#that couldve stayed in your drafts

[theosconfessions]

The Miscellaneous questions for River and his man/child, i mean husband.

i actually loled haha!! thank you for asking, love.

MISCELLANEOUS: Is money a problem? River: its not. i think we're lucky that blake got drafted and makes a good amount of money playing football. we literally got married while we were still in high school and a good majority of kids that do that are NOT in the same position we're in right now.

How many cars do they own?

Blake: we own two. one for riv to take the kids around when im not home and one for me to take to practice/games all that stuff.

Do they own their home or do they rent?

Blake: DUDEEEE if my apartment couldve magically grown with every kid we had ..then i would still be renting. good memories in that place

River: better memories in a place where we actually have room for kids..and me.

Do they live near the coast or deep in the countryside?

Blake: we're balls deep in suburbia right now. his parents live out in the country and FUCK I WANT IT SO BAD.

Do they live in the city or in the country?

River: suburbs ..for now.

Do they enjoy their surroundings? River: i was fucking DYING in that apartment. i think having the house kinda gives me space so i dont really necessarily feel like im suffocating.

Blake: you feel like your suffocating?

River: in your man cave apartment i did yeah.

What’s their song? Blake: i gotta do it' so high school'-taylor swift

What do they do when they’re away from each other? River: we dont constantly text eachother but little pics through the day i think. gives us time to be you know separate people and lets us enjoy whatever we're doing at the moment without being glued to our phone all the time.

Blake: i demand sexy riv pics every night im away [smirks]

River: demands a strong word.

Blake: you know what i mean. i APPRECIATE sexy riv pics every night.

River: dude. looking like a douchebag.

Where did they first meet? Blake: we went to school together [smirks] friends first.

How did they first meet? Blake: we were in the same gym class and he fucking PELTED me with a dodgeball man. love at first sight. for me.

Who spends the most money when out shopping? Blake : *points to riv*

River: treats.

Who’s more likely to flash their assets? River: oh my god blake. he does it during games. FINED ALL OF THE TIME.

Blake: worth it [smirks]

Who finds it amusing when the other trips over? River: me. hes not coordinated at all. youd think he would be but....

Any mental issues? Blake: oh god yeah. i mean...

River: i have depression. the past years been kinda.. i dont know. but i am doing better. im getting better

Blake: my boy.

Who’s terrified of bugs? River: i think both of us? fuck that shit.

Who kills the spiders around the house? Blake: Nellie

River: definitely Nellie.

Their favourite place? Blake: [smirks] theres this little ranch up in chestnut ridge. i love taking him there. just me him. no kids.

River:thats a good place [smirks]

Who pays the bills? Blake [raises hand] and proud of that shit

Do they have any fears for their future? River: i think that...we went through a lot of rough stuff in our separation and i just..do not want to go through that again. i think we're on a good path right now and i want to stay on that path

Blake: i think what riv said yeah. the last thing we both wanted when we were having problems was a divorce. and its something i do not want. i guess thats my fear for my future. i just wanna be good for him. i know i wasnt in the past.im trying to be now.

Who’s more likely to surprise the other with a fancy dinner? Blake: me for SURE.

Who uses up all of the hot water? Blake: again me for SURE. but he can crash the shower whenever

River: me time,babe.

Who’s the tallest? Blake: me. rivers a short shit.

Who’s more likely to just randomly hop into the shower with the other? River:thats definitely blake. i LOVE showering alone but hey.

Blake: wont turn down that DICK.

River: gross.

Who wanders around in their underwear? River: [points to blake] he hasnt learned.

Who sings the loudest when singing along to the radio? Blake: River for sure.he has a pretty voice though. love to hear that shit.

What do they tease each other about? River: i like to tease him over how much of a pussy he was for me back in our first starting dating days

Blake: i cried after we fucked for the first time. for real. and id do it again.

Who is more likely to cringe at the other’s fashion sense at times? River: me. blakes taste is .....

Do they have mutual friends? River: not anymore.

Who crushed first? Blake: oh me for sure. unless riv is about to say something i didnt know

River: i never really considered that AT ALL until you kissed me that one day. you werent on my radar at all i was so into my girlfriend at the time

Blake:until ....

Any alcohol or substance related problems? River: no we both quit that stuff when teddie came along.

Who is more likely to stumble home, drunk, at 3am? Blake: we are good boys [smirks]

Who swears the most?

River: i think me and its purely because of my dads influence i swear to god.

[lareinaa007]

People really out here shipping Rafael with Sienna...

[ivyuns]

wishing upon a star - sunoo

genre: angst | fluff

word count: 1.6k

warnings: reader getting hospitalized, sunoo accidently hitting reader, passing out, neglecting health, arguments, sunoo being a lazy bum in the beginning, sunoo doing his best, reader blaming herself for everything, lmk if i missed anything else!

summary: you came home very tired after working two shifts. you wanted to come home, wanting nothing but you in sunoos arms in bed. but that went out of the window when a very small argument that couldve been handled broke out. what worst is that youre now hospitalized and sunoo wishes he could just go back in time to fix everything.

note: hii omg saur ive been real emo these past weeks so ive kinda wrote my emotions in like 10 different drafts so be on a look out for those. ++ im not sure when ill update fever bc im still not even half way done w part two 😭😭 enjoy ~

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it was a week after your fight, over something that could’ve been easily forgiven after talking out. something that could’ve been solved.

but no. you had left your house before he had done anything else stupid.

it was all because you were just asking sunoo nicely to clean up the place after you had many shifts to pick up, as well as studying to get in your dream school.

“sun? you here?” you had walked through the front door, dragging your tired feet to the living room, in which sunoo was still gaming with niki before you left— 6 hours ago.

the living room was a mess with finished chip bags and crumbs everywhere. oh you wanted to just breakdown.

“sun? hello?” you waved your hand in front of it to snap him out of his game. “hey baby, how was work?” he asked, still playing games. you ignored him and just cleaned his mess up.

you went to your bathroom to wash up and heading straight to bed, not having the energy for talking to the boy or anything.

sunoo realized you were gone for a bit and ended his game. he was putting his controller away and before he got up, he felt a pang of guilt. the guilt that you had to do everything, once again.

he quickly put everything away, turning off the lights and headed to your room. where he saw you almost dozing off to your fruit sensory videos that seemed to make you stay sane.

you sensed that he was coming on the bed with you, so you turned around and turned off your phone to charge and fell asleep. or tried to. “y/n?” he called out your name, hugging you from behind. you didn’t respond, too tired to do anything.  

sunoo sighed. “i’m sorry i-“ “am i not doing enough for you?” you quietly said, tears flowing already.

you had such a bad week and just wanted to cuddle with sunoo. but everyday as you came home, the house was always a mess and sunoo was always in the same spot before you left. you felt like just crying for hours but you held it in. you didn’t want to see anyone, especially sunoo, to see you in your worst state.

“all i wanted to do when i got home was- was to be in your arms. be in our bed. i hated work so much. you never came to text me, or ask me how was i. im tired of coming home to you and the house a mess. ‘m sorry sunoo. im sorry im selfish.”

you cried into your arms and felt sunoo try to lift your arms up to hug you but you wouldn’t budge.

sunoo felt so heartbroken. how could he let his most precious girl feel like this. “im sorr-“ “im gonna go sunoo.”

you pushed sunoo away and went to the closet, wiping your tears at the same time. sunoo felt everything breaking down, he couldn’t let you go. especially so late at night.

he got up and saw you packing your essentials in your suitcase. he panicked and grabbed your wrist, a bit too harsh. “y/n! you cant go!” he shouted at you.

the tears increased as his grip was getting tighter, and the way he yelled at you. “s-sunoo. sunoo let go” you whimper. he didn’t listen, but the second time he heard you shout his name with a horrified face, he let go.

he saw the red mark he left. he saw you red puffy eyes. he saw the way you felt sick to your stomach. you wanted to run away and it was all his fault.

he stood up and tried to speak words out, but no words came out of him. you hurried to pack and left the house, leaving your promise ring and house keys.

after that night, he kept calling you, texting you, begging you to come back. he didn’t know where you were staying at, he didn’t know if you were warm and safe, he didn’t know if you were in someone else’s presence.

the house made him feel so alone. he stopped playing games and he cleaned the house, hoping you’ll just walk through the front door with a smile.

he put up the paintings you wanted to hang up on the walls, he built the dinning table that was just leaning against the dinning room wall. he did everything you asked him to do a while ago.

but everytime he tried to go to the closet, visions of him hurting you kept reminding himself that that was the only reason why you’re not coming back.

he sat alone in there, sobs muffled into the sleeve of his hoodie. “im sorry y/n. just come to my arms please.”

everywhere around the house had pictures of you two, decorated. polaroids scattered everywhere, memories everywhere.

until a phone call disturbed his thoughts. he looked at the contact, saying it’s from you.  and immediately answered.

“sunoo!”

it wasn’t you. you friend had went through your phone to call him about you. “y-y/n, she-“ “she what!” sunoo yelled. he was scared what happened to you.

“she’s in the hospital. please come quick.”

—

sunoo drove quickly to the hospital your friend had told him. his hair a mess, eyes bloodshot, he was just a mess. he looked at the emergency exit and saw you friend holding your hand while you were on the bed, blood everywhere.

“y/n!” he called out your name. he ran to your moving bed and held your other hand.

your vision was blurry but you still saw the resemblance of his face. “s-sunoo?” sunoo wanted to punch the air. why did he make so much mistakes to end up you in the hospital. “im here baby” he cupped your cheek. the moment didn’t last long after the nurses had to stop him.

he tried to push them away, and yelled out your name through the door. he needed to be next to you.

the nurses reassured him, letting him know you’ll feel fine. but he wasnt having it, he needed to see if you’ll be okay.

he fell onto the waiting chairs, crying into the palms of his hands, dizzy.

it took a bit too long for sunoo. it was the next day and he didn’t get a wink of sleep. your friend had gotten a thin blanket from the nurses for him, hoping he’ll just have a 5 minute nap. but he didn’t want to lose sight of  the surgery room he was next to.

the doctors had told him that you’ve been lacking nutrients. they had heard from your friend that you’ve been coming to their house after picking different shifts at your jobs everyday without eating or drinking. you’ve been sleeping with a few hours of sleep. and on top of that, the fight with sunoo has been on your mind too.

you overthink, wondering if it was dumb to run out of the house because he accidentally harmed you. you knew sunoo wouldn’t purposely hurt you, he was just protecting you.

all the stress of going back and work made you faint at work. they said you bumped your head on the counter at the kitchen, as there was a glass that also fell with you, resulting some shards cutting into you.

sunoo hoped and prayed, you will be okay.

—

you woke up hours later with wires hooked up onto you. whimpering in pain, you felt a bruise on your forehead. you looked around and no signs of sunoo or your best friend, but you could've sworn you saw them both before you fell asleep.

seeing flowers and "get well soon" balloons were blurring your vision as you remembered what happened. the sudden memory when sunoo had accidentally hurt you, when you got a message saying sunoo wasn't fine without you, how you saw sunoo's once beautiful eyes red because of you.

all of this were caused by you. is what you thought.

everything is your fault, you were the one that ran out on him in the first place. you were so in your mind, you didnt hear sunoo come in the room. "y/n!" he shouted.

he immediately exited the room and went to get your doctor, letting them know you have woken.

after the doctor ran tests on you, you were left alone with sunoo. the comforting silence was getting awkward for you. "y/n" "sunoo" you both said. sunoo slightly smiled, holding your hand for you to continue.

"im sorry, this wouldn't had happened if i didn't walk out on you" you said. tears slowly falling. sunoo felt like he just lost his best boyfriend award. you were blaming yourself when you did nothing wrong.

he looked up at you and wiped your tears away. "no im sorry for not asking how your day was in the first place my love." he paused. "im sorry for how lazy i was. i've failed to noticed your emotions after work and school. you're not selfish baby. you had every right to be upset.   you are more than enough for me. i love you so much y/n. you're the best thing that happened to me. please."

you saw how sincere he was. his eyes held up the galaxies whenever he saw you, and you saw it right here. he was too in love with you. "thank you" you muttered. "let's go home."

as you walked in the door of your home after weeks, you saw the place was neatly cleaned and your walls weren't bare anymore. your dinning table all set. every room in your house was now completed, all thanks to sunoo and a bit of help of his friends.

"sun, thank you" you hugged him. he leaned in and hugged you tightly. "let's go cuddle, tell me how your days was, my lady."

with that, you guys settled in on your comfy bed, looking out of the window while the stars were out on the dark night.

you fell asleep when it happened, but sunoo held you close. right before he could close his eyes, he saw a shining shooting star. 'i wish to make you happier than ever.'

end.

(2022) © dont repost or copy | @ivyuns

[cherrywperson]

currently working on a doc abt whho couldve possibly created Robowt (thhats whhat im calling hher now btw)

thhe draft is almost finishhed so if youre interested well stay tuned idk

[sondepoch]

AGH I JUST FINISHED BTC AND UR SO EVIL AND TWISTED i was rolling around and slamming my head into my pillow in frustration BC THE SIGNS WERE ALL THERE SHE JUST DIDNT WANT TO SEE IT I WAS SO STRESSED it was literally like EVERYTHING THAT COULDVE GONE WRONG WENT ABSOLUTELY HORRIBLE the worst possible ending no escape childe is dead everything sucks plan was a flop life is terrible and bleak

and even so it was just so good and a huge emotional rollercoaster with lots of loops and drops and i saw your asks about an alternate ending and that would be super duper amazing but probably a lot of work so please don’t feel pressured to do it but at the same time i think i need to read an ending where the reader and childes story ends just kinda sucky rather than completely awful

hahahhaa yeah >.>

i'm super duper glad you enjoyed this!! i've actually been toying with the idea of a BTC after ending a lot now, and i finally have an actual plot drafted so i'll probably be making one - stay tuned!

[uswnt5]

i’m back and boy do i have things to say. buckle up it’s a loooooong one

first off, an i cannot stress this enough, fuck Merritt Paulson. that’s it, that’s the tweet. thanks for coming to my ted talk.

don’t worry i’ll get to THAT. but first, not taking Brianna Visalli or Ally Prisock? dumb moves LV, but not the first of the night tbh. like not even one of them? Kizer is good, but a rookie with no experience at all? would love to know the train of thought on that one. unsurprised by Sky Blue and North Carolina (should’ve protected Merrick imo), good picks though. bit confused by Spirit, would’ve gone for Dougherty-Howard young but experienced, but they picked two rookies instead so we clearly aren’t valuing having any actual playing experience in LV. we only care about height for a 6’1 keeper but ok.

a rookie defender from the Reign and Michelle Betos. again so much better talent to take from Reign and you took a rookie who you *think* will come back from Sweden. she probably will but i would’ve taken someone in their mid 20s who had experience for you to build around and is already proven considering all the rookies you’ve already taken. and a keeper who just tore her acl?? idk when Betos will be ready but you now get to choose between a rookie keeper and an injured keeper when you could’ve taken Britt Eckerstrom and a different player from Reign (Rosie White, Jasmyn Spencer, Taylor Smith) . sidenote wonder who Reigns new international keeper will be now that they don’t have any lol.

Orlando. oof. not much to choose from i know, but like two Aussies? after the great Aussie nwsl exodus? i know Foord has a relationship with the coach, but she’s loving Arsenal and Lia Walti and i don’t think she’s planning on returning soon. Alanna Kennedy could also very well stay overseas especially if she doesn’t want to move, staying overseas looking more attractive in my opinion. wouldve looked at Pickett or Konya Plummer but it seems LV is pulling a Hail Mary and crossing their fingers about them coming back to the league (and other *side eye*). not to mention UK is closer to AUS and with them having the WC in 2023 i wouldn’t be surprised if that’s another reason they stayed in europe.

Press, unsurprising i think we all saw that coming. Utah just looks like it’s sinking and nobody is throwing a line out to help. willing to bet you don’t see Vero come back, maybe even Gunny with how things are going.

ok here we go. i will preface this by saying i have been a Thorns fan from the start, so this is devastating. my heart really does hurt, and seeing fans be so disgusted with the Thorns front office? deserved. i don’t think anyone really expected it to happen with the talent Portland left available. i mean considering LV’s entire team is rookies you’d think they would throw some experienced players in there, you know ones who will actually come play for you? Tobin not being a Thorn anymore just doesn’t seem real or right, and maybe that’s dramatic, but more than literally anyone else on that team, she IS Portland. this is a player who dedicated her entire career to helping build this club, and the way everything went down this year, dirty. having stated on multiple occasions (literally a month ago too) that Portland and the Thorns are her home, she had every intention of going back and playing there. now she won’t even get a proper sendoff? and Paulson is going to make statements that she’s irreplaceable? then get her back you dumb fucking idiot. i KNOW there is a long game here but Portland couldve waited for this exact thing to happen next year with LA, which it probably would’ve, and given a proper sendoff to the player who has been the heart of your team from its start. we’ll never know, but some back door deal could’ve and should’ve been made to leave her, especially with who else was available, but LV/Portland just uprooted a settled 30 year old life and i’m not ok with that. if they don’t at BARE minimum retire #17, oof, prepare for a riot.

i hope Tobin stays in Manchester until at least december 2021 and doesn’t report after the Olympics. i would even be down with a permanent move to the wsl as a fuck you to the nwsl. this draft reminded me of how disgusting it is that the NWSL does not give players autonomy of their own careers, jerking them around without any care for their feelings or lives. you cannot claim to be the best league in the world and then treat players this way. nobody can tell me Tobin is thrilled about this at the end of the day, even if she’ll get to play with Press, she just lost the home and team she spent years building and probably thought she’d end her career with that’s got to be devastating. furthermore, LV currently using the two of them as clickbait knowing the chances of them ever reporting there are about as likely as Donald Trump getting elected for a second bc ‘voter fraud’? fucking gross. Christy Holly was problematic af when he coached before, you think they want to go from Casey Stoney to that? absolutely fucking doubt it.

currently: really unhappy, very sad, also angry. thanks for reading and would love your thoughts and sorry for all the cursing

I love cursing, don’t ever apologize for that! I’m sorry you’re hurting, too. It’s awful to see it go down like this. The problem is, there really wasn’t another way. Crystal got her wish so essentially they had to give up Tobin. I think they were banking on putting enough talent out there to distract Louisville into taking other players but alas, it didn’t work.

I’ve said earlier but I’ll say again, this hurts, but at the end of the day, at least Tobin and Christen get to go through this experience together and it’s not one left having to deal with it while the other has a safety net. They are each others safety nets now and that’s a cool thing. 

When it comes down to it, I think them staying in Manchester until Dec 2021 is exactly what they’ll do. That’ll give them time to come back to the states for the holidays and settle into LA (if they get that move), get a house there, and start ramping up media for the inaugural season. Fans want it. I really do think it’ll happen. I mean, look at the Rebellion 99 watch parties that they already have for CP and she’s not even an LA player yet. They simple LOVE their hometown girl. 

T&C and the first overall pic in 2022 for Louisville exemption like @xowoso said seems pretty spot on to me. 

For now, lets all just take a breath and thank our lucky stars that they are playing in Manchester right now and not actually having to make a 2020 decision about agreeing to go to Louisville. Let’s see where this WSL season ends up and if they can get into UCL before we stress too much. They’re happy and thriving together and I think we should hold onto that for now. 

And if it makes you feel better, maybe sleep in your Tobin Thorns jersey tonight. 

[gay-mcr-slut]

I have this skeleton gerard funko (whos still boxed) sitting on top of one of my coffin shelves by my dresser and he keeps. fucking. moving. i wake up, hes offset to the left. i move him back so hes centered. i go on with my day. go to bed hes still centered. i wake up the next morning hes offset to the right. about to fall off the fucking shelf. i move him back so hes centered. everything is fine. i leave the house. i come back home 1am with taco bell. hes slightly nuged to the right again. his little skeleton eyes watch me, tauntingly. “yeah i fucking moved, what are you gonna do about it?” dont tell me its my cats, because not only is the shelf too high to reach but its only a bit bigger than double gerard’s box, so its too small for them to jump on. its straight too, its not like its tiled and gravity is fucking with me. even if it was tilted, that wont explain how he moved both left and rigth. is my funko possessed or some shit? is it possessed with the ghost of gerard? i have another shelf by my dresser (one on either side of my mirror) with a ned funko on it, also boxed, (not to flex, but he was limited edition), and he hasnt moved at all?? and hes closer to the window? so its not like a draft couldve pushed gee? someone tell me what the fuck is going on? what if i tried switching gee and ned for a couple days to see if its maybe the shelf?? if ned moves and gee doesnt then it must be the shelf right? but what if gee still moves and ned stays put as he always has? how do i explain it then? dhdishekwofhfkeofhrneoduwe gerard if your soul is in my funko, could you please leave?

[brelione]

I love how you do the random headcanons like Kie dating a gardener but could you do a couple of those random ones with Rafe; maybe the colours. I love your writing and would love to see you do more Rafe ❤ ❤.

Black And White

Rafe had felt empty for years.Worthless,absent and just a shadow of anger that had once been a happy child.But then he met you.

You were everything he wasnt.Bubbly,passionate and excited.

You were Wheezie’s tutor,the poor girl was so busy with gossip that she couldnt be bothered to pay attention to anything in english class

He had come downstairs to grab a soda when he saw you explaining something to Wheezie,stopping to listen

“So think about it as writing a movie rather than a story!How about you make a soundtrack to go with the order of the story?”You suggested.She nodded,giggling and telling you how great of an idea it was.

Something of his old self came back,butterflies erupting in his stomach

He smiled,biting his lip as he looked at you and all your glory.

You wore a white crop top with light washed jeans,white vans and a locket with a lily on it hanging from your neck

“Wheezie,who is this?”He asked,feeling more comfortable talking to his half sister rather than to you directly.

She introduced you as “(Y/N),the genius and the next Shakespear.”

He had chuckled,enjoying the feeling of shaking your hand

He had asked you about your favorite movies and how you had come up with the soundtrack method,a goofy smile coming across his face as he listened to you explain with such passion

He then asked you to watch the movie with him so you could explain your thoughts better

You hadnt realised it was a date at first,slowly beginning to understand throughout the night

He felt different when he was around you.He felt happiness,longing and fascination rather than the usual emptiness.

You were full of energy,always having something to talk about and he was more than happy to listen and absorb all of your words.

The first shirt of his that you stole was an oversized white one that practically drowned you in its material

He enjoyed the attention you gave him,hugs,kisses and compliments making his often dark days.

He started to hang out with you all the time,forgetting about the days he was meant to buy drugs from Barry.

You two would go for icecream and walk down the beach

You collected the cream white shells,even taking the broken ones because you felt that they were mistreated and would feel insecure if you left them behind

Sarah could barely recognize him.The smile permanently on his face,his hair no longer stiff from gel and multiple bracelets clinging to his wrists

One of which held a white shell

He loved coming to your house while you worked on short stories,flipping through the white pages to read about unicorns and the apocalypse

He felt himself becoming less of a shadow and more of a light

He no longer ruined peoples moods when he entered rooms,instead making people excited to have conversations with him

You formed him into a better person,the person that had been hidden by the years of mean words and lack of love

“Hey...hey (Y/N)?”He called,reading across one of the pages.You hummed,looking up from your other notebook. “Is this handsome zombie killer me?”He asked.

Your favorite thing to do with him on weekends was watching old black and white movies,making fun of the awkward dialogue and bad effects

He loved you more than he knew to be possible,reminding you every time he saw you.

When you walked down the aisle,white lace clinging to your waist and flowing out at you hips he couldve passed out.Probably would have too if it werent for Topper holding him up.

I will definitely make more Rafe content!I have some Rafe smut in the drafts right now :) would anyone be interested in Rafe Smut or should it stay in the drafts?

[nefelibatally]

“A message that will stay in my drafts to you till you until you can write me one too”

I think you’re absolutely amazing. I love your smile and the way you look @ me when you’re annoyed w me. I love the way your skin and eyes shine from different lighting when it hits you, I love when you kiss me and I remember the first time you kissed me and how even 10min later I felt your lips againsnt mine as if it you were still there, I love how you’re strong and independent and just absolutely alluring I am completely infatuated w you, I just wish nothing changed. I wish we could’ve worked, I wish I could’ve seen you more, I wish I could’ve understood what I meant to you, I wish I would’ve known...

If I even meant something to you.

I’m disappointed in you. I know you could’ve done better I know you couldve tried harder to make it work I know you didn’t want to hurt me so you probably started getting dry for me to break up w you because you didn’t even have the courage to do it yourself if you care like you say you did you would’ve, I rather would have you hurt my feelings and spare my time then to make me still want you and wish for you and have to tell somebody that I love that they don’t deserve my love because I want you to deserve it because I care about you, but you couldnt even care enough do that.

You make me so mad because we both know what we could’ve been you make me mad because I wanted you to be everything BUT an almost to me

I waited till I was sure I made sure you were sure I let you know what I was on with you, yet for whatever reason it didn’t work. Why didn’t it work it should’ve? It was working before what changed ? Why don’t you talk to me

why aren’t you seeing the problem why are you leading me on, why don’t you want to fix this we can it’s just

why are you making an excuse just tell me what it is man,

why do I make excuses for you I can read the context clues it’s just.

I thought you were different.

Why am I always too good for people man why can’t I ever be just enough.

- Your almost soulmate. Your biggest fan. Your biggest loss. Stay hydrated and stay up AR<3

[sekiron]

Destiny 2: How to improve

I know most of yall don’t give a flying fuck about D2 (that sounds a bit harsh but hey it’s not inaccurate) but I need to lay out some things here In the original draft of this, I was far more angry and enough people have done that last season and this season now. So figured I should layout ideas I think could be done to fix things One way to help the Vanguard strike playlist again is adding the PsiOps and Heist Battlegrounds to the playlist, in addition Chosen, PsiOps, and Heist Battlegrounds should drop random seasonal gear from their original season (also reissue Chosen gear with the Land Tank origin trait). "But hey hows that fair that Battlegrounds get their own loot pools-" Simple solution: guns like Militia's Birthright's non adept form would drop from strike completion, taking them out of the Nightfall loot pool unless its the Nightfall that week, adept variants would only drop during the Grandmaster version. As for guns like Duty Bound or D.F.A, they'd be in a different loot pool that like the weekly Nightfall loot pool, would cycle. So we'd have the Vanguard Nightfall loot (Shadow Price, Palindrome, SWARM, etc) and Vaulted Nightfall loot (D.F.A, Mindbender's Ambition, etc) In addition, like during Year 4, we should have a Battlegrounds playlist and Hunts playlist Hunts would get the Nightmare Hunts, Empire Hunts, and Baron Hunts (once Forsaken returns) into one playlist. Loot dropped would be from the planets loot pool: Baron Hunts grants Tangled Shore loot, Nightmare Hunts grant Luna gear, etc Now that's simply helping PVE playlist content, now onto PVP One big thing, RETURN TO CBMM (in quickplay and comp). Fireteam Based Matchmaking will be good for Trials, Iron Banner, and Gambit so it can stay. However the SBMM is clearly not good as its just led to people playing the same people over and over again Another obvious issue is lack of loot incentive from competitive. There's rather easy solutions here For reaching certain ranks, you'd receive a Ghost, a Sparrow, a Ship, and an Emblem (maybe multiple? one should at least denote that you've reached Ascendant) but see that wont keep people coming in. Once you reach Ascendant for the season, aside from playing a few matches to get your weekly roll of Rose, why bother? Well adept variants of Crucible guns would be enticing. Now of course the main problem is maps or lack there of. Ideas for map locations:The Scarlet Keep, Bray Exoscience facility, Riis Reborn, Freehold's temporal anomalies, The Lucent Citadel, The Black Garden, Neomuna, wreckage of The Almighty, a Seraph Bunker, somewhere in The Dreaming City and The Reef

The same problem is present with Gambit but even moreso. My map suggestion is the same as above along with Also I'd like to see a version thats what Gambit Prime attempted to be, Gambit Perfected. Within GP, you'd que into your role and once in the game your role would be over head for your teammates to see and know who's who. - Max 3 rounds like old school Gambit - Role buffs return but are not as overpowered as previous ones - new Primevals (Taken Techuen, Taken Chieftain, Taken Darkblade, Taken Acolyte that uses Stasis, Taken Wyvern) - Lucent Brood are now possible enemies with Hive Lightbearers being the High Value Targets - House Salvation are now possible enemies with Stasis wielders being High Value Targets - Shadow Legion are now possible enemies with Tormentors being High Value Targets - Season of the Drifter gear returns, wins granting a chance at adept versions (I just really want Spare Rations and Bug-Out Bag again lol)

Now Seasonal content...thats far more tricky imo. For one, cutting up the story content into 8 parts always has hurt the stories, Plunder for instance could've had us gather a few more relics per week and the main story couldve been shortened and it'd flow much better than waiting 8 weeks... As for the dreaded 3 x 7 upgrade screen. One idea is to cut it to only 15 upgrade steps but we still have this issue of this time gated vendor upgraded. So remove the timegate...sorta As it stands now, the way to upgrade the vendor/device is the weekly season challenges, one will be related to the weekly story quest and the other would be combat related So have the item used for upgrades drop from the season activity very rarely. Excess items can be turned in for enhancement cores or prisms And the last one I have much to say about: Moments of Triumph it feels pretty lame Age of Triumph was D1's finally hooray, a celebration of Destiny 1 as such, Moments of Triumph should feel similar something like double rewards for multiple activities two active rotating raids/dungeons an armour ornament set from seal completion just something so people know to be active in Moments of Triumph because if you didnt see the MMXXII seal in the triumph tab you'd have no idea it's going on right now ANY CASE we come to the end of my lil(hA LIL) post about how Destiny 2 can improve greatly now this wont fix everything but it'll definitely fix some stand out problems imo

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20.01.19

Smoking in the morning is deadass the death of me. I want to quit so bad for motivation,health and money and also bc i don't want to be addicted to anythibt bc it sucks and i want my creativity back (as if i ever had some ) but overall im just utterly unhappy and lowkey anxious all the time. I also want to stop eating and take pills to sleep all day for it to be painless but i have to ttzke care of my son and my daughter its really hard to be in the middle of smth rlly healthy abd hezling and having all the demons glazing on the other side. I mean i have erything i wabt and need (nice house,two d

of my fav dog breeds,designer shoes i always wanted,all the music instruments i ever wanted, a fire ass computer and i worked my ass off for all that. I swear ill get to work when all my paint stash will be dried n expired. I quit hard drugs a year ago n stopped taking pills to have fun or numb out the pain since months idk how many exactly cuz im actually kind of scared of suffering while i die n shit or havr my brain permabebtly damaged. I have so many projects i cant get my mind to do,i dobt have aby motivation although i actuallu trust in my projects. Except from smokibg thered nothing i can turn into a routine, not even starving or feeding n walking my two children. I lost 1kg and put them back on in a two week spawn i dont have anu motivztion to workout, i canna cut my legs off. Its bot uch but its a lot to me sincr i was 3kg away from my goal wright so thats 1/3rd of the rozd. I relapsed w self harm like a month ago,it was pretty bad but i known worse. Idk what to di w my life and my bf but im focusing on ly life and if he leaves my ass its ok he wasbt the one and its one problem less, ion have any strenght to fight for him i can only passively stay bc i just dont feel like i have anh value to him. But he told me he thought i was pretty this morning and i will journal evrry sweet momebts and compliments to feel safe again. Ion wannz seek for jis validatiob that much but its painful to be w someone n thinking they dont value u or even think youre pretty. Even tho know i hav a bad relationship w my appearence and looks in general. The first toll on my self esteem and when things started to go downhill wzs a yezr ago. We had grrat moments since of course but nothong substancial compared to our first months i think ? I least secually because i was never happy, not even once, xith my body since a yezr. It weighs hevzy. I want to go back to ballet classes so bad aswl. I hate this pandemic for the first time and its not making me bend towards resistznce, i comply and isolate and im just looking around thibkine damn son. V first world problem ik. I have no onr to talk to in the sense of i dont really wanna complain bc thats all ill do. The brain fog thibgy is pretty bad eveb tho ik i recovered parts of my ability to read b focus znd stuff but smoking is bringing me down again i soent so much time fighting the fatigue when i couldve solve things. But anxiety is a bitch so i guess i have to deal with it as well. im grateful that i have a new shrink n a good one even tho it costs money. I have an appoibyment this evening to talk ab surgery to my psychiatrist and well see what she thinks of it bc i wont be able to change her after i comed cleab but well see, if its a hard no im paying for that mf straight up and ill see later for my tooth ? Idk. cant borrow money to this friend no more because im not in good terms w him bc of my bf n im afraid to work bc im afraid thzt he hurts me bc hes bummed about it. Im afraid of vengence where i wish he would aprove,empower me to do it, come w me to protect me and pick me up when im done. Ik its a lot to ask and thts why im even more grateful for my best friends support.

My bfs mom is coming over n i cannot stznd her toxic ass so im staying in bed pretending to sleep. Ik itd disrespectful but i dont rrally care at that point. I feel dead and empty.

I have an unpaid comission work to fo n i have 0 willpower and focus even tho the elements of composition n the composition itself for the drawing are laid down already. First shitty draft was 90% i approved i just dont have aby energy to focus and make it good. Ill to it anyway bc rhe deadlines in a few days.

I hate the phone and how long i spend staring at it

My nails are soft i cant scratch i hate it aswl

Went to sleep woke up m gna sleep again til my appt w the shrink

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What You Can Do Right Now To Stop Trump’s Dangerous Climate Agenda

We don’t know much about what climate policy might look like under President-elect Donald Trump, but what we do know isn’t very encouraging. Trump has called global warming a hoax and vowed to reinvigorate the fossil fuel industry, “cancel” the Paris Climate Agreement and ditch the Clean Power Plan.

Former Vice President Al Gore warned in October that electing Trump could “take us toward a climate catastrophe.” And then Gore met with Trump and his daughter Ivanka this week a conversation Gore called “extremely interesting” creating the prospects that the president-elect might not be as hostile to climate change as he has indicated.

He has since announced Oklahoma Attorney General Scott Pruitt, who has blamed environmental regulations and defended fossil fuel interests, as his pick to head the Environmental Protection Agency.

But people who are concerned about climate change shouldn’t lose hope merely because the incoming chairman is wishy-washy on such issues. “Remember, most of the world is aligned against climate change even if the future occupant of the White House doesn’t want to recognize reality, ” Michael Brune, executive director of the Sierra Club, told The Huffington Post.

As 2 degrees Celsius looms ever closer the temperature increase scientists say the world must stay below to avoid the worst effects of climate change there is a lot that individuals, organizations, cities and nations can, and must, do to battle climate change over the next four years.

“As consumers, as investors, in schools, in workplaces, at churches, synagogues or other places of venerate, there are lots of positive ways to impact change for the climate, ” Brune said. “We’re going to have to give the president-elect the struggle of his life.”

Here are some things you and your community can do TAGEND

1 Strengthen city, district and state climate efforts

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If the federal government refuses to stand up against climate change, itll be more important than ever for cities, counties and states to pick up the slack and become climate leaders. That entails committing to divest from fossil fuel, embrace clean energy, defined emissions targets and develop climate action plans, among other measures.

The ominous signals coming out of D.C. point to even more work be necessary for the city and state level, said Kate Kiely, information media deputy director at the Natural Resources Defense Council. In November, the NRDC announced the partnership agreement with 20 cities across the country from St. Paul, Minnesota, to Houston, Texas, to make strides in renewable energy.

According to Brune, cities could havean especially big influencein the climate change fight.We should be pushing cities to go 100 percentage clean energy and to repudiate natural gas and coal and other fossil fuel, he said. A majority of people now live in cities, so this could have a dramatic impact.

In the U.S ., 20 cities have already constructed commitments to rely wholly on clean energy.

People should organize and get their own cities has progressed, Brune said.

Contact your mayor, city council, or district or state representative and get them to set a timeline to stop usingfossil fuels.

2 Push companies and organizations to divest from fossil fuels

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There are a lot of things that the president cant undo. He cant stop the fact that solar and gust are cheaper than coal and gas. He cant change the fact that dozens of businesses have already committed to clean energy, Brune said.

As of December, more than 640 organizations worldwide, including several universities, churches and for-profit companies and banks, have pledged to divest from their fossil fuel investments. According to Go Fossil Free, a 350. org campaign, the commitments amount to more than $ 3.4 trillion.

Consumers should petition companies to ditch their fossil fuel investments, and students should urge their schools and colleges to do the same.

As we wrap up the most wonderful year in history, we know that investments in the fossil fuel industry money these climate impacts. Thats why its more critical than ever that we push our institutions to divest from the fossil fuel companies that are knowingly perpetuating the climate crisis, Lindsay Meiman, U.S. communications coordinator for 350. org, told HuffPost last week.

Want to push a company, school or place of worship to divest from fossil fuel? 350. org has a list of resources to help you start a campaign. Or find an existing one to get involved in.

3 Put your fund where your mouth is

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Petitions and protests can be powerful, but moving your fund speaks volumes too. As a consumer and as an investor, ensure you’re not personally financing climate change. This entails, for example, selecting banks that are free of fossil fuel connections.

Your ATM card or checking account or your mortgage, these should not be financed by companies that are taking your checking fees or other payments to subsidize the Dakota Access Pipeline or finance drilling offshore. Construct sure your fund aligns with your values, Brune said.

In September, Amalgamated Bank became the first North American bank to commit to divest 100 percentage from fossil fuel. Aspiration has bank accounts the hell is fossil fuel-free, and Beneficial State Bank has credit card that dont invest in fossil fuels.

Anthony Hobley, CEO of the Carbon Tracker Initiative, said consumers should also ensure that their pensions, 401( k) or other retirement savings accounts are similarly not underwriting fossil fuel companies.

A lot of pressure can be made through the financial industry, Hobley said from London. Ordinary people who hold pensions can put pressure on companies through their pensions. Put pressure on the ones who manage your fund and thats one way to keep pressure on those companies too.

The financial services companies that manage retirement accounts arent used to getting many letters from the people whose fund they manage, Hobley added. It wouldnt take much of an organized attempt in order to be allowed to take notice.

Are your investments supportingfossil fuels? FossilFreeFunds.orgis a web tool that allows people to check whether their individual investments or employer-provided 401( k) issupporting coal companies, oil and gas producers, and fossil-fired utilities.

4 Making a “financial case” for clean energy

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Hobley believes the best chance we have ofconvincing Trump to care about climate change is to make a compelling financial instance for renewables.

With new clean energy technologies getting more efficient and cheaper than fossil fuel, a transition to renewables is inevitable, said Hobley. Its merely a matter of time.

Trump can no more stop this transition than a previous U.S. chairman couldve stopped the transition from steam locomotives to the vehicle or the typewriter to the computer. The technological genie is already out of the purse, he said. Its not a instance of if, but when. But the when is important because of the 2 degrees budget, and thats where a lack of political leadership or resistance can have a real impact.

Clear political leadership from both the U.S. and China could entail a “smoother” and faster transition to clean energy. A absence thereof, however, could make it easier for big oil and gas companies to stay in denial and that would be to their detriment, Hobley said. It would entail pouring more fund, billions or trillions of dollars, into fossil fuel assets that we simply dont need.

Trump currently has the opportunity to attain the United States a leader in clean energy.

These are complicated and highly technical products, Hobley said. With an trained and skilled labour force, these are the kinds of things that should be manufactured in the U.S.

Creating new jobs was a central part of Trumps election platform. Maybe someone should remind him that the clean energy industry makes more undertakings per unit of energy than coal and natural gas. Last year, the number of U.S. employment opportunities in solar energy overtook those in oil and natural gas extraction for the very first time.

A 2015 reportbyNextGen Climate America found that a transition to clean energy would add a million jobs by 2030 and up to 2 million jobs by 2050, while increasing the nation’s gross domestic productby $290 billion and boostinghousehold income.

Weshould be quoting such figures and urging utility companies and public utility commissions to espouse clean energy.( Public utility commissions regularly hold hearings that are open to the public. Attend them, and voice your thoughts !)

5 Speak out!

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Whats the single biggest way you can influenceclimate change? According to the NRDC, its speaking up.

Talk to your friends and family, and make sure your representatives are making good decisions, Aliya Haq, deputy director of NRDCs Clean Power Plan Initiative, wrote in a blog post. The main reason elected officials do anything difficult is because their constituents attain them.

In the coming months and years, there will be mass mobilizations that folks should join to push back against Trumps regressive policies and hateful rhetoric, said 350. orgs Meiman. Folks can engage online by joining online actions, signing petitions and contributing their voice on social media to push back on Trumps agenda.

You can alsoparticipate in protests in yourarea or join and support local nonprofits in theirfight against climate change.

6 Reduce your own carbon footprint

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Power your own home with renewable energy, invest in energy-efficient gadgets and lightbulbs, and recollect to weatherize.

Building heating and cooling are among the biggest uses of energy, said NRDCs Haq. Construct your home more energy-efficient by sealing drafts and ensuring your home is adequately insulated and ventilated too.

Also consider changing your diet. Cut down on meat intake or even eliminate it from your diet wholly, Brune said. I do think that people can have a powerful impact on the environment merely by feeing less meat.

It takes 14 days as much biologically productive land to create 1 ton of beef as it takes to produce 1 ton of grain, according tothe Global Footprint Network.

Global livestock is also responsible for 9 percentage of all anthropogenic carbon emissions, data fromthe United Nations’ Food and Agriculture Organizationshow.

Driving a fuel-efficient vehicle is another way to reduce your carbon footprint. You can also take steps to be more fuel efficient when you’re on the road , no matter what vehicle you drive.

7 Support environmental journalism

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A majorshortcoming of journalistsduring the presidential election was theirfailureto highlight climate change as a vital topic and to force Trump( and Hillary Clinton, too) to address this crisis.

Over the next four years, Trump needs to be held accountable, and the press must make climate change a central question in his presidency.

The Society of Environmental Journalists, a nonprofit membership organisation supporting environmental the reporters in the U.S. and around the world, aims to improve the quality, accuracy and visibility of reporting on the environment. You can also support nonprofit environmental news outlets such asInside Climate, Gristand High Country News.

Hannah McKay/ Reuters A man wearing a Trump mask protests during a demo against climate change outside the U.S. Embassy in Londonin November.

There is certainly reason to worry about what a Trump presidency could mean for countries around the world.

But as Gore reminds us, worrying isn’t doing the Earth any favors. “There is no time to hopelessnes, ” Gore told The Guardian on Monday. “We don’t have time to lick our meanders, to hope for a different election outcome.”

In homes, at schools, in cities and in nations across the country, people need to act and act now.

“We have to win this struggle and we will win it; the only question is how fast we win, ” Gore said. “But more damage is baked into the climate system every day, so it’s a race against time.”

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