#yeaa a bit early for fall stuff

[strudeldoodlearts]

Some ideas are just better in my head...

I think this was one of them, even though I still like the end result. I was basically watching some Brave Wilderness videos my boyfriend shared with me featuring some fuzzy caterpillars. Some moments later, my brain got the bright idea of putting trees on them.

[caterpillar of trees] is both the inverse and the spiritual successor of [the leaves leave] (both 1 and 2). Tiny trees grow out of it (and whether or not this relationship is symbiotic or parasitic is left ambiguous.) While the leaves leave was more about birds being disguised as a tree's leaves.

But near the end of completing the drawing I thought, 'Huh. This might not really look like a caterpillar at all.' And then my solution was to draw a face on it.

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[sweetstrawberrycandy]

Winter Bloom - Episode One: Shorty | Nyx Ulric x Fem!Reader

RATING: Teen | GENRE: TW Angst/Drama WORD COUNT: 2910 AUTHOR’S COMMENT: First of all like always I wanna thx to everyone who help me on this~ especially @ladyscientia who has become on my Beta Reader, thx you like always without you this won’t be possible once more. To everyone who help me with my writing block thank you!!! you know who you are *huggies* thx you! DISCLAIMER: kk so the idea is make this my first multi chapter, lets see how it goes! For now all I have to say everything happens two years before the events of Kingsglaive.

TAGGING: @chocobropuffs @bleucommelhiver @warnjai-17 @thebulletsofmusicblues If anyone wanna get tag in the future just let me know :3 

The alarm clock starts screaming like the world is going to end, ringing relentlessly and forcing you awake. You take the clock in your hands and look skeptically at the time it shows.

“Fuck.. Is it really that late?”

You look for your phone hysterically. You know it’s probably hidden somewhere between the sheets. After a while of frantic searching, you hear the THUD of it falling from the bed to the floor.

“YESH! There you are! Now please show me the REAL time!”

“10:30 am” Same as your moogle alarm clock.

“FUCK! Fuck!!!!! I’m late for work! No more late night horror movies for me!” You jump out of the bed as fast as your body will allow and run to the shower. There’s no time for a hot relaxing bath; just a cold, fast shower and of course no breakfast.

As you run to catch the bus, for the first time since you arrived in Insomnia, you feel excited, like something big is going to happen.

Once you get off the bus, you run like a mad woman to get to work on time. You enter to the shop exhausted. Your face looks like a daemon was chasing you and you just reached a safe place.

“I’m here! I’m definitely NOT late!!!! PEASE! Bossssss don’t fire meeeeeee… please! I swear for the bloody Astrals I won’t be late ever again!”

The scene was quite hilarious. Your boss chuckles and gives you a wink.

“It’s fine y/n. You are actually fifteen minutes early for your shift. Now go and fix that face! You are going to scare the clients!” she laughs.

“That… that… means I could have breakfast!!! DAMN!” your stomach makes a soft grunt. “I guess we are skipping food till lunch…. Whaaa….”

You have been working at the same place for almost a year now. The store has all sorts of things for people who love cooking; from newbies to expert chefs. They can find anything there they might need for ANY KIND of preparation. And if that wasn’t enough, if they can’t make it, YOU are able to teach them.

The morning is extremely quiet. Around five people have come in asking for classes and another three or four for some cooking gadgets. It’s not until around noon, close to your lunch time, when the starvation starts consuming you. Your stomach begins complaining more than usual. Just as you begin wishing to yourself for an enormous plate of food, things in the shop become interesting.

“Please mighty six, don’t let anyone enter through that door so I can FINALLY can go eat something! Please! I BEG YOU….”

Like most of the time your prayers aren’t heard and two men enter to the shop.

“WHY?? You hate me so much?” is the only thought in your head. You look at your boss to see if she can save you from this one, but it’s not possible this time, she was busy with other costumers. You give a fast look to the clock and decide to wait for a few minutes before approaching the clients. Maybe if you’re lucky they will go and you will be free to get your lunch.

Three minutes later and they’re still there. With a little disappointed sigh, you decide to get up from your comfortable place at the counter. As you step towards the beloved costumers, you believe you hear a familiar voice. Your legs shake. Your heartbeat rises. The same feeling of excitement from this morning rushes into you.

Once you’re close enough, you recognize both of them. Libertus is standing in front of a stand mixer, talking to his friend a few steps away.

“Oi! Nyx what are we going to do at the end?”

The blue eye glaive looks back at him shrugging.

“I don’t know big guy, but ain’t leaving this place without something or someone who can help us.”

At this precise moment you feel the adrenalin taking control of your body. Without hesitation you rush into Libertus’s arms, giving him the biggest hug you’ve ever give to anyone in a long long time, trying not to cry.

The Glaive looks at you with confusion.

“Hey! Girl! Are you ok? Is something wrong?!? Did anyone hurt you?!?”

You slowly raise your head and greet your old friend.

“Hi… It’s been a while isn’t??” you smile letting go a little giggle.

Libertus is in shock.

“OMG!!!! y/n! it’s really you!!!! You are…!

You interrupted him with a chuckle “Alive?”

“I was going to say grown-up, but alive works too,” he laughs. You can see the happiness in his eyes. He hugs you once more and this time you feel the warmth in his squeeze.

“Oi! Nyx! LOOK! Is our Shorty!! Is here!!!! In one piece!!”

Nyx turns around, puts aside the pair of poultry shears he had in his hands, grabs you be the arm and hugs you in silence. Once he’s done, he kisses your forehead and whispers, “I’m sorry.”

you smile gently, hugging him once more. This time with more strength.

Your boss approaches you and your friends.

“Is everything alright here y/n?”

With a huge dorky smile on your face, your stomach complains loudly for the lack of substance inside it.

“Fuck! I’m sorry, I didn’t have time to eat anything this morning” Your face of embarrassment is rather cute. Your boss laughs, giving you an small slap on your back.

“Just go lunch, take your time but don’t ABUSE!”

“It’s settled then. You are coming to lunch with us, Shorty!” decides Libertus with excitement.

“Weeeeee!! Kk! Let me grab my stuff. One second. Brb.”

While you walk to the back of the store to get your things, your boss stays with your friends.

“OK! So let’s be clear! You two are going to deliver this kiddo back in one piece. She already suffered enough. Not saying you two haven’t. But for your bad luck she is the one I care about. She is like the daughter I never had. So I’m warning you! If she comes back sad or crying you will have to deal with me! I ain’t a Glaive but trust me I know how to use a knife pretty well and I have lots of them.”

The two men are surprised by your boss’ declaration. Their reaction is to nod and nothing else. Seconds after you return, you notice the peculiar silence between the three of them.

“I’m back and ready to eat! Leggo!” you look at everyone and wonder. “Is… everything alright… here? You two look like someone try to cut your balls…”

Nyx gulps, “Yeaa… Everything’s fine. Let’s go. I need to eat something soon before I start roaring like you.”

“HA HA HA… so funny! Nyx! You haven’t change a bit! Asshole!” You look at him with a funny pouty face.

“C’mon Shorty, I know you miss me!” the blue eye Glaive gives you his well known cocky smirk “AND I miss those cute li’l faces you always do.” Nyx grabs your cheeks and squeezes them with affection.

The three of you leave the cooking shop with the destination unknown to you. You decide to keep the chit-chat going while you follow your friends. The reunion with them was unexpected but you cherish every second of it. In some way you manage to feel like you’re back on Galahd one more time.

“Those were GOOD times!” Libertus’ words are full of nostalgia. “You, me, Nyx and Selena … we had so much fun back on Galahd…”

The words of remembrance are like thunder, interrupting the calm between your small crew. Silence becomes awkward as you walk forward with your arms swinging at your side.

You roll up your eyes and try to change the topic; “Anyways! Where are you two taking me? I’m starving! Hehehe. Last night I just had a bowl of popcorn for dinner.”

Libertus snorts, “Why? Too ‘busy’ to make dinner? Boyfriend perhaps?”

You chuckle, “Boyfriend? What’s that?? Can you eat it???”

The teasing between you and Libertus goes on during the stroll to your destination. Once there, you look at the place and feel back at home somehow. Yama’s reminds you of the bar your friend used to have.

“What an amusing place… Kinda reminds me of the bar. But this place is a little less dusty!”

“Well nothing like home! You two stay here. I will go for the food.” Libertus winks at you; “I think I know what you’ll like to eat.”

He steps away, leaving you alone with Nyx who was surprisingly quiet. You can tell something is going on inside his head. Your first impulse is to tease him. After a moment of consideration you decide to stay in silence and wait for Libertus return.

Approximately fifteen minutes later your big friend comes back with food and drinks.

“WHOAAA! Is this what I think it is?!?” the excitement in your words is boisterous but the most important matter is your feeling of starvation consuming you. Quickly you grab a bite and then the worse happen. The incredulity in your eyes is not a surprise for your friend who’s watching you closely to enjoy the moment.

Libertus ask you between laughs, “Did you like it?”

“Whaaaaaaaaaaa! WTF is this?!? What the Shenanigans!?”

 The husky one laughs even louder, “Our heritage!”

“Yeah! Right! Like our food taste like chocobo butt! No offence to the chocobos!”

“See! She is with me! I’m not the only one who says that!! That’s why I love you so much. You were always my favorite, Shorty!” Libertus chuckles, taking a sip to his glass.

You cough. “So, changing the topic, can any of you explain to me why two tough guys like you were in a specialty cooking store? Don’t get me wrong, but you two never were the cooking type.”

“Welll… the thing is… we lost a bet and we need to pay back now.”

You raise your eyebrow and let go a loud laugh. “Are you serious!?! Who is this amazing person? I need to know him/her but but what was the bet about? YOU NEED TO TELL ME!”

After a while without saying a word, Nyx opens his mouth for a short moment; “It was a friend, Luche, and no you don’t really wanna know how we lost. It’s not something pleasant.”

Libertus lets out a whoop; “Don’t be so serious Nyx! It’s not like we don’t know her!”

You look at Nyx. His face shows an emotion similar to indifference, but you can sense something else is going on behind those blue eyes.

He stands from the table looking a little odd. “I’m sorry. I have to go. I remembered I have to do something, I… I… have to help the Cap with something. ‘Was nice to see you y/n.”  

“What the heck…?” Libertus doesn’t have a chance to finish the sentence. His friend is already gone.

You feel a little annoyed and sigh. “… I’m sorry if it was something I said.”

Libertus puts his glass aside. “It wasn’t you… Don’t worry about it. I will deal with him later.”

The two of you keep talking for a while, catching up as best you can before you need to go back to work.

“Whoaaaa I’ve to go back, sad face… About your bet, Mama Bear… I can help you, both… or at least I think I can. There’s not a thing I can’t cook. So call me if you want my help. I will do it happily. Here is my number. Call me when you decide what to do and thank you for the chocobo poop – sorry! I meant food.” You kiss Libertus on the cheek and leave.

Once you’re back at work, you keep thinking about Nyx and his strange way to leave.

“What’s wrong with him…. Ahhh!! Men! Who understands them!?”

Your boss looks at you with a curious glance. “Everything ok Kiddo?”

You sigh “Ahhh…? Yeah… just talking to myself like always. Nothing new.”

“If you say soo… By the way, I’ve got to go early tonight. Can you close the shop for me please?”

“Sure! Why not? What’s two extra hours of boredom more in my life?…”

“Geez… if you don’t like it, you should look for another job then…” she says with some exasperation.

“I’m just kidding!! What’s wrong with people today!? So friking serious. Anyway! I like this place AND you need meeeeeeee! I’m your best employee AND you love me!… hehehe.”

Your boss rolls her eyes and laughs. “OK! I’m leaving now. You are in charge. Please… don’t do anything dumb…”

A few hours later you look at the clock, “9:30 pm” A smile pops on your face; “Weeeeeeee time to close and go home! Yay!”

Once you’ve got everything closed and locked up, you feel the overwhelming sigh of relief. The day is over. Time to go home and do whatever you want.

As you leave the store, you begin debating whether or not pajamas are an acceptable thing to wear as soon you get home, forgetting that maybe you might need to stop into a shop for something to eat. Popcorn two nights in a row isn’t acceptable.  As you turn from locking the doors shut, you feel a glancing touch across your arms.

“HAA! Nyx WTH! You scared me!!!what are you doing here? Is everything ok?” Your voice is agitated.

“I’m sorry y/n I was waiting for you…”

“Wait what me?” You look at him with some misbelief.

“Yes. Why so surprised?”

“Welll… you weren’t really… uhmmm… how I can say it… available? During lunch, you just leave…”

When you look at him, you can see the regret in his eyes.

“I’m really sorry y/n… Is there anything I can do to fix it?” he says with a cocky smile.

You smile back. “Ok… well let me see… maybe a humongous ice-cream will help clear my head. - With chocolate chips and lots lots of chocolate! And everything I can imagine putting on that ice-cream!”

The hero smiles again but this time with his eyes. “A humongous ice-cream it is then.”

You grab Nyx’s arm and guide him to your favorite ice-cream shop. “I have the feeling you are going to regret this somehow…” a giggle escapes from your lips.

You both walk in mutual silence enjoying the ice-cream until the quiet walk pulls some memories back of when Nyx used to walk you home.

“You know… you don’t have to do this…”

“Do what?” he sounds confused. “Get the ice-cream?? But… you ask for it….”

“Nooo you dummy! Walk me home….”

“I do… look I’m just trying to show you I’m sorry y/n…”

You stop walking for a moment and pull Nyx by the arm. “I’m not a kid anymore, I… learn how to take care of myself a while ago… I didn’t have another option.”

The Glaive sighs. “But you are here now…. You found me and Libertus… I… I… can protect you now…” his voice is trembling. You look at him and realize clearly that the past is haunting him. Seeing him like this hurts you more than anything. You want to help him to move on. After all, no one better than you knows what a hard task that can be. But you also know full well that both of you will probably get hurt in the process. You brush the thought aside and plant a gentle kiss on his rugged cheek.

“Nyx, you know… if I’m completely honest with you… what you did at lunch hurt just a little… you leave like I was nothing. Like we actually haven’t seen each other in years. You leaving makes me feel like I did something wrong.”

He remains in silence, holding your hand.

“After all these years… I swear to you, you are not the only one who feels guilty for what happened. When… when you act like that, you make me feel even more guilty….” You stop for a second to take a breath, the anxiety starts flooding your veins. “When you aren’t capable to look at me, to look at my eyes… you make me wish I could take her place. I feel bad because I survived.”

Nyx squeezes your hand. “C’mon, it’s not like that! y/n! and you know it.”

The frustration you’ve been holding for all those years finally shows up. Hearing Nyx say the exact same thing he said right before abandoning you on Galahd was exactly what you needed to let the emotions go.

“Really?!?! The same shit you told me ten years ago? After all this time, you couldn’t make anything better? Nyx! For the love of the six! You weren’t the only one who lost someone! I… I… lost my family too! I lost my friends! Selena was like a sister to me!!! I… I… lost you! When you and Libertus decided to join The Kingsglaive I was left behind! I was alone! Because you couldn’t and still can’t look at me! Without reminding yourself that she is gone… I’m sorry. I really am… but It’s time for you to move on… get your shit together once and for all!”

When you finish talking, your face is slick with tears. You take a another breath and finish; “I’m sorry… but please… until you are able to do that don’t look for me…” You let go of his hand and walk away.

[abynauts]

Brain, y r u liek this?

errr hallo, i just did something impulsively that my brain told me to...

I guess out of curiosity and its the final year in college so, well i chatted two guys lol WUT IS WRONG WITH ME?? Gahd why did i go overboard... or im just overthinking things hehe

so GUY A, i greeted him happy birthday on chat cuzzzz it was his birthday duh but, well the whole day, he pointed my head while i was waiting for my friend at the washroom (well i was waiting outside whilst sitting on the floor and busy with ma phone) and did it for the second time, i guess this time, totally pressing it... probably to get my attention while calling my name. And i said ‘hey’ without looking at him. Just to lol respond a bit idk y the heck i am so dem shy, especially when it comes to boys... im not close to him, but the gestures he gives sometimes haha its funny and i get to think about those than other stressful stuff. Well at least for a brief moment. Then he went inside the org’s office, which was adjacent to the washroom im waiting at.

Then he went out and called me out, and I looked at him (that make face asking ‘wut?’) and he said ‘nothing’. Well... idk but im assuming, WUTS WITH THAT??? playing my hair and getting my attention then nothing. There’s probably something there bro. Like i know those gestures, pinching my arms out of nowhere, getting my attention out of nowhere, idk maaaan i hate assuming does he likes me (ooh the idea just creeps me, but not in a bad way)... 

well, there’s this weird thing about me, where when it comes to boys... if i feel like they seem amazed or akjfajkshfakjshfaf-attracted?? or having a crush on me, im just... don’t want to. interact. with. them. Well when you like someone, you want to talk to them, and here i am, closing the possibilities of that happening xD SNOB THEM, SNOB IS LIFE xD gahd but im curious really... even when it is ‘like’ to be friends because idk just friends, if my friends are not friends with that person and like creating a new bridge of friends, its difficult. Its tiring to handle new people who you don’t know how they act xD so yea... that’s that

Then when i got home, gahd I AM FULLY AWARE THE WHOLE DAY THAT IT IS THEIR BIRTHDAY AND I just did not greeted them WHEN EVERYONE IN CLASS ARE SINGING HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOL like play it cool play it cool just ignore and poof my brain just said

brain: greet them happy birthday me: if i do that, i’m responsible for responding after that... like chat them out of the blue brain: cuz its their birthday, u have a reason me: i hate u brain: well u know wut happens when u do nothing, nothing happens, try it me: y u do dis brain: practice wut u preach gurl

and here we are, i greeted GUY A happy birthday. And he said thanks and a follow up ‘u were cute earlier’. And just played it cool, laughed over it and told him to enjoy the day cuz its his day. Then he replied ‘u never chatted me before and we’ve been blockmates most of the time so’ and i told him cuz its his birthday and we’re at the pinnacle of our college life. I was too honest, but nothing to say, I’m really curious bout the dude’s response... like is he sincere? Like wuts with the random gestures? then i told him he was hard to approach (so i guess i close the door for that back then) then he replied ‘cuz i’m an introvert so...’ then i said ‘oh haha’.... no reply... DID I OFFEND HIM???????? i didn’t meant it liek its not bad to be an introvert xD im kinda a bit of introvert, but ya hyperactive when u get to know me ;_; so that happened

NEXT GUY B, well............ my friend likes him xD so when she tells something about him, i get to listen to all about him xD and yea he sounds dreamy. I don’t go close with someone’s crush cuz bruh i am aware of someone’s POV lol so yea... i dont want to cause confusion ._. i never interacted with him so...

but here’s the thing, i talked to him once... i was early for a block dance practice cuz there’s a punishment when u late (treat the whole class water, water was gold back then), and he came next... just the two of us xD and i just acted myself. IDK Y BUT WHEN I’M WITH ONE-ON-ONE WITH SOMEONE, I’M JUST ME... BUT IF THERE ARE OTHER PEOPLE WHOM I KNOW, I’M just gonna huddle with the people i just know.

so i had that interaction with him, he was funny lol cuz he also look snobbish, GUY A and B are friends... runs within their group i guess?? but that was the last proper conversation alone hehe

after that... there were gestures xD he moved my bag away from the sun (which i kent find my bag where it was??), he attempted to make a conversation (but i snobbed him off... cuz that’s was when my friend liked him). I may forget other happenings... I remember we attended bible study (our prof brought his youth to class and invited the class who wanted to) and there we are listening to word of God, then when it was time to pray for everyone who attended to accept the salvation they have shared... THE AC WAS SO COLD and my hands really got easily cold, and he was opposite of me... so I said ‘sorry, my hands are really cold’... idk y, but i wanted my friend to be on my seat, so she gets to hold his hand... then he held my cold freezing hand and said ‘i’ll get them warm’... my heart... skipped a beat xD i feel so guilty in front of God and my friend but that’s where it really... really scared me, for feeling like this. Then for the general assembly (GA) for the whole college, we’re suppose to perform and one of it is dancing... he asked me to be his partner, when my friend was not there and in front of the other people practicing. Well, i was thrilled a bit (ugh the guilty pang), but i know the whole group were expecting him and my friend were partners... plus i was practicing with someone else already. Idk y my friend backout the dance and my partner wanted to pair with someone else with the audience???? so yea... i guess i had to say yes... i don’t know how to tell my friend, but i tried my best to act uninterested... but i guess it shows a bit?? i never danced with him during practice, while others are practicing cuz they’re couples in reality... and its a slow dance haha u can do anything u want, y practice right??

Before the performance, we were telling each other the steps lol because yea we never practiced xD and i told him ‘okay, you can hold my waist and twirl me once, but i’ll also do that too to you okay???’ and he just laughed and weird out i guess and said ‘okay?’... seriously, I feel liek i shouldn’t be being like this, but because of that one time talking to him for the first time back then, i want him to feel that old atmosphere, that this is me... the playful me... the not snobbish me...

And during the performance, we were the only one SPINNING, LIKE EVERYONE WERE REALLY DANCING SLOW... and we just danced merrily lol (we... didn’t really practiced and it shows lol) and gosh... i didn’t know he was that tall... i have a thing for tall human beings (curse u kpop for raising my standards) he looked manly, when he leads me... i just have to follow wherever he takes me. It was wow... i was laughing the whole time, laughing at his face, his smiling face, up close to his smiling face... and when he twirled me, i looked at my friend and her partner (she joined last minutes idk y but at least she there, she a great dancer so I was thinking Y DID U LEAVE, U WERE SUPPOSE THE ONE DANCING HERE) well... they were all really in slow dance mode. Now it was my turn to take his waist HAHAHAHAHA seriously to break the tension, to break something that i am feeling inside, that this is just a friendly dance. I remember looking down and notice how long his feet was haha... deng it im falling hard from the dance lol then when the dance ends, all the boys give paper roses to the ladies, and WELL THAT ROSE WAS ON HIS MOUTH THE WHOLE DANCE, probably the stem is wet from (my gahd). So i just accepted it lol and i attempted to return it to him after he was done doing the male group dance. I’m glad that he said that i keep it :)

but the sad thing was, my camera, which was suppose to film the whole performance, went low batt... and when it dies while videoing, the whole video wont be saved unless u stop it. I cried after knowing that, because it was the last GA dance because we gonna graduate this school year... also knowing that, all that dance... will be just a memory. I can see how my friend didn’t seem to care about me crying for reason 1, she... must be jealous for dancing with her crush... gahd im so guilty but i just wept... sad and all and let them all head home, cuz they were using my dad’s classroom (yup he a professor at my university). it was special for me :> also when the practice was happening, he wanted to dance with me but i said no while videoing the performance... but i forgot to press record -_- really meant to be a memory ugh

where was I?? GUY B was also his birthday today, so I greeted him at chat ‘happy chinese new year!!’ cuz i always assumed that feb. 19 is chinese new year IDK Y but ever since i was a kid, so yea. Before that, we drank milk tea with him yesterday and yea they said it was his birthday the next day so i told him about that info. He replied ‘u really pushing that event haha thanks (nickname) huehue’ then i said ‘welcome’. hoping to end the conversation fast cuz scared... of this guilty feeling from back then. My friend also likes someone else nao, but yeaa who knows, she liked GUY B for so long, it don’t just fade that fast... Then he replied ‘where’s my rice cake then?’, then i just joked him that we didn’t have any cuz only i know within the family that its chinese new year today lol (im so downtown cornykillme). Then he replied ‘You’re the only one who greeted me this way today hahahahaha’... me, being an overthinker, remembering my friend and her pure feelings back then and me shielding wutever feeling i may have for him, replied:

erase erase erase happy birthday!

and he replied ‘okok. haha. thanks’ big happy face emoji :) me: big smiling face emoji :D

i feel so ordinary after that... he probably replied everyone with the same thank you when they greet him...

I... in my mind, i don’t want me to be that someone who greeted him weirdly in his birthday, that makes me notable among the people who greeted him today... I am not dense to his actions back then, I had to act that I was dense and don’t care... But I am seriously affected with him being gentleman... Like one time, I was just walking while typing on ma phone and not watching my way... but he was also walking along with us, and he pushed me cuz I was about to hit the pole/column... I dont really care if I get hit, my friends would probably let it happen and laugh about it and i laugh about it too cuz not a lot of people hit themselves on a pole because of ignorance. But really... I appreciate that haha dem it... I also remember that one time, I was taking a picture of the male dance group they were making a parody of, so I was standing on the arm chairs, and balancing myself. Its dangerous I know, BUT I CAN GET A PROPER ANGLE FROM THERE and my friend is busy but also on the same room. So i almost got unbalanced trying to get that perfect angle, and wow he really moved fast and held the arm chair in place... fudge... it hurts feeling this way...

I can’t tell my friends how I feel... cuz, i feel illegal wutever I am feeling for him... I remember when he appreciated my drawings... how he saves me from obstructions lol how does he do it???? im fine with getting hurt, but thanks man. If ever, he feels something for me and tells me (haha i play the scenario most of the time when im bored thinking of other stuff), I’ll reject him... cuz my friend likes him. But nao... it’s different. My friend doesn’t like him anymore but... still... I know the right way is to reject him. It hurts but... I guess no matter wut I do, he will be just a memory haha...