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[quietjustice]

oh remediation is where it’s AT

[snarkywrites]

New Moon in Aries: Awakening

On March 24th, the New Moon will be in the sign of Aries which is what we all need during these times. The world is on a standstill, as we wait for the next opportunity to pick up from where we left off. This New Moon comes with lessons that we have avoided as well as a new form of inspiration. Where we might have lost faith, we fight back to reclaim our sense of power and control. Saturn has entered the sign of Aquarius, making us all feel new pressures and changes from the Saturn in Capricorn transit. Now we wait but as we look to the future, this Aries Season promises action and change. Aries represents new beginnings and strength. Ruled by Mars, this is a sign of power and dominance. The New Moon will uplift and make us want to believe again, the recipe needed to keep us levelheaded.

 Aries – We finally make it to your sign, and we all look to it for a change. Ironically, while Aries likes to move and explore, but now the world has come to a slow halt. This New Moon will bring awareness to you as you become filled with ideas and motivation to take on your next challenges. Even if you feel that everything is slipping away, that spark of optimism remains. The best for you now is to keep on believing and to see the best in the future.

Taurus – This New Moon might be a little challenging for you as it brings back moments where you might have felt like a failure. Come to terms with the past and get ready to face the future. Aries Energy revitalizes, provides hope and give you opportunities where you did not expect them. Look to this point in time as your resting phase, building up your energy for your season. Look on the brighter side of things and continue to stay focused.

Gemini – It can feel a little lonely these days, but the New Moon in Aries reminds you of the importance of those great friends you have that you can connect with. It can also mean that there will be new people you meet during this transit via the social media. Listen to those friends that inspire you and keep you motivated, because they will help you keep your cool during these upcoming transits. Your love of communication will allow for you to thrive during this transit as it keeps you more connected to others.

Cancer – A lot will be on the line with this New Moon in Aries, as you are reminded of your place in the world. Do not be afraid to show how awesome you are but be wary of what you might say and do during this transit since all eyes will be on you. Saturn in Aquarius will help you make some plans that are worthwhile. This is a great moment in time to start on new projects, to work on old ones and you will see the results of it later this year.

Leo – There can be a lot of wonderful opportunities for you to learn and grow with this New Moon in Aries transit. You might already be pushed to work more and gain a greater understanding of things you have become extremely interested in. If you want to find a new craft or learn more about a subject, this New Moon will fill you with the inspiration and courage needed. A sense of optimism and hope will spark some brief moments of tranquility shedding some light to the dark.

Virgo – With this New Moon energy, you might feel like you have stepped into a bit of a horror show. Don’t panic. Whatever insecurities or personal battles you have been going through, you will feel a little stronger during this transit. The New Moon in Aries finds a way to balance you, push you to think in a more optimistic way and it will give you the tools needed to keep fighting on. Saturn’s influence will make you want to fight harder, be stronger and wiser.

Libra – Overall, this should be an interesting transit for you as you learn more about yourself and seek out what balances you. The New Moon promises to shed some light on things you have been worried about as you manage to find inner peace and grounding. With Saturn’s entry in fellow Air sign, Aquarius this week, you will feel a little more settled with Fire and Air influencing you. This can be a period of growth as you look into the deeper parts of your subconscious through others.

Scorpio – You will be inspired to find ways to become better, stronger and more disciplined. The New Moon opens your eyes to things that need to be changed or refined. The way that we view things now will be extremely altered and because you are always on your toes, you will find a way to navigate through the waters. This New Moon will put things in priority for you through organization. Your efficiency will help and further your success.

Sagittarius – Aries Season will bring some much-needed optimism to your world. It can be a cold world for the cheerful Sagittarius, but do not fret since the energy of this New Moon will life your spirits and inspire some fun moments. You are learning how to relax after these Saturn transits and now you can breathe (a little) while Saturn makes its way to Aquarius. Keep strong and let the creativity flow through you for this month.

Capricorn – You are being brought to a halt with this New Moon in Aries. Overwhelmed and overworked Capricorns might view this as a blessing in disguise because it means you can begin to bring the focus back on things that matter more in your life. Remain optimistic and preserve the peace. Cater, protect and help those that need you. This New Moon will shine a guiding light as you become the pillar to those in your immediate environment.

Aquarius – Saturn is entering your sign, so things might feel a little gloomy, but with the New Moon in Aries, you will feel a bit of an inspirational way of thinking. It will be a very different period for you, as you become acclimated to the new changes with Saturn in your sign. This is your period of growth and self discovery and this New Moon will have you thinking on the brighter side of things as you make the adjustments needed to go through your new path.

Pisces – With this transit, you will bring the focus back on your stability as you might feel a little out of balance with the situation. With Saturn entering Aquarius, it might feel like the weight of the world is on your shoulder. Surrender and let the pressure flow. This Aries New Moon will give you strength and wisdom to stand tough and to reclaim your control. Remember, that there is also no shame in asking for help when the world seems to be cornering you in. Keep strong and stay motivated because you’ve got this.

Stay safe everyone!

[sometimesabsent]

my 2017

I guess this year was pretty... unmemorable, meaning that I made pretty slow progress?? Not many extraordinary things, but maybe it was all in the details. - i learned more about myself through schema therapy! and through other school material! - school started giving us more applicable knowledge& I actually went to practice in a hospital, also practiced with a friend. I realized that I enjoy the therapy process, started realizing what it implies more clearly, the whole thing got demistified at last! Now I believe it's something I could do! Not extraordinarily, and also I need much practice to learn applying techniques better and also being more empathic, patient and accepting... improving my listening skills! But I think I can do it  Not sure, oh so not sure about CBT versus other integrative approaches, though...  the comfort of rationality and detachment, or the risk of spontaneity and emotion? or both! - I learned autogenic training, started doing imaginary exposure exercises, used the chair technique with good results, started using suggestion statements... applying techniques on myself! Made coping cards for my schemas and my eating habits - I kept a diary with all the cool stuff I learned about myself this year, I started an astrological diary with stars-events correlations in my and in others' life, continued the gratitude journal and started a new notebook with good words about myself- appreciating my accomplishments instead of brushing them off. - I learned some predictive& occult astrology and I'm on my way of doing the project for participating to the diploma courses! - I had my first astrology clients! A friend's roommate, a school classmate, and a new friend who works in massage/energy therapy! 2/3 were visibly satisfied and Nutzi (the massage lady) even recommended me to one of her clients! - I did the first module of the Prananadi course (a kind of Reiki) and can now use my hands to energize/heal my body (in another way, haha) and also help others! I got rid of some aches using this technique and helped my mom, too! - I had my first past life regression with Nutzi  it shed some light on my issues with men, and then I found Morco, who simultaneously confirmed and infirmed my ideas about guys - I kept teaching English online, in summer I worked 5-6 hrs/day for a month, got a taste of how real life might look with a job  (except 2-3 more hours added to that, heh) - I travelled to England to see Tatiana, went to concerts and festivals in the summer (Summer Well, Electric Castle, Depeche Mode) with my sis, I went to Bucharest alone (and stayed in relatives' house while they were on vacation, hihi), visited Alexandra there also; I went to Brasov with my sis, and to the salt mine in Turda for treatment. It might not sound like much, but this is quite some movement for me! I partly enjoyed it, partly was sick for much of the travelling time, but it was worth it. - I talked to Isabella (girl from my college who I sensed I would get along with) and we became really good pals! I am not attracted to her, it was just a projection, and she's straight anyway- she's a very cozy friend, she feels like home! - I distanced myself from Adina, Maria, Andreea P., Vlad P., Tatiana after spring, Laura stopped talking to me... Alexandra left to Bucharest and we're still talking often, yet I feel a small distance from her, too. It's like I stopped spending time with people who I don't really have so much in common with, and who I was hanging out to just to avoid loneliness... I became more comfortable with solitude, started going alone to movies. I'm happy about this and in the same time I don't want to fully distance myself from my old friends, bcuz they're nice!! - The solitude thing is something that stands alone (hehe)... it's strange and interesting, to enjoy my own company for a change. - I volunteered for the gay films festival in my city and I translated movies; I didn't go to the meetings... It was anxious avoidance, and in the same time I sensed that it wasn't my crowd there. It was a pretty unsuitable time, with my newfound accentuated solitude. I enjoyed having helped, though - I messaged a girl I found on facebook and who seemed interesting, wanting to find out more about her and maybe meet. She got put off by my curiosity and questions and we haven't talked since- again it may seem like a small thing, but I'm glad I messaged her instead of waiting and obsessing over her from a distance, like I'd done with Isabella - I got diagnosed with polycystic ovary syndrome... I have stomach issues, hormonal issues, bad moods, dizziness and all. I'm under treatment and I'm not sure how much it's helping... - I had attempts to improve my eating habits; I keep falling back to old habits of emotional eating and exaggerating with the sweets, but I did lose a little weight and I won't give up - I established a routine of 30mins of exercise every day, most days. It's not perfect and not always, but it's a habit now!   - I wrote some dada poetry and some regular poetry, both in romanian and in english. I wrote prose for the Aska creative writing group,  but then as the group dismantled, I quit and I found it hard to write again... tried with some stories,  but didn't really succeed. - I read Fingersmith by Sarah Waters and loved it, The Secret History by Donna Tartt,  the self-help book by Jacques Salome (If only I'd listen to myself)- this one helped me tons;  Schema Therapy, my new bible; The Witches by Roald Dahl which made me feel more affection for C. (She loves the book); finished Psychological Types by Jung; read the book on Motivational Interviewing and got floored at how poorly I listen and empathize, and motivated to change;  discovered Spiral theory and Ken Wilber through Morco and got mindblown!   - I tried to revive my passion for drawing mandalas by going to the mandala coloring/drawing group, but that fizzled out!!  Didn't enjoy it enough to keep going - Attachment and jealousy linked to Cristina turned into love... The kind of feeling that I know is love and that seems to have become indestructible. It still has a lot of suffering attached to it (in the summer when I went to Bucharest, I felt like dying of love), but I'm learning to accept that as a part of life. Loving her just seems very important right now and it makes me grateful to be alive. - I enjoyed talking to Andreea and right now I feel a lot of affection for her. - I had continuing issues with assertivity, with Tatiana in England, with dad, with Alexandra, with my therapist. I practiced communication with Alexandra, Isabella and Morco (talking about my feelings and needs) - this happened online and also in real life with Isabella. It didn't bring about the disasters I had anticipated  

- I suppose I also avoided quite some things this year  I'm aware that these were my needs (solitude mostly) and in the same time I'm not entirely happy with this. I quit the job with Otilia, I quit therapy with George... Partly avoidance, partly uncertainty... 2017-2018: in solar return,  ether Sagittarius ascendant, conjunct Saturn... Pluto in 1st house..  Moon-Lilith in the 12th house... In transit, Jupiter return, Saturn in opposition with Moon-Venus and now this opposition in undoing  In SR I have quite some 5th house, I don't really see it manifested  About my list from the start of the year: - It got easier to relax (but far from entirely, it's still a struggle), I slowed down my rhythm of life a litte (especially in the last part of the year) - I managed to integrate relaxation/meditation/exercise in my daily routine, even though still a bit chaotically - I established my list of values more clearly!!  Right now: knowledge, spirituality, security,  mastery, friendship, love, creativity, sincerity.. Knowledge and sincerity: including with myself. Still have trouble with: sincerity, authenticity,  freedom, courage... I'm quite scared to know myself fully and to assume myself to others. - I was a little braver: I came out to my dad (needed to get drunk) and talked to Isabella (through indirectly getting to the point where she asked me to go to the theatre, and then I asked her to hang out) - I learned to enjoy being alone!!!!! And I became less dependent on talking to friends on messenger all the time   - Still kinda dependent on Cristina, I still got super sad and depressed when she didn't talk to me for a while... This abandonment issue I have is still on. - Kept focusing on astrology& completed the 3rd level of the course! - Kept focusing on self-knowledge!! - Worked through my resentment and attachment... Jealousy and judginess of others, I still have to deal with this through self-acceptance first... - Accepted my sex drive as what it is. - Didn't move alone and didn't do the 1-2 day alone trip I was thinking of... The homework Miclea gave us. Still have to do that Overall, it seems that I stuck to my goals decently well  most of them aren't quantifiable, but subjectively, I feel like I took important steps  It wasn't a very easy year, an extraordinary year, a very disciplined year; rather, I became more aware of some issues I have (schemas), I learned more small skills to better manage my emotional issues, I started enjoying being alone and appreciating myself more, I started taking steps to improve my health, I learned psychology and astro, I had fun teaching and going to concerts :)