#this is a Need to put out there. it's 1:30 am. everything is very funny rn.

[applejongho]

[profilerclra]

Oh no, i love him. Pt. 2 | Spencer Reid x Bestfriend!Fem!Reader

more fluff !!

find part.1 here!

content: Spencer calls reader stuff like "honey" (yes, I am obsessed w pet names), Mutual pining, Reader is an overthinker (just like me fr).

warnings: none

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The day before, you and the team had finally arrested the unsub that was threatening your best friend. You hoped to get a good night of sleep after one week of horrible nightmares, well that's not what happened. 

Instead, as soon as you lied down, your head now started to remind you of everything that went down the previous day. You and Spencer, what almost happened, the awkwardness during the whole day, how you two basically didn't speak the rest of the day, the way the team were staring at you both… You were scared that your friendship was ruined, scared that everything was a misunderstanding and now Spencer thought you were a creep. 

"Fuck this" You say, accepting that there's no way you would sleep, getting up and heading to your living room to at least watch something to pass time until you had to go to work. 

You turn on the TV, and notice that the channel is playing an episode of doctor who. 

"Very funny universe" You say, it's like Spencer is everywhere around you. The cardigan you stole from him on the coat rack, his favorite book that he annotated for you on the coffee table… You can't escape him, and there's no way you're losing him. 

You watch a couple episodes, a few moments later you look at the time. It's 5:30, you start to get ready, have your breakfast and head out to the office. Besides your attempts, you still arrive early, being the only one already in the office besides… him. 

"Couldn't sleep either? " You say to Spencer taking him out of the focus on his paperwork and setting your things down to your table that was close to his. 

"Yeah, there's a lot on my mind to be honest" He says, looking up at you

"Mine to…" You say, grabbing a chair to sit down next to him. "Spence, we really need to talk. I need to tell you something" 

He does not answer, just maintains eye contact, waiting for you to continue. You take a deep breath, gathering courage It's now or never, you'll never know if you don't ask. 

"Ok, yeah… I love our friendship, I really do, it's like top 5 best things that ever happened to me. I don't know what a would do without you, and if you don't... agree with what I say I really need us to continue the same, I cannot do this job, hell I can't exist without you" 

You take a deep breath, gathering courage It's now or never, you'll never know if you don't ask. "But I don't know if I'm delusional, but there's no way this - You point between you two - is just friendship love. And this felling has been driving me crazy for months now, and I need to know and if you don't feel the same that fine. What do you actually feel for me, Spence?" 

Your heart feels like it's coming out of your chest, the seconds before he answers feel like hours and then he just… Starts laughing

"Fuck you Spencer" You say as you see the man laugh in front of you, you expected that he would not reciprocate your feelings but laugh at them was at another level. 

"No, honey, I'm sorry, it's just… Isn't it obvious?" 

"Not really, Spencer" You roll your eyes at him and cross your arms at your chest 

"Darling…" He says, putting his hands on both sides of your face, looking at your eyes, "I don't think there has been a single day on my life since I met you that I haven't been in love with you" 

As soon as he finishes that sentence, you feel your heart skip a beat and your stomach drop. You lean in and kiss him deeply, and he wraps his arms around you and pulls you close. You both stand there, embracing each other. You have never felt so loved.

[o0o0thorn0o0o]

Late, I know, but…! Only by two days, so I’ll still label/tag it:

Ichihime Week, Day 7: Mythical Lovers / Rainbow

I was planning on adding in magpies in the background this time, but I was getting lazy, and it’s already late, so maybe next time ^^;

(Also I was thinking of making a rainbow version, but it didn't come out as I would have liked? Idk. I still think it’s cute, though, so I put it under the cut)

Alrighty, listen: I really didn’t mean to wait this long to post. But, like, very shortly after Eid, my iPad’s storage filled up, like, to the point I couldn’t even access my mail (that’s how I found out, pfft). I was wondering why I’d ever need 256 GB 4 years ago… but still, it was $100 extra bucks. Sure, it was a grad gift, but 128 GB was expensive enough—still a lot of storage, too… Not enough, clearly!

Hoarding layers (and recoloring my own art, pfft) has really caught up to me… but also, it wouldn’t help too much if I didn’t either. After deleting what I could bear to part with, that took away around 5 GB, but merging layers in other works barely made a dent.

So I’ve spent these past few weeks wondering what to do, thinking about emailing my 2019 (imported from my 5s) and 2020 works to an email I also created 4 years ago for some reason I totally forgot about and never used so that I don’t end up taking any space in my actual one and then uploading them onto two (since I really don’t want my files corrupting) USBs via my laptop, trying to get those USBs from Target (but since I was adamant this time in getting 256 GB USBs—I don’t want to have to worry about storage for a longgggg time—there were none in stock), ordering them off of eBay instead since my dad insisted on their cheapness, waiting a week for them, then transferring them to that email and uploading them onto its Google drive if the files was too big…

But that was taking much too long and still left space on my iPad while I was doing it. I managed to complete the 2019 and 2020 pieces from my iPad, but it also only ended up being around 1 GB… So, like, I need to clear more years (breaks my heart, it does ;~; Sure, I still have access to them via that email and those USBs, but it’s not convenient anymore, and there are still pieces I plan on getting back to… ackkkkk).

Contemplating it some more and discussing it with a friend, much as I abhor subscription services, I finally decided to purchase a premium membership on Ibis for that 20 GB of cloud storage. I can afford the 30 bucks a year, and I like the app anyway—serves me good—and not having to watch an ad every 18 hours to access my go-to brushes would be nice, plus having access to the other stuff, but yeah: ✋🌈✨cloud storage✨🌈 🤚

Anyway, I’m pretty sure a good chunk of what’s taking up my space is actually the cache, as I’m already more than halfway through my drawings, and I’m not sure if I’ll reach that 75 GB of storage Ibis was apparently taking up with just my drawings. So I’ll probably need to download everything, then delete the app and redownload it ‘cause stupid IOS doesn’t let you easily clear it 🫠

Anyway, I really thought I’d be done by now, but am not—that said, I managed to clear out around 10 GB off of Ibis (not my iPad; I somehow managed to gain back 5?? Somewhere?? I’ve no clue; I don’t see it), which is wayyy more than enough to get one drawing done for IH week, so I paused the whole storage thing for now. I actually tried to get day one’s drawing done on the 6th, but I’m dealing with perspective that’s hurting my brain, so I decided to get day seven’s done instead, ‘cause I thought I’d be on time…

Me? On time? Man, who knew I was so funny… 😒

But yeah, day seven is done! I’ll definitely revisit that day one drawing in the future, but not anytime soon. As if I wasn’t backed up already, this whole storage mess has backlogged even further, and there are other dates coming up 😮‍💨 And, y’know, gotta finish the storage transfer, too… Ahhhhhhhhhh!

Anyway, on a more positive note, gradient maps are actually very neat to use—had a little too much fun, eheh. I won’t confess how much time I spent testing it out on this piece, but here be my favorite:

They’re so golden <3 ☺️

[sloanecerity]

Digimon Adventure Wrestling AU (Part 1)

(Minor content warning: some of these gifs, because they're wrestling, might have blood in them! I'll do my best to avoid what I can but just take note of this if that makes you squeamish).

After so long of initially talking about it I am FINALLY starting this post. Well the first part of this post. The initial idea was to just post EVERYTHING and I realized that that's probably not a great idea (given that also I only have 30 gifs/pictures I can put in a post), so I'm going to do these in parts. For the Adventure kids I'll do these a few at a time, depending on what characters intersect the most with each other or if I feel like certain characters should have their own. Characters will probably come up multiple times within various posts given how much I've brainrotted this so much. I have so many storylines built up for this but not really the energy to write fanfics for them (yet) so I'm gonna just spit out all my ideas here.

For the 02 kids (probably not including Kari and TK given their connections with Tai and Matt) they'll probably have their own dedicated post all together.

Also I'm going to be using dub names that's just what I'm used to

Also also, I don't know a TON about wrestling since I've only just really gotten into it recently, so apologies for that, also most of my wrestling knowledge is AEW with some Japanese wrestling knowledge about various joshis and NJPW wrestlers so my comparisons/thoughts will be based on that!

And before starting, for all my Digimon friends who don't know wrestling lingo: Face: Short for babyface, a good guy. Does things the crowd cheers for, and wrestles very honorably. Heel: A villain. The crowd boos them and they revel in it, they're dishonorable and will fight dirty. Tweener: An in-betweener, sort of like chaotic neutral. Questionable morals who does stuff for themselves. Kayfabe: The idea that none of this is fake and it's all real.

For all intents and purposes, consider everything happening in these posts in terms of story beats are all in kayfabe. They're all real and not scripted for television entertainment.

Ok without further ado let's get going with some basic lore:

So the setting is the Odaiba Wrestling Federation (OWF), a promotion in Japan that was started in Odaiba. The original 8 are the first major members to join/catapult it to prominence.

TAI KAMIYA

The de facto, number one babyface of OWF. He's the main man and the first major wrestler of the company. And you know who I think of when I think of that? Everyone's favorite fucking cowboy, Hangman Adam Page

So like, listen to me. Hear me out. They both are guys who help the company rise to prominence. Hangman is a cowboy, Tai is very much similar in terms of his fiery attitude. Hotshots, guys who are big but not overly so (this is early Hanger I'm talking about not present day Massive Hanger), and really good in the ring. He's strapping, he's handsome, he's funny, he's great in the ring. People love him!

I imagine while he just goes by Tai Kamiya he's got the nickname of The Dragon of Courage (after the Option Card from BT14 of the Digimon TCG)

And his finishing move/most notable move would be a spear called the Brave Tornado

But I will say he also needs some sort of Buckshot Lariat (the Nova Blast?) I think a big beefy guy with wild hair and a wild look in his eyes should be allowed to buckshot lariat a dude. I think in this AU where Tai is BIG both in height and in mass he deserves to just have a real fucking haymaker of a hit.

(Like come on, Greymon is a big guy and even though he's shooting out a lot of fireballs he does get some hits in, we gotta reflect that with Tai).

So Tai is a beloved face who is constantly moving upwards in the company, right? Well, for those who know everyone's favorite cowboy (apologies my Digimon oomfs but we're here for storytime) they know that after his meteoric high, he's gotta have his fall from grace.

Despite Tai Kamiya being the go to wrestler in OWF he is going to hit rock bottom and turn from OWF's greatest face to one of their most terrifying heels. But for the full story on that? We gotta look at Adventure's lone wolf.

MATT ISHIDA

So Matt I've had a lot of thoughts for. Like Tai, he joined incredibly early on, and I imagine the two of them have worked together for a long time, tagged together, etc.

They're long time friends who played a big role in OWF's come up. I'm kind of imagining it sort of like The Elite from AEW? The core dudes who help made the company as notable as it is and allowed it to live long enough to flourish.

I'm trying to think of what their tag name would be but I'm not entirely sure. But anyways, I don't think Matt finds his analogue in either of the Jacksons, despite the idea of the Young Bucks/Elite connection thought I had. I have other thoughts.

Let's be real, Matt is the Cool Guy(tm). Who else is a cool guy?

Easiest Orange Cassidy comparison of my entire life. While Matt has a lot of emotional turmoil for many reasons, those will come into play later. Early on in his tenure with OWF, he comes off too cool for school, incredibly lackadaisical and laidback, but also INCREDIBLY skilled. He knows what he's doing, and he's one of the major favorites, too. I don't think he would do the hands in his jean pockets gimmick but he'd have something similar. Maybe a jacket.

I'm also thinking his his signature move is an Orange Punch called Kaiser Nail (I know the Orange Punch features no claws or slashing but like cut me a little slack). Just a big ol' fucking haymaker of a hit.

"But Sloane" you're wondering, how does such a cool, unbothered guy beef with Tai, especially when they're friends! Well, that's the FIRST part of Matt's deal in OWF, the other will make things clear.

(Gif by @reliablejoukido)

Enter Matt's heel turn, inspired by his getting manipulated into going against Tai by Cherrymon, during the Dark Masters arc. Matt joins a stable of heels called The Dark Masters and immediately assumes leadership considering his tenure in OWF and his skill, and their real world analogue in Jon Moxley and the Death Riders.

(How do the other Dark Masters play into this considering this is an AU focused on the humans? Don't worry about it. Don't worry about it. It's not important. What is important is the fact that he has a bunch of powerful lackeys behind him in his goal to uplift OWF through fear and pain.)

NOW, if anyone who is reading this watches AEW I know you're gonna be like "But Sloane, the Death Riders shit is bad" presumably, I mean I and everyone I watch wrestling with thinks that right now. It's not great! It's been way too long in the tooth but I'll hold off from expanding on that more because this is a Digimon wrestling AU not "Sloane offers her thoughts on the state of AEW". But I promise you, unlike TK (TK in this sense being Tony Khan, owner of AEW, not TK Takaishi. This will probably be confusing I might make a note of that in the future), I have THE VISION. I have a PLAN. And here it is:

Matt looks at all of his longtime friends/coworkers (the other Digidestined in this AU), thinks none of them are taking this seriously anymore. Everyone is getting soft and weak and coasting by. Sure, there are new champions getting the belt, sure, there are great matches happening, but where's the drive? Where's the passion? Where's the love of wrestling and not just doing this as a show? He's the one that has to ignite a FIRE back under OWF's collective ass to get them back in shape. And of course, who's at the head of it all?

That's right, one Tai Kamiya.

(I mean, come on, with how much homoerotic tension there is in wrestling, especially anything Hangman is involved in, Tai and Matt are perfect here)

So Matt has to bring Tai down and drag him all the way to his lowest possible point. He wants to see if Tai still has the fire in him to pull himself up from hell. He's going to embarrass Tai, humiliate him, and worst of all? He's going to do it by getting the most important person to Tai in the entire company out of his way. His best friend, his manager, the man who has been by his side since he first joined OWF.

Izzy Izumi.

For now, though, I'm going to end this here, if only because this is already getting too dang long for its own good. The next post will dig into the core of Tai's fall from grace as a face to a heel, Izzy's role in the story as his manager, TK's involvement being Matt's younger brother, and of course, the big man himself causing trouble, Matt.

Thank you for reading to the end of this post don't worry there is a lot more to come the madness is only beginning.

[imtrashraccoon]

My Top Ten Posts of 2024

It's the last day of 2024! I wanted to do this for a bit but didn't want to go through everything manually. Then, my friend @aylish91 made a top 10 post using a little tool that I also had to try!

1. Bad Sansuary: Free Space - Snuggle (January 31, 2024)

The finale! I think it's rather fitting that this one was my top post of the year. I think it was a great way to wrap up the month.

2. Cross x Reader: A Gentle Soldier (March 12, 2024)

I knew this one would be on here! Every other day I get a notification that someone liked it and I'm just, amazed? Something original to me was this good? I need to write for Cross more apparently... (Btw, it is canon to The Nightmare of Apathy if you haven't read it yet!)

3. Bad Sansuary: Horror - Hot Drinks (January 1, 2024)

The very first post of the year and the first chapter of Have Some Empathy, Dear. I'm still so proud of this one and if it wasn't part of an overarching story, I think it would be a great opening to a Horrortale story.

4. Bad Sans' Reactions to Being Called "A Bad Boy" (April 18, 2024)

I... I didn't expect this one to be on here to be honest. It was just a silly little headcanon that I came up with during a conversation with @/owl-bones. It was cringe and yet somehow the only headcanon that made the list.

5. Bad Sansuary: Horror - Romance (January 2, 2024)

This one also makes sense to be here. It was also a funny chapter to write and had character development for the MC.

6. Don't Imagine #9: Nightmare (August 23, 2024)

Hm, I wonder why this one is so high up? Oh, probably because I made it super indulgent and it got a bit of a boost. I'm glad this list had at least one entry from later in the year!

7. Bad Sansuary: Nightmare - Shield (January 28, 2024)

Heh, the climax of the story and Nightmare saving the day. What could be cooler than that? Nothing! I'm still super proud of this and I remember being amazed that the story was wrapped up so neatly.

8. Bad Sansuary: Dust - Vibe Check (January 10, 2024)

I am a tad surprised Dust didn't rank higher but I'm glad this chapter made the list. I feel like I put more effort in the other ones but this was just a silly little idea. It was definitely the turning point in Dust's and MC's relationship.

9. Bad Sansuary: Horror - Sharp (January 3, 2024)

Heh, this was a really fun chapter. I just really like big scary boys turning soft and gentle. This one is always a delight to read back.

10. Bad Sansuary: Free Space - Scars (January 30, 2024)

I'm glad this one also made the list. It was a bit of a personal one for me and really comfy. I need to write more comfort chapters like this.

If you want to make your own top ten post list, check out the link below!

And that's that! I feel like I might have peaked in January lol. At least there's another year on the horizon! I'm going to be writing for Bad Sansuary again, so keep a look out tomorrow for the first chapter! After that, maybe I'll take a look at finishing some older fics or requests. See you in the New Year lovelies! (⁠◍��•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍⁠)💜

[wjhik]

I Am Your Missus (Trent Alexander-Arnold)

A/N: A short wholesome one

Y/N's POV:

Trent and his friends have decided to go out tonight, before the season starts. "Baby, I'm leaving in a minute." Trent calls out to me. I'm sitting in the living room, scrolling through Pinterest to look for some wedding inspiration for our wedding in December, and he's getting ready in our shared bedroom. After a while, Trent walks out of the bedroom, dressed in some cargo pants and a crew neck along with some Jordans. I look behind my shoulder to see my fiancé standing there, looking fine as ever. (enough boyfriend and husband. Time for some fiancé appreciation) Trent walks behind me and places a kiss on my exposed shoulder. "What are you up to?" He asks me. "Just doing some wedding planning. I was looking at these flowers. What do you think?" I ask him, turning back and looking into his big doe eyes. "Yeah, sure." He tells me. He's been 'yes'ing everything I've asked him. He's truly given me creative freedom for our wedding. "Alright, baby. I'm going to get going. I love you." He bends down and kisses my cheek. I quickly throw the blanket off of my lap and get up. I walk over to him and put my arms around his waist. He puts his arms around my shoulder and squeezes me tight. (no more wrapping my arms around his shoulders. About time we had some tall girl appreciation) "I love you. Be safe. Let me know when I should pick you up." I let him know. "Don't worry about it, baby. I'll catch a ride with someone." He tells me. "Alright, baby. I'll be here if you need me." I let him know. If he needs someone to fall back on, I'm always here.

Trent's POV:

"So, how's the wedding planning?" One of my friend's asks. Honestly, it doesn't matter too much how the wedding looks. As long as I'm getting to marry the girl of my dreams, I'm happy. "Yeah, it's alright. Y/N's trying to delay it. She says that she needs more time to plan, but I think we should just elope at this point." I say, laughing as I take a large chug out of the bottle of alcohol. I've been drinking myself away, it being most likely the last in a while as the season starts soon.

"No, no. I'm not going home with you. I've got a missus." I can't believe that this guy is hitting on me. He's trying to take me home, but I don't know where he's been. "Trent, just get in the car. I'm taking you home to your missus." Do I know him? Regardless, I'm not losing Y/N for him. I'm getting married soon, and we're going to have a whole bunch of babies. I sit down on the curb, outside of the club, or at least I try to, but I end up stumbling onto my ass. I feel this guy grab my arm and sit next to me. "Hey! First, you hit on me and try to take me home. Now, you try to pickpocket me!" He's reaching into my pocket and trying to steal my phone. "I'm calling your missus. Be quiet." Oh, good. I simply lay my head on his lap, and call it a night.

Y/N's POV:

"Hello? Hey, baby?" I pick up the phone as Trent calls me. It's about 1:30 am. "Hey, Y/N." I hear an unfamiliar voice reply. "It's Peter. Your fiancé is passed out on my lap on the curb. He refuses to let me take him home. He's convinced I'm trying to fuck him and doesn't want to cheat on you." I can't help but giggle at Trent's drunk activities. "I'll be there in 15." I say, getting up. I quickly put on a hoodie and some slides and grabbing my car keys. I head out the door and start Trent's car. I always prefer driving his than mine. It's so much nicer, but that's not the reason. My car's getting fixed after a nasty car crash. In my defense, it wasn't my fault. I was very tired, and the pole was in the way. (i'm a very good driver but this was funny)

"Hey, sweetie. You wanna go home?" I talk to my fiancé who is dead asleep on his friend's lap. "Why are all of you lot trying to fuck me? Leave me and my wife alone!" Trent protests. "Trent, honey, I am your wife, and I'm not your wife quite yet." I say, rubbing his back, in an attempt to wake him up. His eyes quickly dart open and he looks at me. He struggles to sit up as Peter helps him up and gives me a hug. I feel myself stumble backward a little bit, my crouched position on the floor leaving me unstable. Trent is a lot heavier than he seems. "Oh, okay. Let's get you home, love." Peter stands up and helps Trent up. I also stand up. I wrap my arm around Trent's waist and help him into the car. I shut the door behind him and turn to thank Peter and give him a hug. "Get home safe, yeah?" He says.

"Baby, can I pleeeaaasseee fuck you?" Trent begs me, slurring his words. "Tomorrow, I promise." I tell him, tucking him into bed. I head to the kitchen and grab some crackers and water. On the way back to the bedroom, I grab some painkillers for the morning. "Baby, come cuddle with me please?" Trent asks me, holding his arms out for me. I get on my side of the bed and open my arms for him. He wiggles into my side and wraps his arms around my waist. He puts his head in my chest and gives it a little kiss. "Mhhh...I love you so much. I can't wait to put a baby in this pretty stomach." He says. "One day, love." I tell him, rubbing the back of his head. I feel his hand creep down my back and grab my ass. I let out a small yelp and lightly slap his arm. I look down to see him dozing off into my chest. He soon starts snoring like a tractor. As much as I hate his snoring, I love him more than anything in the world.

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[sahaias]

Soy Luna Season 2 Episodes 1-30 Thoughts

Okay, so I've been going through season 2 much slower than season 1 because my free time is limited and things move super fast on my days off from work.

But beginning with my thoughts on this season and its plot points so far:

It's so fucked up that Sharon is faking Ambar's past just to preserve a fortune that isn't rightfully hers. Lili and Bernie didn't die so they could leave everything to their sister/sister-in-law, it belongs to their daughter

It feels like Simon's really been on the backburner this season so far, and I miss seeing more of him.

This also applies to most of the side characters, but I don't care about them as much lol.

I noticed Luna has more one-on-one scenes with her mom than dad this season, and I feel like it's the writers trying to make up for her confiding in her dad rather than her mom like 4/5 times more in season 1.

Adrenaline is pretentious with their "we don't show up to competitions or put limits on our art like this", and I don't get why Ramiro likes Fernanda so much. I do find it funny that Ramiro starts shitting on Matteo once he joins though, it's cathartic

I know they want us to feel bad about Matteo's whole "I can't let Luna get close to me because I am leaving soon" shtick, but it's not romantic or cute. It is just stupid. Luna would be understanding if Matteo gave the whole truth. Plus, it would be much easier on her than all the lies that he creates.

Nina and Gaston are very cute, but I am worried for them with this Oxford storyline. I wish we got more scenes of them though. It feels like their only big moment was singing together.

Ambar has been clearly messed up by Sharon, because despite knowing her alleged past that fills in all of the gaps, she still feels the need to compete with Luna and make her miserable. I just feel bad for her and am dreading how she'll respond once the truth about Luna comes out.

This twins storyline is already a headache, and I am dreading seeing what it'll progress into.

Pedro looks younger with longer hair, but I think he looked better with the shorter hair in season 1

Juliana is so extra and the way she just insults people for not meeting her standards is annoying as fuck. She has very exaggerated physical gestures that make it very bothersome to look at the screen when she is on it.

I feel like this season has more drama and less excitement in it overall, which makes me less motivated to watch. I attribute this to less Simon tbh

I like the main plot/secrets of Soy Luna more than Violetta, and the show feels more grounded than Violetta. However, the side characters and romantic pairings in Violetta are way more captivating. I am hoping upcoming plotlines are more engaging tbh.

Sebastian is such a weird recurring character, and him being an actual youtuber makes him feel more weird to me for some reason

Ending this post with the fact that when I first saw Matteo in a wig imitating Luna, I was drinking water and ended up choking on it from laughing hysterically

[somaticknitter]

Mighty Nein EP 50

I know I'm years behind but damn those art prints fuck hard

🎶ROLL THE DICE 🎶

But my husband-we spent three months searching for your backstory...

Love that the dynasty just has like big fuckass dune worms

Oh wow Caleb has a whole 47hp I'm so proud

Wait I forget wouldn't frumpkin have dark vision as a cat

Kitten (Odysseus) and slightly older kitty (Caleb Widogast) have both shown mercy and haven't chosen to nap on the laptop yay

Love that caduceus' Nature sucks very funny

Living clock Caleb Widogast

Sunk cost fallacy but for fuckass worm tunnels

This geode cavern sounds so awesome

Ooooh we're stealthy as fuck boi

Nott & Jester BFF 💚💙

Already hate these tentacle cone things hate the fucking teeth hate everything about it

Evolutionary biology must be insane in fantasy worlds

Like imagine the amount of convergent evolution, mimic version of carcinization I'd kill myself

This is why so many wizards lose their shit

FOUR ATTACKS PER ROUND FUCK OFF FOREVER KESUS FUCK

(whimpers apprehensively)

Maybe they have really shitty HP since their AC is fucking 20 WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK

SLOW AND BANE MY BELOVEDS

-> FUCKING ABSCOND

DING DONG DING DONG IT'S 4 O'CLOCK

Drowning buddies round two: Fjord and Nott version 💚

[emotional moment] "also it's 9 o'clock" "Fuck you"

FRUMPKIN DANCE!! ฅ⁠^⁠•⁠ﻌ⁠•⁠^⁠ฅ

overall penalty for stealth for reading smut out loud lol lmao even

LMAO BREAK CLIFFHANGER

kobold swarm hate that

C'mon Caleb the negotiator you got this

Oh please let there be fanart of Caleb in the rope trap please I need it like I imagine arms crossed face matching his hair from the blood rush 19 intimidation while upsidedown

Insane interaction I fucking love dnd

Liam as Caleb dead eye staring while still upsidedown

Trading frumpkin only for the creature to immediately bolt is hilarious actually

Beau and jester putting on a show while everyone is just silently watching with blank expressions

WHAT IS HAPPENING

~not playing just visiting THIS IS A HOUSE OF LIES

Lmao nat 20 for 7 poison damage

This got so silly so quickly

Everyone crying from laughter including me truly this is DND at it's best

Oh please be lava or a dragon or both

FIRE GIANTS EVEN BETTER

REST IN PIECES SPURT WE HARDLY KNEW YE

Liam's face as matt describes the lava shield that is a man who is making future spell plans

Ja my grandmother used to keep me up late at night reading me stories about things like this. No I don't know anything! I don't know!

And you're going to fight: FUCKED

...maybe if we wait long enough they'll fall asleep

Nott being a mom to jester and Beau: Focus! Focus!

Oh there's no way this can end well this is an insane situation

Oh dragonfly shawl inspired by caduceus fuck yes

Lol sprinkle almost fucking Caleb over lmao even

Oh cool failed on step 1 fuckdamn

Y'know maybe if they do wait long enough the fire giants will go to sleep maybe that's a good plan actually

CMON POLYMORPH BRING US TO VICTORY

BEAUREGARD AND CADUCEUS STEP OF THE WIND 2/7 CLEAR

JESTER AND CALEB WITH DIMENSION DOOR 4/7 CLEAR

MORE BEES

32 TO HIT JESUS FUCK OH MY FUCKING GOD

Imagine if the cow fucked them over

FJORD AND YASHA WITH THUNDER STEP 6/7 CLEAR

Oh god this is such a fucking bad way to die c'mon Nott

There's only 30 minutes left and I am so stressed

Caleb casting Banishment via middle finger is so good

Everyone immediately leaving safety to rescue Nott IM DYING HERE

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME IT COLLAPSED THE FUCKING BRIDGE

CMON RING OF WATER WALKING SAVE US

wow happened in campaign 1 too the underdark just kinda sucks huh

"do you have the ability to turn back time?" "we're working on it"

9D10S?! ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING

STRESSED I AM STRESSED THIS IS SO STRESSFUL

second time caleb has seen his mom burn

oh thank fuck

I am vibrating from sheer stress my fight or flight has fucking activated hhhhhh

[nerdsaura]

Heeey! I'm back with chapter 4 of "The Nightmare Before Halloween - The Scarecrow and the Hatter" 🫶

Hope you're enjoying it!

+ Chapter 3

2:36 PM - Van Cleer Mansion - 6 hours 54 minutes until the plan

The mansion was really big, not as big as the Wayne’s, but it would fit all the guests we wanted. The huge windows’ curtains were tied upwards and the tables were placed. Some employees organized glasses and cups where they would serve the drinks, while others set the tables. We walked through the salon, Drury explained the positioning of everything, what time the guests should arrive and how the press would work during the party.

“Now, Bruce Wayne will arrive later than the others. He always likes to make a dramatic entrance. I suppose he should be here around 8:30 PM, which still gives us 1 hour of party before the plan officially begins.”

Bruce Wayne is Batman. Yes, I know. It was based on this information that we made our plan. Fortunately (and that was pure luck) the Batman doesn’t know that Cameron Van Cleer is actually Drury Walker.

“And his children only come with him, right? Could they arrive before him?”

“No, they all come together for the big entrance. But that won’t rattle the plan, I promise. The timing was calculated based on this delay.”

“Right. Let’s finish up this place. I’m getting anxious.”

We spent the afternoon helping at the mansion and by 6:30 PM everything was ready. It was time for us to prepare ourselves. Jervis and I would change at the hideouts so as not to walk around with our uniforms, so we decided to wait to see Walker’s millionaire outfit. We all stayed in his bedroom while he changed in the closet.

“Don’t laugh.”

He came out with a dark red suit with golden details and a black tie, he had dyed his hair black and styled it in a topknot, his beard was shaved and he must have put on contact lenses because his eyes were now green.

Lynns whistled. “Wow, how handsome. You should comb your hair everyday, y’know?” He got a beer bottle from who-knows-where and drank it while looking Walker from head to toe.

“Funny. Cameron Van Cleer, at your service.”

“Who would say that a bath would make someone look like a millionaire.” Edward drank his 10th coffee cup of the day.

Drury/Cameron ignored the comment. “Jervis, where’s my mask?”

“Here. This one doesn’t have the neurotransmitters.” He got a little box and opened it, showing a mask shaped like ‘The Phantom of the Opera’, made with a material that looked like black velvet and golden details. Jervis is very good at making masks.

“You’re a hundred percent sure, right? I’m really not in the mood to be hypnotized today.”

“Yes, I am sure, there is no other mask like this one.”

Drury/Cameron picked up the mask and put it on his face. It matched perfectly with his suit and made him even more elegant. Garfield whistled again.

“I do hope you don’t get a beating tonight, it’ll be really sad if someone messes up that look.”

“I hope so too. You better get going, so you have time to get yourselves ready.”

We said goodbye at the door and Lynns drove us to my lab for us to change. We would work at different places tonight, Jervis would stay there with the computers and I would need to move around town.

The clock struck 7 PM. It was time to bring out the Scarecrow.

[supernoondles]

2023

In my haste of class planning and making the most of my time in the bay, as I moved to LA for work in December of 2023, I completely forgot to write my year in review. So now I tell that it was a great year!

It was a year of milestones: I finally finished my PhD and graduated over the summer, spent the fall funemployed and traveling, and the last month moving and preparing for what, at least right now, seems to be my dream job. Yet when things are too good, I harbor a greater fear it could all come falling down.

I write this sitting on a plane from SFO to LAX (wretched airport) because 1) it was conveniently timed with my brother and his fiance (!)’s flight back to the Netherlands, and 2) I had airline credit from when I got COVID and could not make my friend’s wedding in Florida. In 2023 I got a PhD, my brother got a bachelor’s, and I got COVID from my mom when we went to Boston for said brother’s graduation. Last night (which isn't technically 2023, but 2024 starts, for me, when my health insurance card finally arrives in the mail and I get in a classroom with students) I hung out with my friends, who largely live in San Francisco, in the endless Asian strip malls of Union City. “When you get to the suburbs, SF and LA aren't so different,” said a friend. This has helped quell my anxiety about the move: that driving 30 minutes to neon plazas of Rowland Heights was semantically and experientially the same as the imitation mission plazas of the East/South Bay. (Since starting to read City of Quartz, again part of my migration south, I have thought: how funny that the lasting impact of the Spaniards, besides white supremacy, is their architecture. How funny it is that Asian immigrants now occupy these sites of worship.) This year, despite being filled with drama and (claimed) abandonment and reconciliation (or not despite, perhaps because of?) was the year of my mostly queer, entirely Asian diaspora friend group. In LA I believe I will have everything I need except for them (so although I'm scouting, I know what a rarity and a privilege I've had).

To put my move in perspective, I haven't changed geographic regions since I started college. Leaving high school was exciting (I couldn't wait) and for the last decade of my life I've had solid friends and community, as well as my family nearby. Sure, it's just the other major metropolitan area in the same state, but the distance is non trivial! For the first time in my adult life I don't have a reserve of people who are willing to hang out on a moment’s notice. For the first time in my adult life I am also living alone. I have loved the control (especially around having a clean house), but I get lonely very easily.

This year my Canadian partner left the PhD program and moved far away (back to Canada) to my immediate and eminent grief. I'm better now: daily calls help, as does begging for attention, as does turning an old friend into a lover. Japan was a sex vacation. Banff was a sex vacation. Oahu (where my lover’s aunt lives) was a sex vacation. 2023 was the year of having really good sex: public sex in a Petaluma park, sex in a ryokan with paper thin walls, hookups of varying but generally positive quality. As a consequence of my partner leaving, I finally became a real slut. It's been liberating, except for the fact that, even as of writing, I never heard back about my Medicare application so I was fucking uninsured. Out of the many indulgent days of unemployment vacation, two instances have stuck with me: hiking 12 miles while it was snowing in Banff to two teahouses nestled amongst glaciers, and landing at LAX after a sleepless flight from Japan, with a grueling 7 hour drive back to the bay ahead of us.

As I knew I would be leaving the bay area in 2022 (do you sign a year before you start in any industry besides than academia?), in 2023 I whittled away at my bay area bucket list. While I never managed to get up Sutro Tower, I did go to the Fallorons, which, despite my throwing up twice, was everything a birder could have wanted. (I took two boat rides this year, the other at Cape Cod when my brother begged for us to vacate his suffocating studio, and in that one I saw a great white shark attack. How lucky I am!) As usual, I went to many shows. New this year were shows my friends performed in! The past winter had the most rain I’d ever seen in the bay area, so I did a lot of hiking amongst the luscious green east bay hills, which stayed green until May. This made me also really happy, but I don't want my relationship to the bay area (like it is for so many people I know who have moved) to be one defined by lack.

One thing I will not miss, however, is West SF’s fog. This summer, as well as the ending of Daylight Savings time, particularly pushed me to my limits. As I get older my need for two daily hours of direct sunlight exposure grows more dire. The other lowlights of the year were having to replace my phone screen twice, and, after a decade in the bay, finally having my car broken into. I found it ironic that it was not because of petty theft (I also never leave anything in my car), but a TikTok trend encouraging teens to steal Kias and Hyundais. At least they failed with me!

In 2023 I organized a really big (600 people) party for a conference. I wrote a paper with my friends about power dynamics for the same conference (which usually only talks about “technical” things) which was also the last chapter in my thesis. Thanks, advisor, for believing in me. As the party was on Halloween, I hosted a costume contest. The winner for scariest costume was my labmate who put a photo of our advisor (my other one) on a programmable LED screen strapped to his chest.

In 2023 I also started getting paid an hourly wage that made me happy looking at the number doing contract work with an old undergraduate mentor. Beyond this, and the volunteer labor, and the paper/thesis writing, I did not do much of “working” this year: also part of the reason why this year has been awesome.

Thanks to an Asians with dyed hair and pronouns art accountability club, in 2023 I made more art than I had in past years. I did gouachetober and the occasional digital illustration. I did not, however, accomplish what I sought to do during my unemployment: dedicate myself to being a full time artist and making something great. (In retrospect, rest, recuperation, and being excited for my job instead of burnt out from my PhD was the more important goal, and I definitely achieved that!) I feel like one’s relationship to their creative practice is a lifelong evolution (mine certainly is), and at least I had time to slow down and think about how I want that to shape out (the answer which is, more than it has been.) I didn't sew much of significance (a robe with black cat fabric I bought in Japan, a very hungry caterpillar Halloween costume, a Pokémon fanny pack) this year. It was, however, a great year for video games: I really enjoyed Tears of the Kingdom (timed well with my COVID recovery), Super Mario Wonder, Pikmin 4, and I wouldn't say I “enjoyed” it, but I did play the Scarlet Violet DLC. My brother started playing Pikmin Bloom (so I have been playing it more) and I also “play” Pokemon Sleep every night. The best thing I watched was Beef. I listened to a lot of Caroline Polachek.

At a zine making workshop at Sour Cherry I got a 4x6 photo print of a cat that says, Wow! I'm looking forward to the future! That's the energy I'm approaching this new year with (I'm going to hang it in my office for my students). I am looking forward to adopting cats. My only resolution is to work less than 40 hours a week. Recapping how I did with last year's resolutions, I 1) did not really exercise more consistently, but I did run more consistently, and did a 5K with my dad on Thanksgiving! (Middle school me would never imagine.) 2) am unclear if I developed a more methodological way to conduct literature reviews, because my thesis related work was mainly copy/pasted from my old papers, and 3) did very much enjoy my last year in the bay. Here's hoping I can find community, nature, and food (rip China Lounge, I love you so much) as good in LA.

[ink-flavored]

Uncommon Questions: Pride: 1, 22, 38, A || Justice: 29, 37, 38, E

thank you! <3

Pride

1. What’s the maximum amount of time your character can sit still with nothing to do?

Oh, like, 30 seconds. Pride needs to be Doing Something all the time or he gets itchy. Allergic to sitting still. Unless he's sleeping, in which case, don't you dare try to make him do things.

22. How does jealousy manifest itself in them (they become possessive, they become aloof, etc)?

Pride is a very jealous person, and this will come up in the story,

He's a funny guy, since he can taste when there's envy around, it actually puffs him up a bit. Ha, those people are envious of ME because I am so awesome. But even if there's no envy to be detected, if someone starts getting too friendly with something - or someone - he's decided is for Him Only he gets very possessive.

There's definitely going to be a moment early on in their relationship where Pride drops a bomb of sinful influence and/or scares the shit out of anyone who is staring at Justice for longer than he deems appropriate because Fuck You He's Mine. And then Justice has to tell him to cut that shit out.

38. What memory do they revisit the most often?

Falling from Heaven. As much as he likes to say he doesn't care about the past, he very much does. It's difficult to forget being cast out of your only home and being told you deserve to suffer for eternity.

A. Why are you excited about this character?

He is my scrungly scrimbo. My angry little rat man. He is chewing on the bars of his cage. I am pinching his cheeks and he hates it.

Okay but seriously, Pride means a lot to me as a character. He's very traumatized, very shitty person, who believes he doesn't deserve to be happy but acts self-assured out of spite. He simultaneously believes and can't believe what people say about him. He thinks he's flawless and worthless at the same time. He doesn't believe he'll ever be forgiven, so he has to believe everything he's ever done is right.

I'm excited for his growth. I'm excited to write a character who has done bad things, some of which are forgiven, some aren't. But he learns to accept himself anyway, moves forward instead of constantly looking back. He's given permission to heal for the first time, and that story of his is really important to me.

Justice

29. Do they usually live up to their own ideals?

This is such a good question, because Justice's ideals are in question from basically the first moment of the story. His ideals, up to that point, had been to serve whatever God says is just and good—generally help people, aid those in need, killing is wrong, etc.. But after being told an innocent human life is acceptable collateral damage, he's having some conflict with that message!

His story is about building up his own ideals, reshaping the things he was taught and still truly believes in, if only other people weren't twisting them to suit whatever they wanted to do anyway. He goes from "do the things God says are just and righteous" to "do what is just and righteous, no matter what God says". And you can swap out "God" for any authority there.

37. Do they have a system for remembering names, long lists of numbers, things that need to go in a certain order (like anagrams, putting things to melodies, etc)?

Not really? He just remembers stuff. He cares a lot and commits things to memory because it would be rude not to remember someone's name. That's all he needs.

38. What memory do they revisit the most often?

In both a positive and negative way, the moment he became Realized, was gifted his name, and got to choose his human-body-form. In a good way because, yay I have a purpose and a body and I can hug my sister, all that good stuff. But negatively... it was also the turning point in his life when he was "enlisted" (I guess?) into Heaven's army. It's where he was taught all his perfectionism, what to do, how to be pure and righteous, to not stray from the path. God gave him the free will to discover himself, but immediately took that free will away to give him a role to serve. It's shaped his life in many, many ways.

E. Are they someone you would get along with? Would they get along with you?

In lore, Justice automatically makes humans comfortable and feel safe with his angel aura, so for sure I would get along with him lmao

I think outside of that, our personalities would mesh pretty well—and I'm not saying that because I want to be his friend so bad. We both like books and analysis of said books. I think he would be a really fun person to have Deep Conversations with, you know? The meaning of life and all that. And I know in my heart, Justice is the kind of guy who always picks the good options in RPGs because he can't bring himself to be mean to any of the characters. Same.

[send me an uncommon OC ask]

[riakida]

No problem - anything to help you get back into writing *hugs*. Last thing I want is to overwhelm you or make you feel uncomfortable. You probably need to be in your own head to focus.

Yes I have “written” in this AU - I am your anon writer friend :) - I put “written” in quotes because new material is mostly in my head for now.

The James sibling one was to be a surprise for you because you wanted it a while back. The idea was he comes back in from riding his broom outside telling his parents he knows what he wants for Christmas all excited. He’s probably 8 or 9. He wants a brother to play with. His parents gently explain to him that it’s not possible and that they were blessed to get him.

It ends with his mom telling him that someday when he goes to Hogwarts, he might make a friend that will be “like a brother” and that is special too. She promises to treat this friend well and make him feel at home.

Yes, politics are difficult especially because our system is so polar and corporations own everything. How do they do elections in Germany? Is it possible to have a “third party” or have non-partisan individuals vote in all elections? What is your system like?

We also fail because we don’t count write ins in over 30 states and the electoral college is “winner takes all” and dates back to slavery days. I try to pick battles too - I have shown people one person at a time that gender scholars are not the big bad wolf.

In fact, Arlie Hochschild - a gender scholar wrote a book about Trump supporters calling for sociological empathy. We must know why they saw an ally in him, where do we need to spread for them, and how can we change hearts. Many were disenfranchised by “elite” concerns and felt neglected in rural areas.

It’s always wonderful seeing your updates and hope you are able to take care <3

I thought it was you, writer anon :) it's funny but the writing process takes place in the head so much that i see even thinking about a story as being situated somewhere on a wide continuum that constitutes "writing". So i get that totally.

Awww it's a super sweet idea to have Mrs Potter remember that promise later when James brings home Sirius. Also looking at this from the boys' perspective, it makes sense that James got so close with Sirius so quickly because, while James was deep down looking for a brother, Sirius was also looking for a family. So this could be an explanation of why they "clicked" so quickly and easily.

Hmm the German system is super difficult to explain but we have lots and lots of parties. I think in the parliament we have 6 parties right now and bc none of them usually get the majority of votes, they always have to form coalitions in order to create a government that has more than 50% of the votes. On the federal level, there's a margin of 5% which means that very small parties (which get like 1% of the votes or 0.001%) won't get any seats in the parliament, so these votes are in fact also getting lost. These parties can be more influential on the communal levels though. Other votes for the main parties are divided into direct mandates and indirect mandates that will balance out the seats for the smaller parties, cause if we did a winner-takes-it-all-process, of course in most voting districts the big centrist parties would get the seat and smaller parties would get nothing. This is why, on the ballots, we actually have 2 votes. The result of this is however that the parliament is growing bigger and bigger - it has 733 members right now.

I don't understand why people get so upset about the gays and gender. I mean, i do get it in a way, there's safety in stability and simplicity, but it can get ridiculous too. But like you explain it, Arlie Hochschild's perspective makes a lot of sense. Is the book called "strangers in their own land"? I might actually see if my library has this book, it sounds like an interesting read.

[hospitalterrorizer]

diary137

1/29-30/2024

monday-tuesday

moving is so depressing.

maybe just because of the exhausting nature of it, plus i didn't eat at all today really. i'm so exhausted, so i'm not really doing much music stuff rn, maybe i will after posting this, but idk, the song is okay-ish. it's just a lot of tiny dumb adjustments i feel like i need to keep making. trying to figure out, for instance, why it doesn't feel right, or perfect, or something.

the place is at least looking more like a house now. or a home. not a house, since it's an apartment.

i am addicted to trying to make this right, listening to a band now is giving me ideas, 1 is i try and pan harder, like basically all the way left and right but i leave some in the middle, and then maybe i do a send where it takes panned stuff and sends it to the center again on a delay by a few ms. that should be very quiet. then on the right guitar i bump up the body by a tiny bit. another thing is i need to get the distortion tighter. that might mean shaving off some frequencies pre distortion on both ends.

this is going well, at least.

the job called today, they told me i'm going in on thursday for orientation, which is good because that's after our last day to move. we are making good enough progress on moving at least, we have all the big furniture out of the place, as well as a lot of/ all the organizing stuff. now we just need to collect a lot of the tableware, cooking stuff, things of that nature, as well as a lot of clothes, but clothes shouldn't be too hard i think. idk, hope not.

i am excited to stop moving and have everything setup so i can start working out again, that's probably part of my malaise, i am not doing the things i want to do with my body. somehow lifting all of this stuff and doing all this physical labor/having to work this way makes me very dysphoric. it feels, even though it is not the case, that i am being treated a certain way, i know this is all normal it just reminds me of all the really stupid and pointless labor my stepdad used to make me do.

now i am just thinking about how best to clean these floors, they are sticky, so that means cleaning residue, and there's dust, so i need to hit all of it w/ soap and water first, which i have hit a good chunk with, and then maybe i'll do vinegar and maybe idk, like i was thinking of doing some vinegar + baking soda cleaning. but it could be too much. these floors are just so dumb, they are too textured, and strangely too, not like real wood, like linoleum. ugly stuff.

i think this is definitely the best this song has sounded, the panning is getting a little less hard but that's good, puts things in greater focus, directionally, i guess.

yayyyyy. the song is good now, mostly, bass in the middle section is off a bit and maybe i just automate that louder, i am waiting on that though, now i just kinda wanna mess with a sound i have in my head.

and i made a sound i like, and it's like, made a song happen. that's fun. that will be for another thing maybe but who knowssss. it might make it on. it could replace another short song i have even.

anyway it's late. this week i have work isn't that crazy.

and funny, i can hear a guy's car speaker thumping now. i hear a lot of stuff around here, i'm thinking maybe i can get away with vocals here idk. 1 hour a day, noonish, whenever i am free at that time. i should avoid screeching but that seems like the way to do it if necessary, regular vox should be okay ofc.

while i'm up, i'm trying to re establish regular habits, even in the middle of everything being hectic and stressful, i'm looking at fashion scans again, these are from vogue girl korea and they're streetsnaps from london it seems, around 07, they're so funny to me.

look at his crazy pins... wtf. bejeweled guy. like it trips me up how 2d they look.

the hat, the vest, the clip on bowtie, the motto: concentrate on career. he is probably a good drummer, i figure.

the ecce homo shirt and untied shoes go crazy. i also love the rainbow necklace + the pins.

and i just love this dress.

i also love the graphic design bit of the text bubble, making you imagine all of these people are walking up to you and saying this to you. seems like a fun thing you could play with, just putting total nonsense in a textbubble like that. maybe i should trace those bubbles, lol.

n e wayssss. my head is killing me, so i need to sleep, so

byebye!!!!!!!!!!!!

[survivor-trinidad-and-tobago]

Episode 6: "you joined a Zoom call with two people who look fucking identical, did you not think people would connect the dots?"—Kolby

In this round: Lexi is medically evacuated; Zee finds an idol; a tribe swap switches things up again, bringing 3 tribes back down to 2; Raffy's soul leaves his body during Celebrity; and Zee thinks Raffy has a vendetta against her because he shared the absolutely shocking revelation that AJ and Zee are, in fact, identical twins

Soca Confessionals

Astyn

Champ

NEW TRIBE YAY! I’m so sad that Lexi got medevacted, I know she would’ve been an easy number for me going forward, but she left me 40 TT dollars so SLAY my social game! Raffy said that I’m very good at playing dumb LOL honestly I’m just a ditsy person in general. I would’ve loved to make a big move on Raffy had Lexi not got medevaced :( Honestly idk where I stand with him but he is probably coming after me so oh well. As long as I make it to merge, I feel pretty okay in my position. I’ve made good enough connections to know a lot of information and not be a threat. Everyone knows that Zee and AJ are sisters now and that’s so funny because I called it day 1. Also the fact that Kaleigh gave me her vote and now she doesn’t have a vote is so slay omg I love her she’s so sweet and I got her back 100%. Kolby Eman and I have an alliance that I feel really solid in and im assuming we are going to tribal so hoping for a good ole blindside

Eman

At first I was afraid. I was petrified. BUT I SURVIVED

And I was excited to continue working with Tony & Kolby.

I even confessed it to the VL how excited I was about it.

SO OF COURSE there was a twist and another swap.

So, I've still got Kolby.

And there's Champ who's been like boats passing in the night with me.

And Astyn who's already messaged me, so I've gotta see what they're all about.

And Jack seems nice.

And of course Raffy on who's good side I need to remain.

And then Lexi the enigma.

We'll see.

I've already revised my celebrities list a few times trying to be less esoteric. (It originally included Missy Copeland, Angela Merkel, and Mao Tse Tung)

--

Life comes at you fast.

First, thank God for Champ! I've wanted to work with her since day 1 and now we're finally there. She called me right after the challenge and we totally bonded and agreed that we need to bring Kolby in on things and I think we're good. A strong 3.

Where things get interesting is that Astyn and Jack have also expressed an interest in working with me. And from Jack I learned that he and Raffy don't have a vote next tribal.

So basically Kolby, Champ, and I could control the vote if we wanted to. Presuming that whomever we target either feels confident or doesn't have an idol.

I was feeling on the bottom with this shuffle and I don't anymore. This could get interesting.

Goat or GOAT?

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PEE ESS

If it seems like I'm a little obsessed with my extra vote, it's because I am.

This is my third game and my very first tangible advantage and I've only been watching Survivor since the actual debut (see also: I am OLD) and I'm determined not to squander this, so in classic Survivor fashion, I will be overthinking everything associated with it.

Kolby

Jack

Raffy

My tribe is the worst. I don't want to be here. Apparently everyone and their mother on this tribe has no grasp of pop culture. I'm writing this as we are losing this challenge. I don't wanna be dragged out for another 30 minutes just to lose. Please someone end my suffering all of these people are getting on my last nerve with this challenge. From not knowing who Dracula is to Jack showering in the middle, I've had it up to here. I'm over it.

Calypso Confessionals

Zee

Ok hello hello, welcome to Zee tries to write longer confessionalssssss. I've been hella tired since that movie challenge, and I feel like I mellowed out A LOT. Let's recap a little bit here, I put my entire Calypsussy into the Movie challenge, like hardcore. I'd had the idea of the Wes Anderson style trailer since Thursday, when they put the challenge on hold, so that babey was SIMMERING, until they restarted the challenge(which I didn't even know if they'd do, honestly). Did I sort of take over the challenge when I woke up? Sort of. But I didn't steamroll anyone or anything. I'd been asleep at least 7 hours when the challenge was dropped, and nobody said a thing about it, so I copy pasted suggestions from the host chat, and gave a vague idea of the plot, which was kept vague until I edited. Middle of my day friday people said they liked the idea, so I asked for clips, and Champ and I called because she said I was the only one working and putting out ideas, and she felt bad lol. So she and I decided to be the "stars" of the movie trailer, and we shot a bunch of stuff, and then I gathered clips from everyone, and I shot my own clips for TWO DAYS, since I missed my bus home and stayed over at my friend's house. Then I edited all day Sunday, wrote the voice over and had to expand on the vague one line of plot I'd kept, but in the end it turned out great and we won first place even though we didn't have an advantage! I had a creative vision and I would have been damned if I didn't see that shit through.

As far as round four goes I didn't really do much, I woke up to having been sat out of the challenge, which seemed like a pretty fun challenge, but it's alright I guess. They did discuss it without me, but also they wanted to just lock everything in which is super valid, and it meant I HAD to participate in the next challenge, which is dope. We ended up getting first place again I think, which is very slay, and Astyn got a perfect 8/8! I do keep getting nothing from my idol hunt, which sucks, and Sally fucking swindled me out of 5TT$, like ma'am, please.

Round five was FANTASTIC, and I really think helped me bond with the team a little more. I also(and this might come back to bite me later) told Champ about the fact that I got the read reciepts on disadvantage from a hunt and not the excursion, and she said she was shocked bc the way I wrote it, it seemed legit, so maybe if she thinks that, so does everyone else I originally told. Again, I'm realizing I probably didn't need to tell anyone I got anything bad, but I did feel at the time like if I said I got nothing, nobody would believe me, but anywho now Champ knows. But I'm really hoping she and I stay allies, because we talked and bonded a bit more through being put on the same tribe in the swap, so hopefully that works out for us. Other than that, Champ and I called at 10pm my time, and began to practice Codenames because we both hadn't really played before, and didn't really know what to do. Colin and Jack came in a bit later, and the four of us played until the time of the challenge, which was at 3am for me, so my brain was definitely off by then. Somehow though we managed to pull through and secure second place, probably in part thanks to the five hours spent practicing lmao. At one point Colin and Jake(who were on a team opposite Champ and I) gave the hint meat, and so we went with wings, walrus, and pie. We probably would have(technically) tied with Soca, had it not been for the fact that when Jake gave the hint of body, I went with Disease instead of wings. But regardless, Jake Colin and I stayed on the call until the results were announced(Champ went to go watch survivor with her dad, mega slay) and we were all relieved to be safe from tribal. Trinica did give us shit for walrus meat though lmao, but it's the only thing Frikkie wants to eat so.....

With the Maracas Tribal, I wanted to stay up for the challenge to drop, since I know everyone talks about it without me lmaoooo. SO I set an alarm for 12:45 and plopped myself down to sleep. After some Zs, I woke up to see we had been SWAPPED AGAIN. My little heart cannot handle this, but upon waking up I realised that this actually could be exactly what I need for my black widow brigade plan, since I'm making allies with the ladies across tribe lines, though it seems like we're running low on those. BUT KALEIGH AND I ARE BACK TOGETHER ON ONE TRIBEEEEEEE. I woke up to the alarm at almost 1am and that was the first message I saw. Sadly Champ got taken to another tribe, I'm sending her all my luck, since I know she might need it. Kaleigh and I plan to call later today to update each other on everything, and I can't wait to hear how it's all been going for her. Do I trust anyone still? Oh absolutely not, but I am vibing with everyone. Alex IS on our tribe again, which makes me nervous because I don't really trust him because of his bio, but still I'm interested in this challenge. I put a lot of gay Icons(plus David Tennant) in my celebrity list, I also Included Jenna Ortega for Wednesday if we need one worded answers for round 2. Thank god it's at a decent time. I hope we win again, and I feel like we might, but I also sucked ass at that song challenge a bit back, so we'll see. I need to update my idol hunt document, but now that Kaleigh is back, maybe I can get some info from her again...we'll see.

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"How the fuck did none of you know who DRACULA was. NOBODY. Anyway, WE WON AGAIN. And I found an Idol last idol hunt, but it's no big deal I guess. It's nice to have it but I feel like this idol is going to be like one of those stickers you get but never stick anywhere because you're afraid that it'll be in the wrong spot or be ruined and besides you think it's really pretty anyway, so might as well just keep it. Anyway we slayed so hard in the Celebrities challenge that multiple people on the other tribe asked if we could end it early out of mercy. Lexi got med-evaced so Soca isn't going to tribal, so idk what's going to happen there, or what they're doing, but we're at thirteen players now, which means a merge could be close, and I'm ready for it. I don't know what I'd do in the merge, because I try to put my whole ass into these challenges, and if I can win them, why wouldn't I? The only problem is that doing so would put a huge target on my back, and then the one time I don't win, people would immediately target me as a huge threat. Unless.....if I just win win win, then I have this idol, and I can use it on myself if I don't win, kind of like a safety assurance. But if I did that, I'd have to keep winning until almost final three, otherwise if I lost another one after using the idol, they'd just get me out then.

I'm interested to see who still wants to ally with me when the merge happens, because it would appear that Raffy is out to get me. To get to the bottom of this, let's flashback to last night when Kaleigh and I called to catch up after the challenge. We talked a lot about some mostly pointless stuff just like life, but we also talked about what was happening on the tribes we got put on. Sadly I didn't have much to say, since my tribe was veeeery quiet, and we kept winning so we didn't really have any drama. It's going to be interesting going to tribal though, especially with people who have already been to some. It's like watching an action movie with a war veteran, you're like "ooooh explosion" and they're like "[grizzled war voice]you wouldn't understand the sacrifices I've had to make to survive". I also have no idea if I can trust anything Kaleigh says, for all I know she could be lying to me about practically everything, that's the problem with this game, I don't fully trust anyone. Does Kaleigh know that I told a fib unrelated to the game in the beginning? Yes she does. Does she know WHAT it is? Nope, all she knows is that it was pointless, and started as me not wanting to correct people. She told me she wrote in all her confessionals about how much she missed me, but again, I have no way to know if this is true or not. Anyway, back to the point. She told me that Raffy told Alex, who told Steven, who told her, that I'm related to AJ. So it would appear that Raffy has been spreading this information to make people more wary of me and my game. Which is also a bit annoying because AJ has been especially harder and stricter on me than she is with anyone else, she even marked me as unemployed instead of a student in the bio in the beginning. She's extra hard on me because she doesn't want people to think she's playing favorites, and judging by the fact that I didn't get a winner's pick yet, I'd say her favorites are in other places. Regardless, there's no FRIENDLY reason for Raffy to spread this info, so it would appear he's out to get me. I would however like to use some of his own words and sentiment against him come tribal, if I'm asked a question about the rumors, because I know last game he and AJ had mild beef bc she kept saying he knew the host, and that he had hosted before and knew a lot about the games and was a challenge threat, and he could see those because tribal council there was posted and everyone knew what went down on the opposite tribe's tribals. I'll use his words of(vaguely) "I want to be judged for who I am in this game, and how I play here, and not for anyone I know or how I've played in the past." you know, something to that effect.

Oh also it's kind of random but Kaleigh and I have decided to conduct an experiment on Alex, since we both agree that the way he's acting in DMs seems very tailored to the way each of us talk, and kind of seems like a persona of himself that he's putting on specifically to charm us. Which makes us(or at least me) nervous, because of the info that he put IN HIS BIO. I still can't get over that, man revealed his entire strategy in his intro post, and nobody seems to have noticed lmao. Anyway, to test our theory, I've decided to start saying yassssss a lot in my messages with him, and see if he takes that and starts using it too. Because I already use a lot of double or triple letters, and he's been using it too, but ONLY with me lmao. So yeah, that's a little bit of fun we've got going on now."

Alex

Okay, a very successful 24-hours. We finally took first in an immunity challenge so I'm steadily raking in the TT$, and me and Michael worked SO well together in Codenames which has fiiinally helped us start talking more. I liked his vibes immediately so I wish we could have been talking throughout the entirety of our time on Soca 2.0 but better late than never. I've still got the rest of Soca Elite with me, too, which rocks. Colin already, reached out, which is cool, since he and Zee are the only in's to find out what was going on over at Calypso. I'm wondering if Zee worked some magic to rebuild trust from that first summit or if I can kind of play their information off of each other. I at least feel like I'd be secure were we to go to tribal. Less certain of what could happen over on Soca 3.0. Soca 1.0 still has a majority but with Kolby and Eman being sequestered from everyone else, Raffy and Champ's history, the Calypso 2.0 of it all, and not knowing anything about Jack or Astyn, I feel like there's the potential for some shakeups. Fingers crossed I make it to merge, I think things are going to just keep getting more exciting.

Colin

this swap has breathed LIFE into my game, I'm so grateful for it.

it's a little scary not knowing very many people on the tribe. Michael and I were both on OG Calypso, Zee and I were on Calypso 2, and then I know Steven from prior games, but then everyone else is new to me. But everyone is pretty active and I'm having great conversations!! It's giving me a lot more energy in the game, feeding off of everyone else's vibes.

I need to get some allies on this side, as all of my existing alliance is on the other tribe. I'm looking at Zee and Alex rn, they seem like great allies. Strong players are good to have on your side.

With us crushing this round's immunity, I think we just have to survive one more round till merge, so I'm feeling confident!!

Here are my tribe first impressions that no one asked for!!

Alex - kinda my fave. Very easy and fun to talk to. I wanna get close with him, he's someone I wanna get to know better. Kaleigh - loving the energy. haven't gotten to talk to her much, but I think she'll be someone fun. Michael - was pretty quiet on OG Calypso and didn't get a chance to get to know him before the first swap. I think he's a bit more active now, but I don't really have too many thoughts about him in the game as of rn Steven - in general, I would die for Steven. he's great and super nice. i value every game we get together because he's such a genuine person. i think we're two very different players so we usually don't get paired together strategically, so we'll see what happens in this game! Tony - seems really nice!! maybe kind of an underdog in the game. a wildcard mayhaps. Zee - a force to be reckoned with. She's passionate about the game and the challenges specifically, I know she's always going to give her all. Definitely a valuable ally to have but idk how far I wanna go with her yet.

Tony

And just like that I’ve reunited with so many folks from my previous tribe! It’s a bittersweet reunion seeing that Eman and I were split up :( but I trust that she is playing a strong game on the other tribe. Now that I’m here I gotta make sure that I’m pulling my weight given that I sat out of the last challenge. No telling what’s gonna happen next!

Michael

Not going to tribal again so the game is pretty stale. Tony and I are going to work together. I also entered an alliance with Alex, we need to pull a few more people. I also need to let Tony know about Alex. I just think nothing is really going to pop off until the merge, which I hope I'll make

Steven

Kaleigh

welp we had another swap. by some miracle?? or just a twist of fate, alex & steven & i are all still together, but on calypso now - michael too, though he still hasnt talked game to me. ZEE IS BACK. which i am v happy about. then we have colin and tony. raffy is on the other tribe. which is JUST FINE WITH ME! we had our little celebrity game today and we fuckennnn DOMMMINATED it was so fun and also kind of sad/hard to watch raffy going like “ok, the original vampire. like, you think of a vampire, that’s this.” and his team being like “oh! uh! twilight! edward…edward cullen! robert pattinson!” and literally not get it at all, and then on my turn i get dracula and go “Transvylania, vampire” and like my whole tribe in unison immediately goes DRACULA. LMAOOO LIKE DAMN i could feel raffys frustration in that moment. um ya so they did a mercy ruling in the 3rd round bc we were so far ahead. their team actually requested it lmao sheeeeesh. but then no tribal bc lexi was medevaced. that looks so ugly written down.

i talked w zee after the challenge and we caught up, got a bunch of info, feeling v solidified in the bimbo alliance. also talked to steven tonight. zee and steven both said they thought we’d merge @ 12, and what choice do i have but to believe theM? LOL i’m not doing any research on that! i messaged w tony briefly last night, asked him how his experience was on maracas, he rly dodged it and was like “the vibes were off with nick and tanner.” like, my brother in christ, we all know exactly how off the vibes were. they are gone! this is not helpful! obviously it seems like he and eman and kolby must be TIGHT, but he didn’t say shitittt and apparently alex asked him today about the excursion and he was j like “haha excursions are not my fave!” WHAT?! LMFAO WHAT ARE YOU DOING MY GUY!!!! like, what MUST be ur only solid alliance (eman and kolby) aren’t here! you gotta share info to build trust and get in where you fit in! like i get feeling like ur vulnerable and being uncertain about who to trust, and also… plz trust me :)

anyway, i feel very solid with zee now, and steven and alex as well. i don’t know what da fUUCK is gonna happen once we merge. maybe i’ll try to talk game with michael tomorrow. idk. oh i told zee that raffy told steven that she and aj are siblings and she is soooo pissed, UNDERSTANDABLY! like truly he did not need to share that info, even tho it seemed (based on what zee said) that someone else had asked about it and been thinking it. so anyway she is like ok raffy’s gotta go. she said she’s gonna try to fake ally with him once we merge, which, like, good luck girl… but if she’s successful in faking an alliance and then voting him out that tribal will be extremely delicious. she also said champ will totally work with us, which i believe! tho champ and raffy played together last season… also steven said raffy said that champ is good at playing dumb, which i’m like, what are you even talking about? like pretending to be a bad player? idk. i am getting a LOT of info from both steven and zee tho so that’s sick and like, maybe will help me out later. like raffy telling steven that aj+zee are siblings absolutely destroyed any potential game he had with zee, who actually seemed eager to work w him before hearing that LMAOOOO SORRY RAFFY MAYBE YA SHOULDA PRETENDED TO WANNA WORK W ME!! but ya zee said too that colin and raffy were in an alliance w astyn andddd drea so i know colin and raffy are allied, and i think zee was feeling good about colin and potentially working w raffy but i think that might not be the case anymore.

ok so my only strategy in this game so far is to win as much as possible (duh, and my teams are crushing it) and to do as many phone calls/video calls as possible bc that is truly the easiest way to tell if someone’s bullshitting AND it’s the best way to build trust and get info bc ppl just looooooooove to chitty chat. god yunno i will say it’s not ideal that alex+steven see zee as a big target and zee thinks alex is like playing a rly good game (is he?). it’s not ideal that my two alliances are gunning for each other. gonna have to fix that. i’m not even CLOSE to being ready for zee to go. who the hell has the idol(s)?? also kinda offended i havent been a winners pick since round one?!?!??!?!!?! who’s gettin those?!

[miseria-fortes-viros]

right 😭 i read a fic where the guy drank a full bottle of vodka on his own, still was able to pack his suitcase completely and coherently, buy a plane ticket, and remember everything in the morning with a mild headache. its so fun to read

ok ok ok some more things i find funny about alcohol in fanfic:

• when a character drinks straight vodka (excluding shots). people don’t really do that. but pretty much any other liquor can and will sometimes be consumed on its own

• i don’t care how much they drink. ur 110-pound ballet dancer character will not be able to drink more than ur 250-pound professional football player. it does not matter what the stakes are. if they are doing a drinking competition the football player will win. high tolerance will not save ur ballerina. my dad is a regular drinker and i can keep up with him ONLY because 1) we weigh about the same and 2) we are dutch

• if a character passes out from drinking their friends should be worried. alcohol poisoning is a silent killer! don’t dump them somewhere to sleep it off. someone should be checking their breathing every few minutes and if they start to look sick, to the hospital they go. yes, even if everyone is underage. laws in the us will absolve u from those consequences if u are trying to help someone

• hangovers. they do not work like that. u will not get a hangover from 3 beers. u will get a hangover after 3 beers & 4 shots IF ur tolerance is low and/or you’re older than 30. it takes more than u think. u do not have to black out to have a hangover in the morning

• speaking of blackouts. u need to drink a fuck ton to get there. a 6 pack of beer will not do it. for fucks sake 8 shots will not do it. u don’t black out unless u completely lose track of how much u had. u don’t completely lose ur memory either, u just end up with bits and pieces and ur not sure which order they go in

• if ur partying hard. and i mean HARD. u can finish a handle of liquor between ~4 people. that’s 10 shots per person and approximately double the legal limit of 0.08% BAC. it only takes 2 shots to get the average person decently buzzed. one character cannot drink a whole handle in one sitting or they will die. in my original post that anon is referencing here i was talking about how a group of ~10 people in a fic drank 50 bottles of hennessy and were only decently drunk. except hennessy is 80 proof (40% alcohol) and if they tried that irl they would be very very dead

idk what else to put here lmfao this is not what i initially intended to do with this ask but. anyway. i know quite a bit about alcohol (i am not an alcoholic i am just dutch and in college) so feel free to ask me questions if ur trying to write about these things and need some assistance :)

[minniepetals]

I am begging for a part 3 to the e2l mafia au 🥺

I know it’s only been 30 minutes so don’t stress yourself lovely 🥰

I love you ❤️

part 1 / part 2 / part 3 / part 4 / part 5 / part 6 / part 7 / part 8 / part 9 / part 10 / part 11 / part 12 / part 13 / part 14 / part 15 / part 16

"Y/N!" Jungkook gasps as he rushes over once he finds Hoseok coming into view with you laid in his arms. His eyes stare in horror at the state you're in, unconscious and a bit battered up. "What did they do to her?" His eyes darkens when he asks the question.

"What matters is that we've got her now," the older man dismisses his question before turning to Namjoon for his orders.

"Let the medic team treat her then we'll have to send her back to her father," he says and Hoseok responds with a nod before walking over towards Jimin who's getting treated himself.

"By the way," Jungkook speaks up just as Namjoon is about to walk away, causing the leader to stop in his tracks and turn around. The maknae touches the back of his neck, feeling a little hesitant. "You might want to...speak to her father about..."

Namjoon stares at him, slightly confused. "What's the rush? Can't wait to have her already?" He asks, a small smirk curling along the corner of his lips.

"What? No!" Though he says that, there is a slight blush on Jungkook's cheeks so Namjoon knows he's not too far from the truth. "I'm just letting you know that her father's found a creep for her so we need to butt in before anything gets too serious."

"I see." The smirk doesn't leave his lips. "Alright, maknae, I'll take care of it. In the meantime, try to come to terms with your feelings, will you?" He laughs as he pats the man on the head when he walks off.

"What feelings?!"

"Ha. You're funny, kid."

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"Namjoon did what?" You blink in shock at what your father had just said.

He lets out a sigh before handing you the letter. "Read it yourself if you wish."

You take the letter without hesitation, quick to read through the content where you find Kim Namjoon's formal handwriting written on a fine piece of paper, asking to form an alliance through an arranged marriage with you.

No way. Did Jimin and Jungkook put him up to this? But then again, perhaps what you heard that day was actually true.

Or was it?

"Are you going to accept?" You ask your father once you finish reading everything to hand him back the letter.

"I would be a fool not to."

"Right..." You trail off as you fall into a daze, still in a state of shock.

"He came to ask me in person himself when they brought you back home before formally sending me the letter. Seems the man is pretty set on his decision." This marriage would certainly bring light into your world. For one it's helping out the mafia, two, Bangtan is very powerful and pretty influential, and three...well...you can't say you aren't exactly dissatisfied by them at all.

In fact, it's the total opposite.

"Father, will you let me make the decision this time?"

When you ask him this, your father falls a little confused. Despite how many times you've had your one-on-one with the boys of Bangtan, even your father could tell you were infatuated by them. So to hear your hesitation makes him wonder what it is you're thinking about.

"You're telling me you won't accept his proposal?" He raises a brow your way.

"Just for the moment," you say lightheartedly. "I want to give them a chase."

You aren't sure how many days it's been since then but luckily your father decided to humor you in your games and endeavors. He trusts you to make the right decision and you know just what the choice will be in the end but it can't be fun to simply say yes right away, will it?

When the sky falls dark and you're breezing past the city lights, you find a familiar silhouette just below the building you're stood on, and with an amused smile plastered upon your face, you find yourself jumping right down to meet him.

"Y/N." Namjoon isn't surprised by the sudden visit.

"Kim," you greet with a grin.

He takes a moment to take in your form, noticing the way you're light on your feet again without any injuries getting in your way.

You're alright now, that's good.

"Seems you really love playing hard to get, huh?"

You shrug lightly upon his question, skipping back on your toes as you hold your hands behind your back. "Yet you really love the chase, don't you?"

A sweet giggle leaves your lips, a beautiful sound he's always enjoyed to hear, and when you turn around with a playful glint in your eyes looking back at him over your shoulder, he knows he can't ever say no to that pretty face.