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crossbackpoke-check · 3 years ago

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Torso of the Belvedere, presumed to be “the Greek hero Ajax, son of Telamon, in the act of contemplating his suicide” according to “various figurative signs: the head was leaning sadly towards the right hand which was gripping the sword with which the hero would take his own life” (Museo Pio Clementino; photographed by F. Bucher)

Incantation of the First Order [remixed, abridged] originally by Rita Dove (Poem-a-Day, 2021)

Ajax, likely painted as a self portrait and famously referenced in Marianne Moore’s “The Buffalo”; in the Illiad, the Ajaxes [son of Telamon and son of Oïleus] are referenced as βόε οἴνοπε, [wine-faced oxen] with Ajax Oïleus “the far-fighter, the slack outside rein, the ox who needs to walk faster” and Ajax Telamon “the close-fighter, the one with biē, the ox or horse that holds back and keeps closest to the turning stone” to reach τέλος [fulfillment, finality, the end] (John Steuart Curry, 1939; Oinops analysis)

How to Apologize [abridged], originally by Ellen Bass (The New Yorker, 2021)

Willingly [abridged], originally by Tess Gallagher (Amplitude: New and Selected Poems, 1987)

#i have Such WORMS & i didn’t know if i wanted to put these all into the original post or what idk bear with me there might be formatting #changes from a reblog i don’t KNOW okay i didn’t think i would be losing it this much over ajax jack but it haunts me. like coincidentally.#like i had decided i wasn’t going to post this here because i just turned it into a thread on twitter instead but then i found ajax 🖼 & well #it happened on a WHIM this is such a story u don’t need but i’m telling you anyway it matters 2ME bc i’d annotated the poems & had bvd torso #was trying to find another picture to put in to break up the poems and for a while i wanted a depiction of hector’s sword but that doesn’t #exist so finally i was just like vegas? something to reference jack’s teams? i just need to full the space but have it be relevant #so i went ok war animals. horse? elephants? oh shit wait what if there’s something about buffalo because the sabres & i googled ajax animal #AND THAT PHOTO COMES UP OF AJAX THE [OX] referenced in the poem the buffalo but then i was like ok but the painting is of an ox were oxen #used as war animals & i stumble onto this analysis of oinops in the illiad which if you don’t know about it is really cool it’s a thing ok #bUT THEY LOOK AT THE COMPARISON OF OXEN & MEN THE AJAXES OXEN PLOWING TO THE FINISH TWIN SIDE BY SIDE i can’t even explain #universe bonked me with that one & that’s DAYS after i go through my camera roll to find the poems from the first one i was like #‘:/ this reminds me of something’ about and i found them with my little notes that say (from Nov 21st!) dream back lost/another way to know #which for sure was about dylan larkin but the FIRST one is from OCTOBER 20TH and STILL HAS MY NATE REFERENCE IN IT like the original poem #besides some other things the note says ‘nate bastian discarded smile jack eichel day you dreamed of leaving’ what CLOWN SHOES OF PROPHECY #the belvedere torso chain of identities the known name of the creator who is unknown even still the assumptions made the ability to queer it #ai the lament ai ajax’s name y’all really!!! the big brained geniuses. kissing drartemysia on the mouth (w/consent) for creating ajax jack #the chess game that took place over one [night?] ajax & achilles stealing away the hours the irrationality of a game listen. listen.#the way i FEEL about this in the context of hockey the life or death & jack’s neck surgery the game of hockey the game of their lives i’m???#need to find the actual twitter thread about it to re-read about the chess game & it is both better & worse that when i remixed this i took #out the word ‘boat’ in how to apologize to replace it with home because the illiad/boat/the journey i have zero coherency only static brain #it’s all worms up there they are running amok wreaking havoc chewing holes in all my story thread tapestries & semblance of sense #this web weaving!! is prolly only coherent 2me!! sorry u don’t live in my brain i can’t explain it to u!! i’m collecting ajax jack thoughts #paging but not quite paging brockachu & drartemysia bc ajax jack is theirs but i’m obsessed with it every smidgen #ajax jack #not hockey hockey poetry titles #the curls circled because jack’s curls (who’s sweetening the hours?) the red ajax for the legend of ajax’s blood spilled

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