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paperlessprinter · 5 months ago

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I'm not sure if my therapist of 13 years is the best person to talk about gender stuff. I know I'm not trans I don't mind being AFAB but I know there's a lot besides cis/trans. I mentioned it today but wrapped in a new administration sandwich.

Who do I ask for that emotional labor? I can't post on fb.

Need to work on the fibroids. Spinning my wheels in gateway messages.

And while I still think relationships are a moot point, I am at least going to a Covid cautious speed dating event next month.

#gender #worst time to be questioning anything #new administration makes everything worse

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dennisboobs · 5 months ago

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standing in front of a firing squad would have been easier than reading this script i need to be shot

#this is hands down the most insane script ive read i was sitting slack jawed half the time #not because its Outrageous but because. oh my fucking God #frank sure does have too much influence over *gestures broadly* This.#to see their dysfunction presented like this. is. so.#like. of course the reason they cant be nice to each other is because they all expect some kind of Trick. we see this again in s12 #they've set a precedent where everyone is unable to be vulnerable out of fear that someone else is going to take advantage of them #its about knowing to Never let their guard down. because they can't afford to be stupid enough to think someone was being nice #its literally about them not trusting each other. they know each other. care about each other. but they're all still at war with each other #anything could be a trojan horse #and even when they try to do something thoughtful it's ruined bc their motives are being questioned and that provokes a defense #''of course i wasn't being Nice that's stupid why would i ever do that for you'' because otherwise theyre leaving themselves open to attack #i think this episode works purely because theyre All trying to change this at once and since theyre all aware of that fact #its like oh okay youre not fucking with me because we've established we're all trying not to be cynical #i cannot even begin to dig into the pure autism of this entire. not even just the episode premise. the whole basis of the gang's dynamic.#like yeah of course a group of weird neurodivergent people is hypersensitive to this #its the same thing as mac and dennis in suburbs questioning wally's intentions/demeanor welcoming them to the neighbourhood #literally in defense mode all the time because they expect the worst from people and they haven't had any reason to think otherwise #marder and rosell get it but thats not exactly new and surprising <3 #but wow this script adds so much. at least for me.#iasip #it's always sunny in philadelphia #ada speaks #character meta #for good measure

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some-pers0n · 2 years ago

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I need to like set aside a day to just study Sniper's character because the way he's treated in fandom VS how he's presented in canon material is so different and it's messing with my brain

#The first step is understanding that he probably wouldn't smell like piss #He always faintly smells like weed through I refuse to get rid of that #Scout would be the worst in terms of stench like that boy does NOT shower #The only time he wears anything is if Pauling is nearby and he wants to impress her #So he douses himself in seven coats of cologne he stole from Spy #I've been thinking a lot about how Snipes is portrayed in the comics and shorts as of late #With how he seems rather excited and amped in the Meet the Sniper video to explain his job a bit #VS how in fandom he's seen as a recluse who hates people #And ALSO how in the Meet the Director comic Sniper seems pissed off at the Director in question #Characterization is my passion <3

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tex-treasure-chamber · 4 months ago

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Confessional Daydream: Anderson x Santana

" What do you think about when you're all folded in on yourself in that teeny ol' booth? " Santana inquired as they leaned against the side of the confessional booth, half teasing and half curious.

"I think about... tasting divinity. " Anderson confessed vaguely, eyes dropping to watch her lips stretch into a soft smile, lingering before he glanced away to watch the flames of the prayer candles dance in the lowlight.

"And what does divinity taste like to you?" Santana inquired again, all traces of teasing gone from their voice, replaced with only soft reverence that sent a frustrating tingle down Anderson's spine.

"It tastes..." He hesitated as he once more caught her eye. He couldn't bloody well say strawberry and mint, not when it was too specific to the flavour of lip balm he knew she used, now could he? Absolutely not. He cleared his throat softly before rasping, "It tastes like I imagine coming home feels like; comfortable. Warm. Soft... Perfect."

"Like... like manna?" Santana offered softly.

"Aye," he murmured. "Just like manna."

Aaaaaaat least it's not haunting me anymore now that I've drawn it! I mean... In a way.... this IS absolution 🥴

#It's MY treasure chamber so I get to post the PG-13 morally questionable selfship art #it's not risqué enough for the Palace account. maybe if Santana was half undressed but alas. they're fully clothed #ashes to ashes • anderson #santana • hellsing s/i #one for the treasure chamber #tex draws #should i throw this into the fandom tags. fuck it why not whats the worst that could happen #its not like anyone is gonna say anything let alone notice PFFFFT #hellsing oc #alexander anderson #ougjjf okay its time for bed texie up we get

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3-aem · 1 year ago

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my arts been doing bad on twtter. ive recovered in the past but i worry this time will be different. the idea of losing such a large platform makes me wonder if theres point in continuing even if i feel tremendously guilty admitting that.

as my therapist pointed out today: ppl still like my art. still when i think about it i think there are other artists for you all though. better ones have come along and better ones will still come.

im in my 20s and i haven’t really gotten a chance to live my life properly since the pandemic bc of it. still art is important to me and the idea of losing it has me feeling listless. what do i do when its been who i am for years.

im unsure tbh if im going to quit.

i draw what i like but i don’t see purpose in drawing for myself.

anyways this isnt that deep my therapist is just on leave next week and i wanna cut my hair again

#delete later #a morbid thought ig but the idea was always #well if i stopped what if i regret it 10 #20 years later #but if i dont have 10 years #is there time to regret it if i stopped #idk what to do its like complete and sudden loss of motivation #ive been trying to pick myself up from it #but i just wanna lay here ig #theres also the question of a honed skill being discarded #though i mean there were lots of things i was skilled at as a kid that i discarded #swimming was one running was also another #ig i lost those more bc i developed a panic disorder #and like the worst place for that is maybe when ur in a deep pool center lane #maybe this was the thing that made me unique #but its also not a thing i advertise irl if anything i actively hide it and just lie #i havent made every piece ive wanted to make

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chewyhanniebug · 2 months ago

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apparently twitter and tiktok villains are feuding. thank god they don't know we exist

#not a very fair playing field since tiktok villains are stupid and/or literal children but whatever. they brought it on themselves #as far as i can tell basically what happened was someone put up a tiktok asking what the worst things villains have seen are in xstate #what they consider “jawdropping headwrecking things that make you question how our fandom already thinks like that” (weird but okay)#and the answers are so fucking funny dude #“i saw a fanart of gunil nd junhan kissing 💔💔” took me the fuck out and IT HAD 97 LIKES AT THE TIME #found the art and it was SO GOOD THEY'RE SUCH AN AMAZING ARTIST #HOW IS THAT THE WORST THING YOU'VE SEEN #call me biased bc i was a twt villain but bro. i don't trust any fandoms on tiktok. their maturity levels are non-existent #the whole thing is very funny to watch from an outside perspective but i'd like to not have anything to do with it personally lol #they would both pulverise tumblr villains (yn writers in particular) i'm afraid #big yikes #xdinary heroes #chewy ramblings

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jewishcissiekj · 28 days ago

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x-men comics are slowly but surely killing my mind. wtf is Daap.

#yael's x men ramblings #Milligan i'm begging you to STOP #i'm most of the way through his run but quick question.#why is it not regarded as one of the worst x-men runs of all time? because it sure is that #it's worse than austen tbh. austen is at least funny with it.#milligan i so dead serious with the bad decisions in that comic it's truly ...astonishing #is blood of apocalypse any good or is it just more of the same fucking shit #i know deathbit is from there but idc for anything milligan did with gambit or rogue so i'm not too happy about that #xstatix is one of my fav series ever probably so how did milligan fuck up his xmen run so bad #the answer is that he took it too seriously #and also that xstatix did not have pre-established character for him to mischaracterize

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agalychnisspranneusroseus · 7 months ago

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I need to go to sleep but i dont wanna go to sleep i want to think about sashannarcy

#im gonna write my fanfic in my head while going to honk mimimimi #like i swear guys they're having such a terrible time #the three of them end up in a political marriage at like 15 and they think ''cool! i get to have sleepovers every day with my best friends #with whom i may or may not be in love with. AND solve several political problems in amphibia'' and then 10 years later this marriage #this fucking marriage has fucked them up soooo badly #the worst part is that despite it absolutely wrecking them. they still fell in love in the meantime.#mmmm maybe marrying three 15yo girls to each other to end a civil war wasn't a good idea #yes this is my #raised in amphibia au #my posts #they learn to love each other for realsies in time! they should have never gotten married in the first place but if they had the option now #they would do it without question!! they went through so much together and it all exploded one day and it resulted in #actually i wont say anything in case i change my mind later #but yeah just. sashannarct #sashannarcy*

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plusultraetc · 8 months ago

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impulse posting a snippet from the next fic in the star wars au bc I'm so so thankful to have been able to write anything at all today (this fic already has a title, but it's alternate name is 'Yamada Hizashi's Terrible Horrible No Good Very Bad Star Wars AU')

#he is having the worst possible time which is one of the reasons this story keeps getting dropped like a truly scalding potato #however i haven't had the time or the energy to work on anything for like. over a week at this point. well over a week.#thank you sleeping at last i knew i could count on you etc #i do love this fic even though it is Painful bc present mic!! surprise guest stars!! jedizawa flashbacks!! answers to Inquisitor Questions!#it has it all!!#liza writes #star wars au #yamada hizashi #edit: i should add this isn't the thing i wrote today. what i worked on today was the nightmare >:)

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frigginartresources · 14 days ago

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Question for Clip Studio Mobile Users

There is an error I get with Clip Studio sometimes, on my samsung tablet specifically, where the "Clip Studio isn't responding" popup will occur during a taxing process. I will hit "Wait" and the process will finish as normal, and Clip Studio will function as it should again, no worse for wear.

Except, the popup will keep popping up every few moments, despite Clip functioning as normal. I could even go on to finish and save a piece out if I wanted as long as I hit "Wait" every few moments.

This is a problem that's plagued me ever since I got this tablet, and my extremely long patience has finally worn thin. I love clip studio as a program, and I'm determined to figure out a solution.

Clip Studio Mobile Users:

Do you have this problem?

Whether you do or don't, what mobile device do you use?

If it is a Samsung tablet, what version?

If you have had this problem, what have you tried?

Other artists, a reblog would be helpful, thanks!

#damned ans determined to crowd source a solution here #I've tried seaeching it several times and perhaps I'm just missing it #but everything if anything that I've found has been useless #vague and unhelpful at best #describing features and problems I dont even have at worst #people asking the same question and getting no answer #to hell with typos I'm on my phone they're your problem now lmao

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yeonban · 3 months ago

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Possibly the funniest ramification (for me at least) of Tobias having a crush nowadays is that one of his most widely used tactics is making people fall in love with him in order to use them for various schemes w/o having to worry about their loyalty swaying long-term, which means that's his first thought half of the time when someone takes an interest in him. And now his second thought which follows 0.2 seconds after is a suddenly lifeless "ah." as he remembers that he can't exactly do that without giving his crush the impression that he's taken and fucking himself over on That front. Fuck his stupid baka life he's shooting himself in the foot NO MATTER what decision he opts for 😭

#◜✧ . ❪ muse. tobias. ❫#I'm INCREDIBLY entertained whenever he meets sb useful who takes even a minimal interest in him & he immediately goes 😏 <-years long habit #but then his grin abruptly fades when he remembers that he. Can't go through with that easy af idea anymore. WORST day of his life /hj #He thinks flirting is aight but anything Beyond that is questionable territory when it comes to how it'll affect his business (<-the crush)#(Flirting ain't fine either my guy. But he's just Too used to doing that to stop doing it when he's not even in a committed r/s yet 😭)#This is THE least efficient situation to be put in 😮‍💨 life when his priority is amusement & only on 2nd place are the giga IQ schemes...#It's the way I'm sat staring at half my asks & drafts every time I try to write bc he's fighting himself on what to do ADSAJDGHASDAJDS #His most used & most effective tactic... gone down the drain like that 💔💔💔 someone bring a trampoline for him to fall on after he jumps #Another hilarious part of this is that he has No clue how to be friendly w/o being simultaneously seductive. Bro's gonna kill himself /j #He HATESSS this ramification so badly but at least it cheeses ME greatly 💕 ADKSAHDSAGBDSAJHSJADHSAK #especially when Tobias & I look over at Ash who's in his own trenches & Tobias has to consider if blud's gonna keep ignoring his feelings #(hence whatever they've got going on will go nowhere) or if he's gonna figure his own mess out & how That will go 😮‍💨 BC IT MATTERS HERE!#You might not be able to tell all the time but Tobias has 384243724324832473248324783274382432473249 thoughts to ponder on in his head 24/7 #This is such a stupid problem to have too. in his opinion 😭 If Ash wasn't as perfect of a guy as he is (<-as per Tobias' standards I mean)#I have NO doubt in my mind that he (Tobias) would've killed any semblance of damns to give abt this issue LONGGGGGGGGGG ago #^ One of the myriad reasons why he's never fallen in love in my 5 years of musing him & why his one crush-attempt got shot down By Himself #This man is so complicated HE GIVES ME A HEADACHE!!! (<-saying this while eating popcorn & hovering over him to watch what he'll do next)

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ismyteadoneyet · 4 months ago

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conversation: *takes a turn into gen-ai*

me: I have trained for this for months. I have heard every stupid argument possible and nothing will baffle me

brother: *somehow comes up with an even stupider argument*

me: what in the entire fuck

#anti-ai #somehow I managed to keep a straight face but I just #my brother went ahead and claimed with his full chest that #“gen-ai art and human-made art is like the difference between organic and non-organic milk”#“one costs more but it's made of the same stuff”#and my dad is dead-set on the “if you give a monkey an eternity and a typewriter it will eventually write shakespeare” bcs #he keeps saying that “ai just does what humans do but faster”#and I'm just dumbfounded every time #bcs I realize that they simply do not feel anything when it comes to art clearly #and I will never be able to make them #but istfg being a creative in this household is painful #like how am I ever supposed to believe them if they compliment my art #when I know that they openly think I'm just wasting my time because “ai could do the same thing but faster”#like how the fuck do I explain to my dad that a human getting inspired by something to create something else #and ai openly STEALING something because IT CANNOT COME UP WITH SOMETHING ON THEIR OWN is NOT THE SAME THING #I am so fucking livid #and both my brother and dad keep trying to explain this to me as if I'm the one being “difficult” and “set in my ways” about it #the worst part is that I feel myself starting to question myself like #what if humanly made things are also just “stealing ideas” like that one picasso quote like #I don't wanna believe it because I do believe the human experience and soul makes all the difference in the world but like #what if I'm wrong about it ?#I am so very tired of being the creative #i have too many ideas and too much inspiration and nowhere to put it #and my house is infested with fkn ai approval like fkn mold #it's making it hard to breathe

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skywalker-swift · 8 months ago

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WORK FUCKING SUCKS

#kate talks #just had one of worst work weeks of my life just emotionally #I felt like i couldn’t do anything I had to send off so many questions and didn’t really get to work #and then at the very end of this no goo very bad week I finally get one of my questions answered so I can work #and then the session I’m working on crashes like five times 😭😭😭😭#so I had to get a ticket and didn’t get to work on my other session and it had to be deleted after all that work I spent on it last week #I didn’t even get to rework it #I’ve cried so hard earlier #luckily I get tomorrow off but FUCK #and I’m gonna get bitched out by my annoying ass supervisor #next week for these last two weeks WHICH HAVEN’T BEEN MY FAULT

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nemisisnemi · 1 year ago

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HERES THE FIRST MOCKUP OF MY MUSHU INSPIRED TWST OC

arrogant lil fucker <3

His general personality is mostly worked out, backstory....not so much

I quit on his clothes and started another sketch bc i was frustrated with his pose and also bc i couldn't find any references on the time period accurate clothing from when Mulan took place

(partly on me bc im rlly bad at searching for things online and partly bc it might be too niche of a subject to find specifically noble/royal mens clothing. i kept finding womens clothing but barely any for men)

Here's the Mushu reference pic i used under this