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mikeslvr · 2 months ago

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My proper introduction (me + my fnaf au guide)

hellooo :3

I'm Donnie, they/them, 17 y/o, I’m an artist + writer and this blog is mainly for my retelling of rebornica’s fnaf au, which I’ve named Lost and Found

I DONT SUPPORT REBORNICA, hence the remake. It’s a collaborative effort with my boyfriend, who comes up with a lot of the more intricate lore and details. None of this would even exist if it weren’t for him (also his name is literally vincent,, crazy how that happens)

Anyways, I’m finally at a point where I feel secure in my au and its story, and comfortable posting lore abt it! PLEASE feel free to send in asks or messages in regard to my au and characters!! I also have a side blog @askthelaffnafguards for questions you have for the characters directly, if you’d like to interact with or have a chat with them!! If not then again pls don't be afraid to ask me literally anything pleaaaaase I must talk abt my hyperfixation

I may post suggestive humor and art sometimes !! No blatant NSFW but I like to joke, esp abt the guards

AU GUIDE UNDER READ MORE !! (this may be edited and updated overtime, this AU is still in the works !!)

AU tags :

#laffnaf - the au name abbreviated, anything relating to my au whether it’s art, lore, etc, will have this tag

#laffnaf rants - same as one above except these r usually text only posts

#donnie yapping - my shameless rambles, usually always abt my au or fnaf au’s in general

BRIEF Lore Synopsis (intentionally vague bc i like keeping secrets, most of the nitty gritty stuff will be for later) :

The time period of this AU is like,,,,,,exceptionally long. Starting in the 1950's and onward.

It also combines canon fnaf lore, rebornica lore, and other things me and my bf just thought up that seemed fun.

Vincent was adopted into the Afton family as a newborn when William was 11 years old. The two brothers had a very rocky dynamic as they grew up, William being the favorable child but it was still clear there was something.. off with him. Most of Vincent’s dynamic with William growing up was Vincent being manipulated into doing what William wanted, and having a false hope that his older brother might actually care about him. Growing more and more bitter as he grew up, Vincent began to resent his brother.

William opens the Fazbear's establishment(s) around his late 20's, Vincent being the first "real" Fazbear's employee alongside his brother and Henry Emily. Of course, Henry ends up quitting later on to grieve the death of his daughter, who died outside the pizzeria. He has his suspicions on how and why, but he doesn't stay long enough to confirm them. He just wants to get away. Before that even happened, one of Williams sons and his daughter also died tragically in animatronic related accidents, all of these instances coming together to reveal the discovery of remnant (yeah we're doing the remnant shit, much differently than canon though so it's pretty simple to understand. made from dead souls, excessive use gives the user extended life and/or immortality, as well as a rapid healing factor, however it also gives the user psychopathic and sadistic tendencies that can become uncontrollable. crazy magic purple goo)

Scott is employed a long while after Vincent meets him on a whim at a bar. Scott had just gotten past a divorce with his ex-wife, Morgan, and while Vincent wasn’t thinking he would enjoy Scott’s slightly tipsy rambles about her, he found him oddly enticing. Having also just broken up with Mahogany, Vincent's longest relationship ever (probably a year or two), he enjoyed some company. One night in specific, those dumb gays got a biiiiiiit too close and unlock a "friends with benefits" relationship. Cue Scott being confused abt his sexuality and Vincent being in denial about.. everything except his sexuality, really. If he’s sure of anything it’s that he fucks guys AND gals I guess (and the non-binaries, he's got love for us too <3) To make matters even more awkward they WORK TOGETHER NOW, nothing like having to work with the guy you saw in bed that one time and having to be like "ougghhhh just act normal........"

Mike was the bite of 87 victim at 7 years old, entering a coma for 8 years. Vincent and Scott are around 22 at the time of the bite, witnessing the whole thing. At this point the missing kids case is running rampant, Fazbears landing in hot water. Once Mike is out of hospitalization and fully recovered, while grieving his mother who passed away while he was in comatose, he gets a job at Burger King (please get the reference) temporarily. While working there he briefly dates a girl named Kat, they realized quickly though that they were better as friends and still have a strong platonic love for each other.

Vincent gets really paranoid about Scotts safety once he finds out his brother is a murderer, yet simultaneously becomes Williams test subject for remnant and is forced to keep his mouth shut. Waaaait. PARANOID? About SCOTT???? Whaaaaat?????? Is this bitter fake WHORE actually concerned about someone?? Huh.. on the other hand, Scott is noticing something off about the animatronics. Like an odd stench.. almost like- oh yeah no the missing children are in the animatronics. Can we get a "How many times Scott has to see a corpse" counter in here please. Both feeling unsafe and yet also obligated to stay in place, Scott and Vincent rely on each other to stay stable and keep this place afloat, both fully aware of William's endeavors but having their own reasons to not say anything. They sometimes stay up late talking about how much they despise William

Mike eventually meets a guy the same age as him named Astro, and due to family complications Astro is left living on the streets. Mike may be a dick but he's not heartless, so he allows Astro a spot on his couch. He could use the company anyway. The awkward tension between them dies down gradually as they get to know eachother, and at some point Mike quits his Burger King job and applies to work at Fazbears. He can't really recall what or why, but something, a little voice in the back of his head, told him he should apply. Weird. Astro decides to tag along, the guilt of not having a real job to pay back Mike eating him up.

Astro and Mike meet Vincent and Scott, as well as William. The gang is forming

Jeremy, Fritz, and Chris are all employed to heighten security and keep the place tidy.

While losing a grip on his sanity due to the remnant, Vincent is falling for Scott harder and harder as days go on, so you can imagine the absolute nightmare going on in his brain. What were once just delusional fantasies of Scott in the bedroom were now becoming butterflies in his stomach at the mere sight of him. While Vincent fell first, Scott definitely fell harder. Scott was dismissive of his feelings for a long time, forcing himself into denial over and over. They both tried to pursue other people but Vincent couldn't even stomach it more than once or twice, despite not being together yet he felt like he was cheating on Scott. Scott on the other hand had less guilt trying to continue pursuing women, but he had a slight unease.. does he actually.. like Vincent?

"So they should confess their feelings now right?" No DUMMY ur gonna have to wait (i'll move on from my purplephone delusions now sorry)

Adding onto the relationship stuff, Astro and Mike are beginning to develop feelings for each other as well. Mike is conflicted, because his entire life he thought he was straight, but he’s starting to realize maybe he was looking at men a bit more intently than he thought. Astro on the other hand, who was already confident in his sexuality, wanted nothing more than to kiss that stupid bald man. Around when they're both 22 Mike drunkenly confesses by accident and while it does take a while, they're able to talk normally and start officially going out. Ofc this is explored more in-depth in the real story and not the tumblr summary of it

And I’m cutting it off there. There's a lot of story to this au and i am not powerful enough to type it all out, nor do i really want to yet!! If you have any specific lore questions, pls feel free to ask, im not as secretive when asked directly,,

And if it wasn't obvious enough, William and Vincent are different people, as well as Mike Schmidt and Michael Afton. That seems REALLY obvious if you read this far but still, I don't want any confusion.

Characters in-depth :

Astro Leroy Michel (Eventually just "Astro Schmidt") / "Doll" :

Astro is a gay, transgender man, and uses he/they pronouns

5'6

25 years old

He's married to Mike, having met him when they were both around 16 years old. They didn't start dating until they were in their early 20's, and getting married around their late 20's.

Generally polite and can bond with most people.

Takes a lot to make him panic, he's learned to have a tough exterior and to be more level-headed in stressful situations (which combats Mike's more extreme emotions)

He's punk !! Mike didn't know much abt punk beliefs until he met Astro, safe to say he thinks his husband is sick asf and they rant abt controversial/political topics together a lot.

Wears the pants in the relationship

Loves Mike sososososo much, he doesn't think anyone is as handsome or cute as his adorable husband :D

Grew up being really into the paranormal and has owned the same Ouija board ever since he was a kid. Which is my subtle way of saying he gradually becomes one of the most connected to the spirits of the dead children, being able to communicate with them the easiest, especially since they have no anger or suspicion towards him.

Only ever heard of Fazbear's as a kid, never actually went there due to their sheltered childhood.

HATES working at Fazbear's, but is primarily staying for Mike, who refuses to quit.

Very fascinated by bugs, wanting a pet centipede or tarantula, but Mike would never allow it.

Very close friends with Vincent and Chris, knowing things about the two that seemingly nobody else does. He cares about them a lot, and they're all smoking buddies and spend late nights together when things get tough.

Mike Schmidt :

Bisexual, cis man, uses he/him pronouns

6'0

25 years old

Married to Astro Schmidt, as previously mentioned. He's hopelessly in love with that man.

Ever since the Foxy incident when he was 7, in which he suffered extreme frontal lobe damage and was hospitalized, left in comatose for a large chunk of his life, he's been left permanently altered. The memory of the bite has been blocked out of his brain, his admiration for the pirate fox remaining, but a blanket of uncertainty covers it ever so slightly.

The only people who know about the incident are William, Scott, and Vincent. None of them say anything.

Owns a crutch to help with his mobility at times, but refuses to use it. He thinks his friends will see him as weak, even if it would help him in the long run. Astro encourages him to use it whenever possible, with mixed results.

The brain trauma has left him with jittering, shaking hands. He gets easily frustrated with himself due to this and resorts to violence to get those emotions out, hence the bandages.

Most assume he just has heterochromia, which he won't deny, simply because he doesn't like getting into his past, but his left eye is actually a prosthetic.

Covers up his insecurities by acting all tough and macho, very short temper, "doesn't take shit from no one" type of guy. Until he's with Astro. Then he's a big 'ol softie.

Under his shell of an unapproachable, brutal guy, he's very compassionate and, while struggling with empathy, can still be there to support the ones he cares about.

His main coping mechanism for all his issues, though, is excessive drinking. He feels like he doesn’t belong in his own body, not remembering what completely tore his life apart and feeling so lost and unsure of what his purpose even is. So down goes the alcohol

Ever since he started his job at Fazbear's, he kept a baseball bat on him, strapped to his back underneath his security jacket.

Hated Vincent at first, but he grew to appreciate him once he slowly realized the two weren't so different after all. I mean, he still finds him annoying, but they kind of have a weird trauma-bonded thing going on. Their personalities clash but they still understand each other to a certain degree.

Was annoyed by and dismissive of Jeremy when they first met, not understanding why someone so young was risking his life at a place like this. Overtime, he grew really fond of the kid, seeing him as a younger brother, or even like a son.

Sees Scott as a father figure, but he would never admit that. He didn’t have a dad at all growing up, he never even met the guy, so when he met Scott it was kinda surreal. Scott cares for and yet also mentors him like a father would, like his father would. It really unnerves him, making him lash out a lot, but when he gets drunk or broken down he can’t help but tell Scott how much it means to him.

Oh yeah, and Faith — he doesn’t know about her yet. He barely even remembers the times they crossed paths when they were kids. He does eventually find out that she’s possessing him, and he doesn’t react very well. They adapt to each other soon enough though, once he realizes she’s only been protecting him. Faith usually forces herself into control if Mike is in extreme danger, resulting in a huge migraine and memory loss of the entire instance afterwards once Mike is back in control.

Hates Fazbear's. So much. The pay is shit, his boss is annoying, the whole nine yards. Yet he's staying, because despite it all he really loves his friends and the life he's built working here. Maybe everything will be okay.

Jeremy Fitzgerald :

Aroace, transman, he/him pronouns

5'4

19 years old

A very quiet young man, one of the most recent recruits to the Fazbear team and primarily just an intern. Almost an unpaid one, but Scott cut him some slack. He's really just trying to get money to pay for college and half of the rent at his dads house.

Generally silent and kept to himself, having a high amount of social anxiety. He carries a gameboy and some flashy cat headphones, gaming in his free time when he just wants to be by himself

Terrified of his job, always had a bad feeling about it, but it was the only place that would hire him. He grows accustomed to some of the animatronics though, like the marionette. He always enjoyed weird, circus-y things like that

INCREDIBLY kind, almost to his own dismay. Once he breaks through his awkward and shy shell, he's the most loyal, silly, and compassionate friend you could ever have

He loves snacks, anime, and video games, as well as what would be deemed today as more “cottagecore” fashion. Although, on some days, he rocks an oversized graphic tee and some sweatpants, because mans is tired

Idolizes Mike a lot, seeing him as an older brother or father figure. Mike also makes him feel more comfortable in his masculinity, helping his dysphoria and breaking him out of his shell, especially when Mike invites him to workout sessions. He feels the same about Astro, especially since Astro is an older trans guy who helps Jeremy through his journey

Where Jeremy’s relationship with Mike takes longer to develop and flesh out, he immediately saw Scott as a fatherly figure. He really appreciates Scott’s kindness and gentle demeanor despite looking like this big, stoic manager. He owes Scott his life, and he wants to be just as kind as he is, especially if he ever wants children when he’s older. He doesn’t wanna repeat the same mistakes as his biological dad. Never.

Jeremy and his biological father have a horrible relationship, and his mother passed away in a car accident when he was young. He barely remembers what she looks like, and hates looking his dad in the eyes. Because of this, in art, his mom will be portrayed with a completely blank face, and his dad's face will be crossed out with a X

Over time, Jeremy and Fritz grow very close, developing into a queerplatonic relationship (they don't know that this is a term, to them they're just platonic soulmates that hold hands n kiss on the cheek sometimes !!) They also binge cartoons and anime together, and bond over hobbies and common interests

Jeremy is close with Chris as well, hanging out with him and Fritz primarily, mainly when Mike and Astro are busy

Vincent Afton/Bishop :

Pansexual, cis man, he/him pronouns

5’7

39 years old

Starts using Scott's last name (Bishop) a bit into their romantic relationship, not because they're married, but because Vincent would rather it seem like they are married than keep using the last name Afton (and let's be honest, Vincent wants to put a ring on that finger so bad)

The begrudging younger brother of William Afton, as mentioned he was adopted as an infant. His parents didn’t really like him though, and neither did William. He didn’t notice until he was older that the majority of the time William was just using him, which never ended up changing.

Vincent was always the first test subject for everything William did, including remnant. When William discovered remnant, he subjected Vincent to that torture completely against his will. This resulted in an addiction with extremely severe and dangerous side effects, turning a seemingly normal guy into uummm,,purple guy WOAHHHH they said the thing (Vincent may have also been the first springlock victim but that’s to be determined)

In Vincent’s early 20’s (so around 1985,,just for reference), William put a contraption in Vincent’s jaw while he was unconscious that forces his mouth to stay in a wide grin, so anytime Vincent tries to do simple tasks like eat, talk, close his mouth, or frown, he’s in excruciating pain. As a result he’s always smiling. Fuck Lost and Found William he’s a bitch

On a more lighthearted topic, Vincent’s childhood wasn’t all bad. He would watch his mom play the piano and studied her techniques for years, using it as an escape and a way to relieve stress growing up. Unfortunately it went to the back of his mind when he moved out to live with William (stupid decision). Also, he totally had spunk and style in the 80’s. We’re keeping his love for funky suits, he loves dolling himself up

He still has his toast addiction, not as severely but warm slices of toast with butter are unironically his comfort food

Vincent spent a lot of his 20’s parading himself around and using his flirty and eccentric facade to get himself laid almost everyday. He didn’t form meaningful connections with anyone, nor did he have any interest in doing so. He was going through a rough patch and wanted a quick and easy way out of it every night, that’s all.

Although, that lifestyle came to a surprising halt when he met a man at his usual bar once. He had never seen him there before, and considering he was thinking of just rotting in bed that night instead, it was an utter coincidence that they even saw each-other, let alone conversed and slowly developed a friendship. Of course this man was Scott Bishop, a kindhearted guy who lost his job as a nurse and simultaneously lost his wife in a divorce. Scott and Vincent’s relationship hit a bit of a road bump one night where they were both a little tipsy and decided to spend the night together (aka they had sex), resulting in Vincent being terrified that he might actually feel things for this man and Scott being confused because he might actually be gay (more on Scott in his section). Vincent had to wrestle with the idea that he felt a real emotional connection to this guy, actually being concerned for his well-being and wanting to be with him every second of every day. Which wasn’t like him, at all. He was falling in love and it was terrifying.

Vincent DOES become a serial killer but he didn’t kill the children, his kills came from a psychotic break after being filled with remnant for years and a thirst for blood. He still feels remorse and guilt for his actions and despises William for killing innocent children.

Was a fun uncle to Williams kids but nothing much more than that, he was awkward around kids and preferred Evan (crying child’s name in laffnaf) since he was quiet and didn’t cause many problems. His relationship with Michael got rough after the bite of 83, Evan’s death hitting him like a truck and he wasn’t sure how easy it would be to forgive Michael, despite still wanting to be there for his nephew. They never really got to patch things up before Vincent got preoccupied with his own affairs. To this day he isn’t sure if Michael is even alive.

Still has his flirty and eccentric personality but he slowly gains more genuine confidence and learns how to express his emotions properly and be there for people he cares about. He’s still pretty blunt and hits on people for funsies but he makes it clear when he’s just joking around. People still find him creepy and off putting nevertheless.

Obviously he’s in love with Scott so I’ll briefly mention his relationships with everyone else. He’s best friends with Astro, the two having similar interests and humor and they love gossiping in their free time. He loves to pick on Mike but deep down he respects him and the work he does, plus the trauma he went through. He also loves to mess with Jeremy, taking advantage of his jumpiness and using that to scare him shitless all the time. As for everyone else he’s fine with them, I’m so sorry but this is taking weeks and I’m so tired UGHHRG

Scott Bishop (Phone Guy) :

Unlabeled, cis man, he/him pronouns (I think he's asexual in some variant.. not fully bc yk but maybe demisexual......... maybe I'm just self-projecting)

6'4

40 years old

Practically forced into the manager position by William, who was once manager but started losing interest in that portion of his job, so all the stress was put on Scott. That includes everyone else’s jobs too, as he’s kinda expected to fill in for whoever isn’t present. For example if Fritz isn’t at work, Scott has to take care of the animatronics. If Mike stays home, Scott (or Vincent if Scott asks him to bc he’s pathetic) has to fill in for him. So you can imagine how stressed Scott is when he gets home every night, if he even does. His ACTUAL job is the dayshift, but with everyone else to manage, he goes days without sleeping sometimes.

If you thought Jeremy was unbearably kind, try THIS loser. His kindness hurts him. Even if you're a bitch to him, he'll be there for you if you're having a bad day. He cares about his employees lives more than his own, and has the scars to prove that he would do anything to protect them. Ontop of that, he's a huge goofball, more than people assume or give him credit for. He always knows the punchlines to Mikes jokes, kinda aggravating Mike sometimes but deep down they appreciate each others humor.

Really loves books and reading, but also infatuated by really dark concepts and topics. He doesn’t really fear death as much as he accepts that it’s inevitable. That didn’t really change when he began working at Fazbears. He would sacrifice himself for his employees and that’s that, if he died for a good cause then he died happy.

Probably the most infuriated by the missing children case. He began working at Fazbear's in the 80's, around 1987 to be exact. His first run-in with a child nearly dying being the Bite of '87. He already felt horrifically guilty for that, so you can imagine the fear and stress as more and more children that he saw everyday just slowly went missing. Children he comforted when they were sad, children whose parents he had fond relationships with. They were all ticked off, one by one. Scott found out all the details about William being the killer through Vincent, but he was also convinced by him not to say anything, due to William’s large influence and capability of silencing anyone who speaks out against him. After all, Fazbears is a largely successful corporation in this universe. It’s still dirt cheap and looks like shit, but the Afton name is very well known. It can’t be tarnished, no matter how badly Scott wants to tear it all to the ground.

Wears his giant phone mask to look more like a mascot for Freddy Fazbear’s (other than Freddy himself....), and to cover up his face during the dayshift, which he deems too “unsettling” for the kids to see (wtf man you have ONE scar get a grip ur beautiful). The kids grew attached to him, his mask plastered with sharpie drawings and little stickers by the end of the day. He would NEVER remove them, never. He wasn’t sure how good he would be with handling kids, but he always ends up smiling by the end of the day, even if he’s stressed out. Once again, it got really under his skin that his boss murdered those kids.

Also — the phone reacts to his emotions. I don’t know the logistics, it just does. It’s just a helmet but when Scott puts it on he can emote and make facial expressions that are expressed by the phone, and yet it also still works as a phone. I don’t know, okay? Moving on.

Confused by and yet also entranced by Vincent. He loves to watch him, analyzing him in his brain, figuring out what makes him tick. He loves the attention too, even if he playfully shoves Vincent away a lot he loves how touchy and clingy he is. The way he hugs him from behind, grabs his hand, holds his face, oh my lord. It makes him completely melt, the compliments too, it all goes right to his brain and makes him all warm and giggly.

But he’s TOTALLY straight, right?

Yeah no. Everyone point and laugh. He doesn’t even know what was going through his head when he accepted Vincent’s offer that night, the logic of how he came out of that still thinking he’s straight is utterly ridiculous. You kissed a man Scott oh my lord

As for the other guards, as previously stated, Scott cares about them a lot. He has a big soft spot for Jeremy and surprisingly Mike, treating them as if they were his sons. He’s aware of Jeremy’s awful relationship with his dad, being the one to actually physically save him from that household, and trusting Mike to take Jeremy in and live with him and Astro. He would’ve done it himself if he could’ve, but he just has too much going on already. He and Mike also had a mutual understanding that Jeremy’s father must be “dealt with”, sending Mike off to do so. We don’t fw Jeremy’s dad here.

He’s also aware of Mike’s self-destructive behaviors and drinking problem, indulging in drinking with Mike sometimes to make him feel less alone, but the majority of the time he’s the one staying sober to make sure Mike is okay, alongside Astro. He’s like this with all the guards, recognizing their behaviors and habits and being there if he feels like they need him, which 9 times out of 10 they do.

He also thinks - no, knows that he owes Mike. He owes Mike a lot. Despite none of it being his fault, despite doing his best to save Mike that day, he just needs to be there for him. It's the least he could do for keeping it all a secret.

Fritz

Aroace, non-binary, he/they king

5'1

20 years old

Still mostly prefers masculine terms despite being non-binary, honestly he doesn't even know the term non-binary exists. He just knows he doesn't fully feel like a guy

Biiiiiiiig tech guy, very very good with computers and all kinds of technology. He genuinely loves working on the animatronics and sneaking in little upgrades without William knowing

Very friendly, but not the most social unless it's about something that directly interests him. This is why he gets along with Jeremy so well, as they have very similar interests, and Jeremy always asks questions about programming and hacking that Fritz loves to tell him all about

Was briefly fired for tampering with the animatronics after hours, but was quickly re-hired by Scott when he realized they couldn't find a mechanic with nearly as much ambition, drive, and skill as Fritz

Weird comedic relief thing -- Fritz made Balloon Boy in this AU. BB was NEVER meant to be part of William's animatronic roster, and while he isn't Fritz's best work, Fritz thinks he's just so goofy looking that he HAS to be included. BB is packed with motion-activated voice lines Fritz installed in his voicebox, causing nothing but annoyance for the rest of the guards. Everyone but Fritz hates that stupid thing

Apart from his pookie Jeremy he also hangs out with Chris and sometimes Mike, but none of the other guards really talk to him much. Not out of hostility or anything, just because they know Fritz prefers his privacy and focusing on his work.

Chris

Trans man, he/him pronouns, and uuhnmmmnm (im so sorry i have not figured out his sexuality yet, at the moment im saying bisexual i think)

5'5

21 years old

The chillest guy there, spends 90% of his time blasting music from his walkman into his ears and humming n bobbing his head to the beat of his music as he sweeps the floors

Friends with EVERYONE, but he certainly has his favorites. He loves listening to Mike ramble and theorize, enjoys Scott's wisdom on dark n spooky topics, likes chilling with Fritz and Jeremy due to being similar in age and interests, but as previously mentioned he likes smoking (weed) with Astro and Vincent on weekends and therefore those two have become his best friends over time. At work though, he would probably pick Mike

Lives in a dusty old apartment with his black hairless cat, Lucky. He loves his dusty old apartment

Loves piercings, tattoos, graffiti art, all kinds of stuff like that

Doesn't really pay much mind to the whole "haunted pizzeria" thing, he thinks it's real interesting and all but he has bigger worries. Like sweeping the shit outta those floors so he can afford to feed his cat this week

As much as I would love to elaborate on more of the characters (Faith, William, the rest of the missing children, etc.) this has already taken probably months and I would like to just post this stupid thing already. I think you could slowly see my writing descend into madness and for that I apologize

AGAIN PLEASE FEEL FREE TO ASK ANY QUESTIONS !!!!! more will be added to this in the future, ty for reading xoxoxoxoxoxo <33333

#fnaf #fnaf au #rebornica #fnaf artist #fanon fnaf #fnaf oc #mike schmidt fnaf #mike schmidt #purplephone #vincent bishop #scott phone guy #phone guy fnaf #fritz fnaf #jeremy fitzgerald #jeremy fitzgerald fnaf #five nights of flirting #five nights at freddys #chris fnaf #oc x canon

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shepscapades · 1 year ago

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not you coming back just to remind me of my old pokemon obsession/j

I remember watching Pokemon XYZ series when I was younger (probably the closest thing to anime I've ever watched) I used to be a hardcore fan back then, used to watch many gameplays theories stuff and all...-

Pokemon were like,,, my only interest back then? Damn I used to be crazy about those creatures, still remember how whenever I was playing a Pokemon game my team was almost exclusively flying types (birds! I love them!) and an Eevee (later one of the eeveelutions, probably vaporeon)

I don't recall watching your animatic in the past but it feels very familiar to me like some kind of deja vu so it's possible I've actually seen it before! And I must say it has a very nostalgic feel to it! I can see how much you've improved since then but the animatic still is very cool! I love it <3

(ALSO I almost forgot how much I loved Sycamore's design back then ghghhghghgh he's such a pretty man)

Welp, now I go back to watching Welsknight and some other Pokemon animatics because you messed with my algorithm and led me into diving into an old obsession -

LMAOOO MAY <3 I’m so sorry for the YouTube algorithm that’s so funny XD yeah idk, Pokémon’s one of those things that never left me— mcyt has been at the forefront of my hyperfixations for a very long while but I still always play the new games and have brief Pokémon obsessions every now and then hehe (also!!! flying pokemon and eevee beloved!!! <333333)

Funny enough, it always happens at times like these when most of my Drawing Brain+Brainrot is taken up by school or professional work, bc my free time is instead spent playing games I can zone out to like Pokémon :>

About 2 months ago I picked up Legends Arceus for the first time since I didn’t get to finish it two years ago, and seeing cheeky references to the characters I grew up with + the insane plot that is this game gripped me so tightly that I’ve kinda been in a Pokémon spiral (/pos) ever since LOL. I’ve been a submas freak lately and if anyone who has ever been into the funny train men has me on discord they’ll know that my status is very telling <3 maybe I’ll post some of the background doodles I’ve been doing lately!! I’m such a freak about minecraft idk why I’m embarrassed to be equally freakish about the other ““game for children”” LMAO

#1-marigold-1 #ask #Pokémon #I also would like to stream sometime soon just to hang and work on my exhibition… that would be nice #I just gotta pick a day and stick to it bc whenevr I think about streaming i always psyche myself out #despite loving it every time once I actually get going #you know how that tasty executive dysfunction is <3 #anyway. touched and very happy that so many of u guys love Pokémon stuff =w=

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the-bjd-community-confess · 1 year ago

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Since i lurk here occasionally, i randomly get posts from here in my "for you." i saw that confession about the person who assumed their follower would buy a doll they had because it was said follower's grail really made me feel some type of way. Obviously i can't be 100% sure that person was talking about me, but there was enough detail they gave that i am pretty certain it was. Also after seeing that confession i realized a particular person was no longer viewing my insta stories or posts, and thinking back a few weeks, actually hadn't for a while, despite them being a staple viewer for a long time. They were otherwise active (posting, stories)

Tldr version is: i thought you knew the type of person i am, and what my issues are, and if you wanted me to buy it, you should have DM'd me first so i could let you know i couldn't at the time. And i'm unsure how i feel about you muting me months after the fact.

Very long winded ranty version:

Now, since this person was nearly always seeing my stories, they should know that i am A) autistic and B) disabled without steady income, as i post things about those topics in my stories often. So being autistic, yeah i hyperfixate and mention 1 topic often. In this case being how expensive this grail doll goes for. I am a firm believer that dolls DEpreciate in value, even limiteds. So yes, a doll that goes for 2-3x the og price is ridiculous to me regardless of how much i want it. I will absolutely not spend upwards of 1000usd for 5+ year old doll that i can't even see in person. For that part, sorry not sorry i was "annoying" about stating that on my own personal instagram story a few times.

Anyway, at the beginning of 2023 this person mentions they may be selling this grail. I DM them saying i'd be interested. They tell me it may be a while because they're lazy about sale posts. I say cool beans and move on. MONTHS later, like near the end of the year, they suddenly post the doll for sale. And for significantly less than market price. I'm excited of course, but unfortunately just COULD NOT at the time. As stated before, i don't have stable income (and this person should know this). So with a heavy heart, i share the sale post to my story saying something like "what a fantastic price! If i could currently afford it, i'd totally grab him, but since i can't someone else should!" And yeah i assume it sold quick. Maybe around a month later i happen to mention again that people normally sell it for a crazy price. I wasn't aware i had to specifically mention in that story "oh except so-and-so, their price was great" like.. i said your price was wonderful. I just wasn't financially able at that moment, and i'm not entering a layaway with an unstable income. That's just irresponsible. Since then, i haven't mentioned the doll or its price at all as the hyperfixation has waned. It's now been a few months since then.

So my main point is.. if this person was going to be SO SALTY they had to confess about about me not immediately snagging their oh-so-generous-for-my-benefit deal MONTHS after i mentioned my interest DIRECTLY to them, they should have contacted me DIRECTLY first. Life happens. Things change. Stuff has to be paid. If they had just DMed me before making their post i could have told them "that's so generous, but i sadly can't right now." And they then could have sold it at a higher price if they so felt inclined. This is the logical thing to do, and what i myself do if i know a follower wants a doll i am selling. To then mute me a few months after the fact because they're STILL SALTY is petty and if i'm so annoying then they could have unfollowed me at any point. This is a person that i considered myself to be "rather chummy" with as we interact a bit more than i do with other followers. So for me to see that confession and then notice that person no longer seeing my stories and posts.. it's a bit hurtful? Annoying? Maybe i'm angry? I'm not sure because i have trouble figuring out how i feel. I didn't unfollow them or anything because i'm giving the benefit of the doubt that maybe it was a similar situation with other people. And that's also why i'm not going to confront them about it. However if that person sees this, and then i see they unfollow me or something.. well then i guess i'll know. I'll quietly unfollow them too and i'll be a bit sad because again, i kinda saw us as chums but that'll be that and we'll both just move on with our lives.

~Anonymous

#BJD #ABJD #BJD Confessions #Community Confessions #Buyers and Sellers #BJD Friends

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prettyboysnuffilm · 7 months ago

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well despite my insane obsession with a lot of fucked up stuff, i’m shy so thank you for offering the anons! may i ask what made you get into scream?

no worries ! and sure :) well, i watched the first Scream movie many many years ago when i was getting into watching some of the horror classics, i watched Texas chainsaw massacre, Halloween... etc and ofc i had to watch Scream. Tbh i loved the movie but i was hyperfixated on other stuff back then so i didn't join the fandom per se, i was simply like "Oh, okay cool gay slasher". Last November the fnaf movie came out and i watched it with my closest friends because they've been fans of the games since the first one came out so i was like "Hey, you know that the dude who plays William Afton is also in Scream? He's like this twink serial killer." We watched Scream together like the next week and i got... curious about Billy and Stu again. I was in another fandom when that happened but i was definitely chronically online and burnt out as fuck so Scream was like a breath of fresh air. My best friend was really invested with Stuilly and we went kind of crazy about Billy and Stu from 0 to 100. Then we all binged the whole franchise and a lot of Matthew movies as well lol. I have to say that i only truly enjoy the first 3 Scream movies, the fourth one is ... okay i guess? But Scream 5 and 6 ... yikes, i don't like them at all. Now it's just me who's still hyperfixated on Scream and Stuilly because they are living in my brain from free and not intending on moving at all. So yeah, that's the story lol! I'm also obsessed, like really obsessed with the horror genre and i'm a major horror movie freak. Also, I dunno why it happened but Billy is like. kind of my comfort character rn (which sounds like me being a big fat redflag but istg i'm not) maybe it's just some hints of his personality and the horror movie obsession and holding grudges. He helps me to cope a lot so maybe that's another reason why Scream and Stuilly are impaled into my brain

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romycelos · 1 year ago

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LITTLE LIFE UPDATE!!

hi guys! first off, i wanted to say thanks for all the notes on my stuff recently — i didn’t realize i could be relatable sometimes?? it actually makes me super happy that a lot of you are enjoying my posts. :)

second, as you may be able to tell from my recent reblogs and recent post from last week or so, the hyperfixation on stardew valley is hyperfixating. i don’t know if i mentioned this in my intro post, but i tend to switch interests often, and super fast. while i’m still very much interested in overwatch, that game was fully consuming me. now, i’ve got a cozy alternative for when i don’t feel like getting all pissed off at the fact that even after a month straight of playing, i am still absolutely ass at overwatch!! also… sam stardew valley. i’ll stop right there.

third and probably finally, i actually made a sort of vow to myself today. i want to enter a sort of reinvention period starting — quite literally — tomorrow. what this means is that i’m going to start focusing on myself and some hobbies that i’ve sort of kicked to the curb more now. i’m going to attempt to be less wrapped up in my phone and social media, replacing these habits with things like drawing, writing, crafts, taking walks, hanging out with my friends, playing games (like stardew), and going to the gym. i’m also going to lock in and focus on the remainder of my schoolwork since the end of the year is just around the corner. of course, i’ll set aside time for breaks and participating in some of the hobbies i listed, but i feel like now’s as good a time as ever to start taking things in my life a little more seriously, and to just start having more fun outside of the nearly completely technological world we all live in today. during this shift in my life, tumblr may become more of an outlet for me to record my progress, or to take part in certain activities such as fic / story writing, which i haven’t done in ages, but feel as though i should pick back up due to my being an english major with a creative writing concentration at school. next year, i’m taking all creative writing classes, so this could also be great practice for that.

so… yeah! that’s just a little bit about what’s happening for me. i know none of you asked for it, but it feels good to write it all down so i can hold myself accountable later on. i’m excited for this journey i’m setting out on and hope that it creates nothing but positivity in this crazy current chapter of my life. <3

also, any suggestions on fun and easy hobbies related to arts and crafts would be greatly appreciated! i started embroidery recently, but if any of you have other things you think might be enjoyable, feel free to let me know!

#talking #life update #blogging #about myself #reinvention #self care #self love #multifandom #writing #drawing #art #crafts #reply #please interact

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inksandpensblog · 10 months ago

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Hello y’mind if I—

Dark did all the virus stuff fully in control about it and it wasn't the mission code that flipped them off

To be fair, not everyone headcanons that Dark still has the mission code by The Showdown; and even those who do may headcanon it as dormant. I know a while back it was popular to headcanon that his mission code was erased when he and Chosen grasped hands for the first time, just before the bluescreen.

I love both takes, honestly. Because yeah if he still has the mission code then he’s winning every moment that he doesn’t give in to it, but if he doesn’t have it…then yeah, it was all him and he willfully turned.

The AvA 10 victim is actually the OG victim that came back from deletion and isn't one of the clones because yeah why not

I’ve seen theories that noogai drew victim more than once- as in, he thought he was drawing multiple victims but it turned out he always drew the same victim so the experiences carried over -and that AvA10 victim is once again the same victim and simultaneously all of them at once. (No idea whether the victim in AvA1 is meant to be the first or last or one of the middle ones in this theory.)

Admittedly I’m not really sure how AvA10 victim being one of AvA1 victim’s clones might work, because didn’t they all get deleted with him? At that point if there’s a plausible explanation for the survival of a clone then the survival of the OG is automatically plausible.

(Personally I also use the headcanon that victim’s clones operate as a sort of hivemind; one consciousness spread across multiple bodies. Since I don’t see them as independent from him I see no reason they’d act any differently than the OG in any given scenario. But I know that headcanon isn’t as popular.)

Second unlocked their powers not because Chosen fully gave up on fighting and thus "The Chosen One's return" but actually just because they're angry and sad that their friends died and apparently it conveniently unlocks right before Dark unleashes the Virabots to the internet

I only found out about this idea recently XD it’s neat.

The mercenaries actually don't have backstories and they're genuinely just side characters with no big deal at all except for being victim's workers

I dunno about big-deal backstories, but I feel like they’ve gotta at least have notable origins or else what’s the point of making them so distinct.

The grey rocket corp workers are grey so they don't stand out much and they aren't clones

Your line between Doylist and Watsonian is getting a bit blurry here /lh I’m sure the meta reason they’re grey is so they don’t stand out much, but that doesn’t mean there can’t be a more compelling in-universe reason. While I’m personally fond of the idea that they all paint-bucket-fill themselves grey when they come to work and they can be any color imaginable underneath, I’ll admit the clone idea is growing on me what with how they’re the only sticks aside from Agent who are animated on pivots. (Like, Alan could’ve animated them the same way he animates all the background sticks and just made them all grey, but he didn’t. He had to give them the pointy elbows. Something that makes them stand out even as they’re meant to be easy to overlook.)

Alan actually didn't really think of the plot this deep but our minds are just to far hyperfixating over sticks so our imagination starts going crazy

I think it’s a mixed bag; I know he’s taking some stuff much deeper than I ever thought he would, but yeah other stuff he doesn’t think that deeply about. I can’t wait to see where he takes us next. (And to be fair, there have been several times where Alan put something in a video just because he thought it was cool and we had to wait a few episodes for him to give it some sort of story basis, so time will tell.)

What if

We're just exaggerating everything

Dark did all the virus stuff fully in control about it and it wasn't the mission code that flipped them off

The AvA 10 victim is actually the OG victim that came back from deletion and isn't one of the clones because yeah why not

The mercenaries actually don't have backstories and they're genuinely just side characters with no big deal at all except for being victim's workers

The grey rocket corp workers are grey so they don't stand out much and they aren't clones

Alan actually didn't really think of the plot this deep but our minds are just to far hyperfixating over sticks so our imagination starts going crazy

Gosh I just woke up stop giving me stupid ideas brain

#animator vs animation #don’t mind me adding my unsolicited opinions

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tbpbsides · 3 years ago

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so my relationship to the getting back together of my chemical romance is that. i was excited out of my mind halloween 2019 but it didnt feel real at all, it hardly felt real when i originally bought newark tickets (early 2020?) and then over the next two years as shows were postponed and we were kind of just being sold a lot of stuff. i was like yeah ok they’re not Back back this is like, a cher farewell tour. and while mcr never stopped meaning the whole world to me, it had long since stopped being something that occupied significant brain space except for when the hyperfixation would occasionally reawaken and id watch lotms/read ntlis and go crazy for a short while. even once the eu tour started, i wasnt really on mcrblr and i kind of just looked at it from afar like “oh thats nice :) glad theyre still weird”. but really i think i couldnt let myself get invested or excited because i just didnt believe it was for real. i didnt think there was a CHANCE of new music. but then foundations dropped and i listened to it ONCE and was like yeah thats cool. for an obligatory “reunion” song. which really i think just shows more than anything else that the mcr breakup may well be the source of my trust issues

#theres a rb coming Sorry i know i am literally jsut posting this for me

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hildannette · 2 years ago

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HELLO i was tagged by rumi my friend rumi @ultimaid AND trix my friend trix @gh0str3c0rd3r for ten songs i have been listening to recently! (ok but just in advance you can't make fun of me for my lame ass music OKAY peace and love on planet earth)

SO IF YOU REMEMBER POPPY (she got really popular for her really strange youtube videos a very long time ago) she is actually one of my FAVORITE music artists EVER and this is her newest song!!! her music style is really unique and cool KINDA weirdly halfway between pop and metal IT'S SO COOL i'll actually PROBABLY bring her up again on this post tbh but!!!! YEAH LISTEN TO CHURCH OUTFIT and her new song that's coming out next week!!

so i've actually really really loved prince since middle school and i've been relistening to a lot of the songs i liked back then lately and this has to be ONE OF MY FAVORITES... it's not a very popular one but the lyrics FUCK SEVERELY imo, i'm a huge fan of "if i was your one and only friend, would you run to me if somebody hurt you, even if that somebody was me?"

this song is like. it may be my actual favorite piece of sapphic music EVER i love the lyrics, i love the vibes, it fits sosososo many ships and i literally listen to it SOOOO much, ask me what songs i've been listening to at any given time and this will be ON THE LIST

ALSO ONE OF MY FAVORITE SAPPHIC SONGS EVER AND WITH SUMMER COMING UP I HAVE HAD IT ON REPEAT!!!! perfect for summer, perfect for lesbians, perfect for me, a lesbian who has been calling it "hot girl summer" for weeks now (even tho it's april)

ANOTHER POPPY SONG okay so i LOVE her whole am i a girl? album SO MUCH but this is my favorite song off of it and one of the ones i listen to on repeat the most SO I TOTALLY RECOMMEND bc the lyrics and style are just SO COOL but also go listen to the whole album and i will love you forever

i honestly just listened to this recently bc i randomly remembered the nostalgia so i wouldn't necesssarily Recommend It if it doesn't give you fond memories of being in fifth grade like it does to me BUT to this day it's just super cute and super mecore

TO MAKE A VERY LONG ERA OF MY LIFE SHORT basically i had this like. CRAZY michael jackson hyperfixation in middle school. and i have obviously grown out of it BUT this is still one of my favorite songs ever and is still one i listen to all the time. the lyrics are simple but they scratch an itch in my brain and it's really beautiful. I WILL ACTUALLY also put the youtube link for this one bc the version on the michael album was released posthumously and i really think the overproduction takes away from what makes the song so beautiful. SO I RECOMMEND THE ORIGINAL INSTEAD (i love you sven nelson channel with all the rare demos and original versions of michael's stuff)

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OK SORRY FOR PUTTING POPPY AGAIN BUT I COULDN'T NOT PUT THIS ONE even tho it's her most mainstream song it's also by far my most looped one bc IT'S JUST SO FUN and upbeat and nice to listen to, it was my top song in 2022 and i still loop it all the time!!! definitely give it a listen (BUT ALSO CHECK OUT THE REST OF THE ALBUM BC YOU HAVE PROBABLY HEARD THIS ONE BEFORE BUT REALLY THE REST OF THE ALBUM IS SO GOOD AND A LOT OF THE OTHER SONGS ARE A LOT MORE UNIQUE STYLISTICALLY AND LYRICALLY)

I'M SORRY FOR INCLUDING GLEE I'M SORRY I SWEAR IT'S JUST THE ONE bc this is like. my favorite glee song EVER. brittana literally made me who i am today when i was a confused queer middle schooler who wasn't allowed to have access to most queer media SO THIS SONG IS VERY SPECIAL TO ME OKAY and listening to it on repeat for hours is an ultimate therapeutic experience so i've highkey been doing it nonstop recently

janet jackson is so cool i'd actually marry her. anyways i have had this song on loop and have listened to it at least 50 times in the last week.... IT FUCKS SO SEVERELY songs i could sing sosososo loud word for word

I AM BLANKING ON WHO I COULD TAG BC THIS ALREADY WENT AROUND MY MUTUAL CIRCLES but if you want to do it then YOU SHOULD thumbs up

#squishy talks too much #THIS IS SUCH A WEIRD LIST SORRY this is why i never talk about my music #bc like. this happens #BUT I HOPE YOU ENJOYED AND i hope yall check out poppy okay bc most of my music is lame but she is cool as fuck

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catthor · 2 years ago

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I’ve regained my hyperfixation on the Zelda multiverse so I’d like to present to you a scenario. Wild is showing the other Links (namely the more important ones, Legend, New Hyrule, Twilight, Sky, Time, Winds) and he decides to show them something really cool. This is gonna be long as hell and probably not great, so… bear with me if you dare.

Twilight: oh god, I hate this place.

Time: meh. I’ve seen foggier/dustier areas.

Wild: it’s kind of annoying to traverse, but trust me, you’re gonna be blown away by this.

Wind: I hope so. My feet hurt like hell.

Time: hey! Language, kid.

Wild: ah, here we are! May I present to you: the leviathan of the gerudo desert!

Wind: woah! Awesome!

Twilight: that thing is massive!

New Hyrule: I don’t think I’ve ever seen something so big!

Sky: I’ve seen bigger. I’ve ridden bigger.

Time: Me too… but it’s still kind of weird to see it… dead, you know? Broken down after millennia.

Legend, running up from behind: Sorry! This area is really confusing… Anyway, what was it you wanted to-

Wild: what’s wrong?

Legend: what the fuck, man?

Time: Guys, there is a 12 year old here!

Wind: Time, it’s FINE.

Time: take it from another 12 year old hero: it’s not.

Wind: I’ve lived on pirate ships several times.

Legend: I just- shit, man.

New Hyrule: Legend, what’s going on?

Legend: that’s the, uh… the thing. Oh Hylia. I think I’m gonna throw up.

Wild: wait, what? You recognize it?

Legend: yeah, uh. Remember how I told you about that island? The dream one?

Wind: no…

Legend: really? Huh. It was this massive island that I woke up on without any stuff. I went through… a lot there. Turned out it was all the dream of some massively powerful being. The wind fish. That.

Wild: why does that sound… familiar?

Sky: Wait, wait, hold up. Wild. Are there… more of these?

Wild: uh… yeah, two of them. Should we go see those?

New Hyrule: Yes!! If this is a wind fish, what if those are things we would recognize as well?

Link: Alright. Things are gonna get hot, so if you have heat resistance, equip it. If not… just try not to equip wooden weapons. Grab on, everyone!

Wind: I don’t see why we have to warp. Can’t we just-

Everyone else, in unison: we can’t sail there, wind.

-warp-

Wild: And we’re here! Now it’s just a short walk.

New Hyrule: ah! Lava?

Time: Wow. Crazy how some things change so much… and some things stay exactly the same. Death mountain looks so… familiar, after thousands of years.

Twilight: it’s almost… reassuring.

Sky, squinting: wait, is that…?

Legend: that’s definitely not a wind fish.

Sky: oh come on, Levius? Really? Aw, man. I loved that fishy boy.

Wind: fishy boy? Really?

Twilight: I have heard you refer to Jabun as a fishy boy on several occasions.

Wind: point taken.

Sky: and after I went through all that trouble getting the tree of life and planting it in the sealed temple…

Wild: ok, that sounds REALLY familiar too, what is with this?!

Wind: what if we like. Went on a tour of all the stuff we think each other might recognize.

New Hyrule: I like your attitude, wind!

-Eventide Isle-

Legend: *crying on the ground, curled up into a fetal position*

Twilight, kneeling next to legend: *glares at Wild*

Wild: what did I do?!

New Hyrule, poking a hinox: big lizard

-Kah Yah shrine-

Twilight: oh shit. Do you think it would still work if we had all the pieces?

Wild: I mean, I know where the pieces are… we could try.

*an hour later*

Twilight: well, it doesn’t work, but it looks cool.

Wild: kinda reminds me of this helmet I found… *equips the twilight helm*

Twilight Portal: *starts glowing*

Twilight: where in hylia did you find that?!

-some random plain-

New Hyrule: oh! There’s some bokoblins over there.

Legend: Yes! I could use a good fight.

Wild: nah, I’m too tired. Lemme just… *equips Majora’s Mask* there we go!

Time: what on HyLiA’s GrEeN eArTh

-great plateau-

Wind: why are we here again?

Twilight: I’m hungry. This place has good meat.

Wild: Hold up… I think there’s a chest down there. Mind if I go look?

Time: Sure, I’ll come with. This place feels… nostalgiac, in a way.

Twilight: screw that, I’m getting some meat. *wolf*

New Hyrule: !! Puppy!!

Twilight: *barks for NH to get on*

Wild: alright time, grab on. *glides down to the temple.*

Idk how to put the rest of this into words but… the temple of time in BotW is the same as the one from OoT, and a large portion of the plateau (most of it being that area) is the ruins of castle town from OoT. So Time is surprised by that I guess.

-Lurelin Village-

Wind: Outset? Why is it on land?

Wild: maybe because it’s been tens of thousands of years?

Wind: fair. Wait… what are you wearing?

Wild: oh, it’s this really comfy shirt I found at some waterfall. Why do you ask?

Wind: those are my pajamas.

Wild: oh.

-Arbiter’s Grounds-

Molduga: biting at all the links

Time, shouting over the molduga battle theme: what did you say this place was called again?!

Wild: the arbiters grounds!

Twilight: WHAT

-Ranch Ruins-

Time: *curled up in a fetal position, crying*

Twilight, kneeling by his side: Seriously?

Wild: Oh, come on!

-Gordon City-

Twilight: woah, who are those Gordon’s? In the mountain.

Wild: oh, well the one on the right is my old friend, Daruk. The other two… I’m not sure.

Time: what kind of reality altering shenanigans are going on here?

-Korok Forest-

Time, sitting on the ground, korok’s swarming him, crying tears of joy: my friends… I missed you so much…

Wild: what in the hell?

Twilight: don’t ask.

-Spring of Courage-

Sky: huh. Neat.

#the legend of zelda #Zelda multiverse #link #links #breath of the wild

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tumblingxelian · 1 year ago

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Given how many asks I have in waiting, mood XD

No worries at all, I loved the heaviness and adore insightful rambles like these, thank you for sharing your thoughts!

Oh by all means go crazy >:3c

Love weapon thoughts, I need to do more of them myself XD

Really nice insights regarding Weiss, it hadn't occurred to me to factor in stuff like whether Weiss had started recently. But it actually makes a lot of sense that she'd not been fencing her whole life. Especially given what some of Winter's advice and training looked like and how Weiss tended to fall back on wrote instructions early on, good eye!

That is a fun part about Gambol Shroud, the fact the name also means to leap about playfully hurts my soul in a good way. Oooh great insight there, an escape route and a symbol of her connection to others especially Yang, so much duality!

Mhm solid breakdown with Ruby there, and the fact she apparently struggled a lot with this before Qrow's guidance and them hyperfixated on a thing she became good at also fits her younger character.

Yeees, Ember Celica is such a brilliant design, it clearly aids Yang's fighting style, rather than her fighting style falling apart without it which is a problem a lot of other Hunters have. Plus as you say brilliant engineer, cleverly stealthy design, just top marks all round!

Fighting Styles:

Fantastic breakdown regarding not just Weiss's shift to support but why she would have felt that way and how her summons actually really help with that.

I wonder if Winter's heavy reliance on Summons even at the expense of other Glyphs could factor into not wanting to fight alone?

Damn, that was a brilliant breakdown on Blake, no notes! Well, save that is definitely shows what Blake was saying in V7 about not letting someone else become all of you rather than a part. In the sense Adam shaped her into his partner but then she escaped but that fighting style that works best as a combo team is still part of her.

True facts on Ruby and yeah, exactly, there's so much stuff she just grew up around. Such innate familiarity with being a huntress that its instinctive, innate at this point that causes her to grind up against Weiss during their first tag team. Yang doesn't even need to be told the plan, she just figured it out on context clues, while the others needed to be informed.

Nice take there with her Semblance too!

As for Yang, I very much agree with your first segment on her well rounded fighting style and being the best fighter on the team. Other aspects I am a little more iffy on as I have a rather different take on Tai & all of V4 and that whole relationship than most. Especially as I feel she was already calculated and accurate with her strikes beforehand.

I'll not go into it much but I do have these posts if interested, no pressure though, and thanks for sharing your thoughts!

Got reminded of Blake & Ruby having awful grades and while post war they are like, liable to still be super beloved and iconic. I can imagine a small part of them like "Thank goodness our permanent records from Beacon were destroyed.... We should double check the ruins just to be sure!"

HONESTLY THATS SO GOD DAMN REAL

That’s 100% true to me that they are grateful that they didn’t have to take the final exams and other written tests to become fully certified

Coming from my own personal feelings when Covid interrupted my middle school tests to let me pass everything no problem (my science teacher didn’t actually teach us anything booo)

I LOVE to think about the gaps in knowledge this left all of them though

Like it was still a tragedy and it affected all of them they were supposed to learn years more of knowledge for their careers and now they just won’t learn that

Ruby is actually probably one of the ones better off considering her innate knowledge of huntress stuff her biggest blows will be specific knowledge like political and societal things they’d have to learn throughout because her only exposure would be the opinions of her huntress/huntsman family members instead of in depth teaching

Out of Rwby specifically Weiss and Blake probably have it the worst in this thing they’d have great knowledge on the politics (Weiss’s knowledge would have a particular strong bias but still) however huntress specific knowledge would be lost on them (I specifically hc that there’s a lot of hunter specific knowledge due to the masses emotional state being so important so they can tell hunters things they don’t tell the masses)

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inosukeslefttoe · 4 years ago

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SO i just finished wonder egg priority and i think that with confidence i can say it has been one of my favorite animes like... ever ?? and not even from hyperfixation or obsession over it just... its so fucking real yet so simple in a way that i havent rlly seen shown in any other shows you feel ??

but first i wanna talk about how sexy the art and animation is real quick... HOMIE ITS SO GOOD LIKE EVERYTHING ABOUT IT JUST... serotonin... the characters are all so unique and iconic and fun but not over the top in their designs yknow ??? they seem like regular every day girls but they stand out and theyre all sO CUTE !!!! also i love how the style is like this soft bubbly slice of life lookin stuff with bright happy colors and the most beautiful scenes you could find but they also have the SICKEST fight scenes complete with whimsical animal helpers and terrifying villains and crazy weapons unique to each character. and the animation. god DAMN shawty i am obsessed with everything in this show. i might make a post solely about the art later lol bc i wanna get into the other stuff.

so the themes in the show right ?? it starts just as this cute lil magical girl kinda deal but within the first episode we see that like.. oh damn... thats kinda heavy... tbh i was a little shocked and thought about stopping bc yknow bad mental health BUT i was so intrigued that i had to keep going and i am SO GLAD that i did. because this show just so beautifully discusses all these heavy topics in such an eloquent and artistically expressive way. and also like, , the juxtaposition of the charming childlike vibe with bright colors and 14 yr old girl protagonists against the dark themes of suicide and so much else,, i think is just perfect. bc a lot of heavy animes are more of the seinen genre and have some middle aged dude as a protag or make the entire color palette dim or offer little relief to the pain of these heavy themes right ?? but NO not wonder egg bitches B) because these problems arent just things that ppl face later in life or just problems that need to be talked about among adults or the edgy seinen watching squad,, these are REAL problems that face people of every age, gender etc and i think its awesome that wonder egg addresses that. some may cringe at the thought of their high schooler watching animes that discuss sexual harassment, suicide, abuse, self harm, eating disorders etc,, but in reality it is the most comforting thing i have ever come across and is basically jsut free anime therapy. because not only does wonder egg present these themes to the viewers as something real that happens to all kinds of people (making said people feel heard in a way that maybe they hadnt before), but it also makes sure to vanquish all of these forms of trauma. and the way the trauma is vanquished isnt always beautiful and it isnt always just magically gone with a poof. the struggles of overcoming or living with that sort of thing are shown in such a real and relatable way that addresses every hardship trauma survivors have to go through. and i just. god i cry bro.

oh m y GOD and the lgbtq+ rep in this show ?? like shawty... as soon as i saw episode one i was picking up on some gay/lesbian themes but then again im sapphic and project that a lot so i tend to see that sort of stuff like... everywhere... but NE WAYS... episode ten made me FUKCING CRY BRO LIke i cant believe there was a whole trans character with a whole trans pride hoodie like LKGHKDGH my heart is just so.. so fucking full thinking about him. bc like yeah i know there are trans characters in anime but i feel like theyre always very ambiguous about actually being trans or not or erased or portrayed as a harmful stereotype or theyre constantly misgendered and still refered to as their assigned gender at birth and i hate it. HOWEVEr... Kaoru.. *chefs kiss* it was so amazing to see a character straight up say “yeah im trans” in such a casual yet powerful way bc i personally have never seen that before. and i love love loved how he went into his backstory and talked to momoe about gender bc i think thats what she rlly needed and that it helped her find herself and it makes me so happy oh my god,, and the way they talked about it never seemed forced or like it was the focal point of his existence yknow ?? like yeah he existed to help momoe overcome some of her trauma but he also just existed to be HIM yknow ?? also... personally, i headcanon momoe as a trans girl even though i dont remember it being explicitly stated plus the school scenes of her and stuff would seem like they suggest otherwise ??but,,, SHAWTY THE AMOUNT OF SUBTEXT and her complicated relationship w gender is... something i feel like a cis girl would not go through so harshly yknow ?? with all of the questioning and feeling detached from femininity or feeling like ppl dont see her as an actual girl and only like her as a guy or for her masculine traits,,, but dont take my word on this bc i myself am a cis girl but that was just my take on it as someone in the lgbtq+ community trying to educate myself on the transgender community :) either way,, wonder eggs portrayal of momoe and kaoru and the way that momoe becomes so passionate about expressing herself the way she wants to as a girl is just... good lord im gonna cry its so perfect,,,.so ... i just love this show way too much. i also am honestly super lost about the relationship btwn acca and ura-acca ?? bc i was gonna mention ura-acca as a canonically gay guy bc when i was watching i interpreted ep 11 as him being in love with acca and being jealous of Azusa (bc i mean,, they lived together (i swear to god there was only one bed in that apartment) and had a daughter together and def loved each other and also when Frill said they were husbands and then when ura-acca said he wasnt attracted to azusa but he was def jealous of their relationship ??) but then i saw somewhere that theyre brothers ?? which would make sense ig since they look kinda similar and accas daughter called ura-acca “uncle”.. but at the same time its ANIME SO THEY ALL LOOK SIMILAR and referring to gay couples as siblings is an EXTREMELY common euphemism soooo... IM JUST LOST HERE... but yeah i tried doing research and found different things so i cant say anything for sure >:( however,,, if they are canonically a lil fruity for each other... when frill refered to acca as ura-accas husband i imploded dude you never hear that sort of wording in anime.. but if theyre related i am so sorry.

god this is so much longer than i planned it to be oops but i also love the theme about like.. relying on friends to help carry your weight but at the same time not becoming completely dependent on those friends and using their support to learn how to love yourself and rely on yourself yknow ?? bc that is exactly what healthy friendships look like. bc i think ai sort of had a codependency thing goin on with koito maybe ?? but now she has a whole squad of funky friends that are so so different but all struggle with different kinds of trauma and although they fight over it, they always get through it with each other together. and they push each other no matter what to be the best versions of themselves and they teach other that getting hurt is okay because theyre always gonna be there to pick up the pieces no matter what happens. they can give each other space when they need and adapt to meet each others needs but theyre always able to balance it out with their own needs and thats such a beautiful thing in friendships especially at their age like damn i wish i had that maturity when i was 14 but no all i had was depression. another thing is that through these friendships you get to see all the different sides of each girl; you get to see them being strong or a shining light to their friends when theyre hurting but you also get to see them being hurt and weak and allowing themselves to be on the receiving end of the comfort. their friendships allows them to have weaknesses but it also allows them to highlight their strengths and thrive off of each others. I LOVE FRIENDSHIP DUDE

next i wanna briefly mention some of the themes connected to suicide that ive noticed. a big one is the survivors guilt that ai feels once koito is dead. several times she screams that she wishes she couldve gone with koito and she dreams of a “perfect world” where they committed a double suicide. one of the main reasons for her troubles is that she blames herself for koitos death and feels like it should be her thats dead... but at the same time she feels like too much of a coward to do anything now that koito is gone. she just has all these complex and contradicting feelings that wear away at her in ways that ppl that havent gone through the suicide of a loved one could never imagine. a lot of the times when things like this are portrayed in media i feel like its more in a way thats meant to guilt trip those that have taken their own lives and paint suicide as this selfish sin thats unforgivable but... not only does wonder egg reject that idea and instead portray it as a heartbreaking tragedy with,,, so so many terrible reasons, but it focuses on the feelings of ai separate from koito without blaming her in any way. not once did i feel like the show antagonized koito or that ai blamed koito for doing any of this, but they simply mourned her loss and touched on ais reaction towards the event but separate from koito herself if that makes sense. and i think that discussing survivors guilt without painting koito as the bad guy is something so beautifully done in wonder egg that can really resonate with those that have lost a loved one to suicide and have struggled with these same things.

okay i think this is the last thing ill mention,,, but HOMIE THE PARALLEL UNIVERSE BIT AT THE END. I AM. OBSESSED. i am such a whore for anything about the multiverse okay n e ways...,, not only did this make a super epic trippy ending of season one and add a little bit more magical girl whimsy to the show,, but it had such a powerful message. from the perspective of og ai,, finding out that you killed yourself in another world is... i mean its definitely not a surprise but at the same time it rlly makes you think how close og ai herself couldve been to that point and what decisions led her out of that dark place in her life. if i were in her shoes i would be terrified and id cry bc the thought of going back to such a dark place and actually going through with something like that is my worst fear and probably something that ai fears too. but at the same time,,, think from the perspective of ai two !!! like yeah its true that theres this awful terrible version of ai that dies but theres also a whole version of ai that is a superhero magical girl fighting off monsters to save countless ppls lives !! and she has a badass lizard and a gang of awesome friends !!! at first i was worried that ai two would be jealous of og ai and compare herself to her and feel inferior but like.. THEYRE LITERALLY THE SAME PERSON AND CAPABLE OF THE SAME THINGS !!! and ai two realized that !! just within the span of one episode, she went from the version of ai who took her life,, to the version of ai jumping in front of a friend to take a bullet for them and save their life. and that just inspired THE SHIT OUT OF ME. i think that ai was sent another version of herself to sort of beat her own worst enemy yknow ?? those doubts and fears that shes no good or that shes that same bystander from episode one and that she hasnt changed at all. but getting to interact with her parallel self and see her grow was just what she needed to realize that while yeah sometimes the worst thing can happen and things can be terrible but on the other hand sometimes the most wonderful thing imaginable can happen because she has the power to do either.

so im gonna go ahead and stop rambling bc i got all my thoughts out that i wanted to for this post :D but yeah lol i might make another if i feel like it sometime. long story short: this show is perfect and it is going on my favorite of all times.

#wonder egg priority #wonder egg spoilers #ai ohto #rika kawai #momoe sawaki #wonder egg priority neiru #i forgot neirus name #anime review #wonder egg ai #lgbtq anime

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Moon Knight System Relationship Analysis + Other Notes (Episode 2)

Marc and Steven are here! Jake is missing! Marvel BANNED!

Disclaimer: I do not have DID and to my knowledge have never met a system. I will fix any mistakes that people point out.

TW: A bit of Swearing.

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Straight into my heart.

That’s where they go.

I know this is how hyperfixations work but I am so baffled by how HARD these guys have clawed into my heart. I’ve rewatched the entire show beginning to end with full interest, not even wanting it as background noise for scrolling on my phone (even though I was scrolling through the Moon Knight tag) it was just that compelling – Marc, Steven, Layla, Jake, Khonshu, Arthur, just fricking everything like what the fish.

Yeah I’ll get bored of this eventually. This clinical analysis of each moment is killing the interest, so soon this is just gonna become another Marvel show that I remember being obsessed with but forget most important stuff about in like two weeks.

Until that happens, I wanna leave notes for myself when I come back to this season in the future. (istg if they don’t give a season 2 before they have Moon Knight appear in a major movie I’m gonna become a Jake Lockley stan out of pure spite.)

Let’s go!

Starting off the same way that the Alps dream ended – Marc's best attempt to make it seem like a nightmare to Steven. And honestly at any other point it probably would have worked again. Steven’s core emotion is denial, refusing to acknowledge that he may need help, refusing to talk to even his mother about his issues – Marc has probably been making Steven believe that he has the most vivid and wild nightmares in the world for a while.

But this time doesn’t work. Too much has come together, and as I said before, Steven’s “I’m gonna die” was him finally refusing denial and accepting that this is reality. So he wakes up running, with a tired sigh, broken from his own denial illusions, and the first thing he does – getting in front of a mirror and taunting Marc – was where Steven’s transformation from meek, shy nerd to someone who can actually hold his own begins. With sarcasm and frustration and anger, Steven without the lies he tells himself - “You there? Hmm? No?... Yeah [bitch], didn’t think so.”

And I think at this point when he sees Marc fronting at the museum, Steven has only an inkling about their DID. The way he called Marc not real - that was Steven calling himself insane, that he has voices in his head, you know. And while the jackal may have been invisible, Marc appearing on the cameras, very clearly a different demeanor and posture than Steven - “That’s not me” - it’s confirmation that he isn’t insane, that at least Marc is real.

But the frustration doesn’t end – the security camera footage was contradictory, jackal being “not real”, Marc “real”, and Steven, who has lived in denial for so long, can’t make his mind up fully that he isn’t crazy. So he seeks more proof – the storage locker.

Broken out of denial, Steven has no nice emotions to display. He’s frustrated, he’s lost, he’s angry, he is still very confused about what Marc actually is and how he’s affected his life. Added to his very real and reasonable anger is all the illegal stuff Marc has hidden away – all Steven sees are the worst parts of Marc, his country-hopping mercenary work that made him an international fugitive. From this point on, Steven is fully antagonistic towards a very real criminal that should be behind bars (in his opinion, at least), and the guy “that’s behind all of the bad things that have happened in his life” (in his opinion, obviously).

That’s why Steven is at Marc’s throat. And Marc reacts reasonably – how would you treat a person that obviously hates you? Be snarky and annoyed and sarcastic right back to them.

It’s miscommunication, it’s Marc’s main issue – he wants to protect Steven from this life until the very bitter end, when he has no other choice. Steven isn’t an equal partner to him like Layla is. Steven is... Well, we figure out what Steven is to Marc in Episode 5. Until then, the comparison of Marc as oldest brother, Jake the middle brother and Steven the youngest is quite accurate.

And this episode is where the main cast figures out that Steven and Marc are a system, separate alters. The one who figured it out first was Harrow – off-screen, mostly. In episode one, he calls Steven by Marc’s moniker – mercenary, someone that’s gotten in his way. But then in the Alps he meets Steven, a complete opposite of the mercenary – easy to assume that was a temporary act to get him out of a tough spot, especially the “Here you can have it! Oh no my hand has clasped around it!” (Classic taunt)

But finding Steven Grant in the museum he said he worked at changed things. From how Harrow talks to him, we can assume that while Harrow knows of the mercenary, it was probably only his second time actually meeting him – Harrow is trying to reason with a hired gun, trying to appeal to his morality, recruit him to his cult. Perhaps an inkling that Steven Grant and Marc Mercenary Spector aren’t exactly the same, but then he sees the calling card of Khonshu – flickering lights, mysterious wind, and he tries his scales maybe to kill him, maybe to prove a point against Khonshu. But it’s not what he expected - “There’s chaos in you”, scales in perpetual motion. (Which if we really think about it should be everyone’s - how can you know for sure that everything will occur in just the right way to make a person do the evil/good thing that the scales see? The whole concept of Ammit is apparently she knows you so well she can predict your actions in the future – taking in every factor around you, taking in every possibility, everything that can happen to you, heck, she can apparently see how other people around you will affect you, and she can see all of those peoples’ scales and somehow nothing contradicts itself and the future is just that predetermined that she can accurately say that this and this will happen – it’s just the same issue with time travel that MCU avoided with that “Your present is now your past” shtick. How omniscient is she, how far into the future can she see, could she have seen the world-ending events that shaped the Avengers – it would be worth freeing her for that, preparation for destruction- BUT THEN THE PARADOX OF TIME TRAVEL IF YOU KNOW THAT SOMETHING WILL HAPPEN AND THAT KNOWLEDGE IS WHAT PREVENTS IT HOW THE HELL WOULD YOU FIND OUT ABOUT THE EVENT IF YOU KNOWING ABOUT THE EVENT PREVENTS IT FROM HAPPENING AAAAAAAAAAA-)

Ammit is confusing. Harrow doesn’t seem to realize that. But he does realize that Steven Grant is not the Marc Mercenary Spector he is looking for. Few people could come to the conclusion of DID that easily, it’s not a common thing that pops into one’s head, but Harrow has some experience in that aspect. He was Khonshu’s Avatar – in a way, he had a Khonshu alter. Maybe the thought doesn’t fully form after he weighs Steven’s scales, but from how later on the “detectives” talk to Steven, it’s reasonable to assume the three of them came to the conclusion that they “should make sure”, hence the dance to bring Steven to Harrow’s community, where Harrow is then 100% sure.

Layla’s first thought seems to be “amnesia”. “You really don’t remember why we’ve been looking for this”, “I know you have the suit, you bring it out”. But then Steven dons the suit, and, subsequently, Marc. The difference between the two of them, how they’ve acted, how they look wearing the same armor – it clicks at that moment. There was her Marc – in his “best feature”. And from then on they’re separate.

So how does Steven come to terms with it? Well pretty much the whole episode people are mistaking Marc for him, and he has to keep saying (and reassuring himself) that it’s not him. The only person that seems to actually believe his dilemma – that he and Marc are not the same – is Harrow. Would be comforting, if it weren’t for the fact he wants to kill millions of people based on poor beliefs in an all-mighty omniscient being that has to transcend every time travel paradox ever created to be a good... god? Judge? Purger of the world? Thanos 2.0? Take out the mass murder and questionable moral standing and... yeah, Harrow’s comfort is comforting.

So does Steven believe he’s not insane? Maybe. Even in episode 4 he is adamant about Marc “disappearing” once he’s done with Khonshu, although that can be taken as just him biting back at Marc. If I had to pick a moment where Steven stopped treating Marc as an insanity-provoked hallucination, it would be post storage locker. At that point, he knew Marc wasn’t just a voice, he could be in control of the body the same way Steven is. And the money, the passport, it spoke to a history that this “voice” could have very realistically had, considering Steven’s frequent blackouts. He asks what Marc is, and even though his words sound ridiculous, there’s been a fair share of crazy these past few days. “That’s the stupidest thing I’ve ever heard” - has a panic attack because the stupidest thing he’s ever heard is real.

DID is never used as a term in the show, it can be explained as both the showrunners/writers chickening out of an actual conversation about it, and it can be the fact that the system itself doesn’t know the term, nor do most, possibly all of the characters. But Steven listening to Marc in the conversation with Layla, seeming to understand that the two of them are separately in control of the body, is a confirmation for us that Steven is aware of what is happening to him, even if he doesn’t give it a name.

So by the time Harrow acquires the scarab and episode 2 ends, everyone important is aware that Steven Grant and Marc Spector are separate.

A bit of a tangent, Harrow is quite a complicated character. In the most metaphorical way possible, him and the Moon Knight system are the same. Both were abused by a figure of authority (Marc’s mom, Khonshu), both were shaped by that abuse (in different ways), and now are just trying to do what they believe in, seeking penance for what they feel was their fault (Marc remembers every person he killed in Khonshu’s name, even the cities he was in – he's a mercenary, it’s “what he’s good at”. Harrow enjoyed the killing, but was somehow brought out of that high and realized Khonshu enabled his most sinful desire. Marc wants to avoid killing, and is trying to be a hero by stopping a mass-murderer in the making as the only service he can offer, while Harrow wants to destroy all evil from the roots. Marc internalizes his abuse and punishes himself; Harrow wants to punish the world.). It’s tough to say if the only difference between them is the age they were subjected to their abuse, but while they are similar in many regards, they are fundamentally different.

Which is why Harrow thinks he can get Steven Grant on his side (or at least “reason” with him for the scarab) and why he is so wrong. Later on the system sees Harrow as their psychiatrist – he's more knowledgeable in this, he acts as comforting voice, but all while misunderstanding the differences between them so so horribly. Because Harrow doesn’t understand that he and the system actually want really different things, Steven is able to challenge his thinking of Ammit’s untouchability – sure, Harrow seems to understand his struggle and seems to understand the difficulty of having Khonshu as a voice in one’s head, but he may be what the system isn’t - a bit broken, almost crazy to blindly believe the purity that an extreme measure of judgement without trial is promising.

So the scene plays out as it does. And we get to enjoy every second of it.

(Tiny tiny side note – did anyone think that Steven was actually going to say Layla’s name when asked about the scarab? I know Marc is paranoid and underestimates Steven at this point, but… the boy is absolutely enamored with Layla and stopped in his tracks when Marc said “You’re gonna get her killed”, there is no way he says her name, even if he did put some trust in Harrow (which obviously no sane person would, he literally opened with “We want to kill millions of people :D”)

I guess Marc being this jumpy around Steven makes their relationship by the end all the more satisfying. This is where they started – and by god how far they’ve come.

(But Marc pls did you not SEE how Steven LOOKED AT HER he would rather get stabbed than let any harm come to her he is SIMPING.))

ADDED NOTE

Someone pointed out how Steven reacts after Harrow tries talking directly to Marc, trying to discredit Khonshu and turn the entire system over to his cult. Again, obvious failure, but at this point in the show Steven only knows Marc Mercenary Spector, he thinks the absolute worst of him. And the only explanation Marc offered for his existence was “I’m an Avatar of Khonshu, I serve him”. Steven was already doubting Ammit, calling her a weird crocodile lady – he wasn’t believing a word Harrow was telling him. When Harrow was talking to Marc about how awful Khonshu is Steven was listening and seeing Khonshu through the eyes of those that served him – and it just so happens that those are the people that hate him the most. Steven was looking at Harrow - “Trust me when I tell you, Khonshu, is a liar” - and then after “There’s always one last thing”, he looks to Marc, almost asking for an explanation, and Marc doesn’t say anything in response, just shies away from the reflection, like he’d taken a punch to the gut. He doesn’t deny what Harrow implied – that serving Khonshu diligently is just a way to speed up the process of getting rid of him. And in that moment Steven’s perception of Marc changes – and maybe, just maybe, he starts to feel a little pity for him.

Which would endear him to Marc more.

So Steven takes his stance.

Screw Ammit.

(A bit about the time travel paradoxes Amitt transcends – the more I watch this scene the more that “might do evil in the future thing” not being disproven sticks. Harrow is just utterly convinced Ammit is correct and when he questioned her in the past (that strangely quick response to child murder), he found an answer to continue his loyalty. Steven’s first thought is “trusting the judgement of a weird crocodile lady is a bit dodgy” and that stays the general idea about Ammit within the system. So on one side you have a zealot with unshakeable beliefs and on the other you have a little confused but well-spirited guy just trying to do his best. The time travel paradoxes aren’t even considered because I guess no one’s interested in the inner workings of Ammit enough to go past “oh she wants to kill children” and question how and why it isn’t unreasonable to some people?

I get the conflict, I get why Steven is as fired up about stopping Ammit as Marc is who is just there as a servant of Khonshu, but GODDAMIT CAN YOU AT LEAST THINK ABOUT MORE REASONS WHY AMMIT IS JUST THE WORST-CASE SCENARIO FOR A DREAM-LIKE ACHIEVEMENT?!)

Float like a butterfly, sting like a bee! My name is Steven with a V!

He is precious. And he’s gaining a bit of confidence (even if it is misplaced). And Marc agrees – “That was a hell of a punch back there” - while also being realistic – “Someone’s gonna get hurt if you don’t let me help” - good big bro, letting Steven test out his limits and realize on his own that he’s not quite there yet, which lets Marc use minimal convincing for Steven to give up the front.

(If I had a nickel for every time Marc looked to someone to tell him what to do in a situation I think he had well under control, I’d have two nickels, which isn’t a lot, but it’s strange that this first time he’s looking to Layla specifically to reassure/convince her this is him/try to apologize/something along the lines of remembering their bond and the second time he listened to Khonshu telling him to threaten a child with death after two failed attempts at getting crucial dig site information (it’s funny, Harrow misjudged the system’s motivations and now Marc misjudges Ammit’s followers’ loyalty. It’s almost poetic. If it wasn’t for the birb. “I thought he’d talk” - motherfucker your only understanding of humans and their inner workings is 1. A guy you manipulated so hard he literally didn’t see any chance of redemption for himself other than purging the entire world of evil, including himself, and 2. A fledgling system where each of the alters were living in constant denial over each other’s existence, wtf do you, a stupid flightless fucking pidgeon, know about people?

Whatever Marc thought to threaten the kid with was 10,000 times better than HOLDING HIM BY HIS SCARF OVER A FRICKING CLIFF.)

Oh right the relevance with Marc looking/listening to other people in certain situations – specifically, the ones described above. I don’t think it’s that Marc doesn’t trust his own judgement? It would be thematically relevant, with him hating his mercenary work, but then he would ask for advice way more often than he actually does.

I think it speaks to a different part of Marc’s character. And also the situations only have the similarity of Marc thinking he let the person he’s asking for advice from down.

With Layla it’s obvious – that was the first time she’s seen him in months, after he ghosted her. The way he looked at her, the stare they shared – it held a thousand words.

With Khonshu, he failed the mission twice and now for the third time, he actually listens to what he first considers to be bad advice. “He’s just a kid”, “He’ll talk”.

The part with Khonshu can be traced back to his abusive mother – you rarely don’t listen to what that kind of authority figure tells you to do.

But with Layla it may be a type of trust. Like how for someone he cares about he’s willing to put his life in their hands. He knew he needed to get the jackal away from the people, but he still looked to Layla to tell him that. It may just be their dynamic – when the deal at Mogart’s goes wrong, he shields Layla and immediately agrees with her plan. But while he seems reluctant, he does the same with Steven. He trusts his knowledge of ancient Egypt enough to let him front when absolutely necessary, and during that chase at the beginning of episode 3, why do you think Jake was switching in when Marc had the situations under control? Could it be because Marc would’ve actually listened to Steven telling him to stop?

It’s a stretch, I know. But I like to think that Marc chooses to relinquish control to very specific people, as a way of showing them how much he trusts and loves them, when he can’t quite put it into words.)

Anyway, Marc kills the Jackal.

And Steven is claustrophobic.

I mean it’s not said, not even particularly heavily implied, but do you hear his voice in this scene?

“So this is what it’s like?

Being on the inside?”

And how gentle Marc’s voice is?

“...yeah.”

“It’s horrible.”

“It’s alright, you’re alright.”

“...I feel like I can scarcely move.”

“It’s alright just breathe through it. It gets easier.”

“How long have you been doing this?”

“...

I don’t know, it’s... a long time.”

“I don’t like it.”

“Long time...”

“I don’t want it. Can I have my body back?”

“I can’t do that right now-”

“Please.”

“-Steven.”

First of all it breaks my heart, second of all this is one of the most compelling scenes in the show (If we don’t count episode five where literally every scene was perfect), this is the first time they both actually talk without the frustration and confusion that this sudden realization of their system existing was. Steven is quiet, nearly on the verge of tears, his hands are almost clasped together as if even in the reflection just a flinch is bringing him pain, and Marc is recalling the moment(s) he felt the same way and his voice is just so soft as he reassures Steven, like he’s giving him a calming hug with just his words.

Maybe he knows that Steven is claustrophobic, maybe it actually is a very difficult thing to change the perception of an eye so much that the reflection is not what it expects it to be. Either way, one of my favorite scenes in the show.

And once Steven accustoms to the feeling of being just a reflection, his usual frustration with Marc comes right back. “You can’t keep me trapped in here” - like you kept Marc trapped?

It’s an endless back and forth the whole series because, again, miscommunication, and because they don’t understand each other. Marc just wants Steven to be his “stress ball”, not involved in any of his mercenary work that he deems “shameful”, and Steven only sees the criminal in Marc, not any of the history or choices that led him there. And they don’t try to talk – I guess in a way they both think the other is ruining their lives at the moment and they just want the other gone. Put up the wall again, stop their lives bleeding into each other, go back into what life was like before – amnesia, sleepwalking, tiredness, denial.

But Steven is never going back into denial. And Marc can’t force him – eventually, he realizes he needs Steven.

But that’s later :)

Until then, Steven will shout the angriest words that, unknowingly to him, cause Marc the most pain, and he, in return, will be the most patient and self-deprecating and self-sacrificial he’s ever been just to try and reassure Steven and ease his anger.

And Marc tries to separate him and Steven, saying that his servitude is the price he pays, in the same sentence he says that they wouldn’t be alive if it weren’t for Khonshu.

In an ironic twist of events, Marc, the alter aware of the system, is the one trying to claim individuality, while Steven, the one still quite unaware, is the one saying that one alter’s body count is all of theirs’ body count, refusing individuality and separate weights on their shoulders.

And notice how Marc’s tone changes when the conversation turns to Layla. The person he loves, the person he sacrificed his own happiness for, well, one of the people he’s done that for. However patient he is trying to be with Steven, he won’t let him say that he is being cruel to Layla, that he doesn’t care about her, that he’s a shitty human being for leaving her. It hurts Marc, to hear those words from Steven, who he also sacrificed time for just to convince him he had a normal life, that his fish didn’t die every time Marc had to go on a longer mission, that the accidental wakings during those missions were just bad dreams.

It hurts Marc. And it’s not the first time he lashes out in violence. He is trying his best, as a person who thinks he is undeserving of anything good in life, he is trying his best.

And he doesn’t get appreciation. Not yet.

Not to mention that Khonshu talks to him exactly how a manipulative, abusive parent would. Demeaning him, making Marc apologize, then suddenly acting nice to remind him why he stays in the first place. Pidgeon deserves to be bound to stone for eternity.

And episode 2 ends with a cool Cairo reveal!

The soundtrack slaps. It’s a fact.

Before this I haven’t really sat down to analyze the show, this was a really spontaneous thing. It’s surprising how much is in episode 2- well, after knowing the rest of the show. It’s only 6 episodes and not a frame is wasted!

It’s beautiful.

I love this show.

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