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#write any kind of female character you want to#because somebody someway somehow for some minor or even no reason at all is just going to get mad at them anyway#it's inevitable#but screw'em and their biases#unless their constructive criticism is actually constructive and/or valid#then good day to those rare few i wish there were more of you
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Not to be rude or anything, but you kind of sound more like pomni than ragatha
Plz don't be mad
[I was debating on whether or not I wanted to answer this ask, but I'm gonna go ahead because I have some questions. You say you didn't intend to be rude, but how was this NOT supposed to hurt my feelings? Just last night I expressed that sometimes I find it hard to motivate myself to answer asks because I am a perfectionist who knows my replies will never be 100% accurate, and I've been doubting my validity as a voice actor recently.
I just started with actual voice acting. Encore Ragatha is my first ever role in a big project, and I am still figuring out my voice for her. I did also audition for Pomni, and I feel I can do a pretty good Pomni impression, but I didn't end up getting that role. I got Ragatha, so there's gotta be a reason for that, right? You're not the first person so say this though, so I still have that self-doubt that I'll never be good enough for the role I received.
If I had more time and less asks to answer a day, I would do a lot more takes to make sure every single response sounded good enough. Unfortunately I don't have that, so the quality that y'all get is going to be that way. I'm not getting paid for this, and it's supposed to be just for fun. I am aware that sometimes my voice goes up unintentionally. I'm always trying to correct my voice to find that perfect fit, but it's going to fluctuate a LOT. Ragatha is hard, y'all. Her voice has a very wide range and versatility, so consistency is difficult to maintain. I also am not Amanda Hufford, but I do my best to at least maintain the character's vibe with my responses, even if she doesn't sound exactly like the original.
My questions are as follows:
Why did you send this? What was the intention here? If it's constructive criticism, I didn't ask for it. You're allowed to have an opinion on my impression, but was the intention of sending this to me? Did you think it was going to make me better or something? The only intention I could possibly see is to make me feel bad...
Why are you following me? If I thought an impression was bad or inaccurate, I wouldn't support it? Unless you still like the content, which in that case it is odd to send me this message.
I'm not trying to be accusatory, I'm just genuinely curious as to what you expected here. Maybe it's because I've been dealing with my own personal insecurity lately, but this threw me off this morning. Hopefully I can get my mojo back to answer some asks later, but I'll definitely be overthinking it more from now on. Sorry :/.]
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Paring: wonwoo x fem!reader
Genre: lovers to exes
warning(s): angst
summary: wonwoo realizing that good things dont last unless one takes care of them.
words:750
a/n: I request each and every one of you to comment on this fic don't be a silent reader it helps me as an author to understand my readers and i would love to communicate with all of you. Constructive criticism is always welcomed by me so do talk about this fic or send me an ask.
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Wonwoo had realized you were the love of his life from the prime age of fifteen. You obviously were not aware of this revelation of his, but you did not need to, he was fine with keeping it secret from you till he was comfortable with sharing it.
He had met you when you were six and though a series of unfortunate events, wherein you shoved his face in dog shit and he pushed you into the lake without knowing you could not swim, you both became best of friends, almost inseparable.
The first crack in your ever so strong friendship came with Wonwoo realizing his feelings for you, he stopped talking to you trying his level best to make sure it goes away. It resulted in you breaking into his house to inquire his sudden disappearance from your life and decreasing his life span in the process.
He had his first serious conversation with you about your relationship then. After spending the whole night talking, you both realized you were equally in love with each other and felt the innate teenage need to get into a relationship.
That was the second crack. Now that he thinks back to that day, he realizes the foolhardy risk you both took. It just resulted in a lost friend and a broken relationship.
That was five years ago, both of you were young and dumb, and did not know how to actually work out a relationship. Now at the age of twenty, both still young and dumb, but wiser than your fifteen-year-old selves stand in the living room of his college dorm teary eyed and exhausted from the conversation you just had.
"Maybe it's time we take a break you know experience the world, because I don't really have the energy to do a long distance anymore Wonwoo, not when it's just me putting the effort." You spoke.
That was the topic of the argument, 'his extreme ignorance to your presence', as you had stated, taking utmost care to point out all the time when he went wrong and how you are the only one putting enough effort.
In return he had used up his energy to point out valid reasons as to why he was not able to be available for you in his schedule. His head is throbbing, and he would very much like to have a glass of water but alas the predicament he is in refrains him from doing so.
"let's break up then, what are we waiting for", he says.
All he gets is a scoff from you as a reply. You turn around while running a hand through your hair, you mumble something that sounds similar to 'prick' and walk out of his dorm slamming the door shut.
Maybe if he would have tried to understand where he went wrong instead of making excuses, maybe if you would have tried to understand his predicament or maybe if you both would have sat down for a discussion, you could have salvaged the broken relationship of yours.
But that was not the case here, you both were too deep in your emotions to even try and feel the others, the years in uni had made you both incapable of accepting the changes you both went through. It has made you both hardheaded souls who refused to accept their own shortcomings and blame the world for everything when they could easily fix the problem with accepting their faults instead of defending them.
You were Wonwoo’s first love, and he knows he was yours, but maybe good things do not last long or maybe to make them last one must put in effort, which you both just refused to do. He knows before anything else you both were friends; he does not know if you will be anymore, but he sure does hope that the friendship stays.
Maybe he is a prick he thinks, but you are no less, he knows both of you are equally at fault here, but he will take the easy route this time too, he will blame you because it takes too much courage to blame one’s own self.
He just hopes when the storm dies down you come back to him maybe not as a lover but as a friend because you are too precious for him to lose, and he hopes you think the same as him. Because at the end of the day, you are best of friends.
#wonwoo#wonwoo fic#svt fanfiction#svt angst#svt drabbles#seventeen imagines#seventeen scenarios#excalibur fics#seventeen x you#svt#seventeen#wonwoo angst#wonwoo scenarios#wonwoo x reader#wonwoo imagines#wonwoo x y/n#wonwoo x you#wonwoo x oc
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I really like your work! I do have some critiques though if you don't mind
First, I wish you would use the "read more" button so we don't have to scroll so long just to see your other posts.
Second, Crowley registering mc as a darling/giving them different textbooks doesn't make any sense imo. All of these things just make it more obvious that he enrolled someone he's not supposed to, which just makes the chance of his pay getting cut even higher. Plus if he only registered her as one so she doesn't get murdered, that also doesn't make sense. No one would know not to kill her unless they know she's a darling, but the whole point is to hide that.
Like I said though I do really enjoy the idea of your story, and I think it's quite well written, too. I'm definitely a fan I just know that if it were me, I'd want people to give me their real opinions, instead of just sugarcoating what they think I want to hear.
Sorry if this came off as rude. Have a good day!
I always like to get real opinions to my writing, and really don't want to be sugarcoated with what I write. So I appreciate your constructive criticism so thank you for that.
First, the 'read more' button. I actually didn't know how to add that. So thank you for pushing me to learn. All of my really long works will have this now and I went back and edited this for all of the chapter one parts so far.
Second, Crowley is shit at his job in any universe. Crowley had to register you to prevent himself from being punished if you were murdered. (Which kind of seems redundant when you think about the fact that not everyone knows she's a darling, but I hadn't thought that far ahead then😅) So to slap a bandage over that plothole, let's just say that exceptions can be made within certain circumstances.
MC, quite literally, didn't exist in this world before hand. And I severely doubt any government could manage to explain what should happen to her, if she has no family, guardians or anything in this world.
She could have been sent to RHC, but she was already enrolled at a yandere school when she was registered as a darling. Some could doubt her validity as a darling, which breaks the rules of RHC because of their yandere rules. (I'll make sense of this when I get around to writing the event)
With the MC's difficult position, it makes his job harder, because she's technically a student and she's also a darling, so he's covering his ass by pulling the 'oh, I already knew, and so did the students, so I didn't do anything wrong' if something happens to you.
Also, technically most yanderes, at least the ones we care about, were taught how to identify darlings since they were young, especially to make sure they don't accidentally kill one, if they're a rival for their darlings.
As for the censorship issue, I'm using it as a reason for MC to get closer to the staff, who will be platonic yanderes, as she'll use her limited knowledge as an excuse to sneak what she needs away from everyone.
I hope that answered it for you. 😊. And don't worry, you weren't rude.
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ranking rain code lets plays on how much i enjoy/would recommend them
hi did you know i am incredibly autistic about this game and have watched, in full, several lets plays of it? and im still going? haha yeah im normal. anyway here goes... all lets plays ive watched from best to worst:
#1 Highest recommendation: JustOneGamr. ESPECIALLY for people who are going in blind. im so serious. it's the best way to experience as much of the game as possible without playing it yourself. They go through all of the content, side quests, gumshoe gabs, profiles, DLC, and even most of the flavor text. it's also a no commentary run, which i personally see as a massive boon because they aren't influencing your opinions of the game
#2: Pixel Partners. they've got real good vibes and they actually do the side quests. it's also fun to listen to their theories and see their reactions. they're one of the few who dont spend their time complaining and give more valid constructive criticisms than others. they also have the funniest reaction to the chapter 5 reveal
#3: JohnAwesome. his humor sometimes isn't particularly for me but boy is his lets play enjoyable. also has lots of positive vibes and is generally pretty entertaining. i dont remember if he does side quests but im pretty sure he does. he will easily make chapter 4 even more gut wrenching thanks to a very specific kind of incompetence on his part, which in hindsight is really funny
#4: NyanCave. they're pretty fun and also have great vibes! i like their chemistry a lot. they have some pretty good theories and good jokes, but they will spend a lot of time on responding to chat donations. this is fine like get that bag kings but if you're impatient like me it might get annoying after a while lol. it's especially bad in chapter 5, where the tension dies because of their waifu fight donations
#5: NicoB. I was never really a NicoB fan because he's a bit too loud and high energy for me, but his rain code lets play is still pretty good! he seems to have fun playing the game and even has a few good jokes. i think he does the side quests which is a plus but i could be misremembering. i still quote "and now back to yuma crackhead" to this day so there's that
#6: Faz Faz. This another no commentary run but for people who are in a rush. they go through the game as quickly as possible. frankly, i think these kinds of lets plays are not as good as the ones that go through the sidequests, but hey, it's there if you just want the main plot and gumshoe gabs
#7: Save Data. I don't recommend this one to people experiencing rain code for the first time because they will talk over the cutscenes and dialogue and that will get annoying. they also complain quite a bit about the same things over and over which can also get tiresome (im sorry guys i do Not care about graphics as much as you do). however, they're really funny and it's good for a second or third experience of the game. "this city..." is a highly prevalent vocal stim for me thanks to them. they will shit on on the game often though, so if you really love rain code and dont want to hear that, then avoid this one lol. but you do get to see my art at the end of their vids! that's pretty cool!
#8: Rat Attack. i straight up don't recommend this one. it's easily the worst one i've seen and that's sad because i really love their pngtuber avatars. they're not finished with the game yet and that's probably because they spend so much time ranting and yapping about everything else, or just concocting the most baffling theories known to man and spending wayyy too much time on them. you will also hear a lot of unfunny halara gender jokes sorry. sometimes they are funny in other ways but it's honestly not worth it unless you're like me and keep watching out of obsession for the game.
that's all the ones ive watched in full (so far)! here's a couple others i haven't seen in full but have seen small parts of:
Weeby Newz - she's got some fun reactions from what ive seen and is pretty funny too. i have only really watched her play chapters 4 and 5 though, so i cant give a full opinion. i dont care for yakou fathero as a concept though and she seems pretty heavy on that, but if you like that you may enjoy her let's play. i may go back and finish it soon!
CurtStreamy - genuinely very funny from what ive seen though in chapter 5 his whole crew has a pretty fundamental misunderstanding of makoto's character, which can be a little irritating. either way, most of it is great but his live chat sucks. i still need to watch the rest in full to form a full opinion
CrystAAHHL - ohhh she did Not like this game lmao. she is a based makoto enjoyer though. i only watched the highlight reel though i think watching her full streams would just make me tired. i personally dont like watching lets plays if the person playing isnt having any fun
JazzyGuns - unfinished but she is really funny and has good vibes. if you can cope with her probably never finishing the game then go for it
khee chu - im still in the process of watching this one in full but it's fun so far. i will say CHECK OUT KHEE'S MERCH AND SHINIGAMI X JUNKO ART!!! THE ART IS RLY CUTE!!!!
and that's everything! there's other lesser known ones out there but im just one guy i cant watch em all despite how determined i am to do so </3 above all else i want people to get the game but like, yknow, some folks dont got $60 to spend on a game lol. anyway have fun and happy watching!
#rain code#mdarc#raincode#master detective archives: rain code#let's play#ive wanted to do this for a while#biggie's rain code ramblings
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UPDATE TO GELBOYS FINALE THOUGHTS
So we’re to believe it’s credible that the most sensible, ethically clear-headed and self-aware person in GelBoys has several times told Bua he doesn’t like him like that, even to the point of cruelly rejecting his ethnicity and physical looks when he knows how emotionally fragile Bua is, because he actually loves Bua all along and really only liked F4M as an overly concerned friend?

A F4M who told him at every turn what he feels for Chain he has never felt for someone he views only as a best mate, and with utmost finality that if another man appears on the horizon (even the unsafe Chian) he’d be grasping that corrosive brass ring first - is the reason Baabin has been rejecting Bua all along?

These incredible inconsistencies are clearly not about being teenagers; it is the conservative adult creators who’re being too immature to go where their original, searing rendition of gay male intimacy in late capitalism, would logically lead the narrative. The characters might all still have ended up in these pairings, but for the creators to present these outcomes as neutral or even romantic given their journey there, is a huge red flag.
This makes the ending of GelBoys one that inspires despair rather than hope, a defining characteristic of great BL narrative including those with “bad endings”.
This series has been triggering for many people, some of whom wrote it off immediately because the discomfort was so personal, for reasons previously stated (https://www.tumblr.com/blbeloved/778646173333471232/gelboys-ep-6-musings-the-feminist-ethic-of-care). Less because it reminded them of their painful teenage coming of age histories, and more because this rocky emotional context is still the reality of too many adults of any gender who have sex with men.


It’s standard operating procedure for how straight men deal with women with low self esteem. After years of stringing along, emotional torture, and assaults to their dignity they turn up out the blue when the woman is at her lowest, with flowers and a ring. The woman crying and accepting this arrangement on a more permanent basis is celebrated throughout the entire culture as “love” but people with life experience and critical consciousness read it as TRAUMA.
The prospective husbands just don’t typically pledge to continue the sadistic neglect in a patently unequal relationship going forward. These relationships last no longer than a snowcone unless one of the CP consistently sublimates their desires to conform to the preferences of the more-valued partner which is how women have typically “solved” this problem.
When you hear people talk about situationships eventually becoming relationships this is overwhelming the dynamic they’re celebrating.
These characters moved me profoundly because I deal with adults who suffer from these ongoing wounds every day.

We know how Chian treated Bua when he was his love interest; he has at no time given F4M the same care, respect and deep understanding of his needs - spoken or unspoken, that he gave to Bua even as Bua treated their friendship as instrumental to his own psychic wants for validation from Strangers.


In the same way, we didn’t get to see Baabin so much as unwittingly show love to Bua, only empathy, concern and of course care, even as a casual acquaintance in close proximity to someone else suffering. Bua, for his part, has not shown Baa anything remotely like a romantic inclination (being horny together does not equal love), up to the Chian/Fou4Mod/Baa confrontation scene.

Ep 7 therefore fails to make either coupling a convincing endgame because a coherent scaffolding to anchor those particular outcomes within a romance logic does not exist in the first place. There is disquiet and consternation among viewers because the set-up was actually quite immaculately constructed but the cynical ending obliterated that promise like a sandcastle in high tide.
I used to be excited that a Fou4Mod/Chian endgame would obviously mean a S2 because it acknowledges the most dangerous conflict has only now started - now I’m not sure if I would want to see it given the political reversal the creators instigated in Ep 7, undoing the scorchingly realistic commentary on masculinity, alienation and late capitalism GelBoys seemed to be giving in Episodes 1-6.

#GelBoys#TheWayIWantedAFemmeFemmEndgameAndNotAnotherRelentlesslyDullM4M#Gutted#LoveWillNeverDoYouLikeThatAtAnyAge#GELBOYSสถานะกั๊กใจFinalEP#GelBoys Episode 7#GelBoys Final Episode#GelBoys The Series#when F4M asks Baa why didn’t you tell me you liked him I swore they were talking about Chian bc wth lol
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It's less a critique of *RWBY* and more a bitter manifesto dripping with smug self-righteousness and emotional immaturity.
1. Hyperbole Overload
The “FRWBY >>>>>>>>>>>> RWBY” line is an internet shorthand for "I don't care about nuance." It's juvenile, reductive, and tells the reader from the outset that this isn't going to be an intelligent, reasoned analysis—it’s just a glorified tantrum. You’re not reviewing; you’re ranting.
2. "I've Given RWBY Ten Years!"
Congratulations on your masochism, but your time investment doesn’t validate your opinions. Watching a show for ten years doesn’t automatically make your take meaningful. If anything, it undercuts your credibility—why stick with something you clearly loathe for a decade unless you're addicted to outrage?
3. Personal Bias as Objective Truth
“I hate Roman (IN THE CANON)” – Fine. But turning around and saying FRWBY Roman is now a favorite, then using that to bash canon Roman, isn't criticism. It's you flipping your bias based on how the wind blows. What made FRWBY Roman better? What was actually changed to redeem the character in your eyes? Again, you never say.
4. Aggressiveness Masquerading as Critique
Your post is combative for the sake of being combative. “If the title offends you? Good.” That’s not critique, that’s provocation. You’re not engaging in a conversation—you’re lashing out like a bitter ex who wants everyone to know they’ve “moved on” by screaming it in all caps. And then you call people “fanatics” for disagreeing, while writing a diatribe that reads like gospel from a zealot.
5. FRWBY Worship, Cult-Like and Uncritical
You treat Celtic Phoenix like a prophet whose mere passion makes their work better. That's not critique—it's blind devotion. Loving a fanfic is fine. But praising something for "loving the series" more is lazy. Passion doesn’t mean quality. Execution does. And you never once engage with the *actual* structure or content of FRWBY to justify your claims. You're treating it as a salvation fantasy, not a literary work.
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Conclusion:
Your post reads like an angry screed from someone who’s spent too long in echo chambers and forgot what constructive analysis even looks like. You could’ve written something meaningful about how FRWBY reinterprets the themes or character arcs. Instead, you chose to scream into the void, hoping other angry fans would cheer.
This isn't a review. It’s a meltdown with delusions of grandeur.
1/10. Try again.
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Out of curiosity, when did the, 'fanfic doesn't need to adhere to canon, everything is valid and good, don't give concrit unless specifically asked for' attitude become the norm? Genuine question.
I was active in fandom back in the LJ days, when sporkings and comms viciously mocking Mary Sues were the norm, but then I sort fell out of fandom spaces for the past (checks notes) fifteen years holy shit. The current attitude seems diametrically opposed to what I remember fandom being like (kinda shitty, it was 'cool' to be an asshole back then), and I'm just curious as to when and how the shift happened. I mean, I assume it was a gradual thing, but is there anything in particular that stick out to you?
(Also, because tone doesn't convey very well through ask, and I don't want to leave you with a poor impression-- this is by no means a defence of the 2000s attitudes, nor an aspersion on the current ones. I'm genuinely only curious about the evolution from one to the other; I hope that comes across.)
Hi anon!
TL;DR because my response got LONG -> Anon this existed before Livejournal as an attitude, in fact modern fandom was literally born out of being not canon compliant (*waves aggressively to Spirk shippers*) and this existed on Livejorunal too and there have always been big pockets of fandom that really frowned on sporking even there, like that was not cool when I was on LJ, unless you were a certain age, or in certain spaces in fandom.
But also AO3 was its kind of final death knell re: making it cool to bully 13-16 yo writers (who were largely the victims of sporking) and killing dreams, which was born out of meta happening on LJ and in other places about like... not trying to make people miserable for writing a free fic out of the love in their heart that someone else didn't like or think was good enough.
Anyway, the longer version of this under the read more!
(For everyone else, welcome to some of the uglier aspects of 00s fandom!)
So there was actually criticism around all the stuff you mention 15-20 years ago as well. I was also on Livejournal during that time and there was a pretty big proportion of people in certain fandoms who recognised even then that like... setting up communities to mock say, Mary Sue writers, was actually a pretty weirdly cruel thing to do to people who were providing free labour and the literal only 'payment' they could get in a kind of energy exchange was people just not being complete dickheads to them.
So things were already changing, especially in many LJ communities and awards communities. There were a lot of big debates over whether concrit should be asked for, and a growing movement of authors who said they welcomed constructive criticism for example, instead of assuming it should automatically apply. There was also a lot of meta around the function of fanfiction and whether it should even be 'good' by published standards if the author was just doing it for themselves, and for fun (esp if they were just going to get punished for it by folks who were elitist, judgemental, grammar purists etc.)
Things really changed around the time of AO3 (2009-2010 - literally around 14~ years ago, you may have just missed the big change anon!), Strikethrough and the Dreamwidth exodus. There was a massive swing away from leaving concrit unless the author specifically asked for it, and fandom became a lot more generally able to recognise that a lot of labour goes into fanart and fanfiction and that paying with public criticism is shitty actually. Also people were just more able to recognise that like most fanfiction writers aren't trying to become professional writers and many don't want to be.
(I would actually say things changed around the time of fanfiction.net too - rude comments there were definitely noticed and could create some pretty forward 'hey why are you doing this on something you literally don't have to read' responses from fellow readers - idk what fic sites you were on. The small indie fic sites where you could often only comment via email for example, definitely drew a lot more critical attention than sites that tended to have public comments).
The 'fanfic doesn't need to adhere to canon' literally exists since the very first Spirk slash fic in modern fanfiction in the last few decades. Literally, as soon as you write Kirk/Spock, you're not adhering to canon. Our fanfiction 'ancestors' literally paved the way for a legacy which is about not adhering to canon in order to see the world/s and thing/s you want to see, be entertained by, by turned on by, or enjoy, from the very beginning. You may not have been in slash circles anon, but the foundation of queer same sex fanfic is in many ways the foundation of fandom. But yeah, this is literally where fanfiction started! As soon as you're shipping characters that aren't canon for fun (or for whatever reason), you're making it pretty clear that you want stories different to canon, and you have to change things to often keep those characters in-character.
So yeah! That's been there for decades. Idk what circles you were in on that front! While it was fairly common for a while to criticise characters for being OOC (Out of Character), imho, a lot of folks started to recognise that they literally weren't paying for what they were criticising, and they could just walk away and potentially not like...blast the fanfic. Some folks started to recognise more that people were writing with ESL, or were teenagers (some 40 yos in fandom realised they were mocking literal 15 year olds in their proto-podcasts and websites and realised actually that's just...mean? Really mean? Not the way to nurture new generations of fanfiction writers. Definitely in no way encouraging), or were writing for themselves, or writing for like one other person, or writing for fun, or writing for free, or writing for personal reasons etc.
'Don't Like Don't Read' wasn't just about political stuff, it was also about just walking away if you feel the urge to slam a fanfic in the comments.
I've been in fandom for around 2.5 decades anon, and there were so many spaces that were not actually as shitty or mean-spirited as the ones you were in? Or ones that at least had a lot of different thoughts etc. Like, sporking (mocking/bullying badfics and sometimes the folks who wrote them) was disapproved of by a lot of people in fandom even while sporking was at the height of its popularity (the Fanlore page goes into more detail about this). It might have just been the fandoms you were in, or the people you were hanging out with (and that might have been dependent on your age or just if you were around people who wanted to be 'cool' back then - in the same way that being an 'anti' is cool among certain crowds today. It's possible to spend years in certain crowds and never get an image of broader fandom for example - we can all end up in spaces like that! I know I have.)
When I started writing fanfiction (which no one will EVER find lmao), generally giving positive comments was normal. Constructive criticism was actually pretty rare and there were already fanfiction aggregate sites that generally disapproved of it in their Rules of Conduct. People were encouraging and polite. And this was around 20 years ago on Livejournal and private indie fanfiction websites.
I would actually say there was never exactly an evolution from 'one to the other' because like thousands of people in fandom already believed this and argued in defense of supporting fanfiction and transformative works via accepting that people are labouring for free and that not everyone wants to become a 'better writer' etc. - the meta was there on Livejournal in the 00s. There were communities where sporking was seen as hip/fun, and communities where it was literally banned or at the very least, super frowned upon.
There were meta fandom communities where sporking was the subject of discussion and you know eventually in a lot of those meta communities, that's where a lot of folks decided actually that calling out the fanfiction of 16 yos as 'cringe' or 'badly done' maybe said more about us as human beings and what we wanted fandom to be, than it did about the actual fanfic itself. By the time AO3 came around, people built it with this in mind.
To this day on AO3 it's mostly considered appropriate to say you want concrit in your author's notes, and to otherwise assume as a reader it's never welcome if it's unsolicited. That started during the LJ era. And it was talked about at great length. There's obviously going to be people who disagree! But for the most part I'm a big believer in compassion and 'not everyone is here for the same reason' and 'they literally gave this to us for free and it's meant to be fun' (like yourself! What we do/think/argue 10 years ago on LJ is sometimes different to what we do 10 years later lol, I used to be against trigger warnings pre-AO3! Times change a lot :D )
So yeah, this was definitely something that was around before you and I came to fandom, and it was something that continued to grow as an attitude during, until finally it kind of won out on AO3. But yeah fandom as we know it was born in people literally not being canon compliant to make some gay dreams come true (Spirk shippers bless them all), at a time when there was no representation.
Even in the earliest days of fandom where comments could only happen via email, one of the earliest phrases authors used were things like 'flames will be used to roast marshmallows.' For those reading who don't know, flames are hate comments, critical 'this fic is bad because' comments etc. Except you emailed them directly to the author, because there was no place for comments on a fic.
And this started because authors in part got death threats for writing gay stuff.
So you know, from the very beginning, authors in fanfic have by and large had a very low tolerance for criticism / hate over something they're doing for free and making no profit out of, when they're changing/altering the canon as they please to create representation (or hotness lmao), that is literally a labour of love in a world of very little representation. From there, things have just grown. The whole 'flames will not be tolerated' existed even before Livejournal did.
Honestly there are still people who love sporking and you could probably find groups and Discords dedicated to that even now (actually you literally can, there's a Dreamwidth group for it), it's kind of wild but it started to get cool again. Just like 90s clothing :D (Which is also wild because I can just take that crap out of my closet and wear it again).
But yeah it also sounds like you may have been in some pretty crappy pockets of fandom! When I was on LJ in the 00s I avoided those places and still got to experience fandom across multiple fandoms (mostly NCIS, Captive Prince, HP, Profiler, The X-Files and some others) and communities.
I was super active in some fandom communities and saw a lot of meta happening, and my view during the early and late 00s was that sporking was largely pretty frowned upon after a very brief (like 3-6 month) era where it was cool for only some folks, and then everyone (including some - but not all - of those folks) was like 'heyyyyyyy hang on a minute.' It was something that the bullies did, and enjoyed, and otherwise folks kind of stayed away from it, especially once they learned people were becoming too scared to write fics, which is the inevitable outcome of mocking/bullying folks and fics that have been made purely out of love for something.
Like, publicly making a spectacle out of what a 13 yo (they were often teens - and it's kind of sad how many 40 yo women were doing the sporking :/ ) wrote out of love, just for fun/clout was not considered cool by everyone even back then, because like, a lot of us saw that as killing new generations of fandom (some folks who sporked considered it a win if a fic or account got deleted, this is not based behaviour), not actually creating good writing, internalised misogyny (Mary Sue hatred and self insert hatred), etc. It's hard to explain because I do really think we were in different corners of fandom at the time, but I don't know anyone personally from my time on Livejournal who actually liked sporking as an idea or enjoyed it or enjoyed listening to it or reading articles mocking fic.
I knew about it from very lively 'is this okay' 'actually no it's not even if it's just for fun this is trying to hurt people and saying 'it's just the fic' is not going to be the bandaid a teenager needs to understand why older folks (generally) in fandom are mocking them for being new at a skill' discussions on LJ in meta fandom communities. So this is how much I could be in fandom and not be a part of it and also have like a wildly different experience to your LJ experience!
I think if I'd been a teenager during that era it would have seemed a lot more appealing (in the same way that many teens are antis now before they grow out of it), and fuck it if I was a more bitter person who was just around people who liked to make fun of what other people created, perhaps I would have enjoyed it too, I can see a lot of reasons why a person would fall into that in LJ -> but I was an adult on LJ trying not to be mean to people or what they were creating, so yeah I was maybe just in very different spaces! (Don't get me wrong, I have my giant fucking character flaws, but I was very scared of people hating me so like I didn't want to do things that would make that happen, lol, and also I was scared to put up fic myself during the era of active sporking. I know for myself that sporkers didn't just scare away writers of 'badfic' - they...intimidated a LOT of people).
Before AO3 I was on FF.net, posting fics on LJ, posting on Schnoogle, gossamer, and a couple of other archives. So I don't think my experience was that 'narrow,' I just think I wasn't around like... anime at that time or other places where it might have been happening. I also avoided like...Draco/Malfoy where CC drama was happening and I know sporking was popular in that specific arena / pairing for a while as well (er, as well as anything to do with Mary Sues).
So yeah! That's about where that is. Generally gatekeeping fandom is just seen as not a great thing to do to people, and that creates other kind of beliefs that are generally upheld as being more inviting/nurturing. After all, if someone truly wants to get better at writing, they can ask, or do courses, but as we all know, everyone has to write some bad stuff to get good at it, but not everyone wants to be good. Folks are in fandom for different reasons. I'm rambling now so I'm going to finish my lunch! :D
#asks and answers#pia on fandom#pia on writing#god i do not miss sporking#but it's still happening tbh in some sections of the internet#and it always will!!!#there will always be fics that piss us off or that are just written painfully#generally speaking it's just encouraged to share that with afriend privately#instead of creating a website and recording an interview or discussion or slam#or writing an article for fandom to see#and using BNF energy to chase fic writers out of fandom#it's wild that it was actually around for as long as it was#on LJ#i feel like that was the mean-spirited click-bait era before click-bait then came around#anyway it's grown in popularity again because of Tiktok!#such is life :D
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A Few Words on Unsolicited Criticism
Came across this and yeah... I wanna talk about it. (I know not reblogging is kinda rude, but I don't want any harrassment directed towards this person, and the best way to contribute to that is by not disclosing their identity. It doesn't matter for the point I'm gonna make anyway)
The mindset I can see in the post screenshotted above is, in my opinion, an extremely damaging one - both for the people receiving unsolicited criticism from people like this, as well as for these self-proclaimed critics themselves. How do I know? Well, because I used to be one of these kinds of people, and I'm so glad I got over that, both for the people I have hurt with this kind of behavior (if any of you are reading this, I'm still sorry) and those I would potentially have hurt if I kept going like this, as well as for my own wellbeing.
You see, this "criticism is always valid"-attitude stems from one mindset in my opinion (and that is if I'm being nice and disregard the entitlement-option): the mentality that everyone is (and should be) always trying to improve - which is not a great mentality to have, both for the people you are criticizing and your own work (if you engage in creative endeavours), as it can lead to perfectionism, which can, in turn, damage your ability to create.
The truth is, whether people are actively trying to improve or not is situational. You do not know what another person is going through or why they are even creating. They could be trying to improve their skills, but they could also be creating to vent. Or, you know, purely to have fun, see their ideas come to life or to distract themselves from the stress that is everyday life - which also constantly pushes us to get better. There are lots of reasons to create, and not everyone is trying to get better at all times - and that is completely valid! It doesn't make one any less of an artist, a writer, a videograph, ... if they're not actively trying to improve!
Also, for all you creatives out there: I don't actually think you should take criticism from anyone. First of all, not everyone is actually qualified to give constructive criticism which is a skillset of its own (though I do want to point out that pretty much everyone can point out things and / or make suggestions regarding your work, which can also be extremely helpful), and secondly, there is no ultimate recipe for helpful criticism. It varies from person to person. Some are better off taking criticism from people they're close with (for example folks with trust issues), while others fare better taking criticism from people they barely know (for example folks who persue a creative career and are working with / for people they barely know). Some are better off with criticism that includes a lot of jokes (for example folks who love to have fun while editing and can laugh about themselves without feeling bad), while others fare better with kindly worded criticism (for example folks who are currently working on self-esteem-issues).
Last but not least, I wanna talk about "don't like (it), don't read (it)" (and its variations such as "don't like, don't watch") a bit.
Fanwork is free entertainment, meaning no one wastes any money on it. Yes, there are some people who are actively trying to improve their skills, but a lot of us are just trying to have fun. Unless a fanwork (usually a fanfic or ongoing AUs) is held up like the second coming of Jesus by (parts of) a fandom (and therefore has a big impact) and / or taken very serious by its creator and / or the criticism is tied into the discussion of a bigger topic, for example pretty much every -ism-issue (including in fandom itself), queerphobia or misogny, meaning that the discussion revolves more around these issues than the actual work itself, unsolicited criticism is not only unwanted, but unnecessary. "Dont like (it), don't read (it)" also ties into audience entitlement, meaning the attitude that everything must be made for everyone (think: Penjamin Shapiebro reacting to the Barbie Movie) which is especially common in people that are privileged and don't acknowledge it, when the reality is that you can never please everyone. Therefore not every creative work can or must be made for everyone. If you don't like a work, more often than not it's not because that work is actually bad, but because it's just not for you. That's what "don't like it, don't read it" means: it's okay to dislike something and move on from it, even if it's for no obvious reason. It's a statement that's both empowering to creators and to audiences if you take like this.
In other words: the only thing in this conversation that's "idiotic" in my opinion is unsolicited criticism because it usually helps absolutely no one.
#Art Advice#Writing Advice#Creative Advice#Fandom#Don't like don't read#Don't like it don't read it#Unsolicited Criticism#Unwanted Criticism#You are valid#Currantlee here
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I’m going to be 100% honest as glad as I am about ccs talking out about hate etc I’m also very glad they’re not afraid to talk about how there are aspects of the games its self that are impacting their enjoyment. I really think it’s important not to see anything as above criticism no matter how much you enjoy it as a viewer or are grateful to participate as a cc nothing is or shouldn’t be above receiving constructive criticism. As long as it’s said respectfully I think the ccs are totally valid for being honest about simply not enjoying the event for various reasons. I just read Pierre’s tweet about how because he’s someone who plays earlier in the day he feels useless because you can hand in the tasks right at the end or the other team can get a bunch of kills last minute and it completely wipes away any progress you’ve made. It’s honestly frustrating to watch so I can’t imagine dedicating 5 hours to try and get your team ahead for it to then mean nothing at the end because you had to log off earlier. I’m glad he’s being honest because I think over the past few days us as an audience have been laser focused on discussing hate as the only cause for players to not want to play but for blue team specifically there’s a lot about the actual game mechanics that are putting them off (not to take away from the disgusting amounts of hate they’re getting, people need to learn to not be freaks) idk to me as a viewer this event doesn’t seem worth it tbh. If I was a cc I probably would’ve thanked quackity and the amazing team behind the event but been like this event just isn’t worth the irritation and upset I’ll see you all in 2 weeks! Honestly that’s kind of how I feel as a viewer tbh.
You're right, once the third day it became quite apparent how unfair the current system is. I immediately thought about Europeans that, unless they want to be awake at 5am, there's not much they can do. They can still help, but the important progress is at night and it can make them feel useless.
Thankfully Quackity realized as well, in the VC with Green Ninjas he said yesterday that it was the last night that strategy would be viable and that the admins are going to balance it, especially because of the European players. So we should see the changes today, and hopefully it's a good one.
I also think they should release a guideline for the event on Discord because a lot of the players seems really confused about a bunch of things and that would definitely help.
The admins do seem to be listening to the feedback and acting accordingly so I hope the event becomes more stable and fair for everyone in the upcoming days.
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I Am Tired of People Giving Up
My heart hurts, so I want to get on and type a few words for anyone who needs them. STOP GIVING UP. Please!
I sometimes pop online and see people putting others down, telling them to quit doing the things they're doing/stop doing it that way/you're a failure. There's a huge difference between constructive criticism (which I love it when people use it with me, it helps me grow) and HURTING people.
If you find yourself wanting to help someone, please go about it in a way that actually helps them and isn't going to stop them. If you think it'll stop their momentum-- Don't say anything! That's my motto at least.
I used to have a martial arts teacher (I still quote him all the time), that would tell me "If you don't have anything good to say, don't say it." And I carry that with me. We're here to build others up!
And if you're the person on the receiving end of these negative comments? (I've seen them in person as well.) Then I want you to take a deep breath and say: "Why am I doing this? What is my purpose?" And REMIND yourself of this purpose over and over and over. People will always talk, but you won't always encourage yourself unless you make it your normal.
Let's make it normal to be positive. Let's make it normal to WANT to lift people up and make the world a better place. And I can talk all I want, but in the end? We all have to get out there and use our actions. Talk to your neighbor today, encourage someone online, and most of all?
If you're out there changing the world for the better, then you're my favorite person. It doesn't matter if other people validate you, KEEP GOING. You are a hero and don't stop until you complete all your goals.
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esports demonstration meta usually takes place in the farming simulator zone. so on top of the exisal hangar bc its a vantage point where danger is easily looked out for and where the farm quickly able to be restored from damage costs due to exisals and monokuma fucking up every makeshift facility that gets built every 20 minutes
even while tuning in as listeners and guests for whichever esports mf is around
they still need to be doing something productive to make the most out of the speedrun record so usually working on the farm while discussing
tsumugi is positioned to educate keebo, rantaro(gonta is there to keep him from leaving.) and shuichi to learn to apply their good pattern recognition proficiency to things outside of their niche.
having to learn and.
think critically
and not just recognize things and suggest things just on hunch alone. but to process and understand with the whole process of consolidating the data of recognizing sequences, locational data and correlation.
korekiyo’s usually not around bc he would just give out the answers since he’s already studious so he has little to no struggle with it and shuichi/keebo/rantaro actually need to figure shit out on their own
anyways korekiyo’s usually in kokichi’s esports demo meta because he can actually recognize which of the suggestion soup is actually good.
kaito, himiko, kaede, miu, angie, maki, ryoma, tsumugi are regulars who rotate in and out for kokichi’s demo meta tho.
its never a big gathering since that would halt progression with finding glitches and exploits. its usually like. 2-3 ppl kinda
and kokichi still collects and reviews long distance communication logs so kokichi does get new information outside of a specific meta anyways
korekiyo usually is able to recognize better ideas once someone comes up with something actually useful.
kokichi like always gatekeeps his ideas so he’s just mostly there to keep ppl on-topic or challenge ppl to as incentive to get ppl to come up with more unorthodox ideas.
esports demo meta called “funniest ideas competition”
doesn’t have to make sense just make up bullshit.
best ideas are usually just the worst ideas after 70 attempts at coming up with the worst ideas
that are only 20% better than that first horrible idea. but we get somewhere eventually
and if korekiyo approves then we got a new based speedrun meta that can be handed over to kaede and tenko to coordinate
kaede still mostly works on organizing first aid, rescue teams, and establishing makeshift facilities and shelters that don’t account for huge loss of materials/wasted energy after being destroyed by exisals or other factors.
also coordinating backdoor access to future unlockable content by substituting scaffolding with easily breakable material
by distracting exisals that are working on construction
and having ppl shove piles of debris from broken makeshift structures into the scaffolding.
for the higher floors in the school. stocking up on weaponry from maki’s laboratory and miu modifying them to be explosive works for trying to blow shit up from inside the building but is extremely dangerous for most unless maki is the one tearing down the walls
but if they manage to ravage a exisal and use scraps to make a ballista in the farmsim zone they can create new entrances into the school from the outside.
which seems to be pretty effective but absolutely requires maki’s permission before being used by anyone else tho. angie is there instead if maki is absent
tenko’s demo meta is more. validating ppl’s frustrations and getting more heated feedback of things ppl aren’t accounted for that they consider a big deal that they otherwise won’t bring up in tsumugi-kokichi-kaede’s demo metas in respect of trying not to escalate conflict and waste time by getting to caught up in the spur of the moment.
and if there’s a handful of ppl around they absolutely are going to be working on the farm lest ppl actually start trying to hurt eachother from unrestrained rage
yeah anyways the farming simulator speedrun was important this is why
#TeSIIIS#tsumugi shirogane#rantaro amami#gonta gokuhara#shuichi saihara#korekiyo shinguji#kaito momota#himiko yumeno#kaede akamatsu#miu iruma#angie yonaga#maki harukawa#ryoma hoshi#kokichi ouma#tenko chabashira
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Happy new year! I wish you all the best and no writer's block. May you be happy and your writing endeavours fruitful, lol.
About that Hanahaki fic I mentioned a while ago, I gave it a reread to make sure but yeah, I think you'll like it.
I don't like Hanahaki either most of the time, but this one was so good specifically because it was ALSO a time loop kind of story, with circumstances excruciating enough that them actually acknowledging their feelings is, like. Literally the only thing they can do. Plus the angst of Chuuya's deaths is great.
The summary literally goes "or, Chuuya would much rather die than let Dazai find out he has hanahaki disease."
Chuuya is so desperate to avoid actually acknowledging it and trying to get Yosano's ability to heal him that he makes Dazai thinks the hanahaki is here for MORI. Which is. Hilarious, actually.
The original story was written in 2018, so not everything is accurate but frankly? You can feel the author understood them, better than most of the fandom currently does despite so much more of content for them.
And to celebrate the new year, another rec by AbsoluteNegation called "A Trick of the Tongue". It's a KuniChuuZai fic with Dazai being cursed to tell the truth to any questions unless he confronted the people he hid the most from and told them the truth. It's really nice, kind of cathartic. The fic is tagged "Undernegociated Emotional Honestly" which is just. So Dazai. He does NOT want to do any of that.
Shipwise, Chuuya/Dazai is my OTP but the KuniZai parts of this was very cute, which surprised me because I avoided the story specifically because of it. But it was very nice, well written, especially so character wise, and the poly dynamic works well for what little we had of it.
(Though maybe I enjoy it so much because skk acknowledged that they're still each other's priority... Teehee- (◍•ᴗ•◍)❤)
Anyways, I love this author, really. They're great!
Well hello!!!! And Happy (very belated) New Year to you too!! ♡(˃͈ દ ˂͈ ༶ )
Anajsnsjs thank you so much!!! Wishing you the best for the upcoming year as well! May life treat you kindly and grant you all that you wish for 💗💕
This was originally a paragraph but I'm gonna try to shorten it gnbdkj: I really dislike anything that includes Kunizai, or variants of it. I just dislike Kunikida as a character, honestly. So I knew for sure I wouldn't that fic wouldn’t be for me. I skimmed it, and, yeah, it isn't. Still appreciate the intention though <3
Long story short, I read the Hanahaki fic. Long ago, actually. Like one day after I recieved this ask asjfhsdjs
And I originally had a much longer reply for this that I was working on, but I decided to scrap most of it for various reasons, the most prominent being that I got really judgemental and honestly a little mean by accident 💀
I'm going to try to pick the parts of the original reply that I still find fitting and insert them here, maybe edit them to be nicer if needed. Sorry this reply is so NEEDLESSLY late 😭 If I knew I was gonna end up here I could've sent this so LONG ago.
DISCLAIMER!!
The following (highly informal) essay/analysis/review/whatever includes:
spoilers for picking a flower that blooms on the heart for you by burgundytshirt
(constructive, to the best of my ability) criticism that nobody asked for of that same fic. Because I’m picky and overly opinionated ��
Tulip-typical unrelated unnecessary unsolicited rants. I’d like to believe you know the drill.
Also! I do believe any and every piece of art earns its right to constructive criticism by simply existing, BUT, I also recognize that fanfiction is purely written for fun, as a passion project, Not That Serious, and that the writer doesn’t get paid in any way, shape, or form for it. Which then means that despite the work being valid for criticism, the author is not.
This is why I’m writing this in my own personal internet space, in no way addressing it to the writer (or anyone else who doesn’t wish to read it), and in no way ever going to send it to the writer (or anyone else who doesn’t wish to read it)!! Because they didn’t ask for it and I respect that!! And I sincerely hope everyone else does, too 💕
This isn’t meant to attack anybody. All of the opinions are purely my own, this is a subjective piece and by no means supposed to or claiming to express universal truth. Yada yada.
Let’s begin positively! 🌷
Again, I appreciate all the work the translator has put into making this fic accessible for english speakers!! Even though I wouldn’t say it’s exactly my cup of tea, I can still appreciate the effort and think the love the fic has gotten is deserved and warranted <3
The characterizations are pretty good, in my opinion. There are certain moments where I could even call them great, and there are a few parts that I absolutely LOVED. I haven’t paid much attention to the chapter numbers, so I can’t be concrete about the placement in the story, but most of the 3rd time loop was really fun and pleasant to read!!
And I also really loved the ending of the 2nd time loop. I think where this fic peaks for me is from the switch to Dazai’s POV in the 2nd loop, to the start of the conversation Dazai and Chuuya have about the mole towards the end of the 3rd.
First of all, I really liked Chuuya’s 2nd death. Which is why the Peak Section starts there absjsjsj I don’t find it particularly angsty, personally, but that’s not a problem because it didn’t need to be. Like the way he immediately, instinctively goes to Dazai in his last moments… Because he knows Dazai would understand, and that’s what he needs, in that moment. He knows he’s not going to last but he at least wants to be able to find that comfort within Dazai. And he recognizes that the world, the moment they’re in is temporary, which is why he does it. He’s on the brink of death, and he’s like “Fuck it, this won’t matter anyway. They’ll forget anyway. I’ll at least have this” and then the way he kisses him before dying is so ANSKSJ!!!!
I loved that part sooo much, honestly. Got me squealing and shit. Like the fucking themes!!!!!!! The character exploration of that!!!!!! The way Chuuya could only (well. debatable. but this is how I wish it was 😔) actually gain the courage to kiss Dazai when he knew it wouldn’t matter!!! When he knew it’d be temporary and Dazai would forget!!! It was a last minute act of uncharacteristic selfishness for Chuuya!!! And he was only capable of doing it because he knew it wouldn’t affect other people!!! The only time when Chuuya is capable of putting himself first is it doesn’t have an impact on others!!!!!! Sjfwnskensm ☆:.。. o(≧▽≦)o .。.:☆
Then, I also loved the 3rd loop all together. Best one by a landslide, for me. From the get-go, the opening is really good because it really feels like we’re getting in the proper time-loop Vibe, where Chuuya doesn’t want to waste time anymore. But it’s not the Desperate kind of time-loop because it’s still only the 3rd time. So he’s chilling and eating his breakfast and thinking about how to work this out. And then he comes to the appropriate conclusion that he’s, ironically, dependent on Dazai’s help, out of all people.
He slowly comes to terms with that. He makes elaborate plans to get Dazai to help without revealing anything he doesn’t have to. Very Chuuya, very good.
I love how cute the scene where he gets to Dazai’s apartment is <3 Imagining Dazai sleepy with sbsjsbsj tousled hair and slumped shoulders and cute pyjamas and tired eyes was SOOO nice for some reason?? I never think about ADA!Dazai’s like. Capacity for sleep, I guess. And I’ve thought about it for PM!Dazai and I do think he probably slept in his work clothes and looked like a disturbed cat if woken up 😭 I can’t imagine him sluggish and soft like that, just irritated. But for ADA!Dazai that just works so well??? Like I’m obsessed with it???? For some reason??? And this fic did describe that in a way that I really liked and that absolutely FED this need I didn’t even know I had.
Anyway. Their conversation on the couch was SO good and so in character I almost died. Giggling and kicking my feet. (⸝⸝ᵕᴗᵕ⸝⸝) And I kept visualizing it with Chuuya in a full suit, sitting properly on that couch—very elegant, you know, and Dazai being sooo messy and half-laying on the armrest with his feet tucked under him. I don’t think anybody but me sees the vision but whatever. I need to get my new sleepy Dazai obsession in check.
I particularly liked the whole thing about Chuuya schooling himself on how to keep the Hanahaki hidden and how to refuse the 10 million demands Dazai was bound to make but then 😭 Not having to use any of that 😭 Because he pulled the “I trust you” card and Dazai FOLDED 😭 Golden, honestly.
The whole thing about Dazai being infiltrated as Chuuya’s secretary was also soooo fun. And their conversation in the car was pretty cool. I have a little problem with it (that being that Chuuya not being able to speak doesn't feel like as big of a deal as it should be because of the capacity for lip-reading. Not just in this scene, but overall. I get the symbolic meaning but I was also hoping it would matter a lot more than it did and be a bigger struggle, plot-wise), but it’s ultimately fine and I liked it overall <33
Uhhh. Other than this.. I liked Ranpo in those two scenes he was in. He was very Ranpo. Oh! And the thing about Dazai having a way to replicate Chuuya’s voice!!! That was super cool and in character! I loved that head-canon a lot ( ˘͈ ᵕ ˘͈♡)
Onto the negative parts.
Like most soukoku fics out there, this fic also falls into that problem I briefly touched on before. The relationship is too conventional for my personal preferences. And I’ll try to explain that more, to the best of my ability.
First of all, I really don’t think soukoku’s relationship could be defined as purely romantic, which really makes confessions as a whole trope kind of impossible to imagine for me. I also don’t think there’s a Universe where they’d ever agree to dating, and especially not the canon Universe. This is why I had my skepticisms for this fic, which did actually end up getting proven 😔 This is went exactly how I expected it to.
Yeah, Chuuya doesn’t acknowledge his feelings for a long time, and tries his best to push them down, but that’s not because he can’t decipher what they are. He immediately knows the Hanahaki is for Dazai, which meant that my only idea of how this could go in a way I personally agree with was out the window. And the reason he holds back on confessing is a clicheic fear of rejection.
I just think their feelings for each other are too complex to be described and acknowledged this simply. And by the word ‘acknowledge’ I also mean the characters themselves acknowledging it in their consciousness, not only acknowledging it aloud, or to the other.
(Alongside him saying that he was waiting to build up his romantic relationship with Dazai slowly?? Which means he DID acknowledge his feelings, and he was planning to do it to Dazai’s face too, just not now. He was always going to do something about it. So why does the plot even happen?)
Not to mention that while Chuuya is emotionally constipated… Dazai literally just isn’t. In the fic’s Universe, he literally (tried to, at least) confessed to Chuuya at 17. Absolutely unprompted. Dazai, the way I view him, would never do that in a million years. He’d rather go through the most gruesome torture methods than do that. And he wouldn’t be able to do it earnestly, either. He doesn’t view his feelings for Chuuya as romantic. He recognizes that they’re very unique feelings and that he doesn’t actually hate Chuuya, but he doesn’t know enough about human feelings to call his feelings for Chuuya anything but the confusing, contradictory amalgamation they actually are. In my head, he is even worse at feelings than Chuuya is, despite recognizing his feelings more than Chuuya does.
Safe to say, the last chapter is my least favorite out of the fic. Which seems to be a pattern with soukoku fanfic when it comes to me, really. The premise is good, the execution is decent enough, but it all gets slaughtered in the end when the author gets overtaken by the weird completely unnecessary need to shove a label and a conventional relationship dynamic down their throats.
Not all relationships need labels. Soukoku’s doesn’t allow for one. A label would ruin them. And their relationship is entirely fine as it is, it doesn’t need any reworking from a fanfic writer to fit a certain framework that was assigned because of the preconceived notion that any and all romantic feelings lead to a confession of those feelings and then get shoved under a label.
If soukoku ever “dated” or referred to each other as “boyfriends” or anything of the like that would like. Erase so much of their mirth and appeal. The whole reason I like them is because they have this whole incomprehensible kind of thing going on that makes them so interesting.
And also, I don’t think Hanahaki disease, ability or not, would be able to distinguish between physical labels either. And the fic says it doesn’t, right? It says the Hanahaki disappears when the person feels a kind of relationship accomplishment, like that other person belongs to them, right?
I believe soukoku already feel that. In this fic they don’t, sure, because the need to make this a conventional relationship has also fucked over their contentment with where they stand, but I think they feel that. As their adult selves, they do. If this isn’t about labels, or preconceived notions of what a relationship looks like, then they already feel like that. The Hanahaki wouldn’t happen in the first place.
Why didn’t?? Chuuya regain his voice when Dazai confessed???? Why did HE need to be the one to fucking say it?? This isn’t even about any kind of belief I’ve had before or me trying to make a bigger point, I was just genuinely, FULLY expecting him to gain it there. Him saying it too was wholly unnecessary.
Dazai, as a character, is complex in the particular way that makes him unable to have a conventional relationship with… Anyone. He is not made for romantic relationships. He can barely stomach friendships. He is so against labeling as a concept because of the implications of said labels, because the labels are preconceived and his own feelings always feel so much bigger and daunting and so much more unique than what the definitions of them imply. Or, on the opposite side, he wants to pretend that they’re actually less than what the definition says, and that’s why it doesn’t fit.
I can see Chuuya dating someone, distantly, I can. I can see him settling for that conventionality but only under very, very specific circumstances which Dazai (or any of the other people I ship him with, but Dazai especially) don’t meet.
Chuuya’s also too embarrassed in this for my personal characterization of him?? If Dazai confessed to Chuuya (which, again, Dazai would not do!!! Ever!!!!), I feel like Chuuya would be more bewildered than embarrassed. And he definitely wouldn’t flail around like a fucking fish like he does here? This scene was mostly just pointless fluff with no substance. The way they stood around and basically did nothing for no reason... Sighh. The start of this chapter was so promising, too. I was hoping Chuuya would go to his old apartment to look for the earrings. Dazai randomly appearing there and fucking conveniently remembering the previous time loops with no explanation ruined it.
On the other hand, while on the subject, if Chuuya confessed to Dazai, Dazai would do everything he can to get away from that situation, and he’d never want to interact with Chuuya again. He finds that idea wholly repulsive, in contrast to Chuuya, but not because he doesn’t love Chuuya. What is repulsive to him is the commitment, and again the implications of that label. The cage it puts him, and his relationship with Chuuya in. He’d rather lose his relationship with Chuuya than allow it to turn into that abomination. Which says a lot because losing Chuuya/his relationship with Chuuya is one of the things Dazai is most scared of.
And I also don’t like how everyone else immediately knows it’s Dazai too. How Dazai himself knows and ASSUMES it is from the smallest little things. How Kunikida assumes so too?? From that basic ass description Chuuya gave??? Kunikida would have a heart attack if the idea of Dazai and Chuuya being romantically involved even PASSED his mind. He would not let it wander there so carelessly. He’d deny it to hell and back even if these fuckers were making out in front of him (Which they wouldn’t do, by the way, but you get the point)
Plus, Kouyou and Hirotsu and whoever else I might be missing…
One of my biggest fandom pet peeves is people claiming Dazai and Chuuya’s feelings for one another are obvious. I hate when people do that shit.
Yeah, they’re obvious to us, as the AUDIENCE, because we see all of their interactions and their thought process through light novels and we are taught to understand their secret language. Most romantic soukoku interactions happen in secluded spaces. Nobody is seeing them. The dungeon fight, Dead Apple, Lovecraft, the most romantic moments of Fifteen and Stormbringer. They all happen between the two of them, or with the only people as witnesses being people that fucking DIE. Imo the most romantic moment from Fifteen (outside of Dazai’s thoughts), is that moment when Dazai says he is going to convince Chuuya to die so Rimbaud allows them to whisper between themselves, and in that moment he actually tells Chuuya he has a plan and he asks Chuuya if he trusts him… Actually. I’m SO fucking passionate about this scene lemme pull up my copy of the book and yap a little… Fic review on hold for a moment so I can go crazy!!!



Like just. Do you fucking see this shit? This is as gay as it gets. The dialogue from the second image genuinely feels like flirting. And also just. Aughhjensjsn Dazai asking Chuuya if he trusts him so blatantly and Chuuya changing the subject. He does. He does. They barely met and he does so much and it kind of fucks him up. People always go crazy over Dazai’s “love confession” which they also often misinterpret, but where is the going crazy over THIS scene? The easiness with which they talk, the implicit trust, the way they say each other’s names so??? teasingly?? Dazai outright saying that Chuuya has convinced him to live a little more, even though he plays it off as a joke? The fact that they’re fucking WHISPERING to one another. Just. The way soukoku’s bonding always takes place when they’re fighting alongside one another. It is such a particular kind of trust and vulnerability that is so them.
But, going back to the actual point, this scene is hushed and takes place only between the two of them. Even though Rimbaud is a bystander, even though he fucking dies later on, he isn’t even included in it. For practical reasons, yes, but this just happens time and time again, from a more metaphorical standpoint. He is not allowed in on that conversation because it is a vulnerable, distinctly soukoku moment.
This. Is. How. All. Of. Them. Are. Nobody ever fucking sees it, if they did, it wouldn’t happen. The only shit outsiders see is their cryptic fighting and the other aspects of their relationship, that without these token moment lose most romantic connotations. And even if they didn’t, they way these two communicate is fucking weird!! Nobody would be able to get it!!! They see them at each other’s throats so much more than anything else!!! Their relationship isn’t the stereotypical playful bickering that people like to pretend it is!! They’re not fighting like an old married couple!!! They’re fighting like they want to deck each other in the teeth!!! Nobody besides them (and, again, us as the audience because we get shown all the nuances in a way the characters don’t) gets the homoerotic undertones of their violence!!!! Because they ARE just undertones!!!
Trust me, nobody but Ranpo and Dostoyevsky are even CONSIDERING that these fuckers are or will ever be romantically involved. And especially not fucking KUNIKIDA 😭😭
Okay. I think you get the gist. Sorry if this is still needlessly aggressive :(( I tried my best to make it nicer without deleting important things??
Bottom line is, I cannot accept soukoku dating. Ever. In any context. In any Universe. Love confessions I can accept under incredibly dire consequences. I actually have a soukoku AU in my kilometric to write list that is conceptualized with this exact premise—the purpose of it is breaking Dazai down psychologically so horridly that he is willing to merely say he loves Chuuya. And that would take SO much work in itself. Just that. This isn’t psychological horror enough to actually warrant either of them confessing.
And also sorry if the paragraphs seem like they don’t relate to each other?? I kept remembering things I wanted to say down the line and trying to find proper places to insert them but I might’ve failed…
Okay, now to summarize the points I scrapped:
Chuuya's deaths barely have any kind of importance. They might as well not even be happening. I was hoping for a more horror-like approach but I might just be obsessed with making skk suffer and go through unimaginable horros
Piggybacking on that previous point, the loop is too short to feel impactful to me 😔 I like my time loops extra long with sprinkled crises of every kind
The juggling between having a set, logical plot and being an unexplainable "it's just fate" kind of deal makes both of them feel half-baked and unsatisfying. I'm not against using the idea of fate/destiny/a higher power for convenience but that still has to be executed right, like any idea
I hate that the Hanahaki is an ability!!! Why!!!!! That not only ruins a lot of symbolic elements but also contradicts the lore?? Abilities aren't hereditary. How come the doctor Hirotsu knew that was studying it is dead but the ability user isn't?
The way Dazai randomly remembers the previous loops is very annoying and irritating and frustrating and nonsensical and I despise it and he frankly didn't need to. Doesn't this defeat the whole point of the message, anyway? Chuuya doesn't actually even get his fear of rejection, Dazai just solves that for him. There is virtually no character growth
The ending feels unsatisfying. What happened to the whole plot??????????????? I don't care for it bc I greatly dislike the plot but you might as well wrap it up 😭
Chuuya is NOT stupid enough to not open that 17th birthday gift, or to think what he thinks in regards to it. Additionally, Dazai is not stupid enough to believe Chuuya's lie about the Hanahaki being for Mori. His emotional attachment to Chuuya would make him analyze and obsess about that lie MORE, not less. He'd clock that shit with remarkable speed
As I've briefly mentioned, Chuuya not being able to speak has wonderful symbolic purpose, but no actual narrative/character purpose. I was hoping it would be more of a problem, not that most characters would suddenly be lip-reading experts, especially not in a rearview mirror??
Phew. Okay. I know this is very negative and I'm sorry </3 Absolutely nothing against you or the author of this, again. Everyone is allowed to write and like whatever the fuck they want. This just wasn't for me, and I formed a lot of thoughts on it that I wanted to share gkjhks
If it's worth anything, things that I believe have untapped potential always inspire me to make my own version in a way I would personally like, so reading this has added a skk Hanahaki fic onto my infinite "to write" list... Not sure if I'll ever get to it, but I now have a lot of ideas of how I could subvert this trope, so.
Have a wonderful day!! (๑ > ᴗ < ๑)°♡ . ° . !!
And, again, I'm sorry if this is mean 😭😭😭
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So it’s Friday snd I’m just letting you know that I’m growing sick and tired of my Dad just simply taking off weekdays just because he refuses to work every Monday through Friday after the holidays, especially and specifically he doesn’t even have a valid reason to be off of work on just simply any weekday. It’s one thing to be on vacation because of the holidays, but it’s one thing to make up excuses not to work when scheduled to work every Monday through Friday and don’t have a choice to do so, especially and specifically when there are days and weeks that clearly have nothing to do with the holidays and absolutely nothing to do with specific and valid reasons to take a Monday and/or a Friday off and you know that’s the thing that keeps pissing me off and what also pisses me off is that people have the audacity to correct and lecture me about this particular issue, so here’s the thing, first of all, you don’t take off work unless it’s been granted because you don’t actually have a choice but to work every Monday through Friday and you don’t get to tell me what to do and don’t have the audacity to hate my constructive criticism and my pros and cons statements about this subject, so my question is this. What exactly are you trying to accomplish into trying to controlling everything in my life while having the audacity to shout with glee when all you want to do is hosts streams and doing things when my Dad is off when he clearly has no business being off because he doesn’t even have a specific and valid to take weekdays off? It’s clear to me that people are having the audacity to incentivize being one sided by not wanting to host streams when I’m around and when my Dad is at work while wanting to hosting streams and want to be on social media when my Dad takes off days like Today that he has no business taking off. Personally, that’s not how that works because at the end of the day you are exposed as a hypocrite and this is why I hate this place so much and hate days like Today and Fridays are so hypocritical these days and I’m just not going to be in a position to be associated with people who incentivizes that hypocrisy because of something that I have nothing to do with and I’m not going to stand for that. People should just stop taking off weekdays while not have a specific reason to be off and just because I’m telling my Dad to stop taking weekdays off because it has nothing to do with the holidays that doesn’t mean that it’s disrespectful and just because I refuse to play wrestling games like WWE2K23 when her off during the holidays or whatever that doesn’t mean that’s it’s a high level of disrespect when he clearly has no interest in the things that I’m heavily invested in, especially in wrestling and for God to tie that to Michigan State athletics is ludicrous to me and he didn’t have to and still doesn’t even have to listen to Michigan State and he doesn’t have a choice but to work weekdays that have absolutely nothing to do with the holidays and I’m sick and tired of him being off and I’m sick and tired of people being hypocritical about it, so stop correcting me and lecturing me about being fair when it’s exactly the opposite and since you Michigan State haters are permanently banned from rooting for Michigan State and they are not welcomed because they had plenty of time to think about the consequences that they were going to have for simply flip flopping about Michigan State athletics and I’m not going to be playing Wrestling games when my Dad is off because he’s less invested in it anyways and and I’m not going to be obligated to play it when he’s around anyway and the only reason that I barely have to play all by without him being around is because my stomach has refused to allow me to digest and refused to allow me to get a head start in playing and on top of that God could have and should have came to me and said to me like "you know what? Fine, you can be allowed to not play WWE2K23 when your father is not around as long as you have a valid reason not to do so." so stop correcting and lecturing me.
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(Disclaimer that I actually think social media is important and my hatred is to capitalism focus algos)
I'm a social media manager, which means I have to know how all these hell sites work (or figure out how one works very quickly). My disclaimer is that I like this site for my random shit despite the algo (of which I hate) and the inability to find new people. I am thinking that over time and as these shitty websites keep making mistakes, more and more people will go to federated alternatives. Until then I'm buying my time.
All that being said, people's response to blue sky is fucking wild! It is by far one of the worst social media platforms I've seen. It's like Equate Twitter (right before Elon Musk took over) and honestly, Twitter was already really shit at that point also, so to be the worst version of that is mind-meltingly bewildering.
Okay, so what do I mean by this? Shit isn't exactly constructive criticism. If you have been on one of these hellsites for any stretch of time, you come to learn that algos decide everything. Ever have something pop up into a feed that won't go away despite never liking something like that? That's the algo. It somehow got it in its little A.I brain that you like posts with brown shoes and now it must show you posts with that criteria until you slap it silly a few times and it knocks out of it.
The purpose of Captalism-based algos, is to keep you posting and scrolling. This is why Facebook incentives posts that make its users angry and why all of these companies LOVE misinformation.
What does this have to do with blue sky? It's no better, and honestly slightly worse because there is no way to search through the hellsite with hashtags or any other user-control features. This makes it horrendously hard to find people that aren't stamped approved by the algo god. Also despite claims of federation, it's not federated yet with only veiled promises of doing it in the future. (yeah right)
My issue is that, if you try to bring this up with people who use the site, they either ignore you or outright say that's not how it works! That's better than anything right now! It is the most bewildering thing I've ever experienced. Anytime I'm forced to use blue sky, it feels like a nightmare. I have absolutely no way of finding people unless they are being served to me in such a painfully curated obvious way that it almost makes me nauseous. If you complain about this, a blue sky person will tell you that you are just not using the website right. Or I'll see a post about how good "discoverability" is under blue sky. It...just isn't?
there is still a word limit, and unlike later Twitter, you can't do threads. Which is great for user engagement and creating clickbait argument bait for everyone to feed into everything...but it's not good for genuine engagement and actual conversations. (things people like this claim to care about).
All of this to say, I guess my issue isn't blue sky being shit, (cause of course the guy who designed Twitter who is making an alternative to elon is going to make it shit) but that people are *defending* this shit. Hell not just defending it, claiming it's the best thing to happen to social media. Watching people sign up and go to it slowly over time after they yelled and complained about Twitter even before musk showed up. (valid complaints too).
This could be the time to do something great. Instead, we get blue sky. My only hope is that because everyone scattered to the winds, it'll keep power out of any one group's hands as much as Twitter had.
I knew people were addicted to Twitter, but I had no idea that their addiction wasn't to social media but to *twitter* itself.
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4, 6 & 8 💜
below cut to save dashboards!!
(4) what is the plot bunny you've been carrying the longest? ooouuuuhhh..... so many............ So many............ i have full fic outlines from 2017 LOL but the most viable one is a jikook au where they're both vampire hunters + jimin is Turned + jungkook swears to hunt him and be the one to kill him bc it's "what he would have wanted" some good ole lovers to enemies bullshit Once Again. every year since 2018 i've thought it'd be a fun three-part fic i could post for halloween and have never gotten around to it. lately i keep thinking it'd be good for an original novel (hello lesbians <3) but then i would have to actually worldbuild and write well which is daunting......... so back to the drawing board every time...... Maybe Some Day
(6) do you have any kind of consistent writing schedule or just hoping for the best? 💀 i always tell myself i will try to write a little bit every day, and there's been periods where that worked well enough for me, but tbh i write the best and most when i am daydreaming about a fic idea and get batshit possessed and fuel a Fixation. in those moments i am seized by insanity and sit down to write for about 4-6 hours straight in the dead of the night and manage several thousand words in one sitting. the record is 10k for DSD pt1 in like a day, and when i wrote the 90k fic that is WBIO in like 3 weeks off the high of not having any responsibilities in early lockdown (incl almost 20k in one sitting)
So kind of a mix.... When I have more free periods of the year i tell myself *trying* to stick to a schedule is good, like "ok i should go TRY to write at least a little every day, and if it doesn't work and im not feeling it today that's fine" but I can't lie, most of what I put out is the product of a feverish manic haze. Where i daydreamed too hard about a fic idea and accidentally came up with the whole plot and exact dialogue lines and need to bullet point it immediately before I forget it all. I am tormented by visions
(8) what’s your relationship with constructive criticism and feedback like? do you seek it out? how well do you take it? Constructive criticism: not exactly a fan unless I ask for it lol, just bc I think it's kinda rude to offer constructive criticism unless it's asked for? So I already automatically feel a lil cornered. I spent a year as an art major bringing paintings in for concrit sessions, I can take it, but that feels like a facilitated environment where I knew I was opening myself up to hear things so I could improve..... however, I'm not super interested in 'improving' writing beyond naturally improving by doing it.... bc it's just a hobby if that makes sense? I'm also usually super aware of how/where one of my fics is weak (example: i Know my worldbuilding and side characters and settings are not the most fleshed out, that I usually only focus on the main pairing/conflict and let everything else be a cardboard cutout, RIP) and just didn't put the work in to improve it bc I want to have Fun doing this hobby and struggling with fixing weaknesses is not super fun. Yes i am very lazy but it's ok it's fanfiction posted for free not something I'm trying to publish ukno. I'm a perfectionist in other ways! It balances out
Important to note I define constructive criticism as like "it would have been better if you did x instead" and a lot of times in fanfiction that's just people's personal tastes. I do consider everything readers say to me! Like someone said they didn't think the side characters served any point in "folie à trois" and it's just me inserting my faves, I Considered that opinion. There's been times I consider feedback and changed how I continued in a story, like in TLG people said they wanted more Jimin pov/motives and I said hmmm yeah that's valid I'll do more of that. In the aforementioned case for Folie, I considered it and decided (1) no, they're there for jk to see that Everyone is a lil fucked up and (2) it's my fic i can put my kpop girlies in it if i want lol. So sometimes 'concrit' is really just someone saying 'what you wrote wasn't to my personal taste' and not actually anything to do with the quality of the story/plot/style whatever itself.
Feedback overall tho, I do always want to hear from readers!!??! How a story made them feel especially. Tbh , TLDR, I think it really depends on the tone.... My relationship to it is on a case by case basis..... like I'm fine hearing that a character/plot frustrated someone, that they disagree with a character's actions, etc.... because that's Conflict in the story and I think good writing makes the reader Feel something..... it really just depends on what is being offered? if something is obviously mean spirited (which I have gotten) or offering concrit without asking like telling me "btw this would have read better if you didn't write like a possessed failed poet" i'm like ok well i have no plans on improving that. I am down to clarify any points of confusion on a scene/character/etc but I will not be improving. Lol
I hope that makes sense sorry I rambled as always. I took one of my adhd meds for the first time in weeks and now I am tachycardic and overexplaining myself worse than usual. Thank u for the ask <3
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