#thoughts and flashbacks

[fehck]

5.7

7:35a (up all night)

Text sent to Morgan:

I’m sorry it’s so early, I haven’t slept. Kinda really hoping you don’t have these notifications on yet…last night/this morning I was really angry and didn’t know why. And idk how it occurred to me or why this was a thought that came in at all. But I remembered that I was sore like, all the time during everything that happened with {abuser}. I remembered that once after being at her house, I actually yelped while trying to take shower. After that memory, I had a ton of auditory flashbacks of her voice. Then came the memory of the first time. I had been so hung up on the first time for so long. To think she asked before she touched me and the sun coming through the window is such a huge part of that memory. She was never that exceedingly gentle again. That memory feels disturbingly innocent and it made me cry (and that brought up a more general memory of being much younger and at times seeing any depiction of innocence made me cry). The violent memories are notable because it wasn’t the norm but my everyday was never anything like the first time. Often times, things would begin rough and overwhelming and then slow down. I’m realizing now that those are the exact memories I’ve comforted myself with and used to reinforce that this wasn’t abuse. I guess the logic has been, “well, it didn’t end badly”. It was when things seemed fine then escalated to violence that really stood out as being definite abuse. None of this is revelation but I know I haven’t thought about that near constant dull pain…probably ever. And the memories and feelings around the idea of innocence really threw me.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Dog Meshi.

[frownyalfred]

“Bruce Wayne’s superpower is money” Bruce Wayne’s superpower is the ability to actively have a full-fledged panic attack and still look Superman himself dead in the eye without any of his vitals changing. Heart rate is a solid 60 BPM. You can’t even see him breathing. Put some respect on my man’s name.

[stargirl230]

ghost of you

super quick Sua screencap redraw to celebrate the new video release - no I was not expecting it to be Like That and yes I was devastated

(no reposts; reblogs appreciated)

[drulalovescas]

Jensen Ackels' mind during the homosexual declaration of love

He was flashbacking to the most pivotal moments in their relationship I'm gonna be sickkkkkkkk

[egophiliac]

queen of diamonds, upright + reversed 💎

I've redone this like eighty times, I have to just be done with it now and stop staring at all my mistakes oh no 🫠

[nipuni]

THE DOCTOR We had a pact, him and me. Every star in the universe, we were going to see them all.

My version of The Master and The Doctor in their Academy days 😊

A speedpaint video of this will be available at my Patreon on april 1st!

[redmyeyes]

THE WHITE LOTUS 3.05 "Denials"

[metukika]

day five: whump | separation

mogamiland inspired au.

[day one] [day two] [day three] [day four ] -- [day six] [day seven]

[starcurtain]

Considering we know that Aedes Elysiae was home to faeries Memlings, I'm constantly imagining a Phainon who lives his life by all these in-grained, seemingly unnecessary (to outsiders) traditions designed around the fae folk...

Don't give your real name to strangers.

Always keep your promises.

Never trust anything offered freely.

Don't express any of your own wishes; you may not be able to pay the price of the granting.

Eat only the food of those you know by heart.

Wear a ring of iron to ward off the ill-intentioned.

Carry sweets and trinkets in your pocket to distract mischievous fae.

Do not enter a home until you're sure of your welcome.

But also: Do not reject visitors--greet all who come with hospitality; you never know what disguises a fairy may use.

Sometimes the children come back from the forest a little bit different. You didn't see anything and nothing has changed.

Make equal time for each who you hold close; jealousy is among the gravest dangers.

Leave milk and golden honey on the window ledge in offering.

Let no debt go unpaid, and leave no injustice unavenged.

Mydei: Castrum Kremnos was the most untamed place in Amphoreus--

Phainon: Aedes Elysiae was surely a paradise in comparison. One of my old neighbors traded his firstborn for a goat that talked in riddles once!

Mydei: --you know what, never mind.

[anne-is-confused]

Captain Francis Crozier, at Furthest North.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

The dog days are over.

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[dotted-clouds]

"Get back to work.."

[cringefail-clown]

turnabout kids and their sprites! ive had an ask laying around in my inbox about them for far too long lmfao, so ive finally decided to draw em out

jane: mime porcelain doll + poppop

dirk: seagull + hal

roxy: wizard figurine + frigglish

jake: gcat + his dreamself

[diamondnokouzai]

if magneto knew what the internet was then he would post to r/aita as often as possible and all his posts would be the top posts of the year. thats the kind of drama hes going through. he also gets permabanned from r/mutants for advocating violence

[turtleblogatlast]

I adore the idea of Leo developing a love for glam rock not only because he likes the music but also because of how many glam rock bands had vibrant and extravagant eye makeup - looks that his own red stripes were right at home with.

Like just imagine a little Leo rifling through his dad’s music and choosing to vibe with glam rock specifically because he was like “:0! Like me!:)”