#tbf its grown back a lot since my pulling compulsion stopped (picking compulsion never left while medicatedits just controllable so im not | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

5-htagonist · 2 months ago

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ahhhhhhhhhhh genuinely NOTHINGGGG helps my exec functioning issues/self esteem/hygeine/anxiety/ETC more than having a good hair cut!!!!!!!!! my hair lays and feels exactly like i want it to it doesnt fall in my face or bother my ears im literally unstoppable unfuckwitable

#its all layered and thin enough that it goes slightly past my shoulders in the back but i can still comb thru w my hands #the front is short enough i can move it anywhichway so it hides the spot i was pulling at while undermedicated #tbf its grown back a lot since my pulling compulsion stopped (picking compulsion never left while medicatedits just controllable so im not #worried abt that) but still i have everything i want AND i got a c in my soc class instead of a d bc he changed his grading scale hee hee #i tink i failed 2 classes though which is rly sad bc i like my psych cohort .-. oh tf well. i wanna take 1 over summer but idk if fafsa will #cover it or nawt. lol.#idk maybe ill work my ass off during summer and load up on classes next semester..?#40mg celexa 30mg adderall is a more. Normal dose rather than a beginning dose so. i should be able to keep my shit togethe #hopefully.#i think i have ocd tbh ive been on celexa since i was 12 so i didnt have a chance to dig in to a lot of obsessions and compulsions and #complexes n whateva but like.#right b4 i was medicated the trich started and my eyebrows were gawnnn #then recently like. i have never felt such anxiety at leaving my home since i was a younger teenager/in my unmedicated era in like 2022 #I LOVE MEDICINE YAY #idfk what ill do when i presumably have to go unmedicated for fertility treatment stuff cause i want to get my eggs frozen #but im SCARED bc i dont know if thats. okay #like... im scared something will happen to those facilities and the eggs and whatever...#and there is literally. not long term enough research on transmasc hrt. to know if my eggs will be in good shape if i go back on t #but id be willing to stop t again cause the effects dont just Go Away at once #like ive stopped it forrrr ig nearly 2 yrs and i still grow darker hairs on my chin/neck lol #but thats all i have leftttttttt 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#im like fr starting to get dysphoric about it its not even funny. at least my voice doesnt bother me like it did #woah i got off topic fast #<- is it really that shocking to the stoner?

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