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can't believe that while I am trying to be productive with real life things florus fic has me having thoughts like "is history not a god?" and my brain is actively compiling reasons why history is in fact a god.
#sorry just needed to get this thought out there... tags are insane thoughts. i can return to being normal maybe#okay. cuz will it not judge me? does it not dictate a sort of afterlife. are you worthy of fame or infamy? a faceless drop of water#in a larger ocean? imagine your designated afterlife is always changing. is history not eternal even if all things died and no one was#around to experience the concept. if life ever returned to conscious thought time/history would return as well. perhaps altered but returne#and going with the judeochristian belief of god made man in his own image and the rebuttal that man made god in our image..#does it not go both ways with history?#anyway#abyssal goes insane hours#time to go back to being productive#abyssal stuff#fic: allegory of the cave#abyssal writes
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im a big fan of esper powers slipping loose in harmless ways when they're happy
#LETS GO LETS GO LETS GO i love this one so much i love them#rishou#ritshou#RITSU BEING A LATE AWAKENED HAS A WEAKER GRIP ON HIS POWERS SO THIS SHIT HAPPENS AND I XJDJCJ#and shou. he is very deliberate with his esp! that's um. upbringing and everything he went through#he has fun with them he experiments- absolutely! That's fanon. but they never slip out of his control#he thinks he'd freak if it ever happened (👀) so the fact ritsu's do sometimes and-#-how it ties to his emotions is a huge point of curiosity for shou#mp100#this piece makes me fuzzy im just so glad it came out as intended#the sketch (which was done.. 5 months ago) i edited to have this bad quality photo taken in the dark vibe and then chased it when rendering#but still had to brighten the end result cause Phone Performance idk how you guys have your settings so better safe i guess#but still!! i bet this looks super dark and indistinguishable to some even with max brightness because say they're out in the sun#and im scared of that!!#but man i sat on it long enough i wanna post And i won't sacrifice my vision this time. can't brighten a night till its not night anymore#its a long persisting issue of mine- drawing with full brightness on ipad and then transferring to the phone and going Why is this so bleak#Despair#it's why i grew to hate post production editing it's always so-.. degrading?? discouraging??#I'm progressively better at catching and fixing that problem early on#sketches will still be murky af but I'll copy paste the full image fix the curves and then either go back and switch all the colours#OR FUCKING DRAW OVER THE EDITED SKETCH LAYER WHICH I'VE BEEN DOING A LOT LATELY ITS SO WEIRD AND LOOKS KINDA COOL#and aaaall stems from laziness (read: time management) like bruh those 40+ layers? i aint going back there to fix every colour#mp100 fanart#mob psycho 100#mob psycho fanart#ritsu kageyama#shou suzuki#kageyama ritsu#suzuki shou#ALSO i deliberately tried to make esp blend with the environment; nothing dazzling and mindblowing. felt right for this piece
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Okay. Since we're going over all the takes on Mr. X at this point.. What if his powers really don't have a backside. What if (the state of) his normal life is the backside.
What if his normal life is akin to that of heroes where he has to pretend to be something he's not and follow rules that the people who control his life came up with to further their own goals. What if he can only be free of other people's beliefs and expectations when he's a hero.
What if in reality he truly is like everyone else. The other heroes. The ordinary people. All those who work themselves to the bone, who are tired and overworked and sick of all the exploitation...
What if when he's in the form of the number one hero.. when he becomes the most sought after product on the hero market..
Is when he gains the freedom to truly be himself
#to be hero x#tbhx#hero x#considering one of the first things they revealed to us in the trailers was that he's a white-collar worker...#we definitely need to think about that if we wanna try to predict / guess what he's actually like#this thing feels very lin ling coded but lin ling is tbhx coded (introduction to the main themes of the show)#so I feel like my best prediction rn is that he's actually the other side of the same damn coin#(cue the coin flip clip from the opening *coughs*)#I think from a writing perspective the whole downside thing is based on a characters perception#so if the writers make us think that X is an omnipresent all powerful god#then it just makes sense to reverse it by revealing that the opposite is equally as true#and then he'd have an even stronger incentive to want to break the system cuz both of his lives would've been defined by exploitation#maybe not the bright side of X (at least not after he became No. 1) but I don't think being the best product makes him no longer a product#ACTUALLY#“bright side” was supposed to refer to his hero identity bc of the black & white switch he has going on but#yeah calling his normal self the “dark side of X” would definitely reinforce the idea that it's the not so good parts he hides#and we've not much of normal X yet (other than his sugar stealing. you go boy exploit the company back for sugar. I believe in you) but!#we all know there's darker times coming. right.#I don't think they're gonna reveal his normal life to have a sad backstory or Idk (there's gonna be enough of that elsewhere anyways haha)#but we've definitely only seen the top of the iceberg for now#btw yes I do think capitalism & the CEOs are gonna be the real villains#and X is probably playing their game to win#yes all along you were reading my “X is actually anti-capitalist” propaganda#we're gonna go free heroes (at a cost) :))#ice demon talks#tbhx theories#tbhx analysis
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the reason why Luo Binghe and Shen Yuan can't attic wife each other in there house and never leave is that they don't have internet or anything else around to help keep them moving. I think we chalk too much of Shen Qingqiu being a super productive person post transmigration often too much to reading into things and treating his unreliable narration as fact.
But like, what is he supposed to do all if not actually go outside and talk to people and get a job. Luo Binghe needs to do things other than be a housewife for his own sanity so he doesn't cabin fever. He can't live focusing his day around a singular person being in the room its not healthy and would drive him insane. These are not overly productive constantly doing things people. These are people doing things to make sure they aren't malaise slugs feeling nothing in their day to day drudgery.
This is just what a healthy post/pre internet mental state kinda looks like.
#svsss#svsss shitpost#scumbag system#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#luo binghe#bingqiu#i don't go into servers anymore or use anything but tumblr for a few hrs a day#the difference is astounding#scum villain self saving system#protagonist in isekai's don't leap to being better productive people just because they were actually always good and better than other#its because the internet is no longer sitting as a filter you can use#when you have to actually live in the real world and talk to people you have to learn to change how you approach conversation and free time#rich people in the real world aren't constantly going out to get jobs just to make daddy proud its also because they want something to do#humans are not meant to sit around doing nothing#part of the reason i think luo binghe had such an obviously bad time in the return to childhood special is he had nothing to do for months#he has no desire to play with kids#was too short to do a lot of his chores#couldn't socialize as an adult#and even his own boyfriend was too bored staying inside all the time#i don't doubt the man was dying inside wishing to turn back to normal simply because he had nothing to do
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Do you use AI generators to compile or scrape this information?
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#anonymous#ai has nothing on an over-caffeinated human being copy pasting & taking screenshots past 3 in the morning & queuing everything#no but on a serious note most of these is the product of years of compilations stuck in my drafts & old files as a student#been going through my old bookmarks as well (bc need more space) so there may be random study notes or tips sometimes#thats also why i have a lot of grammar related stuff that i used at school --- still handy notes though#as for the requests i usually do them in one sitting & queue them -- not claiming to be an expert on those topics#i just try to look for the best sources i can -- which is fun bc i learn a lot as well &#i always appreciate when people send me more info or corrections#this genuinely made me a bit self conscious of my posts tho like do they look AI generated#just shoved a lot of queued posts back to my drafts lol will try to edit them better soon i know its a mess here !#also acccidentally clicking the 'shuffle' queue messed up the chronology at one point -- so been trying to schedule posts#instead of adding to queue ---- but will reorganise when i find more time#but yeah most of these are my literal notes -- excerpts / literally copy pasted from my references that may be quite outdated#that i need to delete but still wanted to save elsewhere
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The art advice that helped me take the first step towards repairing my relationship with making art is "give yourself permission to not make any art"
Which sounds entirely counter intuitive, I wholly realize this, but if you're in a headspace where you just. Constantly have expectations of yourself. The best thing to do is take a step back. I was constantly fighting my brain about making art. And taking a dedicated break from the self imposed expectation to make things was extremely helpful. Sometimes I think there is worth in the idea of just. Being ok with the idea of not being productive. And it hurts and is scary especially if a lot of your self worth is based on your ability to produce art but. If youre stuck, perhaps it's your brain saying it needs a break and forcing it isn't gonna make it better
You're not gonna lose your passion for art. I was extremely afraid I'd never make art again if I allowed myself to stop expecting myself to make art. But as artists, that's not a realistic outcome. You WILL make art again. And you WILL enjoy it. You just have to give yourself the space to actively not make art first, so that your brain later will naturally come around to the idea of being creative again on its own
#letting go of that self imposed expectation is so so scary#especially when you havent felt creative or productive in a long time#it makes you terrified that if tou embrace not being creative then youre like. somehow cementing the idea that#you wont ever be creative again#which is not true. artists need to be creative. it will come back to you. i promise. you just need#to consciously give yourself space first.
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Ashes to Ashes, Dust to Dust.
#Do you ever think about the fact Ted held the love of his life in his arms while she died?#Do you ever think about the ash covering his hands? The dust stuck inbetween his fingernails? His tears making the ash stain his palms?#Heart in hand - interlocked with all his love between each finger - desperatly trying to not let it fade away?#Thinking about since the Old Testement ashes have been a symbol of repentance and penitence - a token of self-abhorrence and humiliation#Specifically ‘Wherefore I abhor myself and repent in dust and ashes’ (Job 42:6 KJV) and the entire concept of Ash Wednesday#I know that probably wasn’t the langs intention but as a ex-church kid I can’t stop projecting religious imagery into media I like#also is anyone surprised I drew this man with a clock and a halo again? I physically cannot stop myself from doing it#Anyway I’m not sorry for drawing this but I’ll go back to being a silly goofy guy with my fanart and tags….until next time :)#ted spankoffski#theodore spankoffski#JennyBear#Jenny nmt#Jenny starkid#god I feel so evil for tagging Jenny#starkid#starkid fanart#team starkid#starkid productions#time bastard#starkid time bastard#time bastard nightmare time#nightmare time#starkid nightmare time#hatchetfield nightmare time#nmt#hatchetfield#hatchetverse#hatchetfield universe#fanart#my art
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said goodbye to him feeling weird!
#hes abt to go skiing w his friend im abt to go back to the uk to an ordinary life#he is perfect and I've felt appreciated none of the time and i think it's not his fault idk#not how racemic compounds work not how amphetamines work not how people work#french suits his mouth but german does a bit more i think . climbed to a very beautiful place#asked him to be my boyfriend then almost took it back yesterday. chemistry is not his strong suit#he carries things for me he catwalks he gives me his jumper when im cold he's good at kissing#he got me a beautiful necklace on a riverside in amsterdam he lights my cigarette with his#he holds my hand and his only complaint about me putting lipstick on his lips is that it wasn't evenly spread#his eyelashes are long and he's sharp and scarily productive and very good at navigation#always on time always the right place . i make a comment about being a beautiful collective and he says yes but it's odd that we havent#received the social benefits of it. what you mean? well when im alone or with friends people just...give me things. flowers baked goods#compliments a pack of cigarettes he says. he asks me if I've ever had to pay for a pack. i felt genuinely SO UGLY like am i. downgrading u?#ppl see me next to you and..what you get negative attractive points? gosh.#unfortunately shutting the fuck up is not my strong suit so i never let that go. he says nooo it's just you are So Gorgeous that you scare#people away. OK!!! he knows he's pretty and he uses this to his full advantage#you're cool and you're friends with all the club bouncers and you take such good care of me and you know#the state secrets and we can scheme murders together and i love that you love your friends#but when i joked we wont get to see each other in months and you said 'so?' that rly did smth very upsetting!!!!#twisting and backtracking is his strong suit but unfortunately seeing it happen is mine#and sometimes it's endearing and sometimes i want to kill him about it. he would be a very good diplomat#who the fuck stumbles gracefully on cliffs? anyway his voice is gentle and he says i don't want you upset#he holds my hands he says lets talk about it please i want you to know i appreciate you#he says all the correct things i believe 0 things out of his mouth and he can tell#i am snappy and terrible and calm. i tell him he's sweet and i want more i want to be missed#SHUTTING THE FUCK UP IS NOT MY STRONG SUIT! would you be ok being just friends? eventually.#and the next day ive decided what to do with you. what is that? you can still be my boyfriend. he says thank you.#walking is our strong suit so we go everywhere. i tell him about my best friend his head looks great thrown backwards#im afraid this is too good for me and I'm also afraid it's not enough. not asking questions is not my strong suit.
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Digital Circus AMA Notes
Digital Circus is getting a season 1 at some point!!!!
#webcore aesthetic board for the series design
Pomni was going to be a frog originally. 🐸
90s toys Zooble inspo
Caine is an antagonist, but not by active choice, he doesn't know he's not helping. He doesn't feel a whole spectrum of human emotions (he's an AI).
"Caine canonically just lets things happen if he thinks it's funny."
Characters eat like Chao in Chao garden in Sonic. The characters can eat the food, but they can't digest it.
Jax's favorite food is spaghetti.
Pomni likes salmon.
Q "Was the ending a 'Last Supper' reference?" A "in a very superficial kinda way yeah." Religious stuff is sometimes just used for the funny.
Gooseworx tumblr sketches MAY or MAY NOT be canon to the series, so it's up in the air for every single one.
People can abstract from feeling too much pain if it breaks their mind from it being too much. Characters feel pain from things, but not as intensely as they would in real life.
Zooble is gonna swap parts every episode (implying they have spare parts) except their body & head.
Jax chose his own name & gooseworx likes to think he chose Gangle's name.
Ragatha was named "Emmy" originally.
They (the cast of characters trapped in the circus) can't change their clothes but Caine can. It's part of their skin sorta kinda.
There's empty space under Pomni's hat because video game model physics.
Spamton was partially inspo for Caine, Caine's VA did Spamton dubs.
Gangle only has 2 masks. Why's it (her hapiness mask) break all the time? Mental state, but the "real her" is "harder to break."
Kaumfo was gonna be part of the main cast originally before Jax.
Kaufmo's model has nothing below the waist at this time, but was made for that promotional image on twitter.
Q "What kinda person was Kaufmo?" A "He was the same as Ragatha in a sense, goofy & cheery, sometimes toxic levels of positivity."
I'm paraphrasing for the sake of note taking in real time, go watch the stream playback for more context & details if you want.
#these are all from GLITCHX 2023 on the glitch productions youtube channel btw#for anyone curious as to where I got the screenshots & details#theory crafters pop off with this#someone else can reblog this with time stamps if you want I'm pretty tired#I'm not going back through that stream right now; I'm sure someone else will put timestamps in the comments maybe#but yeah consider the amazing digital circus officially greenlit for a first season I guess! :D#tadc season 1 eventually baybeee!!#I'm hyped! I wonder if the pilot will remain canon into season 1 or if we'll get a new introduction into the series.#Wonder why Jax called Gangle... well Gangle 👀 maybe he just thought it sounded silly or something i'm curious as to what gooseworx thought#Caine's AI really thought Pomni running around looking for him & Kaufmo abstracted in his room was funny 😐 or his AI is glitchy#(we saw him glitching out already in the pilot) alternatively I think Bubble could be distracting Caine on purpose but idk just yet#imagine how much pain Ragatha was in since they can all actually feel that though like being body slammed & thrown against walls & stuff 😬#also excited to see some Gangle-centric content in the future based on that comment about the 'real her' 👀#Kaufmo would probably make jokes at really dark moments when it wasn't appropriate because that was a coping mechanism for him poor guy 😭#mine#op#the amazing digital circus#tadc
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life is filled with so many tough choices, such as do i want to be productive or do i buy a 2h unlimited photos pass in skycards
#i don't actually have anything i need to do#so realistically 'being productive' will just turn into staring at the screen wondering what i should do#so might as well catch planes.....#but at the same time if i do suddenly want to do something then like..... what about my planes.......#pro tip btw to the skycards players#buy the 75 coin unlimited photos thing and go to a busy as fuck airport#you'll make the coins back and then some#especially if said airport is close enough to another airport so that right before the 30 mins run out you can just swap to that one#for like 10-12 coins
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Webkinz collecting fever (Patreon)
#Doodles#Original#Tala#Webkinz#As previously mentioned - we ended up with a lot of Webkinz! 13 in total split between us 6-6-1-style (Ma also got one :3)#And I ended up with exactly what I wanted! Four new OG8s - puts me at over half total if I include Diamond!#Which I mean she gets half a point so that's Technically over half lol#/And/ I got my dearest Fluffy back - she was the first one I adopted back <3#We're planning on re-upping our Full memberships every ~6 months so there's a steady stream of 'kinz Excitement while not wasting them#And-and! Got a frog!! The temptation to call him something VUX-related is So incredibly strong you have no idea...#So all told I got a great group! I'm very pleased!#However. The impulsive little kid brain aspect. Y'know - Tala lol#It's been established for a while that Tala really likes Webkinz and seeing another seven whole Webkinz that are Not For Her#Oh kid brain lol#The things I'm most envious of are the Magic Ws honestly lol - two of smol's ended up with Pink Ws where all the rest are Yellows#As a bit of backstory - Webkinz production went through several passes including not having Any embroidered Magic Ws#Those being the oldest - the second oldests are the Pink Ws which start with a pink stripe from left to right#And then the final design is the Yellow which ended up being the standard going forward#They're very common for that reason! And harder to pin down an exact production time period#So seeing two Pink Ws that are not for me was hard lol - I still get to pat them if I want to! But Owning lol#It's all a very silly something but kid-and-fixation brain aren't always the most sensible creatures haha#I also wanted the one ma ended up with - the Elephant - because while it's not an OG8 it /is/ HM007#Just to keep things confusing lol ♪ But that's also part of why I wanted the frog so bad! HM001!! ♥#I'll get all of the first 20 at some point that's my current goal lol - and that's Including Googles because of the missing several!#And also the sketches for what would become the vector for smol :D Yay!
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sometimes looking at like Self Help Strategies lists for the symptoms I'm having is always just like:
thing that I already do
thing I have tried 10 times
thing I already do
thing that I don't have the money to do
thing I already do
thing I've been doing since I was 10yrs old to no avail
thing that is impossible given my situation
thing that doesn't apply to me
thing that I already do
thing I have already tried
hrmm, oh wait, maybe finally- OH, yeah.. okay. thing that I already do but it was just phrased slightly differently
thing I have already done
#I think maybe productivity tips help less if the reason you're unproductive is partially like.. physcial health and other extenral things#out of your control. rather than just like having trouble paying attention or spending too much time on tiktok or whatever#all the strategic to do lists in the world are not going to somehow prevent me from waking up with a debilitating migraine or whatever#or having external stressors or lacking resources and connections or other Productivity Essentials etc.#especially many tips involve stuff like 'cut off from social media' since thats the modern day time waster for so many poeple#and it's like.. lol.. i can hardly even maintain a blog even thuogh i actively WANT TO DO SO. 'shut off your smart phone!' already#done babey i fucking hate smart phones i shall never use an app unless i am forced to. 'delete tiktok' yep. already covered. tiktok and#all of those thinsg are my enemies. 'save money by cancelling some of your services' cool. already ahead of you.#who the fuck is out here paying for like 10 different subscription services. pirated videos uploaded to google drive and youtube to mp3#my beloved. etc. etc. and so on. 'socialize less' .........LOL.. if only you knew.. mr.writer of the article. i can barely muster#talking to friends more than once a month and even less if I'm actively sick (often occurence) etc. etc. ... hewoo#I think maybe instead of generic productivity tips I need more like.. how to refocus and be productive anyway even if you have a headache#or are nauseous or etc. Not that those are always things to ignore. and of course you should let your body rest and etc. But plenty of peop#e have mild physical symptoms and just work through them. Ithink something about the way my body/mind is SOO hyper attuned to all#sensory information just makes it like... constantly 'GRR well I cant focus on WRITING right now because my lef#t ear feels weird and my socks are too itchy and my back has a strange pressure and I'm vaguely warm and my eye feels some ssort of#way it doesnt normally feel and I'm hyperaware of my breathing and also nauseous for no reason' and like half of those things I#think '''normal''' people wouldnt even notice or at least would be able to just live through. but for me it's like.. nealry impossible to i#gnore and soooo distracting always. like 'wahh.. nooo we can't draw or get anything done.. my legs feel slightly heavy or something!!'#like............. ok......... who cares. thats not even a PAIN sensation it's just something weird. but it's just like.. NO. constant#mental alerts about the 'heaviness' of your legs be upon ye. Though Imean like.. yes.. 70% of the time I am in genuine pain#or having some sort of actual ailment with trackable physical symptoms. but sometimes it's just like... we could totally be working right#now and ignoring this silly thing but my brain is fixated on it for no reason uncontrollably. etc. etc. I guess it's the same way that like#most people can go to a grocery store without the whole experience being so overwhelming and so much stuff going on at once#that they have to rest afterwards but like.. in my own HOME doing NOTHING i feel like I should be able to not get overwhelmed lol. ANYWAY#Rolling my bastard little rock up a dumbass hill and so on and so forth
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i like it when new people show up, interact with my posts, and very quickly discover that ronald mcdonald is my mortal enemy
#i love seeing people exclusively go through my macden tag because i know its filled with. posts.#hello newbie. are you enjoying scrolling past me yelling about the same fandom issue fifty times in a row as you furiously scroll past#desperately hoping to see some cutesy fanart or ship posts#every time that *i* go in there trying to find a tagged post i have this experience and its very funny to me#and the rare occasion that said person being subjected to the whole tag actually likes a bunch of them i sit and 😊🙂↕️ @ my notifs#ada speaks#literally like. before you are two paths. back out now or continue. the latter leads to a follow.#i hope everyone knows the most productive tag to go through on my blog BY FAR is dennis'#and i also have specific tags for my gifs and various other den mannerisms and analysis and whatever#i promise scrolling the macden tag on here is Not worth your time lmfao please branch out for the sake of ur mental health
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1 month until sotm 🙏
#i will become a different human being once this game releases#not because im really excited for the game itself (im not bc im not a mimic fan)#but because after this game is a whole world of possibilities#after they get mimic established and progress mxes lore and set up the past to quote uquote 'understand the future'#everything they have left to cover will be exactly what ive been waiting for for years#ggy gregory vanessa cassie vanny freddy all of them#ggy is probably next bc of all of the references and easter eggs#and Scott LOVES the books and they wouldnt break up book focus like that w mimic and ggy scattered at diff times regarding release times#plus setting up ggy before gregory comes back is naturally the way to go#i think we either get a full ggy game or a campaign heavily involving ggy as a like cloud following over gregory since he#doesnt remember his past#a campaign by itself or within another game with a different overarching goal#where ggy catches up to Gregory and he has to remember and confront his past as ggy and physically go down memory lane#and THAT being how they reveal ggy in a game is to both the player and gregory himself#and u get to see an immediate product of that being set up for years bc ur watching Gregory grapple w it in real time#god please 🙏#anyway ive known this from the start once sotm comes out#any news at all we get will be foaming at the mouth hype from me bc ill actually have a chance to see my faves again w these next games#pre sotm#thoughts#theory
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7hrs into my work day lets play a fun game of how much overtime will they make me do 🥰
#i should be going home in AN HOUR!#if im here until 7 again im pulling a sickie tmr idgaf#making me run this stupid thing twice in a day bitch it takes 5 hours!!!!! and i had to do an hour of washing up this morning from#yesterdays run bc we havent had a functional lab dishwasher for 3 months yep we have been fucking handwashing every piece of lab glassware#FOR THREE MONTHS!!#u guys dont even fucking know how much glassware we get thru in a fucking day its shambles#i dont think i even have enough glassware for my second run this afternoon so im gonna have to wash up more#one of the other techs made up the most time consuming reagent for me tho which saves me an hour bless her#but fuuucking hell. hoping when i get back from lunch theyll tell me i dont need to do any more 😭#so i can LEAVE. ON TIME. PLEASE#i cant do another 11 hour day man im not on a fucking shift pattern. if i was then at least id be able to fucking meal prep in advance#but nooooo theyre addicted to giving me unscheduled overtime to do tasks i fucking hate#also did i mention they made it even more complex so now i have to take readings every 30 seconds while constantly titrating this shit#for TEN HOURS. the amount of focus it takes is horrendous i have to keep the number in a 0.0016 range and there are so many dilutions#all this and u can still only analyse 3 samples in 5 hours bc everything has to be in triplicate its fucking sisyphean. hell on earth#puts my head in my hands and wails. im fine ahahahhaahaha. everyone in the lab is being nice abt it at least im getting a lot of pity#i wish i could work shift pattern by this point man or like a 4 day week w 10 hour days. when my managers back im gonna ask her abt it#bc theyve let a few other ppl have custom hours. they wont let me work weekends which is annoying bc im SO productive alone#i might ask again lol so much of my shit is fully independent anyway. aourgh. i get so twitchy from staring at the numbers it makes my#vision swim a bit..... well im used to it#aight vent over im going back in..... wish me fucking luck guys#.diaries
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woke up with the intention to be productive and have a good week. unfortunately I just have the saddies now and I lack motivation to do anything
#cherry chats 🍒#ranting in the tags#please feel free to ignore but I just need to vent#I’m so burnt out w school and work it’s not even funny#I have the rest of the week off after tmrw#but I still have assignments and now this instructor is telling me I’ve been formatting my papers wrong???? so I got a B on it#and im just not in the mood for the bullshit bc the last time a professor did this#we found out he was using AI to grade our papers and our entire class almost got kicked iut for plagiarism#and then I’ve been waiting to have surgery on my knee for almost a yr now and I’ve been bounced from doctor to doctor#I literally went to an appt Thursday to sit in an office an hr away when I told them I didn’t want to drive that far in the first place#only for this dumbass to tell me he needs more testing and imaging#even though when he left the old practice I was seeing him at he was ready to schedule for operation#BUT NOW HE WANTS TO TELL ME THIS AND I WONT BE SEEING HIM FOR ANOTHER MONTH??#I said fuck it and got a new dr at the same place I started seeing him#I’m just so tired of waiting and being in pain#I want my life back fr#I want to go to the gym and shopping by myself again#I also miss running my business but I hated my products#but I’m scared to bring it back bc idk where to start#sigh anyways#i’m sorry#hope y’all have a good day today 🫶🏾
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