: Is this your brother, Jim? KIRK: Sam. It is my brother. Was my brother. MCCOY: I'm sorry, Jim. The boy's unconscious, but he's still alive. KIRK: Peter? MCCOY: I'd better get the boy and his mother back to the ship. I can't do much for them down here. KIRK: Get ready to beam up. MCCOY: McCoy to Enterprise. Prepare to beam up party of four. SPOCK: Captain, I understand how you must— KIRK: Yes. Yes, Mr. Spock. You heard my sister-in-law say something about they being here. Your guess?
A New Hope:
WILLARD: When we heard about Alderaan, we feared the worst. LEIA: We have no time for sorrows, Commander. You must use the information in this R2 unit to help plan the attack.
#somewhere there's an interdimensional bar where leia is like 'of course i'm fine. i can solve so many problems. over and over and over#as long as i never stop i'm the most scarily competent person around and i definitely am never going to stop'#and an equally tipsy kirk is like 'wow i feel exactly the same. no better cure for my problems than other people's problems!'#[an hour of saurian brandy later] leia: and then - you know - you're the main eyewitness and everyone wants you to talk about it#then they try to forget the rest of the time because it's hard for THEM even though it was YOUR home and family that got slaughtered#kirk: RIGHT and if you don't bring it up it's like 'i guess you forgot' and not your duties as a leader taking priority over brooding#leia: it's not like you can let people looking up to you see weakness. that's how you lose everything and die alone and the empire wins#kirk: exactly!#anghraine babbles#star wars#star peace#star trek: the original series#tos: s1#tos: operation annihilate#leia organa#james t kirk#c: who do i have to be#cw genocide#for the tags!
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"I'm not kinkshaming anyone, I'm just trying to distinguish myself from all those gross disgusting degenerate perverts over there!"
Thanks. I really appreciate being excluded and shamed on this app because I'm not a puritan who only enjoys exclusively chaste and fluffy sfw scenarios. You all are such a welcoming and tolerant community for the extremely narrow niche of what you define as "acceptable." Sorry for being such a depraved and disgusting person. Guess I'll fuck off now.
#macro/micro#i hate the fact that I don't belong in either the g/t or macro/micro community#i can't separate out g/t and macro/micro because the line you've drawn between them is completely arbitrary#been thinking about deleting my tumblr account for a long time now because of this type of bullshit#i have both in my stories#i like both#i don't have a problem at all with people having their own preferences#but excluding others and shaming them is not the way to go#the only reason I'm still here is because i have friends on here#i don't care if i burn bridges at this point i hardly get any engagement anyway#g/t#I'm sorry this is kind of a vent feels like everything i post on here is just dead in the water because i don't fit in any boxes
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Bitch, I'm him.
#I-t b-o-y#Bbno$#im just a girl#i'm just a boy#genderfluid#lana del rey#hell is a teenage girl#girlblogging#lana del ray aka lizzy grant#girlhood#this is what makes us girls#girl problems#girlhood is a spectrum#girl things#hell is a teenage boy#boyblogging#boyhood#this is what makes us boys#boy problems#boyhood is a spectrum#boy things#lyric posting#lyrics#female manipulator#feminine rage#female rage#female hysteria#male manipulator#masculine rage#male rage
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So deadass I have lost interest in EVERYTHING except podcasts and crk
#its kind of a problem maybe#i don't even wanna be awake if im not listening to a podcast or playing crk#wtnv#tma#malevolent#the gospel of haven#<- excited to listen to the new ep :3#the bright sessions#wolf 359#ch&t#limetown#hfth#tpp#I'm listening to Mission to Zyxx rn lol#crk#cookie run kingdom
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Hey btw a bunch of different medications can increase your chance for heat related illnesses. linked list for reference
Edit: Also highly recommend the OSHA/NIOSH Heat Index app, that lists precautions you should take and every possible symptom of a heat related illness.
https://www.osha.gov/heat/heat-app
#heat stroke#heat related illnesses#btw this includes otc painkillers like ibuprofen and acetaminophen#And a bunch of heart meds and psych meds#I used to not sweat so I would just get hotter and hotter until I got heat exhaustion#now I'm on T and it fixed that problem thank god#Be fucking careful#Health warning#Important
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Reverse Portal fic doodles (full fic to come soon) (coincidentally how do y'all feel about memes)




Ford you were 12 once, you should have known they were gonna walk off immediately.
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pg 1, (1) Dipper: "He's hiding something' Mabel: "Or maybe he's lonely and needs love!" (Spoilers: Both. Both is good)
pg 1 (2a) Ford: "Rule #1, don't go far into the woods. the house stays in sight. always." Twins: *nodding* Arrow pointing to twins: " World's Smallest 12-year-olds (stars, they're tiny)"
pg 1 (2b) [not a day later:] Mabel: "Dipper I think we're lost" Dipper: (well crap) Arrow: "very lost" Arrow: "Haven't seen the house for over an hour"
Pg 2 (1a) "The problem: there is a troublesome child bothering your niblings" Gideon: (pls pls I just wanna talk)
Pg 2 (1b) "The solution: YEET THE CHILD" Gideon: HEY HEY WAIT HEY HEY OLD MAN WAIT PUT ME DOWN HEY
#eggin creatin'#reverse portal au#gravity falls#gravity falls fanart#mabel pines#dipper pines#stanford pines#gideon gleeful#I was in a silly mood apparently#mabel's just like me frfr#memes beloved#yeet the child beloved#onto the roof with you gideon get outta here#most guardians when their kids are being bothered by a problem child: talk to problem child's parents#ford when his niblings are being bothered by a problem child: Y E E T#idk man I'm still just in shock that there's a child smaller than dipper and mabel#like in size. smaller#absolutely microscopic child#does gideon actually get thrown in this fic? no#does gideon at least get yelled at? yes#bro I don't even know what's going on with his hair what even is that pompadour#anyway have a good day!
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I would die for these little hippies
#minecraft#minecraft ghast#happy ghast#ghastling#minecraft live#minecraft art#traditional art#doodle#minecraft alex#minecraft steve#I needed an excuse to draw these guys#They've been living in my head rent free ever since the update#I subconsciously based the character designs on fanart I've seen#I saw a post saying ghasts are just big jelly fish and I wholeheartedly agree#They're just silly little guys#And they need to drink water#Also don't look too closely at Steve I don't know how to draw men T-T#Yes I'm aware I could easily fix that problem#But I'm choosing to continue drawing only girls for a long as I can get away with it#minecraft fanart#mineblr#Mayday Presents: the happy ghast!#May draws#May's doodles#sketchbook#Sketchbook post#May's sketchbook
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Malleus with a shy Yuu:
#This is literally my Yuu (Ai) 😭#I imagine Malleus so big and so imposing next to a shy Yuu with problems socializing protecting her and encouraging her#I'm very shy T-T I want to have my Mal-Mal with me#The two of them being introvert but Malleus being the one who asks for the bill in a restaurant 💕#twst#twisted wonderland#malleus draconia#twst malleus#malleyuu#malleus x yuu#malleai#malleus x ai
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I feel as though Wild Kratts is going to redeem one/more/all of its villains before Season 7 ends; I don't know, I feel it in my bones and I don't know how to feel about it.
#wild kratts#wk#zach varmitech#donita donata#gaston gourmand#This is all hypothetical#but like#I feel as though since they got away with the Paisley twist in the first special of the season#They think they can try to do it again with another villain#And again I have no way of proving this as even a remote possibility#but at the same time no one could've predicted that fucking Paisley Paver of all characters was going to have a redemption#In fact during the hiatus people expected the exact OPPOSITE#I can't shake this from my mind and I'm leaning more towards the negative side of things#I feel like Paisley's redemption was easier to digest because we had less time of her as a villain: Which WAS a writing problem but ->#it opens the potential for her character post-betrayal: And she at least wasn't guilty of half of the sh*t that the other vilains did#Which is also why I think if they do pull this route they should do it with Rex#or even Dabio#I can't in good faith imagine Zach/Donita/Gourmand turning good after all the sh*t they pulled for almost 8 seasons of the entire show#And even if they do it in a way that's marginally good they'd have to add new villains to make up for the 74% of conflict they've neutered#which I don't think they'd do#I don't know this is all just me spit-balling but I genuinely needed to get it off my chest#We've 4 weeks until the hiatus ends so let's see if this is just me being randomly opinionated or the God of Prophecy deciding to strike me
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#i gotta go get my T bloodwork done tomorrow#which is fine but like#last time i was there the nurse was REALLY weird and they were pretty annoyed with me#because i hadn't come in for a long time#because life shit happened including breaking my ankle#and it's the same situation now but like so much fucking worse#and i don't want them to be assholes to me about it or about how i kind of miss shots quite a bit#like that's A Thing#it's a problem for me#but i don't deserve AT ALL to get scolded for it or treated like I'm doing something wrong#ugh i just have a chip on my shoulder#i know it has the potential to go fine and i am bringing backup with me#but EVERYTHING has gone wrong lately!#and if this goes wrong there is every chance it'll drive me to getting the stuff online and not getting bloodwork AT ALL#and I want to tell them that but I feel like they'd just be shitty about it because ultimately they may be an inclusive clinic#but they are still medical professionals and gatekeepers at heart and you can't trust medpros and gatekeepers further than you can spit#idk man I'm an adult just leave me alone to do my thing and accept that I will be in once a year for sure but no promises on more than that#i'm tired in advance#idk i just got the feeling last time that they were accusing me of getting my T illicitly and it's like bitch im not but even if i was#aren't you supposed to be a place people can be honest about their situations? am i not here jumping through your hoops to do it legally?#im doing what you wanted but the thing is I DON'T HAVE TO and if you keep acting weird im going to have to STOP#because i don't have energy to deal with my disintegrating life AND gatekeeping judgy bullshit#do cis men have to dance like this?
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It's official. I've been out of the Batfam shipping loop for so long that I can no longer tell the difference between JayTim and JayDick in fanart when they're not colour-coded with red or blue.
#why do they have the same hair? T^T#have some mercy on those of us who distinguish characters based on hairstyles T^T#and height#I'm mostly teasing draw whatever you want#*whispers* but have mercy please#the art is great though#lots of variety it's awesome#random fandom thoughts#Batfam#jason todd#tim drake#dick grayson#fanart#I am SO out of the loop#random fandom problems
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About plot twists and 7x04
A good plot twist is supposed to make you go, "oh!" and then, when you look back at the facts, you're meant to be facepalming because the signs were right there and you missed them.
The end of 7x04 was not it. When you look at the whole episode, the facts do not align with the ~twist because it was actually a decoy. Buck was not trying to get T's attention, and it was built that way. After all, when questioned about it, because T himself didn't believe so, Buck's answer was, "I guess." There was no resounding "yes," no certainty because it simply wasn't the truth. Like, how was peacocking exercising in front of Eddie, getting a basketball and suggesting getting a hoop gonna get T's attention when he wasn't even in the same building? How's complaining to Maddie about Eddie's plans with T and Chris talking about T meant to get that man's attention when he wasn't around to hear any of it? Buck's actions had nothing to do with anyone other than Buck and Eddie (and Chris) and their relationship, and I think we're meant to read as much because that's what they wrote, what they showed us.
Why Buck decided to go along with the idea that he was trying to get the decoy’s attention instead of Eddie’s? I think realizing he had feelings for a man was fine in his books, but admitting who those feelings were really about was just too much, Buck’s not ready for that. This was alluded to when Maddie talked to him afterwards: the “something” that Buck needs to tell Eddie in his own time wasn’t about coming out to him but about Buck’s feelings for him.
#911 ABC#911 Meta#911#Buddie#Buck and Eddie#Eddie Diaz#Evan Buckley#Ryan Guzman#Oliver Stark#realchemistry#I'll die on this hill#but I won't cause I'm right#it's so interesting to me because Buck had no problems talking about his bisexuality with Maddie#he didn't even register it#he just needed help with Eddie#now if someone could make him see that his feelings were not about T at all#if he'll just open his eyes to it and admit what everyone can see#Chim even called himself a beard#everyone sees it but him#or them#truly meant to be#I need them like oxygen
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they have me so fucked up over the 'L brothers copium' i've been huffing lately actually about to start rocking in my chair back && forth breathing into a paper bag while drawing things that aren't even $day
#text#i think the most simple way to put it would be dallas' behavior boiling down to how bum ass cheating boyfriends treat and then cry to -#- their girlfriend.#actually that's most apparent with how he has houston sheltering his grown ass from being sniped and then how he literally -#- dragged him into his mob like a good 10 years after#these gaps in their brotherhood is crazy he is seriously a absentee brother and nothing can make me think otherwise Ever#it actually has me tweaking they're gonna have the most nuclear time period of their lives around pd2 events#and they just have to survive that period to move on#well they can;t move on because they're flesh and blood but whatever#anyways i believe that dallas himself and others do think that he actually loves houston and cares for him deeply but ijust know -#- that he is willing to run houston's wellbeing into the ground if it makes him feel good about himself in return#play with your little brother's sanity. Win stupid prizes#that's why i'm using the cheater comparison because just how a cheater cheats for no reason esentially just bc they resent you -#- and have no problem making you feel defiled from them doing that#dallas wud have no problem with compromising houston's emotions just the same#because he actually just deeply hates him#< but that's a broad statement that actually touches everything in hsi character ; he doesn't have the ability to love or commit to anythin#as i said before . except for crime#i say it's because he's reincarnated satan or something of that sort but he might also just be a cruel human being EZ#he doesn't see his mistreatment as hatred for houston cus seeing houston feel like shit awakens his deep motherly instinct and he thinks -#- that giving that love is more than enough........in a way#basically he doesn't want houston to have nice things ever in his life ex. friends or anyone close of any kind cus that means houston -#- wud have other people to turn to#he wants him to have no one else and no place else he can go to#cause dallas doesn;t have much of that#since he is a clammed up person by default#esentially draining houston of everything. so that houston can depend on him for everything#< HIS VERSION OF A BROTHERLY REUNION😍💕#actually having houston slapping him around in a rage fit might have dallas feeling liek he's nearing redemption for all that abandonment#but not redemption for the current mistreatment
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So, this isn't so much an "Incorrect Quotes"...
So much as an "I have a vision, but I'm not an artist so I have to settle for writing it out and hope someone understands what I'm picturing."
For starters, ya'll know about the artist trend of putting your OC's or favorite characters in a specific dress...
ya know... this one⬇

Yeah, just...ALL of Division Three. And I mean all + Narumi. Here how it sounds in my head. (Its more of a comic? It's just mostly dialogue than anything and they're just standing in a line talking to each other.) {And keep in mind....THEY ARE ALL WEARING THE DRESS AS THEY SAY THIS. ITS 90% OF THE JOKE}
Mina: When I said I was nervous about my first promotional modeling gig for Vogue, That didn't mean it was an open invitation to come out here and.... "Support me".
Kafka: Come on. This can't be any more embarrassing than that time you caught me in the sexy lingerie I was wearing for my high school prank.
Hoshina: *In air, eyes glowing woke spartan style, mid assassin strike aimed at Kafka with a training sword, ALSO IN THE DRESS* pics or it didn't happen-
Reno: Look. We're here, we showed up in the dress, can we leave now? I'm getting cold in places I don't want to be cold.
Iharu: Aww, come on! You look dashing! Few more pics! *Somehow managed to convince the photographer to take the shot of them*
Haruichi: The fact that you're filling this out better than me is disturbing.
Aoi:*Trying not to let his blush show* Are the lights getting to you because you're talking bullshit.
Minase: Oh my God! KIKORU!!!! You look amazing!!!
Kikoru:*embarrassed* Minassseee.... I-I'm with Reno. Can we change into our work jumpers now?
Hakua: Hey, can I take this one home? Makin' me feel hella confident right now. *Starts a gun show in front of a mirror.*
Narumi: *In front of the same mirror Hakua is in, serving cunt and taking selfies* Honestly, ya'll should just put me on the cover instead of Mina cuz' I'm pulling this off way better than her in the moment.
I also like to imagine that instead of Mina on the cover... It's Kafka in Kaiju form in the dress. The glowing abs would absolutely be visible as well....
#We stan Muscle Mommy Hakua in this house hold.#Had a headcanon that she kinda has a body image problem over how muscly she is -#- so she takes any opportunity to take items that make her confidant in her body image (sh*t tons of praise from Kafka help as well)#Just because I don't like GenHoshi's existence doesn't mean I don't like Gen.#He's not my favorite but you can't tell me i'm wrong when I say he could slay a runway.#Slight Kikoru x Minase shipper? Maybe?#I will find a way to shove KafHoshi into everything I post.#*Fainting dramatically into a leather wing back chair*#“Oh! If only there were a creater's blocked artist that was also into Kn8 that was looking for sh*tty inspiration material.”#*Blinks one eye open in disappointment at the lack of people that would give a sh*t*#“Well Don't all of you rush in at once.”#None of my mutuals take this seriously.#I am well aware that most of you are artists and already have a ton of WIP's that you should probably finish first before you start others#Althought........#Hotrubbertar... you Okay buddy?#You haven't posted anything in a while....#AGAIN THIS IS A JOKE#kaiju no 8#art inspiration#shit post#<- maybe?#kafka hibino#mina ashiro#soshiro hoshina#reno ichikawa#iharu furuhashi#haruichi izumo#aoi kaguragi#kikoru shinomiya#Minase
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