#without getting too overwhelmed

[starry-bi-sky]

on a completely separate note; shizun luo binghe with a disciple shen yuan who fell into the abyss??? *thinks about LBH canonically stealing SQQ's corpse for 5 years* he'd hallucinate i think. like, like visual and audial hallucinations.

Keeps thinking he's seeing SQQ in the corner of his eyes, or wandering between the trees, amongst a group of disciples. Thinks he hears him calling for him, but its just the wind or another disciple.

Gets Xiu Ya reforged but patently fucking refuses to make a sword mound. Because his disciple Is Not Dead :))) There was No Body. He's Not Dead. And If You keep Insisting That He Is, He's Gonna Skewer You :). He's holding onto Xiu Ya so he can return his most favored disciple's sword when he returns. It's on his hip right next to Zheng Yang where it's supposed to be.

Also this motherfucker?? does not sleep btw. He has the image of SQQ, wide eyed and hysterical and standing at the mouth of the abyss burned into his fucking eyelids. Can't use the dreamscape to escape it either because he keeps trying to save him and either he does and it's an incredibly cruel trick to wake up to, or he doesn't and he gets his heart broken in several different pieces again.

There is no convincing this man that Shen Qingqiu is dead. Absolutely nothing at all. He is buried so deep in denial that moles would be jealous of how deep he is. He keeps making tea for two in the bamboo house only to remember that it's just him. SQQ's fans are hiding everywhere, little reminders of his presence. He goes to wake up SQQ on the mornings he sleeps in-- only to find the room empty.

[chimerafeathers]

i love that isafrin can be the most straightforwardly romancey, wholesome pairing on a surface level and then you go one (1) level deeper and run into siffrin’s seething guilt and convoluted feelings around touch and intimacy and the extent to which they want or don’t want those things in a specifically romantic way or if he was trying to seek connection and love in any way he could once he knew that Isabeau wanted those things from him in that context, and the combined power trip/self disgust at “manipulating” Isabeau’s desires without his knowledge to make themself feel wanted and in control. and then you keep going and there’s also Isabeau’s own warped self image (still, in spite of all his changes, fearing that he’s someone that would be shameful to know), his “emotionally stable pillar” role and self-taught therapy talk masking his deep fears of real confrontation (struggling loop after loop to confess, not wanting Odile to confront Siffrin about their weird behavior in the sus quest bathroom talk) and how Siffrin’s fear of vulnerability and Isabeau’s fear of Pushing Too Hard allow both of their issues to fester unspoken long after it’s clear that the problems exist.

all this to say. duality of isafrin. makes my heart full and warm and happy to see the sweet, fluffy, silly love and connection between them (mutually romantic or otherwise). and then also. the delicious, delicious complications. gnawing on them like a dog with a beloved bone

[pokemontheywouldhave]

🍉Supporting Palestinian refugees🍉

I do want to support Palestine but with how many asks I got I just couldn't keep up with trying to find out which are genuine and which aren't (something I'm still distraught is a thing). So whenever I get an ask, I'm going to reblog this post with ways that will help Palestinians. Do check out Gazafunds.com which will give you a vetted campaign at random that can be donated to. Also check out Operation Olive Branch's spreadsheet for more ways you can help. There's also the Palestinian Children’s Relief Fund. It's a trusted charity if you'd rather donate to a charity.

If you can't donate for whatever reason, get your daily clicks in :) 🍉🍉🍉

[azudarlings]

john getting a human form but being constantly overstimulated by EVERYTHING from gravity to streetlights to the feeling of having a whole body and not just two limbs and a pair of eyes to the point where being touched feels overwhelming but the constant need to be close to arthur at all times is always there in the back of his mind.

so john will end up always near arthur, almost close enough for them to touch, but not quite.

though john wants to. very, very badly wants to. it just feels like recoil, how quickly he has to pull back because he just can't get used to the feeling of being physically human and whole yet.

[quodekash]

really looking forward to spending the entirety of next season just staring at murph’s hair

[agalychnisspranneusroseus]

For Marcy, a good thing about having two girlfriends is that, between the two of them, they can fulfill her need for physical contact with no problem. Touch is her main love language and her clinginess can be a bit too much for a single person to bear, but thankfully she has two girlfriends happy to take turns so she never has to run out of hugs and kisses.

[rosesillustrations]

“Call me Hysilens, nameless sword master”

[kalied0skull]

I wanna hug you but idk if you like hugs so if you don’t I want to transmit my fumes towards you positively

i sometimes like hugs! :D

irl i am a very physically avoidant person (ask literally any of my irls, i cannot STAND long-time physical interaction because it makes me overstimulated) but if i initiate or ask for the hug then that usually means "hug me rn or else you'll never get this offer ever again" LMAOA

but you can hug me !!! right now at least that's okay yeyeah, if you ask I'll probably say yes regardless 🙂‍↕️

i like hugs

but i like

sometimes just can't really do them ykwim

[icewindandboringhorror]

sometimes looking at like Self Help Strategies lists for the symptoms I'm having is always just like:

thing that I already do

thing I have tried 10 times

thing I already do

thing that I don't have the money to do

thing I already do

thing I've been doing since I was 10yrs old to no avail

thing that is impossible given my situation

thing that doesn't apply to me

thing that I already do

thing I have already tried

hrmm, oh wait, maybe finally- OH, yeah.. okay. thing that I already do but it was just phrased slightly differently

thing I have already done

[ncttcday]

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[time-is-restored]

MAFUYU'S WL2 CHAPTERS HAVE HARMED ME IRREPARABLY.

WHAT DO YOU MEAN SHE KNOWS SHE'S IN A DREAM? WHAT DO YOU MEAN SHE'S GOING OUT OF HER WAY TO FIND NIIGO? WHAT DO YOU MEAN SHE PULLS IDENTICAL SAD SMILES AT SEEING ALL OF THEM INTERACTING WITH HER LIKE A STRANGER? CAN ANYBODY HEAR ME?

she was SURPRISED when her mother said they 'had a talk' about mafuyu not being a doctor. she doesn't remember that conversation. she didn't KNOW what their relationship was in this world until her mother explicitly told her.

she reached out to ena THROUGH airi (when she shouldn't have otherwise even KNOWN about her) so they could all practice drawing together. she let mizuki suggest clothes for her to wear (going on a whole expedition with her classmates just to engineer a chance to take them to her boutique) bc there's no other way for her to interact with her?????????????

she literally said that kanade's songs give """"everyone"""" a warm feeling when everyone else has referred to them just as being 'cheerful' and 'popular'. and then the way she pushed kanade to list all the things she wanted to do... insisted on doing all of them in what might literally have been experienced by them AS a montage... it's like she's trying to gift kanade experiences + memories that she otherwise wouldn't have? and it's such a clear parallel between all the expeditions/trips niigo take HER on in the prime timeline in the name of finding herself?

i was already betting everything on kaito being the vocaloid to sing to her but his use here is now like. infinitely crazier to me in the context of the actual story. the 'hold onto your true feelings' vocaloid sings to mafuyu to comfort her in a world where she doesn't have her friends. and then she acts on those feelings by bringing them as close together as she can? because? she loves? her friends?

[xoxoemynn]

anyone else feel like this sometimes or is it just me?

[raywardreal]

any news on other parts of the toyhouse being archived? i dont really join discord servers linked to things like this & would like to know if us here on tumblr will have access.

we have everything i can think of in regards to the toyhouse saved currently! i dont have it all organized in the google drive were wokring on yet though.

so far i have everything from my darkermatters archive reorganized there, all the character icons, and screenshots and html downloads of all the character pages, minus cometcare stuff as me and rainbowmewz were working on that in a different drive initially, so we still have to move that over. everything else has been saved by other people, and will be added to the larger drive eventually

@dawn-ward (hope its alright to tag you!) has made archives of the side story images (it has everything that isnt sparklecare, cometcare, or darkermatters), and the fics.

and heres the link to the servers google drive, though again, its a massive work in progress currently and is missing a lot that we still have to upload and organize there specifically

someone in the server has all of the sparklecare and cometcare images downloaded, so were just waiting on them to upload it somewhere in regards to that

EDIT: all of the toyhouse stuff has been added!

[johnslittlespoon]

how soon after posting a chapter do you start the next one? (me trying to figure out when’s an appropriate time to ask for a sneak peak bc i’m a feral dog for tas 🧍🏻‍♀️)

this made me gigggleee <3 i get asked this sm and honestly i'm constantly writing it!! i've usually already started the next chapter while the one i've just finished is still being beta read LOL, i have to write for at least a few hours every day or i start feeling a little insane :') i started ch10 the moment i finished ch9 last week... yesterday i wrote for 12 hours straight and i'm now at 17k with no end in sight so >:) it's gonna be the longest one yet oops but it's an important one so ig it can't be helped lol. anyway small sneak peek! <3

and a general thank u for the love on the last chapter oh my goddd. the way my days are lit up by the kind words y'all take the time to leave for me to read :')) i rly do wish i could somehow bottle the feelings up and give em out so i can adequately express how much gratitude i feel, but just know it means the world to me and spurs me on so much and i'm v v aware of how lucky i am <33

[maplemaplemaplemaplemaple]

what do you mean i have to take off my noise cancelling headphones in order to recharge them

[elllisaaa]

kinda wanna kill myself because I can't write because of uni BUT at least I can rewatch and criminal minds (and I might have something in my drafts for hotch that is going to be fully indulgent)