#text: natter

[nq-doodads]

I made a website! currently in the process of uploading my icon backlog (and sometimes remaking them if they bother me enough lmao) so head over here to keep an eye on that if you're interested!!

[natigail]

Dan and Phil share so many hours with each other and yet getting a glimpse of how they communicate when they are apart or just too tired to speak out loud feels like something so special. The fact that it's a series with multiple episodes now, and they openly acknowledge it as tradition is so lovely!

You can hear them in their texts - even as incomprehensible as some of them are - and the vibe of how they exist with each other in that space. On top of that, when they're filming these videos, they share the behind the scenes stories.

What do you mean Dan only talks to Phil on the phone when he's in a taxi and Phil makes up stories rather than having a normal conversation? What do you mean Phil took a photo of sleepy Dan wearing his glasses and then sent it to him randomly? What do you mean Love Game by Lady Gaga is one of their most listened to songs because they play it on a game? What do you mean Phil called his mum for Dan when he got burns in the shower while in Germany? What do you mean Dan sends selfies while across the world? What do you mean Dan's phone number is the one connected to Phil's Deliveroo? What do you mean they use emojis and try to make up the best sounding fake words? What do you mean Dan threatens to kill Phil for forgetting to shut a drawer?

And even with everything listed here, there's still stuff I'm forgetting. There's so much packed into almost every quip, a little window into how they are when they are at ease. At home and with their home person. The easy banter and playful teasing just compliment the vibes while they sit and laugh so loudly at stuff they've already seen before. Because seeing it again together and reminiscing will never not be funny.

I've watched their faces a lot this year with the return of the gaming channel and yet I barely could keep my eyes off them in this video. Several times I would rewind the video to carefully watch an expression again, or simply because I had completely forgotten to look at the text while staring at them.

So much life and love in the way their eyes creases, their smiles flash without abandon and they lean closer and closer to each other. Always in orbit, always tethered. This video was truly a gift and I am so incredibly happy that we got another one, and I hope it does become a tradition that continues for a while longer. Thank you, Dan and Phil!

[dandelion-wings]

I am absolutely not adding that plot thread in here, but I'm enjoying the thought of the very intense few days in Liyue during the torture whump where Ningguang wants to know why the fuck the Abyss Order is trying so hard to break into the Jade Chamber, and two days in Yelan, whom she'd asked to find answers, shows up and goes, "I still do not fucking know but they also broke into my teahouse so now they're all dead."

(Kaeya had to misdirect his interrogator somewhere, since his two big fears throughout this are 'she tries to magically break into my head even though I said Lisa warded me' and 'she decides i don't have the answers she wants and tries to pick up another, more vulnerable knight,' and he knows exactly who has the infrastructure to handle it. >>)

(Jean sends them a very apologetic letter a few weeks later and Ningguang uses it as leverage to extort some concessions from her, but the concessions are regarding the new Abyss Order information-flow that Jean would have given her anyway and Diluc and Lisa sit on her before she can offer Ningguang anything else.)

[pangirlpanic]

@glitchtricks94 how I’d imagine myself texting Leona lol

[pilferingapples]

got tagged by @rubyredro5e to do the 10 images challenge:

post ten images that describe you w/o downloading anything new!

Let's see what I've got

... I don't know why I can't move these around or make them do the Grid Layout. MYSTERIES of Tumblr. Such is life.

I tag uh... @potatosonnet, @bewareofitalics, @spookshowvixens and @amarguerite !

[byrdstrolls]

One of the drabbles I’m working on has highschool bee in it and I’m making her the most annoying person imaginable as is my g-d given right

[sapphorror]

it's always fun when the hyperfixation gets brought up irl and you have to act so normal about it despite every neuron in your brain activating simultaneously. the other day someone very close to me asked about my ceaseless watcher shirt and when I said oh yeah its magnus archives while desperately trying to recall my prescripted pitch for the show after being caught completely off-guard they went "oh!! I've been listening to that! It does really seem like the sort of thing you would like" and then I had to figure out how to talk about it without saying that it's formed the basis behind most of my personality for nearly a year now. love that for me.

[wheremermaidsdwell]

i'm doing research for witch!fic and i needed to know what book eddie should pull to reference vecna and VECNA DOESN'T EXIST UNTIL SECOND EDITION AS FAR AS I CAN FIND. FAIL DUFFERS.

(we already knew their dnd was sus but still. i get it. vecna's great. but he does not exist until like 89. UGH)

[oh-okay-kay]

a new methodology of researching the effects of anti-trans laws, which its researchers "controlled for various factors, including state by state differences, race, age, the impact of COVID-19, and even conducted alternate placebo tests" in order to strengthen its affirmation that it is indeed the fault of anti-trans laws for this increase in attempts, have found that "States that passed anti-trans laws saw suicide attempt rates rise by up to 72% among transgender and nonbinary youth aged 13 to 17, and by 44% among those aged 13 to 24"

this research surveyed 61,000 trans individuals in usamerica

this is beyond insanity.

trump gets to shout on the global stage that 'theyre doing transgender operations on illegal aliens in prison'. desantis and numerous usamerican state politicians get to ban gender affirming care and opportunities for trans athletes and equal rights protections for minors and often even adults. jk rowling and jd vance and trump and elon musk and infinite twitter users get to call an olympic woman of colour a man, and jk rowling especially gets special influence on the uk labour party to control trans protection and legislature. american anti-rights groups get to work with hillary cass' team to create a review that has since been rejected by numerous major health organisations, yet it gets to continue to be used to entirely ban puberty blockers in the uk, and the team continues to cover up the increase in trans suicides and deaths that have occurred directly because of it. there is no accountability in these systems

if you are cis and have a trans person in your life, friend or family or spouse or whatever, you MUST be there for them. stay informed on the research, this article provides several incredible sources on the numerous studies on the benefits of gender affirming care and the harm of anti-trans legislation. actually stand up and correct those who spout misinformation. donate to lgbtq+ causes, mutual aid groups, fundraisers. above all, actually support them as you would any other human you love. plan times to hang out, do voice chat, ask how theyre doing or what they enjoy. just please do *anything*

if you are trans, you gotta live. even if we only have each other at least we have that

[sneefsnorf]

saw a post i agreed with until it said something slightly negative about bluey and the sleeper agent parasite in my brain filled me with insatiable rage. now my stomach hurts

[orion-geminus]

hey so uh. Tumblr newbie question: what are the accounts that seem to follow me, despite being completely blank and kind of ominous? Is that the bot thing i saw talked about or is that like Something Else. also what do i do with them? block them? report them? it just confuses me tbh

[natigail]

I’m in the plane about to take off, Dan and Phil 😭

[kaesaaurelia]

Apropos of the last reblog... whenever I have had doubts about the 1926 fic being well-received in fandom (I had a crisis about this when S2 was announced, and also again when S2 happened) [edit: also I'm using "well-received" as a euphemism for "I won't get crickets and will not get more than 5 people telling me I don't know canon"], my therapist is just like "Why don't you just publish it [commercially as original fiction]?" And like... I don't want to, that should be enough, but I foolishly make the mistake of saying "I don't want to do that, because I'd hate the result and it wouldn't sell anyway." But it's true.

First off, I'd have to fundamentally change the characterizations of not-Aziraphale and not-Crowley to be comfortable with publishing it, in ways that would make them much less appealing to me, because I like those characters. I could see myself writing origfic about Vehuel and Nisroc, and have posted some stuff to AO3 tagged "origfic" because people who would like it will find it more easily there than in the GO tag, but I don't think I'd feel comfortable publishing it for profit unless I changed the setting completely so it wasn't Comically Bureaucratic Heaven and Hell -- which I'd also want to do with the 1926 fic, because everyone who's read or seen Good Omens is going to instantly recognize it. It's not bad to be influenced by something, of course, but look, if I have to rework both the setting AND the characters that's a lot of work to make a story less itself. Had I had more interesting-to-me ideas for either story or characters I would have written those instead.

The other issue is I do not think she understands how LONG it is. People who aren't writers hear "1000 words" and think "wow that's a lot of words, that's like 20 pages, right?" People who aren't writers hear "400k words" and think "wow that's a lot of words, that's like a hundred pages, right?" People who are writers understand that 1000 words is the point during an average NaNoWriMo day where you're like "I don't think I can do this actually," and then you're annoyed with yourself because you barely wrote a page and a half, and that 400k words is "oh no the idea got away from them, RIP." No traditional publisher wants to publish something that's 400k unless it's by George R. R. Martin and it is specifically the thing they've been waiting for him to finish for several presidential administrations.

So I'd have to self-pub. Which I don't really feel like doing because, bluntly, I would not get anything out of it. I do not know how to market a 400k book that is a historical action/adventure story with a substantial queer romance B-plot, but also a lot of it is torture porn, but not like that, it's not dark romance, the romance is fluffy. There isn't a good marketing niche for this. I'd either have to take out the sex scenes or rewrite them to be more appealing to the market (which means less appealing to me, a person who has found maybe one explicit sex scene in self-published fiction that I was into, and surprise surprise, the author's webpage linked to their AO3 account) and if I rewrote them I'd probably do better condensing the story down drastically to 15-20k of mostly porn with a light dusting of historical fantasy, which is not what I wrote.

But back to the marketing: I'd have to build a social media following, something I am not good at, on a social media site that is doing well and not in crisis (how??? where???) and all my insecurities about posting things online would be magnified a hundredfold if a. I had to do that and b. money was on the line. If I'm posting on AO3, I won't get money, but I will (very occasionally) get people telling me they liked it, which I will probably enjoy much more.

Anyway, I don't want to go into all of this with my therapist because she keeps doubting any of these assertions -- as if I do not keep up with publishing drama, or know self-pub authors, or understand that fans can diagnose "they painted landlord white over my blorbos to publish this" at 50 paces -- so it takes the whole hour.

But when I just leave it as "I don't want to do that, because I'd hate the result and it wouldn't sell anyway" she hears it as "I don't think my writing is good and I think no one likes it [clearly a symptom of depression]" but what I am trying to convey is "I don't want to take a sledgehammer to my favorite things about this story just so I can pitch it to a commercial audience I didn't have in mind when I wrote it, and I do not want to waste my free time and energy for socializing professionally trying to get people to like me on social media, something you know full well makes me deeply unhappy even at a small scale."

[ase-trollplays]

Today's mood

[stormypip7]

okay. does anyone remember how i drew every character from the mainline danganronpa games? yknow the 3 part post? yeah where i drew a bit of a portrait for em.

i might do that with my life series au. or at least something similar to help visualise all of the peeps.

now, if i do. how would we want me post em? in their respective teams? or separately as i draw em out?

[wizardimpersonator]

lads ive just had my first "why did this person block me" moment and i am so confused