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Doodle some Miphlink, if you want to!
I hope you're having a great day :3

What a great suggestion! I was watching Disney's Robin Hood and Maid Marrian and Robin fit Miphlink so well. A princess and a commoner childhood sweethearts who were separated and then came back and were together again. So I doodled a rough sketch!
#thank you so much snails! I loved this#it got my creative juices going and the art block is being fought off!#Robin Hood#maid marian#disney's robin hood#miphlink#mipha#link#botw#tloz#today is going better than expected#which is nice! having a fun art prompt definitely made the day improve. and also there are cupcakes in my house which makes everything bett#hope you're having a great day too!!
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stalemate
#i was just about done w this anyways i may as well share. just bc im in the financial trenches right now doesnt mean i stop twsting#i have a vision for this okay hear me out. 2 OBs facing EACH OTHER. each trying to better the world. at a stalemate forever#and they both CARE abt each other and wish each other no harm. but ALSO theyre in the WAY of saving the world ITS GOOD ITS PEAK#some overblot silver deets are absolutely inspired by my friend lav's from ages ago. shefs kiss. i hate designing shit i do#this feels like a two-yr sequel to the one i posted at 7.3 which i think is nice. maybe ill make this my new twt header#im going to do a bigger post for it tomorrow btw but i for real want to thank u all for ur help already. im. blown away. ive wept#paid my water bill today and my car cost $300 thus far which is FAR better than expected so :)))) WE WILL PUSH THRU#staring at my bank acct more than i think is healthy but what can u do. ive always had a nervous relationship w money so we'll see#twst#twstファンアート#twisted wonderland#twst silver#malleus draconia#suntails#im looking forward to the ssr. silver fans need food in the form of cards. its been too long
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GUESS WHO MIGHT BE GETTING HRT VERY SOOOOOOOON BABYYYYYYYY
#🧃.txt#today was incredibly nerve wrecking but everything went so much better than i could have expected#for context today i had a doctor's appointment where my goal was to ask the doctor to send me to an endocrinologist#because for some reason i cant go to an endocrinologist directly i need a doctor's note to schedule an appointment#and i was so anxious but as soon as i told the doctor+nurses i was there for transition purposes they immediately asked how i prefer to be#called#and started referring to me with masculine pronouns. i dont come even close to passing but they instantly did it#and then i got the doctor's note. no questions were asked no justifications needed nothing#i just told them i wanted to transition and they gave me the note. it was so much simpler than i ever thought it could be#so now i have an endocrinologist appointment scheduled. its not over yet ill have to talk to them about it and idk how the process works#but hrt might literally be so close to the horizon. so so close. o cant believe ive had times were thought i never would have it#im just. lightheaded now
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[Weeping] i miss being in an orchestra
#truly didnt know how good i had it back in school#i dont regret putting the cello down when i started high school bc it was absolutely destroying my mental health bc of trauma issues#but i am sad that i wasnt a part of orchestra in high school#theres nothing as magical as being a part of a full orchestra.........#i picked up my cello again today after 11 years and have a lot to relearn but i sound a hell of a lot better than i was expecting#im going to try to practice every day this summer#and get back to my old skill level
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HELLO!!!! mini art dump thingy for y'all,,,, haven't been in muuuch of a drawing mood but I have things I've made for other things! except the last two; those are for fun.
#If you look. very closely. you'll find a stray swiss/j#context to any of this is: horray!!!#aka trying to explode art block by doing oc bullshit#buuuuuut i think I'm gonna just take a little break waugh#side note: contest for choir went really well! I think we're going to state 'u'#Concert got all 1s (FUCK YEAH WE BETTER HAVE. FUCK HOSANNA ((the song)) MAN)#TBB got all ones as well!#SopAlt got 2s and a one :) Oneeee point away from 2 ones but eh you win some you lose some#overall we all did good!!#fun too. they had a lot of choirs there#not to sound vain but our songs were a lot more diverse than some peoples there...#tbf idk what I expected from a white ahh christian building. They wouldn't take my suggestion of doing tu falta de querer tho/j#we love you shaw dmwnfjnefr#WELL ANYWAYS...#●posts from yomakai#□ yolo watch 2!#yokai watch#yeah sure ill. tag this#sorry regular yokai watch fans have oc bullshit#caspian hernandez#swiss ykw#im lazy today bye for now!!
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#I do not want to hustle and some of my most beloved people do not understand this#I was talking to my honorary big sister on the phone today about why I'm taking a gap year#the main reason is that the final semester of the program I was accepted into is around 50 hours per week of unpaid field work#which means you aren't allowed to have a job during that semester. this information was not presented until after the application process#anyway she was like “well that's fairly normal for healthcare professions” which is true#however this is a community college program and I would have expected them to account for people needing to work throughout college#anyway I responded “yeah true but I'm considering that maybe healthcare isn't for me then. I don't want a job that requires that much work.#And I don't! I don't want 50 or 60 hour work weeks! I want to work 40 hours and then leave and live my life!#but she made it seem like any job that requires a college degree is going to require that. And I don't think that's true#but also she is older than I am and has much more job experience so idk.#maybe she's advising based on the fact that as a teenager I was super type A and ambitious and really wanted a career?#whereas in the past couple years...idk I just want a reliable job that I don't hate that pays the bills and leaves time for enjoying life#so. I'm not sure#And now I kind of feel bad for not having that ambition anymore/ not wanting to have to give myself ulcers to get through school#But college is not worth my sanity and I found that out the hard way.#And I also feel bad for not being one of those people who CAN handle that much workload! Like I can certainly learn#to do more than I'm doing currently#but I will never be one of those constantly busy and insanely productive people. And I don't even want to be anymore#and yet that feels like an error.#I am not lazy! I used to think I was but no. I enjoy getting work done and doing personal projects and going to work and improving things.#It's not even as though I don't have things I want to do with my life. I have a lot of short term and long term goals!#I want to contribute to my community and support my family however I can and make art and tell stories and be a safe place for people!#and so much else!#but those ambitions aren't necessarily directly connected to school or a job for me anymore#and I value rest and having a social life too much to completely put my health on hold for years and years#sure college does take up a lot of time and energy but it shouldn't wholly consume your life as far as I can see.#and now I feel very unsure if that approach is realistic.#thinking I should talk with her again and try to explain myself a little better and ask what she meant.#diary
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First light til the death of the sun || 05/11/2025
#today has been a doozy! woke up at 3:45am but got up at 4am because the power in our town was out due to some maintenance#the street outside was so dark it was only illuminated by the stars + the barely awake sun on the horizon + our solar powered fairy lights#but it was better than being stuck inside so i pulled up a chair next to the Lil Man and opened my laptop to get things done#i had never done that before- being on my laptop outside the house at the ass crack of dawn- usually i do that in my room#i cannot recommend waking up that early enough because it brings a different kind of peace.#everybody is still asleep so nobody expects anything of you#that peace can be addicting#the rest of the day was busy af#but in the afternoon we got to visit grandma's grave for mother's day and at 5:30pm i got to say hello to a sunset!!!#and a little more positive things in between the day that definitely did not go unnoticed <3#Sunset Hoe™#mandatory sunset photo at Rolling Hills#sun
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totally not what i intended to post today but also whatever, we ball. pinocchiop is my favorite vocap and i'm very autistic about both him and wxs, so, to honor the song campaign clues that we got today, allow me to present to you the reincarnation apple wxs cover line distribution i did some time ago — and why, in my humble opinion, it fits wxs much more than it fits niigo,


(the lyrics where the color changes each word are where the characters both sing at the same time but my notes app doesn't have the option to do a gradient)
i'm in no way expecting it to be an official line distribution because i did it based on my personal interpretation of the lyrics — and i feel like dedicating almost a whole big part of the song to each member might mess up with the game cut, but i also really would like to see them have solos of those parts — but they're here to help me explain my point better my point. so!
what i like about wandasho covers is that they are performers — and it should give them more creative liberty when it comes to their covers. that's why the reincarnation in this song could be simply treated as them getting into roles, reliving countless lives as actors. even though the accuracy of the lines sung is always nicely welcomed, the covers don't have to always be 100% fitting. and that's fine. especially in wxs' case, because that is a yet another story that they want to tell us.
people often say that the storyline fits niigo but i... don't see it at all? i mean, yeah, ena as the artist and kanade as the savior, that much is obvious (and i guess you could also say that mizuki as a revolutionary, but that is kind of a reach?). but what about the part describing the inventor that matches rui's backstory so well? what if you put main story tsukasa in the artist's place and draw the similiarities? what if you think about emu as the savior, comparing the savior's unconditional love to her wanting to save wonder stage and make everyone smile? the only match that doesn't fit quite well is nene and the revolutionary, but you can't have anything i guess. and then the adventurer part, which is a call back to the our happy ending set (i set out in search of an ideal — emu deciding to go with wxs in order to expand her knowledge and horizons) (and then you know, the end has come with the reincarnation apple)... and then lines like i'm not smart enough and i don't have a great cause could resonate with how people viewed emu and rui in the past.
"oh but isn't the start of the song a bit too dark and depressing for it to be a wxs cover?" kami no manimani starts in a similiar way and yet it still is a wxs cover.
and, putting lyrics aside, it just doesn't feel like a niigo song from the instrumental alone. i'm not a music expert so i don't have strong arguments for it, but for me it sounds absolutely like a wxs song. it even reminds me of sekahaji in a way.
does that mean you're in the wrong for wanting niigo to cover it? nope! i just simply want to explain why it fits. and i don't want people to complain that it doesn't make sense for it to end up as a wxs cover. because i will cry.
tldr: reincarnation as a metaphore for acting save me
#YOU DON'T KNOW HOW HAPPY I ACTUALLY AM THAT IT'S WXS COVER. LIKE. GENUINELY.#i was advocating for wxs tensei ringo FOREVER and it was so hard to do in the society that believes in a niigo cover#people are still saying that it could end up as a niigo cover but like? they always tease anni covers in the unit order don't they?#besides come on you all HATED on godish. their presumable shadow shadow will sound much better than tensei ringo would pretty sure.#ri says things the tag#it's very messy i know. didn't expect to post it today and i didn't have time to prepare.#but i talked with my friend about it and went fuck it we ball. i am going to defend the cover choice with my whole heart.#wonderlands x showtime#tsukasa tenma#emu otori#nene kusanagi#rui kamishiro#project sekai#pjsk#prsk#I GOT SO EXCITED ABOUT IT THAT I FORGOT TO ADD THE ACTUAL TAGS??
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i like. really do wish i could find the satisfaction and joy in being trans but for ten years i have never stopped being envious of cis men like fuck. i can’t imagine what it would feel like to grow up in a body that’s supposed to be mine
#it’s that time of night sorry. 2 am + watching cis gay men perform makes me want to throw up sometimes#i know this isn’t how you’re supposed to talk to get to self acceptance or whatever but i don’t care#i have been doing this for a long fucking time#and i do think that someday i will get closer. i’ll get surgery and continue to be on t and it will be better than what it is now#but it’s never going to be what it could have been and i could sob and scream and scratch abt it but that doesn’t make a difference#also CRAZY how much of my dysphoria is height related like it genuinely . whatever . everything else i can change#wow. i can tell i am not doing so well bc i haven’t cried about being trans in YEARS and this is sort of breaking me down#while this is a vent post i have exactly one binder i can wear without being in pain and it doesn’t bind especially well so i’ve -#had to change how i dress too to accommodate that and i just feel so . incomplete & alien to myself#sorry guys this was not supposed to be so serious. i wasn’t expecting it to hit me like this#i’ve also been thinking today about last semester and how bad that was for my insecurities & i don’t know how to recover from that feeling#ted talks
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WIP Wednesday
I've been tagged! By the ever wonderful @ejunkiet!
And believe it or not I DO have a WIP that I've been very very very very very slowly chipping away at:

I had no ideas a few months ago so I decided to start a ref sheet for Gale partially because I just like drawing them but also partially because I bothered to design those godamn tattoos, I need them to be seen at least once. But I didn't really want it to be just an fhr sheet, so OG luck demon version will be included as well.
In theory I want to do a couple of outfits. Eventually. I would like to finish this before the end of the year, but at this rate ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
I'll tag some people BUT absolutely no pressure. Idk if you even have anything going and if you don't pleeeease don't worry about it I'm also sort of just waving :3c
@andr0leda @elemenepee @starrypawz @craftsbyrom @mihqorio @impossible-rat-babies and anyone else who wants o3o
#wip wednesday#tbh it's taking so long that I'm in this weird limbo where there's parts that look weird and parts that look better than expected?#aaanyway my brain hit a wall earlier today so hard that it bounced back and I forgot what I was doing#and I still have to go to the second job in like five minutes 🙃#“hmm let's see I'm never going to draw Gale without clothes let's absolutely spend a LOT of time on the tattoos under there”#<- very big brain#help I don't want to go to second work#pk:ocs#pk:gale
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#anyone not fandomy with me can ignore this#ty to people talking to me today and interacting with my stuff#I've felt so disconnected from fandom this year and the longer it goes on the harder it feels to reconnect#I just come on here and feel like I can't keep up with posts or spoilers or fic or anything#and I've let friendships fade away. and idk how to get it all back or if it's too late.#and then the show is going to end so it's too late anyway. and I am not ready for any of that to end#it's like I've missed half a semester of school and idk where to start or if I even can#sitting here crying at work. why am I like this.#I've also convinced myself that no one reads my posts lol so it's a bad idea to post about this and expect anyone to read it#the internet is so bad for me sometimes which is why I have to take so many breaks. like it just triggers so many of my insecurities#anyway sorry and thanks to anyone who's been nice to me lately#I figured it was better to just say this than let it build
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2 weeks at uni and I’ve already reached peak procrastination. I found masking tape and somehow decided that the best use of my time was to make a tiny Belphemon-sleep.
#I actually can’t wait till student finance have processed my dsa#maybe next year or something I should look for an adhd diagnosis? if I’m having this much trouble focussing and a cup of coffee doesn’t work#anymore as a way for me to focus maybe I should see if meds would help?#(when I got my autism diagnosis i was also told its possible that I have adhd. I’d privately suspected adhd before I considered autism)#like. some days I can focus. it feels like I’m balancing on a knife-edge and it’s very stressful#and I can’t do it on command or anything#but sure#seeing one piece of fanart with Boy from tts#and my whole day goes down the drain because I can’t drag myself away from the series#and listening to video game soundtrack helps but then if I do that too much I start feeling lonely but I can’t listen to a podcast because#then I focus on that above the work I’m meant ti be doing#and even then I might look up other stuff about the video game I’m listening to#and the worst times are when I become self aware and that really breaks my focus but I know I’ve got to keep going#and then at the end of the day I feel awful because I’ve done about 1-2 hours actual work in 6 hours#time I could have spend doing other work or#heaven forbid#enjoying myself#that was more of a rant than I expected#I’m doing ok I think#I hope#i know I’m not meant to compare myself with others#but I’ve done more work than my flatmates#and that at least makes me feel a little better#I’m going to get myself a coffee now#hopefully that’ll help me today#my goal is at least 200 words#then I can stop#actually autistic#autism#personal rant
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letting myself unmask has been so nice at times because i'm seeing my boyfriend express joy much more readily too. who knew me being expressive and all that would do so much good!!!
#today was touch and go but overall much better than yesterday where i was watching a musical (not my thing) and it was legally blonde (cool)#but everyone's voices were so shrill (ouch) and the audience was clapping (ouch) and talking a lot (ouch)#and i was three rows back from the stage so the lights were bright (ouch) and there were strobe lights (ouch) and the person seated next to#me kept touching me when she turned to talk to the person next to her..... AND my joints were killing me but we had to walk everywhere from#the theatre to the restaurant we ate at for dinner. which was a byob. and i didn't know we were going to a byob or i would've b'd my own b#but my bf's family doesn't drink so it would've been awkward anyway. and no one talks to me and i don't talk to anyone but yet i'm expected#to be there for some reason (??) i'd rather stay home honestly. horrible time. i couldn't even vape because of said family#so i had zero pain or anxiety relief that whole time. and i had the longest meltdown in the theatre. and i couldn't finish bc intermission#so i had to just like. force it down so i could sit there in silence for 15 minutes while everyone else talked to each other.#and then after all that we still had a 40 minute car ride back home. with my bf's mom.#and then today she invited us to the park with her and my bf was like 'do you wanna?' and i couldn't say no in front of her so i said yes#and then felt SO anxious because god. i just needed A Day. so then i shut down. but then i communicated what i was needing to my bf#and we had a nice walk at a different park on our own. phew#i do Not mean to complain but goodness. pre-autism i would've blamed myself for everything that happened#but now i can properly commiserate with people who understand me LOL anyway. look at some of the crazy shit i went through yesterday
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been having weird pains all day (first my chest, and now my back is killing me, also my hands for some reason??)and i went to a funeral that left me very wrecked emotionally; so i think now i should have an edible and hopefully that will make me feel better!!
#my friend's estranged dad died on sunday and it's been so rough on her </3 she seemed better today but still i hate seeing her like this#i was not expecting to cry but my friend did give a little speech that had my friend maure and i in tears#also my parents have been fighting a lot and my brother's sick and away in the city so i can't even see him and make him food#so yeah :c weird days seeing my loved ones going through it and not being able to do much to help than just trying to be there
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I don’t usually comsume caffeine (my body just doesn’t handle it well) but given that I am starting work again and extremely fatigued as a result I fear I must begin experimenting with it again. Anyway. Time to see what 100mg of caffeine does to my (extremely exhausted, zero caffeine tolerance) body today.
#the wizard speaks#health tw#<- only kinda but tagging just in case lol#I have today and tomorrow off (though tomorrow I need to cook and Ranger has his training class#) so today felt like the best time to just really jump into the deep end and see how I react to an energy drink lol#gonna listen to my audiobook and try to do some crafts#maybe read some more fic if I can get my eyes to focus on words#hopefully take Ranger for a walk later if the caffeine makes me feel capable of that#poor boy hasn’t had a walk the last two days because I had work and his patience is clearly wearing out lol#the last couple days he was relatively chill but today he is very energetic and needy and clingy#gonna work out a system with my roommate to get him walked more often now that I’m working again and needing more rest#it’s just hard because he’s such an anxious dog#he’s made an amazing amount of progress with his reactivity and walks are a lot easier for him now but I’m#worried about him losing that progress if someone else is walking him and not following my process exactly lol#I fear I’ve become a bit of a helicopter parent#I am excited because well hopefully be moving into a place with a fenced yard in a couple months#which obviously won’t replace walks but it’ll be easier to get him a bit of excercise even on my low energy days#when I got him I didn’t think that it would be an issue to not have a yard for him to run in because#I didn’t know yet that my weirdly long lasting health stuff was going to become such a permanent thing#I thought I was finally starting to get over an abnormally long stomach bug or something but alas. chronic illness be upon me#so when I got a dog I expected to be capable of taking him on long walks and to parks and stuff to run every day#anyway that’s enough rambling about my guilt over not being able to take better care of him lol#I do think I set unreasonably high standards for myself#by virtue of animal husbandry being my special interest#he is better cared for than honestly most dogs I know#his vet says he’s very healthy and his trainer says I’m doing great work with him and he only rarely seems bored or stressed by#lack of activity or enrichment#and that’s really only when my health has been particularly bad AND my usual backup systems aren’t in place#like if my roommate is out of town or something
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München, 21. Februar 2025
#as my flatmate said: “he follows you around!”#and no i didn't go to his show - that's just the venue's current flyer that's lying around everywhere#funnily two women started talking about claus and his “intelligent show” in the queue at the exit afterwards#(and i just stood there quietly laughing to myself)#actually i went to see another satirist today to write a review of the evening#it was better than i expected but then again i didn't expect to be entertained at all lol#that was too cliche and too shallow for the most parts#but yay i got to go and see a show for free and it was nice#munich#lustspielhaus
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