#the cloud behind them is one i painted while trying to follow a cloud tutorial. my clouds.. are not that good lol

[dazzelmethat]

various sketches and drafts and things. Uploading so I don't loose track of the sketches.

top two: oc Pierrot Ren, ocs Irises falling. Bottom two: oc immortal true form idea, Alice and Celia from Deemo fanart.

[borkthemork]

Comfort - Kaiju AU Fanfic

Summary: Connie wanted a moment to study at the Temple, and found a friend to pass the time.

Fanfic based off @reverse-monster-buddies!

Word Count: 2,696.

Reblogs are appreciated!

Ao3 Link

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Connie Maheswaran had work to do, a lot of it. It was the reason why she had counted her fingers on the bus, watched the horizon awaken through the windows, fog covering the corners of the panes. The morning was early, the skies painted in auburn amidst the blotched white clouds, and the silhouette of the town was prominent, the hallmark of it — the lighthouse on the massive green cliff — was a clear indicator that she was in the right place. The vehicle rumbled, shifting the backpack seated beside her a little. She had planned to stay in Beach City for a few hours. It felt weird to stay at home when the Maheswaran residence didn’t have anyone to occupy it except for her. Knowing her parents, they wouldn’t mind her being out and about on such a gorgeous day, welcomed by warm rays, beach sand between her toes, the secrets of this specific town hers and hers alone.

The rolled landscape from the glass started to slow down, and with it, Connie grabbed her backpack. The engine rumbled to a stutter as the town grew closer until, finally, they halted at the familiar stop.

The bus driver looked at her from his seat. He had a groomed mustache, hair grayed at the scalp, potbelly noticeable even with how far she was from the front. “Typical stop right, little lady?”

“Yep, right here.”

He nodded. Hisss went the door as it flung itself open. She stood up, grabbing her backpack before she forgot about it.

“Stay safe. Don’t want your parents to worry about ya’.”

“I’ll be careful, thank you, Mister Moriarty!”

He gave her a warm smile. “No problem Connie, have a great day.”

When Connie touched the ground she watched the bus drive off, seeing it recede into the size of a pinprick with the growing distance, and then into nothing when the first hillock swallowed its shape. Her eyes started to follow the horizon. She kneeled down to rummage through her belongings. Her laptop was nestled alongside the tied cables, a few thin textbooks bunched in with an Unfamiliar Familiar book. Everything looked to be in order, not a single item out of place. Connie zipped it back up. It was going to be a long day.

Connie made her way to Beach City. She held tightly to her backpack straps, not wanting to let go of the study materials inside. The buildings were covered in waking shadows, the streetlights beginning to flicker off with the rise of the sun. Connie didn’t have many friends in this town. She had always remained reclusive during her study sessions, where she read her books on the shores away from the bustling boardwalk or the shops nearby, hoping to be invisible from many who would possibly judge her or ask her questions. Lately, she had found herself leaning towards more secretive locations, away from the prying eyes of teenagers and adults, and she strode her way to the cliffside, following the crags that lined the beach.

There was the chain-link fence that lined from the ocean to the growing cliff face. On it were two signs, the typical ‘Keep Off Beach’ one would find authorized by police and the peculiar wooden plank with ‘Please’ written in thick black paint. She lugged her backpack over the fence and started to climb. Hidden below the lighthouse, away from the prying eyes of the Beach City residences, there was an opening into the cliffside. The entrance was bordered by delicate stone hands of a statued goddess, eyes void as it surveyed the ocean nearby. Crystals jutted from the rocks, a crystalline warp pad at the center of all this, the door encrusted with a bold yellow star — each gem on the tips of it signifying higher deities that humanity was probably not ready to behold. And somehow these beings, with more technological and physical advancement than the human race, allowed her into their ranks, to relax in their residence as if she was a hearty neighbor.

Connie spotted a few figures at one of the warp steps. A green gem with tufts of white hair was playing around with a twig in her hand. She noted the bundle of purple that wriggled and spun around the Crystal Gem with a yip. Spikes flowed down its back and head, eyes purple in a sea of inky black as it played around, following the direction of the gem’s hand.

“You want it, girl?” The gem cooed and watched the pup bark in glee, wagging its tail furiously. “You want to beat this poor stick up?”

An enthusiastic bark.

“Then here you go!”

She threw the stick out towards the beach, making eye-contact with Connie for a second while the beast sped past her. “Connie, hey!”

Connie walked over to them. “Hey, didn’t know I’d see you guys today.”

She noticed the purple creature come barreling back, its head whipping up at the sight of her. It dropped its stick and gave a joyous bark, bounding over to her without a moment's notice, licking her pant leg with the broad of its tongue.

Connie smiled and pet the corrupted gem’s head, feeling the critter’s scales at her fingertips. She knew who this was, no doubt about it. “Hey Kai, nice to see you!”

Kai nuzzled into her palm. She didn’t change one bit the last time Connie saw her — still happy and hyper as always.

“Connie, I didn’t expect you, at all,” Nephrite said. “Isn’t it six a.m. for you humans?”

“Were you expecting something more punctual?”

“A lil’.” Nephrite stood up from the steps and brushed the dirt off her jacket. For all Connie knew, Nephrite’s attire must’ve had a journey on its own from the scratches and loose ends from it; it wasn’t even hers, but something she found on her previous adventures. “But you’re Connie, you’re always going to surprise us somehow.”

She raised an eyebrow. “Like the time you found me reading behind the fence?”

“Yeah. You had a ‘follow the law’ aura goin’ on with you when I first found you. Didn’t expect to see you breaking one.”

“I wanted peace and quiet, so all I followed was my logic. The fence wasn’t even a certified one, so no law-breaking here.”

Nephrite snorted and ruffled her hair. “Attagirl.”

In their laughter, Connie peered at the cheeseburger backpack on Nephrite’s shoulders, noting how clunky and bulked it was. She raised an eyebrow. “Another mission?”

“A personal one,” she reassured. “Just need to check out something in The Great North.”

Connie went starry-eyed. “Oh! Like corrupted gem business?”

“Ehhh.” The gem shrugged. “Kinda. It’s dangerous though, Kai doesn’t like it when I go on this stuff without her.”

Kai whimpered in kind.

“See? Worries about me a lot. Been trying to get her to sleep or stay but she won’t budge.”

Connie smiled a little. With the current assignments she had, the idea of staying at the beach sounded better than being alone. Kai was like a puppy with the way she leaped at people and took comfort in the silence with them. Connie didn’t mind the idea of being next to her for a couple of hours. “I wouldn’t mind looking after her while you're gone.”

Nephrite’s fists tightened around her pack straps. “You’re serious?”

“Serious.”

She rubbed her chin for a second. “Alright then, I trust you. Kai’s food is in the fridge — just don’t feed her too many donuts or   a stomach ache.”

“Wait, I thought you guys didn’t like to eat?”

“Some do. Amethyst does.” Nephrite shrugged. “Kai too apparently.”

After a few goodbyes, Connie and Kai watched the form of Nephrite dissipate in a pillar of light before it all died down back to sunrise yellow. Kai whined at the base of the warp pad, clawing at the facets in wait. Connie sat down near the steps and propped the laptop onto her lap. She clicked her tongue as the computer started up, smiling over at the small gem, who had her head cocked towards her in curiosity.

“Come here, girl. You like head scratches, right?”

The whine transformed into a happy yip.

Connie giggled. “Then come here!”

The hour went by without a hitch. Connie found herself relaxed into a studious rhythm, fingers occupied to the scales of her companion, who crooned next to her as Kai faded in and out from her naps. Connie would’ve found it relaxing if it weren’t for the algebra that plagued her screen, and how no matter how much she used the calculator extension — which promised accurate results, which was a big fucking lie! — the input stopped her with a huge ‘INVALID ANSWER’ box with each impatient mouse click. At this point she might as well throw the tech at a wall; she would have had a higher probability of it surviving than the garbage algorithm doing its work correctly.

Connie halted at the pressure at her leg.

She looked over to find Kai awake, pawing at her pants with wide, gleaming eyes. “Hey girl, you okay?”

Kai gave her a small bark.

“Are you antsy? Anxious? What’s on your mind right now?”

The gem kept her eyes on her and continued to bark at her for a few seconds before settling her head at the dip of the girl’s lap. Connie smiled to herself. Must be excited, but she didn’t know for sure.

“I guess you’re hyper. Don’t worry, I won’t be leaving for a while. I’ve been…”

Connie grimaced at her laptop screen. Even with the online assignments, a great deal of them had been hard to peruse and handle. She wasn’t the type to ditch or procrastinate, but the current circumstances of home left her to toil with the current workload, internet help limited to only her, a few website tutorials, and the math textbook.

“...Dealing with a lot of things, so you’ll have me three hours tops.”

Kai whined.

“Aw, I’m sorry girl, but three hours should be enough.”

Kai whined more.

“Hmm.” Connie frowned. “Are you sad about me leaving or is it something else?”

A bark.

“Oh jeez uh. One bark for leaving and two barks for something else.”

Two barks.

Wow. That actually worked. Connie placed the laptop aside and gazed at the puppy in front of her, who cocked her head again. “You’re smart, so I’m going to find a way to talk to you. I want to know why you’re upset.”

Kai kept going though. She started to bark more at her and nestled her head into Connie’s lap with a whimper. Connie had no clue why she was upset. Or even why Kai continued to act like this. Was this even a sign of being upset or is there something else entirely that she was missing?

Connie straightened her back. Kai still rested her head, now wagging her tail at her, Connie hearing it thump against the ground with dull thuds.

“Bark three times if you understand what I’m saying.”

Three barks.

“Bark twice if you’re upset and bark once if you aren't."

A single bark.

“One bark if it concerns the gems and two barks if it concerns me.”

Two.

Connie bit her lip. “So you’re worried about me.” She said it more to herself than anything, but the pup still responded in kind with an elated yip.

“You think I’m upset?”

Kai gazed at her, and yet it was enough for Connie to realize what was happening. The gem can feel how tense she was even with the relaxing crash of the waves, how her mind was scrambled with thoughts and too occupied to even focus on one thing. Kai whined and pressed her snout to her leg.

Connie rubbed her arm. “Okay, so you do.” She smiled softly at Kai, rubbing the gem’s head a bit. “It’s just me being frustrated over homework. You’d think first semester would be a breeze but I had the honor to get the work-extensive teachers,  like, come on.”

She groaned, tensing up at how Kai whimpered next to her, swishing her tail more.

“What’s it like to be a corrupted gem, girl?”

A yip.

“I know you’re hyper all the time but it must be lonely from what Neph told me…”

Nephrite told Connie numerous times of corruption, of the bubbles detained and held in the core part of the Temple. She was never given a tour to the structure’s underbelly but Connie had heard of how frantic and scatter-minded prior gems became because of the war. Sensible warriors have worn down into flight-or-fight, and not one of them were able to be fixed and returned back to normal stasis. The idea of it made Connie’s skin crawl. If it was the same for the contained gems, then it must’ve been the same with Kai, who had proven to be smart like any other attentive being, but still brought to primal tendencies like a scared animal.

“It must be lonely to be in a world of strangers. It must be hard to even make friends.”

A confused yip.

The first time Nephrite told her of Kai, one detail stood out to her when it came to the way; the pup waddled around and growled at everything with incisors leaking of pink fluid, like the world was about to get her in any way she took. Nephrite spent hours trying to befriend and reassure the little creature that she was safe, and Connie couldn’t help but ponder how lonely Kai would’ve been if it weren’t for Nephrite’s compassion. If the gem didn't defend Kai against the remainder of the Crystal Gems then there was a huge chance they would've packed her back into a bubble, in a chamber that is full of her kind but yet so hollow and empty.

“You have freedom but you’re still trapped.”

Kai gazed at her, beady eyes taking in her face, at how she must’ve known how there was heat in corner of her eyes. Connie didn’t know why it was happening, all she knew was that she was thinking too much.

“And you’re limited no matter how much you try to make it better.”

She rubbed her eyes.

“I’m so sorry, this is getting to me. I’m supposed to be doing homework and here I am, crying about nothing.”

She hated crying. The feeling of it brought shame and left her disheveled in the aftermath every time, and it was hard to breathe when it happened. It struck hard even when she held her tongue and carried on, when she had a place to let go when her parents weren’t there to see her.

But the wet snout pressed to the base of her lap made her come back. Through the blur of her vision, Kai’s eyes were still fixed on her, big and round, a little yip building in her throat. Connie wiped the tears away. She was going to worry Kai too, and she didn’t want that.

“Sorry, I’m—”

What surprised her was the pressure that pounced on her and left her being tackled by the tiny gem, who was now licking at the excess salt, made her giggle at the onslaught against her face.

“Wait, haha stop!”

Another excited yip.

Kai lapped at her face, laughter filling the air as she endured the slobber on her nose. She felt lighter, a weight off her when the creature took great care at her tears. She’s going to have to get cleaned up later, but that’s okay. She needed a moment to breathe, to get away from the stress of daily life and the loneliness that accompanied it. Kai knew this, sensed it on her person, and took care to make her smile as a result.

When they settled down, Connie gave the creature a small boop on the muzzle. "I love you, Kai."

Kai responded like kind, pressing their snout to hers.

Connie embraced her in a tight hug and placed a kiss onto the gem's tiny forehead, the other licking her affectionately. Maybe...maybe it’s okay to not work on homework for a while. She needed a break.

[nagarnia]

How to make galaxies in Photoshop

Hello! After making my latest Charinina fan art, I wonder if I could make a tutorial of how to paint galaxies in Photoshop!! I want to help many that want to paint this! I will explain things for a beginners! After practicing this tutorial, you’ll be able to make galaxies in less than a hour! Before we get started, please excuse me of my bad English (^^;)

In this tutorial, I am going to use my custom brushes, cloud brush and star brush. These picture will show you how to make them:

Lets start with a line. Think where you want to put the galaxy and how it curves. The red line represents the cloudy parts of the galaxy and the black line represents the middle, the empty part of the galaxy. 

 After that, lets put a background on a separate layer. (the line layer should be on top of the background layer.) When you filled the background with dark color, pick another color that is slightly brighter. Use the airbrush to make a gradient in the middle. 

Before you pick a color for the background, I prefer not to pick black. Choose something that is similar to black. It will make the picture interesting and realistic. 

Make a new layer above the line layer. Pick a brighter color (the color do not matter in this one). Use the cloud brush to follow the red line. When you are doing this, try to make the clouds uneven. As you can see in this one, the edges are more scattered, the middle is more detailed. Try to think where is the focal point. 

Minimize your cloud brush to put more details in the middle. When you do this, think like you are drawing a river, the patterns should not be a strait line but curved and bouncy. After you think you finished, you can rid of the line layer. 

Make a layer above. Use a Hard Round brush to scatter some light form the galaxy. Make sure your brush has the transfer setting. The way to do this, use eyedropper tool to mimic the color from the clouds. After you are done, merge this layer to the cloud layer underneath. 

(I apologize that i used my own brush in this one, however, the hard round brush also works similarly so please use that brush) 

This is where the fun part comes! Create a layer above the cloud layer. Clip the layer by moving your mouse between those layer and hold Alt. You can see this dango shaped snowman and click it so the layer above is clipped.  The bottom most layer, or base layer, defines the visible boundaries of the entire group. 

After this, use this layer to color the galaxy. Colors are optional but do not be overboard. I use my cloud brush to color it but you can use others. The key to color this is to use bright color in the middle but darker outside. (You can use eye dropper tool to make it blend to each other..)

In the same layer, use a white-ish color to paint the middle edges.

(this is optional but after this, i fixed some things and added some detail) 

Create a layer above. Use soft brush to light up the corner of this galaxy. 

After finished, lets add some stars. Create a new layer above. This will be the first stars layer. Use the stars brush to put stars. Make sure the color is not completely white but close to white. Remember, the cloudest part of the galaxy has the most stars. The more empty, it has less stars. 

Do not put too much of them yet, we are going to put two more layers of stars. 

Put this layer in overlay. 

This will make the stars blend to the colors behind them.

Create another layer above and do the same as before, except this layer will stay normal. You can use white color for the stars that is close to you. It will give you more realistic and depth to it. 

This is optional. you can put a light effect for some of the stars. Hold shift to draw a strait line. 

This is also an optional. After finished, save your art and save as JPG. Open that pic and use curve tool to adjust colors. (image -> adjustment -> curves)

Well there you go!! that will be it. I hope anyone who followed it understand and had a great time. 

This, of course, need practice to understand the concepts. I will prefer using a references while practicing to understand how galaxies looks like in real life. 

Thank you for reading! I hope you guys enjoyed!!! :)

[sandersspectrum]

Growing Up - Episode Commentary

This one hurts, man, it’s the first time we really see Logan get out of hand, having to see Morality trampled on a little bit... 

This episode gives me another idea for an analysis and it’s that Anxiety is so much more comfortable and happy being an antagonist. He enjoys being combative, and once the others begin to listen and accept him, he gets shy. But there’s a really good reason for that and it makes a lot of sense and now all I want to do is analyze it ghjkl;’

Logan is always pushing Thomas. Pushing him to be more efficient, more healthy, better. Roman dreams big but he’s ultimately willing to compromise because he acknowledges that he’s there to fulfill Thomas’s desires, and if Thomas doesn’t want to be a movie star, Roman doesn’t either. However, Logan always strives for more, at the cost of Thomas’s happiness and his mental health. A+

I love the 5 AM exchange because it proves that Anxiety really is scraping the bottom of the dark and spooky barrel and he sometimes knows very little about the things he jumps to scare Thomas with. A babe

EYYY second occurence of a flare up in Logan’s temper in two episodes~. Listen, you guys, I really think they’re gonna have to deal with it eventually. 

.... nah listen Joan I would dream of hitting my friends with a car too 

INTERESTING. When Thomas leans into what Logan is saying, his temper flares up and he lashes out at Morality. I really do think Logan is the holder, or the dark side that ends up corresponding to him is, of anger, and he uses Deceit to repress it because anger is a “lower” emotion that clouds judgement and has no worth in his mind. 

While Logan and Roman are tearing Morality’s contributions as needlessly silly and ridiculous down, there’s a shot of Anxiety looking between the two of them... Virgil is uncomfortable silencing Morality. 

In fact, Virgil seems much more sober about the change, most likely because changing anything about Thomas would be a major upset to Anxiety. Even though he acknowledges Thomas needs change, the instant it becomes too drastic, Virgil starts to get uncomfortable. He’s a meter to test whether one side is being listened to too much sometimes.

Virge, babe, I love you but you don’t fight The Man. You’ve never fought The Man in your life. The Man gives you a look and you hide under the covers for two days. 

They do have the same face but they don’t have the same confidence. Logan wears it better because it fits who Logan is. Thomas, however, is unconfident in what he wears, and therefore, it doesn’t fit him the same as Logan. 

“When I have everything I want, then we’ll be happy” is a very bad mindset to have. Sure, the future is great to look forward to, and achieving new things is good too, but no matter where you are in life, you’re still you, and you have to be you while you try and achieve all those things. If you’re not happy now, you will be Not Happy for a long time until maybe one day you achieve a set level of fame or fortune and you’re still going to be you then.

Good on Logan for being able to recognize that Thomas isn’t happy and therefore his situation Was Not Correct, and seeking outside influences.

And good on Morality for not immediately jumping on Logan and accusing him of “ruining” Thomas. He leads with “I think you think this is the right thing”, which is an attitude he’s later able to extend to Anxiety. He knows the Other Sides just Do Their Jobs, and sometimes they get out of hand, but that they don’t want to hurt Thomas. 

Unsympathetic!Patton concept: If they got out of hand and he didn’t believe that what they thought they were doing was right, they would’ve been banished by now, like Remus. Remus’s entire existence was having creative thoughts that Morality immediately questioned if A Good Person Like Thomas could have them and then banishing him. Id he thought Logan cutting him out and making Thomas care less about his friends was Logan’s intention, Logan wouldn’t be A Light Side still. 

Anxiety not liking to work hard is... almost sad, because it means that he doesn’t value the work he does and considers the less he contributes to be better for Thomas. At this point, he considers “if Thomas isn’t anxious, that’s good, so the less hard I work, the better it is for him”. 

I do love the mind palace... But I’m almost glad it didn’t stay? I feel like it would’ve been a bit harder to follow the flow and make the characters feel more solid if they aren’t in physical locations.

HOWEVER... The lighting in the mind palace is much better, I love the decorations behind Thomas (shout out to the Guys Gals and Nonbinary pals NB Flag painting), and... Why is Anxiety’s corner so sparse... give him a spider web or SOMETHING 

 I’d watch a Patton Cake tutorial. 

Patton tricking Anxiety into “doing what he asked” when “doing what he asked” is “just stand there and look cute” WE STAN