#this is....a big topic and theres a lot of nuance that cannot be explained in one post

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When did you find out you were gay? How long did it take you to accept your sexuality?

this is a very large topic that has a shit ton of nuance that i cant touch on right now due to time so I’m going to give the brief over view of how this blog approaches this. This is a headcanon meaning it isnt canon and no one has to follow it for their things, it also means it could change if i feel differently about it.

Rictor never really found out he was gay it was more of a slow dawning realization and even then he was so deep in internalized homophobia and comp het that it took him years. Even when he and Shatterstar were intimate during their X-Force years he’d brush it off as “Shatterstar’s the exception” and or “Shatterstar is different”

The Mexico trips were a big example of this Shatterstar is the Exception and I think around then Rictor finally started to consider that maybe he just liked guys and Star wasn’t different. (I always headcanoned this and Star pushing away were what led to the break up)

He came out to himself sometime post m-day but was never actively identifying to friends until LATER in XFI. Even though everyone already knew by then that he was, he  just wasnt ready to come out and that is 100000% okay. You gotta take coming out at your own pace and Rictor had a lot of shit on his plate. 

Hes now active in the community but hes still pretty private about his sexual identity he just doesnt like people knowing *everything* about him and thats an intimate detail he’d like to keep on the down low.

Hes comfortable doing PDA with Shatterstar and he actively uses terms of endearment in public with him nowadays.

Rictor is still navigating his identity and how it has shaped and influences his life and hes proud of it. He still has some rough days like everyone else and there’s no way to put a number on years it took for him to conclude that -yeah- he did like guys.