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Hi, I'm...actually not dead. I just kinda crashed. some stuff happened irl and then I just. didn't come back to this blog. It sounds silly, but I get pretty perfectionist about things like this, so I guess I got overwhelmed because of that.
Thank you so much for all the nice asks asking if I’m alive and okay. That I am, and I’m really sorry for leaving you all hanging like that. Feel free to resend old requests or if you asked for a matchup, an ask confirming that the info you sent is still fine.
Some updates:
>I write for Reverse: 1999 now, as one of my main fandoms, in fact.
>I no longer write for Honkai Star Rail. Simply put, I’ve fallen way behind on the story, so I won’t know who any of these people are. If you like, you can still send in a request for it, but I might not do it.
>Other small changes to the fandom list.
ok thank you bye
#writing requests#matchups#requests open#x reader#there are also small changes i'm making to the rules and stuff#mainly that you can ask for a quick matchup where i'll just give you a character without a lengthy explanation#the wait will be a lot less but as i said it'll JUST be a character and maybe a few words#and the persona series is no longer one of my main fandoms#update#i know i said i'd try to answer everything but i was kind of ambitious about it..#luckily i have more time on my hands now but still
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[ID: Five digital drawings comparing the original crew of the Tulpar from Mouthwashing with their Anti-Tulpar versions. Each have lists of traits next to them.
First image is Curly. Regular curly is standing plainly and smiling off to the side. Anti-Curly is facing the viewer directly in a wide stance. He is wearing gloves, boots and spurs, and a hat, as well as a gun holster, and he has a cartoonish smile and "pie eyes".
Text reads:
Curly: laid back leader, prioritizes morale, friendly, non-violent, unsatisfied as captain.
Anti-Curly: follows policy closely, rules with an iron fist (+ spurs), hostile, cartoonishly violent (oops), being a captain is All He Has.
Second is Jimmy. Regular Jimmy is facing the viewer with a bored expression. Anti-Jimmy is smiling, slightly hunched in and waving with one foot raised. He's wearing soda jewelry, his clothes have green and pink patches, his hair is dyed and in a ponytail, and he has slash scars across his face and is missing his middle finger.
Text reads:
Jimmy: Plain, not very expressive, deeply insecure, quiet, silver-tongued, short-sighted, doesn't consider consequences.
Anti-Jimmy: Expressive + accessorizes, secure in his identity, Loud, struggles in conversation, overthinker + hates to cause harm.
Third is Anya. Regular Anya smiles softly with one hand over her chest. Anti-Anya glares at the viewer, slouching with one hand on her hip. She has glasses, a ponytail, a black turtleneck, and is wearing crocs.
Text reads:
Anya: Tries to see the best in people, Fawn response, Stubborn and hardworking, Cares about health and safety, kind.
Anti-Anya: cynical, fight response, gives up easily, careless, cruel.
Fourth is Daisuke. Regular Daisuke has one hand in his pocket, the other waving as he smiles. Anti-Daisuke is partially hunched with his hands clasped anxiously. His hair is plain and he's wearing a burgundy cardigan and white vans.
Text reads:
Daisuke: Outgoing, Directionless, Helpful, Yapper, People Pleaser.
Anti-Daisuke: Reserved, Driven, Doesn't like being asked to help, hates small talk, spiteful.
Last is Swansea. Regular Swansea is frowning to the side with his hands on his hips. Anti-Swansea smiles with a hand behind his head. He's wearing suspenders, work boots, has leather patches on his knees, and rosy cheeks.
Text reads:
Swansea: Just keeps saying shit, teaches through his experience, rough around the edges, knows he's not a good person, gets groovy when drunk.
Anti-Swansea: man of few words, "fuck around and find out" teaching style, sweet exterior, thinks he's a good person, gets wallowy when drunk.
end ID]
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THE ANTI-TULPAR CREW ARRIVES!! hopefully they were worth the wait uwu
idk exactly how most other anti-aus work, but to gather my general thoughts together, basically i'm flipping several Core Traits (the lists in the pics are by no means comprehensive, just enough to get a vibe) to flip their personalities. this ends up flipping their dynamics quite a bit as well, ofc. anti-curly is a very.... Dramatic antagonist. the setting, however, stays the same. i'm not flipping pony express or anything like that, it wouldn't be as interesting to me to change Everything. i mostly made this au to play around with character designs and swapped dynamics and stuff and to see how things would go if the people were different while their circumstances aren't.
also. it turns out when you take a generally shitty person and make someone who is the Opposite of those things, you get someone generally pretty pleasant.
So Expect More Anti-Jimmy AJSHDADJHKASJHKD
#fg's art#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#anti-tulpar au#curly mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing#anya mouthwashing#daisuke mouthwashing#swansea mouthwashing#anti-curly#anti-jimmy#anti-anya#anti-daisuke#anti-swansea#hopefully that id isn't too verbose and is still easy to parse#and ofc i haven't developed daisuke or swansea nearly as much as our dear disaster trio unfortunately umu#trying not to neglect them too hard#but to get a grasp on the Opposite version of them i have to get a grasp on. them. normally. and i haven't quite done that yet asjhdadjh#anywa ENJOY!! i hope <3 you like them <3
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📌 what helps (no context necessary) 📌
Everyone asks “how do you stay on track” — here’s how. Take what fits. Ignore the rest.
1. Delay the decision.
Set a 30-minute timer. If it still matters after, fine. But most things don’t survive the wait.
2. Log everything.
You forget less when it’s in writing. Numbers > feelings.
3. Use small utensils.
Takes longer. Feels like more. Slows everything down.
4. Ice water. Always.
Cold = alert. Also makes the other thoughts quieter.
5. Mint > sugar.
If you want something sweet, go sharp instead. Gum, tea, oil, whatever.
6. Clean first.
Before anything else, tidy. It helps recalibrate.
7. Stand when you can.
Passive movement still counts. Don’t sit unless you’re earning it.
8. Plan out loud.
Even if no one’s there, narrate the plan. Hearing it makes it real.
9. Brush your teeth.
Twice minimum. It resets the mouth. You’ll want less.
10. Delay “first intake” as long as possible.
Once it starts, it gets harder to stop.
11. Track progress obsessively.
Whatever method works. Spreadsheets, apps, photos, stickers, scratches on the wall. Doesn’t matter.
12. Black coffee is a tool.
Bitter, hot, zero. Enough said.
13. Cut things small.
Visually it tricks the brain. Looks like more. Feels like less commitment.
14. Repetition = safety.
Same meals. Same outfits. Same schedule. Predictability keeps you in control.
15. Stay cold.
Blankets are earned. Heat is a reward.
16. Pick a uniform.
Avoid mirrors, avoid choices. Choose once, then stop choosing.
17. Never eat directly from packaging.
It’s chaos. Use a plate. Use a scale. Use a rule.
18. Save pictures.
Visual reminders of why. Make it a folder. Scroll through it when your brain gets loud.
19. Say no out loud.
Even if it’s just to the fridge. Out-loud “no” works better than silent guilt.
20. Delay. Again. Always delay.
Craving = momentary. Control = permanent.
21. Use liquids to kill time.
Tea. Water. Sparkling stuff. Sip constantly.
22. Keep your hands busy.
Paint nails. Fold clothes. Shred receipts. Idle hands spiral fast.
23. Don’t trust your mood.
Mood lies. Mood passes. Stick to the system.
24. Sleep earlier to avoid noise.
Late night = weak decisions. Just go to sleep. You don’t need that hour.
25. Check the stats.
Weigh in. Take notes. Keep score. It keeps you aware.
26. Routines over feelings.
How you feel doesn’t change what needs to be done.
27. Reward with non-food.
Playlist, candle, bath, nap, photo. But never what you actually want.
28. Watch people you want to be like.
Consume their content. Learn their habits. Copy until it sticks.
29. Replace "I'm hungry" with "I'm bored."
One’s real. One isn’t. You know which one wins.
30. Don’t keep “options.”
If it’s not in your space, it can’t tempt you.
31. No “just a bite.”
You know how that ends. Don’t start it.
32. Pause. Then pause again.
The second pause is where your power is.
📁 Reblog to keep this where you can find it.
💌 DM open if you want to swap more tips quietly.
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Monstera
You need to come back to Korea because your dad has problems in his clan. For safety, he hires Jungkook and his team as bodyguards. But can you resist a man like him?
Summary: Jungkook is your bodyguard who doesn't want to step out of his professionalism, but can you break his rules? +18
bodyguard Jungkook x fem! reader
warnings/content: blood, making out, use of cigarettes and alcohol, guns, yn is a flirty and has a crush but can we judge her?, injuries, yoongi&jimin as jungkooks team!!
wc: 5k
"Why would you accept this job so spontaneously? It's fucking 3 am and I'm super sleepy," Jimin says for the nth time since they arrived at the airport. Jungkook is standing next to him and groans. "I told you that he offered a lot of money. You would totally say yes too," he says, shrugging his shoulders.
"Okay, I know I said I don't want to know about this person, but I changed my mind. Who are we waiting for?" Jimin asks with curiosity. "The daughter of a businessman. The world knows him as that, but he is also doing some illegal stuff. He told me that he needs to protect her, so he sent her back home. I think the job will be easy. She grew up with a golden spoon, so she will be ignoring us. We need to stay professional, that's all," he explains. Jimin rolls his eyes. "She will be a bitch." Jungkook shows him his phone. The open bank account was smiling at Jimin. "Oh my god. Fuck," he replies.
"She is Korean, but she only speaks English. That will be a little bit difficult but also good for us if we need to talk about something that she is not allowed to hear," Jungkook says. "Oh man, I feel shy talking in English," Jimin groans. After the small conversation, they wait in silence.
"Look, someone really flew with a plant. How did she get that into the plane?" Jimin thinks aloud. Jungkook looks at the same spot and notices a woman with a monstera. He never liked plants and flowers, but these looked pretty. His eyes wander to the woman, and they have eye contact for some seconds. She looks at her phone and quickly looks back at him.
"Why is she waving at us?" Jimin asks, a little confused. You walk towards them with a little smile. "Hello, I'm Yn Yln. My dad sent me a photo of the guy who will take me home. So yeah, that's why I was looking at you the whole time," you say, getting shy by their intense energy. "Oh, hello, sorry for the awkward moment. My name is Park Jimin. You can use Jimin if you like," he says with a friendly handshake. "You can call me YN too," you say. You look at the man standing next to him. "Hello, Miss Yln. We will be on your side for the next few days until your dad arrives here," Jungkook says while ignoring your stretched hand and starts walking towards the parking garage.
You share a look with Jimin and follow him. "How was your flight?" Jimin asks. "It was too long. But I slept a lot and watched some movies, so it was bearable," you answer him. "Is he Jeon Jungkook? My dad told me about him," you ask. "Yes, that's him. He is really serious about his job," Jimin says. "Yeah, I can tell."
When you reach the car, someone else is waiting with a cigarette between his fingers. He inhales his last breath and throws it into an ashtray beside the door. You watch him go to open the car door for you. It's sad that only Jimin is talking to you. "Okay, her suitcase is in the back. We can go," Jungkook says, only to realize that both men already got in the car. He takes a deep breath before sitting next to you in the backseat. The monstera is between you two.
"Oh, next to me is Yoongi. He is a little grumpy; don't take it personally," Jimin says with a grin. Only to get a glare as a response. "Nice to meet you," you say with a smile. You watch the scene outside the window. A lot of city lights passing next to you. Everything feels new to you. The last time you visited Seoul was when you were a child.
When you stand at the traffic lights, you notice a little booth with snacks. You turn to Jungkook, who is looking at his phone. You know he noticed that you're looking at him, but he pretends. That little snake, you think. Jimin and Yoongi were talking about something in Korean. You're not sure if they are talking or discussing. "I'm hungry," you say and break the silence. But nobody reacts. The two in the front seats are still talking, and Jungkook doesn't even look up.
You move your head next to the front seat, and by the time the lights spring from yellow to green, you step out of the car. "What are you doing—" Jungkook yells, but you already slam the door and walk away. "Oh my god, she just stepped out," Jimin says while holding his chin in disbelief. Yoongi curses and tries to park the car somewhere. Jungkook is looking out of the window in case you change the route.
"Where did she go?" Jungkook whispers to himself. All three of them are looking around. "I'm here!" you call. You're sitting on a stool and eating tteokbokki from a small bowl. "Why would you run away? You know why you're here and how dangerous it could be!" Jungkook says while raising his voice. You look up at him while chewing and shrug your shoulders.
"Oh, come on. I'm not a babysitter or anything. What are we even doing right now?" Yoongi says in Korean. "Calm down. It's a job," Jimin says. "Hey, it's not nice talking in another language," you say. "Also, I told you that I'm hungry, but you ignored me," you add. You watch as Jungkook rolls his eyes. "Okay, are you done eating then? We need to go to the hotel," he says and tries holding back. He just needs to think about the amount of money he is making. "Yeah, I'm done," you say and stand up.
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The hotel room was not a room. It's a full suite. The only thing that's bothering you is that they stay with you. "Are you going to stay here too?" you ask. "Yes, we need to stay here as well. Until your dad is coming back," Jungkook answers. "Oh, Jimin and I booked the room next door. You can stay here with her," Yoongi says and walks out of the suite. "Good night, you two. See you tomorrow!" Jimin says and walks out. You share a look with Jungkook. "Okay, I need to correct the information. I need to stay here too," Jungkook says. He is annoyed, but he will scold them tomorrow.
"Are you always this cold?" you ask while sitting down next to him. "I'm just doing my job," he answers. Not looking in your direction. "Can we pretend that we're friends or something? It feels awkward like this," you plead. He shakes his head as a no. "Okay, that's okay too. You look hot like this," you say while watching him. Your eyes wander from his big shoulders to his tiny waist and then a little more down. His head snaps to you, and you can see that his earlobe is turning red. You laugh at him. "So cute. Do you have a girlfriend?" He stands up. "No. Good night. Go to bed." You watch him walk to the balcony. "So sexy," you whisper. "I'm married," he says and closes the door. Your face drops quicker than ever.
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The morning sun hits your face. You carefully sit up and look around. After sitting in silence for a while, you stand up to change into a daily outfit and do your morning routine. When you step out of your room, all three are already sitting on the couch. Two laptops on the table and some guns.
You straight walk to the balcony to get some fresh air. "Here, drink some tea," Jimin says while handing you a cup. "Thanks," you say and sip it. "What are you guys doing?" you ask. "Some security checks," he answers. "When is your job done?" you ask. It feels like an interrogation. "What is that supposed to mean! Are you sick of us?" he asks back with a playful smile. "Nah, I mean I would be mad if my husband were to be away for that long," you bitterly say. You hope that he will give you some answers; you do want to know about his wife. The lucky one.
"Husband?" he asks, confused. "Jungkook's wife," you say. Jimin starts laughing while you watch him in confusion. "Why are you laughing?" you ask and punch his arm. "He is saying that when a client starts flirting with him. He is not married and also has no girlfriend," Jimin says while moving his eyebrows. "Oh, that bastard! I was just flirting a little, okay? I asked him about a girlfriend! Why would he do that?" you say, frustrated. "I mean, now you know that he is single, I guess," Jimin says. You look at him with a knowing smile.
When you both walk inside, you bid him goodbye. Jimin looks at you confused, but you walk towards the door anyway. "Where are you going?" Jungkook asks. "Out?" you say with a confused expression. "No, you're not going out," he says back.
"Excuse me? I thought your job was taking me to a hotel and not ordering me around," you say while putting your hands on your hips. "No, we are responsible for your safety, and we got information about some things. You can't leave," Jungkook says. "But I already planned a date with my friends," you pout. Jungkook only rolls his eyes.
You walk and sit next to him. "What is all of this?" you ask. "We're trying to track some people who are after you," Jimin says. He gets a sharp glance from Yoongi. "There are people after me?" you ask aloud. "Don't worry. You don't need to know anything. We will take care," Yoongi says. You lean back with a huff. This was not the trip that you wanted.
"Why is one of them directly driving to the hotel? Nobody knows that we're staying here. That's not a coincidence," Yoongi says in Korean. "That's so weird," Jimin says back. Jungkook finally turns towards you. You're lying beside him in a weird position. Legs still off the couch, but your upper body on the couch. Your head next to his thigh and the phone in your hand.
"Did you tell anyone that we're staying at this hotel?" Jungkook asks. You turn a little to look at his face. "Hmm, no, I don't think so," you say. "Oh wait, I told a friend about that," you correct. "Who is this friend?" Jungkook asks. You quickly sit up. "Wait, are you jealous? I told you we could be friends, but you didn't want to." Jimin laughs about that. "No, dummy, I need the name," Jungkook says. He is already feeling annoyed. "Mei. Li Mei is her name. Why?" you say. Jimin starts searching for the name. "Fuck, it's the daughter of King Li," Jimin says.
"Oh great. So you're telling the daughter of one of the biggest enemies of your father that you're staying here? When you need to be safe? Are you stupid, or are you just acting like one?" Jungkook yells at you. "Wait, she is the daughter of one enemy? Since when? I didn't even know. You really think my father shares his clan shit with me!" you yell back at him. "Okay, calm down, you two. We need to go. They're on the way," Jimin says.
You stand up to gather your belongings. "Come on, be quick!" Jungkook says. "Stop yelling at me! And stop ordering me around! I'm not your kid," you say while pointing at him. The tension is thick between you two. When you finally get your monstera, you walk out. The elevator is already waiting because of Jimin. By the time you get to the entrance and walk towards the back door, you hear a loud shot. The pot of the Monstera shatters in your hand, and you lose the hold on it. Jungkook quickly pulls you behind him and starts shooting in the direction.
He manages to move you behind the reception desk. "You okay?" he asks. You're in shock, and you try to understand what's happening. "I'm good. But the monstera. It was my mum's," you say with a shaky voice. "I'm sorry for that. I know it's the only thing that remains of her," Jungkook says and softly caresses your arm. "What? Did my mother die? My mom is dead?" you ask and start crying. Jungkook's eyes widened, and he cursed under his breath. "Oh my god, no! I thought she died, and you can't let it go! Why else would you carry a fucking monstera with you?!" he speaks in panic. You hit his shoulder twice. "Asshole! She told me to bring it here. She will kill me if she finds out that I lost it!"
"Okay, sorry that I assumed the worst! Now stay here until I come back, okay?" he says. You hold onto his arm. "Where are you going? Please stay." "I will be back," he says and walks away. You can only hear the gunshots and pray that everyone is safe. Time passes, and you see Jimin kneeling next to you. "Okay, when I say three, we're going to run, okay?" he says. You nod quietly. "Three" is the first thing he says, and both of you run towards the back backdoor. Yoongi already sits in the car, and you get in the back. Seconds later Jungkook sits next to you, and Yoongi pulls off as fast as he can.
"Never tell anyone where you're staying, okay?" Jungkook tells you. "I'm sorry," you say. How could you know that everything will change like this? You thought she was a friend and that you could trust her. You need to talk to your father about all these secrets that he kept. Jimin hands out a cloth, breaking your train of thoughts. You look at him confused. "Your hands are bleeding," he says. Only then do you feel the cuts in your hands. "Thank you," you say while taking the cloth. Jungkook takes it from your hands and rips it into two halves. He starts bandaging it on both hands. You watch his long fingers doing their magic. Yeah, you have a little crush on him.
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You're sitting on a couch wrapped in a blanket. The night is cold, and the three men are talking about security in the kitchen. You look at your hands in your lap. The cuts sting, and you just want it to stop. After some time, Jimin and Yoongi walk to the terrace, and Jungkook comes back to you with a first aid kit. "Give me your hands," he says and sits down next to you. "Why are you going to propose?" you tease him. He sighs and holds your right hand. Wasting no time, he starts to bandage it the right way. "You're really gentle and skilled," you comment. "I do this often," he answers.
"It's the first time that I see your tattoos. They're pretty. And it suits you," you say while outlining the snake. "Thanks," he says and goes on with your left hand so you are forced to not touch him anymore. "I'm sorry for not thinking about the safety rule," you say genuinely. "I'm sorry for yelling at you. I should know that your dad never talked about this stuff," he says. "Oh, you really said sorry! That was unexpected," you say with a smile. He smiles back, but it's quickly gone. You still catch it. "You look cute when you smile," you say. He looks into your eyes for the first time today. It's quiet but not suffocating between you. You don't know where the encouragement comes from, but you lean in and kiss him. His underlip between yours. At first he doesn't react, but after a second he kisses you back. Just slightly, and then he pulls away.
"I know that you lied about this marriage thing," you say. He takes a deep breath. "It's not my style to fall in love or flirt with someone while I'm working," he says in a serious voice. "Oh, come on, just a little bit of fun?" you ask with puppy eyes. He flicks your forehead. "No." "Did you ever break the rule?" you ask. "No, and I will not," he answers. You sulk at him, but he doesn't care. He goes on with closing the first aid kit. Jungkook watches you from the corner of his eye. He smiles at your cute face. He needs to admit that you have a little impact on him. Maybe bigger than he wants to admit. There is no way of pretending that he doesn't want to deepen the kiss.
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The next morning you join them at the table for breakfast. Jungkook offers you a plate with some pancakes. "Thanks," you say and smile at him. "Today there is an event. My dad told me that I should go to make a point that everything is fine. Did he talk about it?" you ask. "Yes, he told us. We will go together and only stay for one or two hours," Jimin explains. You nod at him. "When are you done with the job?" you ask. "Your father is coming back next week," Jimin says.
You continue with eating the pancakes and some fruits. Already planning what you will wear. Then you glance at Jungkook, who is busy on his iPad. Your eyes wander to Jimin and Yoongi, who are focused on eating. It's weird that they know a lot about you and your family, but you know nothing. Next week they will leave your life like nothing happened.
After breakfast you start getting ready. A black dress and waves as a hairstyle are a safe option. You choose a red lipstick. When you hear the knock on your door, you turn around. Jungkook stays there in a black suit. Of course you will match, you think. A little delusional that black is not the safe color for everyone in this world.
"Come on, you can tell me that I look hot," you say with a wink. He rolls his eyes at you. Not knowing that you find it hot. "I wanted to ask if you're done," he says. "You look hot. The black shirt is a dessert for my eyes," you say. He does the little smirk. "Be careful, you're drooling." You laugh at him and stand up. "For you every time, honey." You tap on his shoulder and leave the room. Jungkook needs some seconds to breathe again.
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The music is quiet, a lot of people are talking, and a lot of waitresses are walking with champagne. You take one and start drinking. These kinds of events are never fun for you. You wish that everything will go smoothly.
Jungkook is standing across from your table. He is watching every move you make. A young man is talking to you with a big smile. He is definitely flirting with you, and he doesn't know why he feels annoyed by that. The man leans in to tell you something, but your eyes wander towards him. The eye contact is strong. You walk off in his direction, and he fixes his suit.
"Would you dance with me?" you ask with a smile. "No," he says and looks around. "Oh, come on, I told him that I already have a partner. Otherwise he will ask me again!" you say with pleading eyes. "Please," you push. He rolls his eyes but takes your hand. You move to the dance floor, where a lot of couples have already started dancing. Your arms are around his neck, and his fingers find your waist. The movements are slow but intense.
"You know, I thought about your stupid rule," you break the silence. He looks down at you. "I would like to know you better. Maybe it was not the right thing to flirt with you directly, but we can go out on a date next week. When the job is over," you say. Jungkook pulls you near to his body. "That's a compromise," he says with a smile. You need to save this frame forever. "Is that a yes?" you ask. The music slows down, a reminder that it's ending. "Yes," he says and stops moving. The music ends, and both of you walk to the table.
The event goes on with you telling all the gossip to Jimin. Yoongi acts like he doesn't care but is still listening. Jungkook is sipping his wine, not even listening to you. Jimin is fascinated by the funny stories. He thought the night would be boring. Yoongi checks the clock. "It's time to go," he says. "Let's drink at home?" you suggest. Jimin is the only one who likes the suggestion.
By the time you walk towards the door, you catch someone watching you closely. For a second you have eye contact. The problem is he looks familiar, but also it's like you saw him for the first time. You break the contact and walk to the car.
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"Iron Man? I would marry him without hesitation," you say and take a shot. "I would too look at him," Jimin says while laughing. Yoongi and Jungkook are watching you in disbelief. "We should stop them here," Yoongi says. "Both look like shit," he adds in Korean. You and Jimin turn towards him in shock. "That's mean," you say in Korean. Just to gain all of their attention. "You can speak and understand Korean," Yoongi points out. "Yeah, I can. My dad told me to keep it a secret, so don't tell anyone," you say.
Jimin fills new shots and hands you one. You both take it at the same time. Yoongi and Jungkook share a look. "Okay, the party is over," Jungkook says and helps you get up. Yoongi pulls Jimin to the room. "Good night!" Jimin screams before the door closes. "Why would you stop us? We had so much fun," you say while Jungkook is walking you to the bathroom. "You were about to get drunk. Just brush your teeth, and then you can go to sleep. God, I'm so thankful that you did your routine and changed into pajamas before drinking," he says.
You listen to him and brush your teeth. He walks to your room and prepares the bed. You lean against the doorframe and watch him. "Thank you," you say. He smiles at you and holds your hand. "Come on, it's time to sleep," he says. His hand feels warm and secure. "Can you sleep with me?" you ask and lay down. He brushes some strands that are in your face away. "Kiss me," you say while watching his intense eyes.
Jungkook drops his rules and leans in. Starting to kiss your lips slowly only to go deeper. You're struggling to adjust, so you're leaving it to him. You want to feel more of him, so you start wandering your hands around his torso. He towers over you and starts kissing your throat. "You smell so good," he says. "I want more," you say. He moves his hands to your waist. His hardness is poking you. You move your hips in frustration, and he starts doing the same. The only thing separating you is your pajamas and his joggers.
He stops kissing your chest and looks into your eyes. "Go to sleep, baby. We made the deal with a date after my job is done," he says. You whine at his words. He lies next to you and embraces you in a hug. You feel comfortable and too sleepy to resist.
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You open your eyes and look around. Jungkook is sleeping with one leg over your legs. You smile at his cute face. Playing with his messy hair. He slowly opens his eyes and looks at you. "Good morning," he says and starts getting up. "Good morning, mister," you say back. "I will go prepare some breakfast," he says and walks out of your room. You also get up to do your morning routine.
When you enter the kitchen, Jimin is already sitting there with a pout. "You good?" you ask him while sitting next to him. "Good morning, princess. Just a headache, like always," he says. You sigh, "Same here. But it was fun! We need to do it more often!" He laughs at you, "Yeah, we should."
"You need to eat first before taking painkillers," Jungkook says and puts two toasted sandwiches in front of you. You share it with Jimin and happily eat together. Your phone buzzes next to you. An unknown number sent a message.
unknown: we need to talk
Yn: who are you?
unknown: you pretended not to know me yesterday. But you saw me while leaving. Remember?
"What's wrong?" Jimin asks. "I saw someone yesterday before we left. He was watching me, and I tried to remember who he was. But then I thought that I don't know him. He just texted me," you say and show your phone. Yoongi and Jungkook are also looking at the messages. "That's weird. Ask his name," Yoongi says.
Yn: tell me your name maybe it helps.
unkown: now you're acting like you don't know me. That hurts. It's me, Hoseok.
"Oh, it's Hoseok. I do know that name. My father told me that his father wanted an alliance by getting us married. We declined it. Maybe he is mad," you tell them. "Okay, but what does he want now?" Jimin asks. "I really don't know" you say.
Yn: what do you want?
Hoseok: I want to talk to you
Yn: there's nothing to talk about. Leave me alone
"He wants to talk, but of course I will not," you say and put your phone down. Not aware of the dangerous game that he planned.
"Find her," Hoseok says to his right-hand man. He was looking after you for two years. Not knowing that you moved away. But now he would get revenge. Your father killed his father.
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The days pass quicker than you expected. The three of you are more than strangers. Also, Yoongi was nicer to you and was talking about different things. You're happy to know that after they're done, you will stay friends.
"Did you think about our first date?" you ask Jungkook, who is sitting on the terrace. "I would like to invite you to my house. I will cook something for you, and we can watch a movie. It's still not safe to go out," he says. You lean your head against his shoulder. "That's cute. I can imagine your house. Everything is clean and organized," you say. He leans his head over yours. "I'm not that cold, man, you imagine me to be," he says, a little offended. "Yup, of course you're not," you say sarcastically. He pouts at your words. You're excited to have the chance to know him better.
"Let's cook something. I'm hungry," you say after a while. You both stand up and go inside. Yoongi and Jimin are taking a nap in their room. Jungkook opens the fridge to look for some ingredients. By that time your phone rings. It's an unknown number, but you answer it anyway.
"Hello," you say while walking to the kitchen. "Hey, pretty," Hoseok says. You stand still on the spot. "What do you want?" you ask, a little annoyed. "I'm so sorry that it will end like this. I mean, I imagined you as my wife, but now you're nothing more than my revenge plan," he says. "What are you talking about?" you ask, a little annoyed that he is making a puzzle out of it. "Your dad killed my dad. And when I found out he sent you back home. He is stupidly pretty. He thought I would come for him. He really thought I wouldn't know that you're here. Maybe he did know and told you to join the event. My event. What do you think?" he asks. You swallow and feel your hands shake. "Where are you?" you ask. "Good question. That's why I wanted you. What a shame," he says.
Jungkook walks to the kitchen door, a little confused why you take so long. He looks you up and down, and he knows something is wrong. You lock your eyes with him. His eyes wander to the laser pointer at your chest. His heart beats faster than ever. "Get down!" he screams. But the only thing you hear are two shots and the window that is shattering. Because of the sharp pain in your chest and hip, you lose the energy to stay and fall to the side. Jungkook is quick to catch you. The phone is already gone.
"Yn, stay with me, okay? Don't close your eyes!" he yells in panic. Yoongi and Jimin are running towards you. "Here, press this to the wound," Yoongi offers his shirt. Jungkook does as he is told. Your eyes wander, and you try to breathe. "I'm scared," you whisper. Breaking him completely. He starts crying, "No, I'm here. You can't leave. What about our deal?" he asks. Trying to let you stay awake. Your eyes betray you, and you start crying too.
"I called the ambulance. They will be here," Jimin says. All of them are in shock. Yoongi is pressing another cloth on your other wound. "She is losing too much blood," he says quietly. Jungkook strokes your hair. "You will stay, right?" he asks. It's the first time that you see him so vulnerable. His big eyes were red from crying. The urge to sleep is too strong. He holds your hand. You try to fight it. You really do. But the pain is eating you up. Your eyes are closing. The last thing you hear is his small voice with a sob, "Please stay." Will you?

Thank you for reading! I'm cursed with writing open endings... I hope you liked it <3
Feel free to share your thoughts 🫧
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it’s summer were I live so everyone’s wearing two pieces and was thinking maybe what’s Rin, Isagi, Nagi and whoever else’s you want, seeing there girlfriend/ s/o in a bikini <3
no pressure ofc! And thx if you do it! Luv your stuff <33
seeing their s/o in bikini - i.rin, i.yoichi, n.seishiro, i.sae, k.tabito
m.list I rules
note: hiii thank you sm for your request ! i hope i did it well hihi
i'm rather busy lately and for the coming week as well so i'll take some time to do the requests you guys sent but i'll do it !
Itoshi Rin
he’s normal about it (no)
he likes the beach a lot as well, so it’s only normal for him to plane date there - even more during summer
like you could have a small picnic before enjoying the water
he only saw you in one piece until now so the second you take off your shirt and he saw more skin he panic
but only inside
outside he’s there, taking a look, he nods and tells you something like “i’ve never seen this one, it’s new ?” and you proceed to explain him where you get it and who was with you
the tip of his ears is red but he blames it on the heat and the sun - you’ll never catch him confessing he's flustered
he’s always been playful but suddenly holding a lot more
he likes it a lot, he can’t help it but looking at you head to toes a few times when you're not looking
but he's the jealous type so he’s making sure to cover you with a timid smile if he see anyone looking a little too much in your way
Hates it honestly when it happens but you're head order heel for him and it shows so it's fine
Isagi Yoichi
he’s a pool guy and here to play
aquatic park are his fav and ofc he has to take you with him
He's a blushing mess when he sees you after changing up
He doesn't know where to look he's scared to offense you
He wants to be respectful, you're just too pretty for him to not look for time to time
He stutters a lot when he talks to you at first, which makes you chuckles a lot
But he quickly get over it and just tell you a thousand times how pretty you are
He's just sweet and tell you how the color suit you or things like that
Nagi Seishiro
reo must have a pool lol
He just stay sitting by and watch you two play and swim
Mostly you bc it doesn't happens a lot
He's quiet I think, just checking you out and taking note that you have scars or stretch marks here and there
He wants to poke you so if you decide to take a break next to him, he'll poke your side and shoulder
He compliments you as if it's nothing, kinda implying how much he watched like “the shape is nice” referring to your chest
You can pull him into the water after that, he knows it will happen
But he's ready to start a fight then but honestly he'll blush the second your chest is comes near him
He likes it just so he can hug you to be honest
He almost drown you by accident with his weight
He's relatively simple minded (I love him)
Itoshi Sae
it happens quickly in your relationship honestly he loves the sea too much
He's, in fact, normal about it
But he has to admit that he likes it and it suits you well hihi
He's just a girl
He's probably more annoying about wearing your sunscreen correctly
He gladly helps to rub it on your back
He enjoys the view - probably blush a little when you're not looking as well
He side eyes people around, even kids (in a playful way obviously)
He lies the two pieces but he's only looking at your butt keys be honest
Karasu Tabito
He get the privilege to help you choose one for a future afternoon with your friends
Act fool ™
He even get to select some that he liked before you try it on
He tries to not stare too much and just be helpful
The tip of his ears are probably red on the first few one that you tried
If he'll be honest, he would say he likes them all
But he also know how you feel about your body and tries to be more critical so you won't feel insecure
In the end he honestly wants to go with you at the pool or on the beach one day just to enjoy it as well
Respectful king in the end
I hope you liked it !
#blue lock x reader#blue lock headcanons#blue lock fluff#bllk x reader#bllk headcanons#bllk hcs#bllk fluff#bllk#blue lock#sae x reader#sae hcs#karasu x reader#karasu hcs#nagi x reader#nagi hcs#rin itoshi x reader#rin x reader#rin hcs#isagi x reader#isagi hcs#isagi fluff#sae fluff#rin itoshi fluff#karasu fluff#nagi fluff
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Please zoom in to see small Kakashi! 😭 He kinda disappeared 😭😭😭
Text translation: "Infinite Tsukuyomi" (無限月読)
Drew these in mid-July - when I started doing digital again actually 🤔
Took inspo from the Balut - a street food in my country; I hear a lot of people are grossed out by it?? Don't know if this is controversial, but I personally love the dish. Essentially grew up with it after all!
Wanted to draw something that feels a bit creepy but still has a sense of mysticality to it???
Meh, don't know if the feeling got across or not
I thought since Halloween is coming up, might as well post this haha
About the process of drawing these!
These were very fun to draw! I messed around a lot with photoshop to achieve this glowy dusty effect?? From the brushes to the blending options, and maaan the filter gallery 😭😭 Such fun tools to play with.
The main brush I used to achieve the dusty effect is called "KYLE Bonus Chunky Charcoal", in the Kyle Dry Media brush set. If you can, I recommend checking it out! There are definitely other ways to achieve this sort of effect, though. You can probably just use some sort of scatter texture brush and it'd work just fine. Studying is all about trying things out, right? This is like my first experiment with this type of effect, and I was happy at the time. Now looking back, these could most definitely turn out better, no? I really went overboard with just the effect and forgot everything else. The blood and the plate looks horrible man. If you look closely, you can see the sketch lines haha! I got lazy!
Also, for Obito's pose, I relied heavily on a reference I found on pinterest 😭 I wish I'd changed the pose more tbh, it looks really boring.
And I gotta say, these just look underwhelming in this smaller size. Like reaaaaaally underwhelming. Would love to show you the big version, but oh well! 😭😭😭
Brain vomit time!
I love the prospect (??? is that the right word) of Obito being all god-like and powerful after Tsukuyomi, having control over everybody's dream worlds?? And like he jumps from dream to dream, but stops at Kakashi's and picks it apart???? Observing and tormenting Kakashi with his childhood form that has both sharingan???????
Kakashi would probably be confused with Obito's appearance at first, asking questions like "What are you up to this time, Obito?", but then wouldn't receive any answers??? Like little man would just stare at him creepily, and Kakashi would push this to the back of his mind for a while???
Umm below is the technical stuff, I guess??
My headcanon is that the time span in the dream world is the same as the real world. Meaning, 30 years in the dream world feel incredibly real, with no gap of memories. It's essentially a different timeline. Whether this makes sense or not, who knows haha!
Let's talk about the dream events and how they affect Kakashi! Due to Sakumo and team Minato still living, this Kakashi probably wouldn't be as lax nor sad as in canon?? The relationships and personalities would be different huh???? I'm having a headache thinking about this, so let's just say that: 1. Sakumo lived because the villagers weren't as harsh, but the animosity still remained. Kakashi still developed this obsession with rules, but he doesn't blame his dad as much. 2. Kannabi happened, Kakashi was given the sharingan, along with Obito's ninja way. Team Minato thought that Obito died for a while, but Obito is 'rescued' by Madara, same as canon. 3. Rin would still be targeted by Madara, but Obito came in time to help with the situation, blocking Kakashi's chidori from connecting with Rin's chest, but also knocking Kakashi away. Then, a Mist enemy took advantage of the situation to attack Kakashi, injuring him gravely, to the point where everybody thought he died. With this, Obito activated his Mangekyou and exploded on the Mist enemies, killing them all. Meanwhile, Rin tried to heal Kakashi, just barely saving him. As Obito had dealt with the enemies, there was no need to rush back to the village, and the Sanbi wouldn't be released till then. And so, they waited for Minato to come and help with Rin's seal. (About Obito's Mangekyou activating with Kakashi's death - would that be too far-fetched? My reasoning is that Obito would think that it was his fault Kakashi died, because it was Obito who knocked Kakashi away into the enemy, no?) 4. Because there's no one to become 'Madara' now that Obito came back to the village, Naruto is born, Minato and Kushina live.
5. The Uchiha massacre doesn't happen.
(Everything is incredibly convenient, because I don't have the brain power to make it otherwise, please help 😭😭) -> In conclusion, this Kakashi resembles the Kakashi of the real world, but less depressed and self-destructive??? He loves his living comrades. My man still has a massive obsession (more like crush lol) with Obito by the way, just like in canon. He just doesn't show it.
-> About Obito of the dream world (I'mma call him Dreambito), he is all sunshine and brightness, but he exhibits some dark thoughts and deep rage from time to time due to the residual effects of Madara's seal on his heart. The seal has been removed though. And he has this obsession with Kakashi's safety, as he almost pushed him to his death once, albeit accidentally.
-> I was debating whether to just start this dream world at the point where Obito got crushed, or to start it at the beginning of Kakashi's life. In the end, I went with the latter, cuz ya know, I like the idea of Kakashi living through a whole life all over again, just to finally come to the realization that it's all a dream. Does that make any sense at all??
Obito (child form - 13) first appears in front of Kakashi at the start of the Naruto series, when Kakashi has officially become the teacher of team 7. (Let's not change this okay, my brain would fry haha I'm not gonna deny that the idea of Obito and Kakashi becoming co-teachers of team 7 isn't incredibly fun though)
After the first encounter with this child Obito, Kakashi begins to have flashes of memories from the real world, and he hallucinates about people's deaths - mostly about the members of team Minato. This young Obito is always in the corner of his vision, most of the time silent, sometimes saying things like "You trash" to Kakashi whenever he encounters Rin, who is whole and grown up in this world.
Kakashi exhibits more destructive behaviors as this goes on, the line between the dream events and the real events slowly blurring. He takes more dangerous solo missions out of the village, and shows strong signs of PTSD, just like in canon.
The two Obitos would contrast each other?? Like Dreambito would be all concerned with Kakashi's decline in health (both mental and physical) and goes to confront and comfort him, many times over because that's how it is with them??? Dreambito might even move in with Kakashi, being the obsessive and protective Uchiha that he is. Meanwhile young Obito would be an absolute asshole, saying all these horrible things to poison Kakashi's mind haha
At this point, Dreambito'd be in the last stage on the journey of becoming Hokage, gaining the all the trust from the Uchiha clan, the village elders and the villagers as a whole. I don't know about Rin, though? Should she be romantically involved with Dreambito or no? Would Kakashi dream that??
I think Kakashi's dream would somewhat focus more on Dreambito being happy and satisfied, to be honest. I know there's Sakumo and team Minato as a whole, but as a degenerate shipper, I love the obsession between them🥺
I don't think Obito would directly interfere with what Kakashi is dreaming about, i.e. changing Dreambito's behavior, or like the political situation of the villages (?). But he would most definitely insert himself in Kakashi's psyche, no? Mess it up real good.
Kakashi would slowly realize that he is living a dream world, after all the flashes of memories that Obito generates in his mind. He would most definitely deny it at first though, I think? And then it would reach a point where Kakashi remembers everything from the real world, but he has also lived through 30 something years of the dream world, meaning he'd be in his 60s?? Does that make sense or no?
And so, while Kakashi now knows that everything is a dream, his feelings for everybody in the dream are real. If that's the case, is it really that important anymore that he escapes the Tsukuyomi? Can this dream world really be called fake at this point? Is there even anything in the real world for him to return to?
What's to say 'the real world' isn't a dream at this point?
-> Kakashi would completely close in on himself after this. He still does things that he would normally do, but it'd be all an act. He would feel completely isolated.
-> Dreambito would notice and confront him again, now that they live in the same house??? Kakashi would like say everything is fine and try to act more convincingly, but Dreambito would still know something's wrong????
-> Obito is observing from afar, who knows what his motivation is at this point.
Because this is Kakashi's dream world, I suppose he would have the power to change this world to his will, now that he's aware? This is like a lucid dream situation???
The people in the dream have their own will up until this point, but Kakashi can somewhat change their behavior if he really wants to, whether it's subconsciously or not??? Example: He can probably will Dreambito to kiss him or something lol
So on and so forth!
Man, I'm having waaay too much fun imagining the pain. There are probably like a thousand things that doesn't make sense haha! I do wonder how this sort of storyline should end though, does anybody have any ideas? Personally, I prefer slow burn with a (sort of) happy ending, but ya know, angst all the way is good too! I can't write, but I love thinking about all the things that could happen 😭😭 English isn't my first language, so this might have felt weird to read at some point haha
If anybody wants to develop this, please feel free to do so! And if you've read this far, thank you for reading this absolute brain vomit of mine! I love to yap, as you can tell haha Have a good day!
#naruto#naruto fanart#obito uchiha#kakashi hatake#オビト#カカシ#obito x kakashi#obkk#obikaka#man i am gonna cringe so hard reading this back#but hey i had lots of fun getting all of this out#so it's all good!#don't have a proper halloween here but#meh whatever#happy halloween!#even though it's like way too soon!
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The cultural impact of KAJ on Swedish-Finnish relations
I wanted to highlight some positive things that I've observed around the KAJ-phenomenon (Swedish Eurovision entry 2025), while also clarifying a few things about the cultural context to those who aren't from the region - but my small overview got out of hand, so here is an essay-length cultural analysis (sorry about that and hats off to anyone who reads to the end!)
You can read the rest under the cut or on Reddit where there is also lots of interesting stuff in the comment section.
I'm interested in this topic because I'm part of the Swedish speaking minority in Finland, but also because I've lived in the Finnish speaking parts of Finland (Jyväskylä) and in Sweden (Malmö), so I've had a front-line seat to people from all of these communities making assumptions about each other and misunderstanding each other.
Here are the three geopolitical aspects of the KAJ-phenomenon that I find particularly noteworthy and heartwarming:
1) Sweden is celebrating Finnish culture and it's changing the narrative in both countries
The fact that a Finnish band is topping charts in Sweden with a song about an aspect of Finnish culture is a bigger deal than you might think, because Finnish culture has not traditionally been held in high esteem in Sweden.
There are some ancient reasons for this, related to the fact that Finland was under Swedish rule from the 13th century all the way up to 1809 with the power dynamics that this implies, but I think the most important reason is probably the wealth gap during much of the 20th century.
In the 1950-70s many Finns emigrated to Sweden for work. They were mostly known to be reliable hard workers, but new immigrants are never highly regarded and on top of that this was the same generation that was on the front lines during the war, with lots of trauma that nobody knew how to treat or diagnose at the time, leading to self-medication with alcohol, emotional detachment, violence and social problems. Being Finnish became associated with a number of negative stereotypes in Sweden (alcoholism, violence, social exclusion, poverty), to the point where children in many Sweden-Finnish families were bullied for being Finnish and people were encouraged to distance themselves from their Finnish heritage.
This is why the hype in Sweden around Bara Bada Bastu - a silly feelgood song about unconditionally loving a part of Finnish culture - is getting so much attention in Finland. Finnish people aren't used to Sweden being this enthusiastic about anything related to their country. Some people in Finland still expect Swedes to look down on them for being Finnish. "The happiest country in the world" should of course have sorted out their self-esteem issues by now (most people have), but sometimes these things can be slow to evolve.
Finnish culture has actually been getting a lot of positive attention in Sweden for some time now. The love for KAJ is part of a cultural shift that has been going on for years. Some notable music examples are Käärijä doing well on Swedish charts, Swedish artist Markus Krunegård releasing an album in Finnish in 2023 (Nokia & Ericsson) and Swedish artist Miriam Bryant releasing several singles in Finnish in 2024 (Mustelmilla, Otan kii), as well as wildly popular Hooja throwing in some Finnish words in their Swedish lyrics.
The fact that Melodifestivalen producer Karin Gunnarsson invited KAJ to the competition in the first place probably wouldn't have happened if it wasn't for this phenomenon already being a thing.
2) Finland is showing Sweden some love in return
There is a saying in Finland that goes "it doesn't matter who wins as long as Sweden loses" and yet here we are: Finnish people are singing along to a song in Swedish and many are actively rooting for Sweden to win Eurovision.
The fact that a song in Swedish is topping charts in Finland is very unusual.
Finland is a bilingual country, with Finnish and Swedish both being official languages, so you might expect the music scene and the general population to be bilingual as well, but they are not. The percentages are 95% Finnish speakers and 5% Swedish speakers, meaning public life is basically 100% Finnish speaking. Swedish speakers have their own schools and radio channels and so on, but if they want to talk with the rest of the country they need to do so in Finnish.
The same thing is true for the music scene. If you choose to sing in Swedish you have a potential audience of less than 300 000, if you switch to Finnish you have a potential audience of 5,5 million. There are several Fennoswedish artists who are very successful in Finland at the moment, the big names being Mirella and Averagekidluke, but they all sing in Finnish. You would have to be a specific kind of lovable goofball to choose your local Swedish dialect instead.
The Swedish language is also viewed negatively by many in Finland. This is an unfortunate consequence of mandatory Swedish lessons in schools, often nicknamed "pakkoruotsi" ("involuntary Swedish" or "forced Swedish"). The idea to teach everyone the basics of both national languages doesn't sound particularly far-fetched, but many people, especially in the East and North where there are no native Swedish speakers, dislike this requirement to the point where it might do more harm than good.
As for Sweden, the country is seen as a close and reliable friend, but the friendship is somewhat more complicated than it might seem on the surface. The Finnish banter with Sweden is friendly 99,9% of the time but the remaining 0,1% can be surprisingly dark, because it's rooted in feelings of humiliation and injustice that go quite deep.
This is why it made sense for KAJ to do Melfest instead of UMK, beyond the fact that Melfest reached out to them. Gaining a Swedish audience when singing in Swedish is a realistic goal. Gaining a Finnish-speaking audience when singing in Swedish is... not realistic - or so everyone assumed.
In other words: seeing Swedish people sing "yksi, kaksi, kolme, sauna!" in Finnish is surprising, but seeing Finnish-speakers go "bara bada bastu, bastu!" in Swedish is just as unexpected and somehow even more heartwarming, for me as a Fennoswede at least.
As far as I know it's the first time in history a Fennoswedish artist gets nationwide recognition with a song in Swedish. There is more warmth towards Sweden in Finland right now and more curiosity about the Swedish speaking minority than I think I've ever seen.
3) People are suddenly learning about the Swedish speaking minority in Finland
KAJ getting all this attention is making a real difference in fighting ignorance (mostly in Sweden) and prejudice (mostly in Finland) about the Swedish speaking minority.
Some Swedish people still don't know we exist, which can be a little disheartening to Swedish speaking Finns who follow media in both countries and know everything about Sweden. Fennoswedes trade anecdotes about how Swedish people compliment them on their "really good Swedish" when they speak their native language or how well-meaning Swedes switch to English because they can't tell the difference between a dialect and a foreign accent. The most extreme anecdotes are about Swedish people saying "I had no idea Finnish was so easy to understand" when you talk to them in Swedish.
In Finland people know we exist, but sometimes mistake us for a small and homogenous group of upper-class snobs - which is fine really, compared to what almost any other minority anywhere has to put up with, but it's also quite far from the truth, so getting some nuance added to the mix wouldn't hurt. Most Fennoswedes are just ordinary people and do not have mansions and old money (unfortunately for us!). Those old money families do exist, but they are not that many.
The Fennoswedes you see in Finnish media tend to live in the Helsinki area and be perfectly bilingual, which isn't the case for all of us. KAJ is such a refreshing addition to the media landscape because they aren't part of this group: they are from the countryside, their Finnish is a little wonky, and you couldn't possibly accuse them of being upper class snobs.
And finally, if you read this to the end: Thank you, I spent way too much time on this, so I really appreciate it! Here is your well-earned diploma on Finnish-Swedish relations: 📜👩🏼🎓
#kaj#humorgruppen kaj#svenskfinland#melodifestivalen#eurovision#suomitumppu#käärijä#käärijä tag because kaj is in the kcu & I know you enjoy analyzing finnish stuff
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Hiii 🫶🏼 I hope you're still up for doing an Elijah request! 🤗 I can't get this man out of my head haha
Soo it would be an idea where they met somewhere in Mystic Falls and immediately felt some bond between them, so it happens that they start falling in love (she's human but knows about vampires) but she's too afraid to get hurt so she also tries not to get too close to Elijah. One night he sees some stranger following her home from the Grill and even starts attacking her, Elijah is immediately there saving her and taking her home with him to treat her wounds (mostly some scratches) and he's just super worried. There she realizes that Elijah would never be the one hurting her and they finally share their feelings with a lot of kissing and cuddles afterwards and he holds her, telling how much she means to him.
Oh I hope this is not too weird at all 🙈❤️
Description: Upon meeting Elijah Mikaelson, the feelings start to come but in fear of being hurt, the reader decides to keep her walls up to protect herself. This changes after Elijah protects her after being attacked.
Warnings: fluff, small angst, physical assault (mild), she/her pronouns, maybe swearing?
*Requests are open, please send through as many requests as you want, check my character list and requesting rules.*
Thanks so much for making this request! I can never get sick of Elijah, this man is always on my mind and please feel free to request again if you wish :) I really enjoyed writing this, thank you again :D
Key: Y/N = Your Name, POV = Point of view
Word Count: 2,125
First Person's POV
Tonight at the Grill was a ‘live acoustics’ night, some of the performers were good and others were quite frankly not that great. Bonnie, Elena and Caroline were off on the next big adventure for the vampiric save-the-day business and while I knew about all the vampires, witches, werewolves and all that extra fun stuff. Besides Matt, I was the only human in the group and somehow I was pushed aside to be kept ‘safe; despite Matt always being dragged into the whirlpool of drama even if he didn’t want to be.
“The music is wonderful for the atmosphere tonight, don’t you agree?” That voice would haunt my dreams, haunt my every thought, I couldn’t fathom how gentle and warm a voice could sound. I glanced to the side, shooting a polite smile to the impeccably dressed man and nodded in agreement.
“I do agree, I feel like I’m in like a cute little romance story, the warm lighting and the music-“ I cut myself short, realising I was babbling to a random stranger who more than likely did not care for my ideas and thoughts.
“I can see how you would see that.” Oh, gosh- those eyes! That smile! This man would haunt me forever, picture perfect and everything I would want in a man. I continued to share a polite smile with the man, fiddling with the straw in my chocolate milkshake and turned myself slightly to face the man a little better.
“It’s a pleasure to meet you…?” Realising that he was waiting for my name, I placed my drink down and took his hand.
“Y/N L/N” He softly cupped my hand, shaking it and proceeded to share his name.
“Elijah Mikaelson.” I wish I could’ve hidden my reaction better, my eyes went wide, and my smile flattened for a moment before I quickly made sure to continue to be nice and polite. Elijah carefully rested my head on the bar, took a small sip of whatever his drink was and gazed at me with a quizzical look.
“You know who I am…” His tone was neither harsh nor hurt, Elijah seemed to have suspected my knowledge of his name and he even seemed curious by the idea of my knowledge.
“I know of your brother Niklaus… Elena told me about you, I think she might have exaggerated a bit. You don’t seem like the antagonist she kinda painted you out to be. From what I’ve heard, you’re the nicer brother… the noble one and I'm sure first glances can be deceiving but… I don’t know- you don’t seem like a bad man.” He briefly licked his lips, eyes shooting up to the ceiling and seemed to be contemplating his next moves.
“I suppose you know-“
“That you’re a…” I leaned closer to whisper so people passing by wouldn’t hear.
“An Original.”
“You don’t seem to be phased.”
“Team doppelgänger has built up my immunity to supernatural beings.” I let out a weak chuckle, cringing internally and turned my focus back on my drink. I wanted to keep speaking with him, I really did want to keep speaking with him but I knew the world that I happened to live in and I didn’t fancy the idea of being bait or hurt as collateral damage.
“It was really nice to meet you Elijah but I have to go.” He nodded, that handsome smile appearing once more, his actions made me gush and brought butterflies into my belly as he grabbed my jacket and assisted in placing it back on.
“I hope that you have a good evening, Y/N”
“Same to you Elijah.” He seemed to have a thought pop into his head, I stopped in my tracks, allowing for him to have the benefit of the doubt and give him the chance to speak his mind.
“May I have the pleasure of seeing you again?”
“Maybe… There’s always tomorrow.” I knew I had given myself away, I could feel my heart skip a beat, I’m sure he could hear it, his facial expression didn’t change but I could feel that he knew what I was feeling.
“Have a good evening,” I whispered, brushing past him to carry on my way.
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I had seen Elijah a couple of times since our first meeting, we had small conversations and I tried my best to conceal my heart, I didn't want to get close to this man despite enjoying his presence, his voice and the true appearance of his gentlemanly ways made me fall into a daydream greater than any story or dream I could ever have or read.
The next time I saw Elijah was three months after our first meeting, as I said we had multiple different meetings and they were all the greatest moments of my life despite how much I tried to protect my fragile heart. I had left my home for the park, I wanted to read outside of my home and get some fresh air away from the stuffiness of my bedroom. I rested the picnic blanket underneath a large tree, I read three chapters of my book before I felt a presence looming nearby, I placed the book to the side and stood up, surveying the area for a figure and jumped in my skin seeing Elijah approaching me.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to frighten you, may I join you?" I nodded, smiling at the man, watching as he unbuttoned his shirt and sat down with me on the picnic blanket. He gently picked my book up, staring at the cover with intrigue, I observed him with butterflies growing in my stomach, a blush wanting to form on my cheeks as I continued to drown in what was possibly a huge crush for the Original Vampire.
"Ignite Me by Tahereh Mafi... I'm not sure I've heard of this one before."
"I doubt you would've, I don't exactly picture you reading a book like this?" He smiled, tilting his head slightly, a deep chuckle leaving his mouth and he handed me back the book.
"Why is that?"
"Well... I don't know, I picture you reading older books nothing from the late 20th century to the early 21st century." Elijah briefly nodded in agreement, I smiled proudly at my guess and fiddled with the tassels hanging off of my bookmark. The vampire took off his suit jacket and began rolling up the sleeves of his button-up, I bit the inside of my cheek, begging myself to remain calm and avoid giving away any kind of emotions being revealed.
"Enlighten me, will you though, please? What's it about?" I cleared my throat, leaning closer to him with joy forming, giddy that he was showing interest in something that I liked and enjoyed.
"It's the third book in the series, I've read it before, and this one is one of my favourites. Essentially the series is all about control some people have these powers and the leaders are trying to control these people. The relationship of the main characters is what I happen to enjoy the most about it, I love how Tahereh created their bond from..."
"Why did you stop?" Elijah gently questioned, his face furrowing in concern, I wanted to cringe but I forced the words out before I could let that show. Taking a deep breath, I turned my gaze back to him, scrunching my face up briefly and proceeded to explain to Elijah what was going through my head.
"Whenever I ramble on to the Salvatores and all that, it's clear that they don't care and I'm not wanting to force that onto you. I'm sorry." Elijah tutted, shaking his head and holding out his hand for me to take. Hesitating for a moment, I finally rested my hand in his, holding my breath for a moment and kept my eyes focused on him as he rested his other hand on top of mine.
"You do that too often, Y/N, I can see you trying to protect your heart and you have a wide range of information waiting to come out and you shut yourself down because you expect everyone else to do that. I hope you find someone... someone who makes you realise you don't need to do that."
"Could possibly end up being you, Elijah," I whispered.
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When someone unknown came into Mystic Falls, it was always a concerning event, the vampires were always the most suspicious of strangers and most of the time they were typically right for not trusting the stranger. It was late when I left the grill tonight, Elijah was growing on my mind more and more, and I would be hit with a wave of memories at random moments.
"Up ahead, there's an alley to your right, walk down it. Try anything-"
"Okay... I understand." I whispered, complying as I walked a little quicker and turned down the alleyway. I cried out as I was instantly shoved against the wall, my head ached and the world spun around me, I bit back a sob as I hit the ground and hissed as the gravel bit into my skin. I kicked off my heels, not fancying a broken ankle and lept to my feet running towards the street but missed as the man tackled me to the ground and which resulted in blood slightly trickling down my forehead and more cuts forming against my skin.
It felt like something out of a vampire movie, I heard a whoosh and then a light thud. Elijah appeared, holding the man against the wall effortlessly with one hand and easily compelled the man to walk off and not commit any sort of crime again. I let out a few sobs as the pain sunk in and the adrenaline started to fade away.
Elijah swooped me into his arms, effortlessly taking me to his mansion and rested me down on his obnoxiously large bed. He crouched down, gently cupping my face in his hands, observing my facial features and swiftly disappeared somewhere before running back.
"Are you okay?" He questioned, focusing on grabbing the things from the first-aid kit to treat my wounds.
"I'm okay..." I whispered, hissing as he wiped an alcohol wipe across the graze on my palm and watched as he apologised profusely for inflicting any added pain onto me. Elijah was so attentive to my needs, he cleaned the blood and dirt away from my cuts and grazes. Covering them with bandaids, doing what he could to assist in caring for me. It was as he was lingering for a moment, observing my form that I realised that Elijah Mikaelson would never hurt me. He would never cause any harm to me, Elijah Mikaelson would protect me and I knew that I wouldn't need to worry any longer.
"You wouldn't hurt me..." I whispered, staring at the vampire as he grasped my face and held eye contact with me.
"Y/N L/N I would never dream of hurting you, you... you're perfect... Y/N you are the epitome of perfect, I haven't met someone as intelligent, kind, sweet, and funny in a long time. Y/N I love you and I hope that you'll allow-" I pushed myself closer to him, carefully cupping his face to kiss the man who had possessed my dreams too often.
"Elijah, please, never let me go, I can't keep guarding myself-"
"Shhh, I've got you." He kissed my forehead, pulling me into his arms and pushing himself to lay against the headboard of his bed. I inhaled, holding onto the warm and mesmerising smell of his cologne, I curled into his chest and hummed gently as he rested another kiss on my forehead.
I felt protected, Elijah was my guardian angel, and he made me feel warm and gooey. Made me giddy and the butterflies a constant swarm in my belly, I fiddled with his hands, staring at the family ring that rested on his finger and glanced to him as he pulled my face to meet his. I hummed as he rested a kiss against my lips, sucking in another deep breath and curling in closer as he strokes my hair, his touch comforting and loving.
"Can I stay here? Just in your arms? Where I'm safe and with you, you Elijah who looks after me and takes the time to listen and know me?" Elijah's smile made the butterflies come to life, my cheeks flushed red and his simple words reassured me for an infinity of time.
"Always and forever."
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Trying to figure out what's under the Jhesselbraum crossed out text in the Book of Bill
EDIT: Somebody figured it out! Thank you @kitcatia (and @angst-estefany for helping them out)!!! This makes a lot of what's in the post outdated or wrong here but I'll keep it for archival purposes. :D
Dunno if anybody's done this before but I figured I'd give it a shot. This is the original image.

I first went and found the font used for this. I think it's DIN Condensed Bold. This font unfortunately costs money to get onto your computer, but it is included with Adobe Suite software so if you have Photoshop or are silly like me and used Illustrator, you can access it (I know Illustrator isn't great for this stuff but I generally use GIMP and didn't feel like installing Photoshop for this one thing).
And this is the image with the letters I can figure out.
If I got this right, there are a couple of things in here that are huge.
Bill thinks (or at least thought) very highly of Jhess. He describes her as the smartest Henchmaniac. Depending on how you interpret that comment about the eyes, he either let her into the group despite not liking how many eyes she has or has sour grapes about her leaving.
Jhess did a ton of the heavy lifting for the portal project. Bill is often presumed to simply have the multiversal know-how for a lot of the physics and stuff behind the portal, but this implies that Jhess was actually the first one to figure much of this stuff out and Bill went off of what she told him.
I also want to draw your attention to a tiny detail I noticed in the name Bill gives her. It's so small that it might just be me just seeing a pattern where none exists, but I thought it worth mentioning anyway.
My first thought was, obviously, that the name given was "JESS." The first two letters are clearly J and E and the character is called Jheselbraum so that would track. But then I noticed this tiny squarish region that does not line up with how the red pen's stroke normally tapers off and is slightly whiter than the pen. It is exactly where another letter would be... and it does not line up with DIN's capital S! The capital letters in DIN that it lines up with are B, D, E, F, H, I, L, M, N, P, R, and T. The name looks like it cannot exceed 5 characters given the position of the pen stroke.
In terms of plausible names in there, these are the options:
Jeb
Jed/Jedi
Jet/Jett/Jete
Jeff
Jerry
Jerk (lol)
Jelly
Jem
Jen/Jenn
The majority of the plausible names, as you can tell, are either masculine or ungendered. Which makes me wonder-- is Jheselbraum the Unswerving trans??
Because that implies a lot. For one, I have to question why Bill is deadnaming her in that case. Is it to be hurtful or did he just legitimately never figure it out? She went on the run from him so it's likely she never updated him on her live-name. (And I mean, let's face it, "Jheselbraum" is not that far off from some of the live-names trans people choose for themselves. You guys are reviving antiquated names one transition at a time. \pos)
He also speaks rather admiringly of her, which would be odd if he was trying to insult her with her deadname, so I think it's really highlighting how little Bill actually knows-- and might underlie the real reason he crossed it out. He literally just found out she transitioned and he doesn't even know her live-name. Really undermines the whole "unlimited being with knowledge and answers" thing he claims about himself.
It would also explain what drew her to Bill in the first place. Bill already believes in 14 million genders, and he was offering to smash all the norms and rules. What have norms and rules ever done for the trans community? Seldom anything good is my impression.
Hell, maybe she wound up doing her own sex change surgery, because nobody else would do it for her, and that's why she has the skills to install a metal plate in Ford's head. (Pure speculation of course)
Or maybe I'm just overthinking a print error or false pattern or something! Who knows?
Anyway, I thought this was interesting enough to share. Not important my tailbone lol.
#gravity falls#book of bill#bill cipher#jheselbraum the unswerving#deciphering text#henchmaniacs#lore#speculation#I did this instead of sleeping lol#update
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Alright. Chapter 6. Boy do I have some choice words about this one.
Let's start small, though. With Spice being a fucking freak.
Look, I'm a Dragon Ball fan. I'm easy to please with this kind of thing. You give me a character who is really weird about fighting and I'll hoot and holler about it all day long. This isn't a generic "Villain plays with their food, this ends up being a terrible mistake later" situation; Spice could have killed her right there and then, much like Flour intended to do with Dark Cacao when his soul jam was stolen, but here? Nah. He wants to coke this woman up for a chance at a good fight with her and her in specific. Weirdo. I like him.
Smoked Cheese continues to be really really good this update, by the way. I couldn't be any more glad to have him here.
He's blunt. He knows how to strike a nerve, how to push someone's buttons; just because he's undeniably on the side of good, that doesn't mean these inherent traits of his' are gone. They're being repurposed, the same methods going towards a better end, he's still undeniably him, no one else would speak up to the queen like this, he knows what makes her tick, and he's using that to drag her off of the ground and bring her back up. I'm absolutely loving every bit of it.
This chapter also does a really good job of accentuating the sheer contrast Golden Cheese and Burning Spice have as rulers, with the former having outright raised her closest subjects, keeping them on an equal level, and providing for them with no hesitation or restraint, while the latter keeps his subjects in line through fear and nothing more.

Specially because, later on, it's shown that it's not at all empty threats...
He fucking killed her.
This is entirely unprecedented. I don't think we've ever seen anyone kill another character, NPC or not, onscreen. Elder Faerie didn't so much die from being murdered or anything, as much as he gave away his own life force and all that stuff to White Lily so she could deal with Shadow Milk This isn't that. This is a character being unceremoniously, ruthlessly killed, even if it wasn't a playable one. A cookie, no less; not any of the little animals, who despite their sapience wouldn't have had the same sort of impact, no, he instantly reduced this one cookie to nothing without any hesitation or remorse, and threatened to do the same to her grieving followers immediately after.
Golden Cheese keeps her followers by giving without any restraint, while Burning Spice keeps his followers by letting the threat of destruction loom over their heads constantly, willing to take from them the moment he gets an excuse to, or just because he feels like it.
And, speaking of him; while this update didn't give us a glimpse on how he started, that "first kingdom" that he ruled and presumably saw wither to dust, we did get to see something else.
His breaking point.
Admittedly, I feel like if one were to observe just these 2 story chapters, cutscenes alone, they'd get the wrong impression. If we look outside them, we're well aware that Burning Spice was once a benevolent figure, and that even now he avoids thinking about the first kingdom he ruled. With that context, these lines make a lot of sense.
Despite being the herald of change; time, change itself, was not kind to him. Burning Spice shows us the inherent pain of the idea of immortality. Of how futile it would feel to get attached to absolutely anything, knowing it'll all just wither away sooner or later, and you'll outlast those very things. After an innumerable amount of time, seeing entire civilizations rise and fall, over and over again, becoming more and more desensitized and numb to it all after the great pain of that first loss, it's no wonder it would all end up feeling utterly pointless. Why get attached if it'll all become nothing eventually? If by getting attached, you're just leaving yourself vulnerable to the pain of loss again? Why have any interest in this newly sprouting life if it'll all just wither away like all the ones before? Life, unfortunately, is limited. Fleeting. And while that already causes great pain to those possessing mortal life, at least they too know that it won't be forever. That we're all on the same ground, and that we can make the best of the time we have. But if all you have is time, time that nothing else around you has, then...
Eventually, without a strong will and the right philosophy, it will drive you mad. And that's exactly what happened here. Life may be fleeting, something irreplicable yet completely limited; but just as there will always be life, there will always be a way for that life to be extinguished. Life is unrepeatable and unique, but destruction? If you find pleasure in destruction, you always have something to look forward to. The feeling caused by razing everything to the ground is perfectly replicable, something that can't be taken away from you. It's immediate, final, and requires no pain or attachment. Empty and unfulfilling, yes; but painless and addictive.
There is no greater pretense. There is no long term. There is no end goal.
It's just all about getting addicted to the thrill of senseless, heart-pumping violence. If there's always something to destroy, there's always something to look forward to, after all; something no one can take away from you.
... Of course, this isn't to say any of this is correct. Obviously not. The complete improbability of a scenario where one cannot die of old age aside, this is the complete opposite of how you should approach this. You can keep reminders of said fleeting life, find attachment to things that will last just as long as you, make sure to never forget all the experiences that immortality has allowed you to form, and value what you have in the moment, making sure to let its memory and purpose live on through you. Something a certain someone else will, most likely, embody as her long, long lifespan continues.
Ok, this was all meant to be one post, but I have too many images to put here, and Tumblr really doesn't like that. So...
1/2
See you in like, another 30 minutes or so. Idk.
#jester ramblings#update analysis#cookie run#cookie run kingdom#burning spice cookie#golden cheese cookie#smoked cheese cookie
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Hey what do the new ao3 rules mean? Like what changed? I know this stuff is probably pretty simple to understand but I have a hard time wrapping my head around legal stuff and I figured it's better to ask
I'll try giving an easy summary of the new Ao3 TOS for you:
All the types of fics that were allowed before are still allowed. No changes there, only rewording.
Restructuring of TOS. Basically they divided it into 3 parts so it's easier for the users to look up something they want to check on. There was also a part that was moved to somewhere else. The information is still there just not on the TOS, because the committee believed it didn't belong in the TOS.
They tried to make the language easier to understand.
They made the Abuse Policy more generalised aka now the AO3 Policy & Abuse committee can more freely decide how to deal with TOS violations.
The "underage" tag is named "underage sex" now so it can be clearer.
They clarified that it's prohibited to use any Ao3 content for commercial use, and they specified scrapping for later commercial use aka "Fuck You AI Scrapping".
I'm obsessed with the fact that they state in the changes that now that they don't warn people that there may be works on Ao3 with bad spelling and grammar, and that on the FAQ they now include a question saying something saying "there's not grammatical or spelling standards". They really said "You are legally allowed to write horrendously, without shame. We won't tell on you." LOL
All other small changes are to do with very minutes changes on how the Board of directors Vote or that single cases of Ao3 TOS abuse are now not voted on by all the PAC volunteers because it's impractical with the amount of users and cases they get. Now they have a line of work and ban decisions are required to go through multiple people.
The reality is that not much has changed and most of the new TOS is only rewording and clarifications. Internal changes in the way Ao3 operates are really just so things can be done more efficiently considering the millions of users Ao3 has.
They also specify that they haven't added specific bans on having fics made with AI/having AI help on the website however that if a fic is found to be too similar to another work, writing wise, than can be a plagerism or copywrite violation.
Here's the official post detailing all the changes in TOS
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He's Definitely Obsessed With You (Series)
Origins! Logan X Fem!Reader
Plot: You're an army nurse, deep in the trenches of the Vietnam jungles, doing everything you can to keep yourself together, and the infantry that come into your tent. One day a soldier you aren't familiar with is brought in, and you find out something about him that leads to the start of an important relationship between you both that changes the course of your lives together...
A/N: This is basically the plot of Origins, but with my own spin on it with a Fem!Reader! This is my first time EVER writing an X reader, so comments appreciate! I plan to make this a series, but I wanted to put out a prologue first. Okay, it's not really a prologue and more like a chapter, and ended up being super long because I started writing and then didn't stop, and prologues are short- but IT'S MY STORY AND I'LL CREATE MY OWN RULES. The prologue is just how reader and Logan meet! (PS, there's eventual smut...Soon as I figure out how write it without getting embarrassed) Also, I'm still figuring out how to format on Tumblr, so please don't mind any funky design choices. Probably spelling and grammar mistakes somewhere in there
Warnings: Reader POV only (for now) Reader is female, also an army nurse, also a mutant- but powers aren't specified, blood mention, medical stuff talked about (like amputations), injury descriptions, Vietnam war and slight politics mention, probably a lot of historical inaccuracies i just googled things but I tried! implied reader could be religious but honestly there's nothing concrete to that. The only description of reader is her clothes and that she has hair, and wears makeup (lipstick). Reader has a hard on over Logan (she has a cruuuush), let me know if there's anything I missed!
Word Count: 4753
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Prologue:
Rain rapped lightly along the top of the large tent, creating a soothing sound throughout. A radio, playing an american music station, played a rock song, of some new band slowly making a name for itself, sat nearby on a metal cabinet. Stacks of manila folders and papers were disorganized and spread, almost completely covering a desk. A clock ticks rhythmically. The tent was lined with cots, tables, ratty mattresses, IV stands, and small tables covered with empty food trays, water canisters, and paper cups filled pills. Some of the beds were taken up by injured men, snoring and groaning as they attempted to sleep, only slightly more comfortable here in the medical tent than out in the muddy, rainy trenches. It was monsoon season in Vietnam, and you were at your wits end with paperwork in the middle of a small but-not-that-small camp, set up not far from an American fire support base.
You were sitting at the desk, half asleep as you attempted to fill out another request form for medical supplies. Halothane, Methoxyflurane, Morphine, Penicillin - are common medicines that you find yourself constantly having to restock. Of course bandages, gloves, needles, saline, tubing, multiple surgical supplies, other things you find yourself low on often too, considering the amount of amputations, large and minor, that happen around here. The medical tent that you currently reside in was a revolving door of soldiers, both American and Vietnamese, as well as nearby villagers who come for aid after the American presence near their homes led to viruses they can’t combat on their own, or other unfortunate injuries if war breaks out in their village.
You were simply an army nurse, this was not your usual duty to perform, it was normally left to the assigned doctor of the camp. Your job was to assist the doctor, take care of the patients, administer medicine, IVs, change bandages, wet baths, feed them, and hold their hands as they cry for their momma and to God. You were busy enough, and the doctor, Doctor Frank Jones, who you were assisting had got shot by a stray bullet when out in the jungle, and had to be taken back to the main base, and back to the States. Due to a communication failure, his replacement ended up somewhere else, and transportation wasn’t an option due to the fighting happening.
Fortunately, Doctor Jones had seen potential in you and believed you would be an excellent doctor one day - something you wanted to pursue after your service was fulfilled. He became a mentor, helping you study and learn medicine, and giving you skills that an average nurse- even an army nurse- wouldn’t usually have. Now, it was just up to you, and a few young army medics - teenage boys who were given no choice in going to war, and their skills were found best in assisting injuries on the battlefield, but they were eager to help, and their light-hearted jokes and company helped relieve some stress for you, especially with the pain you watch day in and out. You didn’t always have the luxury of their help though, as when patrols went out, they required at least one of them to join. It leads you to have to order around other grunts who have no idea how to even measure the proper dosage of cough syrup for themselves whenever a serious injury comes in, having to give detailed orders on what to do- usually just getting you the supplies and medicine you need, as the grunts are typically too distracted and upset over their fallen brother to assist you in anything medical and complicated.
With being the only medical authority in the camp- as well as the only woman- you were well respected and popular. Your compassionate personality, and comforting presence, as well as your “Take-no-shit” attitude, led to soldiers of this camp visiting you all the time, usually making up excuses like having a cough, or a splinter in their finger, just so they could have the pleasure of your smile and encouraging words. The CO here made sure that they all treated you with respect, as a woman- and a nurse, so you never once felt unsafe- or unappreciated. Besides, a good section of this camp is young boys, too nervous about their situation to worry about trying to flirt with a woman like you. You're more of a comfort figure in these parts than anything else. Despite the stress and worry you face in day to day life, in the middle of the war, you were just happy to be doing something. You weren’t exactly a supporter of this war, but the moment you saw young boys lining up to go to war, something in you made you fiercely determined to follow, and do whatever you can to make sure those boys can go back home to their mothers and fathers.
The Rolling Stones was now playing on the radio, this was a band you were more familiar with - one of your favorites. Your foot tapped to the beat of the song, as you checked off another item you needed to be stocked up on- and hoped the supply chain doesn’t hold out on you again. For some reason, they seemed convinced that you must surely be lying about the supplies and will not send you the full amount of what you requested, leading you to storm into the CO’s tent on more than one occasion and rant to him with a few unsavory words about the supply lines commander. He always listens though, and does his best to get you what you can- which you can appreciate.
“Hey turn that up-” You heard one of the patients call out, and she smiles, reaching to the radio and turning the volume higher. She looked up from the desk to see one patient in bed moving his foot with the beat of the song, and the other, who asked her to turn it up, raised his arm in the air, hand in a fist as he rocked with the song. “This is a good one, hadn’t heard this one yet.”
“It came out in 65’ dumbass.” the other called out. “How’d you not know it?”
“I’ve been here since 64’ asshole! Think we always had access to a radio?”
They all chided each other, making you laugh as you shake your head, turning back towards your paperwork, determined to finish it today so you can send it out. It was rare you get these moments of quiet, so you appreciated it when you could. Things could turn on a dime in a second, especially since the fighting was getting closer to where this camp was set, and you’re hoping that you would get some help before anything serious came. You were just starting to get absorbed in the letter you were writing to the CO of the supply line, something slightly passive aggressive, when one of the soldiers yelled to you from outside.
“Hey! Nurse! There’s some guys coming this way! They got someone injured-”
You looked up, dropping your pencil, and turning the radio down as you readied yourself, brushing the pants of your army fatigues to straighten it out, and rolling your sleeves farther up your arms. You watched as the flaps of the tent get pulled open, as two men carry someone resting on a cot. You didn’t like how quiet the man was being.
“In here-” You lead them to another section of the medical tent, ment solely for treating wounded, in an attempt to keep something sterile and clean- well, as clean as you can get it. The soldiers set the man onto the table that sat in the center of the room, small trays and medical supplies, as well as a large overhead lamp that provided lighting to give you a better view at what you’re working on, surrounded the table.
“We got ambushed on patrol, fortunately he’s the only one that got hit, a VC jumped out of the grass and stabbed him. We got pressure on the wound, and he’s still alive- for now.”
You nodded as you went to a basin to pull on some sterile gloves, and walked over to examine the soldier. He was handsome- you couldn’t help but noticed but quickly put that out of your mind. A full head of deep beautiful brown hair, and a thick beard framed his face. He looked older, possibly in his mid 30’s. A sheen of sweat covered his skin, as his teeth were gritted and eyes cinched shut in pain. A wave of sorrow hit you, as you never liked seeing people in pain, it hits you bad enough to wonder why you chose to go into the medical profession of all things. Nevertheless, you push through, and began working on removing the uniform so you can see if you can save this one. At least he wasn’t screaming.
“Whats his name?”
“Logan ma’am. He’s Private First Class.” The private responds, voice professional, but quickly drops into something softer. “He’s a good guy, and smart, usually quick on his feet, its surprising someone ambushed him…”
“Need any help ma’am?” The other private who brought him in ask.
“No, I got it, thank you.” You tell them as you grab some sheers and began cutting through Logan's army garments. “Just make sure others are alright. See if any of the boys out there need water.”
They nodded, saluting- leading you to roll your eyes- and left your section of the tent, just as you manage to cut off the white wife beater he was sporting underneath his army garments, giving you a complete view of where he had been stabbed. You breathed a small sigh of relief, the wound appeared in the part of the torso where nothing vital was located and you managed to roll him to his side- seeing the stabbing didn’t go straight through, meaning this guy had a good chance of surviving, assuming he doesn’t succumb to infection…
“Alright Logan,” You turned you head to look at the man, who was still tense, eyes squeezed shut. He was somewhat awake, with his breathing and the way his muscles contracted, but he didn’t seem to be aware of what was going on, you still felt it important to talk to whoever you were treating though. You had to hold the hands of many scared soldiers, and quickly have learned the right things to say when comforting. “I’m going to take care of you, and in return, you’re going to need to be strong for me here.” You say softly but firmly to him, hoping that he’s hearing you through the pain, as you went and quickly grabbed a wet cloth out of a basin nearby, squeezing out the excess water, and gently placing it over his forehead, in order to soak up some sweat, and provide some more comfort to cool his skin that seemed to be burning hot. You couldn’t help but note that you don’t recognize him- you wouldn’t have forgotten his face that’s for damn sure, if he’d ever came to visit you, which most privates in this camp has at one time or another. You shook the curiosity out of your head, you had to move quickly, fighting the urge to wanting to take in the details of his face- his very handsome face, and moved to focus back onto the wound on his torso.
You started by slowly removing the packed bandages, examining the blood flow to make sure nothing gushed, but he really wasn’t bleeding much anymore- actually, it didn’t look like he was bleeding at all now. Confused, you began cleaning the area of the stab wound so you could get a clear view of what you were looking at. At first, you thought you were losing your mind, you had to been because what you were seeing…
It was as if the skin was growing back, the wound, going inwards seemed to almost pop out, before the skin stitched together, going through what the bodys usual healing process would look like- except doing it within a matter of seconds. Turning from a bright red inflamed wound, into a baby pink scar bump that slowly faded off, you couldn’t even tell anything had happen there- except from the blood stained around it. You were blinking in disbelief, mouth slightly agape, before it suddenly occurred to you what you were just seeing.
Oh
Oh shit-
He’s a mutant.
You looked at the man, who’s muscles seemed to be relaxing now, as he took deeper breaths, the sweat on his face began to dry and disappear. You weren’t sure what to do at this point, you’re so used to every minute counting to fix someone, and this guy just healed himself in seconds!
And by god, he was so handsome. You thought that already, got to stop thinking about that. Turning away from his face, you went to examine where the stab wound used to be, gloved fingers gently pressing on the area- before the soldier- Logan, practically yelped- and sat up rushed on the table, startling you even more so than him, as you jumped back, hands in the air in surrender- as if you did anything wrong.
He was panting, the cold wet cloth you had placed on his forehead fell into his lap, as he looked around with wide eyes, pupils dilated, his nostrils flaring, he almost looked animal-like in this state. He turned to look at you. His eyes took you in, and suddenly you felt embarrassed by your army clothes you were sporting, green cargo pants, and a green collared button up shirt, tucked into your pants, making you feel less than girlish in them, despite their comfortability, your forehead was covered in sweat, and your hair pulled back in a bun neat bun with baby hairs sticking out everywhere. At least you had lipstick on to give yourself a little bit of a pop in your plain looking outfit. That should be the last thing you should be worried about.
“You’re okay-” You finally found your voice, holding your hands out to him, “You got ambushed, but you’re okay now.”
He blinked, then let out a small sigh, his whole self seeming to relax, his expression turned more human-like, as he faced forward, then looked down at himself. His hand went over where he had been hurt- seeing that there was no longer any injury there, although something in his expression told you he could still feel it. He swallowed, jaw tensing, before realization struck him, and his head snapped to look at you.
“You saw- You know, don’t you?” He asks, his voice was deep, but sounded a little dry and scratchy. Still, it was enough to make your knees weak.
You turned, going to a cabinet that held medicines and various other supplies, but on the counter was a pitcher of water and a few glass cups. Pulling off your gloves, you poured a cup from the pitcher, turning back and handing it to him.
“Yeah. I saw.” You say cooly, holding it out for him to take. He looked at you, his deep and should you think gorgeous hazel eyes felt like they were piercing your soul; as if he was trying to decipher what was going on in your head, which you wish you knew as well because his stare was making your brain fuzzy; then glanced at the cup and finally took it from your hand, your fingers brushing together, making your heartbeat just a little faster, and you could feel a small heat blooming in your cheeks.
Jesus christ, pull yourself together
You thought to yourself. You cleared your throat while he took several swigs of water, dropping his hand with the cup to his side as he took a moment to breathe once more.
“Got anything stronger?” He asks, his low and smoother now, quirking a brow at you. You smiled,
“Sorry, anything alcoholic you may want to drink in here, I gotta save for the guys who can’t heal themselves within minutes.” You say teasingly. “Supplies are low enough already.”
You could see a small quirk of his lips, in something resembling a smile. He was still tense though, his eyes seemed to be somewhere else. He looked at you again,
“Does it…scare you? Me being a mutant?” He asks, his voice low
“Um….No?” You responded, confusion on your face, a small shake of your head, “Why would it?”
He seemed relieved- and surprised by that answer, his shoulders finally relaxing, and he took another drink of water, eyes closing as he finished the cup, and handed it back to you, where you set it back on the counter. Wiping his mouth with his arm, he sat up more confidently, bending his leg as he brought his knee up to his chest, and propped his forearm over it, and leaned back on his other hand, taking a few deep breaths as he lowered his head down, then looked back up at you, his expression suddenly stern.
“You gonna tell them?” He asks. You knew he was referring to the army. Mutants weren’t well accepted in the world- much less the US army. The American government is actually sitting comfortably in the capital and writing out bullshit laws on mutant regulations, rather than trying to figure out a solution for the war here in Vietnam. You, a mutant yourself, albeit your powers were easy to hide and conceal, you still feared of a day that someone somehow discovers your secret. You’ve heard stories of American soldiers revealed to be mutants being killed, due to some bullshit excuse that they “lied” about who they were, and couldn’t be trusted. Whether those stories were true or fearmongering to keep mutants hiding their true identities, you didn’t know, but you certainly weren’t gonna find out yourself. You definitely wouldn’t put another fellow mutant, just trying to survive like you, in any sort of danger like that, even if he could probably just heal if he got put in front of a firing squad.
You pursed your lips together. Then smiled. “No. I’ll keep your secret.” You say. “All it means to me is that I have one less person to worry about around here. I was actually wondering why I hadn’t seen your face in this tent yet before, and now I know why.”
He softened at that, but his face quickly fell back into something more serious and stern once more, which you’re starting to think might be his baseline.
“You okay?” You asked, your voice was soft, and sweet, and borderline angelic for a man like him, who’s been in wars almost his entire life- which you don’t know about that. “That probably didn’t feel good, what happened.” He nodded.
“M’ fine….Thank you.” He grumbles lowly, looking down at his hands. “I heard about you- actually I-I seen you around. You’re the only nurse on camp?” He asked, looking back up at you, there seemed to be a bit of curiosity in his voice.
“Yeah. I’m pretty popular.” You say, in a teasing voice, blushing at the thought that he’s noticed you. Which shouldn’t be a surprise, you are quite literally the only woman around, save for the women in the village not far from here.
“Must be busy.”
“Oh… Nah-” You playfully wave him off. “Some days are so slow, I’m actually bored.” You say matter-of-factly, but you both knew you were kidding. Another quirk of his lips. You smiled softly at him, but there was a voice in your head telling you, that since he doesn’t need your help, you should probably get back to helping the ones who do. Not that you want to leave, he was so damn handsome, you could stare at him all day. It wasn’t just his good looks though, his whole self drew you in with just a few words, and you find yourself wanting to get to know Logan, because the look in his eyes told you that he was someone worth knowing. Or maybe that was just your hormones talking. There was just this energy between you both, some type of unseen connection. His eyes trailed down you again, this time fully taking you in, stopping at your chest, and for a moment you were about to be completely turned off by this man being a pervert, but he nodded towards it.
“Your necklace?” He asked. You looked down, oh, you thought to yourself. You pulled the string of your necklace, lifting the small coin that it held, string carefully wrapped around it so it doesn’t fall off.
“It’s a prayer coin. A priest gave it to me.” You explained. “It’s the archangel Raphael. A protector, patron saint of medical workers, like doctors, nurses.”
“Like you?”
You nodded. He examined it, before you tucked it back under your shirt. You usually keep it hidden, but it must have fallen out while you were rushing. Now it was silent again, and you both weren’t sure what to do or say.
“Well….” You took a breath, you glanced down at his abdomen, and suddenly your brows creased in concentration.
“What?” He asked, by your sudden change in demeanor.
“You can’t exactly walk out with no injury. Those two privates were pretty worried about you.” You say, putting your hands on your hips and pursing your lips together. You clicked your tongue.
“I can figure something out-”
“No no-” You held your hand up and looking around the room. “Those privates brought you in, there’s probably an incident report written right now, not to mention I have to write a report on your injuries too-” you explained. “I mean, how are you gonna explain it if you walk out, completely A-okay?”
Logan shrugged simply. “I can think of something, it isn’t the first time this happened.” You rolled your eyes. Men.
You rather not waste bandages on a pretend injury, but you need someway to get his injury to look believeable, thats when you spotted your answer. His white tank top that you had drop to the floor, it was good enough to wrap around him, making him look as if he’s been all fixed up from his stab wound. The shirts cotton texture looked similar to the pattern of a bandage, and was good enough, especially considering no one would be looking hard enough at his wound anyway.
After a few minutes of “fixing him up” with your solution to keep his regenerative abilities a secret, you stood back examining the fake bandage/shirt that you tore up and wrapped around his torso, using bandage pins to hold it in place. Then shrugged.
“It’s good enough.” You say. “You’re not going anywhere anyway, so it’s not like you’ll raise a bunch of questions. It looks like you have an injury, it’ll match the incident and medical report. You won’t get found out.”
“I’m not going anywhere?” He raised a brow.
“Nope. You were injured, which means I gotta keep an eye on you. So you’ll be sleeping here, and you’ll have to pretend you’re in pain, whining and moaning and all that. Give it your best performance.” You encourage. “Take it, not many around here get a chance to get a break like that.”
He looked at you, pondering what you were offering him- well, you weren’t offering, he was going to have do it because you weren’t gonna risk him revealing himself as a mutant, which for some reason you were now more concerned about than he was. A small smirk appeared on his face, “That mean you’ll be waiting on me then, hand and foot?”
You smiled, “Don’t get ahead of yourself soldier.” You say teasingly. “You can stay in here a little longer, rest up, maybe shed some tears to make it look like you’re suffering tremendously.” You added a little flair as you brought your hand up to your forehead, pretending to faint, before turning and walking away to leave the room, now knowing you really needed to get back to work.
“I don’t think I need to shed any tears.” He mutters, but there was amusement in his tone though. “Hey bub” He called after you as you were about to leave the room, lifting the tent flap, but you stopped to look at him. “Why are you seen keen on helping me out? Making a plan to make sure people don’t find out what I am…Seems like too much trouble to go through for you.” He frowned.
“Well…” You dropped the flap of the tent, “Us mutants gotta stick together, right?” Logan looked surprised at first, eyes widening a bit, and jaw slacking, but then a soft, genuine smile stretched across his face, the corners of his eyes crinkling, leaving you thinking that was a smile you never wanted to go without again. Smiling back at him, you winked, and turned back before stopping and looking at him again, “Plus, you seem worth the trouble.” You add, before finally leaving him to himself.
Maybe it was too much trouble. You could leave Logan to figure it out himself. You two didn’t know each other, you weren’t friends. Yet you, the compassionate self you are, and also slightly bull-headed, was not going to leave Logan hanging alone. Maybe it was the fact that you were both mutants that urged you to help him, let him know that someone like him out there has his back, even if he had many brothers at his side watching his back too. Or maybe it was because you felt an undeniable pull towards him- and him towards you.
While he stayed in the medical tent with you for about a week, the standard time for stitches to stay in. While staying, you both got to know each other better. You found a deep friendship with Logan quickly, both of you having an understanding of each other, not just as mutants but as individuals as well. You were able to laugh, usually at his snarky remarks to the other privates and even his comments to the higher-ups, surprising you in how he likes to occasionally challenge authority despite how quiet and reflective he can be some moments. You saw him as brave, smart, and he was protective, always going first in patrols, and keeping an eye on the younger privates. He’d hid it well, rarely making it seen, but he had a compassion that made your heart swell, especially when you came across him comforting a young private who was homesick and scared. He had a good instinct that seems to attest to his mutation- which he later revealed the full aspects of it to you later on, claws and everything- which did nothing but fascinate you, leading to a full acceptance of him he hadn’t felt or seen in a long time. He’d visit you in late nights when he wasn’t assigned guard patrol, bringing you something to eat or drink, and you’d both quietly talk about your lives, and how’d you ended up there. He listened to you complain about the lack of supplies, and how you got into medicine in the first place. You’d learn of his brother Victor- another Private First Class there at the camp, who you quickly learned a distaste for after meeting him, and how old they both really were- leading you to bombard him with history questions, that he simply answered “I wasn’t there bub.” There was an unspoken yet mutual physical and spiritual attraction between you both, but before anything could have gone further in your relationship, down in the thick muddy jungles of Vietnam, you suffered a similar fate as your mentor Doctor Jones. A stray bullet having shot through your shoulder while you were out, attempting to help a young private who’s leg unfortunately got caught in a dirt trap. You were okay, but orders sent you home on a medical discharge, saying you fulfilled your duty to the States.
You missed Logan, and you also found yourself struggling to find your place back in civilian life again, the stress and the trauma of the things you saw weighed heavy in your mind, not to mention the worry you felt over Logan's safety while he was still over there. The only thing easing your worries was the letters you wrote to each other, until one day his letters stopped coming, and your own got returned back to you with no explanation, leaving you in fear of the worst….
#logan howlett#logan howlett x reader#wolverine#logan howlett x you#logan howlett fanfiction#logan howlett fic#wolverine x f!reader#wolverine x reader#wolverine x you#wolverine x men#i know the title will throw you off but TRUST ME#especially with the vibes of this fic#also like i said my first reader fic SO PLEASE BE GENTLE#vans daydreams
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Hii there! I have a question regarding politics and court(which is like...soooo fun, I never thought I'd come into a game for romance and be so enamoured by the politics and ruling side, it's soo cool).
If you don't mind me asking, since Zeratun is the capital and that's where the Crown should reside, do we have to form another court when we go there? Is the court we have coming with us, even though most of them are from around Marabad? I thought for so long Marabad was the most important place, but then realizing it's not the capital was like a splash of cold water. I feel like I've neglected the rest of the empire, lol, are the people in Zeratun handling this better? Are there people more important and powerful there? Are we in like the trial small court and then we get hit with the full on political stuff when we go there(and I mean this 100%, hell yeah)?
It'd be soo cool to do political tours, I'm curious what are the differences between this court and that one, and if they'll be more or less welcoming that the small palace. More or less snobbish, religious, intelligent? Anyway, thank you, I was replaying chapters to get ready for launch and I once again got into the political stuff so fast, it's really entertaining. Also, makes you feel really powerful, so you did a wonderful job. xD
You won't have to form another court!! All the biggest Imperial Court vacancies, such as the Ministers, were filled by people from all over Arsur, not just from Marabad/Rojan. In essence, when the Crown moves to the palace in Zeratun, their Imperial Court will move together with them.
The only thing that would change is that you'd have the Steward of Zeratun present instead of Steward Welat, and the representative of Mîr Mêrxas (the one in charge of Zerat) would have a larger role during court meetings. Some of the minor officials who serve the Ministers might also change, but that's not really something the Crown has to worry about.
That being said, the nobility in Zeratun are far more involved in politics compared to the ones in Marabad, so even if they're not part of the court, there are a lot of backroom politics going on there. In that sense, it's pretty accurate to call Marabad the trial run in some ways 👀
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All of the bad kids have darkvision (even Kristen, not bc of race but twilight domain clerics get like crazy darkvision??) which is neat to me.
Idk, it definitely opens opportunities for strategically taking away major light sources in battle and makes stealthing at night easier and means travel through dark caves or forests during adventures isn't as dangerous as it might be for other parties (oh. Did it help with the Night Yorb?) etc etc, but it can also just be silly I guess. It's getting late at a sleepover but they never turn on the lights and they draw on Gorgug's face after he fell asleep but most of them see in grey tones in the dark but they kinda. Forgot. And now the colours are all wrong :(
I've also seen someone say yeah Gukgak apartment almost always dark and just. Yeah. Lights out unless it's really late and they have a non dark vision guest (rare). I think there are times where Fabian gets up at the ass crack of dawn because he has to fix his hair and he just does it in the dark so no one can tell he takes that long. I think the Mordred Manor gang in a super busy week if they're stressed with school/work will set the table and sit down to eat and almost not notice it's so dark for no reason until someone goes hey my food looks kinda dull that's weird. (Assuming Jawbone has dark vision. Which he should lol. Shifters do and that's what he should count as I think??) Also all of these scenarios I'm assuming it's like winter and it's dark out for longer so dim natural lighting at best.
Oh also something something Bad Kids ultimate hide and seek dude. In weird dark caves or mines during their (not world saving but just part of school) adventures because they goof off sometimes. Riz is always hidden the longest for very very obvious reasons and he also finds everyone the fastest for equally obvious reasons (if he uses investigation rather than perception, which I think is fair even if you'd typically do perception vs stealth because it is hide and seek, then after junior year all of his friends mechanically fully just. would not be able to hide from him* without a critical success ((and raw you can't crit on skill checks lmao but in the world of Spyre you can)) and this is really funny to me) but hey technically this is awesome exercise for a rogue to keep his mind sharp during downtime this is in middle school intro to adventuring books for sure. Maybe they rule it so that Riz wins if he finds them on a very small time limit so it's actually a challenge.
Idk idk I think it's fun if people consider stuff like darkvision in fics I want darkvision that'd be so convenient
*for clarification if you're reading this without having their stats memorised like some loser it's like. Riz's investigation is +14. He has reliable talent. The worst he can fucking get is a 24. Not to mention passive investigation is a thing that they've used (when Riz being in a room auto revealed the curse artefacts that one time) so it's kinda established that he wouldn't even have to "roll". Which in universe would mean he wouldn't even have to make an active effort I guess?
None of the bad kids (other than Riz ofc) are proficient in stealth and therefore none of them could beat a 24 with stealth without critting lmao. Fabian, with his maxed out dexterity, can match it on a 19. So if Fabian rolled as high as possible without critting and Riz rolled as bad as he can does Fabian have a slither of a chance? The ruling on what happens when you tie on contested checks is kind of weird because "oh the situation doesn't change" which is obvious with like, contested athletics but in cases like these it's less intuitive. What does not changing mean when it's hiding vs searching?? Does it mean the hiding person stays hidden? Or would this be less of a contested check since they don't happen at the exact same time and more of a hider sets the dc for seeker. In which case Riz would auto succeed because you just have to meet dcs to beat them. I am thinking too much about the mechanics of some (probably drunk) teenagers playing hide and seek. As I'm typing this I'm remembering that he wouldn't have to roll to meet a 24 because yeah passive investigation of a maniac (affectionately). Yeah okay he would just notice even Fabian in all cases but the case of a critical success.
Here I note that I don't put it past Fig to acquire Pass Without Trace (magical secrets) just to gain a chance at beating Riz in hide and seek. She'd fucking do it. She goes to visit her wood elf relatives to get pointers and all. Wow this derailed this was about darkvision at first.
#rambling into the void#dimension 20#fantasy high#bad kids#headcanons#riz gukgak#fabian aramais seacaster#gorgug thistlespring#fig faeth#figueroth faeth#the bad kids#meta madness
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Happy Wednesday wonderful fandom :) We have hit episode 4, I once again am SO happy this is back. Makes my Wednesdays so much better. I missed this show so much. Now I was legit resigned to have no real moment in this one. I really was. Not only that but I was ok with that too. The SL was really really good. I was enjoying Wes/Wopez getting some of the spotlight. I adore this show as a whole.
So I was down to enjoy this ep just for the SL they had lined up. I am thrilled we got a moment. Scaling the walls excited. I do my best to keep these first impressions as brief as possible. Since I do deep dives in the summer. When I really flesh my thoughts with the entire season in hand. But when we get good moments it's harder to be brief ha So bear with me if I'm a little longer than I have been. Let us begin shall we?
7x04 Darkness Falling
We start the day off with some good ole ass kissing from Ridley. The more this kid opens his mouth the more I dislike him tbh. So I'm with Tim groaning at his platitude. 'Oh god.' I'm cackling. I love this man so much you guys. Lucy is all smiles though of course. She wants to see the best in him because well it's Lucy. We all love this woman for her compassion. But their reactions are just so on point. Their Grumpy x Sunshine dynamic doing it's thing. Always makes me happy to witness.
I do love that Lucy follows it up with saying no one likes a suck up lmao My girl. I mean no one does.....They drive me absolutely insane. But this is her accepting what he has to say but also letting him know she isn't won over either. He has work to do. They both do really. Friggin miracle they're both still standing there.
We get to a gnarly crash and the rookies are put to work by Celina. Who is primary. You go girl. So excited for her this season. We can sense her stress as she attempts to contain and maintain the scene. She has Ridley take pics of the cars, which he messes up. Not getting every inch like she asked.
Telling him firmly but still kindly that she can't hold his hand. Texas giving him a hard time seeing this. Seth gets a little uppity with him. It's here we witness conflicting stories …..No matter the reasoning a cop who lies habitually is ick central for me. Makes me start to question his integrity. Gonna take a lot to come back from this IMO. Lucy looks very disappointed. I would be too. Also a little on edge wondering why he's lying?
First thing noticed when Penn was searching the car was the gun in the glove box....I knew when he said it was all clear it was going to bite him in the ass. It does immediately and royally so. We see bit by bit that confidence that he came in with slowly eroding. Tim is breaking this kid down in order to build him back up. He's gotta quit it with the Texas stuff. It only angers Tim even more. He doesn't want excuses he wants progress.
I know it may seem like Tim being extra hard on Texas. But D (makeitastrength) brought up a great point from 3x11 either last ep or before in the comments. On how Tim trains based on his trainee. And this boy needs to be knocked down a thousand pegs and then some. We see with each episode him changing I will say. Becoming more remorseful. Less cocky with Tim. The way he reacts to his punishment is proof of that.
Tim is right to do this to him. He’s not in Texas anymore. That is not a valid excuse for everything. Or ever honestly. I had a guy on my team who did the same thing. Would excuse his screw ups and say 'But in Tennessee we did this.' etc. One day we were on a ride a long. He did it again as an excuse. I told him you’re no longer in TN. You’re in CO now. Those rules don’t apply here. And it finally clicked and he stopped doing it.
Tim has to beat it into his brain he’s not in a small town anymore. Far from it….and he most definitely isn’t in Texas anymore either. Once he lets that go he will get better. Tim pegged him from day one about him needing to be deprogrammed first. That’s going to take the longest with him.
SOOOOO Seth is officially a liar..... I hate it so very much. Not only did he lie but he did it in front of Lucy earlier. Someone mentioned the possibility of him being a liar. It was in an ask D got I remember and I never thought of it. So Kudos to that person for spotting that early. I didn't clock that. Like at all. Cause I too am like Lucy in my empathy and believed him. Guess I shouldn’t have….Hiding more than I would like.
My gut is saying I would like him to wash out. Is that mean? Sure but also he's not giving anything positive right now. We haven’t see one since s3 with the Badger and Katie. But he’s Lucy’s rookie, so that’s the only reason I don’t actually want that to come to pass.. Idk how he’s gonna come back from this compulsive lying. I’m not a fan. Gonna take some really good development to make me forgive this.
I LOVE this final moment with Texas. Tim does a masterful job of not breaking. I commend Miles for saying he appreciates all Tim is doing for him. He can see that it isn't just to be harsh with him. There is a method to his madness. To quote Lucy from 1x04 'He's calculating not cruel.' He’s teaching this kid right.
Not only that he recognizes why Tim is so hard on him. Also he's being brought back down to earth. Especially about not knowing it all. Realizing how many holes he really has in his knowledge. Having an epiphany in this scene. It's amazing progress to see. You're growing on me Texas. On Tim too. You can see it in his eyes through out his speech. Excited to see how he continues to be molded.
There is so much to unpack in this scene. It's insane. First of all. Tim’s house! I've missed it. God it’s gorgeous. Holy hell. So glad Eric pressed to have it return. It's as beautiful and understated as he is. Also feral Caitlin must make appearance. Cause he is in street clothes after all. gimme gimme. AND In my favorite color no less. Only he could make such a plain shirt so god damn attractive. The way it tightens around his chest. Hot damn. I'm a puddle. Mmm wanna climb him like a tree. *fans self*
If that isn't enough to make me lose my mind we have Kojo! Return of our fav pupper. Their handsome fur baby making an appearance. Barking before Lucy even knocks on the door. Just knows his mama is near. Alerting Tim to get up and greet their visitor. Look at how excited our boy is when he opens the door and she's there. No one makes this man light up faster than Lucy Chen.
We see the disappointment on his face when he realizes it's work related. Hence the sassy reply about her question. Lucy, just letting her damn self in regardless of what Tim is saying though. They are in fine form here everyone. I’m so happy right now. Lucy airing her concerns about Seth to Tim. Saying how she can't shake the feeling something is off. I feel that way too...Giving me the ick hard.
Tim does his best to put her mind at ease about Seth. Saying how comprehensive they are. They're invasive and he has to pass a polygraph as well. Tim slyly mentioning how they both know how illuminating those can be. Heh Tim’s liar detector joke. Love the little shots he takes and it earns a smile out of her. Little flirt. Well done babe.
I adore that her instinct is still to rely on Tim. When she’s worried or unsure. That is her go to. He is still her person in that regard. That inexplicable pull she can’t quite deny or ignore. Was hoping this whole Seth thing would lead her to Tim for advice. Just wasn't expecting it to be in his house. I'm tickled pink about it though haha
Feeling a surge of frustration and doubt, Lucy apologizes and starts to walk away. Like it's just hitting her what she's done. Showing up unannounced at his house, forcing her way in, asking his advice and flirting with him in the process. Her adrenaline wearing off and she is feeling vulnerable. She can feel that familiar draw of their banter. As she stated in 5x12. They're so good at arguing. Her immediate reaction is to retreat for a multitude of reasons. Kojo gets up and says hold on there mom not just yet.....
I love him getting up right away not letting her go without some snuggles. That a boy. You be our little Chenford cheerleader. Doing his best to keep her there. He resets the mood with this move. Lucy loving on Kojo makes my heart so happy. Also look at Tim. The man could power a city with that smile. He is melting into a damn puddle in front of her. Couldn't be happier to see them together again. Lucy letting Kojo know how much she misses him.
'Feeling's mutual.' OH. MY. LORD. Way to be transparent af my love. Do it more….Straight up using Kojo to say he misses Lucy. It's oozing out of him, how much he craves her presence. I cannot everyone. Let's not ignore the fact that Lucy looks at him sweetly in reply. Melting a little more each episode. It's a very telling look. Still a little guarded but happy none the less. I will take this win from her. So will Tim. Any positive moment with her is a win.
Tim nervously asking her to stay. *screams into a pillow* Sweet baby James. I'm so giddy I might faint. The little breath he takes before he asks. *heart clutch* So reminiscent of 5x08. This is everything. That man is so so gone for her. He wants her to stay more than anything. Ugh my heart. Look at him. Hands in his pockets. Being a little awko taco. Hoping against hope she will say yes. The only way he could be more transparent is if he wore a 'I love and miss Lucy.' sign. Holy cow. If you had any lingering doubts after last week this should obliterate that.
Lucy is stunned by his offer. Stands up right away with her 'Oh.' You can see she has to fight that magnetic pull of theirs. That need to be around him and stay. Melissa plays it so well. Fighting that urge. Knowing if she stays where it’ll end. Most likely in his bed... She can’t risk that. Can't risk hurting her heart like that again. Even though that same heart is dying to stay, her brain helps her bolt. Her nervous chuckle as she tells him no. Stumbling over her words to make a quick exit. Leaving both her boys behind. This hurt so good. Oh my lord. I am here for the slow burn everyone. I've said this many times. To get back to the summit that is them together it's going to take time.
When we do it's going to be so worth it. The delayed gratification will be unreal. We have to remember it's been FOUR episodes. Just four. I'm feeling no impatience at this point. This is going to be a lovely climb back to them. They can give me little moments like this as they make their way back all they want. I'm here for it and grateful to have them. I couldn’t be prouder of Tim for going for it though. Being the first to put himself out there again this second round. Just like he did in S5. Showing her he misses her with this offer. Testing their grounds by doing so. Think he could tell she wanted to. But wasn't surprised when she said no.
Goodness this made me giddy af. Also that man is a snack in that shirt. So she is strong to walk away from him. She all but runs when he is soft with her. Can’t say I blame her. Right now that way lies hurt. Also they need to have a real convo first. But hot damn I’m excited he went for it. Not once but twice. Saying he missed her inadvertently then asking her to stay. Ooooh I’m excited you guys! If you aren't I can't help you I really can't LOL Reaching down to pat the good boy with a sigh. His wingman really tried. Swing and a miss Timothy. But proud of you for giving it a go. I cannot wait till next week
Thank you x1000 to everyone who interacts with these. With your likes, comments and reblogs. They make my whole day every time a notification comes in. Biggest smile on my face. You're all the best. See you all in 7x05 :)
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Side notes-Non Chenford
'How secure you are in your marriage.' I’ve been saying that since Wes heard the tapes. Oh Wes, what happens when you marry a beautiful, strong and independent woman.
'Being a woman is consistently terrifying.' If that isn’t the truth…. Line of the season for Angela right there.
The Sorority girls kicking the shit out of that guy was incredible. When I saw the blood on the floor I was worried. Then to see all those woman kicking, punching and stabbing that dude. Was epic. Angela telling them they have her recommendation if they ever was join the LAPD LOL
I wanna cry for Wes with this SL. Letting a killer back onto the streets. Doing his job or not that weighs on a person. Their psyche and conscience. He gave me such anxiety as he raced the the scene. Gah just breaking my heart when Angela checks in on him. Well done Shawn for this gif above. We don't get to see him flaunt his chops a whole lot and I'm happy to see they gave him the chance. He was fantastic in this ep.
Bailey took the phone number and let him go. Props my friend. More balls than your husband. When it comes to people I love I get very gray. I'm all about black and white like Tim but also like Tim, when its someone I love those start to blur to protect them. So kinda don't blame her for taking the insurance of his number.
Locking her away isn’t the answer my dude. It’s insulting to think she can’t handle herself if I was her. Be better to be together and tackle it as a team. But that’s just me.
‘You’re a grown ass woman not baby sitting you.’ Wade Grey I adore you sir.
Nyla being on her own making my heart palpitate. It felt very last of us if you’ve ever played that game and know the stress of it lol It was good but also anxiety inducing.
Loved the Nyla and Lopez hug I love it. Always happy to see this bad ass duo together.
7x05 looks good with the serial killer SL. Have a WILD theory of maybe it being Seth? I highly doubt it is. But dude be sus af right now. If that was true could bring up PTSD for Lucy with Caleb and all that. But that's a crazy road to go down. But had to get it off my chest on the off chance he ends up being involved somehow.
#Caitlin's First Impressions#chenford#the rookie 7x04#7x04 Darkness Falling#the rookie#tim x lucy#tim bradford#lucy chen#s7#lucy x tim#eric winter#melissa o'neil
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Real talk though, even though I draw a lot of silly stuff from the Mafia x Gang leader au, this is by no means a happy story. No one is gonna die (I'm not as strong as Tay 😭) But nevertheless, it won't end in the "best" way, at least not for Nezha.
Anyways more Mafia x Gang leader lore ramble below
Again, Ao Bing is a mafia heir. Despite his family's goal to keep the public at large safe and unaware of the worst parts of humanity, they don't do so through the most legal or moral of means. Every member of the Loong family has had blood on their hands, every member of the Loong family has had to pull a few strings to get what they want, and that includes Ao Bing.
Whether it be because an enemy gang or mafia decides to target Ao Bing to get the upper hand over the fallen Loong family, or because the Li family finds out about the new residents' insidious background, either way, Nezha will find out who Ao Bing truly is. He's done his fair share of crime in his years haunting the streets of Chentang Guan: Theft, property damage– a broken nose or bone here or there– but Nezha hasn't done the things Ao Bing has had to do. Nezha has never killed.
(Admittedly, he's conflicted about this. Who wouldn't be when the man you've been head over heels for, the man who seems to share the same feelings you do, turns out to be a member of a mafia? And one of the most infamous and influencial families at that, especially during the height of their power)
(He doesn't know how to feel about this, doesn't know how to feel about Ao Bing. And the worst part about this- he believes- is the terrifying thought that this doesn't change the way he sees him. Nezha, still high on the ecstacy of young love, can't seem to pull back rose tinted lenses whenever Ao Bing is near, can't stop the way his pulse thrums at every, airy laugh, every soft smile, every small act and drop of attention Ao Bing generously spares his poor heart)
(Ao Bing made him feel seen, dared him to feel vulnerable for what must have been the first time in what felt like forever. He was his equal in almost every way, and looked past that rough exterior and delinquent past he bore proudly to protect himself, and instead saw a lonely boy– much like himself– who desperately needed someone who understood him.)
Even still, Nezha is distanced from Ao Bing. But whether it's by his own doing or by his family's insistence though doesn't matter, because the two won't stay apart for long. When news of Ao Guang's youngest, surviving heir and his newfound weakness becomes known, word spread from the angry whispers of the enemy gangs surrounding the small town of Chentang Guan, up, up until it finds the ears of the members of the Chan Sect, a well-known group of law enforcers that- despite the image they uphold of morality and safety for all- are no better, if not worse than the Loong family who once ruled the city the Chan Sect now watch over.
Seeing some way to extinguish the still burning remnants of the crime family, the members of the Chan Sect make their way to Chentang Guan and striked.
Nezha had always been the target of injustice, but at least a majority of the hardship and shame were thrown at him.
Now though, with not only his family but the families of his members on the line, alongside the threat of losing their livelihoods and future due to the Chan Sect's influence solely because he chose to love the wrong person, Nezha disowns himself, sparing his family from the Chan Sect's threats of blacklisting both his parents and brothers from the entire legal industry and tarnishing their good name. He also disbands his gang, before running away to the only person who he could possibly turn to in a time where he had no one left, and no place to go.
Damning himself to a life of danger and crime, Nezha becomes Ao Bing's right hand, and joins the ranks of the Loong crime family.
#Ao Bing feels incredibly guilty for this btw and Ao Guang and Shen Gongbao have warned Ao Bing about the dangers of making connections#Especially as the heir to the Loong family#But when Nezha shows him what life could have been if he hadn't been born carrying the weight of his lost loved ones and the expectations of#Of being the next in line to Ao Guang's criminal empire#He couldn't help himself#Not when Nezha would gift him toys on their dates or treat him to sweets or write and sing him songs and poems#Dragons. In western mythology at least. Have been known to be greedy and protective of what's theirs#And Ao Bing is a very. /very/ selfish dragon#And Ao Guang can't say no to him. Not when he's following his heart#nezha#nezha 2025#ao bing#nezha 2#oubing#bingzha#Oops I wrote a lil too much ahaaaa#Mafia au#Mafia x Gang leader au#Au#Alternate universe
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