#which is a shitty relationship to have with art

[easyboyrecliner]

SONS OF ANARCHY

(sons of anarchy desired reality)

I. CHRISTIAN WOMAN

evelyn j. noone was an orphan alongside her brother, frederik. their birth parents? dead or alive, who knew. fred doesn’t remember anything, or he pretends not to know, he was too young anyway. the only thing he knows: is that they were placed upon the orphanage doors shortly after evelyn was born. a laughable shitshow if you were to ask both of them.

from a young age evelyn showed artistic talent and skill. up from singing to drawing. art was her passion. any kind of it. it was a gift bestowed upon her. evelyn loved making up her own stories, maybe a talent she’d developed after watching too many broadways and having unrestricted access to the tv and cassette tapes.

fred on the other hand? a trouble maker from a young age. while she was book smart, he was street smart.

lots of parents came to the orphanage and were solely interested in evelyn. but she always declined, she wouldn’t leave fred alone in the orphanage. he was her brother.

that was until alice noone came to the orphanage. she was amazed by evelyn’s talent and with frederik’s rebellious nature. they where adopted in 91’. alice was…unfit for the job as a mom. especially with her treatment of venus, who then went by vincent.

they don’t talk about the few months they spent in her care. if you were to ask, you’d simply hear that evelyn attended ballet lessons and frederik, young idiotic frederik, joined some biker club that was led by nero. since alice was one of his street dancers, course fred ended up in nero’s care. evelyn smiled through her shitty childhood and pretended everything was fine.

when alice officially was arrested in 93’ because evelyn snitched on her, they landed in nero’s care. he kept the children out from work. he didn’t want them to end up in sex work, no he’d fought against it. evelyn kept attending her ballet lessons and fred continued being a loyal worker of nero.

venus eventually came out and the siblings accepted her immediately. venus’s son, joey, was also very supportive of the transition. he was raised by very open minded people and adored his little family. especially aunt evie because she always let him stay awake late at night and watch movies with her.

venus encouraged evelyn’s love for theatre and acting. she was very supportive and helped evelyn get into the good acting schools. fred, a quiet presence around that time, also showed support. coming to her plays and mysteriously leaving money on her table. but it all changed when her social anxiety came crippling down upon her at age seventeen and evelyn had to step down.

which made her turn to becoming a teacher. she always loved children, she taught joey to read. so that’s how evelyn ended up working as a kindergarten teacher.

around that time she entered a relationship with a guy named mike. which quickly turned abusive but fred saved her before shit started to happen. they relocated up north, to san fransisco. leaving her old life behind.

II. BLACK NO. 1

frederik and evelyn are both two idiots according to the very word of their sister, venus van dam. don’t play uno with them if you want a knife thrown very close to your head. they take uno very seriously. the siblings love type o negative, even if they deny it heavily. fred might be the only one who is able to handle a caffeinated evelyn, especially when she is six coffees deep.

riot, gemma (not teller) & evelyn are a worse combination. the girls once pulled a hangover (lovely movie) at the bridesmaid party of gemma. so the three of them together is already crazy.

joey and his aunt? yeah, he loves evelyn. she gifted him his nintendo and the games that came along with it. she lets him stay awake late, makes good food and lets him watch horror movies with her. he’s always scared watching them but evelyn somehow makes it fun. he is a sore loser when he loses to her in monopoly but she makes it up with her apple crumble.

evelyn is a kindergarten teacher who smokes at least three cigarettes a day because….children are crazy but she loves them despite that. fred? doing gods know what type of illegal work while working as a tattoo artist. he might be overprotective but then again, alice noone was their bloody mother. maybe the streets made him a bit paranoid.

after mike once showed up in san fransisco, evelyn packed her shit and sought out the safest small city that there was. and she choose charming. the name was funny, it’s a small town and fairly in the middle of california.

is she aware of samcro? kind of, she actually doesn’t care. she doesn’t want to get involved with them. evelyn found an apartment that was right above a bakery owned by a sweet old lady. she became a kindergarten teacher again.

beep boop the girl is trouble and pretty. evelyn can act. she likes to fuck around and find out. not with samcro or any other guy who might be dangerous looking. not after mike. but her trauma is healed and she lives with her emotional support cat, mikkel. she loves mikkel and he loves her.

will she get involved with samcro? definitely. cuz some pretty boys who are part of samcro have laid their eyes upon her and she on them.

mixtape;;

Ach so gern ; lindemann

Never let me down again ; depeche mode

BIKINI GRELL ; ikkimel.

Susanne zur Freiheit; fischmob

This is America ; childish gambino

Cocky Af & Big Ole Freak ; Megan Thee Stallion

My Girlfriend’s Girlfriend ; Type O Negative

And my fav crack song ;

1000 shots ; wendigo, solsa & rxknephew

Inspired by the lovely @katmikaelsendevotee

Tag List : @salemisha , @sozhuo , @snoopysites , @briiverse , @miainbetween , @velvetbeeez

[folerdetdufoler]

Hi, I wrote my first evak fic in early 2023, before that I had been an avid reader for years. I know the fandom is a little quiet but there's this hardcore group of writers and readers that seem to have been around since the start and all know (of) each other. I don't know how to word this without sounding envious but it seems to me that group doesn't really read, comment on, give kudos or support new fics outside of their little circle. I want to believe it's a time issue but I have to say it comes across cliquey and a little hurtful. I really hope I am just being an insecure baby but I would be so happy if the established and popular writers would give me feedback and leave comments.

hiya! congratulations on writing and posting! i know it can be a big, scary jump from reading to writing and sharing, so applause for that in the first place.

i'm sorry your contributions to the fandom haven't been received the way you'd like them to be. if i'm included in this group of writers and readers, then, well my reasons for not reading/commenting/supporting are possibly going to be more hurtful than what you're already experiencing! i've whined about it years ago (first here, then here), and unfortunately it all still stands, because i have done absolutely zero work on bettering myself as a human being. i think i've read a handful of fics, mostly because they've been sent to me directly, with someone asking for my thoughts, and i managed to put in the effort to read it and offer a polite response. but there are also a bunch of fics that have been shared with me that i haven't read, even when i've said i would. i'm sorry if you have specifically done this with me in the past, because i have not treated your work, your creativity, with the respect it deserves.

i can't speak for anyone else, on how they choose to spend their time reading or writing, or the relationships they have with other fans. on the one active skam discord i'm in, i think a lot of them know each other from other fandoms, or have different relationships beyond writing/reading skam fic. also, as skam fades, people might only have the bandwidth for enjoying and supporting fanworks from established relationships, the same way you still want to support a favorite author even when you or they have changed genres or whatever.

but in reality i don't know the group where this is happening or why. i agree, it would be nice to receive more readers and commenters in general, and being jealous of the attention other people receive is natural. but i don't know how to change your relationship with that group, or my relationship with reading & supporting.

[wisted-twonderland]

it’s going well

pt 1

[nekrosmos]

I think it's really cool that you share your art even when you're not quite feeling it or leave stuff up when you regret posting. It's a nice reminder that not everything has to be perfect and people will still enjoy stuff when the artist has doubts. idk I find it encouraging in a way But also sending vibes that your next piece won't be one of those and you'll get to be happy with it

That is a very sweet thing to say, thank you! Like I don't know, your ask made me think about the reasons why I do post the drawings I'm not super happy about etc. I think it comes down to a few things:

1: I'm stubborn and if I've spent time on a drawing, I want to publish it so that I feel like I didn't waste my time drawing it.

2: I always think about my favorite artists and how sometimes they post things they're unsure of, and how those pieces end up being some of my favorite. Just because I'm not personally happy with it doesn't mean other people won't love it. Like you said, not everything has to be perfect !

3: This part is the part I'm working on the most, but sometimes I just feel like I need to keep posting constantly, even if I'm not super happy with what I'm making. As much as I would like to say that I draw for myself only and for no other reasons, truth be told, sometimes I like getting feedback on my art, I love seeing big numbers next to my art, and I attach my worth to my art a lot (in a "if I keep making art, people will like me, right?" kind of way), which isn't a good thing to do. I'm getting better at not caring about the numbers though, even if it's tough. Balancing creativity and social medias isn't always easy.

Sorry for the ramblings, I just think it's good for us creative minds to be honest with ourselves and everyone else sometimes ! Especially since most of us struggle with this kind of thoughts, and social medias can be extremely alienating in the way that we only see the best version of everyone. It makes it easy to forget that we all face the same struggles.

Either way, I appreciate your good vibes and I'm happy to say that my next piece is going very well! Thank you for being lovely ❤️🫶

[arolesbianism]

I’ve been having a rough few days, but I’ve been feeling a bit better so I decided to make some lil thingies for some spiraling upwards kitties :3

[shoujosoulsite]

⊹ ࣪ ˖ 20 REASONS WHY IM RESPAWNING (to my waiting room — hate filled ). Part one

I absolutely hate the way I turned out. Like from my looks to my mind— I fucking hate it all! This bitch ass void vessel cannot be me and I won’t allow it to be me. I want to be someone I love, someone actually lovable… I just need a whole new restart

2. School. Now don’t get me wrong, I understand how privileged I am with having a good education but holy shit the people of my school and the horrendous amount of work just pisses me off

3. I don’t have any friends really. I only have one that I can consider a genuine friend but I rarely talk to them due to us having separate classes.

4. To be actually happy and excited when waking up in the morning

5. Finally can stop being miserable and angry about this shitty world

6. Be with my soulmate and start a new life with them

7. Actually having a promising future

8. The concerning growth of lack of kindness and empathy in this fuck ass generation

9. The rise of misogyny, racism(especially against black and south Asian people), and homophobia in society

10. The current state of America and the world in general

11. Pornography and the rise of porn addiction in BOTH (yes both) men and women. Look I’m not at all against erotic media, especially nicely made books, x listener audios, and art (not promoting anything disgusting like rape ofc ) but you can not deny the fact that the porn industry is fucking disgusting if you just look into and think for a minute. And this is coming from someone that’s hypersexual (which is due to the exposure of porn at a young age)

12. Can hopefully travel, go outside, and have fun (especially as fem) and not worry about being fucking kidnapped, stalked, violated, and etc.

13. Not to be around of people annoying my ass 24/7

14. Can freely practice and get into stuff like spirituality and witchcrafts without worry and with all the materials I can get

15. Can actually be in a loving and genuine relationship (this is not just romantic but this can go platonic!)

16. The men of this reality…not to go full blown misandrist but I’m convinced a insane amount of men genuinely hate women to subconscious level because AINT no way bruh 😭

17. I don’t want to be in a world where I know that innocent families, especially children ( example : Palestine ) are dying and suffering and I can’t do anything about it.

18. I don’t have to worry about my responsibilities of this world no more

19. The disgusting rise of rape culture, especially online (increase of victim blaming, rape jokes, not taking male Sa victims seriously, threats, abortion ban, etc)

20. I just simply want to 💀

[avelera]

I actually really love Mel/Jayce/Viktor as well as Jayce//Viktor and I actually think the show has a couple scenes that lend to a poly interpretation of the three of them (Mel and Jayce both literally handling Viktor’s crutch between them while talking about how much they care for him, hello?? The subtext writes itself) but I found myself staying focused on just Jayce/Viktor at first because it’s a bit simpler to write and because as much as I LOVE the implied moments of their intellectual, ambiguously romantic threesome, I’d need more of Mel and Viktor interacting to really close the loop for shipping it in my mind. As it is, it feels a bit more “This is Mel’s boyfriend, Jayce, and Jayce’s boyfriend Viktor” that Mel still cares about and respects mostly from afar.

I also think that Viktor and Jayce kind of left their relationship at “we’re partners in every sense of the word, why define it further?” And that definition maybe included romantic and sexual moments (at least for fic writer purposes lol) but the fear of losing the amazing working relationship they had, which is so rare in the academic world, kept them from seriously “defining” it as anything official on the person front, which allowed Jayce to take up with Mel without it being “cheating”.

Throw into that the rapid advancement of Viktor’s illness and I can easily see a scenario where Viktor didn’t force the issue and indeed, was happy to see that Jayce had someone else who loved him in his life, knowing he didn’t have much time left and it would take a miracle to save his own life. Basically, I don’t see Viktor as jealous of Mel as a person, even if he was wary / resigned towards Jayce’s political career and would have rather have had him in the lab more often.

There was a happy medium there, I think, where Jayce was happily balanced between the two of them without jealousy from either that the accelerating events of S1 basically prohibited as the crises began to unfold, forcing Jayce into the conflict with Zaun, and Zaun had always been a point of miscommunication and later tension between Viktor and Jayce. An inevitable one I think, since Jayce couldn’t possibly know what it was like to grow up there, and in the course of their work it probably only rarely came up and so wasn’t daily addressed until the crisis made it an ugly conflict between them.

Anyway, I’m mostly just rambling as I think my way through how I write Jayce and Viktor in the fic I’m finishing up. But mostly I wanted to make the point that I see Jayce’s relationship with Mel as real and important and not “getting in the way” of his relationship with Viktor indeed, Viktor and Mel at least seem mature enough to navigate a poly relationship and Jayce has a lot of love to give (he loves SO MUCH guys I’m emotional about it, he’s just a good kid who ended up in a shitty complex situation that went way over his head. Bro didn’t even know if his school OFFERED military history, he was such an easy target and this is why STEM kids need an introduction to liberal arts I swear).

I don’t think S2 is headed towards any sort of unambiguous happy ending for the three of them but there’s definitely a happy AU in my heart where the three of them make it work and are better together than just two out of the pair.

[getmeoutofhell]

Slasher House

warnings: cussing, demons, and well ofc, slashers.

a/n: enjoy my little angels!

you don’t know how you ended up here, but here you were, in a shitty house in the middle of no where. also did i mention there’s a bunch of psycho killers that live with you?? no? well let me tell you.

freddy, hannibal + will, art + the little girl, vincent, candy man, pin head, bo, bubba, thomas, penny + pennywise, michael, cory, all ghostfaces, jason, chucky, tiffany, carrie, jennifer, anabelle, patrick, crepper, valak, the crooked man, and the babadook somehow lived here.

well, bubba & thomas don’t live with you, but about an hour or so away. the come visit on saturday’s tho, so that’s nice.

about every damn 5 minutes there’s a fight somewhere happening. it’s usually freddy and jason, but sometimes it’s penny and pennywise going at it over something you don’t care to ask about.

sometimes you see art come in and break up the fight, you think it’s cute how he’s always there to help.

hannibal and will have their own stuff to them selves by acquiring their own room and bathroom. they keep their relationship and love live private from you and the rest of the group, but you guys respect it.

sometimes hannibal, will, candy man, and pin head have nice conversations, but will gets bored and leaves them alone.

patrick is everyone’s opp, like literally everyones. hannibal was fighting the urge to eat him as soon as he met him. but you had to beg him not to. freddy really can’t stand him. he said he’s a “proper bitch” which you can agree with somewhat.

now let’s talk about valak. he’s very, very, very sneaky. like, concerning type sneaky. you never hear him, or see him, unless he wants to be seen. he talks, barley. sometimes you see him with anabelle or the crooked man. he sometimes scares you, and he knows.

the babadook on the other hand, he stays hidden, literally. it’s your job to get up everyday and feed him his daily worms, or he gets grumpy and makes the house shake and shit. he kinda only trust you for some odd reason to feed him. you’ll never question it tho.

you sleep in the second floor of this monstrosity of an house. on your floor is freddy, carrie, billy, and stu.

carrie is very sweet, and usually speaks only when spoken to. freddy on the other hand…we all know how he is.

billy and stu, are probably the loudest on your floor. and that’s because they throw fucking party’s in their room with the other ghostfaces. sometimes you’re invited, sometimes not. it depends on billy’s mood that day.

now don’t get me started on the rest of them…

i really wanna start writing this so i hope you guys like it!

[miraclemaya]

art piece within a museum labeled "a story about your life". you go inside, and it's a tablet and a chair. you sit down and look at the tablet. it reads, "you are human. you enjoy art, especially strange and challenging art." it goes on similarly listing vague generalities. just as you being to understand your takeaway from the piece, that we are all broadly similar, or at least more similar then we are different, it states your exact time of birth. perhaps this was the twist, you think, they took your date of birth from when you bought a ticket and used cameras to pick out which date of birth to display. except it keeps going. it recreates bits of your childhood you don't even remember in perfect detail. it is critical of your actions in highschool, and how poorly you treated your first partner.

it keeps on going. it insults you for stealing food from your coworkers, and tells you that your mother wanted to tell you that she was sorry before she died. it writes a detailed, step by step explanation of how you got into this booth this right now, and it's all true.

it keeps on going, telling you of catastrophe. you will die in a year from a stray bullet and after you die the world will go to hell. the worst atrocities now are only the precursor to what is to come. there will be no humans left alive in 50 years from now.

you leave the museum in a rush and get home, sobbing. you spend the last year of your life drinking and destroying your relationships. you scream about the end of the world and no one is listening. you barely manage to hold on to your shitty day job, if only so you can buy more drink.

the appointed day of your death comes and you hear a knock on the door. you have accepted what is coming. you open the door. there is a package. you quickly open it up. it is a poster, a thomas kinkade painting. it has the quote "you never know when you will die, so remember to always live life to the fullest." it is attributed to gandhi.

[willelworld]

thinking about will byers, who’d always been visibly different, forced to conform at a young age by his father- but quickly learns that he doesn’t need to like or do something because people think he should. his mother cherishes his sensitivity, nurtures his kindness, encourages his artistry and love of colorful creations and clothes. his brother tells him he can like whatever he wants, that being a freak is cool and conforming is lame, and that he’ll love him no matter what.

will byers doesn’t pretend to be someone he’s not. he is authentic and open about what he enjoys and how he expresses himself - D&D, art, comic books and games, his clothing and style, his nerdiness - he never treats these as bad things or something to “grow out of”. will has a good idea of who he is, what he likes, and how he expresses this to the world. he never tries to conform due to social pressure, especially not when it comes from his closest friends.

thinking about mike wheeler, whose family voted for reagan, whose father is emotionally absent, and who rarely leans on his family members for support. mike wheeler, who has to be told he likes el in s1, and pushed to say he loves her in s3. who believes the root of his relationship problems is social pressure from “mouthbreathers” rather than his own actions. who is deeply insecure about his usefulness to his friends, and believes the only way his girlfriend will stay with him is if he “just said that one thing” and told her what she wanted to hear.

mike wheeler pretends to not like d&d anymore in s3 to try to “grow up” as he begins a relationship with a girl for the first time. he shows up to california in a silly outfit he thinks will help him fit in, one that’s explicitly called “a shitty knock-off” to his face. he lies his way through a love confession that doesn’t magically save the world like he wanted it to. the first person to tell him that it’s okay to be different and that conformity is harmful dies.

which one of these people sound more likely to have a self-acceptance arc in s5?

[lordprettyflackotara]

Creepypasta Masterlist:

Jeff the killer:

sfw & nsfw general headcannon’s

criminal

—> the one where Jeff robs a bank and you’re the cute bank teller

dollhouse || part two || part three || part four || part five || bonus ||

—> the one where you’re paired with your enemy to complete a mission for slender

did it first || part two

—> the one where jeff is obsessed with you but he doesn’t anticipate you to return the favor

red sex || blurb

—> the one where jeff can’t get enough of seeing you in his favorite color

die for me

—> the one where jeff is an impatient man and wants you now, in the public gas station restroom

Eyeless Jack:

sfw & nsfw general head cannon’s

till dawn || part two || part three || the finale || bonus ||

—> the one where ej needs shelter from the rain and keeps your bed warm in exchange

huntin’ wabbitz

—> the one where you accidentally stumble upon ej’s dinner time, resulting in you being his dessert

whogoesthere? || part two || part three ||

—> the one where jack saves you from a coyote & you offer him a joint as payment

after hours

—> the one in which you usually only see jack during his heats, but he decides he wants you all year round

4 am || blurb

—> the one in which jack can’t get enough of the taste of your period blood

who’s afraid of little old me?

—> the one in which you’re hunting in the slender forest, only to be caught red handed by jack, who is very territorial

make a move

—> the one where you’re a detective tasked with investigating a local cannibalistic serial killer demon

american dream || blurb

—> the one where you realize jack is better then the american dream

BEN Drowned:

video games || blurb

—>the one where you give ben a little payback

professional

—> the one where you’re ben’s favorite cam girl

mr.take your bitch || blurb

—> the one where ben wants you all to himself

Proxies:

holding the gun || hoodie

—> the one where you’re a proxy on a mission with hoodie and things get a bit heated on the way back home

betrayed || masky

—> the one where you betrayed masky and he’s not going to let you forget it

decode || ticci toby / two

—> the one where toby saves you from a bear and you can’t get him out of your head

the perfect pair || masky || blurb

—> the one where you’re the perfect partner for masky

freaky friday || the proxies || blurb

—> the one where you’re having a late night smoking session with your boys

dance with the devil || ticci toby & kate the chaser

—> the one where you’ve been kidnapped and kate offers you something you can’t refuse

blue || masky

—> the one where you’re tim wrights girlfriend and he comes to say goodbye after becoming a proxy

6 inch heels || the proxies

—> the one where it’s toby’s birthday and is taken out to a strip club to celebrate

deja vu || hoodie

—> the one where you know hoodie somehow, but you just can’t explain it

what a heavenly way to die || the proxies

—> the one where the four of you are stranded in a snow storm and there’s only one way to stay warm

crown || ticci toby

—> the one where toby comforts you after a shitty breakup (fluff)

The Bloody Painter:

habits

—> the one where your abusive relationship with your boyfriend intrigues helen, causing him to become obsessed with you

art deco || blurb

—> the one where helen needs one more orgasm from you and his paintbrush is going to help him get it

hostage

—> the one where helen kidnaps you and you become his more then willing hostage

Bonus features:

forgot about jack || eyeless jack & jeff the killer

—> the one where you’re a newspaper editor who makes a story about the boys kills belonging to an eyeless jill and jane the killer, resulting in an angry eyeless jack & jeff the killer showing up at your door.

𝓕𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴𝓵𝔂pasta / 𝓕𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴𝓵𝔂mansion au:

noise w / masky / hoodie / toby / eyeless jack / ben drowned / jeff the killer & ben drowned / the bloody painter / jane the killer & homicidal liu /

—> the one where you’re the lonely maid forced to work at the slender mansion

danger || masky & eyeless jack

—> the one where you sneak into slender’s forest to see your boyfriend masky, only to find out his secret life was much more than you could imagine. now your life is on the line and masky is willing to give ej anything if it guarantees you can escape alive

world class sinner || jeff the killer & jane the killer

—> the one where jeff and jane are determined to prove they’re better then one another and you’re the perfect person to make that decision

Series:

hitchhiker

masterlist with chapters & links to different platforms is : here

—> the one in which you help the proxies back to civilization by giving them a ride. but little did you know seeing their faces made you a target. one that needed to be eliminated.

[gatorbites-imagines]

hiiiii!

may i request a poly ghost face x male reader who has anger issues(but he's such a bottom its sickening) and like his anger issues make people think he's all tough and he's been to like psychiatric hospitals for seriously hurting people and its times to renew his medicine but the doctor is out or they don't have his medicine in stock, so for the next week he has to go without medication and he gets into multiple physical fights and by the end of the week he like breaks down and is like "i don't wanna be angry all the time" which leads to a sweet cuddle session nd praise from billy and stu as reader cries and soon falls asleep

thank you sm!

Billy Loomis x Male reader X Stu Macher

Headcanons

Reader is on the more muscular side in this.

You had a reputation around Woodsboro, as a no fucks, dangerous and angry meathead. It mainly stemmed from the fact that you got into a lot of fights when you were younger, and was sent away to a psychiatric hospital for a while to find the right dose and medicine to give you.

It didn’t help that you lifted weights, worked out, and did different martial arts to help settle the anger that always simmered inside your body. As puberty hit, you shot up like a beanstalk, and you packed on muscle like no one’s business.

Your parents supported you, since having an outlet helped a lot with your anger issues, as long as you took your medicine, which they always made sure was available.

Because of your reputation, no one dares to say anything when you, Billy and Stu start openly dating. People are mostly confused by someone as popular and attractive as Billy and Stu would wanna go out with someone as rough and off-putting, in their eyes, as you.

Your boyfriends love you very much though, and they don’t mind your tendency to resort to anger quicker than most. Billy probably finds it hot to be honest, and Stu always likes to lay on your bed and watch as you lift weights in one of you tank tops.

I can honestly see Billy pushing your buttons just enough to make a vein pop and for you to pin him down, just for him to smirk and wrap his legs around your waist. Hes a little shit, and likes the thrill, what can I say.

Stu has definitely made comments about how if you need an outlet, he doesn’t mind help you out, if you know what I mean ;) ;)

You always just roll your eyes and go for a run to cool off, or do some other hobby your therapist and psychologist recommended, like gardening, journaling or coloring.

Your week starts of shitty, when you run out of your meds. Your parents take you to your doctor to get a new dose, but they’re all out and don’t know what they’ll get their next shipment.

They promise to get in contact with you as soon as they have it, and you get sent on your way, arriving at school later in the day than normal.

The first day or two is fine, since your last dose is still in your system, but when that runs out you start getting agitated. You grind your teeth and crack your fingers, feeling fidgety and so annoyed and angry by everything.

Literally everything pisses you off, from the way people chew gum, to how loudly people close their lockers, or how people cut in front of you in line in the cafeteria.

Billy is the first to notice how tense and agitated you are, as you prowl around like a caged tiger, glaring at everyone and everything. Stu notices not long after when you just grumble and mutter when he tries to play flirt with you or wrap his arm around you.

You get into multiple fights that week, from someone calling Stu and Billy a slur because you three are openly in a relationship, to a guy who bumper checked you on the way to school.

Normally Billy and Stu would enjoy the show of strength and how hot you look, but they can both see how miserable it makes you feel, especially when you are sent home and suspended for an entire week.

When you return home, you stomp upstairs into your room and throw off your jacket and shirt and just get to work lifting weights until everything hurts, and even then, you don’t stop.

Normally lifting weights help at least take the edge off, but nothing is working, only frustrating you more and making you even more angry. It reaches the point where you just wanna cry from how angry you are.

You don’t even notice how you’ve been at it for hours until Billy and Stu arrive and see you hunched over with a dumbbell, arms shaking from how far you’ve pushed yourself.

You are just scowling though, barring your teeth as you push yourself harder and harder, eyes shiny from unshed tears and very dehydrated from working yourself so hard.

Billy goes off to get you something to drink, some clean clothes and a wet washcloth, as Stu goes about getting the weight out of your hand and making sure you are at least okay. When he asks if you are okay, it just all spills over.

You start sobbing and shaking with anger and misery, crying into Stus shoulder as Billy returns. He puts the things he brought aside, and they just hold you as you cry, choking out how you just don’t wanna be so angry anymore, how everything hurts and nothing helps.

Your two lovers just hold you through it, letting you get out as much as you need, before they sit you up and Billy wipes you down with the wet cloth, and Stu gets you to drink the entire water bottle Billy brought to get you hydrated.

Stu holds you again as Billy gets the bed ready, and they pull you under the sheets as they cuddle up on either side of you, keeping you between them as they hold you close.

Because sure, they find your anger hot, but they hate how much pain it causes you. Cue lots of sweet cuddles and kisses from both, but the kisses are mostly from Stu as Billy mumbles all kinds of praise and compliments into your ear from behind.

I could imagine them also massaging your arms because of how hard you strained them, and their combined love and attention makes the anger lessen. It doesn’t go away, it never does, but it’s enough to knock you out.

The hours of working out, a week full of stress, and dehydration quickly knocks you out, putting you to sleep between Billy and Stu as they just hold you.

They know they cant make your problems go away, even though they wish they could, but they will stay by your side the entire way, and will never let you struggle alone.

[sharonccrter]

I saw this really interesting video, which talked about my two biggest gripes with challengers' discourse. Which are that everyone keeps saying Art is the heart of this movie, and secondly, the insistence that Patrick doesn't love Tashi, only Art. The creator pushes back against these two narratives, and I wholeheartedly agree. Patrick is arguably the heart of this movie.

Two of the most important scenes in the movie are the churro scene and the scene between p/t out in the storm, and they both centre around Patrick.

The entire movie is about passion and purpose in life, and Patrick is the passion.

I mean, a lot of people assume Patrick didn't really have feelings for Tashi, but the only person who says that is Art. Who is vying for Tashi and is his biggest competitor. The reason I empathise with Patrick is that he is genuine and loving to Art; he does love him. However, we are shown no evidence to suggest that Patrick is this shitty boyfriend, apart from what Art says when he's trying to get into Tashi's head because his jealous. We find out that they're talking every week while he's on tour (normal relationship shit). It's Art who insinuates that Patrick is cheating while on tour. The only person in this movie who says Patrick doesn't love Tashi is Art, and it's obviously very intentional.

I think the reason both Tashi and Art push Patrick out of their lives is because he forces them to comfort parts of themselves they are not yet comfortable with. I mean, it's obvious why Tashi would react that way to Patrick; she's just lost the most important thing in her life. However, I think it's tragic from Patrick's point of view as well. I mean, what did Patrick really do? He got into a fight with his girlfriend because she hurt his feelings.

And no, he's hurt was not about Art. The fight made him feel unimportant, which made him feel like she didn't actually care about him. And that's where Art comes in, because who was going around telling Patrick Tashi didn't give a shit? You bet ya. Art. Art absolutely got into his head. And even if he clocked it, in that moment, he still allowed it to get to him because he was emotional and upset. And because he was too hurt to support her, he was thrown out of Tashi and Art's lives.

And here's the thing, Patrick never saw Tashi as an idea. He saw her as a real person, unlike Art kinda did. Patrick wasn't going to let Tashi treat him like shit just because she was special. And, tbh, if Tashi hadn't gotten injured, I think it's something she would have eventually been grateful for. But instead, she got hurt; she pushed Patrick away, and Art slid into his place, telling her that she could be his entire world and the star. That's not healthy, and sorry to stay a little manipulative.

And let's talk about Art. Patrick and him were literally fire and ice. They always had this underlying desire. They were perfect opposites. Let's face it: Art could never replicate what he had on the court (and off) with anyone else. But instead of confronting his feelings, he took the first chance he had to get Patrick out of his life.

The girl I was watching said it perfectly, "Art and Tashi allowed themselves to find consolation prizes in each other and allowed them to run from parts of themselves they didn't want to comfort and in turn enable each other's worst habits."

Art tries to become a tennis superstar so Tashi can live through him, and Tashi gives him a family so he can finally be confident in who he is. But is there any passion? I don't know; I think at some point, it drained; nothing about what I saw on screen apart from their initial get-together screams passion.

Cue Patrick walking back into their life and showing them how they can feel. Art was always going to let Tashi live through him, but that was never going to be satisfying for her. Tashi needs to find a way to create an identity for herself, separate from him. And I believe it'll be the only way she'll live a satisfying life. That's why they need Patrick: to make them realise that and to help them rediscover their passion.

I think people think that Art is the heart because Patrick admits to being a piece of shit. But the truth is, they're all dicks; Patrick was just the only one who was willing to admit it.

[nightcolorz]

always thinking about the development of abed and Brittas dynamic. Pov ur Britta and ur starting community collage and u meet a visibly autistic guy in ur Spanish one class and when ur introduced to him u can’t help but think of ur older brother who works with autistic kids and u wonder if ur capable of making positive change in someone’s life the way he does or if ur always going to fuck everything up like everyone says u do, and u befriend this autistic guy in ur Spanish class who realize as u soon become close friends rlly needs a type of daily support that he isn’t and has never been accommodated with and ur like wow, sad, what if I can be the support he needs, and obviously you can’t, bcus ur one person and also u know nothing about autism and also this random man from ur Spanish one class has an acute mission to push u into emotional despair bcus ur earnest desire to help him bcus of ur personal internal conflict combined with ur huge amount of ignorance reminds him of his mother and he wants to consciously emulate his relationship with her with u so that he can use footage of u to make a shitty art film about his childhood trauma and that’s when u realize that u aren’t ur brother and also are stupid asf to think that u can be like ur brother for ur adult friend who is low key having some form of psychotic episode but even still you’ve grown to love this autistic Man U met at ur Spanish one class and it breaks ur heart everyday that u will never be enough to meet his neglected emotional needs so u decide to become a psychology major so that maybe one day u will be adequate enough to do this right, bcus rlly u have a lot of unaddressed existential terror that the world is a cruel unjust place that u are too insignificant to do anything about and it fills the hole in ur heart a little to feel like u are making an impact in at least one vulnerable persons life, but ultimately ur an ignorant and self centered collage student and ur autistic friend from Spanish one loves to remind u that u are not enough and ur attempts to help him will only ever backfire or register to him as infantilizing condescension and as u try to therapize ur adult friend u become the one getting therapied as he turns every attempt of urs on its head so that now u are the one being confronted by ur own psychological problems which eventually come to a head when he comforts u about ur own failure while he’s having a hallucinatory psychotic episode prompted by his mom giving up on him where he tells u in song form that you are “broken” bcus u desperately want to help people but u lack the tools to make any positive change and u cry a whole lot about this bcus from now forward u are forced to reckon with the reality that u are not qualified to fix ur disabled friend bcus ur a psychology student in collage and he has autism and psychosis and childhood trauma and all u can rlly do about that is be a good friend and an adult about it and also accept that ur disabled friend is just as much of a person and an adult as you are and u cant violate his autonomy by using him as a tool for ur own self betterment and now u don’t use ur baby voice on him quite as much bcus you’ve learned that ur friend is going to psychologically torture the shit out of u if u try to be his mom so instead u set ur sights on being his collage friend who he can talk shit with and such and everyone’s just going to try their best

Then pov ur abed and ur like lol. Britta is Talking to me Like im five. What if I stop talking to her to emulate my childhood speech delay so that she’s forced to deal with the burden my mom did and she leaves me like everyone else does so I can make a movie about it. Oops she’s still here. Well, her romantic subplots would make rlly good sitcom storylines in the tv show that is my life. 🍜🍜🍜🍜🍜coolcoll

[itficlibrary]

This week’s theme is lesbian reddie!

the following are recs for fics that focus on genderbent reddie! remember to check tags & comment on your faves!

look at us (you and me back at it again) by @beeprich (4.9k words)

richie and eddie are much to their anguish on the same soccer team after a super messy friendship(ish) breakup, and hash things out via locker room hook up. featuring slap fights, bags by clairo and make up sex in the most literal sense.

they’re putting up reindeer by thebridgesandtunnels (8k words)

a wonderfully in character festive slice of life wherein eddie sees richie for the first time after derry, against the obstacles that are Santacon in New York City and richie accidentally slicing her hand open. featuring eddie’s horrible marriage (husband edition), a dash of jealous eddie and a side order of benverly drama.

CAUTION: swim (and discover you are very, incredibly gay for your best friend in 1993) at your own risk by geicogecko (@dollarstoreartsupplies) (2.7k words)

quick & adorable oneshot that’s perfect for going into summer! a very repressed eddie gets clobbered over the head by her attraction to richie one day while they’re swimming at the quarry together, and duly freaks out. featuring an awkward & brace-faced but beautiful to eddie richie, intense pining and fun silly teenage shenanigans.

the summer's out of reach by evewithanapple (18.1k words)

a super angsty study of richie’s terrible tenth grade to give you an ache in your chest, wherein the bathroom stall graffiti kickstarts a spiral about her identity and feelings for eddie. featuring lots of fun horror literature references, bevchie best friendship and a highly realistic look at the nerdy teen lesbian experience. (vouch…)

Richie Tozier: Talking About Nothing by z_zz (2.4K words)

One of Richie’s comedy sets that’s pretty much all about her relationship with Eddie, which is equally sweet as it is funny. Featuring gorgeous art at the end, a super believable fem!richie voice, and the canon lesbian event of hacking all your dolls’ hair off.

dreams are reality just waiting to happen by @whenhidden (9.6k)

a delightful study of eddie’s adult life in the closet, as she starts having vague dreams about her childhood and questioning herself after (unknowingly) reuniting with richie. featuring eddie being mysteriously obsessed with richie’s shitty comedy shows, identity affirming haircuts and soft, healing love.

give me a boost over heaven's gate by skyebyrd (3.9k words)

richie is turned on to a pavlovian degree by this one red lipstick eddie wears, and has to survive an event whilst she’s wearing it without imploding. featuring good-with-cars eddie and very-into-it richie, femme top eddie x butch bottom richie, and a drag king bev cameo.

i feel like a waterfall by missbenzedrine (4.2k words)

eddie takes richie on a snowy cabin vacation for her birthday, where they have very sweet birthday sex! featuring the messy affair -> soft domesticity pipeline, eddie reading ‘strap for dummies’ and some jealous, insecure eddie moments.

i'll give it all into your hands by missbenzedrine (2.9k words)

wherein richie hates exercising but is successfully persuaded to go on a run with eddie via the promise of shower sex afterwards. featuring hot mess unfit richie, richie being absolutely weak at the knees for eddie, and the two of them sweet-talking each other nonstop.

maybe im a crook by missbenzedrine (6.8k words)

an exploration of a full blown reddie affair, while eddie is still married to marvin (genderbent myra). featuring richie’s fifteen-year-old-lesbian fashion sense, eddie’s intense guilt & struggles with being unfaithful and a sweet, comforting ending.

that teenage feeling! by fredastaire ( @it2017 )(50k words) 

an amazing coming of age fic about trans female Eddie discovering herself! This is an AMAZING slow burn fic about finding out who you truly are, and it was our first thought when we were thinking of fics to include in this list! The author has such a way with words, and this entire fic feels more like an extended poem than just a piece of longform writing! 

How Does My Body Look in This Light? By GreendaleHumanBeing (27.8k words)

 A wonderfully in character look into Richie and Eddie getting together after meeting at a medical marijuana dispensary. The banter in this fic is amazing, and you’ll be hanging on every single word! 

 accidentally self impose by nosecoffee (12.2k words)

This is an amazing hurt/comfort fic set during the missing years between chapter one and chapter two! Eddie and Richie meet at a bar, and their relationship evolves over several months from friendship to something more. This fic is also part of a series, and the second installment is just as great! 

Lean To Your Window by Butyoucancallmemeg (3.5k words) 

Super cute fic about Richie and Eddie coming home from college for summer break! This is a wonderful look into college age Reddie, and even though the entire fic is essentially one continuous scene, it takes you around the entirety of Reddie’s relationship, not to mention through Eddie’s journey of self-discovery!

the world you must have crossed by anonymous (6.5k words)

This one’s a hearstopping canon-compliant fic that had me all but clutching my pearls! It’s so in character that I was hanging on every single word, and the way the author writes their relationship and Richie’s point of view in particular is so good! 

I Give My Heart by ithoughtghostsjustfloatedaway (@ithoughtghostsjustfloatedaway)(1.6k words)

An adorable fluffy fic about the Tozier-Kaspbraks on their honeymoon. This one will absolutely melt your heart with its cuteness!  Also, be sure to check out the amazing art that accompanies it! Fun fact: this fic was actually written as part of our Valentine’s Day collab a few months back!

Nightingale by pineapplecrushface (27.9k)

A very robust fic set after the events of chapter two, wherein Eddie has to go through self-discovery, divorce, and rediscovering her feelings all at once. This fic is so in character that it’s beautiful, and the banter between Richie and Eddie is absolutely perfect! 

if i keep digging will i find out who i am? By drakarifire (9k)

An Eddie POV masterpiece wherein Eddie goes to one of Richie’s shows and decides that Enough Is Enough and it’s time for her (and Richie!) to have some guiltless fun. I love the introspection in this one from Eddie, it was very easy to get sucked in to her voice!

Open Like a Door by sheepknitssweater (3.8k words)

An amazing oneshot that features Very Extremely Gay Eddie Kaspbrak appreciating her girlfriend’s existence. This fic is heavy with the author’s style in such a pleasing way, which made it a joy to read! 

and then smiles cover your heart by kissbrak (3.3k words)

Another steamy oneshot featuring Reddie getting it on(™) in the bathroom as a party. The bickering in this one is chef’s kiss!

[kadisiyuswyrd]

my take on the whole illi mcmillin situation. all love.

citations & script below:

[edit: realized this was way better formatted on google docs, so added that as well. the script features sections that were cut for time. may release the "extended version" if people so desire]

The Yassification of "illi McMillin"

This cute little fella is named William McMillin, or illi for short. He worked as a prop designer on the music video for "I'm Not Okay (I Promise)" by My Chemical Romance. Last month, to coincide with their announcement to re-release of their second album, the band released a remastered version of the songs music video. The improved resolution allowed people to see many details that were heretofore illegible, like the fact that the name on Gerard’s failed science test was written "illi McMillin." 

The fandom was extremely normal about this and immediately adopted "illi" as the unofficial name of Gerard's character in the music video, and in a very tumblr ass move, decided to head canon illi as a trans woman. This renewed attention to the video sparked an ongoing wave of fanart, fanfiction, and fan discourse. Given MCR's storied history with the queer community and Gerard's established indifference to people using him for various…creative outlets the yassification of illi McMillin was not at all a surprising or even unwelcome development. I mean look at this great fanart!

That being said, there’s aspects of the fandom’s reaction to this that I find invasive and potentially harmful.

For one it feels kinda shitty that the real life illi McMillin has had his name used in this way. I know that’s an inevitable byproduct of being a person on the Internet, but there's something scary about the ways in which various aspects of ourselves can become a part of the public domain and get transformed in ways we cannot and do not sanction.

Secondly, it's hard to separate people's very passionate assertion that Gerard was definitely playing a trans woman in this video from the fandom's unhealthy obsession with Gerard's sexuality and gender identity, especially since his crossdressing during the reunion tour8. 

Gerard has talked openly about his relationship with gender, but has been consistently reluctant to explicitly categorize himself, which has caused confusion, anger, and a lot of assumptions to be made about how everyone's favorite emo babygirl identifies. Frankly, Gerard's gender identity is none of our business, and it's irrelevant to his status as a queer ally and extremely talented artist. We should respect people’s unwillingness to define themselves as much as we respect their decision to redefine themselves. To not do so, to unironically force a label on Gerard, even a queer one, is a conscious rejection of his own sentiments and agency. Maybe that's not always a bad thing, but it sure does give me the ick, sometimes.

The hububb around "illi" seems like yet another way in which people's desire to take ownership over Gerard's identity has manifested. A similar situation occurred with Gerard's Party Poison persona, with many holding the misconception that the character is canonically nonbinary even though this is not indicated in any of the songs, the comics, or Gerard's own statements. You can have whatever headcanon you want, just don't act as though they're official because all that does is lead to wild misinformation about the original work. Yes, the author is dead but don't parade their corpse like a marionette and act as though you can spout your own opinions through them. Corpses are people, too, you know. 

I don’t want to disparage people who have been having fun interpreting "illi" as transfemme because that’s really just a manifestation of their desire to see themselves in the art they love, and that's completely valid. In the current political climate, there's a much greater need for queer (and specifically trans) visibility in all spaces, but let's not turn that desire into a justification for ignoring or overwriting people's identities. 

I have a lot more to say about the ways in which queerness is forced to interact with heteronormative society in ways that are often reductive, but that is a conversation for another day. For now, my friends, have fun, be gay, be queer and be nice to each other.

Citations:

Music:

midnight burger joint - louie zong

bodega on the corner - louie zong

witch (unreleased) - my chemical romance

William "illi" McMillin:

1 - William McMillin (illiart). (May, 2025). "💛" Instagram. https://www.instagram.com/p/DJLJZyPN2vJ/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link&igsh=MzRlODBiNWFlZA== 

2 - @mychemicalprops. (April, 2025). the discovery of illi McMillin. tumblr. https://www.tumblr.com/mychemicalprops/780868882564022272/i-feel-like-i-should-let-you-all-know-that-william?source=share 

3 - @frankieroloml. (April, 2025). the discovery of illi McMillin pt.2. tumblr. https://www.tumblr.com/frankieroloml/781210724511989760/hi-ive-never-used-tumblr-before-but-i-made-an?source=share 

4 - My Chemical Romance. (February, 2010; Updated c. April 2025). My Chemical Romance - I'm Not Okay (I Promise) [Official Music Video - 4K Film Restored]. YouTube. https://youtu.be/dhZTNgAs4Fc 

5 - My Chemical Romance. My Chemical Romance - Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge (Deluxe Edition Unboxing). YouTube, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M6NNwbFMEeU&ab_channel=MyChemicalRomance 

Relevant Gerard Tweets & Comments:

6 - Gerard Way. (April, 2016). "Some people are saying that my new identity reminds them of a fanfic. I'm ok with that. I made peace with fanfic long ago." Twitter / X. https://x.com/gerardway/status/725081637092872192 

7 - Gerard Way. (April, 2016). "Enjoy your fic. Write one about me in a human centipede with escape the fate. idgaf." https://x.com/gerardway/status/725081957730635776 

8 - James Factora. (October, 2022). Gerard Way in a Cheerleader Outfit Hoisting a Flamethrower Is an Immaculate Vibe | Them. Them. https://www.them.us/story/gerard-way-cheerleader-flamethrower-my-chemical-romance 

9 - Gerard Way. (2014). "Wow! I'm so glad that helped in figuring out your gender identity…" Reddit. https://www.reddit.com/r/IAmA/comments/2i1840/comment/ckxxnb7/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=web3x&utm_name=web3xcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button 

10 - Gerard Way. (April, 2015). "when people want to define your sexuality." https://x.com/gerardway/status/592480071216189441?lang=en 

Party Poison Non-Binary Misconception: 

11 - Tree the Silly. (August, 2024). "This person canonically uses they/them pronouns and is gender neutral. Just give up on enforcing your stupid unkind beliefs and let this page be accurate." Fandom.  https://danger-days.fandom.com/wiki/Party_Poison?commentId=4400000000000055229 

12 - LunarGateway. (February, 2022). "Party Poison is canonically gender neutral and uses they/them. Y'all need to update this page or someone else is gonna make a whole new one that isn't garbage lmao That is, if they haven't already, but I'm pretty sure they have." Fandom.

13 - Killjoy History Archive. (Retrieved May 2025). Common Misconceptions About Danger Days. tumblr. https://killjoyhistoryarchive.tumblr.com/misconceptions 

14 - Gerard Way. (April, 2015). "Been seeing people refer to the character 'Party Poison' as non-binary.I find this interesting- is this drawn from their gender expression?" https://x.com/gerardway/status/590960413006663681 

15 - Gerard Way. (April, 2015). "It seems to be people's interperetation [sic] of the character, not mine specifically. I'm just curious about it." https://x.com/gerardway/status/590960881132900352 

Posts Referenced / Included:

illi Trans Girl Fanart:

@fourbt. (April, 2025). Goings on About Town illi. tumblr. https://www.tumblr.com/fourbt/781074360951799808?source=share 

@cherry-fucking-venom. (April, 2025). the silly. tumblr. https://www.tumblr.com/cherry-fucking-venom/781356314447298560/doodled-the-silly?source=share 

@kiataika. (April, 2025). blood stained illi. tumblr. https://www.tumblr.com/kiataika/781167494343819264/shes-back?source=share 

@umberpinki. (April, 2025). coolest girl. tumblr. https://www.tumblr.com/umberpinki/780910754678325248/coolest-girl-a-loser-actually?source=share 

@brainfreeze27. (April, 2025). master of the wicket. tumblr. https://www.tumblr.com/brainfreeze27/781194531730227200/birdgee-fanart-birdgee-fanart-prints?source=share 

@mercining. (April, 2025). illi & frank. tumblr. https://www.tumblr.com/mercining/780929345939243008?source=share 

@cordspaghetti. (April, 2025). "sending illi & friends to the Big Dance…!!!"  https://www.tumblr.com/cordspaghetti/782285005341835264/sending-illi-friends-to-the-big-dance?source=share  

@the-ria. (May, 2025). miku, illi, & ray. tumblr. https://www.tumblr.com/the-ria/782451064330911744/i-cant-believe-that-it-took-us-20-years-and-a-4k?source=share 

illi-Related Gay Panic:

@raryrardshipper. (April, 2025). "I just found out that HER name is illi mcmillin SHES A TEENAGE GIRL." tumblr. https://www.tumblr.com/rayrardshipper/780740781905510400/i-just-found-out-that-her-name-is-illi-mcmillin?source=share 

@goremipsum. (April, 2025). "i love illi mcmillin. she's a girl. she's a boy…" https://www.tumblr.com/goremipsum/781076625616928768/i-love-illi-mcmillin-shes-a-girl-shes-a-boy?source=share 

@pissworm39. (April, 2025). "the mcr fandom is so funny to me. cuz what do you mean that in the span of 3 days we all just created an oc based off a 20 year old music video upon finding out the name of a singular character" tumblr. https://pissworm39.tumblr.com/post/780793042944819200/the-mcr-fandom-is-so-funny-to-me-cuz-what-do-you 

@lichencoatedboulder. (April, 2025). transfem / transmasc. tumblr. https://www.tumblr.com/lichencoatedboulder/781020931753689088/i-love-seeing-people-call-illi-mcmillin-both 

@br1ng-out-th3-old-gu1llot1ne. (April, 2025). "illi mcmillin is truly a unique character..." tumblr. https://www.tumblr.com/br1ng-out-th3-old-gu1llot1ne/781072607357386752/illi-mcmillin-is-truly-a-unique-character-a 

@zizzle2727. (May, 2025). genderbent. tumblr. https://www.tumblr.com/zizzle2727/782632885210447872/shoutout-to-illi-mcmillan-for-making-me-feel 

@corpsephrog. (April, 2025). R.I.P illi. tumblr. https://www.tumblr.com/corpsephrog/781124887322460160/rest-in-peace-illi-mcmillin-you-would-have-loved 

@lolomustdie. (April, 2025). feels illegal. tumblr. https://www.tumblr.com/demolition-widow/780757036239667200/it-actually-feels-illegal-to-call-illi-by-hehim 

@micmustdie. (April, 2025). the illi situation. Twitter / X. https://x.com/micmustdie/status/1912980682810515720 

@ashbeanss. (April, 2025). interpretation. tumblr. https://www.tumblr.com/ashbeanss/780751418452836352/is-this-the-right-time-to-say-that-i-think-illi-as?source=share