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This is just a little vent/motivational feeling dump and what I plan on doing with my stories going forward.
I've been in a creative slump for a long time due to so many different things. Moving, my partner and I recently losing our cat of 12 years (which is as long as we've been together, she was like our daughter), the AI scrape of AO3, looking back on my work and hating it because my writing has improved and changed drastically, being disabled and chronically ill...
I just lost so much motivation. I felt embarrassed of my writing. I felt like I was trying too hard and simultaneously not enough.
BUT!!!!
Seeing all the writing positivity here on tumblr? All the love and support for writers?
The constant stream of kind words and motivation of my feed?
The knowledge that people out there are making their art (yes writing is art) constantly despite a world that sees it as 'pointless'.
Seriously. That helps. It has helped.
You guys are fucking awesome.
I've been actively working on re-writing The Six Skeletons and The Overseer. The truth is, I hate it now. The plot flow, the writing, the pacing, the terrible TERRIBLE FUCKING SMUT OH GOD THE SECOND HAND EMBARRASMENT FOR MYSELF
My point is, I've still been writing. I've got twenty eight chapters re-written at a little over 120k words, better pacing, better dialogue flow, better plot build up, the first person narrator of un-reliable narrator that gives you multiple perspectives and misunderstands because that's why I enjoy first person POV so much.
Do you know what my partner told me?
That's a book, gang. That's a whole fucking book. I wrote that. I did that. To be fair, Undertale has always been my hyper fixation. I love this fucking story, I love the plot, I love drawing Lily and the silly skeletons. I love writing pervy shit and comedy and smart ass over powered OCs while simultaneously writing complex plots and interesting multiversal theories.
Even with my new writing, I haven't posted it because I'm terrified people will see it and think 'Oh, this is too wordy. This must be AI. Oh, they're using lots of en dashes 'â' so it's AI!' AI has fucked a lot of writers, especially ones that work to improve their writing. I started writing my fic nearly seven years ago.
SEVEN. YEARS. AGO. Even with editing, that's a long ass time!! People grow! People change! I got married since then and have an entire new apartment, life, and friends!! I was being so harsh on myself. I told myself that I couldn't have overpowered OCs or 'edgey' OCs with lots and lots of trauma because 'Mary Sue Alert'. I told myself that I couldn't have 'stereotypical' flirting or perverted interactions because what if it came across as 'cheesy' or 'cringe'. I told myself I couldn't write certain things because it was mischaracterization or not 'canon' friendly or bad to interpret things my own way, as if that's not what fanfiction is all about in the first place.
I've been judging myself for having fun while writing.
So, all this to say: I will be completely re-doing TS&TO. I've already written about as much as what's currently up. I'll keep the current fic up for a while, but it will be archived, then eventually deleted, and posting the new one. This is so if anyone wants to save it and look back at it, they can! However, I've spent the last few months thinking about it, and I just want something new. Something that feels more like me.
Sorry for the long ramble. Thank you for reading if you did. Moral of the story is you should write what you want, enjoy what you write, and it's okay what you do with your writing because it's your fucking writing.
#the skeletons and the overseer#undertale fanfiction#undertale ao3#writers on tumblr#writing community#ao3 fanfic#i just needed to vent#i just needed to get this out#fuck me I feel so much better lmao#seriously though#love this website#write because you want to#write that cringe#write that blurb#write WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU WANT BECAUSE WRITING SHOULD BE FOR YOUUUUU
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I get that this is mostly a me thing but seeing so many posts making fun of "holy blood cannibalism pomegranate deer" style writing just makes me sad ;-; . guys that's a lot of people's first stab at poetry that's hobby art that's a vulnerable thing to post those are passion projects...
#if you're reading this and those sentiments have ever made you feel wary to write lest you accidentally Post Cringe:#add another pomegranate in there. for me. add two more lines about blood.#marina marvels at life
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I wish we had more female characters like Eleanor Shellstrop. One of the most unlikable people you've ever met. Read a Buzzfeed article on most rude things you can do on a daily basis and decided to use that as a list of goals. Makes everyone's day worse just by being there. Dropped a margarita mix on the ground and tried to pick it up, only to get hit by a row of shopping carts which pushed her into the road where she was hit by a boner pill delivery truck, killing her instantly. Cannot keep a romantic partner despite being bisexual. Had a terrible childhood but will die before she gets therapy. Best employee at a scam company. Just the worst but also can't help but root for her to improve.
Absolute loser. Girl-failure. Bad at almost everything. Literally perfect female character.
#eleanor shellstrop#you know i was thinking about how we hold female characters to such high standards#and severely criticize bitchy female characters while praising asshole male characters#and then i remembered eleanor and realized that she is the perfect example of how to write an asshole woman that the audience likes#the worse she is the more i'm drawn to her (and honestly same for tahani)#we need more cringe-fail women who nobody likes (for good reason)#the good place#female characters#writing women#girl failure#girl loser#she's so mean#i love her#my favorite#fucking asshole#iconic#the good place eleanor#tgp#tgp eleanor#kristen bell
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i. there's this video of a guy dancing on his tiptoes. i will begrudgingly admit the song is kind of catchy actually. i don't think it's the worst song i've ever heard. he seems passionate about it. but it is embarrassing, how he's dancing.
ii. you know where this story is going, unfortunately, and so do i.
iii. three weeks ago i had to drag half a dead rabbit out of my dog's mouth. i was just recently discussing how cruel things feel lately. that the way the world is shifting feels mean. three days ago, a random woman rolled down her window to snap at me because she missed her turn. this is now routine.
iv. 11 years ago in october, i made a post about how we shouldn't make fun of people for doing brave, vulnerable things. it has over 400k notes. people - at the time - seemed to generally agree with me. we have all felt shy and insecure when we share an intimate part of ourselves. we have heard someone at a concert say "that's fucking embarrassing" and said to ourselves - oh, this person is unsafe to be vulnerable in front of. we have said i can't act like that in public. we have left our art and passion in the dark. i think there will never be enough graveyard space for the art we have killed because what if others shame me for it.
v. the thing i was bullied for in high school was because i was a "predatory lesbian." a popular girl i'd literally never spoken to just decided she didn't like me and announced i was "stalking" her. to this day i have no idea what motivated this - i think i was just shy and poor and awkward and ugly. the perfect target. what they don't really ever show in movies is how quickly it moves, how suddenly strange people in the hallways are attacking you about it. they also don't show you that the bullies get this strange ... glee out of it. like, it's fun for them. it's enrichment. everyone else is in on the joke. suck it up, kid.
vi. so far, from what i have seen, creators that stand up for the musician all seem to have the same story: when i asked why we're bullying a random guy, people actually got mad that i asked. i've had similar things happen to me when i ask for us to be less comfortable with our anonymous cruelty. when an internet stranger says "be kind, it saves lives" - people find it funny to say fuck you i hope everyone kills themselves. pages and pages of people saying the same bullshit. sitting in their little caves, eating their own humor. it's just genuinely exhausting. the natural endpoint of "cringe culture" is that even kindness is cringe-worthy.
vii. loneliness is an epidemic. but where are you going to make your community? call your representative. go back to bed about it.
viii. due to how i was raised, i am always confused by cruelty. i understand the american isolationist belief "i can do whatever i want" - sure. but why wouldn't you want to be kind? i have lived too many bad things. i cannot be the epicenter of someone else's bad dream.
ix. it's just that if we were going to bully someone relentlessly, why is it never the healthcare CEOs. why isn't it the fascists. why isn't it, like, someone who you could at least argue "deserves" it. why is it always just some guy in socks singing a pretty mid song? or a person that doesn't look like you, just, like existing.
x. it's just that i think people enjoy doing it. they want to do it because they get some kind of masturbatory release from it - like a shrug or a splinter, they all seem to say the same thing - come on, it's funny.
xi. the world is sometimes beautiful, and sometimes you make something. the world is sometimes terrible, and you are worried they won't accept what your hands can wring. you open the instagram comments and they're still saying all sorts of shit to just - like - a normal guy. and some part of you thinks: if that was me. good lord. if that was me i'd -
xii. somewhere there is a graveyard. someone is already burying their hopes and dreams.
#spilled ink#warm up#like as far as i can tell he's just a guy?#he doesn't seem like. bad.#it's cringe so whaaatttttttt#5 years ago we were all like. cringe is dead!!! :) .... okay unless u personally get joy from bullying someone#i guess#this doesn't quite say what i want it to#and i felt like it was already too long to tack on the OTHER stuff i ALSO write a lot about - which is like#if this dude is getting bullied. um how u think it's like in minority populations .
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Embrace the cringe.
Write weird fanfic.
Read weird fanfic.
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down the neck - spencer reid x sharpshooter!reader

"Stop breathing down my neck." You huff, glancing through the scope at the unsub.
"Well, I have to lay low too, no?" Spencer frowns.
"It doesn't matter." You squint, humming. "Hit the button and ask Hotch if I can shoot. Be fast."
"Hotch, we have a clear shot."
"I have a clear shot."
"Snippyâ"
"Fire."
You click your tongue, pulling the trigger once to hit the unsub's hand and a second to snipe the gun out of range as Morgan flies into the place. You watch through the scope as Spencer looks through the binoculars, and you only start to sit up when you see Morgan pull the unsub out. Then, you actually sit up and start packing up.
"Stop breathing down my neck." You huff.
"You weren't complaining when Iâ"
You hold a finger to your lips, pointing at your earpiece as Spencer blinks, laughing when you hear a cough in your ears from Hotch.
"Sorry."
"Need I remind you both ofâ"
"Nope." You puff out your cheeks, slinging the gun around to your back as Spencer raises a brow. "Actually, I think Reid needs a quick reminder. He'd love to go through another HR meeting about how we shouldn't be fraternizing withâ"
"We're good, Hotch." Spencer cuts you off, rolling his eyes at you. "We'll see you back at the station."
"You're driving." You mumble, turning off your mic. "Two dollars and I'll drive. Four dollars and I'll make a stop at McDonalds."
"And for five?"
"I'll sneak in a kiss plus everything else."
"I think that can be arranged." He hums, pulling out a five as you press your lips to his, tongue swiping over your bottom lips as he chases when you pull away. You stick your tongue out teasingly as you take the five, craning your neck so that his lips would hit your neck instead. "Hey."
"I'll drop a ten if youâ"
"Reid."
You laugh as Spencer jolts straight, pinching the bridge of his nose at the sound of Hotch.
"Turn off your mic next time."
"Roger that, sir."
You're too busy laughing the rest of the way back to be able to drive. (but spencer has no complaints when you hand him back the five with a chaste kiss to his lips).

#me when 2 ppl tell me they wanna read more: SAY LESS#âž.snippy#criminal minds x reader#spencer reid x reader#âž.blurbs#making one flop post at a time it's not much but it's honest work#im writing this as i watch the series btw bc im stuck waiting until season 8 to continue my actual fic#sigh. sigh emoji. SIGH. BIG SIGH.#i have one (1) fear. mischaracterizing spencer. (i say. mischaracterizing him ok yolo ig idgaf anymore cringe is dead 2 me)#my jaw just dropped wdym one of THE spencer writers reblogged this piece WHAT
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Once again, you can be an English major. a seasoned journalist. an established author. a famed literary critic...and you will still scratch your head over the junk that makes it big. Public opinion has no worth. Just write what you want.
"But I don't want to share something that isn't perfect" why not? everyone else does.
#that goes quadruple infinity for fanfic writers btw#cannot think of a more open market than writing fanfic#you just pour your heart out onto the interwebs#some 12yo says âthis is cringeâ#you block'em and post the next chapter#and pretty soon eight ppl are sobbing in your comments and keysmashing from the glory of your angsty crackfic#including the 12yo who has their nose in the proverbial corner for being cringe#think of lit critics as 12yos writing âthis is cringeâ and they are much easier to ignore
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I Thee Bled
one-shot
Remmick x fem!reader

Summary: On the eve of your arranged wedding, you flee into the woods with trembling hands and a bloodstained gownâonly to slip a ring meant for another onto a graveyard root and wake something ancient beneath the soil. Remmick is not a man, not anymore, but he remembers how to be tender. Touch-starved and centuries dead, he offers you the one thing the living never did: choice. In a forest that breathes and remembers, where the dead dream and the moss learns your name, you find yourself questioning everything you left behind. After all, what is a monsterâif not a man who waits for you? And what is love, if not something youâre willing to bleed for?
(or: A Corpse Bride au)
wc: 15.2k
a/n: thank you all so much for the overwhelming love and support youâve shown my fics, it means the world to me!! I originally planned to release I Thee Bled on Monday to celebrate one month since Brittany Broski posted Mercy Made Flesh to her Insta story (!!!), but life had other plans, so sheâs arriving fashionably late. This oneâs especially close to my heart, and I want to dedicate it to the lovely Moga @somnolenthour, whose beautiful fanart for this fic when it was still just an idea (completely unprompted!!) lit a fire under me, this oneâs for you <333 shout-out to my beta readers, starting with Liz who also came up with the title: @fuckoffbard @titaniasfairy @jaythewriter @anhelconhmuda @kkniveschau
warnings: Corpse Bride!au, gothic horror, supernatural romance, blood, vampirism, smut, oral sex (f!receiving), praise kink, dirty talk, creampie, touch-starved monster, monsterfucking, sub!remmick, ghost town setting, period-typical misogyny, vague Victorian era, Tim Burton aesthetics, mutual pining, tragic undertones, Remmick in his final monster form
likes, comments, and reblogs as always appreciated, please enjoy!!
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It was a quiet kind of deathâto walk toward a future that never belonged to you.
The candlelight danced in its sconce like it too was afraid of the dark, throwing gold and shadow in uneven patterns across the walls of your bridal chamber. The air was heavy with the scent of crushed liliesâwhite, thick-stemmed, and already browning at the edgesâas though the blooms themselves had second thoughts. A bridal veil hung limp from the mirror. You had not put it on.
You sat at the edge of the chaise, corseted to breathlessness, the bony ridges of your knuckles straining beneath the thin layers of skin from how hard you're clutching the ring.
Not your ring. Not yet. It was hisâyour would-be husband'sâa man who smiled without his eyes and spoke of love like it was transactional. Whose name alone made your face pucker like you just smelled curdled milk. Mr. Langdon. So old your mother whispered âdistinguished.â So cold the maids whispered other things when they thought you couldnât hear.
Outside, the wind howled through the wrought iron balcony rails, shrill and wild like something mourning. You stood slowly, your bare feet silent against the marble floor, gown whispering around your ankles like the ghosts of every woman whoâd gone quietly before you. The gown had been sewn for beauty, not for running. But you would run in it anyway.
You packed light, brought a white shawl and gloves to combat the chill. You brought the ring.
Not because you meant to keep it. Not because it held sentiment. It didnât. It had no warmth, no story, no soulâjust gold, cool and dull beneath your thumb. But it was worth something. Enough to pawn. Enough, maybe, to buy a train ticket. A meal. A room somewhere with a bed that didnât come with a price pinned to your spine.
You told yourself that was why you kept it clenched in your fist as you slipped out the servantsâ gate and into the dark. Not because it was his. Not because it had ever touched your skin. But because the world beyond your wedding had no place for a girl with nothingâand a gold ring, even one never worn, could be a lifeline.
Or a curse.
Fate hadnât decided yet.
A band of simple gold, dull with fingerprint smudges, too loose for your thumb. You had not even worn it yet. It was handed to you this evening after supper, set beside a slice of blood-orange cake you hadnât touched. âKeep it close, darling,â your mother had said, smoothing your hair as if you were already a corpse. âIt will be yours come morning.â
You slipped it into your palm. And now it pulsed there like a secret.
The hallway outside your chamber creaked and groaned, the house settling into its evening sighs, and still you waited. You waited until the grandfather clock struck eleven, slow and solemn, each chime echoing like nails hammered into your future. Thenâsilently, so silentlyâyou fled.
The woods did not wait to welcome you.
They swallowed.
The moment your slippered feet hit the dirt path behind the manor gates, the trees leaned in like they were listening, thick with Spanish moss and shadow. The moonlight fractured through their limbs, casting the path in broken, silver stripes. Your breath came out fast, clumsy, fogging in front of you as the night grew colder with every step, every frantic press forward into bramble and black.
The hem of your gownâonce bone-white satinâdarkened with mud. Then blood. A snag of thorns caught your ankle, sliced skin. You barely flinched. Pain felt like permission.
You werenât sure where you were going.
Only that it has to be away.
You didnât stop until your lungs burned and the trees had turned unfamiliar, too thick, too silent, the air tasting of copper and something olderâstone, earth, iron. You collapsed against the base of a twisted tree, your gown a tangle of ripped silk and smeared petals, a bridal bloom gone to ruin.
The ring was still in your hand.
You looked at itâglared, reallyâangry at its weight, at the heft something so small contains. âTo have and to holdâŚâ you muttered under your breath, voice bitter, breathless, a mockery of a vow.
Your fingers fumbled blindly through the loam, sticky with sap and rainwater, until you found what you thought was a root. Something slender and pale rising from the earth like a bony finger.
You laughed, delirious. âHere,â you whispered, sliding the ring onto it. âDo you, strange tree, take me to be your lawfully wedded wife?â
The wind rose.
âI do.â
You reached out to steady yourself against the gnarled barkâbut as your hand met the treeâs twisted surface, a sharp edge of wood caught the pad of your finger, snagging your bridal glove and the soft meat underneath. You hissed.
Blood welledâbright and living. It wobbled off your fingertip and fell. One drop. Then another. The red hit the base of the tree and sank into the soil like ink into paper. The bark beneath your palm felt warmer now. AlmostâŚbreathing.
Something moved. Beneath the dirt. Beneath you. You blinked. Sat up straighter. Listened.
Nothing.
Thenâagain.
A twitch. A shift. Like the earth itself was exhaling after a long silence. The root curled, moved, wrapped just slightly around your finger. Cold as the grave.
You yanked your hand back with a startled gasp. But it was too late. Blood had already spilled from your hand, sliced on bark or thorn or bone, and soaked into the black, thirsty soil. You watched it disappear.
The tree shuddered. Not in the breezeâthere was no breeze anymore. The air had gone still, heavy as boiled milk, clinging to your throat, your hair, the space behind your knees. Your breath hitched. The birds had gone quiet. The crickets. The frogs. The world was listening.
And below you, the earth moaned.
A sound like old wood splitting. Like ribs breaking beneath dirt. Then, suddenly, a violent lurchâwet, sucking, earthly. The ground near the tree root cracked open, moss peeling back like flesh. You scrambled backwards on your palms, your gown tangling around your legs, but you couldnât look away.
It didnât feel like waking the dead. It felt like being watched by something that had never closed its eyes to begin with.
First came a hand.
Wide-palmed, thick-knuckled. Fingers unnaturally long, his nails cracked and gray and dirty, like shale. A gold ring gleamed faintly from the third finger. The wedding band you slid onto what you thought was a gnarled uproot.
Then the second, this one skeletal, stripped clean of flesh and muscle and tendon.
And finally, the rest of him.
He rose in pieces, as if gravity itself hadnât yet decided whether to allow him back. His body pushed through layers of sod and clay and root like a memory that refused to stay buried. His shoulders were broad, shoulders that had once carried something heavyâtools, a body, a burden. One arm braced against the edge of the grave, veins bulging under pale, slick skin.
You saw the sweep of a dark, deep blue tuxedo, its fabric dulled by dirt and time, stitched with the memory of ceremony. The jacket clung to his shoulders unevenly, one side sagging low with centuries of damp, the lapels wrinkled and soil-smudged. Beneath it, a white collared button-up lay partially unbuttoned at the throat, the linen stained faintly at the seams.
A slightly lighter blue tie hung askew from his neck, knotted but loosened, the silk puckered where it had weathered through the grave. His trouser legs matched the tuxedo, tailored once, but now creased and grimy at the hem. Shoes to matchâoxfords, maybeâscuffed to near ruin, soles coated in moss and wet earth.
He pulled himself from the dirt slowly, deliberately, like someone waking from a sleep they werenât meant to return fromâeach breath thick in his throat, each movement dragging time behind it.
And his faceâGod, his face.
He was beautiful. In the way statues are beautiful. The way a ruin is beautiful. Pointed cheekbones beneath a mask of grave-filth. Mud in the seams of his short, messy brown hair, clinging in dark curls across his forehead. His mouth parted as he panted for breath he didnât need, and you saw the right side of his jaw was ruinedâtorn open, exposing ribbons of raw muscle and the gleam of sharpened teeth. All of them sharp. Uneven. Crooked in places, silver-fanged and jagged like they werenât made for a human mouth.
He drooled. Milky and thick, slow as syrup, threading from his teeth to the black soil.
His skin was a deep, post-mortem blueâsomething between bruised flesh and storm-lit sea, like teal left to darken in shadow. In the moonlight, with his veins just barely visible beneath the surface, it looked like cracked glass. His chest heaved. His head turned. And thenâ
He looked at you.
His eyes were wide as a frightened dogâs. But in the shadows, they shiftedâblack, almost red, glowing from somewhere behind the pupil like dying coals still clinging to that cherried spark.
He didnât speak. He justâŚstared. Watched. Not like a stranger. Like someone trying to remember you. Like someone who knew you. Maybe before. Maybe in another life.
âAreâare youâŚâ Your voice broke, shamefully small. You didnât finish the question. Couldn't.
He swallowed, thickly. The sound was wet. And thenâhe smiled. Not cruel. Not ghoulish. Soft, tender.
âI knew yeâd come,â he said.
His voice came low and lilted, thick with the cadence of an Irish accentârounded consonants, vowels pulled soft and long, a kind of music in his throat whether he meant it or not. The kind of voice made for stories. For lullabies. For oaths.
He took a single, stumbling step forward, mud pulling at his shoes, laced tight enough to keep the soil from suctioning them off his feet.
You couldnât move.
âYe put a ring on me hand,â he said again, gentle this time. Coaxing. He held up his fingers, all blood-caked and twitching, the wedding band glinting faintly beneath the filth, fractals of moonlight dancing off the polished gold, a stark contrast to the dirt and grime clinging to his skin. âAnd ye spoke a vow. That counts, donât it?â
He tilted his head, like a curious animal. âDidnât reckon yeâd be so bonnie.â
You should have run.
You knew that. Every part of you knew that. The sensible part. The terrified part. The part that still heard your motherâs voice whispering warnings about strange men, and worse things still, things that didnât breathe right, didnât die right.
But something rooted you.
Maybe it was the ring still snug around that pale, twitching finger. Maybe it was the way he looked at you. Like you were the first warm thing heâd seen in centuries.
He took another step forward. Then another. His oxfords left deep, sucking impressions in the soil, and his gait wasnât quite rightâlike a marionette with its strings pulled too hard, or a man remembering how to be one. You flinched when he got too close, but he didnât reach for you. Not yet. Just stood there, arms slack at his sides, mouth slightly open, that thread of spit still hanging from one fang like an afterthought.
His head dipped low, curls shadowing his brow, and when he spoke again, his voice was almost shy. Like he feared you might bolt.
âWas it the blood that roused me, then?â he asked, one brow raising slowly. Thoughtful. âOr the vow ye whispered?â He swallowed, working his jaw with a faint wince. âMightâve been both. Hard to say.â
You blinked at him. Swallowed the lump that had risen hard and high in your throat. âWhoâŚwho are you?â
His smile faltered. Just a flicker. Not hurtâmore like confusion.
âDonât remember me, do ya?â His voice dropped low, almost tender. âBut you called, lass. I heard yaâclear as day, so I answered.â
He tapped his skeletal palm against his chest, right over his sternum, his eyes round and brows raised in a puppy dog look, a pleading little tilt to his head like he's desperate for you to believe him.
âI felt you in here.â
You opened your mouth. No sound came out.
The manâthe thingâbefore you cocked his head again, just slightly. His eyes were too soft for the rest of him, too warm. And the accent in his voice made everything worse, somehow. Made it gentle. Comforting. It stripped you of fear, piece by piece, until all that remained was the strange throb of something you didnât understand.
âWhatâs your name?â you asked, finally.
His gaze lit up like the question pleased him. He didnât answer right away. Just dragged a hand through his hair, leaving streaks of mud and grit and grave soil across his temple.
âIâve been called a lot oâ names,â he said after a pause. âSome of âem I earned. Some I didnât. But the name I remember best isâŚâ A thoughtful frown pulled at the less-damaged corner of his mouth.
âRemmick. Thatâs what me ma called me,â he said, almost shy now. âBack when the sky was still thick wiâ peat smoke and the land hadnât yet learned the sound oâ English steel. When we carved prayers into stone âstead oâ paper, and the rivers boiled not from fire, but from the rage oâ gods long buried.â
He glanced at you then, as if expecting you not to understand. But you didnât flinch, causing his smile to grow like a decaying flower that didn't know it was dead yet.
âBack when the forest had a name you werenât meant to speak after dark,â he added, voice gone soft and faraway. âAnd folk still left cream out on the stoop, hopinâ to keep the hills quiet.â
You said nothing. You had no words.
He glanced down at himself as though just now noticing the state he was in. Fingers touched the torn lapel of his jacket before dusting the front off next. His nose wrinkled faintly, sheepish, eyes round and sorry.
âWouldâve cleaned meself up a bit had I known,â he said, glancinâ back up at you with a crooked smile. âBut by Gods, ye caught me right in the middle of me dirt nap, didnât ye?â
And then he laughed. A soft, broken sound. It wasnât cruel. It wasnât hollow. It was almostâsweet. You didnât realize youâd taken a step back until your spine hit bark.
He noticed.
âNo need to fear me, lass,â he said, quickly, voice pitching soft, hands raised just a little, his eyes bleeding red like a freshly weeping cut, âI wonât hurt ye. I wouldnât.â His fingers curled back toward his chest again. âNot you.â
âWhy me?â you asked, finally. âWhyâwhy do you think I called you?â
His smile returned, slow and tender. He lifted his handâthe one with the ring, the one that was intended to collar you to Mr. Langdon before you turned tail and fled, looking sleek and shiny against grimy blue skin.
ââCause ye put this on me finger,â he said. âYe made a promise. A vow.â
You shook your head, your breath catching like a bird startled mid-flight, wings beating frantically in your throat. âIt wasnât real.â
âIt was real enough for me.â
He looked down at the gold band, turned it with his thumb. âYou bled for it, didnât ye?â he murmured. âSpoke words into the trees. Placed a ring on a buried hand. Thatâs old magic, love. Older than graves. Older than the Gods above.â
His eyes flicked back to youâred blooming around the edges now like ink through water.
âOld magic donât care whether you meant it.â
You didnât know if it was the way he said love, like it meant something eternalâŚor if it was the silence of the woods, how they held their breath around himâŚbut your world had suddenly been flipped upside down like you'd been living inside a snow globe and someone decided to just come along and shake it. All because you'd gotten cold feet. All because you couldn't bring yourself to walk down the aisle and wed a man who barely made your acquaintance prior to the arranged ceremony.
You recall last night in great detail, the last time you were alone with Mr. Langdon. It had been in your fatherâs studyâdark-paneled, smelling of tobacco and power. He hadnât touched you, not exactly. But his hand had rested too long on the curve of your shoulder, fingers splaying toward the top of your spine like he was trying to gauge how much pressure it would take to snap it.
âI prefer quiet girls,â heâd said with a smile that didnât reach his shrewd eyes. âOnes who donât ask so many questions. Obedience is a virtue, you know.â
You had smiled. You nodded. Because what else could you do?
He had leaned in close, breath stale with wine and something bitter, suppressing the reflexive urge to recoil, âAfter tomorrow, your body belongs to me. Thatâs what marriage is. Best you start getting used to the idea.â
You hadnât answered. Youâd gone to your room and vomited in the basin. And tonight? Tonightâyou ran. You didnât bring a bag. You didnât bring a plan. You brought the ring.
And you brought the no you hadnât dared speak aloud.
Itâs only then that you start to noticeâthe world around you moves. Not with the subtle rhythm of wind or wildlife, but with a kind of strange, theatrical breath, like the forest is alive.
The tree behind you creaked like a yawning coffin, bark groaning against your spine as if waking from its own long sleep. Overhead, the moon hung too round, too large, almost theatrical in its glowâmore paper lantern than celestial body. It cast light not white but a washed-out bluish silver, the kind that made every shadow look like it was up to something.
There were no clouds. The sky didnât need them.
Instead, the forest itself began to shiftâbending at the edges like a curtain drawing inward, branches twisting and stooping with exaggerated grace, their tips curling into crooked little hooks. The trees no longer stood tall and noble; they hunched and leaned like gossiping old women, knotted spines cracking as they bent to get a better look at you.
The leaves above clinked faintly like dry metal. One branch spiraled down and hovered beside your shoulder, like it was waiting for permission to touch you.
And still, Remmick didnât seem to notice.
Or maybe he did.
Maybe he was used to itâthe way the world rearranged itself around him, the way nature bowed and blinked and breathed differently wherever he walked.
Maybe heâd never known a forest that didnât follow.
He took another step toward you.
He was close enough now that you could see where the flesh on his cheekbone pulsed faintly, still clinging to old life. Where blood had dried in a crooked path down his exposed jaw. Where some of his teeth werenât perfectly sharp at allâsome had chipped, split, yellowed in ways that proved he hadnât always been what he was now. He had once been a man.
You stared. Not at the horror. At the detail.
His collar was unbuttoned. There was a ring of skin just below his throat that was somehow clean, as if protected by the chain that still hung there.
âYouâre real,â you breathed, as much to yourself as to him.
He smiled again. Small, head bowed slightly. Like the thought embarrassed him.
âAye,â he said. âAt least I was.â
Your heart skipped. The accent curled around that last wordâwasâturning it melancholic and soft. He sounded deeply lonely in a way that didnât scream or shudder, but bled slow and quietâlike a candle left to burn itself out in a chapel no one prayed in anymore.
You didnât realize your hand had risen until he caught it. His grip wasnât strong. In fact, it was hesitant. Loose. Like he feared you might flinch, and he was giving you time to do it. To reject it.
You didnât.
His thumb dragged over the small wound on your finger where your glove was torn. The one youâd cut on the tree. Your blood had dried there, rust-colored and still.
ââSâwhat woke me,â he murmured. âThis wee thing.â
You tried to speak, but the words tumbled over each other, panic and fascination tangled in your throat. âWhat are you?â
Remmick looked up at you, then down at your hand in his. He didnât let go.
âI was a man once,â he said. âBefore they put me in the ground like a secret.â
There was no anger in his voice. No grief. Just barebones honesty.
âI remember cold,â he continued. âI remember beinâ bound.â His brows drew together. âI remember hunger.â
You swallowed.
His head tilted slightly again. âBut now I remember you.â
You opened your mouth to deny it, to tell him he was wrong, that you werenât anyone, that this was all a mistake. That you werenât his. That you werenât meant to be anything.
But the woods behind you had gone too still. And he was staring at you with a gaze so tender it made your stomach twist.
âYe came in white,â he said, voice softer now. âLike a bride. Ye gave blood. Ye spoke vow.â He brushed a skeletal knuckle to your chin with aching slowness, the bone surprisingly soft, âdonât reckon the veilâs far behind.â
The branches rustled above, though there was still no wind. You realized the forest wasnât closing in. It was gathering.
And RemmickâŚhe was looking at you like he was home.
It was no longer night in the way night should be.
Time moved differently now. The sky above bled grey and silver and rust, but the moon never shifted from its throne behind the trees. The light stayed fixed in place, like the forest had slipped sideways into some pocket behind the world. Hours passed like fog. You slept, but never fully. You walked, but your feet left no prints.
And RemmickâRemmick stayed near.
Not hovering. Not leering. Just there, always just far enough not to crowd you, yet always within reach, like the forest had redrawn its laws to keep him at your side. Like you were its axis now.
You thought of Langdon.
Of his voiceâmeasured, polished, practiced. The kind of voice that never raised itself above a certain register, as though passion was unsightly. He had a way of looking at you that always felt more like study than affection. Like you were something to be assessed, not adored. His fingers, when they grazed yours, were cold from gloves and colder still beneath them. Everything about him had been lacquered to a shine: his shoes, his manners, his hollow future he spoke of with such sterile pride.
You remembered one night, not long ago, when youâd dined together at his family estate. A private supper. Three courses. Too many forks. Youâd asked him if he liked poetry.
He blinked. Set down his wine glass. âI tolerate it,â he said. âIn women.â
That had been it.
No questions in return. No warmth. No wanting.
Youâd spent the rest of the meal smiling at your plate, wondering if it would be considered madness to simply climb out the window and run.
And nowâhere.
Now, you were with a man whoâd crawled out of the earth, with dried blood under his nails and a ruined jaw, and somehow he made you feel safer than any lace-draped parlor ever had. Remmick, who flinched when he touched your skin like you were the sacred thing. Remmick, who didnât ask you to perform, or flatter, or prove anythingâwho simply stayed close because he wanted to be near.
He was a walking corpse.
And he seemed more human than Mr. Langdon had ever been.
Remmick spoke in murmurs. Half-conversations.
âMy folk used to call this part the belly,â he said, gesturing toward a clearing that bloomed only with pale fungi and white moss. âSaid the trees grew too thick with memory. Said it werenât safe for the livinâ.â
You stepped forward slowly, the hem of your gown brushing through the hush of strange underbrush. The clearing pulsed in stillness, like something held its breath just beneath the surface.
The fungi were long-necked and ghostly, some capped in translucent bells, others curled like fingers mid-spasm. They glowed faintly in the darkânot enough to see by, but enough to feel seen.
Overhead, the trees now leaned inward with impossible arches. Their bark smooth and gray as drowned bone, and where knots shouldâve been were instead hollowed faces, soft and suggestive, as though the trunks had grown around someone who once leaned too long against them. One of the branches creaked in a slow, pendulum sway, even though there was no wind.
You tilted your head. The white moss underfoot looked soft, invitingâuntil you noticed it wasnât growing in any natural pattern. It coiled in tight spirals, some large enough to circle your slippered feet, others small and delicate as lacework.
When you asked what he meant, what memory had to do with the trees, he only gave a crooked smile and pointed at your feet.
You looked down. The moss had formed perfect circles beneath your heels.
Spirals.
âSee?â he said. âSheâs already learninâ you.â
And sure enough, even as you stood there, the spiral beneath you shifted. Just slightly. Not like a plant reacting to pressure, but something aliveâtracing the shape of your sole, marking your weight, remembering the heat of your blood. It liked you.
Or worseâit recognized you.
He never called the place a graveyard. He called it âthe kept.â
You first saw them while following a worn path between black pinesâstones laid flat into the dirt, unmarked, sunk deep with age. You almost stepped on one before he reached out and caught your wrist, not harshlyâjust quick.
âAye, mind where ye tread,â he said, voice gentle, Irish vowels lilting around the warning. âThey donât take kindly to beinâ disturbed.â
You stared at the stone. And then you realized it was moving. Not rising. Not moaning. But the soil above itâit breathed.
You took a step back, heart climbing into your throat.
âThey donât wake unless theyâre called,â Remmick said softly. âBut they listen.â
Far off, from a hollow deeper in the woods, a chime echoed. High and delicate, like a piano key played underwater. Another answered, lower, more metallic. You didnât see the source, but you could feel them vibrating in your bones. And yet it didnât frighten you.
He never told you how he died. You tried to ask. More than once.
The first time, he looked away. The second, he closed his mouth mid-sentence and didnât speak for a full hour. Not angry. Never angry. Justâwithdrawn. The third, he reached up and touched the ruined side of his jaw, as if heâd forgotten it was there.
Then he whispered, âNot yet,â and nothing more. You didnât press.
Some things, you could feel, were kept buried by more than soil.
It was on the fifth dayâif you trusted your own bodyâs clockâthat you tried to leave.
You didnât make a show of it. You waited until Remmick went still beneath the shade of a hollow tree, head tipped back, eyes closed like he was listening to something beyond your hearing. You crept away quietly. You didnât look back.
You hadnât meant to stay that long. You told yourself it was only curiosity, only caution, only until you understood what he was. But the forest had begun to feel too quiet in the right places. Remmick had begun to speak too softly, like a prayer meant only for you. And that was precisely the problem. He was too gentle. Too kind. Too patient.
You werenât supposed to like any of thisâwerenât supposed to be lulled by a dead manâs voice or find comfort in a world where bones lined bird nests and laughter came from unseen mouths. You ran not because you feared him. You ran because, terrifyingly, you didnât.
At first, the trees parted for you. The path unfolded.
You ran.
You didnât cry. You didnât call his name. You just ran. But the forestâŚit shifted.
The branches overhead grew too low, too tangled. Vines curled beneath your feet like hands reaching out to stop you. A bramble reached out like a whip and slashed across your collarbone, slicing clean through the dress, nicking your skin just enough for blood to bead along the uneven seam of your cut. Still, you kept going.
Until you hit it.
The edge.
It wasnât a wallânot exactly. It was air. Thick, humming, wrong. The veil between life and death. When you stepped into it, your skin felt like it peeled. Your lungs refused to fill. The world blurred and bent at the corners like warped glass.
You stumbled back, coughing. Gasping. Remmick was there. Not chasing. Not angry. Just there.
He caught you around the middle before your knees buckled, arms strong but careful, like you were made of spun sugar and he was afraid you'd shatter.
âSshh, now,â he whispered, curling you to his chest, soothing, the brush of his lips, the bloodied network of muscle fiber and tendons woven through his jaw pressed to the side of yours, wet and textured, âeasy, easy, youâre alright.â
âIâI had to try,â you managed, fingers curling into the lapels of his jacket. âI didnât want to stay. I didnât mean toâI can't stay.â
âShhh,â he soothed again. âI know.â
You felt him exhale into your hair. Slow. Shaky.
âI know wee bride,â he murmured, the accent softening everything it touched. âBut she donât open the same way twice. Not once sheâs taken a name.â
You pressed your forehead into his shoulder, trembling. And for the first timeâyou wondered. Not how you got here. Not how to undo it.
But if you even should.
You thought of Langdon. Of his thin lips, the contracts, the expectations. Of your mother, her quiet threats tucked into lace gloves. Of the veil that felt more like a burial shroud than a blessing.
And then you thought of the way Remmick had caught youâlike a man catching the last soft thing left in the world.
Laterâhow much later, you couldnât sayâyou sat with him in the moss-ringed clearing where the mushrooms bloomed like broken teeth, soft and damp and glowing faintly blue at their tips. The forest had gone quiet again, but not heavy this time. Not watching. It simplyâŚwas.
Remmick had taken to lying on his side, propped on one elbow, his ruined jaw turned slightly from view, though you were never sure if it was for your comfort or his.
His fingertips brushed through the withered stems, and chose one near the base of a crooked stone. It was long-dead, crumpled and brittle at the edges, the color all but drained. He held it up between thumb and forefinger, and as he rolled the stem, you watched something shift. The petals darkenedâdeepenedâlike blood soaking back into flesh. It bloomed, slow and unnatural, into the shape of a dried red rose. Not living, not quiteâbut remembering life. Like something dressed for mourning.
âThese only grow where the veilâs thin,â he said quiet-like, voice laced with that low, lilting Irish bend. âWhere things slip in and out. Couldnât say for certain which side theyâre meant for, if Iâm honest.â
You didnât reply. You just looked at him.
There was dirt under his nails. sediment clinging to his collarbone. His oxfords were still caked in grave mud, but he hadnât touched you with anything other than gentleness.
Your voice felt small when you spoke. âWhy did you wait?â
Remmick blinked slowly. His fingers stilled.
You clarified before he could pretend not to understand. âAll this time. You said you felt me. But you were already down there, werenât you? In the earth. Waiting for someone to call you back. Why?â
He didnât answer right away. Didnât shift. Didnât look at you. And just when you were sure he wouldnât speakâhe did.
âI didnât know I was waitinâ,â he said, voice gone low, just a touch rough. âNot truly. Time goes quiet when youâre laid under like that. Yâdonât count the years. Some days, yâdonât even remember your own name.â
He looked at the sky through the trees.
âSometimes Iâd dream oâ faces. Yours, maybe. Or someone who looked like ye. Sometimes Iâd think I heard someone weepinâ. Iâd think, was it me?â
You felt your chest tighten. Remmick smiled again, faint and lopsided, like a man recalling a song he hadnât sung in years.
âBut when I felt ye, I knew. I knew it werenât just hunger or ghosts or wind. I knew it was real. Ye bled for me. Ye called for me.â He glanced over. âNo oneâs ever done that before.â
You stared at him. At his hands, broad and veined. At the faded chain around his throat. At the ring youâd slipped, thoughtlessly, onto the hand of a tree like a promise.
A tree that had promised back.
âI didnât know what I was doing,â you said.
âI donât care.â
You swallowed.
He said it without venom. Without accusation. Justâresolute. And maybe something softer curling underneath. He rolled onto his back, the moss giving way beneath him like a cradle.
âIâd have waited another thousand years for that drop of blood,â he said, quiet now. âAnother thousand after that just to hear your voice say I do.â
You turned away. Not because you didnât believe him. But because some part of you did. And it made your throat ache.
Your gaze drifted to the edge of the clearing, where the trees stood thick and close.
âWill it ever open again?â you asked. âThe forest.â
Remmick didnât move. âAye. Someday. When sheâs good and ready.â
âAnd if Iâm not here when it does?â
He was quiet for a beat too long. Then:
âThen Iâll follow.â
That made you look back. He didnât smile this time.
âIâd walk through fire to find you, wee bride.â
His voice was still Irishâbut there was something else behind it now. Something old. Ancient. Something so sure of its longing it didnât need to shout. It just was.
You realized, in that moment, how terribly lonely he mustâve been. How quiet his world had become. How loud your heartbeat must be to him now.
And how warm you still were.
He asked if you wanted to see the rest.
Didnât demand. Didnât lead without waiting. JustâŚoffered.
With a hand half-outstretched and those eyes still puppy-wide, still lit like you were a miracle he was afraid to touch too quickly, lest you vanish into smoke.
You hesitated. But not long.
The forest parted for you both this time. Not like it had when you tried to run. Now it was more likeâinviting. The way a house might creak its doors open when it recognizes one of its own.
You slipped your hand into his, the one that still wore flesh. His fingers were cold, yesâbut not corpse-cold. Not the kind that bit. His hand was rough in places, as though heâd lived long enough to carry calluses even through death. His thumb flexed gently along your knuckles, testing. Not possessive. JustâŚchecking.
Reassuring himself you were real.
He showed you the orchard first. Or what was left of it.
A grove of trees that no longer bore fruit, only ribbonsâhundreds, thousands of them, hanging from the branches like wilted party streamers. Blue, white, ivory, pale lilac. Some patterned, some torn, some fraying from centuries of wind.
You reached up and touched one.
âTheyâre wishes,â Remmick said, voice softer than ever, his breath beside your cheek. âMade by the dead. Before they were buried.â
You turned to him.
âBut they never came true?â
His expression shiftedâfond, wistful.
âSome did. Some didnât. Doesnât matter.â He touched the ribbon nearest to him, the pad of his thumb brushing its edge. âItâs the hoping that counts, innit?â
You said nothing. The breeze moved the orchard like a lullaby.
Further in, he showed you a town of sorts.
Carved into the side of a crumbling cliff where the rock split into ribs and the stone seemed to breathe, the little village clung to the earth like a half-forgotten secret.
The houses were squat mudstone cottages, weathered and slouched, their chimney pots crooked like snapped fingers. Moss crept up their sides in thick velvety bands, swallowing old lanterns, window frames, and entire doorsteps. Windowpanes blinked with eyes pressed from the inside.
The doors were low and arched, some made of driftwood painted in peeling funeral huesâdeep violet, waxy blue, iron black. A few homes had teacups balanced on their roofs. Others had shingles shaped like fingernails or pressed flowers. Bones hung from strings between rafters, clacking gently in the hush, arranged like wind chimes or family crests, each one carved or etched with little initials, or painted with the ash of something you couldnât name.
A skeletal cat darted past your ankles, all jangling vertebrae and twitching tailbone, its paws clicking faintly against the cobbled path. Its jaw hung open in a rictus grin. You didnât scream. It looked up at you onceâempty sockets glittering faintlyâand carried on.
And then the town began to move.
A shutter creaked open. A door whined on its hinges. A hatless man with no lower jaw swept the stoop of what looked to be a bakery, the scent of charred sugar and burnt cinnamon floating faintly from within. He nodded at you politely, bits of soot falling from the collar of his shirt, and kept sweeping. Further down the lane, a trio of old women sat in rocking chairs that had been nailed directly into the wall of a houseâsideways, five feet off the groundâand knitted with thread made of silver hair. One of them had no eyes. The second had too many. The third winked at you with a socket.
âDonât mind them,â Remmick murmured. âThey been there long as I can remember. Like to keep to themselves.â
He led you past a crooked fountain that spewed a slow, syrupy trickle of black water, and through a crooked square strung with dim, blue lanterns that hung from lengths of discolored intestine braided like ribbon. In the center was a music box the size of a carriage, its brass bell warped and dented, still playing a waltz you could swear you remembered hearing in a dream long ago. No one danced to itâbut some of them swayed.
There was a tailorâs shop with mannequins made of stitched skin and bent spoons. A chapel whose bell tower rang without sound. A bar, glowing faintly green from the inside, where shadows moved across the windows though the glass had long since clouded over with frost from the wrong side. A child floated by without legs, giggling into a jar that held a swarm of candleflies. You saw a man with a flowerpot for a head watering it with tea. A woman selling buttons shaped like teeth.
This was not a place that mourned death.
This was a place that remembered it, wore it, built tea tables from it.
Remmick led you down a sloping path toward a cottage built halfway into the stone, the door crooked, the curtains made of faded funeral veils.
âThis was mine,â he said, his voice almost sheepish. He toed at the dust near the doorstep, head ducked slightly.
âWhen?â you asked.
He smiled faintly, lifting a shoulder. âWhen the veil was thinner. When the dead and the livinâ shared more than just memory.â
He said it like someone recalling the smell of something theyâd never taste again. Like someone whoâd tried, once, to live after heâd been buried.
You looked around you.
The town wasnât decayed. It wasâŚrearranged. It had rules you didnât yet understand. Gravity worked only where it felt like it. The dead did not walk in straight lines. Some glided. Some bounced. Some stitched themselves together fresh each morning and wandered about humming.
And the strangest thing of all?
You didnât feel afraid.
Not in the way you should have. Not even when you turned around and the fountain had grown teeth. Not even when a man tipped his hat and his entire scalp followed. Not even when a door sighed open with a voice like your own and whispered, Stay.
Remmick was beside you, his body casting a shadow even here, where most things didnât. He looked at you not like you were lostâ
But like you were home.
That nightâyou still called it night, even though the moon hadnât movedâhe brought you to a bridge.
It spanned over nothing. No river. No ravine. Just a stretch of fog and sky. A ghost bridge.
You sat beside him at the edge, your legs dangling off as if you could fall somewhere, though you knew you wouldnât. He sat close. Close enough that your shoulder brushed his.
He didnât move away.
âUsed to dream oâ this,â he admitted, after a long silence. âNot the forest. Not the dirt. Not the blood.â
He looked over at you, slowly.
âJust this. You. Here.â
You couldnât answer. Your throat ached again.
His voice dropped, deep in his chest, accent thick with emotion he couldnât hide. âHavenât been touched since they put me down.â
The confession wasnât vulgar. Wasnât even pleading. It was starved. He smiled, crooked and small. âCanât remember the last time someone justâŚlooked at me. Like I wasnât somethinâ to be feared.â
He didnât touch you again, not even your hand.
He didnât need to.
Your fingers brushed his pinky. Slowly. Once.
And his breath hitched so sharp you felt it in your bones.
By the next dayâif you could still call it thatâyou werenât watching the sky anymore. Werenât thinking about what the world looked like outside these woods.
You walked the paths beside him. You listened to the hush of wind that sang like violins through cracked branches. You let him point out where the ghost-lanterns grew, little flowers with glass bell-heads that chimed when you passed them. You started remembering the feel of his shoulder bumping yours and missing it when it wasnât there.
And you started to wonder.
Would it really be so terrible if you stayed?
You asked yourself that once. Then again. Then again.
At first it was just a whisper behind your ear. A suggestion. But now it nestled behind your ribs. Grew there. Took root.
Because you remembered Langdon, didnât you?
You remembered his hand on your waist at supper, always too firm, like you were something to steer. You remembered how he spoke over you in every conversation, like a man correcting a child he hadnât bothered to raise. You remembered how the ringâhis ringâhad been handed to you by someone else. No kneeling. No asking. Just expectation.
You remembered the way his lips never curled unless he was closing a deal.
And then there was Remmick.
Who asked if you wanted to see the rest. Who offered you his hand like it might be too much. Who waited every time you hesitated, and looked like it hurt him to do so.
He smiled with his whole mouthâruined and all. He grinned when you laughed, even if he didnât understand why. He softened around you like someone desperate to remember warmth. Every time he brushed against you, it wasnât accidental. It was careful. Measured. Hopeful.
He looked at you like he was still not sure he deserved to.
You sat on the bridge again. Together.
Remmick had his hands in his lap, thumbs tracing nervous circles against each other. Every now and then, heâd glance at you. Say nothing. Then glance again.
You finally looked back.
âWhat is it?â you asked.
He startled slightly, sheepish. âAhânothinâ. I justâŚâ
His jaw clicked when he closed his mouth, then tried again.
âYe donât wear nothinâ on your finger,â he murmured.
Your breath caught. âRemmickââ
âNo, no, love, I didnât mean it like that,â he said quickly, huffing a laugh with no sound. âI know ye didnât mean what ye said under the tree. I know ye werenâtâŚye werenât askinâ for all this.â
He paused, eyes dropping to the ring still on his own hand, the one you'd given him. âI just thought,â he added, quieter now, âmaybe itâd feel a little less lopsided, is all.â
You didnât know what to say. But your silence wasnât rejection.
He must have felt that, because something flickered behind his eyes. He turned his palm over, and reached into the inside pocket of his coat. From it, he drew something strange.
A spool of hair, spun fine as threadâwhite and silvery-blue, like spider silk in moonlight. A broken thorn. A sliver of bone, no longer than a sewing needle. And the petal of one of those ghost-lantern flowers, shriveled but still glowing faintly at the edges.
He looked at you. Not for permission, exactly. Just to be sure you were still there.
Then he began.
He wrapped the hair into a loop, whispered to it in a language you didnât understandâsoft, low, rhythmic, like a lullaby hummed through soil. The thorn pierced the bone. The petal melted as it touched the band, fusing everything together in a slow flicker of light. It wasnât magic like fireworks. It was quieter than that. Sadder. But it was real.
When it cooled, it had taken shape.
A ring. Fragile-looking, but solid. Matte white, like pearl gone to sleep. Veined faintly in red.
He offered it, resting on the flat of his palm like an offering. You looked at it. Then at him.
âItâs not a bindinâ spell,â he said softly. âIâd never do that to ye. Itâs just aâŚa mark. That yeâve been seen. That someone loved ye enough to make it.â
Your breath caught. You reached out, fingers trembling, and took the ring. And when you slipped it onâ
The forest sighed.
Branches curled in. Flowers blinked open. The bridge beneath your feet thrummed like a harp string plucked once, gently.
And RemmickâRemmick made the smallest sound.
A choked inhale. Then, in a voice so soft it broke your heart:
âYe look like someone worth waitinâ for.â
You don't remember dozing off.
But you didâstill sitting beside him on the bridge, the soft weight of the ghost-ring warming your finger, his presence beside you steady as the moon that never shifted in the sky.
And when you woke, he was gone.
You startled upright, heart lurching. Your hand flew to the ring firstâstill there. Then to the edge of the bridgeâstill solid. The air felt heavier. Scented with something faint and iron-rich.
You called his name.
No answer.
Not at first.
You stood, blinking the fog from your lashesâand thatâs when you saw it.
Laid carefully across the planks of the bridge, stretching in a line from your feet to the treeline beyond, was a trail of dead butterflies.
Hundreds of them. Each one perfectly intact, wings folded like prayer hands. Black as pitch with veins of crimson. Their bodies still. Sleeping. Dreaming. Waiting.
You followed.
Each step brought a rustle beneath your slippers, the softest stir of powder-dust wings. And up aheadâbeneath the crooked trees that hung low like eavesâthere he stood.
Remmick.
He had one hand behind his back, and his head tipped, sheepish as ever, like heâd been caught with something sinful in his pocket.
âDidnât mean tâworry ye,â he said, voice soft.
You looked at the butterflies. Then back at him.
âWhatâŚis this?â
His smile wobbled.
âA bit of foolishness, maybe. Or maybe not.â He stepped forward, still holding whatever it was behind his back. âBack where Iâm from⌠when we had no coin, no land, no dowry to offerâonly things weâd taken from the earthâweâd still find a way tâmake a gift.â
He stepped closer.
âAnâ the most prized thing a man could offerâŚâ He brought his hand forward.
In it, he held a locket.
But not gold. Not silver. It was made of bone, carved smooth and rounded into the shape of a heart. Not anatomically perfectâno, it was whimsical and off, a little uneven, the way a child might draw one. Etched into the surface were little spiral markingsâlike the moss had made beneath your heels that first day.
He opened it.
Inside was a pressed bluebell, perfectly preserved, its color dimmed to twilight. Across from it was a single mothâs wing, paper-thin and gleaming dully like wet stoneâits veins iridescent, its edge slightly frayed. It shimmered like dusk and felt like a secret, as if it had been plucked from some dream before it could end.
Remmick didnât explain right away. He only watched you open it, watched your thumb trace the curve of the petals, the fragile line of the wing. When he did speak, his voice had gone quieter, almost reverent.
âThâbluebell,â he said, âthey grow oâer graves where the dead were loved. Not all graves. Just the ones where someone wept hard enough tâwater the earth.â
Your fingers stilled.
"And the wing?" you asked.
He hesitated. His eyesâthose soft, wolf-sad thingsâlowered.
âShe followed me once,â he said. âWhen I had no body. When I werenât really a man at all. Sheâd land on me shoulder. Wouldnât leave. Thought maybe sheâd carry me soul somewhere if it ever got light enough.â
His smile came crooked. âShe never did. ButâŚI kept her. Just in case.â
You looked down at the locket again. At the love tucked carefully inside itânot gaudy, not gold, not spoken in flowers or poems, but in grief. In memory. In quiet things that didnât ask for attention, only to be kept.
That was how he loved, you realized. Not loudly. Not demanding.
But devoutly.
With mourning in his blood and hope in his teeth. And you, wearing that little bone heart, felt something ancient stir beneath your ribs. Like maybe you'd been waiting for this placeâthis grave-bound manâjust as much as he'd been waiting for you.
You blinked. Then laughed. It startled even you, the sound of it. But he didnât flinch. Just watched, like youâd handed him the sun.
âI know itâs not what youâre used to,â he said, scratching the back of his neck, that left side of his face pulling with a skeletal twitch where the wound exposed too much. âBut Iâd like you to have it. If you want it.â
You took it with both hands.The weight of it pressed into your palms like a heartbeat. You looked at him.
At his eyesâthose wide, sorrowful things that glowed only faintly red now, not from hunger, but hope. At the way he didnât reach for you, didnât presume. Just stood still. Waiting.
You reached up. Tied the chain around your neck. It settled just above your collarbone. Close to your throat. Close to where he watched your pulse.
When your hand brushed his chest afterâjust lightly, just shylyâhe let out the breath heâd been holding like it was his last. That was the moment you knew.
Not the rose. Not the bridge. Not the ribbon orchard. Not even the ring.
This.
This strange, mournful creature who had carved you a heart from the bones of the dead. Who watched you like you were worth every moment of his waiting. Who asked for nothing except to love you.
And you thoughtâ
I feel more alive here, in this place of ghosts and ghouls and goblins than I ever did among the living.
You didnât say it. But you didnât have to. Because the forest heard you.
And so did he.
You held the locket in your palm long after it cooled, long after the weight of his gaze had easedâbut not faded. He didnât speak again. Only watched you with that tremble behind his smile, like he was scared his own heart might make too much noise and scare you off.
You looked at him. Really looked.
The sharp, wolfish teeth. The wound yawning over the right side of his jaw, red-veined and lipless but somehow not grotesqueâjust raw, unhealed, honest. The way his suit jacket hung slightly crooked over his frame. The moss in his hair from when heâd laid down in the grove beside you and listened to your voice like it was music. The wedding band still on his finger, slightly dirty with time passing but not with meaning.
You thought of the bluebell. Of the moth wing. Of all the things buried. And you asked, gently, âyou never did get to kiss your bride, did you?â
He blinked. His breath caught like a match about to light. âNo,â he said, slowly, voice cracking around the edges, thick with barely restrained emotion. âNever did.â
You stepped closer. Bare feet brushing bone-white moss, slippers silent as ghosts. The town behind you stirred like something dreamingâwarm, moon-drowsy lamplight spilling from crooked windows. A cart creaked past on rusted wheels, pulled by a skeletal mule with eyes like glow-worms. Somewhere overhead, a thousand paper bats took flight from the belfry, flapping on stringy wings like dying leaves.
You lifted your hand.
Touched his faceâgently, gentlyâcupping the uninjured side, but letting your thumb rest just at the edge of that ruined jaw. He didnât flinch. He didnât lean in.
He justâŚstood there. As if he was scared his own desire might shatter him.
âThen kiss her now,â you whispered. âSheâs right here.â
Remmickâs eyes burned. Not metaphorically. Literally.
A ring of red swallowed his dark gazeâglowing like coals in a hearth that hadnât felt breath in years. His lips parted, a tiny whimper caught between them. His hand twitched at his side, then liftedâhovering over your waist, then pulling back, trembling.
âIââ he choked. âTell me if yâdonât want it. Iâll wait, I swear, justâjust say it, anâ Iâll wait âtil the grave grows cold.â
You didnât answer.
You kissed him.
It wasnât graceful. It wasnât chaste. It was raw and starved and aching. His hand finally landed on your back, gripping your gown in a fist like it was the only thing tethering him to the world. His mouth was coldâunnaturally soâbut the longer it moved against yours, the warmer it got, like you were coaxing heat back into him.
He whimpered into you.
That soundâragged and smallâwas almost too much.
His other hand found your cheek. Not greedy. Just reverent. Like he couldnât believe you were solid under his fingertips.
And all around you, the forest bloomed.
Not with roses or liliesâbut with boneflowers and glowing toadstools, with lantern-bugs that lit the air like constellations. Wind chimes made from ribs began to sing, and the belltower rang once, a low, humming note that quivered like a heartbeat.
You didnât want to pull away.
Not because it was perfect. But because it wasnât. Because it was messy and trembling and stitched together from grief and longing and the quiet, sacred madness of being wanted exactly as you were.
When you finally parted, his forehead dropped to yours.
âChrist above,â he whispered, voice gone soft and accented and wet with disbelief, âYe taste like warmth. Like bloody spring after a thousand years oâ frost.â
You smiled.
Because for the first time in your life, you believed someone meant it.
His forehead rested against yours, breath shaky and uneven as if heâd forgotten how to need anything until now.
The world around you hummed in its stillness. Lantern-light flickered like breath behind gauze. Something in the cliffs sighedâthe sound of wind moving through the hollow spaces of a place not meant for the living. The scent of old parchment and smoke-moss clung to the air. The boneflowers glowed dimmer now, like candles burned low in anticipation.
Remmickâs hand still cradled your cheek, reverent as a benediction. His thumb moved once, a trembling stroke along your jaw.
You looked at him. Really looked. The way his lashes fluttered like he couldnât hold your gaze too long. The way his lipsâwet, bitten, partedâtrembled just slightly even though heâd stopped kissing you. He looked stunned. Like a man waking from a century-long dream and realizing heaven hadnât been a lie after all.
You pressed your hand over the one still clutching your back.
And you asked, very softly, âIs there somewhere we can go?â
He blinked. âGo?â
Your thumb brushed his wrist.
âSomewhere private,â you said. âSomewhere we can be alone.â
You let the weight of your meaning hang there, open. Raw.
His eyesâstill rimmed in that glowing red, still almost black where the light didnât touchâwidened just slightly.
He didnât speak right away.
Then: âYâye meanâŚâ
You nodded.
He let out a breath that wasnât a laugh, wasnât a sob, but something caught in the middle. His jaw flexed, the muscles around the torn part twitching as if it ached to smile and didnât remember how.
âAye,â he said at last, breathless. âAye, IâChrist. Câourse there is.â
You followed him through the quiet town, through paths lined with broken gravestones and wrought-iron gates wrapped in black ivy. The skeletal mule lifted its head as you passed, but didnât move. The sky flickered between colors that didnât exist abovegroundâindigo, absinthe green, deep plum, midnight rust.
The house he led you to was small, crooked, nestled between two weeping trees. Its windows were frosted over from the inside, but lanterns glowed behind themâsoft and inviting, not gold but something bluer, like the edge of candlelight seen through tears.
He opened the door and held it for you, eyes not leaving your face even once.
And when you stepped inside, the house breathed around you.
Like it had been waiting too.
The moment you stepped inside, the door shut behind you with a hush like a drawn curtain. No click. No finality. Just the sound of something sealing the world awayâjust the two of you now, cocooned in this crooked little house where time didnât dare intrude.
It was warm, impossibly so. Not with fire, but with memory.
Lanterns floated untethered above the room, bobbing gently like sleeping fireflies in glass cages. Their glow was the color of old violets pressed between pagesâdim, wistful, soft. A chair sat crooked beside a hearth with no fire, its frame carved with sigils too old to name. The walls were mismatched wood and stone, patched in places with stained-glass panels that bled moody light across the floor. Dust danced in the air like confetti made from ash and pearl.
And across the room stood a bed.
Not some pristine matrimonial thing. No, this was older. Lovingly worn. A frame of twisted wrought iron and bone-white wood, headboard etched with curling ivy and crescent moons. The sheets were moth-gray and velvet-soft, tucked in neat but frayed at the edges like they'd been waiting for yearsâcenturiesâto be touched again.
Remmick lingered behind you, his presence like a shadow you didnât want to outrun. He hadnât stepped closer yet. He was giving you space. But you could feel the way he vibrated with restraint. His hand hovered just inches from your back, like he couldnât trust himself to touch without unraveling.
âIf yeâŚâ he began, and his voice cracked down the middle. He cleared his throat, tried again. âIf yeâve changed yer mind, just say the word. Iâll not take a thing ye donât want to give, not even a breath.â
You turned to face him.
There was nothing hungry in his stance. Not yet. Just reverence. Just awe. But something in you had already begun to ache with want.
You stepped closer, silent as snowfall, until your fingers found the button of his collar. He startled at the contactâbut didnât stop you.
âIâm not scared of you,â you said, voice hushed. âI want this.â
You slid off the suit jacket, palms skimming the broad expanse of his shoulders, Remmick's lashes fluttering in response. Underneath, you found a pair of suspenders stretched taut over his chest, creating wrinkles in the fabric of his collared dress shirt.
You undid the top button. He didnât move. Then Another.
His throat worked around a swallow, breath trembling. The glow in his eyes flickered, pulsing, softening. Like it responded to your touch.
Another.
You watched his chest rise and fall, slow and shallow as he tried not to pant. As if the sheer fact of you, undressing himânot in horror, not with trembling hands, but deliberatelyâwas too much.
Another.
You laid your palms flat against his chest now, pushing the shirt from his shoulders. The white wife beater underneath clung to him, threadbare and soft, stretched over his broad frame. He was muscular in that quiet, devastating wayâsomeone whoâd labored long past death. His chest heaved with breath he didnât need.
He hadnât stopped watching your face.
Not once.
âI dunno if I remember how to do this slow,â he murmured, voice hitching on every word. âIâm too far gone for gentle if ye ask me to take too much control.â
You smiled, cupping the side of his neck. The unbroken one.
âThen let me.â
You stepped back once, your own hands now at the hem of your gown, torn at the hem, blood dried like rust at your shin. You pulled it loose now, bit by bit, letting it fall from your shoulders with the softest sigh of fabric meeting floor, leaving you in just your panties.
Remmick stared. His lips parted. No sound. His knees bent slightly, like he was fighting the urge to fall to them.
âSweet hell,â he whispered, reverently. âYe look likeâŚlike the night I died dreaminâ someone might love me anyway.â
And then, as if the words had summoned it, the lanterns above bloomed brighter, casting kaleidoscope patterns over your bare skin. The stained-glass windows threw ribbons of blue and red and indigo across your collarbones, your hips, your thighs.
Remmick reached outâslowly, slowlyâand let the backs of his fingers trail along your arm. He didnât dare touch your breasts. Not yet. He touched the hollow of your elbow. The dip of your wrist. The edge of your shoulder where your gown had once kissed your skin.
âAre ye sure?â he breathed.
You nodded.
âLay with me.â
He exhaled like heâd been holding that breath since his last life.
And then he moved.
He moved like he wasnât sure he was allowed.
Like the spell might break if he touched you too boldlyâif he let himself believe for even a moment that he could have this. Have you.
You were already on the bed, the velvet beneath you rich and rippling like ink-stained water. Your head resting against moth-gray pillows. The locket heâd given you pressed cool against your breastbone, shifting with every breath. The air smelled of petrichor, moonlight, and something sweeterâsomething youâd begun to associate only with him. A scent like charred lilac and old longing.
Remmick knelt beside the mattress on one knee, wide palms gripping the edge of the frame like it was the only thing keeping him from coming undone.
âChrist, darlinâ,â he rasped, his voice thick, slurred just slightly with his Irish cadence. âYe donât know what yeâre doinâ to me.â
But you did.
You could see itâsee the way his jaw clenched, the left side twitching faintly where the skin had long since been torn away. The way his fangs caught on his lower lip, not bared, but thereâunavoidable. You could see how hard he was fighting himself, how deeply he was suppressing the parts of him he feared youâd flinch from.
You didnât flinch.
Instead, you reached for him, fingers curling into the front of his thin undershirt. Pulled him closer.
âRemmick,â you whispered. âItâs alright.â
He froze above you, nose inches from yours.
âI canâtââ
âYou can.â You cupped his cheek, gently thumbing along the edge of exposed muscle. Not in disgust. Not in pity. But in affection. âI want all of you.â
Something in him broke.
He surged forward with a noise caught between a sob and a growl, his mouth crashing against yours. It was not the kiss of beforeâthis one had heat, had desperation, the kind of longing that hadnât been touched in over a thousand years. His lips were cold, but his tongue burned. You tasted the salt of old grief and something copper-sharp beneath it. His handsâGod, those handsâone cupped your jaw while the other slid around your ribs, feeling flesh and bone simultaneously, cradling your back like you were sacred, like he might be punished for touching you too hard but couldnât stop himself even if he tried.
âSo softââ he whispered, kissing the corner of your mouth, then your cheek, then your neck. âSo fuckinâ soft, love, like the world before it souredâŚâ
His fangs dragged the faintest line along your throat. Not piercingâjust testing. Just tasting. His breath hitched like it pained him to hold back.
And you whispered again:
âItâs fine.â
That was all he needed.
A low, guttural moan tore from his chest as he finally let himself grip you harderâyour hips, your thighs, hauling you into his lap like he needed you closer, needed your skin pressed to his or he might rot again right there on the floor. His body was strong, stronger than a manâs shouldâve been, and you could feel that strength now as he spread your thighs wide and settled between them, the weight of him pressing down deliciously heavy.
He groaned when he felt the heat of you beneath the fabric, when your legs wrapped around his waist. He wasnât shy anymore. His teeth caught on your lower lip as he kissed you again, hungrier now, drooling slightly with wantânot from gluttony, but from sheer, unbearable starvation.
âYe smell like everythinâ Iâve ever lost,â he murmured raggedly. âAnd everythinâ I thought Iâd never be allowed to touch again.â
His hips rolled once, helplessly, against yours. You felt the hardness of him, thick and restrained behind old linen and buttons. His breath hitched, head dropping to your shoulder.
âIâm tryinâ, I swear it, Iâm tryinâ to be slowâŚâ
âYou donât have to be,â you told him, voice gone small and shaking. âIâm not afraid of you. I want you. All of you. Even the parts youâre trying to hide.â
He lifted his head slowlyâeyes glowing red now, the pupils huge and blown with need.
âFuckinâ hell,â he breathed. âMarryinâ me twice over, sayinâ that.â
You hadnât meant to tempt him. Not exactly. But youâd said the wordsâI want all of youâand now you could feel what that meant in the trembling of his fingers as they hovered over your body. Not touching. Not yet. Just breathing you in like he couldnât quite believe this was happening. That you were happening.
His voice cracked through the hush of the room. âDâyou know what yer sayinâ, love?â He cupped the back of your neck, gentle as a grave flower. His thumb dragged along your pulse like he was listening to it. âA thousand years oâ hunger in meâŚanâ you go sayinâ that?â
Your answer came not in words but in actionâpulling his hand down, pressing it against your chest so he could feel your heart race for him. For this. For the way his eyes glowed like twin embers in the dark.
That did it.
He surged forward, lips grazing the shell of your ear. âThen lie back for me, mo chroĂ,â he breathed. âLet me see what Iâve been dreaminâ of since before I knew what dreaminâ meant.â
You reclined against the velvet, heat curling low in your stomach, and Remmick followed you downâkneeling between your legs like a knight in a fairy tale gone all wrong and better for it. His skin caught the light, that blue like moonlight over still water, marred only by the right side of his jawâwhere muscle and bone were laid bare, yet never once did he try to turn his face away from you.
Because you didnât flinch.
You reached up and traced the edge of the torn flesh, and he shuddered, a sound like something old breaking loose in his chest.
He kissed you thenânot hurried, but deep, wet, needyâand his hand came to rest between your thighs, warm despite everything. His fingers traced the seam of your inner thigh first, featherlight, before his mouth followed. Down your jaw. Your throat. Lower.
Praise spilled from him like prayer:
âLook at yeâsoft as sin, warm as summer rainâainât never seen anythinâ like ye.â
He mouthed at your thighs, biting down just enough to make you gasp, but never break the skin. He lapped at the indentations like he wanted to memorize every tremble, every twitch. When your legs started to close reflexively, he hooked an arm around one, spreading you wider with a low, sinful groan.
âNo, no, love. Let me see. Let me taste. Itâs been so longâIâll be good, I swear it, Iâll make ye forget everythinâ but me.â
His hand moved between your legs againârough palm against soft heat. He doesn't remove your panties yet, content to tease you through the., letting the slick there soak into the cotton. He rutted his palm against you, slow and grinding, until your hips started chasing it.
You keened. And he moaned in responseâopen-mouthed, desperate.
âFuckinâ drippinâ fâr me alreadyâŚainât even had a tasteâŚâ
And he did.
One long stripe with his tongue over the damp cotton. Then another. Until he was panting into you like a starving man nosing through the seam of your underwear. One hand splayed over your belly, keeping you still.
Then he sucked the fabric into his mouth like he could wring the taste of you through it.
When you gasped, he looked upâeyes blown wide, red rimmed, lips wet and parted.
âBegginâ ye,â he whispered. âLet me have ye proper, yeah? Just me mouth for nowâlet me make ye sing, mo chroĂ, let me worship ye like the altar ye are.â
And when you noddedâmore a whimper than a yesâhe pulled your panties aside and groaned, deep and broken.
You didnât expect him to kiss your cunt.
But he did.
Like he meant it.
Like it was holy.
He parted you with reverenceâhis breath hot against your folds, one trembling hand holding your thigh like it anchored him to the earth. The other lay against your belly, fingers twitching as though resisting the urge to claw, to grasp, to sink into your softness and never let go.
And thenâŚhe kissed you.
Not rushed. Not ravenous. Just lips to flesh, slow and aching, as if the act itself might undo him. As if his very mouth might shatter around youâand heâd welcome the breaking.
Your back arched.
Not from shockâbut from the texture.
Because his mouth wasnât whole.
His lips were soft, yes. Warm, even. But where the skin gave wayâwhere bone and sinew lay exposed, where every sharp, imperfect tooth glistened with preternatural hungerâhis kiss became something otherworldly.
It shouldâve been frightening.
It wasnât.
It was devastating.
You felt it not just in your cunt, but in your spine, your ribs, your soul. He didnât just use his tongueâthough God, that tongue, wet and thick and curling with practiced strokes that told you he hadnât forgotten how to ruin a womanâhe used his mouth in full. The broken parts. The jagged ones.
He scrapedânot hard enough to hurt, but just enough to tease. Just enough to remind you this wasnât a dream. That this was him. Remmick. The dead man with the living hands. The monster with the gentle touch.
He licked you like you were spun sugar and sacrament, and when he pressed his tongue flat against your clit and sucked, your hands shot to his hair, tangled in it, dragging him closerâ
He moaned. Moaned into you, like the taste alone could kill him.
âChrist alive,â he rasped, pulling back for half a second to pant against your slick. His voice was wrecked, thick with emotion and want, thick with his Irish cadence.
He ducked back downâopen mouth, flat tongue, slow circles that made your thighs trembleâand then slid two fingers inside you in one smooth, devastating motion.
âTight little thing,â he whispered, âgrippinâ me like ye missed me your whole life.â
You sobbed something between his name and God and yes, your thighs clenching around his ears, and he groaned againâdeeper this timeârutting against the bed like he was getting off on the noises you made alone.
And somewhere between the moaning and the wet pop of his mouth over your clit, somewhere between the slurp of his tongue and the squelch of his fingers moving inside you, the thought cameâ
My mother warned me of what goes bump in the night.
She whispered it when you were little. When the winds howled. When the floorboards creaked.
She said, âThere are monsters, my love. Stay in the light.â
And now here you were, sprawled beneath one, flushed and soaked and gasping, letting him drag you apart with teeth and tongue.
You wondered what sheâd say if she saw you like this.
If she knew that youâd chosen the darkâand begged it to keep you.
You felt it coming.
Not like a stormâfast and brutalâbut like a tide, rising slow. Heat bloomed between your hips, slow and dangerous. Your thighs ached with the effort of keeping him there, like if you let go heâd vanish back into the earth that made him.
And still he stayed. Mouthing at your cunt like a man devoted. Like a man damned.
His eyes fluttered shut as his tongue circled your clit, drawing wet, lazy shapesâinfinity, you thought, or a nameâuntil you couldnât tell where his mouth ended and your body began.
And thenâ
His eyes opened.
They glowed dimly at first, that reddish hue flickering like coal beneath ash. But when he felt your hand trembling against his scalpâwhen you whimpered âRemmick, Iââ, his gaze snapped to yours.
Locked. Frozen. Held. It wasnât lust you saw there. It was awe. It was reverence.
It was a man who hadnât been touched in thirteen hundred years, now watching youâbare, flushed, tremblingâfall apart beneath his mouth like a blessing.
His lips glistened. His fingers curled inside you, stroking something sharp and sacred. And still, he didnât look away.
He stared at you like he was watching the stars be born. Like you were the only heaven he ever hoped to find.
And you knewâwithout him saying itâthat if you asked him to stop, he would. If you asked him to die again, he would.
But you didnât want that. You wanted more. So you said nothing.
You only whispered, voice shaking, âDonât look at me like that.â
His jaw twitched. His breath caught. Then came his voice, low and ruined:
âCanât help it, darlinâ. Ye look like salvation.â
And you broke.
Your thighs clamped around his ears. Your back arched. You came with a sound so soft it felt like mourning. Like prayer. Like surrender.
And Remmickâbeautiful, monstrous, tremblingâmoaned like heâd been given breath again.
He kept licking you through it. Slower now. Gentler. One last kiss to your clit, soft and grateful. He pressed his cheek to your thigh, jaw wound resting against your skin like it belonged there.
And still, his eyes never left your face.
After, you pulled him up.
He came willingly. Crawled over you with something almost shy in the set of his shoulders, the way his body trembled despite its strength. You reached for himâand for a moment, he hesitated, like he couldnât believe you were still here. That you wanted this. That you wanted him.
You cupped his face.
Cold skin. The torn edge of his right jaw like worn marble. One fang brushing your thumb where it passed his lip. His eyes flickered between black and redâuncertain, afraid he might be dreaming.
âRemmick,â you said, your voice thick and still breathless, âdo you want me?â
The question broke something in him.
He nodded too fast, like a man whoâs never been given permission to hope. âAye. Christ, aye, I doâbeen wantinâ ye since the trees took yer scent. Since ye bled on the bark and woke me.â
Your fingers trailed down his chest, down the wife beaterâuntil you reached his belt. He sucked in a breath, whole body twitching when your knuckles brushed the tented front of his trousers.
âThen show me,â you whispered. âShow me how much.â
His mouth twitched into a smile, wide and crooked. âYe donât know what ye ask, lass.â
You leaned up, lips brushing his jaw, your whisper soft and sharp against his skin. âThen show me anyway.â
He kissed youâharder this time, desperate now, hips grinding against your thigh with the ragged rhythm of a man barely keeping himself leashed. His tongue pushed into your mouth, all heat and hunger, and you could taste blood and lavender and something older, something wild, on his tongue.
And God, he kissed like he meant to die in your mouth. When he pulled back, his voice rasped, thick and low:
âYe sure?â
You nodded once. Twice. Then said it, clear and sure:
âI want to feel you inside me.â
He shuddered. Not just a trembleâbut a full-body quake, as if your words went deeper than skin, straight to the buried places inside him.
âThen lie back, ma wee bride,â he murmured, voice shaking, thick with that Irish lilt youâd grown to crave. âLet me make a proper mess of ye.â
He moved slowly, reverently, as he undressed you fully, fingers shaking as they peeled your underwear down. His breath caught at every inch of exposed skin, like he was memorizing it with his mouth slightly parted.
He bent low, kissed the inside of your thigh againâthen your hip, your stomach, your ribs. Worshipful. Starved.
And when he reached for himself, undid the buckle of his trousers with fumbling hands, he looked up at you once more, almost apologetic.
âIâahâmay not last long,â he confessed, shame flickering across his face. âNot when yeâre lookinâ at me like that. Not when Iâve waited this long. IâllâI'll make it up to ye, I swear itââ
You touched his face again.
âThen come undone for me, Remmick,â you whispered. âYouâve waited long enough.â
He lowered himself between your thighs like a man preparing for worship, not fucking.
His forehead pressed to your sternum. His breath trembled. You felt himânot just the weight of his body, but the heat of him, pulsing against your thigh, thick and straining beneath your touch.
And God, he was big.
You glanced down and saw itâlong and flushed dark at the tip, veined like marble, so hard he twitched in time with his breath. The way his cock curved heavy toward his stomach made your breath catch. He looked like something carved from sin.
He saw your eyes widen and started to pull back.
âIâIâll wait, love, Iâllââ
âNo,â you breathed, grabbing his arm. âI want it. I want you. JustâŚslow.â
He swallowed, hard. His throat clicked.
âGonna ruin ye,â he whispered, voice thick with Irish dusk and awe. âGonna stretch ye wide and deep and still wish I could go deeper.â
Your legs parted further on instinct. Your heels dragged the sheets. He looked down at you like you were something sacred, worshipped and half-afraid of.
Then his hand moved between your thighs.
His fingersâtwo at first, slow and carefulâslid back into your soaked heat, working you open gently, watching for every flinch, every sharp breath. His jawâhalf-torn and glowing faintly with the light of his hungerâtightened.
âLook at ye,â he whispered hoarsely, breath like a vow. âSo soft fâr me. So warm already.â
Your hips arched into his hand. You whined when his thumb brushed your clit, your hands clutching at his shoulders, his name escaping your lips again and again in half-sobs.
âPlease, Remmick,â you gasped.
He kissed your knee. Your hip. Your inner thigh again. Thenâ
He lined himself up with you, shaking. âI can feel ye callinâ fâr me,â he said, voice low, trembling. âCan feel yer body begginâ mine to belong.â
You didnât have words for what he made you feel. Only need. Only the hot, aching stretch inside as he finally pressed forward, the thick head of his cock nudging into you with aching slowness.
And Godâthe burn. It wasnât pain. It was too much and not enough all at once. You clutched his arms. Gasped. He froze.
âToo much?â he rasped. âDo I stop?â
âNoâRemmickâdonât stop,â you moaned, âjustâgo slowââ
And he did. So slow, like he was trying not to shatter.
His cock dragged deeper, inch by inch, your walls clutching at him, your slick coating him as he bottomed out in you with a shudder that shook his whole body. His arms shook. His forehead dropped to yours. His mouth opened but nothing came outânot until your name escaped his throat on a cracked, desperate sound that felt more like prayer than pleasure.
âFookinâ Christ,â he choked, barely moving, buried to the hilt inside you. âYe feelâGods aboveâye feel like fire.â
You were full. So full. Stretched in a way that left your eyes fluttering, your voice catching in your throat. You didnât want to move. Didnât want to breathe. You only wanted to feel him there, pulsing deep inside, trembling like you were the first sunrise heâd ever seen.
And maybe you were.
He stayed there, deep and still, as if even the smallest movement might break you. His eyes squeezed shut. His jaw flexed against the side of your throat. You could feel him shakingânot from strain, but from the restraint it took not to move.
You wrapped your arms around his neck.
âItâs okay,â you whispered, mouth brushing the shell of his ear. âI can take it.â
He didnât answer at first. Just trembled, breath warm on your shoulder. But the sound he made when your hips tilted upâwhen your walls squeezed gently around himâwasnât human.
It was a groan wrenched up from the deepest part of him. A sound centuries old.
âYe donât know what yeâre sayinâ,â he rasped. âYe donât know what Iâll do if ye tell me I canâŚâ
âI do,â you whispered, meeting his gaze. âI want you to.â
And thatâs what broke him.
The first thrust was shallow, but sharpâhis hips twitching forward, grinding deep. Your mouth fell open, a gasp slipping past your lips. He did it again. Then again. Each movement just a little rougher, a little more desperate. Until he was fucking you with the kind of pace that spoke of appetite, not lust.
He pressed you down into the sheets, breathing ragged, body arched over yours like he couldnât get close enough. His lips dragged down your throat, over your collarbone, mouthing at the tops of your breasts like a man starving.
He muttered something in Irish against your skinâraw, thick, ruinedâbut you didnât need to understand it. You felt what it meant in the way he rutted into you, deep and fast, his cock dragging along the parts of you no one else had ever touched.
You sobbed his name.
Your nails dug into his shoulders. You felt his back ripple beneath your hands, all sinew and strength, every part of him working to fuck you the way heâd been dreaming of since long before your first breath.
âYou feel me?â he groaned into your mouth. âDeep in that sweet lil cunt, aye? So warmâso wetâI could drown in ye.â
You cried out, back arching, thighs trembling.
His mouth kissed down your breast, licking over your nipple before sucking it between his teeth. Your whole body jerked beneath him.
âFook,â he breathed against your skin. âYeâre squeezinâ me like you like it when I lose mâself.â
âI do,â you sobbed. âI want you toâRemmick, pleaseâdonât stopââ
He didn't.
He pounded into you, hips snapping, the slick drag of his cock obscene as your bodies slapped together. His jaw wound gleamed faintly with wet, his eyes glowing a deep carnelian red. But even with his mouth parted, his teeth sharp, even with the beast in him taking holdâhe still looked at you like he loved you.
Loved you, even if he didnât dare say it yet. You clenched around him. His rhythm faltered.
He growled, low and broken, âTell me if I hurt ye, love. Tell meâswear itââ
âYouâre perfect,â you whimpered, tears slipping down your cheeks. âYouâre perfect, Remmick.â
His forehead dropped to yours. Then he rutted into you with such bruising depth, you saw stars.
He couldnât stop shaking.
Even as his body rocked into yours, even as your legs wrapped around his hips and your nails raked down the meat of his back, Remmick trembled like a man possessed.
âCanât hold mâself back,â he whispered, voice rough and wrecked and soaked in longing. âNot when yeâre like thisâsoft and begginâ beneath meâso fuckinâ warmââ
âThen donât,â you breathed. âRemmick, pleaseâdonât stopâdonât hold backâjust take meââ
Your words undid him.
He groaned low in his chest, mouth falling open, and something inside him slipped. His pace turned brutalânot cruel, never cruelâbut driven. Like centuries of craving finally had a body to answer to.
Like you were the only thing heâd ever wanted, and the wait had nearly broken him.
The frame of the bed creaked beneath his rhythm. Your thighs trembled around his hips, slick and trembling, your body rocked with every deep, ragged thrust. And stillâstillâhe tried to speak.
âYou feel me, yeah?â he rasped, forehead pressed to yours. âDeep in that sweet cuntâŚlike I belong there. Like I was meant to be thereâ"
Your hands curled at his nape. Your lips brushed his ear.
âYou do,â you said.
That was all it took.
Remmick let go.
His body slammed flush against yours, hips stuttering hard, cock pulsing deep inside you with a heat so full, so heavy, it knocked the breath from your lungs.
He groaned brokenly against your skin, his whole body arching as he spilled inside youâdeep, thick, endlessâhis forehead resting against yours like he had nowhere else left to go.
You clung to him. His breath hitched. Then again.
And when you looked down between your bodies, when your thighs parted with a sticky acheâyou saw the proof of him leaking back out of you, thick and warm where you were still stretched around the base of his cock.
A creamy ring of white.
Remmick saw it, too.
He moanedâdeep, gutturalâand pulled you closer, nosing at your throat like he was afraid youâd disappear. âSo full of me,â he whispered, dazed. âLook at ye. Stuffed so prettyâŚâ
You kissed the corner of his mouth.
âRemmick,â you whispered.
His eyes fluttered open.
And when you looked into themâwhen you saw the pain, the wonder, the sheer reverenceâyou knew. Heâd been waiting longer than youâd been alive. For this. For you.
His voice cracked, Irish accent trembling:
âDonât leave me, love. Not now. Not ever.â
You kissed him back.
âIâm not going anywhere.â
The air felt different after.
Not warmer, not colderâbut fuller. As if something ancient and unseen had exhaled at last. A spell released. A promise made flesh.
Remmick lay tangled beside you, arms wrapped tight around your body like he didnât know how to let go. His cheek pressed to your shoulder, jaw wound cool and tender against your skin. His breath was shallow, uncertainâlike he still couldnât believe you were real.
You watched the glow-worm lanterns drift lazily overhead. Somewhere outside, the bones in the wind chimes knocked gently together like teeth. The forest whispered.
You shouldâve been afraid.
Of the damp, breathing woods. Of the moss that learned your name. Of the way the moon never moved and the veil hung so thin you could taste it when you kissed him.
But you afraid. You wereâŚcalm.
He stirred slightly when you traced a lazy pattern down his backâsoft whorls against undead skin still damp with sweat. A low, content sound rumbled in his throat, and he nosed into the crook of your neck, whispering something like âmâwifeâŚâ so quietly, you werenât sure if it was meant for you or just the silence.
And God help you, you smiled.
It hadnât been love with Mr. Langdon. It hadnât even been kindness.
It had been a future written in ink not your own. One youâd been expected to accept without complaint, because it was tidy. Respectable. Fitting of a girl raised to smile politely, to never contradict her elders, to marry for property and speak only when spoken to.
Your mother had called it security.
Had warned you to stay away from things that wandered in the woods. From things with glowing eyes and sharpened teeth. Things that hungered.
And nowâ
Now you lay in a moss-slick bed of dirt and silk, bare and marked and full of one such thing. You wore his locket. His bite. His ring.
You brushed your fingers along the smooth place at your neck where his lips had lingered. A perfect bruise. A signature.
And still you werenât afraid. You werenât ashamed. You wereâŚ
Content.
âI wish Iâd met ye sooner,â he whispered against your collarbone. âBack when I still knew how to be a man.â
You turned your head, met his eyes. Those wide, glowing eyes.
âYou still are.â
He swallowed, expression caught between reverence and disbelief.
âI ainât decent,â he said, voice thick with that Irish lilt again. âAinât clean. Ainât right. I sleep in the dirt, I feed when I must, and I carry more ghosts than I do breath in mâlungs.â
âYouâre kind,â you said.
âA monster.â
âYouâre mine.â
He closed his eyes at that.
You rested your palm over his heartâcold and still. But when you pressed closer, you could swear something stirred there. Like an echo. Like a wish.
He buried his face in your chest, arms tightening around your waist. And you let him hold you.
You never looked back again.
Not at Langdon. Not at the mother who warned you off the dark but allowed the devil in anyway. Not at the world where your name was written beside a strangerâs in a church you hated.
Instead, you stayed in the belly of the forest. In the town built of bones and moss and memory. You watched the ribbons in the orchard sway like breath. You fed the skeletal cat scraps of peach and laughed when it swiped at your slipper. You kissed your husband when the wind moaned, and whispered promises against his cheek when his hands trembled.
Because you loved him. Because he waited.
And because when you reached for a tree with trembling hands and a bloodstained ring, he was the one who answered.
Not Langdon. Not God.
Him.
On the morning the bluebell bloomed againâonly one, shy and frost-bittenâyou knelt beside it with Remmick and whispered,
âMaybe this was the wish that came true.â
He stared at the bloom, then at you. And smiled.
âI ran from a man with a pulse,â you whispered, lacing your fingers through your undead husbandâs. âBut I stayed for the one with a soul.â
#what if you eloped with a folkloric cryptid and it was romantic actually#macbre meet-cute#arranged marriage to a living man? cringe. spontaneous vows to a crypt-dweller? peak.#i hope the world translated well!! Tim Burton is a very visual storyteller so I'm nervous lol#i had a lot of fun writing this one!!#sinners remmick#remmick#remmick x reader#remmick x you#remmick smut#remmick x reader smut#jack o'connell
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GUESS WHAT?
it's the 10 YEAR anniversary of the most amazing event EVER! *explodes like a confetti cannon*
that's right, tumbeasts, Dashcon happened TEN YEARS ago!!!!!
if you're new here and don't know what that is, LET ME LEARN YOU A THING:
Dashcon was an event just for US. for the freaks, the weirdos, the fangirls. it had cosplayers and fanfic writers and a BALLPIT. And--
[a comical *thunk* as lauren hits her imposter over the head with a shovel]
jesus, guys, sorry about that. something went wrong with my hybrid cloning/time machine.
ANYWAY. Dashcon happened 10 years ago this weekend and @overchers and I have episodes for this very occasion!
we talked to two brave Tumblr employees who were there:
and who also had amazing pictures to share, that we posted on the internet for the very first time!
and THEN we talked to Lochlan, the Tumblr user who started it all:
(transcripts for those episodes here and here)
so we've got dashcon coverage from both sides! get the inside scoop and relive the glory days.
#dashboard diaries#dashcon#tumblr cringe#tumblr#DD 06#DD 08#yes writing this did cost me untold psychic damage#i couldn't keep it up
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have fun with these :))) | tag me if you use any <333 | send a request if you want more
Getting overly jealous over small interactions.
"So what? You're dating them now?"
Overthinking and overanalyzing every single one of their crushes' actions/words, trying to figure out the intent behind them.
"Do they like me back, or not?"
"I can never figure out what you want from me..."
Constantly trying to confess, but biting their tongue before words come out, just to wonder later what would have happened if they had just said what they meant.
Getting upset over cancelled plans and unanswered texts.
Glances that linger on longer than intended.
Recalling small touches, like brushed hands or a small nudge, and immediately yearning for that warmth again.
"Why don't you get it?"
"Is it not obvious? Am I doing something wrong?"
Feeling mad or annoyed with their crush for not realizing their feelings go deeper than just friendship.
Replaying old memories in their head and wishing to make more.
Feeling unwanted whenever they see their crush giving their time, attention, and affection to someone else.
Trying to subtly touch their crush to hint at their feelings.
The "playful" flirting that they mean with every bit of their heart.
Overcompensating by giving compliments and being extra nice, but feeling frustrated all the same when their crush doesn't seem to notice their efforts.
The constant daydreams about how life would be if they were together.
Avoiding any other romantic pursuit because they're stuck on that one person.
Staring at their crush whenever they laugh or smile and thinking: "I wish I can make this moment last forever."
this has been sitting in my drafts for over a year, and i finally found the motivation to finish lmaooo
#imagine your otp#otp prompts#writing prompts#dialogue prompts#pining#light angst#angst prompts#romance#romance prompts#friends to lovers#kinda cringe but wtv#i felt like sharing
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⥠AimÊe likes to present herself as an 'it' girl at school. She is a known exhibitionist in town, and is rumored that she gets around.
⥠Kleptomaniac. Pickpockets people during work hours and even during encounters. It gives her a little extra cash but she does have multiple jobs. Prefers stealing things rather than actually paying for them. Has been caught before but usually with a little bit of 'persuasion', she's able to get away scot-free.
⥠A sweet talker. (turns out paying attention in English class does have its benefits) She oftentimes tries to get out of a situation by finessing people. Her mouth is probably her best asset, in more ways than one :)
⥠While AimĂŠe doesn't outwardly harass others, she enjoys teasing and messing with them. Silver-tongued, playful and witty, she finds that she enjoys pushing peoples' buttons, and seeing how they react after a measly few words is always a fun time. And if they fall for her somehow, then that's a major plus, breaking hearts is her favorite past time âĄ
⥠In private, she is actually meeker than how she shows herself to be. However, she finds comfort in this persona she's created. Everyone knows that you're easy prey if you act shy and show any vulnerability, so she's learned the hard way to always take the first bite.
⥠By being promiscuous herself, it gives her a sense of autonomy in a way. In her mind, if she objectifies herself first, then she's taking away that decision people have over her body.
⥠Her arousal is kept high at all times so she can avoid overthinking, its a way to cope from everything. Sex is a great distraction. It makes her feel good, and all she needs to do is just focus on the what was happening during the moment, and on giving the person she's with pleasure that she's very happy to provide.
⥠Can't find herself to commit to anyone due to her fear of opening herself up to others. Sex is easy. To her, it's simple. And it's something she knows she's good at. Meanwhile, feelings and emotions are messy. It complicates a lot of things. But she can't help but get attached to some people. Whenever she realizes that she's getting too close, she distances herself and quickly moves on to a new person, minimizing the chances of any feelings developing further.
⥠This is where her reputation as a heartbreaker comes from. It's not actually something she actively likes doing, but it's a way for her to get even for what they had done to her.
⥠But no matter how many times she tries to convince herself, deep down, she knows this isn't how she wants to be. She does want to make genuine connection with someone. And despite being surrounded by (mostly unwanted) attention, there's still this lingering sense of loneliness that, no matter what she does, she can't seem to get rid of.
#srry i dont write i hope its not super cringe LMFAO#it was supposed to be AimĂŠe the player for the double meaning (PC - player character + player as in playing with peoples hearts)#but heartbreaker is soooo much cuter sorryyyy#the name AimĂŠe means beloved :333 beloved by all and yet she is unable to love anyone else back :3333333#also btw personal fav on that playlist is senior party by renzo#degrees of lewdity#aimee the heartbreaker#whitney the bully#robin the orphan#sydney the fallen#kylar the loner#DUDE.ACTUALLY FUCK THIS SHIT. I AM SO DONE I AM NEVER DOING THIS AGAIN THIS IT THIS IS THE MOST EFFORT IM PUTTING TO A.POST#CAN ANYONE ACTUALLY FUCKING KILL ME.OR SMTHN. RENDERING BACK TO BACK TO BACK WITH CHARAVTERS INTERACTING I AM I AM NEVER.AGAIN MY GOD#GOODBYE. I WILL GO KMS OR SMTHN#ALSO I DID NOT ACCIDENTALLY POST THIS YESTERDAY U WERE HALLUCINATING.
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Sora: "Master Lloyd, mind a quick hello for the viewers? Seems like they're really happy that you guys are back again!"
Lloyd: "Ah, really? That's nice to hear."
Hehe a little self-indulgent piece after part 6. Lloyd hasn't gotten the attention he deserved in the last months so this should make up for it!
Added some comments with the profile pics of my Instagram moots <3
#my art#ninjago#digital art#artists on tumblr#ninjago oc#drawing#ninjago art#ninjago fanart#ninjago lloyd#lloyd garmadon#ninjago sora#lego ninjago#yes I cringed to myself writing this dialogue but I thought it made the artworks a bit more alive#i love them so much your honor
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ââââââââBOYFRIEND!RAFE x ANXIOUS!READER
WARNINGS .áâprotected p in v, oral (f! receiving), established relationship, loss of virginity, reader and rafe being dorks, slow sex, these bitches do not shut up, reader is very insecure about her body and of course, has anxiety
NOTES .áâthis is representation for all my anxious and insecure girlies who giggle and blurt out random stuff when they're nervous (aka me)
You and Rafe were both on his bed making out, him laying underneath you as you straddled his waistâhis idea, of course, citing that it would be more comfortable for both of you that way. "You better just have something in your pocket," you jokingly mumbled against his lips, feeling something distinctly hard and suspiciously close to his dick pressing against you.
You had a tendency to make a lot of dumb jokes and laugh when you were nervous, blurting out whatever came to mind before you could decide against it, which was ironic since overthinking was a second nature to you. You were shy and got nervous a lot, especially around Rafe. He was your first boyfriend and the hottest guy you'd ever laid your eyes on, neither of which helping your nerves.
Rafe's hands slipped under your shirt to touch your bare skin, holding you firmly on his lap. "Wouldn't you like to know," his smirk was teasing as he pulled back from the kiss to peer up at you.
"Uh, yeah, that's kind of the whole point of asking," you also pulled back, sitting up as you smiled down at him. You liked it when Rafe went along with your stupid jokes, bantering with you to put you at ease. He never made you feel weird or awkward for using humor to cope with your anxiety.
"Well, if you must know, I'm packing heat," Rafe quipped with a mischievous grin, his grip on your hips tightening.
You gasped exageratedly, feigning shock. "You have a gun?" You knew very well what he meant, but when did that ever stop you from saying something stupid?
He snorted, his blue eyes shining with amusement. "Yeah, I have a gun in my pants because that makes so much sense," he replied sarcastically, finding your nervous humor endearing.
"Okay, Mr. Sassypants," you rolled your eyes playfully, your palms resting on his chest as a smile pulled at your lips.
"Mr. Sassypants?" Rafe repeated, raising an eyebrow. "You know, that's not a very nice thing to call your loving, patient, and amazingly sexy boyfriend."
"Well, I can't help that my loving, patient, and amazingly sexy boyfriend is such a diva," you grinned, feeling his chest rise and fall, his heart beating steadily under your fingertips.
"Diva?" He gasped in mock offense, his hands sliding up your sides. "I'll show you a diva." In one swift motion, he flipped your positions, pinning you beneath him.
You laughed, looking up at him with a smile despite the anxiety gnawing at you. He had a way of putting your mind at ease with just one look, and the soothing circles he was rubbing on your skin were definitely helping. He stared back at you, his gaze softening. He loved your smile and the way your eyes sparkled when you laughed. Truthfully, he loved everything about you, even your innate ability to make everything a tad bit awkward.
His eyes searched yours intently, searching for any signs that you wanted him to stop. Noticing his serious turn of demeanor and his intense gaze, you felt your cheeks heat up. "Oh, cmon, don't get all serious on me now," you rolled your eyes, trying to lighten the mood.
"Well, I take my role as your boyfriend very seriously," he grinned, leaning down to kiss your neck. "And, it wouldn't be very boyfriendly of me to let you go on without knowing the wonders of sex."
"Oh, right, of course, it would be for my benefit," you giggled, your heart racing at the idea of being intimate with him. You weren't exactly against the idea, but you were still a virgin, and the idea of being with someone like that was undoubtedly nerve-racking.
You could feel Rafe smile against your skin, his hands sliding farther up your sides. "Uh huh, always thinking of what's best for my girl."
"Wow, who knew you were so selfless?" You giggled, biting your lip as he nipped as your skin. Your fingers slotted into his hair as he continued to kiss and suck at your neck, his hot breath fanning against your heated skin.
"I'm a saint, what can I say?" He mumbled, his tone teasing. He was being careful, trying to reassure you without actually saying anything because he knew you'd prefer to keep things as lighthearted as possible to make you forget about how serious the moment actually was. He could tell you were nervous, and he was determined to make you as comfortable as possible.
"Uh huh, a saint," you smiled as he slowly, tentatively pushed your shirt up your body. He was giving you time to tell him to stop, maybe even slap him if you wanted to, but you didn't. As much as you felt like you were going to die on the spot at the idea of him seeing you naked, you trusted him, and you wanted this.
"I am but a humble servant of my sexy girlfriend," he pulled back from your neck to search your eyes again, pausing for a moment before your shirt revealed your bra. You gave him a small nod, and he smiled, tugging the shirt over your head as you leaned up a little and lifted your arms to help him. He threw the shirt aside, eyes roaming your skin, as if memorizing every detail. "God, you're beautiful," he breathed out.
"Shut up," you said bashfully, your heart beating faster under his intense gaze. There was a voice in the back of your head telling you that you weren't pretty enough for him, that he would hate how you looked, and that was why you preferred to fill the silence with easy jokes and stupid quips. It made it easier to silence that nagging part of you that thought you weren't good enough for him.
"No, I mean it," he insisted, his fingers slowly tracing the lace edging of your bra. "You're like, way too pretty to be real. I mean, look at you." There was a sincerity to his words that he couldn't fake, an edge of awe and pure unbridled devotion that made your head spin.
The way he looked at you like you were the only thing that mattered, the way he touched you like he worshipped every inch of youâit was all overwhelming in the best possible way. It had you scrambling in your mind to say something, anything, even if that something was a dumb dick joke.
"I bet you're thinking about saying something stupid, aren't you?" he asked, a knowing smirk on his face as he leaned down to pepper kisses over your collarbones and down the swell of your cleavage.
"I never say anything stupid," you breathed out, as he kissed the skin that wasn't hidden behind your bra. It made your heart flutter that he knew you so well, but it also made you realize how awfully predictable you were.
"Uh huh and I'm the Queen of England," he retorted sarcastically, reaching up to slide one of your bra straps down your shoulder, kissing the bare sliver of skin that was revealed.
"Oh my God, you are?" You gasped, his remark loading you with the perfect ammunition to say something stupid. "Pleasure to make your acquaintance, your highness."
"Mmm, flattery will get you everywhere," he murmured, his breath hot against your skin as he continued to kiss and touch you, slipping your other strap off. He slowly unhooked your bra, his eyes meeting yours as he paused, asking for silent permission. You bit the inside of your cheek nervously before nodding.
He pulled your bra off almost instantly, his gaze sweeping over your bare chest. You felt so vulnerable beneath his gaze, resisting the urge to cover yourself. "Okay, your turn, pretty boy," you swiftly said, trying to ease your nerves and figuring you might be a little more comfortable if you weren't the only half-naked one.
"Yes, ma'am," He smirked, leaning back to pull his own shirt off, revealing his muscular chest. You couldn't help but stare, eyes roaming over his abs and the way his muscles flexed as he tossed his shirt aside. He settled back over you, his hands sliding up your sides. "Better?"
"You are annoyingly hot," you huffed, finding it completely unfair that someone as perfect as him could even exist, let alone be on top of you right now.
"Aw, you're just saying that because you want in my pants," he teased, his hands sliding up your sides to cup your breasts, thumbs brushing over your nipples. "But I can't blame you, I am pretty irresistible." He leaned down, swallowing the small gasp you let out at his touch as he captured your mouth in a deep, heated kiss.
"That's slander," you mumbled into his mouth, wrapping your arms around his neck and curling your fingers into his hair as you pulled him closer.
"Mmm, then sue me," he murmured against your lips before trailing kisses along your jaw and down your neck, slowly making his way to your chest.
Your eyes fluttered shut at the feeling of his soft lips on your skin. He was ridiculously skilled with his mouth, knowing exactly how and where to kiss you to drive you crazy. "Yknow what, maybe I will," you retorted breathlessly, your chest rising and falling a little faster.
"I think we can come to some sort of settlement out of court," He paused, his hot breath washing over your skin before he slowly, deliberately wrapped his lips around one of your peaks, swirling his tongue around it. "What do you think?"
Your lips parted at the feeling, intaking a sharp breath of air. "Uh, yeah, yknow that could work maybe," you grinned, your fingers gently tugging at his hair as he ravished your tits with attention.
"Mmm, I thought it might," he hummed with a cocky grin, switching to give equal attention to your other breast, your back arching ever so slightly, urging him closer. He smirked against your skin, making his way lower and leaving a trail of wet kisses in his wake. His hands slid down your sides to your hips, fingers curling around the waistband of your pants.
"Hey, wait, I don't want to be naked first," you protested, only half joking. You would rather die than be fully naked in front of him while he sits there with his clothes on.
"Oh, trust me, I have no intention of leaving my pants on any longer than necessary," He assured you with a mischievous grin, slowly unbuttoning your jeans, his knuckles brushing against your skin.
"Yeah, 'cause you're a freak," you grinned, moving on to the making fun of your boyfriend portion of the program in an attempt to soothe the pit of nausea in your stomach. You were kind of scared, not that you wanted to be lame and admit that.
"Hey, I resent that," He protested, but his tone conveyed the opposite message as he tugged your jeans and underwear down your legs in one smooth, expert motion, his gaze never leaving yours. "I'm just enthusiastic, that's all."
"Enthusiastically a whore," you snorted, letting your head fall back, staring at the ceiling. You'd really rather not see yourself naked right now, not with the amount of anxiety already coursing through your veins. You did not need a reminder of what Rafe was seeing.
"Whore?" He teased, his fingers dancing along your inner thighs. "I think you mean an amazing boyfriend who loves you and wants to make you feel good."
You hummed thoughtfully. "Uh, no, I'm pretty sure I mean whore," you grinned, reluctantly looking down at him despite yourself.
"Well, this whore is about to rock your world," He smirked, slowly trailing kisses up your inner thigh, gripping your hips. "Just relax and let me do all the work." His voice was low and seductive, his intentions clear.
"You're such an idiot," you laughed at his cheesy choice of words, a little nervous that the witty banter would have to be put on hold. He can't exactly respond to your sarcastic remarks with his mouth occupied.
He hummed, his breath hot against your core. Your breathing picked up, and you were unsure whether it was anticipation or if you were on the verge of a panic attack.
He slowly dragged his tongue along your slit, groaning at your taste on his tongue and the subsequent gasp that fell from your lips, making his painfully hard cock twitch in his jeans. His hands gripped your thighs, spreading them further apart and opening you up to him. He had dreamed of this moment, imagined this exact scenario about a half a dozen times as he got himself off, and now that it was actually happening, he was going to relish every moment.
He began to eat you out like a man starved, his tongue delving deep inside your tight heat, familiarizing himself with every inch of you. His nose nudged at your clit, sending a jolt of pleasure through you that pulled a low whine from your throat. Your fingers threaded into his hair, moaning at the unfamiliar pleasure.
His fingers replaced his tongue, his mouth moving up to the sensitive bundle of nerves and sucking it into his mouth, determined to send you over the edge. He pushed his fingers deep inside and curled them, finding that spot that made your back arch and your hips buck against his mouth.
"Rafe," his name left your lips a breathy whimper as your head fell back against his pillows. Rafe was no stranger to having women under him, writhing and moaning his name, but something about it being you made him crazy. It took all his self-control not to blow his load in his pants right there and then.
He redoubled his efforts, eager to make you cum, rubbing that sweet spot inside you with ruthless precision and sucking on your clit, his tongue swirling around your sensitive nub. Another moan fell from your lips, your grip on his hair bordering on painful as you felt your orgasm wash over you, your legs practically shaking at the intense pleasure.
He groaned as he felt you spasm around his fingers, your chest rising and falling rapidly as you tried to catch your breath. He slowly pulled away, grinning as he took in your dazed expression. He carefully slipped his fingers from your quivering hole, bringing them to his mouth. He couldn't help the moan that rumbled low in his throat as he tasted you on his tongue. God, you were perfect.
His eyes flicked up to yours as his tongue darted out to lick his lips clean. "Good, huh?" He asked, his tone smug. He knew it had been good, but he wanted to hear you say it.
"I'm gonna slap that stupid look off your face," you playfully rolled your eyes, your skin practically burning up with embarrassment.
"I think that would take our case from a civil lawsuit to a criminal assault charge," he grinned, calling back to your previous joke about taking him to court. He positioned himself over you again to press his lips against yours, letting you taste yourself on his tongue.
"It's my first offense and a misdemeanor," you mumbled into the kiss, cupping his face. "Worst I'll get is a fine, so... totally worth it."
"Okay, smartass," he pulled away, brushing a strand of hair away from your face, gazing down at you lovingly.
"Just saying," you smiled softly up at him, his hair falling into his face and his blue eyes sparkling. He really loved you, and it was evident just from the way he looked at you. He'd never felt anything like it before. He loved you so much it terrified him.
But, of course, you had to ruin the moment of peace because shutting up was not something you were wired to do, especially not in the face of such charged silence. "Your little friend is poking me again," you blurted out the words before you could stop yourself. Little friend? You really couldn't have come up with anything else?
Rafe couldn't help the chuckle that escaped his lips as he rocked his hips against you, making you gasp softly. "He's just happy to see you." His eyes crinkled at the corners as he grinned down at you, his fingers absently tracing along your side.
"Okay, well, can you tell him I don't really know him like that, so maybe he should calm down a little bit," you couldn't help but laugh at the ridiculousness of it all, but you loved it, and you loved him. He understood you in a way you never thought you'd be understood by anyone.
"He says he's not planning on staying a stranger for much longer," he smirked, his hips rolling against yours.
"This is actually so stupid," you giggled, your hand covering your mouth as you laughed beneath him.
"Oh, now it's stupid?" He rolled his eyes, a genuine smile tugging at his lips. "You're the one who started it."
"Shut up," you smiled, leaning up to kiss him. "Okay, okay, you can... start now, I guess," you said awkwardly. There was only so long that you could stall with stupid dick jokes. Besides, you felt a little bad that he had been so patient and undoubtedly, extremely hard.
"About time," he murmured with faux annoyance, his voice low as he fiddled with his belt buckle and pulled it through the loops, tossing it aside before popping the button on his jeans and slowly unzipping them.
You sucked in a breath, trying to calm your nerves as the sound of him pulling his jeans off seemed to echo through the room. You wanted this. You knew you did, but you couldn't help the pit of fear in your stomach.
He paused, feeling your body tense beneath him as you took a deep breath, a sign he knew all too well. "Hey, look at me," he coaxed softly, cupping your face and stroking your cheek with his thumb. "We don't have to do anything you don't want to do. We can wait if you're not ready. Just tell me to stop, and I will, no questions asked, no hard feelings. We can just forget all about it," he reassured you.
Your heart fluttered as you heard your boyfriend's words, meeting his gaze and seeing the sincerity behind his eyes. "No, I- I want to. I'm just... scared, yknow," you bit your lip nervously, mentally kicking yourself. You always seemed to be scared. There probably wasn't a single thing in the world that you weren't scared of.
"Hey, hey, hey, it's okay," he soothed, pressing gentle kisses to your face, your neck, your collarboneâanywhere he could reach. "There's nothing wrong with being scared. It's your first time. If you weren't scared, that would be a little concerning."
You laughed softly at his words. "You just make sure you wrap it up. I don't know where you've been," you joked. "Safe sex is great sex as the Lil Wayne once wisely said."
He chuckled, shaking his head in amusement. "Lil Wayne, huh? I didn't know he moonlighted as a sex ed teacher." He reached into his bedside table, pulling out a foil packet and waving it in front of your face. "But don't worry, I'm always prepared."
"Jesus, that's a lot of condoms," you said, peering into his drawer and seeing way more condoms than you realistically thought one person would need. "You are a whore of massive proportions. Like, literally a menace to the female population."
"Oh, hush," he grinned, tearing open the packet and rolling the latex down over his length. "I bought them in bulk. You know, for... emergencies," He waggled his eyebrows suggestively, leaning back down to press kisses to your skin once more.
"Eugh," you giggled, your face scrunching up in disgust. "I genuinely do not want to know what a sex emergency is."
"Hey, a guy's gotta be prepared, okay?" He murmured against your neck, his breath warm. "Now, are you going to keep talking, or are you going to let me kiss you and calm you the hell down?"
"Yo, I am literally so calm," you rolled your eyes, lying through your teeth in the name of comedy and also not sounding like the total little loser virgin you were. "So calm and so chill. Literally have never been calmer or chiller in my life."
"Uh-huh," he hummed, clearly unconvinced as he pressed a soft kiss to your jaw, his fingers slowly trailing down your side, his touch gentle. "Because nothing says 'calm and chill' like sex jokes and rambling like you're on speed."
"Well, I can't help that I'm the funniest person alive," you argued, the realization dawning on you that you were naked, and he was naked, which meant there was only so many more sex jokes you could make before the sex actually commenced.
"You're not even in the top five funniest people I know," he teased, his fingers reaching your hip as he slowly pulled you closer, the heat of his body pressing against yours.
"Oh, you got jokes, huh?" You grinned, nervously giggling when you felt his tip nudge at your entrance. "You better take that back if you wanna get laid tonight."
"I think I'll stick with my original statement," he said, his voice low and husky as he pressed forward, the head of his dick pushing into you slowly as he rubbed soothing circles on your hip. "You're just not funny enough to make the cut, sweetheart."
You sucked in a sharp breath through your teeth, wincing at the painful sensation. You grabbed his bicep for support, digging your nails into his arm. "Liar," you joked weakly, your chest heaving as you breathed through the intrusion.
"Shh, just breathe," he whispered against your neck, his voice low and soothing as he paused, letting you adjust to the foreign feeling. "You're doing so good, baby. You're taking it like a champ."
"Okay, don't call me champ while you're inside me," you grimaced, trying to keep the conversation lighthearted as you slowly adjusted to having him inside you.
"You okay, baby?" He asked softly, pushing the slightest bit further into you as he examined your reaction closely.
"Oh, yeah, just peachy," you said sarcastically. The pain was gradually starting to fade, making the whole thing more enjoyable by the second. Though, the pressure between your thighs was intense.
"Mhm, you're a real ray of sunshine," he chuckled softly, pushing the rest of the way into you, his body shuddering as he bottomed out. He was as deep as he could go, his hips flush against yours.
You gasped as he pressed all the way into you, your grip on his bicep tightening. "You're gonna look like you got mauled by a lion after this," you panted out, apologetic for the involuntary response.
"I'd wear that badge of honor proudly," he said, his voice thick with amusement as he slowly began to move, his hips rolling against yours in a gentle, soothing rhythm. "Now, shut up and let me make love to you."
"Don't say 'make love' either. That's so gross," you giggled softly, a breathy moan falling from your lips as he set a slow, pleasurable pace.
"Then what would you prefer I call it?" He murmured, his lips brushing against your ear as he continued his steady movements, the friction building between your bodies. "'Coitus'? 'Intercourse'? 'Fucking'?" He punctuated each word with a sharp thrust of his hips.
You moaned, your head falling back against the pillows and brows pinching in pleasure. Okay, you were definitely starting to see what all the fuss was about. "Let's just not refer to what's happening right now as anything at all."
"Mhm, I can work with that," he hummed, his pace picking up slightly as he felt you start to relax more, your body welcoming his thrusts. "Just focus on how good it feels, baby. Let me take care of you."
He leaned down, pressing his lips to yours and kissing you deeply as he continued to fuck you with a pace that demonstrated his love and devotion to you. He never thought he would be one for slow, romantic sex, but he didn't think he was into a lot of things before he met you. You had a way of making him discover things about himself he was completely clueless to.
As he kissed you, he slowly shifted his hips, changing the angle of his thrusts to hit that particularly sensitive spot inside you. He felt you tense up, a sharp gasp escaping your lips into the kiss, and he smiled against your mouth. "You like that, huh?"
"You're such an ass," you grinned, your fingers curling into his hair, back arching into him as his tip continued to hit that spongy spot inside you, the pressure low in your abdomen building.
"Maybe so, but you love it," he smirked against your mouth, his hands gripping your hips as he increased his pace, his hips snapping forward in a steady rhythm. "And you're gonna come for me again, baby. Aren't you?"
Your mouth fell open in pleasure, your breath hot against his lips. "uh huh," you nodded, your eyes fluttering shut. He was a cocky motherfucker, but he was hot and he put up with your shit, so it was only fair you put up with his in return.
"That's my girl," he purred, one hand sliding down to rub tight circles on your clit as he continued his relentless pace. "Come on, baby. Let me feel you. I want to watch you fall apart for me."
You gasped sharply at the added stimulation, his name leaving your lips in a whine as you tensed around him, sent over the edge for the second time.
He groaned as he felt your walls clench around him, the sensation of you practically choking his dick sending him into his own release. "Fuck, you feel so good," he panted, his hips stuttering as he spilled himself into the condom with a low moan of your name.
Your walls pulsed around him as you slowly came down from your high, relaxing into the mattress. Your chest heaved as you caught your breath, your whole body on fire and coated in a thin sheen of sweat.
He collapsed on top of you with a satisfied hum, peppering gentle kisses along your neck and collarbone as he softened inside you. "I love you, you know that?"
"Good 'cause otherwise this would be pretty awkward," you laughed breathlessly, gently raking your nails over his scalp soothingly. "But, seriously, I love you too," you added quietly after a beat of silence.
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Is it a blessing or a curse to fall for a man who bears the weight of nameless sins, a killer haunted by his own guilt?
I mean, isnât Soap the same as Ghost? They work in the same field and do mostly the same things. Just because Soap has a lighter step doesnât mean he doesnât have skeletons in his closet; he isnât invulnerable to guilt, and maybe, just maybe, he finds comfort in knowing that both of them are damned to hell.
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nsfw (18+) cw : switch(sub leaning)!art donaldson, switch!fem!reader, art is a sensitive softie, dry humping, cumming in pants, mutual orgasms, fluff, porn with some plot
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"Did you have fun?"
Art's words sound out softly against the background hum of his car's engine. You rub your hands together between your thighs, trying (and failing) to properly warm them up after being in an ice rink for over an hour. You look to him from the passenger seat and smile at his slightly eager-to-please tone, your cheeks burning from the cold. You should have worn a scarf.
"Yeah," you hum, "I did.. I haven't been ice skating in forever, it's been years.."
He laughs softly and nods, almost sheepishly, "yeah, same.."
-
It's the end of November, nearing the start of December, and tennis season is well over. Art still goes to the indoor courts pretty consistently, but he's decided to shift all of his focus to you now that he has the free time to spare.
The two of you met about a month and a half ago; he'd been rushing to meet Patrick at some restaurant near campus, and he had slammed right into you when he'd been looking down at his phone to text Pat back. Wide blue eyes met yours and his tender hands had come up instantly to steady you on your feet as he stuttered out at least five 'im so sorry's. Somewhere in between those apologies, he'd gotten ridiculously lost in your features. The way your lashes batted up at him, the soft smile on your lips, the way you chuckled at his idiotic carelessness.
And you had forgiven him pretty quickly, so that helped.
The whole thing was incredibly cliche; the both of you could see that now.
He'd gotten your number that day only because he had practically begged to get you a coffee sometime to make up for the whole ordeal. His wind-swept blonde curls and furrowed brow made him look just like a dumb little puppy, pleading with you to keep him and collar him, so it wasn't hard for you to rationalize giving him your digits then and there. He seemed genuinely sweet, unlike so many other guys at Stanford. You'd give it a shot.
Seven dates later, and you two were officially toeing the line between "what are we?" and "let's move in together". Art, in particular, was completely infatuated. He would always look at you like you were the only reason he was breathing and moving. It was a little bit insane how hard and fast he fell for you.
And so he resisted the urges.
The ones that would coil in his lower stomach when he held your hand, and the ones that would throb in his veins when he pressed his lips to yours. All of them. He'd move at your pace. He wasn't one to push.
-
You nod and smile, before you pull your clasped hands from your lap and attempt to blow hot air in between them. Art's car was taking longer to warm up than normal.
He watches you for a moment before he shakes his head and tugs his hands out of his coat pockets.
"I told you to bring gloves," he jokes lightly, reaching over to envelop your hands in his warm palms, his calloused fingers curling over yours.
Your face heats slightly, and you chuckle as you look down to his grasp on you. After a long beat, your eyes raise to look up to his again, and he swallows thickly before his left thumb strokes over one of your knuckles. The little touch, the gesture, is so him. Always wanting to provide and comfort, but never wanting to risk shaking the foundation.
Heâs never made the first move, it was always you.
"Thanks," you breathe out, your gaze darting just momentarily down to his pink lips.
It's hard for you to ignore the way he quickly wets them while the tense silence hangs in the air.
Art's feeling a steady thrum of tightness in his chest. How is it that he still gets nervous around you? He's kissed you lots of times before now.
And yet, here he was: still shy, still tense, still nervous.
"No problem," he whispers, hearing his heartbeat pound in his ears, "is.. is this better..?"
A gentle nod from you is all he perceives before he feels the warmth of your lips press against his own, and the tension thatâs been brewing all evening finally reaches its boiling point.
He melts into it instantly, into you; leaning in to breathe into your open mouth when you pull back for just a moment to tilt your head the other way. His hands leave their position around yours, and move to clutch your waist as he pivots in the driver's seat to face you more. He's never felt so on-edge in his entire life, the sensation of a familiar sort of hunger starting to ignite in his belly.
Your touch moves to the back of his head, pulling off his thick beanie and tossing it to the back of the vehicle as you kiss him with rapidly increasing passion. You feel his tongue slip out to lick over your bottom lip, and you slack your jaw to let him taste you better. He laves his soft tongue over yours, moaning into your mouth. You swallow that noise down, and the next one that comes right after; just like you always do.
He tastes faintly like sweet peppermint gum, which he had been anxiously chewing earlier on this particular date in order to self-soothe. You had just looked so pretty with the cold first nipping at your skin when he came to pick you up; it scrambled his brain on the spot.
"Ahh," he whines shakily as he feels you tug his head back, your left hand tenderly fisting his curls, "hngh.."
You hum and smirk before you lean in to lick over his neck. He has to bite the inside of his cheek to stop any more needy sounds from spilling out, and his hands pull at the sides of your coat. Shit, he can feel himself swelling in his jeans. For a second he thinks the zipper might pop.
Once your tongue finds his weak-spot, right below his ear, he's jerking forward in his seat and letting out a choked moan. His hips rise desperately, trying to seek out some sort of friction, but all he can feel is his cock rubbing against the inside of his briefs â not nearly enough to put out the fire in his gut.
"You okay?" you breathe out lowly between kisses to his pulse, "this okay?
He nods feverishly. A reflexive buck of his pelvis follows suit.
"Can we... I dont know-" you whisper against his skin, and Art thinks he might die. He's so keyed up right now, he'd do anything to get to feel you under all of the layers.
"Please."
And there it is. He couldn't even stop himself before the word was already out and drifting into the minimal space left in between your bodies. You pause your lips and pull back to look to his eyes.
A hand moves from his hair to his cool cheek. "I- I'm ready to do more... If you are too, I mean.."
He's nodding before you even finish; and his pupils dilate into big, black, iris-eclipsing saucers as his brows pinch up and he whispers back to you.
"I want to touch you," he trembles, "I really, really, really wanna touch you..."
You feel a sticky heat cling to the inside of your panties.
Ugh, he's always good at making you feel this way, even if in the past it was relatively unintentional. Sometimes he's been too innocent for his own good.
"Can I?" he whispers, breaking apart your thoughts, like the very syllables have been beaten out of the depths of his desires.
You let out soft sigh through parted lips, taking in the look on his face before you're crawling over the center console and into his lap. Your body settles comfortably over his thighs, and then your head bumps up against the roof of the car. You make a slight noise of surprise, ducking down with a soft giggle, and Art's right hand instinctively raises to protectively cup the spot on your head that had hit the interior. He looks up at you, letting out a breath of a laugh before lifting his brows to wordlessly ask if you're alright.
You kiss him again instead.
He gasps and swallows as he feels you further straddle him, and his hands move to start unzipping your puffer as he kisses you back. It's easier said than done when his hands are shaking, but he manages and then helps you shrug off the coat before it gets tossed into the oblivion to meet his hat from earlier.
A string of spit connects your mouth to his as you pull back, and he drinks in the sight of you above him; your thermal long-sleeve clinging to your skin so tight that he can see the outline of your bra underneath.
You lean in once more and kiss his jaw twice before letting your hands wander down to help him take off his own jacket. Once it's off and on the car floor with the other pieces of discarded clothing, your palms move up under his shirt to caress his bare skin. You feel his abdomen shudder as your nails graze the pale flesh there.
"Where do you want me?" he asks breathlessly, his eyes already glazed over with arousal and a wish to please you.
"Anywhere.."
".. Here..?"
His hands reach up to palm your breasts over your top, and he relishes in the soft moan it elicits from you. The sound of it rings out in his head and then he can't help but whimper as he leans into your body, his cheek to your jaw. Art's hands slither hastily under your shirt and then to your back before he fumbles with the clasp of your bra. You smirk softly and fondly as you feel him struggle, and you decide to maneuver your touch up to the back of his neck. Your fingertips tease the back of his hair. Teasing turns to stroking, and suddenly you're petting him to ease his nerves. If he had a tail, it'd definitely be wagging; you can feel him buzzing with eager energy all over.
Once the bra is popped open, he gently pulls back to look up to your eyes and then he's huskily whispering up at you, "can I take this off of you?"
"Yeah, take it off-"
He doesn't waste a second once he sees you raising your arms, nearly tearing the top in the process of getting it up and over your head. The bra comes off quick right after; he doesn't even notice that it's red (his favorite color). With how much is going through his head, it's a miracle he can even manage to undress you without losing it...
The moment that you're bare in front of him from the belly-button up, he sags back in his seat and takes you in. His lips parted in a gentle 'O'. "Fuck, fuck, fuck..." he moans lowly, his palms pressing to your lower stomach before they slide up and cover your soft tits, "you're so beautiful, oh my god.."
You moan when you feel him start to knead your breasts under his tender touch, nipples pebbling in response, and you roll your head back with pleasure.
"You're.. s-so sweet," you groan.
He squeezes your chest again before he leans in and presses a kiss to the right side, and a kiss to the left (it's only fair). He looks up to you through heavy lids before he surges forward with a renewed sense of passion and attaches his lips to one of your nipples.
"Shit-!" you gasp, and your hands tighten in his blonde locks, "ugh, don't stop, Art.. that feels nice.."
He moans around your squishy flesh and then his eyes flutter shut as he flicks his tongue over your bud and suckles. His mouth is warm and wet and perfect. His teeth brisk your sensitive skin.
A sharp moan slips from your lips in response, and then your hips jerk over his quickly. Just once; just enough. It's denim on denim, thick fabric dulling the sensations, but god- the pleasure bites perfectly at the both of you.
Art can barely process how good it feels before he's drooling around you over his tongue and rolling his own body up, trying to meet yours again. Wordlessly begging you to keep going.
Please, please, please do it again.
You breathe heavily and then rock down over his lap again, chasing the stream of electricity that it sends up your spine from your cunt. There's a mess of slick seeping from you as you push your clothed clit against Art's bulge, humping him like some sort of depraved teenager, but it's going to get you there.
Hell, it's getting you there quicker than you thought.
"Ooh, fuck," he hiccups out against your skin, releasing your breast from his mouth as his eyes fly open and then promptly roll back into his head, "ohh god, oh g-god.."
You rock a bit faster over him, a little moan escaping with each needy motion, and you move your hands to hold his shoulders for leverage. You feel him wrap his toned arms around your middle.
"Sh-Should I move too?" he gasps.
You can feel his thighs quivering.
If you really focus, you can even feel his dick throbbing in the confines of his pants.
"Yeah, ohh, yeah.. yeah, move, move.â
In an instant, Art's hips are grinding up to meet yours while his hands move urgently to hold your waist. He buries his face into your neck and tries to bounce you on his lap in his grasp. Up, down, up, down, over and over and over. Like heâs fucking you; buried deep inside your oozing pussy.
"you feel so good," he breathes out, hardly taking enough air into his lungs to get the words out, "this feels... f-feels so good.. ohhh-"
A few stuttered whines slip from your mouth and then you're working harder to press yourself further down over his erection, trying your best to relieve the scorching heat building in your core. More, more, more, you just need more.
"fuck me..!"
It tumbles from you unexpectedly, and the young man under you chokes on a guttural groan that's already halfway out. His nose crinkles with pleasure, and he swivels his hips harder to rub his boner against your crotch. He tries to speak, he really does, but all of the words get swept away on broken, strung-out whimpers that clog his throat.
You two are fogging up all four windows in his car, and anyone who's looking on from the outside will know exactly what's going on just from the shaking alone.
"Shit, you're gonna make meââ
Art cries out as he digs his heels down into the mat below the pedals; his toes curling as he registers the rapid feeling of boiling tension brewing in his balls, seeping out and pulling his limbs taut against yours. He's so close.
"âyou're gonna- 'm gonna comeââ
He tries to warn you, shuddering when he hears you squeal in response, and he has to force his eyes open and crane his neck back so that he can savor the sight of you falling apart on top of him when he tips over. A small part of him wishes he was being hugged by your tight, gummy walls; but this was perfect for now. It was what you wanted, so it was what he wanted too.
"Fuck, Art! I'm almostâ!"
The sound of his name coming out of you like that sends him spiraling, his cock pulsing in his boxers with want.
"Me too, me too, oh god, pleasepleaseplease-"
You two are rutting and thrashing against each other like a couple of animals, breathing heavy and moaning as you both try to maintain eye contact in those split few seconds before everything fades away.
"Can I come?" he trembles, and you can see wetness glistening over his lash line, threatening to spill. He canât say it now, but he's barely holding it all in.
For you, he'd wait.
Even if it felt impossible.
You speed up your humping, the seam of your jeans slotting perfectly against your swollen clit as the warmth of his cock sends you hurtling towards the finish line. You nod down at him, moving your hands from his shoulders to his flushed face, "yes, god, please come with me!"
It only takes three more snaps of his pelvis against yours before the both of you are gasping and crying out simultaneously as the hot coils burst loose; Art's back arching up from the seat as you curl over his chest and yelp. He's moaning, voice cracks and all, as his legs shudder under your seat over them. His hands fly up to hold you close, almost like he's scared you'll somehow slip away.
"fuckyesfuckyesfuckyes, please, god, i'm coming so hard..!â
He whimpers helpessly, feeling sticky heat bloom against his kicking length as each wave of his orgasm floods his system. It's wholly all-consuming, his vision whiting out around the edges before he has to squeeze his eyes shut and give up the sight of your face as you climax. He thinks he might legitimately pass out.
You're left wheezing over his lap, groaning pitifully as you feel a wave of slick and wetness drench your underwear while the height of your own peak ebbs, and you finish yourself off fully against his thigh as you come down. One of your hands reaches down to rub yourself over the soaked fabric, and you twitch before falling forward into his frame.
You both jolt a bit while the aftershocks keep you feeling pleasantly numb, but it's blissful.
It's completely and utterly blissful; it just feels right.
Him being so close to you, you being so close to him. Sharing something so deeply intimate and yet feeling so comfortable and so safeâ it was like something clicked into place.
One of Art's hands reaches to your upper back, rubbing it comfortingly as he tries to steady his breathing.
".. Woah," he whispers in awe, fingertips tracing soothing patterns on your skin, "that was.. really.. haah.."
A little shiver passes through him and he then decides to cut himself off before he lets slip something dumb and ruins everything.
You gain some semblance of consciousness back and lift your head upright slowly, gazing down to him. His hairâs a mess, his blue eyes shining with low lids, and his bottom lip looks freshly bitten.
"That was really good," you chuckle breathily, finishing his sentiment for him. You were good at that- helping him feel whole.
He just nods and you get to watch his cheeks turn a deeper shade of red.
"I... I was thinking.." he starts, only to shy away from your gaze by looking down.
"Yeah..?"
You stroke his hair, pushing it back from his sweaty forehead.
"Well, I just, we've been, like, 'seeing each other' or whatever," his eyes reluctantly raise again to look up into yours, "and, I just thought that.. we might..."
"We might...?" you smile as you urge him to speak up for himself.
He can only muster a soft, shy chuckle at first.
"I just thought that we might be.. together.."
Your breathing catches, only for a moment, as the wordâand the weight of itâsits heavily in the dense air being kept trapped in by the car's doors. Art swallows thickly.
"You wanna be together?" you whisper, barely audible.
He seems hesitant to answer that.
But he does anyway.
"Yeah, I do."
A soft smile creeps onto your face, and then you lean in to brush your lips against his. He closes his eyes in preparation for a kiss, but it doesn't quite come. They flutter back open, and his fingers twitch idly on your lower back.
Please say something, he thinks. He's holding his breath.
You murmur against his mouth, delicate and earnest, with a shrug almost gracing your shoulders as you speak to him. You want to let him know that he doesn't have to be scared to tell you what he wants.
That it's okay.
That you want the same thing.
"Okay.. then let's be 'together'.."
#𩷠- thirsts#fic#this was meant to be a drabble#but its basically a full fic whoops#im trying to get back into writing full pieces instead of short ones#also i never know exactly how to end fics like this lol#reader and art are just cheesy !#let them be cringe#art donaldson smut#art donaldson x reader#art donaldson x you#art donaldson x female reader#challengers smut#challengers x reader
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