#usually i dont get that way but some people do get weird about my system on here bc its not in the DID spaces I'm usually in

[miss-mossball]

OOOGH sorry i shouldve written a clearer and more well-thought-through message, i didnt mean to strike a nerve!! im a did system, im a random person who is a fan of your art, im on anon bc im shy. i wasnt trying to compare you to crazy jane exactly, i just… saw the connection and sent the message without putting a lot of thought into it, which i now recognize i should not have done. doom patrol is comfort media to me and i am a HUGE fan of jane, i see a lot of myself in her, so i didnt really register that you might not take my message well. i did not know that you had a blog for did recs, if i have them in the future ill send them there! sorry if i caused you any stress!!

It's all okay, I'm super sorry!! I thought this was likely the case, that its a media and you personally find comfort in it, so thank you so much for sharing with me! it makes it a lot more personal

I just get defensive because people have gotten really weird with me about the parts in the Well specifically so I was a bit like, o no, I better say something, this is not a thing based on anything else

Either way, its nice to get to know a bit more about you Anon, thank you for sharing! I'm really glad you've found a media that's so comforting for you! I hope you can find even more in the future, and thank you for the recommendation!

[tiramiiswu]

⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ Invincible x Tharja!Reader

✦ masterlist || next ✦ imagine: mark with a dark mage reader inspired by tharja from fire emblem awakening, aka mark and the freak who follows him everywhere they possibly can and casts curses on people who inconvenience them ✦ pairings: mark grayson x tharja!reader ✦ warnings: slight yandere behavior, stalking, reader is a little freak sometimes ✦ a/n: the inevitable tharja!reader imagine i keep babbling about :3 i love my wife she's so silly 💞😊also sorry if this jumps around a lot i like, worked on this infrequently and mostly whenever a brain worm started wriggling i had to get it out of my system i dont really know when to stop

✦ you might be into him because he's attractive or maybe you're just fascinated by his strength or general trauma spiral, sometimes you just follow him like a little stalker because you find him so fascinating for some reason

✦ you like the way you are for sure, it's less so that you don't see anything wrong with your behavior (you're definitely aware enough to know what you're doing is odd) and more so like, this is kind of just how you are and you don’t really see a point in changing

✦ but if mark ever mentioned like her creepy stalker/dark mage behavior being weird or wishing you were like more normal you would both like, understand you needs to change your approach but also lack the social clues to do this in a way that isnt fucking insane

✦ like you don't really understand that he finds you weird, that your tendencies to stalk him and watch him when you think he isn't paying attention, you just think your approach is wrong and that you should try to be As Normal As Possible (in the most bizarre fashion)

✦ you're usually pretty gloomy and monotone so you try to sound and act generally cheerier and upbeat but also uh, you tend to say a lot of weird things

✦ like your phrasing is just kind of Off and Weirdly iterated, you sound old fashioned but in a like, medieval sense

✦ Like you start to greet him specifically with “how fare you” and “good morrow sir” and say “huzzah!” at the end of some of your sentences and none of it sounds right, like it’s just odd and archaic sounding and Extremely Unlike You

✦ At some point mark is even more weirded out by your attempts at being normal that he just, straight up asks you to go back to the way you were before he decided he can put up with your usual strange, gloomy self better than this friendlier side of you

✦ mark starts to notice when tharja!reader is stalking him, it’s never inherently malevolent or out to get him or his loved ones, you're just like, creepy in general

✦ he doesnt have to worry about you trying to hurt him despite your past as a goon of some bigger, more threatening villain

✦ you're reformed and relatively loyal to him and the guardians (at least up until the team splits, then it's pretty clear that you're only really following where he goes)

✦ you're mostly just a lurker

✦ you're fascinated with him in a way you can’t specifically explain, but you fully believe you were destined to meet and tends to speak to him like the two of you are star crossed lovers of some kind

✦ idk if you'd like, go as far as following him to his house that’s insane work even for you, but at places like the gda or the guardian's hq and even during some of his assignments at some point mark would just start to feel you staring at him from somewhere behind him or within the vicinity

✦ you really aren't being that slick with it tbh

✦ yes sometimes you're peering around corners and watching him without him knowing but sometimes someone can just, walk up to see what you're doing and it’s clear as day just watching mark do Literally Anything

✦ you always manage to appear when he’s in the middle of doing something, even if he’s with company

✦ whether it’s walking in to ask cecil a question during one of his training sessions or even just suddenly appearing during casual conversations he’s having with the guardians

✦ it becomes very evident to everyone that you're always going to be lurking somewhere nearby if mark is there

✦ at some point it might become like? comforting? (at least in a stockholm syndrome kind of way)

✦ you become more reliable in combat if you can manage to keep up with him somehow (you're mostly grounded and you don't have very great stamina tbh but you can manage on your own) you do well to watch his flank if you're not in immediate danger, glass cannon and all depending on your opponent’s resistance to magic

✦ but like idk tharja!reader’s head over heels in love with him and isnt opposed to lending an ear or a shoulder to cry on, you just aren’t exactly the first person you’d think to turn to for comfort

✦ i think he’s keeping you at an arm’s length because regardless you're fucking weird but like

✦ idk i want them to have their tharja/robin moment where after getting used to your antics and somewhat comfortable at the idea of you watching over him/taking care of him he feels you watching again and like

✦ reaches out and pulls around the corner you're hiding behind just like, “i mean, i guess an easier way for you to keep doing all this is to just keep you by my side forever or something”

✦ but for now instead of marrying you he'll just like, ask you out on a date

✦ and while you would accept this bc you were almost like? waiting for it, in very tharja fashion you would just be like, “hm, this is wrong, turn back around” and make him ask you again (you still said yes dw)

✦ you're not actually used to him like, looking at you directly

✦ he thinks it's kind of cute in a way that you get kind of shy when he's actually speaking to you face to face

✦ he notices you actually don’t like making eye contact with a lot of people in general, it’s rare to see you actually speak to someone while looking at them dead in the eyes you tend to look down or generally avert your gaze to focus on something else during conversations

✦ cecil probably couldve had you on a tighter leash if he started letting you monitor the graysons with him

✦ 10/10 if someone gave you the job you’d dedicate enough of your time away from studying dark magic and worshiping the fell god to stalk mark on a government paycheck

✦ that’s implying you even like cecil tbh

✦ you honestly couldnt care less what he actually wants to get out of it, you barely listen to him most of the time you're on parole anyway

✦ tbh you could develop a much better hex to keep tabs on mark and his family than whatever cecil’s system is, you just likes doing it yourself

✦ when mark isn’t there for you to shadow? you're holed up in some quiet dark room to practice your dark magic

✦ whether it be studying old texts of rituals and curses or just like, practicing a hex that can change the color of her curtains temporarily

✦ because you're not just practicing spells that are for combat, you're practicing minor hexes for simply just convenience’s sake, or

✦ like yeah you can cast a spell that has to inflict pain onto someone else to replenish your strength and stamina, sure you can sap the life force of another person to heal your wounds or trap someone in a pool of corrosive mire from a few yards away

✦ but what do you actually practice and study the most in you spare time?

✦ developing a new spell to relieve the aches and pains in you feet after you walk in heels, or a hex to help regulate your body temperature just enough to avoid shivering or feeling that prickling sensation from the room being just a bit too warm, sometimes it's just developing a quick charm to take your makeup off at the end of the night because you just couldn't be bothered to go through your whole routine that night

✦ you aren't always trying to cause harm

✦ well, okay except when you're trying to get out of having to see cecil because you Really Don’t Feel Like It and decide to put a curse on him so he gets sick or mildly injured so you can miss your meeting (this has caused him to add more time to whatever deal the two of you made in relation to not sending you to jail)

✦ like not enough to leave him severely harmed of course but like, leave him with a bad cold or maybe like a sprained ankle

✦ something that inconveniences him so he can reschedule and so you can just go back to your books or so you can watch mark in person

✦ this goes for quite a few of the guardians actually

✦ like i mentioned before you'd probably be a reformed villain, like not actually reformed like you had a change of heart and suddenly wanted to do good

✦ but because the villain you worked for was about to get apprehended or killed and you switched teams because you realized you were on the losing side and decided throwing your life away for some crazy mf who doesn't care about you wasn't worth it

✦ you're still not opposed to killing someone if you need to, mark didn’t approve of it though so you've been reeling in your more lethal spells (which was uh, most of them if you're being honest)

✦ it’s taken a bit but you're gradually starting to become more merciful and sparing your opponents from severe bodily harm in an attempt to gain mark’s approval

✦ you'd offer your help to anyone besides mark almost begrudgingly

✦ like you asked for this tbh

✦ you agreed to join the side of the good guys maybe even the gda with some deal with cecil or whatever sure, but you're not going out of your way to interact with your new "teammates"

✦ they always manage to find a way to butt into your business somehow, like you just cant escape them

✦ at some point it's like you're stuck being their therapist at times

✦ like there's something about you that makes people just kind of talk out loud about their problems around you or the universe just has the most impeccable comedic timing when it comes to you walking into a room when someone has a personal issue

✦ like you don't know how to make it any more clear how much you don't really care but like, for whatever reason you decide to offer your assistance (probably just to get them to stop talking)

✦ your methods would be fucking wild and unconventional as hell tho

✦ like oh, mark is still traumatized and conflicted over his feelings about his dad trying to conquer the earth? simple, you’ll just spend a couple of days working on like a whole ritual or concoct some elaborate spell or curse to place on him that will erase his memories of his dad entirely to get rid of the source of the problem like??

✦ it could definitely be a plausible solution (you had the courtesy of offering it to him and waiting for permission to use that spell and he definitely said no ofc) but who the fuck would think of that first???

✦ honestly you'd probably get along with robot decently well

✦ like who else would tharja!reader find kinship with than the fucking weirdo who literally stole his coworker's dna to seem more appealing to his crush? what a fucking freak (you definitely wondered if mark would like you more if you suddenly became ginger or something)

✦ tharja!reader likes to pretend that they're not interested in forming bonds and attachments with others except for mark, but he’s seen how you sit and observe people before offering a solution to their problems

✦ you don’t actively seek out friendship with anyone but he sees how much you try to just like, exist, to prove yourself as trustworthy to the other heroes who hold you at an arm’s length

✦ you tend to be othered due to your track record being a former villain, or because your personality isn’t the most approachable and how you're kind of off putting because your hobbies are strange and how your solutions to problems are extreme at times

✦ like he sees how you get defensive when you think they question your loyalty or judge your practices

✦ you have a tendency to get catty or make snide comments either at others or say something self deprecating about yourself to make a point

✦ you tend to shrug it off as just being honest or realistic, but it’s apparent that it’s starting to get under your skin how much you get treated like a time bomb

✦ he genuinely considers for a moment that you might’ve cursed him

✦ you didn’t btw however everyone definitely thinks you did based on the fact that mark is? actually looking for you now? like willingly?? what the fuck??

✦ like he just cannot stop thinking about you it’s genuinely driving him mad like at first it was because yeah you’re always near him or watching him ofc he’s going to think about you constantly you never leave him alone

✦ but now he’s like, up at night thinking of you sometimes, maybe hugging his pillow to his chest and kicking his feet a little

✦ at some point you aren’t even there and he passes by a shop that has like pretty notebooks or like a black cat or crow plushie in the window and he thinks about you or how you would probably like something like it and maybe he even buys it for himself

✦ if mark ever feels like tharja!reader is like, trustworthy or loyal enough to him (with some stipulations) he might introduce you to his family

✦ you would oddly be mostly disinterested in his family but like, hey, a win’s a win you gets to go to his house and lurk in his room, life is good

✦ depending on when you're invited over mark doesn’t have to worry much about you reporting back to cecil about oliver because you're like

✦ actively avoiding the kid

✦ you look at him like he’s a little creature

✦ like not specifically because he’s an alien or because his skin is purple, but because he’s a child

✦ you don't want any of his kiddy germs on you

✦ mark thinks it’s funny how much you stiffen up when oliver walks over to you

✦ like the way you shuffle further away from him when sitting on the couch and the little sounds of panic/defeat you make when inevitably little toddler oliver corners you and starts like patting your leg or trying to crawl or climb over you

✦ you look so miffed by oliver being curious it's so silly

✦ sometimes you make a minor illusion of like a butterfly or some small glowing image to lure him away so you can escape, or just so he won't hover around you when you're trying to converse with mark or debbie (the graysons finding your efforts to entertain oliver quite silly and endearing in an odd way)

✦ mark pretends not to see you working quietly on making an amulet that can help disguise oliver/change his appearance with a transmog to help debbie save money on whatever foundation or face paint she uses to hide his alien skin

✦ he thinks it’s cute that when oliver’s still pretty young you tend to talk to him like he’s an adult, seeing you holding your amulet up to him and with a rather serious frown explaining to the boy the importance of keeping the pendant unharmed and intact in order for the enchantment to work

✦ the sigh you let out when he inevitably ends up teething on the pendant before giving him the ever so slightly affectionate tug on his cheek is something mark thinks about quite often after that

✦ you don't particularly like being touched by people, but with mark? you're like a cat, you slink around and start to cling to his side or creep up behind him and just sort of like, press into his back and hold onto his waist or shoulders

✦ neither of you have really noticed yet but the two of you both sort of take turns like, watching the other sleep when you're together

✦ whether it be looming over him when he's napping or staring at his face when the two of you fall asleep side by side, you find the peaceful, helpless look on his face when he's vulnerable just oh so mesmerizing

✦ on the other hand whenever you actually managed to fall asleep first beside or on top of him (or sometimes when he finds you slumped over your books, a hex dancing along your fingers to your pen to scrawl across your notes while snoozing in your chair) mark can’t help but find the relaxed expression on your face so… enchanting

✦ it’s corny mark’s so fucking corny but genuinely it’s like you put a spell on him

✦ which tbh is highly probable, like sometimes you put a hex on him during combat to spike his adrenaline for a few seconds or block a pain receptor or two every now and then (maybe even crank up his libido or something idk whatever this little freak wants)

✦ but this time you definitely didn’t do that

✦ last minute addendum mostly unrelated to that last part but this now implies the existence of noire whose father is mark

✦ and that her like bipolar mood swings/personality switches are being influenced by fucking viltrumite genetic strength,,,,,, girl is gonna get a crit and shout “blood and thunder!” and rip a man in half omg

✦ i think they’ve created a monster and by they i ofc mean me this might get a pin put in it i will be scheming about father candidate mark now

[howitcouldgoes]

TADC EP 5 SPOIELRS AGAIN!!!!!

Now that I’m rewatching the episode I’d like to put in my two cents on the mannequin theory.

I’ll be straight up about it: I think it’s Kaufmo.

OR more minorly I think someone whose partially in the game- someone who hasn’t been registered by the system yet observing those who have

Like someone who is able to exit the Circus/is able to take off the headset, observing the people trapped inside trying to study them or figure out how to save them.

But mostly I think it’s Kaufmo.

Unless you look at gooseworx’s tumblr page where they will occasionally reveal old members of the circus like Queenie and Ribbit And that one time Queenie was mentioned not by name specifically- but indirectly mentioned Point is, only Kaufmo is mentioned by name, by physical image, and we get a briefing on his personality as well. Kaufmo who set up the whole find the exit of the show, as well as how a crazy goes insane here and how it’s probably the closest thing to death there is.

Of course, we never see Kaufmo other than a portrait or drawings before he abstracts - so what if that’s him? What if Kaufmo found a way out of the cellar with the others and it just kind of reset him?

Either way, I have a feeling since Ep 6 is also a Ragatha and Jax centric episode - episode 7 is either going to be about this mysterious character OR it's going to be abt Kaufmo.

And while I'm on the subject of theories -

I briefly mentioned how everyone got to be in the circus in my last post but I want to reiterate my number one theory abt Jax and that is - (no longer that he is a NPC but) that Jax in real life is ill.

Let me elaborate: I have a running gag with some friends Jax's yellow eyes and teeth are a jaundice thing - but now that I'm really thinking about it - a bunny character?

Jax has already mentioned his love that of his avatar, he likes his ears and is genuinely upset to find that he lost his tail in one of the past adventures(I think he lost it when his friend Ribbit abstracted) but there's something else.

Bunny characters always have buck teeth - and yet Jax doesn't.

Now of course, I think he looks waaaay better without that usual rabbit teeth and love his expressions more than any other character - he is the most expressive and the most amusing -

But WHY yellow teeth?

Am I reading too much into this? Absolutely,

But anyhow my solid theory is primarily based off Jax's yellow facial features AND the backstory he choses to lie about. I know he's referencing a show(I think its breaking bad if memory serves) when he mentions having lung cancer - but why that show specifically? Because it's dark, violent, and its a meme now?

It's such a weird opening for Jax to start with him being sick - having lung cancer.

Of course I don't think he has lung cancer - but my theory essentially is: Jax willingly put on the headset to escape into this circus BECAUSE he has a life threatening illness of some kind. Jax knew he was dying, wasn't happy that maybe his illness prevented him from doing physical activities with his friends and when he heard of a world where he can't die or get injured - he was all for it.

Because so far? Jax seems to be the only character who doesn't care that he's trapped in here. Everyone has expressed some distaste for it, Ragatha missing her horses, Pomni and Zooble missing their old bodies and/or lives, Gangle upset she couldn't follow her art dreams(? AGAIN IDK WHY GANGLE IS HERE SHES THE ONLY OUTLIER), Kinger missing his wife but hes too far gone to remember any of the good bits but i defo dont think hes happy to be here- esp considering his wife is dead.

to sum it up:

The mannequin is Kaufmo

and Jax has a life threatening illness outside of the circus - which could also explain why Ragatha's sweet "you can do it! its all gonna be okay!" attitude bothers him so much because he remembers being told that so many times in the hospital

But thats just a theory, a

FOLLOW UP EDIT/THEORY:

DONT FORGET- theres also the "worst thing Jax has ever done" that we will "see with our very eyes"

I used to think it was Jax causing one of the main cast to abstract

but what if it's not

What if it was something Jax doesn't do - but something he did

I think Jax caused his only friend(Ribbit) to abstract. And we'll be seeing a flashback of that.

[everything-transmasculine]

Apologies if this is far too venty for this blog, but I just gotta rant.

I try to frequent both transandrophobia tags and transmysoginy.

I found transandrophobia while trying to find other people who related to my specific experiences, so I could find a support system and know that I'm not alone. Know that I'm not crazy, that the way people treat me really is related to my trans masculinity.

Then, I frequent transmysoginy, because I want to learn and be aware of the struggles trans women & transfemmes face.

But at this point, I can't view the transmysoginy tag without getting slapped with "fuck men" and "tme's should be shot" and "trans men don't have any problems"

I know it's only a very small vocal minority, I know the vast majority of people who post on that tag are alright. They don't hate us. They support us. They know we're struggling.

But it hurts. It hurts terribly as trans men & transmascs already do not have a support system. We don't have anybody but each other. We're expected to just "man up and deal with it".

It feels like I'm looking at these tags as a form of unintentional self harm at this point.

It's weird, because, from my perspective, most folk constantly remind that, the shitty transphobic posts on the transmisoginy tag, are obviously just a vocal minority and shouldn't be the mascot for the entire tag.

But it feels as though nobody gives that same thought for the transandrophobia tag.

theres no such thing as too venty anon - im here to support you, no matter how complicated or difficult the topic is. :)

ive noticed a definite uptick in “fuck transmascs” as a sentiment from across the site, whether that be in transmisogyny tags, or otherwise - and while this is a very vocal minority who are co-opting the terminology for their own personal gain (reactionary groups LOVE stealing legitimate terminology to prop themselves up as “more logical”) it still is very disheartening to see. when i trawl the usual tags for antitransmasculinity, i really dont see this same sentiment echoed - yes, there are some people who use it for personal gain, as is with any popular tag on tumblr, but the majority of the posts in the tags “transandrophobia” and its derivatives… its mostly just transmasculine people speaking about the horrific abuse theyve had to endure, or its transmasculine people calling for trans unity. those who do try to instigate trans separatism and calls for lateral aggression should be drowned out, laughed at and ignored.

i think this vocal minority is definitely doing more harm than good to the trans community as a whole, and these bad actors are counting on that to destabilize and delegitamize any attempts at trans unity. these people - in both tags - are not dealing with the repercussions of their transphobia offline, they are stirring the pot and then dipping. its easier to stir up a group of people against eachother than it is to unify them - especially when we are already so diverse. its important to recognize and remember that these people calling for violence against trans people (of any kind) are not our allies. these are not people we should be giving ANY attention - because, ultimately, what they want is attention. what they want is a platform. rule #1 of the internet - dont feed the trolls.

as an aside - no, i dont think some transfems and trans women being snappy or insulting online is a systemic issue. i am speaking about real world repercussions and consequences transmasculine people are facing (myself included in that - i have some stories) due to the pervasiveness and reparroting of anti trans rhetoric under the guise of it being “punching up” here… because at the end of the day, youre still just punching. (what i mean is, we are seeing a lot of watered down versions of transphobia, but that doesnt mean it doesnt still hurt.)

[that-satireguy]

Ok, I just had a good nap, and now I'm feeling more level headed. Allow me to, more calmly, explain why what adversarysmiles and the-ancient-forlorn said was dangerous rhetoric that riled me up.

To start with, what I was saying: within some trans communities, there are trafficking rings, which almost exclusively exploit ftm bodies and labour.

Now it is important to note, that as a non-western person on tumblr, i connect with a great deal of victims and survivors whether through here or other social media platforms. This means that i do know what i'm talking about and am defensive, because I know these people.

Warning: LONG post

To start with, adversarysmiles. I am blocked, so I cannot see if her pronouns have been updated but from my knowledge, she uses she/her.

Number 1) she said not that I was wrong, but outright laughed at the idea this could be possible, and by doing so, laughed at the horrific experiences of myself, and many of the people i know personally.

Number 2) She then claimed in no uncertain terms that ANYONE who states that this is a thing, is a terf. That effectively means any survivor who points out a thing that fucking happened to them, is a terf by virtue of saying it out loud. Effectively silencing an extremely vulnerable group.

(its also symptomatic of a wider issue of refusing to listen to people in the global south about their experiences and an arrogance of assumption, but I get into that enough so we'll save that for later.)

These are both objectively horrible things to do. Especially to a survivor.

Now for the-ancient-forlorn. Now her I do feel a bit bad for, because I was sick and cranky and had much less patience than usual. But now I'm going to go through what she said that was bad.

Number 1) Right off the bat, she calls me a bioessentialist. She speaks over my beliefs, again, with the confidence only a westerner could produce. This is annoying, especially on a post which was directed at a serious problem in my country and others.

Number 2) She says that by saying this, I am inciting transmisogynistic violence by claiming trans women are a 'massive oppressive force'. Rather than what I actually said- systems make trans men victims in these hyper-specific situations. The same way, trans men can (in hyper-specific situatiions) use transmisogyny to victimise transfems Again, by framing calls for discussion in this way you dismiss and actively silence victims.

Number 3) Again, puts words in my mouth. Nowhere in my post, did i say these systems were set up to specifically target my demographic but that they DO. And that that is their function.

Number 4) She says about me (a trafficking survivor, who knows several people currently in systems, and those who have survived, both in my country and across the world) that I 'knownothing about the lived experience of those who are trafficked'. Incredibly fucking sucky to read at 5 am.

Number 5) The whole long spiel of trying to explain trafficking to me was weird but im not gonna go into it too much but the idea that being a trans man specifically is not a reason for you to be targeted is fucking tone deaf.

Number 6) the random inclusion of white? pissed me off. What is up with that. why does fucking everything have to be about fucking white people. Its not relevant to 90% of the posts i make because i dont fucking live in a white country??

Number 7) I explicitly do not like to be called a man/this man. (just man in casual context is fine, but please do not call me a man, it is crossed out in my intro for a reason.)

Last, and most important, the sheer fucking arrogance and laziness. Remember in the first sentence she says 'that-satireguy is a bioessentialist who believes... an ultimate oppressed class'. The fact that she got so many things wrong about me post-claim shows that she didn't even LOOK AT MY FUCKING BLOG. before saying this shit out in the fucking open with 0 shame.

I could also go through her whole second reblog but honestly, mostly the same problems. She says I'm deep in conspiracy theories, dont know what i'm saying , 'lashing out', uninformed etc. Basically doubles down while also dismissing me as someone emotional who doesn't know what he's saying. And then does the same thing about my friend. A married, grown man who survived, left and now dedicates part of his time to help people in this situation. All around gross.

(And felt typical westerner to me but thats just me)

[oh-no-its-bird]

Omg I just finished reading svsss!!! And now you have a naruto au about it!!!

I think either way Houhua Uchiha is hilarious, but especially in that way of *what do you mean he's actually competent/dangerous?* from elite ninja. He's absolutely a sneaky coward.

If he gets noticed by Orochimaru I think Houhua entire.... *everything* will entice Orochimaru in a way that's like. Put it in a jar. I want to put my blorbo in situations! Especially with his .... lack? Weird relation with moral (I mean both of them).

I want to know more about his genin team. Especially his sensei. Like. I know he unplayed his skills, but also he alway somehow has exactly what the situation calls for on a mission. His mission reports would be weird as hell. "Successfully solved village dispute by realizing nearby village was messing for farmer Xs crops because of family dispute about prized cow, solved with better fence and different trade route."

Just. I love this au. <3

Another one falls to the scum villain agenda, let's go !!!

YEAHHH YOU GET IT! No matter how strong he gets or may be, Houhua continues to project the aura of a very scared genin. He has whatever the opposite of killing intent is, and it throws all of his opponents off

I think that Orochimaru and Houhua would be fucking amazing to watch interact w eachother actually— Houhua is so fucking scared of him, which is typical of people to act around Oro, but like. Orochimaru seeing past the layers (both real and carefully cultivated) of a coward to see the alarmingly smart little rat underneath.

Orochimaru is poking him with a stick

You know that one scene where Asuma like, tricks Shikamaru into playing some sort of strategy game? And realizes he's really smart? Or smthn like that? Ok so something similar to that for Orochimaru and Houhua could be fun.

Orochimaru somehow sniffed out that there's a LOT more to Houhua than there seems and he's got a bit of an eye on him now, just for funzies. Just as a little side project

(And then Houhua maybe says something incriminating about immortality bc he was an immortal cultivator, and Orochimaru is instantly right behind him breathing heavily over his shoulder)

I think that if Houhua ever tells anyone ab his past life, not that the system would let him, (tho considering the reincarnation in naruto, there might be a loop hole to exploit there?) I'd want it to be Orochimaru who he tells, just bc I think he'd be the most interesting character to get involved in that.

Like, other characters you might get the usual "omg no way" song and dance, maybe some hurt/comfort or whatever, and like that's fun! But Orochimaru you'd get him trying to fucking dissect the system. He's putting his plots on hold to try and figure out how to get this "system" to manifest. And if he can kill it. Or better yet: harness it's power

Oh shit Houhua's genin team, I didn't even think of that

I am suddenly struggling to think of any naruto characters who are Itachi and Houhua's age that I can throw into a team for him actually. Am I going to have to make some ocs for this? I hope not tbh, I like stuffing as many canon characters as I can everywhere

Oh god and who would their sensei be too

I can't use Itachi for the team bc he graduated early, do we even know if he was on a genin team or did he just go straight to ANBU? No but he'd have to take the chunin trials no matter what, so hmm

Yk what? I think it'd be funny if Houhua was on one of Kakashi's past teams Sarutobi tried to saddle him with, the ones he'd like fail on day 1 then dumped back into the system

I dont think the timeline on that would actually add up correctly, but it'd be really funny so I don't care actually

hear me out: Houhua was actually on the very first team Sarutobi tried to saddle Kakashi with. And at first, he's like "omg,,, isn't this Kakashi? did I stumble on a secret plot route???? Is this finally my chance to gain more character relevance points????"

But no. It's not. And Kakashi fails him and his team just like he would have anyways.

Possibly with even more ruthlessness, depending on if Houhua has interacted w him before that.

Hmmm ok so timeline.

Houhua and Itachi are both 13 during the massacre, Houhua was about to graduate, but the massacre and then taking care of Sasuke in the year that followed delayed his graduation, which also meant he got dropped from the team he was supposed to be on (whichever team it was)

So then he graduates fr a year or maybe more later, right around the time Sarutobi is starting to try and peer pressure Kakashi into taking a team.

Kakashi is given Houhua's team, makes eye contact w Houhua like once, then immediatley turns around and leaves without comment.

(This also adds tension between them later on when Kakashi eventually does take Sasuke on as a student. Plus tension between Kakashi and Sasuke, who would remember him as the sensei who failed Houhua + whatever else Houhua let slip, possibly about knowing Kakashi trained itachi)

No fucking clue who he gets saddled with in the end, but it'd be funny if his team gained some sort of reputation of being cursed bc they keep being passed around by sensei's who inevitably drop them for various reasons.

Who do u guys think would be fun to see on his team tho, I really can't think of anyone who's the right age so I'm struggling over here

LOVEEE THE IDEA OF HIM SOLVING CONFLICTS IN REALLY OUT OF NOWHERE WAYS THAT RESULT IN NO BLOODSHED AND 9 TIMES OUT OF 10 BETTER TRADE DEALS AND ROADS THATS SO FUNNY

Its not even that he he doesn't want to kill, he just thinks it's messy and will only lead to MORE problems they'd be called in to fix later down the line. This is actually the easy way, you know!!

(Somewhere far away but still watching through his crows, Itachi goes through several emotions as he watches Houhua peacefully solve more than one dispute when he was brought there specifically for murder. He's kind of going through a lot. Actually.)

(I like to think that if Houhua had been made aware of the root of the Uchiha Massacre, he could have fr helped think up a plot to get them all out of it. Unfortunatley everyone was under the impression he was a silly little untalented 13 year old. So that never happened.)

Houhua gets the nickname of "the beaurocrat nin" or smthn silly like that bc hes always resolving conflicts via the power of paperwork. The silly title only helps to make him seem more harmless, which gives him even more of an advantage in a fight when it comes to taking the enemy by surprise

[freakasaurus-rex]

FINALLY making an info post since so many of my mutuals have them

bright flashing lights be ahead! avast, ye sinners! this blog is not easy to look at if you are bothered by eyestrain!

Hello, welcome to my blog! I hope you have a fun time here :D

My name is Freak!

I am currently 17 years old, and my birthday is on September 5th

I am both other- and fictionkin. Talk to me about it if you want! I would lvoe to tell you about how I'm literally an ouppy

I regress sometimes. Interaction will be low at those times

I'm/we are plural! I don't talk about it often but I'm open to discussion. System-related sideblog is @nightingale-sys

I am aromantic and uhhh bisexual maybe. I'm also HECKA TRANS!!!!!!! GRAHHHHH I LOVE BEING TRANSGENDER

I use neopronouns almost exclusively. You can learn more about my pronouns here and here. If you don't have the time/energy/whatever, just use it/its

I regularly post bugs! I am looking to become an entomologist so they are very fascinating to me. Any posts including them will be tagged with #bugs, #insects, and the specific type of bug they are. I also consider arachnids and some shellfish to be bugs so those will be included in the #bugs tag, but they will not be tagged with #insects, obviously. Bugs and insects are different things

I post art sometimes. #art

Most fandoms are tagged but a few aren't [like pokemon and mario]

I have multiple little guys living in my askbox. Currently, we have Sneepsnorp, Jingle [and his plushie Bell], Mipmi, Brring, the computer kitty, Peggy, Wawa, Button, and im pretty sure we have another but i cant remember. All of them have their own tags. You will see them often

my vent tag is #freak's issues

if u dont want to see me talking abt depressing stuff, block it. this will also keep you from seeing me post about my physical illnesses

Things I enjoy!

Games: Splatoon ♡♡♡, Minecraft ♡, Oxenfree, Spiritfarer, Roblox, The Sims ♡, The Legend of Zelda ♡, Pokemon, Ace Attorney ♡

Shows/Movies: Brooklyn 99, Arcane ♡, Dungeon Meshi ☆, Dandadan, Attack on Titan ♡, The Rocky Horror Picture Show, Howl's Moving Castle ♡, most other Ghibli movies, Tank Girl, Chicago, Priscilla: Queen of The Desert

Books: The Agony of Bun O'Keefe, 5 Worlds [graphic novels], Scott Pilgrim [only the comics] ♡

Other media: Sanrio, Nevermore [webcomic], The Glass Scientists [webcomic], Blindsprings [webcomic]

General: VSynth ♡, post-apocalyptic stories/themes ♡, character design, story writing ♡, bugs of all kinds ♡, roleplay ☆

♡ = special interest | ☆ = hyperfixation

I have autism and ADHD. I may not understand the tone of posts or messages, but I usually do! If I don't, do not feel bad. Just lmk what you meant and we can both be on our merry way

I also have OCD lol i am very not normal

Physically disabled. I have widespread chronic pain and am often low on spoons. I complain about this frequently.

I occasionally reblog posts with queer slurs in them. I tag these with #f slur or similar. Whichever letter the word starts with and then "slur"

I frequently reblog political posts, and I do not tag them. I rarely reblog discourse, but this is 100% a space supporting of all good-faith identities. To me, this includes m-spec gays and lesbians. The split attraction model is for everyone

This being said, I do NOT support radqueers. You guys are weird and I will block you without hesitation if you interact with me

I support endogenic and other non-traumagenic systems. I will not argue about this. I will just block you

I will block you if I don't like you and I request that you do the same. It's easier to not get upset online if you just don't interact with people who piss you off. I understand it's important to see issues from all angles and to hear out varying opinions but a lot of people online are just insane

I do roleplaying. I love roleplay it's so fun. If you try to initiate ERP I will kill u

I've been roleplaying online since I was literally like 10 years old. I did take like a 5-year long break but still. yk. Or maybe you don't idk I just work here

Yes I always use the square brackets. No I don't know why I started. Yes it's muscle memory at this point

Thank you for reading! It was probably tough. My cringe. My cringeeee

[maggotstrench]

Match made in hell between these two autistic men. I havent described my ocs in so long idk how to talk about them. They both live isn th US but Shibasaki moved in from Scotland (his father was Japanese but hes never been to japan). They work at the same university (i refuse to do any more research into archivists for these splat fetish comix) Paxton is an archivist and Shibasaki is maintenance, however stuff around where enoch works tends to fuck up a lot.

I blabber on under the cut.

Ive had these ocs among a few others since i was 14, so they’re both ten. both originally live in a horrifying curse world set in 1932 that i wont get into because its convoluted.

In this modern day au tho they enjoy the same stuff but like 100 years apart.

Enoch is sort of a neurotic type who comes off meaner than he is, he has a sarcastic lilt to his speech. Hes helpful but it comes off as brusk and rude like he has to help you because hes bothered which isnt usually the case. Helpful in a pushy way. He likes miniatures and models and tiny things you have to be careful when building. His interests lie in victorian era science and medical practice, but he also enjoys normal tv and animated movies. He’s very careful with his body, food and stimuli wise, mostly because his underlying anxiety has convinced him “if i hiccup at work everyone will know that i get hard and im some devious freak pervert” which has taken a hard left into nobody else can hiccup at my job so hes the man with the vinegar in his locker and he seems more insane than anything. However he doesnt take care of his immune system in the slightest. This is a man who will come to work dying of influenza, dont worry he masks up and cleans his hands. He isnt inconsiderate of anyone else.

Cailean is a more laid back individual despite suffering some pretty intense trauma and anxiety of his own. Hes very much a people please who doesnt want anyone to worry about him or even pay attention to him. Hes sort of a glass child but he doesnt think that way about himself, its normal to give everything of yourself away and not really worry about it because youre so strong! Hes so strong dont worry about it. He enjoys cooking and arts and crafts, hes sort of a sculptor when he has the time. He likes reading books about fantasy and love and mushy stuff. He loves a good hurt/comfort book which feeds into his underlying sneeze and sick fetish. He would love to take care of another person if they were ill but hes also enjoy making love to an ill person if they were up for it. Cailean himself isnt very careful with his body but his body isnt careful with him so it tracks. Hes very hiccup prone but it only really bothers him in public where it adds attention to him.

They both have younger sisters. Cailean took care of his until she passed away which is when he moved. Enoch’s sister is just a weird lesbian who believes in ghosts she takes the piss out of enoch so he doesnt take himself too seriously.

I know im not the best writer but i love my sons so much theyre my favourite ever. If none of this is readable thats ok too just look at the pictures.

[drdemonprince]

Re: an anon from November 15th: do you have advice on how become more comfortable with negativity? Because the White Woman Socialization Brain is strong with this one and I've had a couple of friends say it gives me a tone-policing problem

I'm going to depart from my usual gradual tolerance-building exercise approach here (though all that stuff still applies) and give you a more targeted recommendation:

I think you need to find a friend who can be a bit of a shitty little outrageous bitch in how they speak and emote, but who is at their core a wonderful, reliable, and morally stand-up person, and make a special place for them in your life.

The type of person who is not afraid to be disagreeable, who says "terrible!" and launches into a whole long rant about why when you ask them how their day is going and who will show up to your house with groceries when you are sick and start cooking and cleaning all around even when you've (lyingly) said you do not need the help. The type of person who will teach your nervous system that negativity is not bad, that ruining the vibe is sometimes needed, and that we can be good people even while not worrying about making other people feel good.

You can often locate such people in hard-core activist spaces, as the people steadily Doing the Work for years on end are unlikely to be motivated by soft, tender feelings, because those emotions sure don't keep in that line of work. You can also find them in places like AA programs (or SMART Recovery meetings, etc), support groups, queer discussion groups, book clubs, marxist reading groups, church groups, food kitchens, and any other gathering of people that is motivated by a strong ideological commitment or interest in intellectual pursuits but which can be rather dry or unpleasant in its execution of their ideals. you can also just like, throw a stone in places like New York or Boston or Philly and hit three to five people like these. Even as far out as Pittsburgh or Cleveland there is a lot of them.

Now, if you have chronic white woman everybody must be happy all the time syndrome (which really just means i will *make* everybody pretend to be happy or else im going to lose my shit), it can be tempting to fall in with someone who *seems* like a person like this, but who in actuality is a manipulative undermining abuser taking advantage of your tendency to excuse and downplay their many slights and offenses.

You do not want that. You want someone who can accept criticism just as readily as they dish it out. The kind of person who will fire off at the mouth but then go "oh dammit, youre right, i hate it but youre right" the moment you point out a valid flaw in their logic. Someone brash, but with a heart. Someone who can teach you that conflict is inevitable, and needed, and that saying something weird or off-putting is not the end of the world, and that arguing and complaining can actually bring you closer to someone when it is done authentically and from a place of good faith.

to find this person, keep putting yourself in places that align with the type of person you'd like to be, filled with people who are doing things with their lives that you admire. notice your initial reactions to people. who is off putting? is that a fair judgement? who are you afraid of upsetting? who expresses themselves in a way you'd never, ever dare to? most kind of unpleasant people wont be the special Prickly Friend for You, they'll just be kind of annoying people you dont want to be around. but at some point you will notice, hey actually, this person is a little off and irascible, but i notice they always come through for people. they might not be the most elegant in how they express their views, but when i think about it, i think they tend to be right. over time a person like that will prove themselves through their behavior and track record, and as you get more acclimated to their way of communicating, you'll find your voice of disagreement too.

good luck!

[spagetdomain]

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[xxxg0ryygurlll13xxx]

i feel reallllllly bad abt this

so some backstory my bf plays a lot of military video games (war thunder esp thats his fave) and loves military boats and planes and wants to go into the military via an academy.

i have a complicated relationship w the military and military men. a lot of the men in my family (my grandfathers, uncles, cousins etc) were at one point in the military and it didnt go well for any of them. they all have major issues cause of their service. my grandfather developed a drinking problem after vietnam, my great uncle extreme PTSD after fighting in Iraq and all have or had been abandoned by the govt esp my uncles. so needless to say i have a weird relationship w the us govt and military systems.

so my bf wants to go into the military and while im well aware that high school sweethearts usually dont work out weve been dating for over 3 years straight and bros been talking abt marriage lately so i kinda have a feeling well last so his military dreams scare the SHIT out of me. not just the possibility of having him come back in a casket, or not coming back at all but him coming back so different, angry/violent or a drunk or an addict or sick or all of the above. i want him to be happy but i dont want him to come back blown to bits or missing limbs.

hes one of those people who wants to do it for the glory. the love of country the idea of coming back a hero. the way the current politics are going in america were probably gonna have a huge war soon maybe even on 2 fronts, WWIII. that scares me too just in general and add someone i love so much so far for so long going years w/o seeing him, sometimes not knowing if hes dead or alive. scares me but thats so selfish. thats my problem im so selfish about it. ive told him my concerns and it makes me feel like a bad person cause ik he wants this pretty bad tho he did say if he doesnt get into an academy he wont enlist hell go somewhere else for engineering and work for the govt that way. but i just feel so selfish. i want him to be happy but i also want him alive and safe.

also while im being honest here i really dont think hes military material. hes not very uh fit (i doubt hed pass the physical test), his grades r pretty average the academies r really hard to get into, hes EXTREMELY stubborn which the military would not at all approve of he only does one extracurricular, and he has some other problems i wont mention that wouldnt go well in the military. so his chances at an academy arent very high but just enough to scare me.

and i know its selfish which is why i feel so bad about it. its so complicated. on one hand i really dont want him to go and i just want him to consider the pros and cons, he has a very video game propaganda-y watered down "glory" view of the military that they can do no wrong and i know the other end the trauma, the abandonment, the fear, ive heard the stories the stories of men watching each other get blown up, watching civilians struggle to breathe cause of the chemicals we used, my grandfather had to watch his best friend get his legs blown off. the coming back different, changed and not for the better. sure the glorys nice the honor is amazing but at what cost? i have relatives who have purple hearts and were abandoned by the system that gave it to them. on the other hand tho i know its so selfish to not want him to follow what he wants to do. to tell him he shouldnt, that its a bad idea, that its not worth it, that the risk isnt worth the possible reward, to think abt how once u sign on that dotted line u cant quit till ur contract is up. im gonna follow my dreams of being an artist so why should i let him follow his?

i feel so conflicted abt it. i cant tell where the line between caring and selfishness is. i feel guilty and selfish and scared all at the same time. i hope and pray he changes his mind but i know i cant make him no matter how many times i not so subtly mention the possiblity of death, disability, PTSD the thousands of things that can go wrong. i feel so selfish but i cant help my fear. i think i care too much. thats my problem. i care too much abt his physical safety i overlook his happiness. i apologized to him abt my selfishness over this like a half hour ago and havent heard back.

[3liza]

Saw your post asking about insulin resistance without high blood sugar, and yeah I have experience with that exact thing. Everyone in my family has some sort of awful blood sugar issues, but despite having something clearly wrong with me my glucose tests and a1c's were coming back thoroughly normal. I got lucky with a decent doctor and she ordered an insulin test (usually more accurate with fasting I believe, but the result was rather high anyways) and she noted that it was high and told me to try out a diabetes diet to see if it helped.

I'm on a strict low-glycemic index diet now and it's really improved my health, mostly my mental health, but my skin has been upgraded from "abysmal" to a firm "mediocre."

Do I know what's wrong? No. Probably never will, but I'm feeling a lot better at least.

huh. thats useful info. im about to get a new doctor, i wonder if she'll be willing to entertain this sort of weirdness

edit: i just feel Bad and Sick if i eat a sufficient amount of sugar. systemic symptoms, skin gets worse, actual skin pathology like wounds not healing or eczema/psoriasis/fungus gets worse, migraines get triggered, pain flares, etc. not normal person "i ate too much sugar i feel temporarily sub-optimal" halloween candy coma, but i will get actually sick for a few days if i over-indulge. but i crave sugar constantly, which doesnt really mean anything, lots of people crave sugar because It Tastes Good so its not exactly diagnostic. sometimes the sugar cravings seem uncontrollable, like "i need to get out of bed where i am trying to sleep and eat something sweet or i cant think about aything else" kind of stuff. my parents do this same dance with carbohydrates and sugar, they feel awful, eat a cookie, feel awful, recover, say stuff like "oh i shouldnt eat the cookie", and it cycles. some of it is eating disorder crap, which is real hard to differentiate from other issues. some of it is being underweight/underfed from gastroparesis (which I have, pretty badly) which means certain circumstances of calorie shortages, bad digestion, whatever, can align perfectly to trigger I Am Starving I Need to Overeat Right Now Or I'll Die programming in the ape brain, and again, thats real hard to separate from blood sugar symptoms and eating disorder symptoms because they all get tied up together.

however, if i manage to grocery shop in the correct way to provide myself with ample available appropriate food, and i can eat ketogenic or nearly-ketogenic with focuses on dairy fat and just regular animal meat and fresh veg, with minimal or no grains, starches, and sugars, i feel like 60% better on all axes. my dad, too, eventually, after he got diagnosed, was instructed to stop eating most carbs etc and immediately lost all the extra weight he was uncomfortable with his whole life, and immediately got less chronically crappy-feeling. so there's something going on, i just dont know if its medical or genetic or what. some people just dont do well with a lot of grains and theres no particular medical reason.

[itsdawnforyou]

Onto CAN YOU HEAR ME? Which, like, why you shouting? Yeah I can hear you, chillax.

"Dont struggle, they like it more when you struggle" uh oh. Also thats some nails on that thing! Damn! Someone doesnt own nail clippers!

Oh they all went off and the doc's doing this one alone. She still talking like they're there tho, which is very very cute. Sorta wish she keeps it up in the rest of the episode, would feel like *we* are the companions for once! "You guys go that way- oh" "friendly visitors- visitor!" Aww shes really missing her friends isnt she? (Also whos the weird guy in the tardis at the start bc I dont like him and I betcha the old girl doesnt either).

Alright so yaz and ryan saw the same guy who looks like he's harvesting nightmares? Graham got a psychic message from a girl and she's trapped by nightmare guy (im assuming) inbetween two planets, maybe they are orbiting around eachother and thus fueling the prison? Didnt look like gallifreyan tech so its not them this time.

Telepathic circuits are back! Im really happy with the fact they are actually using the tardis in 13's run, and she's talking to her and stuff. I missed that!

Haha it is between two planets! I figured it was a binary star system but nope its just a collision between them. Or.. not a collision bc the girl in the middle is stopping it.

Yes, doc, obviously its a kind of prison if someone is in there and going "save me"!

So Yaz's nightmare is her.. sister? Maybe? Being killed. Im guessing it was a car accident, yaz was one of the first ones there and couldnt help. Sonya...?

Ryan's is the fire when his mom died Im guessing? And quick prediction that graham would either have grace falling or would be half immune to that because of the girl telepathically talking to him.

Ohhh Ryan's nightmare is the fire and letting down tibo and fear of failing to save people. Nice combo!

Oh and its not just grace dying for graham, its also his cancer! This is so nice /sarcasm.

"Ive watched you, stumbling around this universe" id say its more... flailing? Skipping? Hmm... twirling? Maybe twirling.

"No. Zellin is a mythical name" the doctor really went "oh I got him now hehe" and then he's like "ye thats me hello". Whoops!

"For me this universe is a beautiful board for a game" ha, like the toymaker. "The toymaker would approve" OH.

"The endless voices telling themselves they are incapable and unworthy" uh yeah, thats why we are a social bunch. If we doubt ourselves, others will lift us back up. Also the doctor would, too. Doctor of hope, right?

Also I love her hair this episode! Slightly wavey, its nice!

"Blunder, top of my CV. Alonside 'plays well with others' and 'excellent tapdancer in a crisis'." I love her, she's so silly!!

"No doctor, I used your instincts against you." Uh oh. Finally someone who goes "lets mess with the humans to get the doctor here"! Well, the master did something similar in spyfall.

Oh, it was a prison for a reason! Well... usually prisons are designed to lock someone inside... welp. Also dont mess with the doc's mind, thats not very nice!

.....do they have a thing with putting the doc in cuffs this season or...? Because this is like the second time she was trapped with her hands pinned above her head and its starting to become a trend. Not that im very opposed but like..

"They feel so much... it must burn them" I mean yeah but why would you be so mean about it! Thats not very nice :(

"Down... stay. Good dog" doctor, thats a finger not a pet, love.

"....prank?" "No" yeah valid reaction.

That mustve been a really really cold night shoot... looks great tho!!

"Are you... conforting us?" "Yeah! 🤨" that was so sassy I love her.

"Thanks for lending a helping hand" "really?" "Couldnt resist" yeah I wouldnt be able to either, it was right there!

"Yes, gods back in their box!" A lot of boxing gods, eh? "And all those people out of the TARDIS jacuzzi!" Theres a TARDIS jacuzzi and NO ONE WROTE A FIC ABOUT IT?! Are you serious right now??? No one heard "TARDIS jacuzzi" and went "yup brb gotta write". Thats a crime.

Awww he sent Tosin to a support group!! Hell yeah!!

Oh, yaz backstory time hell yeah! Oh they thought she was gonna do something bad :(.. oh they made a bet and yaz lost and im so happy about that!... honestly might cry from joy over her losing. Thats... yeah. That hit the feels.

And Graham being scared of the cancer returning and cant talk to grace about it so.. he goes to (a) The Doctor. "...I should say something reassuring right now.." yup. "Im still a bit socially awkward" yes you are. "So im going to walk towards the console and look at something.. and in a minute... Ill think of something that I shouldve said... that mightve been helpful"... yeah thats.. yeah. I love these honest moments from the doctor. Rule #1 didnt work right there. Too socially awkward to lie right then. I love that.

I like the little chats from Ryan and Yaz. How Ryan is a bit reluctant, a bit scared of leaving his old friends behind for so long. But Yaz isnt. Maybe her family, yeah, but she still wants to go on... On we go.

"Im thinking, Frankestine. Did I Interrupt? Am I interrupting?" "No" "cool. You might have to change your clothes". Oh doctor, never change...

[pumpkinsy0]

https://www.tumblr.com/pumpkinsy0/783290736707829760/whenever-i-talk-to-someone-about-how-i-dont-rlly

expound pretty please im curious bcs most people who read the book usually really enjoy the themes

ok lets hope i dont anger anyone bc i truly do not wanna argue, plus im kinda shit at explaining what i mean seriously, this isnt ALLLL my thoughts on it im speaking as general as i can, but its good enough for me to say outloud

tldr: i wish the whole “things are rough all over” discussion in the fandom had more nuance than just “we r all human so we should treat each other as such❤️” and ppl who defend the socs didnt immediately assume that u just dont get the book at all or hated the socs or whatever for saying u dont like it, bc truly thats not the kind of message to leave everything at. like i get Y they do it, talking about this can b a slippery slope, especially considering that its cherry who said it and this fandom is weird w female characters, i understand but id like to think we all have good media literacy and r pretty smart!!! if u want to truly fix the issues the book was exploring we need an actual discussion deeper than “just empathize and everything will come after” like what happened in the book, we can criticize the books message a lil bit ESPECIALLY bc its very important in the times we r in rn👍🏽

now☝🏽☝🏽☝🏽i DO agree that things r rough all over we all DO have our own issues HOWEVER COMMA!!!! to sit here and write off/ignore that one group ISNT more vulnerable than the other is being flat out stupid and dangerous. that is not “playing oppression olympics” for pointing it out nor is it “comparing trauma” it is a genuine fact that one of these two groups is being actively harmed and exploited by another, leaving them vulnerable in SOME way.

YES socs go through their own issues im NOTTT saying they dont and u will never find me saying they dont, but the greasers can go through their same exact issues (if not exact they go through it in some other form) AND systemic ones that add on other problems bc everything is quite literally stacked up against them. in fact we HAVE examples of this bc we have BOB and DALLAS as evidence of it!!! both of them exact parallels of having neglectful parents, they both act pretty much the same, but bob was doing it WHILE exploiting the system and u will still see ppl somewhat baby him every which way FOR having shitty parents and then shit on dallas all the time

like im not saying dallas sexually harassing cherry was less important and should b ignored however on the otherrr handdd ppl dont treat bob nearly killing pony and potentially johnny as seriously, this fandom is pretty classist. bob is not treated like a criminal to the degree dallas is in the book (which ok fine u expect that) AND in the fandom, so leaving that lesson of “we all go through shit” alone as is right there, has a part to play in it bc ppl feel they have to defend and excuse the shitty behavior of another rich character bc of what they went through and how it “might get skimped pass, grrrr did u not understand the lesson”

do u see what im saying here😭😭like truly what does arguing THAT solve, idgaf that that perm boy had neglectful parents??????? he tried to kill a poor orphan bc he knew he could get away w it and needed an “outlet”😭😭😭😭ppl use the socs issues and that ONE LINE!!!! W ZERO OF THEIR OWN THINKING PUT INTO IT, to EXCUSE instead of EXPLAIN the actions

lets all imagine there wasnt poor, middle class, and rich for a sec yea. bob is still white, ponys idfk whatever race other than white. bob was going after ppl who r not like him bc its not a secret that he can do things pony cannot do, all the damn time and suffer no consequence from it. if u do not take seriously what bob did, u would INADVERTENTLY b defending this as well (bc a disproportionate amount of poc experience poverty, but even if that wasnt the case, there is no difference between THIS and what actually happened in the book, its the same damn issue both times)

and yknow what my issue w that discussion doesnt rlly lie w the book, more so the fandom bc im not expecting a book written in the 60s by a white woman to have THAT much nuance towards oppression topics, im rlly not, its the fandom i kind of expected to talk deeper w it.

and dontttt take this as me saying the greasers arent also a lil fucked for beating up other ppl thats not right either, but this cycle is happening BC OF ppl who have more money than them pushing them away from having chances of bettering themselves

i understand a theme is supposed to b 1-2 lines-ish, but after the book is done we can form our own thoughts through our own knowledge of history class, a bit of math, and our own experience to expand on it to make sure we arent pushing “small” harmful things

grrrrr i hope u get what im saying here i give up💔💔💔

[stoic--rose]

final fantasy II progress update #1

hi, i realized after doing the ff1 progress updates that i was doing them really far apart from each other, and i kinda wanna change that for this game. as such, im maybe gonna do these more frequently this time.

now, i am like, basically 20 minutes into the game (my playtime is way higher than that bc i didnt know where to go oops) but i already have a LOT to say abt this one, and i kinda wanna get my thoughts out in a little introductory post.

first of all: story seems WAY more prevalent here. ff1 was very barebones in its story, just a basic quest to save the world, not really focusing on any character development or anything. this game feels a lot more focused on making its own characters, and that's most obvious in the fact that you dont really get to build your party like you did in ff1. you dont get to choose classes, you're given three predetermined guys to start with official names and personalities and dialog and all. this is cool for sure, but i would be lying if i said there wasnt something kind of lost in that. i do always really like giving my characters my own names if given the chance, (see my smt1 playthrough for a perfect example of that) but if there are widely accepted official names, i'll usually go for those. when you start a new game in ff2 (at least on psp) the names are already filled out for you, which bummed me out for a sec. im sure its not THAT big of a deal, just something i noticed.

one thing i thought about as i started a new game was, wow, i dont think i recognize ANY part of this game! for such a famous series, youd think there'd at least be a couple of characters or names or SOMETHING id recognize, but nope, nothin. then i realized, oh yeah, early final fantasy had that whole name swapping issue! ff1 was released in north america as just Final Fantasy, but they skipped the other two nes games in the states. then, they localized Final Fantasy IV as Final Fantasy II in the states, skipped FFV, then localized FFVI as Final Fantasy III. what a weird world early localization was. but yeah, that's probably why i didn't recognize any part of this, it's because it hasn't been in the american cultural zeitgeist for decades like the first game has.

another point i'd like to bring up: i've heard a couple of times that this is "the bad one" according to some very trustworthy and objectively correct internet people. i'm not one to judge a game just by how a mob of people perceive it, but i can kind of understand why it would garner that reputation just from the little bit i've played. game is WACK as an rpg. for one, i can't help but notice that my characters uh, don't have a level listed in the status screen? im not even getting any exp after battles, only gil. i think what it is instead is that whenever you attack someone with a weapon, that character's proficiency with that particular type of weapon increases, and that's the growth system in place. also, i think the "key word" system is a really neat idea so far. essentially, certain words in dialog boxes are highlighted, and you can choose to "learn" that keyword. then, when talking to certain important npcs, you can ask them about keywords you already know to get new information. it almost kinda feels like a point and click adventure game in that sense, not to mention you can also show people items to get more info out of them. i like this ! at least, so far. it feels like the kind of thing that could definitely lead to getting lost until you ask the right person about the right thing, but as of right now it's pretty nifty. also, statuses dont seem to persist outside of battle, thank FUCK

last thing: there doesn't seem to be any limitations on what party member can learn what magic, no white mages or black mages here. even my dumber-than-a-box-of-rocks boulder of a man, Guy, can learn to cast Cure if he so pleases. that's pretty cool! what we lose in more nebulous character customization like being able to name and create personalities for my party, we gain in gameplay customization, like being able to learn any type of magic or specialize in any type of weapon if you so please. i like that, it's fun!

OK THIS BECAME REALLY RAMBLY basically. i like ff2 so far. its different and weird but still pretty cool and an interesting departure from ff1. also im lost as FUCK and i dont know where to GO

[bonny-kookoo]

hi bonny first off i wanna say i love your fics. as a black reader i dont feel unsafe at the moment and would really love to stick around cuz your writing is compelling.

while i do believe fic is a free for all, i do think a police fic would attract a certain demographic into your audience making it unwelcoming to your poc readers.

you already have someone reblogging under the other anons post spouting dog whistles.

personally i’d have no problem with a “police” fic IF it wasnt taking inspiration from the CURRENT JUSTICE SYSTEM AND POLICING OF TODAY.

you could write about how you’d see crime handled in a way thats makes sure that perpetrators get to court alive to have a fair trial or even preventative measures within the community jungkook could take to ensure that someone never feels the need to turn to crime.

it could be cool to visualize jungkook as like a community policer. they usually live in the neighborhood and work with their neighbors to watch out for each other. you could create your own system of how they handle punishment.

you could have a tasks force but they dont use guns. and they dont use excessive force.

they could try deescalation tactics like talking.

you could have jungkook on a crime scene making sure that ALL evidence is collected, briberies arent happening, and he’s checking his peers when they might have messed up.

you could include advanced futuristic technology that makes sure that a suspect is being rightfully accused to avoid false accusations.

because the system is under such careful surveillance unlike OUR CURRENT SYSTEM, you could write about how heinous crimes are punishable by death or maybe even exile to some other planet

jungkook could be seen doing charity drives like handing food to the homeless and back to school/supply handouts.

he could even be featured playing with youth in the community. like basketball on the court or sitting down and talking to them to see if things are good at school and home.

there’s ways to showcase him as an actual protector of citizens.

you could show him outside work too being a pillar, like maybe he goes to city hall meeting and advocates for social changes. like transportation, shelters, and livable wages.

imagining a better tomorrow where you have the creative freedom to imagine how you’d go about changing the system could be more FUN creatively cuz the possibilities are endless rather than having him abuse his power and hurt people.

hope that helps💜

I mean, yeah, that would've been my actual goal, I didn't think people would feel like I would write it in a way that would make people feel upset :/ That's why I wanted to maybe make it a 'fantasy'-esque hybrid or Alien fic to kind of.. take away the 'reality' connection from it? I don't know.

I write fics to give people a way to escape the troubles they have daily, so they can daydream about a world where things are better, true love is a thing, and happy endings are the norm. I know I'm not always hitting the nail with that attempt, clearly, if people instantly thought that I would not do well in creating an Alternate Universe where things would be better. I don't know. I'm currently feeling a little weird about everything I wrote now, like, I'm questioning what exactly caused it. Was it the way I wrote my hybrid fics? Or how I buit my Alien universes? Did I unintentionally make people feel unwelcome/uncomfortable? I don't know anymore.

I try to not make specifics about skin color/hair length/eye color or whatnot in my fics to try and keep it open as possible, and I know I don't do that well sometimes, since there's a limit to what I can properly write- which is why I don't write tall characters, male readers, or specifically poc's- because I cannot and will never be able to properly portray that. I'm not a professional writer, this is just a hobby, and maybe I need to, I don't know, educate myself more to make sure that in the future, my works don't make anyone feel excluded or upset in general. I'm sorry if that was the case in any of my works.