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❦ 𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐝𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐧𝐨𝐰 ?
HOW TO PICK A PILE ? Take a deep breathe , close your eyes after open them up to choose the pile where your sight goes first in calming inner silence . If you are called up by more than one pile you please feel free to choose them . This pick-a-card is timeless.
✰|𝐌𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭 ִֶָ |𝐏𝐚𝐢𝐝-𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 ִֶָ |𝐌𝐨𝐫𝐞 ִֶָ |𝐃𝐨𝐧𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 ִֶָ|
❝𝐏𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝟏.❞
➤ 𝐍𝐚𝐦𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞 𝐩𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝟏 ! 𝐋𝐞𝐭'𝐬 𝐛𝐞𝐠𝐢𝐧 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠:
You people must be facing some difficulties in your lives currently, like in every area of life, whether it is work, relationships, education, or family. Continuously, you are being shocked and thrilled by uninvited or unexpected events, which is making you feel stressed and anxious. The guidance that is coming to you is that you need to trust in the divine and give less exertion from your side to make things stable that are not under your influence. Do only the minimum of what can provide you safety and comfort rather than forcing it to make it right according to your way, knowing it can mess up the situation and you. You don't need to know every single detail of what's happening in front of you all the time. Also, the current experience is a way through to open another gate of your life. Another message that you are getting is about your environment or friends or the people you are with. Are they actually making you feel comfortable by letting yourself be you or not? You need to question yourself if you are really happy with them. You know that as humans we at times need to seek some social validation, but we too need to know also that it doesn't get too personal later, making us feel suffocated and toxicated. You soon will be blessed with the people who are meant to be in your life, too, the majority of people leaving who once gave you a hard time. To attract it, you need to change your belief subconsciously about how positive you feel about your energy and, at the same time, how people get attracted to it too because "what we believe is what we become" naturally. You need to stop yourself from continuously fighting mentally and emotionally all the time—you really need a break. Your body right now tells me that you're delaying your periods by stressing so much over the things that you do not have control over. Leave everything to God/dess. You will soon be blessed with stability and prosperity in your desired sector of life. You are being called to work and connect with your higher chakra, especially your crown chakra, to connect with your highest self with celenite. Have confidence in your inner wisdom and follow it. Don't overthink potential consequences that will come along because what will happen will happen, and when it does, it will be for the good.
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❝𝐏𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝟐.❞
𝐍𝐚𝐦𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞 𝐩𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝟐. ! 𝐋𝐞𝐭'𝐬 𝐛𝐞𝐠𝐢𝐧 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠:
You are going to be blessed with another choice or thing to choose from or work on besides your current ones. You are being told to believe in your other goals or plans that are coming forward randomly because they will give you more than what you deserve right now. Be calm and positive about the upcoming steps you will take. You need to understand that your circumstances are not holding you back as your vision is right now—change your perception, and you change everything, even making the impossible possible. Let go of thoughts where you always say, "I'm not good enough," "I need more time," and "I don't feel I'm in a position right now to get it." Stop that. You need to change your subconscious beliefs in order to attract and get what you want. You are deserving of everything you want, and you do have the power to make your wildest dreams a reality. You may need the strength to accept your decisions, but at the same time, reassure yourself about how capable you are to act on them—emotionally, physically, and mentally. Clear the internal storm of unanswered questions—what's and how's—in a calm state and peaceful space. Coming with serious intention and focus for that one thing you are meant for in your life, everything around you is a game of belief and trust. You may excel at executing your plans but often fail at understanding yourself, which is why you lag behind. Staying in one place cannot provide clarity; instead, it breeds progressive turmoil inside—get out of your current zone and explore another so you can better understand, grasp, and find. You need to heal some of your old wounds from the past or recent ones, anything that applies; this will allow you to let go of the energy holding you back and welcome a new space to fill it with everything you once wanted. You deserve only the best for yourself and your future—believe it.
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❝𝐏𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝟑.❞
𝐍𝐚𝐦𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞 𝐩𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝟑 ! 𝐋𝐞𝐭'𝐬 𝐛𝐞𝐠𝐢𝐧 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠:
Pile number 3, you people are naturally very serious individuals who must have dealt with many stressful situations when it comes to work, education, and family. But right now, your body and mind need to have a rest; they are literally screaming to stop and disconnect from others so you can understand your limits, knowing how much you can take on at once while still doing what is good for you. You definitely are workaholics for sure—Capricorn, I guess? Staying late into the night working without any break, thinking it's for your best when it's not. We are interdependent in this world, no doubt, but you are making it more of an interdependent burden for yourself. Don't let yourself be underappreciated, only if you are. If you want help, then take help; don't hesitate or take pride in it, okay? 🫂 You think that you are cold to others when you actually have a warm heart yearning for a heartfelt connection where you could at least talk to someone happily with a smile wholeheartedly without worrying much and giving yourself a break. I know you are introverted, but things cannot always be all about our comfort zone, where we are not taking steps for ourselves, knowing it's important yet fearing any judgments from others, which is keeping you behind from that one step to change you desire. People will say what they want, but you need to choose your happiness too, right? So stop making your connection of that friends-with-business-or-work thing most of the time. Also, Take out some time for yourself and smile while having a cup of coffee or tea. I know there's a lot of competition around you, but really, who wants to be part of the rat race? Can't we just go our ways, detached from the world, living the way we want to? Stop controlling yourself all the time. For a few, there exists a conflict or competition with a person who is doing better than you. Here, Divine wants you to learn from them and apply what that person does because it will certainly help you to progress and grow in your work area. For others, you will be blessed with a pay raise or promotion, and for some, it's a good time for clearing any job interview. Apart from all this, change your principled vision you have been living and leading your life with because change is constant, so should you be. It's a time where you are being tested with your faith too, so stand still and relax with your truth. There's an expansion coming in your life, and to have it, work continuously on what you want to or have been.
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Streamer!Ellie hcs



little notes!:: okay bro. This is like brainrotted to the MAX. And also, why have I not been writing for Abby? Guys I’m scared
what you should be expecting from these hcs!:: ALOT of brainrot, cursing, slang words, little like twitch comments and TikTok comments aswell (I love that.)
THIS IS INSPIRED BY @welostheplot HEAVILY. I read stream sniped this morning😮💨fye
Sybau: shut yo bitch ass up
Sylau: shut yo lame ass up
Syfm: shut your fucking mouth
Translation for you.:)
Streamer!Ellie who uses the word “clip” religiously. Every where she goes it’s just clip, clip, clip.
Streamer!Ellie who calls herself the most talented, charismatic, charming, funniest , mind blowing, breathtaking human being on ever whenever she wins on Fortnite.
Streamer!Ellie who’s so horribly bad at flirting it should be illegal.
Streamer!Ellie whose chat teases her almost everyday because of it.
“Are you the square root of 64? Cause you a 8”
idkijsworkhere (mod): ITS “CAUSE YOU ATE” FUCKING IDIOT
ichewonpaper: bro used the corniest pickup line and STILL said it wrong, get a load💀
elliesbiggesthater: yall hearing ts?
g0ld3ney3zz: im actually crying wtf did this girl just say?
onemillionandone: SYBAU TWIN🥀😭
dymnds: generational fumble
Streamer!Ellie who posted a disgustingly cringy thirst trap on TikTok and regretted forever.
@Iluvhoney.mustard: who girl is this?💀💔
@elliesglazer: omg Ellie spit on me
@user.0103837377336: me reading the #wlw

@addieluvvvvvvv: im straight im straight im straight im straight im straight.. im gay?..
@user.678735803874: 🥰🥰🥰
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Streamer!Ellie who when she first introduced her girlfriend (you), the chat went CRAZY.
elliesrealgf: SHE STOLE MY GFFFF😕💔💔
idkijsworkhere (mod): GUYS STOP TYPING SO FAST I CAN ONLY DELETE MESSAGES SO QUICK😭
g0ld3ney3zz: HOW TF DID YOU PULL THIS LEGENDARY, MYTHICAL GIRL DUDE
mattnumberfive: I could change your gfs sexuality in a heartbeat
idkijsworkhere replied to mattnumberfive: btw you’re talking to THE Ellie, syfm twin🥀😭
taylorrrwhoo: SHES SO GORGEOUS OMG PLEASEEEEE
lanadelreyyyyy: TWO BAD BITCHES AT THE SAME DAMN TIME👅👅👅
Streamer!Ellie whose brain short circuits whenever she hears your voice on vc when playing Fortnite.
“Ellie come here and revive me they just teamed up”
Instead of running to you her movements stopped as she stared at the screen blankly.
“ELLIE REVIVE ME!” you finally yelled a little bit louder in the mic
“oh shit sorry babe.”
lazyeyedho: dude is your gf a siren or some shit why’d you get memorized for a moment😭🥀🥀
ilikecorndogsss: REVIVE HER NOW
elliesdirtyconverse: patheic masc alert!!‼️
gblond (mod): you embrass us lesbians
Streamer!Ellie whose fanbase is so unbelievably funny it should be illegal.
“Alright chat, let’s see what edits we have in store today!” She gleaned scrolling through the “EDIZ” channel.
i.fartet: okay Ellie….. here’s a REAL edit. No shit this time.
“Okay fartet… you better not disappoint.”
TikTok video! (All creds go to the amazing editor!)
“mods ban this kid.”
Streamer!Ellie who makes up random freestyles mid stream.
“Mmm, aye, look, I got hoes.. calling, my hotline… I got…”
You smashed the space bar pausing the ear bleeding beat. The sudden movement startling Ellie.
“Let’s stick to Fortnite”
idkijsworkhere (mod): SHE SAID LETS STICK TO FORNITE😭🙏🙏🙏
elliesbiggesthater: CLIP THIS SHIT BRO IM ROLLINGGGG
gblond (mod): SYLAU TWIN😭🙏
hoforelliewilliams: CLIPPED CLIPPED CLIPPEDDDD
girlfromspace: “hoes? Hotline?” Holy Ian xxl freestyle 💔
Streamer!Ellie who bought fake framed glasses and literally can’t go one stream without them making an appearance.
idkijsworkhere (mod): yo Ellie, get RID of the glasses unc🥀
ellieswife replied to idkijsworkhere: dem bitches glued to her mf face
Streamer!Ellie who puts up the middle finger every time she dies in Fortnite
Streamer!Ellie who has a black shiesty and NEVER takes that shit off.
elliesbiggesthater:take that thing off
onemillionandone: came into stream just to tell you to take that damn shiesty AWF
elliesdirtyconverse: nah keep it on im almost there.
Streamer!Ellie who swears up and down that she could beat minecraft in 30minutes
Agian, VERY inspired by @welostheplot I love this girls work like omg please..
@lluxentzz @graciedollie @korn-dawg @blond3slut @ellieswife4ever @ellies-moth-to-a-flame @ellies-real-wife @ellieshothousewife @mars4hellokitty @doodl3wr1t3s @vyeris @mewl3tte @lolitalovess @look-me @cloudyorgy @starlightles2
#lesbian#wlw#tlou#ellie williams#ellie the last of us#headcanon#ellie x you#ellie x reader#ellie tlou#ellie headcanons
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I am starting to understand rujinu appeal (again)(after a very good autistic yapping session with my bestie who is brain rotting over rujinu) but I still ship them in a very specific way that only makes sense to me I fear
#hate fanarts where they exude so much cool dom straight energy#nah man they both bi4bi losers#they probably got railed by their band members as well#<< polytrix always need to be involved#and i adore the ideia of jinu also being passed around like a blunt by the saja boys#saja boys huntrix be like: we need to absolutely rail our leader#anyways i like them when theyre both losers who annoy eachother to death like two petty children#and i am starting to like jinu just because its one more person to spoil and pamper rumi just like her deserves#that one meme where its like “and them theyre both bottoms”#< jinu is a switch at best but i just thought it would be funny#in resume: MAYBE rujinu has rights but theyre still on thin ice to me#also wanted to add that when i watched the movie i obviously shipped them but them i was hit by the polytrix train and went#damn they kinda. boring and basic to me.#and then now i am going back to think wait. maybe there's flavour here...#the changes a human being can go through...#also just a big rambling session in the tags bc why the fuck not#kpdh#verom.txt#//#suggestive#? i mean kinda#i rambled about some stupid sex hcs here so. .
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Maple Leafs discourse on their team social medias makes me lose brain cells because wdym they're first in their division and coming off a 5 game win streak & people are commenting that the top players are only in it for the money and have no drive, that particular players are useless and need to be traded asap, that they're a garbage team, that they'll never make it past the first round just because they lost one game.
Apparently because they are being payed handsomely the players must be mindless automatons who perform perfectly every night. It drives me absolutely nuts how quickly alleged fans will completely turn on their own team.
#i cannot understand how some people can't seem to comprehend that the players are still human who will have off days and make mistakes#regardless of their work ethic or drive or passion#it's not actual critiquing either it's basically just grown men cyberbullying other grown men#over a GAME#& they have a ton of people in the organization to critique and help them improve! have you ever heard of a coach!#it's like people want to assume the worst so when the leafs perform badly in the playoffs they aren't upset about it bc they see it coming#but they clearly are upset about it because they're commenting on the leafs own social media pages#& these losers never seem to realize how their own behaviour does actively make it harder for the players to perform#maybe some players will not want to play in Toronto because the pressure is so insane & the fanbase can be so toxic!#it really just is bullying#& those people think it's completely fine & warranted because they don't know the players personally & they're famous & rich#maybe try basic human decency for a change? & not letting yourself get super angry about a game?#& just the bad faith element of it all...#it makes it not fun! this is supposed to be entertainment!#stop assuming the worst#some of these people even assume the worst when things are going well! wdym jt is only playing well bc he knows his contract is almost up#isn't it more interesting & inspiring that someone legitimately improved through hard work & the power of the amulet#to the benefit of your team#let's bring back being a fan of your own team ok?#we are basically already doing that with the lb#(affectionate)#thank god for us!#toronto maple leafs#tml#leafs lb#my thoughts
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@oripoke_ @bo_beanies Youre monsters. You've echo chambered the same thing to each other so many times you genuinely believe that its OK that you abused and caused someone to starve, be beaten, incredible physical and mental harm. You genuinely believe I deserve the permanent damage you caused because I sent too many text messages. https://jpst.it/4sGBS
Yes, I did awful things later and sent self harm photos, but that was only after so many months of neglect and abuse. I was confused and trying to reach out for help on the only way I could, but you left me on the street to die. You genuinely believe that a person isnt a person unless they are a part of your group. Im just a button to you people. You caused real damage and real harm, not just a disability, but do you know how fucked up it is that you lead me to believe i would get the trans healthcare, safety, love and support i had always dreamed of since i was fucking 4. Then, you took it all away because i wouldn't dump someone like you demanded. I dreamed of having my body changed for identity, and instead you put me in a situation you KNEW ABOUT and promised wouldnt happen IN WRITING. Just to uurt me. I sent you the first official court document of many. Read it.
Youre monsters. Youre evil. You literally gave me permanent brain damage out of malicious negligence and intent. I will never, ever give up on what's right. I will never, ever drop faith and hope. No matter how much you say im a psycho, that im a "mentally ill freak," that it "doesnt matter how much I plead and beg," and “that thing” "deserves this" for desperately trying to get help from the people who promised it to me, in writing. The only people I had.
You think what you did is "right." It isnt. It was an unbelievably cruel thing to do to someone you cared about, and burying your head in the sand doesnt make it go away. Yes I was mentally unstable. Yes i did awful things to desperately try and get attention. Have you ever considered that if someone is literally in the hospital, someone you LIVED WITH and LOVED, was pleading for attention, and hurt themselves when words didnt work; maybe fucking talk to them instead of making us resort to whatever this shit is.
I *did* get therapy and everything you said. I listened through and through and you only treat me worse and worse, and put intentions and shit in my mouth i never said, gossipping in your echo chamber about how insane i am. I dont care if im “insane” I had fucking dreams too?!? I wanted to be a dentist, but i can never achieve any such dream because of the disability YOU gave me. It doesnt allow me to even *hold* tools anymore. But, “I deserve it” because i asked for help, too many times. In a messed up way, yeah. In public like this to random people-yeah! But they were still very clear and direct cries for help, but you threw me onto the road instead, confused as fuck, mistreated and alone, with your intentional false promises to hurt me, and your lying and convincing each other this is something i “deserve”. Thats unbelievably cruel treatment to a human being. It just is. I'll never give up hope, and I will never stop fighting for what you destroyed. TLDR: Fuck you for what you did to me, bean. The physical injury claim has been mailed.
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people are of course free to feel how they want about things regarding isat and what parts of the story/characters/gameplay etc they like and dislike.. Hell i sure have things i dislike along with all my love for the game. but i feel like a lot of the grievances i've seen about the artbook are just taking something that's clearly a joke too seriously, in an extra content book that's just meant to show some behind the scenes and creators thoughts. Like komaeda's in this book ok lets chill out
#i dont think 'i forgive you kitten' is the hill to die on about mental health. Actually can i say skmething. Can i say something#I think it's fine and even interesting for the party to have views on siffrin post-loops that honestly aren't helpful or healthy#or what siffrin needs (And vice versa from siffrin's side too.!) of course they all love and care for eachother#in such a deep way that they are inseperable no matter their actual physical distance. but. theyre human and thats why isat's chara writing#is so beloved .. so its fine to explore the possibility of their skewed views of siffrin. Like in their view they woke up#On the day of the end of the world. And the silly funny kind of mysterious fella in their party is suddenly going crazy and also omniscient#And then they find out through a third party(yeowch) a General Jist of what's been going on#so at JUST the end of the game yes i think their view of the situation is going to be far removed from what actually happened#Until siffrin opens up about the severity of it. Or lack of if you're the guy who soeedrsn the game in 14 loops#Also its quite heavily wstablished that genuine empathy and emotional connection does NOT come easily to odile#and she's slightly condescending multiple times (character flaw otherwise(charm point. to me))#so really that seemsnlike a frustratingly Odile way to conceptualize it to me LMFAO#is it realistically a good way to view your dear family who just had a severe psychotic break because of the torture nexus NO.#but does that make it interesting from a character standpoint Well yes.#This kind of got away from me. I like odile :)#by 'things i dislike' in this post i mean that some of the dialogue grates on me heavily. Yes its the thmblr game and i respect that#Does not mean i have all of the tumblresque dialogue that often made me roll my eyes. However#it is forgiven in the way that some of it comes back around by changing with the loops and turning into something genuine#and character defining. best example is the nya bit. First time j was like uuuuhg fucking ok we get it he's a catboy made in the blorbo lab#And then it comes around as them getting jnsanely frustrated with the loops themselves the repetition their disability#which is a cinstant reminder to every reset going back to a strained relationship with bonnie. the loop where he hits the counter#And just sits to shut down in silence made me go Ok i forgive the nya bit. And then when they break the counter of course we all love it.#ACTUALLY that bit is a very Odile character moment too. When she genujnely offers for someone else to lead#But because of odiles past being slightly condescending(even as jokes) + siffrins own martyr complex he takes it as being seen as incapable#Sorry i love the messy intricacies i hope nobody fucking reads all this
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@oripoke_ @bo_beanies Youre monsters. You've echo chambered the same thing to each other so many times you genuinely believe that its OK that you abused and caused someone to starve, be beaten, incredible physical and mental harm. You genuinely believe I deserve the permanent damage you caused because I sent too many text messages. https://jpst.it/4sGBS
Yes, I did awful things later and sent self harm photos, but that was only after so many months of neglect and abuse. I was confused and trying to reach out for help on the only way I could, but you left me on the street to die. You genuinely believe that a person isnt a person unless they are a part of your group. Im just a button to you people. You caused real damage and real harm, not just a disability, but do you know how fucked up it is that you lead me to believe i would get the trans healthcare, safety, love and support i had always dreamed of since i was fucking 4. Then, you took it all away because i wouldn't dump someone like you demanded. I dreamed of having my body changed for identity, and instead you put me in a situation you KNEW ABOUT and promised wouldnt happen IN WRITING. Just to uurt me. I sent you the first official court document of many. Read it.
Youre monsters. Youre evil. You literally gave me permanent brain damage out of malicious negligence and intent. I will never, ever give up on what's right. I will never, ever drop faith and hope. No matter how much you say im a psycho, that im a "mentally ill freak," that it "doesnt matter how much I plead and beg," and “that thing” "deserves this" for desperately trying to get help from the people who promised it to me, in writing. The only people I had.
You think what you did is "right." It isnt. It was an unbelievably cruel thing to do to someone you cared about, and burying your head in the sand doesnt make it go away. Yes I was mentally unstable. Yes i did awful things to desperately try and get attention. Have you ever considered that if someone is literally in the hospital, someone you LIVED WITH and LOVED, was pleading for attention, and hurt themselves when words didnt work; maybe fucking talk to them instead of making us resort to whatever this shit is.
I *did* get therapy and everything you said. I listened through and through and you only treat me worse and worse, and put intentions and shit in my mouth i never said, gossipping in your echo chamber about how insane i am. I dont care if im “insane” I had fucking dreams too?!? I wanted to be a dentist, but i can never achieve any such dream because of the disability YOU gave me. It doesnt allow me to even *hold* tools anymore. But, “I deserve it” because i asked for help, too many times. In a messed up way, yeah. In public like this to random people-yeah! But they were still very clear and direct cries for help, but you threw me onto the road instead, confused as fuck, mistreated and alone, with your intentional false promises to hurt me, and your lying and convincing each other this is something i “deserve”. Thats unbelievably cruel treatment to a human being. It just is. I'll never give up hope, and I will never stop fighting for what you destroyed. TLDR: Fuck you for what you did to me, bean. The physical injury claim has been mailed.

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for these past couple of days since the news came out i've been thinking and there are quite a few things that mean the world to me - shadowhunters, teen wolf, DC shows (supergirl, the flash, the legends of tomorrow, arrow), the maze runner - mainly because they're such a huge part of my entire childhood and middle school life that i'm still so nostalgic about.
HOWEVER, one direction has always been a lot more special than the others, simply because my entire fangirl life started with and because of them yk?? the very first fanfiction i read was one direction one, the very first fanfiction i wrote myself was one direction one, the reason why i created my very first twitter fan account (which then led me to finding quite a lot important people in my life later on, including my best friend) back in 2020 account was because of one direction. basically everything you need to do at first to consider yourself a fangirl, in my experience, was because of one direction. and they, all five of them, have meant and always will mean a lot to me.
#and sure i know that maybe he wasn't that good of a human being#but he still was one ykwim??#maybe i'm looking at this entire situation from a too religious point of view#and a point of view of a someone who witnessed last year what it's like for a mother to find out that her son is gone#and how sudden and horrible death can be#so sure i didn't know him personally but that doesn't change the fact that he was a huge part of my childhood along with other four#AND that he was still someone's son and a brother and a friend and a father#so making idiotic comments and stupid jokes about a real person's death is insensitive as FUCK#anyways idk where this rant came from but idk#ever since the last year and all that death & grief my own family went through#i tend to look at someone losing a loved one from my own perspective and how horrible it was to go through it myself#and sometimes i get a feeling that social media has caused people to lose the feeling of sympathy towards other human beings#AND ESPECIALLY towards a family that just lost its member#crys' rambling#one direction
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@oripoke_ @bo_beanies Youre monsters. You've echo chambered the same thing to each other so many times you genuinely believe that its OK that you abused and caused someone to starve, be beaten, incredible physical and mental harm. You genuinely believe I deserve the permanent damage you caused because I sent too many text messages. https://jpst.it/4sGBS
Yes, I did awful things later and sent self harm photos, but that was only after so many months of neglect and abuse. I was confused and trying to reach out for help on the only way I could, but you left me on the street to die. You genuinely believe that a person isnt a person unless they are a part of your group. Im just a button to you people. You caused real damage and real harm, not just a disability, but do you know how fucked up it is that you lead me to believe i would get the trans healthcare, safety, love and support i had always dreamed of since i was fucking 4. Then, you took it all away because i wouldn't dump someone like you demanded. I dreamed of having my body changed for identity, and instead you put me in a situation you KNEW ABOUT and promised wouldnt happen IN WRITING. Just to uurt me. I sent you the first official court document of many. Read it.
Youre monsters. Youre evil. You literally gave me permanent brain damage out of malicious negligence and intent. I will never, ever give up on what's right. I will never, ever drop faith and hope. No matter how much you say im a psycho, that im a "mentally ill freak," that it "doesnt matter how much I plead and beg," and “that thing” "deserves this" for desperately trying to get help from the people who promised it to me, in writing. The only people I had.
You think what you did is "right." It isnt. It was an unbelievably cruel thing to do to someone you cared about, and burying your head in the sand doesnt make it go away. Yes I was mentally unstable. Yes i did awful things to desperately try and get attention. Have you ever considered that if someone is literally in the hospital, someone you LIVED WITH and LOVED, was pleading for attention, and hurt themselves when words didnt work; maybe fucking talk to them instead of making us resort to whatever this shit is.
I *did* get therapy and everything you said. I listened through and through and you only treat me worse and worse, and put intentions and shit in my mouth i never said, gossipping in your echo chamber about how insane i am. I dont care if im “insane” I had fucking dreams too?!? I wanted to be a dentist, but i can never achieve any such dream because of the disability YOU gave me. It doesnt allow me to even *hold* tools anymore. But, “I deserve it” because i asked for help, too many times. In a messed up way, yeah. In public like this to random people-yeah! But they were still very clear and direct cries for help, but you threw me onto the road instead, confused as fuck, mistreated and alone, with your intentional false promises to hurt me, and your lying and convincing each other this is something i “deserve”. Thats unbelievably cruel treatment to a human being. It just is. I'll never give up hope, and I will never stop fighting for what you destroyed. TLDR: Fuck you for what you did to me, bean. The physical injury claim has been mailed.
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having swap au thoughts. *slaps roof of claus* there's so much mental illness in this guy. im gonna blow up everyone in the room and then myself
#what if you felt unbearable guilt because your brother went missing in the two seconds you were separated#and you feel like there mustve been Something you couldve done to prevent it#if only you had stuck together. if only you hadnt let him tag along on your basically-a-suicide-mission in the first place#but none of those things happened so you go through three years blaming yourself#continuing to search for him because maybe hes still out there. and maybe exhausting yourself on an aimless search is a way you can atone#and then you're pulled into this big destiny adventure so your searching is put on the back burner#you're so busy doing important things and meeting new friends and there are points in your adventure where your heart feels lighter#and maybe you open up just a little about the crushing guilt you feel. and your new friends say it wasnt your fault#maybe you start accepting that your brother is really gone but you have to keep living your life#saving your brother was a far out dream but saving the world is something you have the power to do#so you try your best. so you dont fuck up this time#your guilt becomes the fuel keeping you going#and then at the end of your journey#you find out one of the biggest obstacles on your journey#the human chimera that you felt kinda horrified at and a little bad for even as you fought them#is your brother you've been mourning and agonizing over not being able to save#so um. The Guilt is even worse now#now he doesnt just feel responsible for his death. he Now feels responsible for him becoming this Creature Thing under porkys control#and in a lucas dies scenario. hoogh i cant imagine how claus would feel after that.......#however the thing that spurred this post was thinking about the lucas lives postgame scenario (it just got a bit out of hand lol) so.#your brother is alive and back home again and youre so unbelievably glad#but the guilt still creeps up every time you see how much hes Changed. physically and mentally#you had just started to accept the fact youd have to live without your brother but somehow having him back is almost just as painful#things cant just go back to how they were before. youll never be the exact same happy family as you used to be#its strange adjusting to having lucas back and its strange trying not to step on each others toes with their trauma#you cant help but be clingy because you couldnt bear it if he disappeared again under your watch#but nobody wants to be watched all the time especially when youre recovering from your brainwashed identity as an army commander#FUCK I REACHED THE TAG LIMIT I WANTED TO RAMBLE MORE AUGH. THEY MAKE ME SO ILL. i swear its not all angst theres some lightheartedness in it#mother 3 swap au#mothfics
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Old Flesh + The Parliament is conservatism.
I said what I said and I’m not taking it back.
#awful hospital#text post#shitpost#okay but—#a group of people who want everything to go back to the way it was and try to kill (literally) and erase any chance#I have to believe it was intentional#Jay is a truly wonderfully written and despicable villain because not only is he literally evil through killing and verbal abuse#he’s FIGURATIVELY EVIL in the CONTEXT OF THE THEMING because he SEES and is FULLY AWARE OF the injustices of the Hospital and its treatment#but instead of mobilizing that rage he has to make a change he says fuck it there’s nothing I can do and feeds into that corruption +#actively perpetuates it for his own gain and purposes#HE is a BIG PART of why the Hospital is failing by killing patients#it’s not just apathy it’s weaponized spite for all the wrong reasons#he’s an oppressed minority (a human in the Hospital) who grifts off all the fear and uncertainty#to get what he wants#crash is an apathetic and centrist youth who was radicalized by Fern showing him change could be made#but it was already too late#he felt isolated by all the people in change being blind to injustice and that led him to become being disillusioned#Jay and crash show that while being apathetic and refusing to take a stance even when you see injustice isn’t seen as causing as much#direct physical harm as grifting off misfortune it’s still equally as damaging#crash says I can’t fix it so I won’t do anything#while jay says I can’t fix it so who cares if I make it worse as long as I’m getting mine#I should at least get something from this since I’m suffering from it right?#but they ARE also very much sides of the same coin in a more direct way because they both make people suffer for their own gain#crash is doing it for a sense of petty amusement and Jay is doing it because he needs to have control#and power over SOMETHING by putting others down even if he’s also#doing it for amusement#he’s scared and pathetic which has made a control freak#again jay is a fucking minority grifter who asserts power over those who are also less#fortunate to affirm to himself that he’s one of the good and superior ones#crash just wants to have fun and make the best of it even if that’s at the expense of others
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@oripoke_ @bo_beanies Youre monsters. You've echo chambered the same thing to each other so many times you genuinely believe that its OK that you abused and caused someone to starve, be beaten, incredible physical and mental harm. You genuinely believe I deserve the permanent damage you caused because I sent too many text messages. https://jpst.it/4sGBS
Yes, I did awful things later and sent self harm photos, but that was only after so many months of neglect and abuse. I was confused and trying to reach out for help on the only way I could, but you left me on the street to die. You genuinely believe that a person isnt a person unless they are a part of your group. Im just a button to you people. You caused real damage and real harm, not just a disability, but do you know how fucked up it is that you lead me to believe i would get the trans healthcare, safety, love and support i had always dreamed of since i was fucking 4. Then, you took it all away because i wouldn't dump someone like you demanded. I dreamed of having my body changed for identity, and instead you put me in a situation you KNEW ABOUT and promised wouldnt happen IN WRITING. Just to uurt me. I sent you the first official court document of many. Read it.
Youre monsters. Youre evil. You literally gave me permanent brain damage out of malicious negligence and intent. I will never, ever give up on what's right. I will never, ever drop faith and hope. No matter how much you say im a psycho, that im a "mentally ill freak," that it "doesnt matter how much I plead and beg," and “that thing” "deserves this" for desperately trying to get help from the people who promised it to me, in writing. The only people I had.
You think what you did is "right." It isnt. It was an unbelievably cruel thing to do to someone you cared about, and burying your head in the sand doesnt make it go away. Yes I was mentally unstable. Yes i did awful things to desperately try and get attention. Have you ever considered that if someone is literally in the hospital, someone you LIVED WITH and LOVED, was pleading for attention, and hurt themselves when words didnt work; maybe fucking talk to them instead of making us resort to whatever this shit is.
I *did* get therapy and everything you said. I listened through and through and you only treat me worse and worse, and put intentions and shit in my mouth i never said, gossipping in your echo chamber about how insane i am. I dont care if im “insane” I had fucking dreams too?!? I wanted to be a dentist, but i can never achieve any such dream because of the disability YOU gave me. It doesnt allow me to even *hold* tools anymore. But, “I deserve it” because i asked for help, too many times. In a messed up way, yeah. In public like this to random people-yeah! But they were still very clear and direct cries for help, but you threw me onto the road instead, confused as fuck, mistreated and alone, with your intentional false promises to hurt me, and your lying and convincing each other this is something i “deserve”. Thats unbelievably cruel treatment to a human being. It just is. I'll never give up hope, and I will never stop fighting for what you destroyed. TLDR: Fuck you for what you did to me, bean. The physical injury claim has been mailed.
I just saw someone say "there is no ethical consumption under capitalism" as an argument for boycotting AO3
Babe AO3 is a nonprofit. They do not exist under the ethics of capitalism. Fanfiction is legal because no money is ever exchanged around it. (All the money given to AO3 is used to maintain their servers and pay their lawyers to help keep fanfiction legal.)
Fanfiction is one of the few things in this world - probably the one singular form of entertainment that does not exist within the confines of capitalism. So by your own logic, even if you hate some of the content on AO3, it's inherently the only ethical thing to consume in the whole world.
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@oripoke_ @bo_beanies Youre monsters. You've echo chambered the same thing to each other so many times you genuinely believe that its OK that you abused and caused someone to starve, be beaten, incredible physical and mental harm. You genuinely believe I deserve the permanent damage you caused because I sent too many text messages. https://jpst.it/4sGBS
Yes, I did awful things later and sent self harm photos, but that was only after so many months of neglect and abuse. I was confused and trying to reach out for help on the only way I could, but you left me on the street to die. You genuinely believe that a person isnt a person unless they are a part of your group. Im just a button to you people. You caused real damage and real harm, not just a disability, but do you know how fucked up it is that you lead me to believe i would get the trans healthcare, safety, love and support i had always dreamed of since i was fucking 4. Then, you took it all away because i wouldn't dump someone like you demanded. I dreamed of having my body changed for identity, and instead you put me in a situation you KNEW ABOUT and promised wouldnt happen IN WRITING. Just to uurt me. I sent you the first official court document of many. Read it.
Youre monsters. Youre evil. You literally gave me permanent brain damage out of malicious negligence and intent. I will never, ever give up on what's right. I will never, ever drop faith and hope. No matter how much you say im a psycho, that im a "mentally ill freak," that it "doesnt matter how much I plead and beg," and “that thing” "deserves this" for desperately trying to get help from the people who promised it to me, in writing. The only people I had.
You think what you did is "right." It isnt. It was an unbelievably cruel thing to do to someone you cared about, and burying your head in the sand doesnt make it go away. Yes I was mentally unstable. Yes i did awful things to desperately try and get attention. Have you ever considered that if someone is literally in the hospital, someone you LIVED WITH and LOVED, was pleading for attention, and hurt themselves when words didnt work; maybe fucking talk to them instead of making us resort to whatever this shit is.
I *did* get therapy and everything you said. I listened through and through and you only treat me worse and worse, and put intentions and shit in my mouth i never said, gossipping in your echo chamber about how insane i am. I dont care if im “insane” I had fucking dreams too?!? I wanted to be a dentist, but i can never achieve any such dream because of the disability YOU gave me. It doesnt allow me to even *hold* tools anymore. But, “I deserve it” because i asked for help, too many times. In a messed up way, yeah. In public like this to random people-yeah! But they were still very clear and direct cries for help, but you threw me onto the road instead, confused as fuck, mistreated and alone, with your intentional false promises to hurt me, and your lying and convincing each other this is something i “deserve”. Thats unbelievably cruel treatment to a human being. It just is. I'll never give up hope, and I will never stop fighting for what you destroyed. TLDR: Fuck you for what you did to me, bean. The physical injury claim has been mailed.


Lantanas in the afternoon.
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7:30am and im sick and mildly irritated at facebook reels
#hate those types of videos of people just being like#holier than thou cause the rescued an animal and can spend 1000s of dollars#on its daily medical sq shots and medicine#and its just like...#that cat was already 16 when it was forfeited to a vet for euthanasia thats a pretty good cat life#you dont get to feel superior to the previous owners for taking care of it#for an additional 3 years#on top of that you knew that the prev owners were going through a divorce??#and still felt holier than thou???#makes me wonder how those types of people treat the humans around them#if thats the level of sympathy you can have for a couple partaking#in a huge traumatic life change on top of giving up their beloved old cat
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the agony of enjoying MULTIPLE THINGS AT ONCE. How do people do it….
#part of me is like. ok is it actually the best move to just have separate sideblogs for every interest#cause I always feel weird and insecure abt being a multifandom blog. For some reason#I’m like aaa I’ll annoy people if I post things they’re not interested in! :( they’ll be disappointed in or frustrated in me!#and then the evil (read:normal) Kermit side of me is like girl it’s not that serious#you are not important enough for ppl to be worked up about your blogging habits lmao#if they’re annoyed they unfollow. swell. neato.#u can trust people to curate their own online experience. It’s not your job to post what they want you just do what you want. on ur own blog#do u follow#Sméagol me: yes ma’am#(I mentally switched to gollum instead of Kermit btw)#gollum me: it’s normal to like more than one thing. good even. and you will go through phases anyway#that’s life silly. You’ll have different moods at different times. and maybe completely different interests in the future#are you gonna make a new blog every time you enjoy something.#your interest are fluid but your identity is rooted in something beyond them. Right#you can just be a person who’s always changing but is also essentially the same. that’s humanity hun. do you understand#Sméagol me: yes#gollum: good#Sméagol: but also what if it’s hard to be friends with someone who has 3–4 interests#gollum: good grief
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I should say, what I'm writing here is nothing against the writer at all. I actually don't want to get into any drama really, but I'm naively just voicing a thought I had for a long while, which can go beyond: "wtf is this".
And I get it's a contagious mindset that is circulating for ages surely, so the writer is just replicating what is sub-culturally accepted.
I used to read a lot of porn like this in the past, which particularly mingled with past sexual boundary crossings I've lived through in childhood and because in a way it kinda consoled me that humans might not be monsters, but maybe simply stupid enough to take some mental porn and losing a sense of reality, wanting to believe that their lack of emotional attunement is helping someone else as well. But then again the phrase "ruin you" is being highlighted and it switches something in the brain which is supposed to get you off. But wtf. Wtf!!!! How is it hot to make someone feel out of control - just because oneself is out of control? Because one cannot handle someone else having it more together than oneself? In a poor attempt to establish connection by getting the other in an equally imbalanced nervous system state as oneself?
C'mon! Snap the hell out of this! It's sick!
And I don't mean that in a condescending way. I've contributed myself by reading and liking such shit. And I surely have contributed to replicating ideas and pictures that are equally and differently harmful on many other parameters, which I have to reflect on and change. So yeh, don't judge when you're part of the problem, but I still feel like I want to voice this out.
Because as I am healing a bit more I'm just astonished why there is no discussion around how wildly fucked up these ideas are that are so present on tumblr and elsewhere.
One of the hottest things might be when a girl gets so overwhelmed she starts tearing up.
You keep whining and begging it’s too much, that you can’t do it anymore. It’s too sensitive, you’re too sore. But I can get close to your ear and whisper in a condescending voice “Awhh..You can’t do it anymore? That’s so adorable. I know you have came, princess but I haven’t yet. So I just can’t stop now…I can’t..”
Your soft pussy getting tighter after your orgasm, held and kept in place while I’m behind you. Holding your arms on your back and pounding you just to hear the noises you make “I know it’s too much baby, I know, but get used to it. You’re doing so well, my angel turns me on so much when you’re this desperate for me”
Your legs getting weaker the closer you get again, with my hand reaching your clit and rubbing it. Feeling the wet mess you are between your legs. “Look what a wet mess you are, darling. You don’t want me to stop, do you? Be honest and tell me how much you need your cunt stretched. Aww..That’s my good girl..”
Kissing your neck as you’re about to cum, telling you to not hold back. All so you’re left with your legs shaking. But I don’t stop rubbing your clit, still thrusting inside you while trying to hit your special little spot. Ignoring your whining and screams as your sensitive clit gets stimulated.
All so I can see your precious little tears when you’re so stimulated you turn into a mess. Because we both know you’re so much prettier when you cry, baby. So much pretty when you’re acting like the pretty little whore you are. And the more you cry the more it makes me want to ruin you..
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