#yes I'll be adding/thinking more about this I AM OBSESSED

[5sospenguinqueen]

TTDLAGG | Liam Lawson x Reader

Summary: Red Bull PR love how cute your booktok aesthetic is. Fans love the stark contrast to the content of those books. And Liam, well he benefits from it all. 

Warnings: heavily suggestive content, swearing, booktok, fluff, onyx storm SPOILERS! 

Requested: yes by anon But I realise I went completely off the topic of the ask so I’m very sorry. I hope you still enjoy

F1 Masterlist

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liamlawson30 take her on holiday and the only thing in her suitcase was books

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readingwithyn how do you manage to take the prettiest photos of me

→ liamlawson30 because you are the prettiest 

→ user1 get you a man who is as down bad for you as liam lawson is for yn

use2 liam lawson is f1’s #1 wag 

lilymhe okay but she is the prettiest f1 driver there ever was

→ alex_albon excuse me?

→ jensonbutton excuse me?

→ readingwithyn my wife 💍 but i could never compete with kimi raikonnen 

→ liamlawson30 excuse me?

kevinmagnussen i’d rather her hands be on the book than you, kiwi 

→ readingwithyn will you pack it in with the big brother act, already? it’s been 3 years

→ kevinmagnussen no. and he should count himself lucky that i’m not on track next year 

→ liamlawson30 🫣😧

mercedesamgf1 feeling your pain, all she does during meetings is read on her phone.

→ mercedesamgf1 she thinks we can’t see her but we can 

→ readingwithyn why are you shit talking me on main?

→ readingwithyn do you not know that i am going through a very emotional time right now? i just finished my book and have to decide what to read next 

→ mercedesamgf we know. it’s all you talked about last week  

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readingwithyn many of you told me i should start this series next and i’m a sucker for dragons so here goes 

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user3 i love how she has a work insta and a reading insta and this is the only one she ever actually uses 

→ user4 it’s the fact that she likes her own book posts with her f1 account

→ user5 wait, she runs an f1 fan account as well?

→ user6 oh god, we’ve got another one about to learn the yn magnussen lore  

jackdoohan what chapter are you on? ‘cause we need to debrief but i don’t want to risk spoiling anything. and you haven’t updated your goodreads 

→ readingwithyn i’m on page 552 

→ jackdoohan in which case, prepare for a voice note

→ user7 i love that jack is part of her f1 book club

→ lilymhe @/jackdoohan put it in the gc please 

→ visacashapprb how do we join? 

→ mercedesamgf1 you don’t. we already have to fight for her attention and we’re literally the colours of violet’s hair. we don’t need more competition 

user8 okay but girly you are in for a ride

→ user9 she handles cars at 200mph, I’m sure she’s got this

→ user10 this is a different kind of ride

→ user11 in more ways than one 🍆

liamlawson30 i haven’t seen those dragons since your goblet of fire obsession 

→ readingwithyn i may have to rename them now 

→ kevinmagnussen don’t you dare give kevin jr some silly fantasy name 

→ readingwithyn kevin jr was renamed to kevin sucks a while ago…

→ kevinmagnussen @/liamlawson30 i know this is your fault 

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kevinmagnussen replied i had to google this myself and i’m actually disgusted with you  → what the hell are you reading  → why are you exposing me to this → readingwithyn i told you to stop following me ages ago  → kevinmagnussen i miss when you were little and thought boys would give you cooties

liamlawson30 replied is this another thing you’re going to need me to test with you?

jackdoohan replied couldn't wrap my head around it either so i had to go to the ladies on tik tok. very educational  → i'll send you the link

lilymhe replied i tried to convince alex to do it with me (fully clothed) for anatomical purposes but he just looked at me in disgust → readingwithyn brb. gonna ask liam for help with something  lilymhe reacted with 🔥

liamlawson30 added to their story

kevinmagnussen replied i had to google this and now i’m disgusted with you → why are you exposing me to this → why are you also partaking in this behaviour  → oh y’all nasty. watch your back, lawson, because i know what kind of sicko you are now 

visacashapprb replied the ladies on twitter told us the door lean is very well appreciated btw. just in case you need to make up for clipping her car earlier 

lilymhe replied the door lean will get her to instantly forgive you. trust me.  → liamlawson30 you sound like you speak from experience → lilymhe alex giggled more than i did, and it still worked 

yn_amg replied stop trying to make me forgive you  → liamlawson30 i must be in trouble if you’re replying with your business account  → yn_amg i’ve been liking all the comments about how evil you are for crashing into me → liamlawson30 cheers, babe → yn_amg if you stop sulking, I’ll show you how good i am at the acronym  → liamlawson30 i am speed! 

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liamlawson30 you must allow me to tell you how ardently i love and admire you 

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readingwithyn i already said yes but quoting mr darcy for me? locked in for life 

→ liamlawson30 i thought the ring already meant that 

→ readingwithyn i’m trying to say that i love you, ya goof 

user1 okay but this is the cutest proposal he could have possibly chosen for her 

→ user2 the fact that he tagged her book insta and not her professional one shows he truly knows her

→ user3 and she loves him enough to like this with her work account as well

hulkhulkenberg is kevin freaking out?

→ kevinmagnussen feel like doing your haasband a favour?

→ hulkhulkenberg say no more. i can feel the spirit of kevin magnussen flowing through me 

→ liamlawson30 i asked for your support and you said yes! 

user4 the fact that she’s known more for her love of books than being a racing driver 

lilymhe maid of honour goes to me obviously. no one else is worthy to carry the bouquet made out of book papers

→ jackdoohan check yourself, queen. i will fight you for it 

georgerussell63 now it’s time to figure out if she’ll talk more about books or a wedding 

→ mercedesamgf1 books

→ visacashapprb books

→ liamlawson30 books 

→ readingwithyn or how to incorporate books into a wedding

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all i can do is apologise for what you just read

this just made me realise that i miss kevin (and that i really need to get into a smut mood so i can write part 3 for him)

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[haruchx]

HONESTLY I LOVE BOTH IDEAS SO MUCH, but I'm a huge fan of fanfics where the character is always flirting (and teasing 🥴) the reader LOL but whichever one you post I'll love it for sure 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

"Yes Ma'am." ༄.° ⌗ One.

ᯓ★- pairing: Bonten!Sanzu Haruchiyo x Fem!Reader

ᯓ★- synopsis: Sanzu had never left your side since the first day you joined Bonten. This ruthless man who was tough on everyone was completely different towards you. He felt a feeling in his heart that he had never felt before. He was ready to do anything to see the reciprocation of this feeling from you, to feel your love and to possess it.

ᯓ★- w.c: 3.2k

ᯓ★- warnings: drug use, alcohol use, implied possessiveness/jealousy, vomiting, emotional manipulation (light), toxic attachment, delusional behavior, mild suggestive content, obsessive behavior, emotional vulnerability, unhealthy relationship dynamics.

ᯓ★- h/n: I wrote this at 2 am and the editing is just now finished so I don't know if it's good or not. As i said I'm thinking of adding a few more chapters to this but i don't know when I'll post it. Don't hesitate to point out any mistakes you see or parts you don't like, enjoy reading!

You are in bed, the window is open and the cool breeze of the summer night is coming in, you are about to fall asleep. It's a very quiet night for a Bonten member. Everyone had gone to the usual club except you, you didn't go tonight because you wanted to rest.

Until that damn phone rang. You were already suspicious of the fact that your peace lasted for too long. It was Ran. Ran wouldn't usually call you at this hour unless there was something important, he would be busy flirting at the club.

You groaned as you reached for the phone in anger. When you answered the call, there was loud music in the background and Ran spoke immediately.

"There's a problem. It's Sanzu again."

"There's no one else who's a pain in my ass anyway. What happened this time?"

Just as Ran was about to start talking, you heard Sanzu yelling from behind, probably yelling at Rindou.

"Get the fuck out of my way! I said I want {Y/N} to come!"

"She said she would rest!"

"And why do you know this and not me?! Why did she tell you and not me?! Are you trying to get close with her or something?! Don't you dare!"

You pinched the bridge of your nose when you heard the argument between Rindou and Sanzu. Sanzu was acting jealous as usual, even though there was nothing in the name of love between you two. Ran spoke on the phone as he walked a little further away from them.

"I warned Sanzu but he took too many of those pills and also drank too much alcohol before and after. So right now he's both drunk and high, it's a mixed thing. He does stupid things, he doesn't even listen to Mikey. He says he wants you, he also tried to beat Rindou a few times."

You sighed and got up from your bed and quickly walked towards your wardrobe to put on some clothes while answering Ran.

"Tell him I'll be there in a minute. And why the hell did he try to beat up Rindou?"

"She thinks Rindou is flirting with you or has a crush on you or something. Hurry up or I'll lose my patience and shoot him with my gun."

"Keep that fucking gun on your belt, I'm coming."

You hung up the phone and threw it on the bed, then you got a few things from the closet and quickly put them on. Sanzu was always like this, every night you weren't with him he would cause trouble and somehow bring you to him. What about his jealousy? It had been there since the first day you came to Bonten, in a way you didn't understand. He would never let you go, he wouldn't let anyone else besides him follow you either.

After getting ready quickly, you grabbed your phone and car keys and started walking towards the garage. Your phone started beeping in your hand with messages one after another. When you looked at it, it was Sanzu. Of course, who else could it be anyway? He was sending you ridiculous but cute photos that he wouldn't send to anyone else and bombard you with messages.

- where are you?

- when are you coming????

- Ran said you'd be coming soon.

- i miss you so much girrllll ♡♡♡

These were exactly the messages that high Sanzu would send to you. You couldn't help but let a short laugh escape your lips as you rolled your eyes.

- I'm coming, don't get into trouble.

- sit on your ass and wait for me.

- yes ma'am.

You got into the driver's seat of the car and quickly started it up, stepping on the gas. Sanzu would usually listen to you, but this time you weren't so sure because he was both high and drunk right now. Because it was late, the roads were generally empty. The radio was playing a few of the songs Sanzu had previously added to your playlist.

When you arrived at the club, you planned to take Sanzu directly and go back to Bonten base, so you parked the car near the garage exit. You entered the club from the back door. Sanzu was sitting on a couch with his legs spread apart and his head leaning back a bit. His eyes were half closed. There was another woman next to him and she was trying to get closer to Sanzu, while Sanzu was trying to ignore her.

"Come on.. we can have some fun tonight."

"I don't want to, you're not {Y/N}."

"Oh fuck {Y/N}! You've been saying her name all night long."

"Don't you ever mention her name like that again!"

Even though Sanzu couldn't move properly, he frowned and tried to push the woman away, not realizing that you were watching all of this. When you saw that the woman was still trying to get close to Sanzu, you cleared your throat and approached them both. Both of their gazes turned to you. While Sanzu was happy as if he had seen his favorite toy, the woman raised an eyebrow.

"What's the problem?"

The woman's tone of voice bothered you, she was acting too cocky.

"The problem is you. Can you get up?"

"Excuse me? Who do you think you are, telling me to get up?"

Sanzu wasn't even listening to the woman, his eyes were only on you and he was muttering in an exaggerated sappy tone.

"Hmm.. my woman has come for me again.."

When the woman heard this, she realized who you were and cleared her throat, quickly stood up, mumbled a fake apology and walked away.

As you stood in front of Sanzu, he placed his hands on your hips and smirked as he looked up at you, mumbling. His hands had trouble finding the right places to hold on to, and his eyes had trouble looking in the right places.

"Did you miss me that much? You came too fast."

"Miss you? Tch, that would be the last thing I'd do even if I were to die. And... who is that woman?"

"I don't know, she's nobody for me. I think she wanted to undress me. I told her I'm married. She asked me where my ring is and said a bunch of other nonsense."

What Sanzu said seemed ridiculous and funny to you right now, considering how his gaze was wandering every five seconds and how he was having a hard time keeping his head up. Still, you tried not to laugh.

"Did you say you're married? Who's your wife then?"

"What do you mean who's my wife? Of course it's you. We got married, remember?"

That stupid but somehow attractive smirk was always on his face. With all the pills he took and all the alcohol he drank, he was starting to make up ridiculous memories again. Still, it was amusing to tease him in moments like this

"Mhmm, yes we got married Haru. But shame on you! You forgot our wedding anniversary!"

A worried expression appeared on Sanzu's face and he quickly stood up but he almost fell on you because he was so dizzy. He barely held on to your shoulders at the last moment.

"Our wedding anniversary?! But wasn't that in the winter?! In February, actually! And we're in June."

"No, it was in June! I can't believe you!"

Sanzu whined and laid his forehead on your shoulder, closing his eyes. It was starting to get a little harder for him to get the words out.

"Okaaaaay, I'm sorry... I'll make it up to you, I promise. But let's not break up, okay? We haven't even had kids yet.."

Your heart skipped a beat for a moment, even though you were only joking at first. Sanzu's vulnerable state... was driving you crazy. Sighing, you put one hand on the back of his hair, patted it, and spoke into his ear.

"Okay, we won't broke up. But come on, we need to go back and you need to rest, okay?"

Sanzu made some whining noises but nodded and held onto you, putting his arm around your shoulders for support. As you walked him towards the exit, you saw Rindou watching the two of you from the sidelines. When you made eye contact with Rindou for a second, Sanzu immediately frowned and spoke angrily, although it was difficult.

"What the fuck is going on?! Why are you staring at each other?! There's something going on between you two, right???"

Rindou just rolled his eyes and walked away and you sighed as you looked at Sanzu, he had to stay calm since it was a sign of doom for him to get angry when he was high.

"No, Haru, there's nothing going on between us. We just made eye contact, that's all."

"No, that bastard is trying to take you away from me! I can tell by his looks!"

Because Sanzu thought you two were married right now, telling him that you are not even together would put him on edge. So you just continued to lead him to your car.

"You know I don't even give a fuck about him, right?"

"But what if he takes you away from me? Then I won't even listen to Mikey, I'll shoot him and his brother."

Sanzu was talking like a stubborn child as he stumbled, you had to admit that he was quite cute and charming even now. You opened the backseat door as you leaned him against the car, carefully helping him to get inside and laying him on his side.

"No shooting at anyone."

You took off your jacket and placed it under Sanzu's head as a pillow. You got into the driver's seat, fastened your seat belt and started the car after closing the backseat door. As you were driving towards the garage exit, you saw Rindou looking at your car from the garage entrance. You didn't understand what he was trying to do and every move he made made Sanzu even crazier.

Sanzu lay quietly in the backseat with his eyes closed. You spoke with a tone of voice that contained a bit of concern as you looked at him through the rearview mirror.

"Haru, are you sleeping? Wait a little longer, when we return to base I'll take you to your room and then you can sleep."

"I'm tireeeed..."

Sanzu didn't open his eyes while whining, normally if he was sober he would be ashamed of his own actions right now. You continued to drive silently while smiling involuntarily, occasionally checking his condition by looking at him through the rearview mirror.

When you arrived at the Bonten base, you parked the car in the garage in its usual spot and got out. You opened the backseat door and saw that Sanzu's eyes were closed, but thankfully he wasn't fast asleep yet.

"Haruchiyo, come on, open your eyes. We're here. I'll take you to your room."

"Can't I stay here a little longer..? Your jacket smells exactly like you. What was your perfume? YSL Libre? I'll buy all the stocks of this perfume."

You had a hard time not bursting out laughing at Sanzu's words.

"This is a women's perfume, what are you going to do with all the stock?"

"If I spray it on myself, no woman will come near me because I will smell like women's perfume. Besides, I will smell the perfume when you are not around."

Sanzu gave you a tired smirk as he opened his eyes.

"You're unbelievable.."

There wasn't a single trace of anger in your voice, just fondness. Sanzu got out of the car, first holding on to the backseat door and then to you, but he stumbled. You left your jacket behind, closed the door and locked the car. You started to walk Sanzu towards the entrance while he was still leaning on you and he started to whimper.

"I think I'm gonna throw up.."

"What?! Wait, don't throw up right away. The toilet is right over there. Hang on a little longer."

Sanzu leaned his head back as he huffed but listened to you and tried to hold on until the two of you got inside and went to the first bathroom in front of you. But when he entered the bathroom, he couldn't hold it in and fell down directly in front of the toilet and threw up in the toilet bowl. You quickly knelt down next to him and pulled his hair back from his face over his shoulder, trying to comfort him.

"Shh, okay relax. Let it all out."

Sanzu closed his eyes while throwing up and took deep breaths when he finally stopped for a while. His voice was hoarse from throwing up.

"Why are you talking to me like I'm a baby?"

"What, would you rather I scold you while you're throwing up?"

"Would you scold Rindou?"

You couldn’t help but huff and roll your eyes when you heard that question. You knew it was Rindou’s fault that Sanzu kept bringing this up.

"Stop with this Rindou bullshit anyway."

Sanzu frowned and coughed a few times but still managed to look at you.

"No, answer me. Would you scold him in a situation like this or treat him like you're treating me right now?"

"I wouldn't even be around when Rindou threw up, Ran would have been there. Why should I care about Rindou anyway? You're talking nonsense."

"Rindou speaks differently, though."

"Because he wants to provoke you, don't you understand? He tries to drive you crazy by trying to flirt with me, and you fall into his trap every time."

"Because I'm scared that I'll lose you because of that bastard!"

After Sanzu said that, he coughed and threw up again while turning his head. As you watched Sanzu, you felt your heart ache for a moment with his words, even though there was no romantic connection between you two.

"Haven't you figured out yet that I wouldn't be interested in someone like Rindou?"

"What if one day you change your... mind?"

"Come on, I've been with you since day one. If I haven't given up on hanging out with a maniac like you, I won't give up on it from now on either."

You said this with a slight smile to lighten the mood, but Sanzu's facial expression still looked serious and a little scared.

"I don't feel like throwing up anymore, let's go to my room."

You nodded and Sanzu stood up with support from you. You flushed the toilet, brought him closer to the sink first and turned on the cold water, wetting your hand and wetting his face and neck with the cold water. Sanzu was just watching you, he still looked angry but he couldn't stay angry while you were taking care of him like this. While you were wetting his neck, he suddenly leaned over and kissed the tip of your nose. You froze and looked at him, he looked like a little child.

"What, why are you looking at me like that? Can't I kiss you?"

"No, you can-- I mean, of course but it was.. so sudden, y'know?"

"I'm sorry I couldn't send you a letter just to let you know before kissing you."

While you were frowning at his joke, he suddenly started laughing, but you couldn't stay serious for too long and laughed along with him.

"Anyway, please leave the 'very funny' jokes for later."

You gently dried his face and neck with a towel as you turned the water off again and began to walk upstairs to his room. No one had returned from the club yet. Sanzu had gone completely silent.

When the two of you entered his room he let out a sigh and was finally able to sit on his bed while still leaning against you. He scratched the back of his neck and tried to lie down directly but you stopped him.

"No, change your clothes first. You should wear something comfortable."

"Pfft, c'moooon!"

"Nuh-uh."

Sanzu huffed but still listened to you and while you brought his pajamas, he took off his jacket, started unbuttoning his shirt. You had to hold yourself back from staring at his muscular, toned upper body, past scars showing. but Sanzu was aware of this and flexed his muscles while smirking just to tease you.

"You're impressed, huh?"

Your cheeks turned red on their own and you smiled involuntarily while rolling your eyes. You slapped his cheek lightly, playfully.

"Shut up, I don't care about your muscles right now."

"Tch, I'm hurt."

Sanzu dramatically put his hand over his heart and smirked at you. You helped him put his t-shirt on gently.

"You need to take your pants off now."

"Oh my, are you a pervert?!"

Sanzu was still making fun of you, when he saw that you were getting more and more angry and embarrassed, he started laughing. He unbuttoned his pants, unzipped them and lowered them. You looked away just to avoid seeing that.

"Don't look away, one day you'll see this every night."

"Oh shut the hell up, Sanzu!"

Sanzu was still laughing and when he took off his pants he put them aside. He staggered to his feet to put on his pajamas. While you were still not looking at him he approached you from behind. His warm breath was touching your neck and he placed a small kiss on your neck. This time he brought his lips to your ear and whispered.

"Don't try to silence me. I'm telling the truth. One day you will be mine, and the day you become my woman I will have the honor of holding you in my arms every night."

You couldn't answer Sanzu because you didn't know how to respond to those words. You turned your head to the side, and Sanzu smiled at that while still standing behind you, placed a gentle kiss on your hair.

He put on his pajamas and carefully got into bed, putting his head on the pillow. You folded the clothes he had taken off and opened the window a little to let in some fresh air.

While you were doing all these things, he was laying quietly on the bed. Just when you went to look at him, you saw that his eyes were closed and he was fast asleep. His current facial expression looked much more innocent than usual. An involuntary smile appeared on your face.

You covered him up a little so he wouldn't get cold, and even though he had already vomited everything he needed to vomit, you decided to stay with him because you thought there was a possibility he would vomit again at night, in his sleep. You were worried about him.

You sighed and leaned your head back as you sat on a couch in the room. Sanzu's words were still running through your mind. You wondered what it would feel like to.. be his woman. The feeling of being in his arms every night. These words were confusing your mind and heart even more, as you still didn’t understand how you managed to attract Bonten’s number 2.

[kannady]

do you remember me too?

pairing: sylus x mc reader

synopsis: love and deepspace was a newfound obsession of yours. you installed the game shortly after sylus was released as a love interest. it'd be safe to say he was the reason you installed the app. however, finals week was approaching and you had to say goodbye to your favourite game. not for long, ofcourse. but you decide to login for the last time to check the new event.

word count: 2k

a/n: hey everyone! honestly im loving this ffc so much! its great to see people liking it, it really encourages me to go on. ive been doing tons research on the game before adding characters and im falling in love all over again 😭. please leave your thoughts, id love to know what you think of the story so far!

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Chapter Three

Badum! Badum!

Could someone's heart burst from their chest from excitement, ecstasy, and confusion? Because yours was about to. Either your eyes were deceiving you, or you had gone insane. There was no other possible explanation. Your mind bombarded you with relentless questions.

The man before you was Zayne. His freshly trimmed black hair glistened under the clinic lights, framing hazel-green eyes that sparkled like gemstones. His sharp nose and chiseled features completed that signature stoic expression. Had you died and gone to heaven?

You gulped, taking hesitant steps toward him. Even now, you couldn't fully believe you stood in the presence of THE Zayne Li. Who could?

What should you do? You'd already resolved not to ask him to prove his existence—he clearly existed, standing right before you. Nor would you show any confusion. While your family might excuse odd behavior, someone of his caliber would diagnose it as delirium—the last thing you wanted.

He scribbled in a file as you approached. Sensing your presence, he glanced up, meeting your gaze over his glasses. Is this how I die? Your heart skipped several beats as your breath caught. For a moment, you forgot how to breathe entirely. Your chest constricted while your palms grew clammy. Maybe your body was overreacting. Unconsciously, you pressed a hand to your chest, forcing a slow inhale.

"Look who finally decided to show up. Take a seat."

Holy shit. He talks!

You weren't mentally prepared for this. The truth was undeniable now—you were inside Love & Deepspace! How else could this be explained? Your stare remained locked on him. He mirrored his game counterpart perfectly, except he was flesh and blood—his ethereal mannerisms and striking features somehow more breathtaking in reality. How was someone like him just a doctor? Under these circumstances, that seemed the only sane question to ask.

"H-hi, sorry I'm late. Traffic, you know," you chuckled nervously, omitting the real reasons.

"Yes, I know. I also know you staged that whole disbelief act to avoid your fate." He gestured around the office.

"Who can escape the Master of Fate?" you muttered under your breath.

"What was that?" His expression, if possible, grew more impassive. He'd definitely heard something—but how much?

"Nothing!" Play it cool. "So, the appointment..." You gestured for him to proceed, eager to escape this suffocating situation. Just an hour ago, you'd been studying for exams—now you conversed with Zayne. Not something that happens everyday.

"Yes, I was supposed to review your test results from last month." He emphasized "last month." Apparently, you—or whoever you'd replaced—had avoided this appointment for thirty days.

"Oh. Am I okay?"

"(Reader), you should've come weeks ago. These results"—he indicated the scattered papers—"are outdated." His displeasure was evident, though it wasn't your fault. You were just inheriting someone else's consequences.

"We can redo the tests." Your suggestion worked instantly. His stern demeanor shifted to bewilderment. "We will. And this time, I'll ensure we get same-day results so you can't flee." His narrowed eyes felt like drills boring into your skull. What had your predecessor done?

Without warning, he stood and headed for the door. "Follow me."

You practically jogged to keep up with his long strides. "S-slow down, Zayne..."

He halted abruptly, making you collide with his rock-solid back. As your eyes met again, the reality of interacting with Zayne still felt surreal. He stepped aside, holding the door open. "We're here." The Pathology Department sign loomed overhead.

For what felt like hours, you followed him through various tests—exhausting but painless. Why would anyone avoid this? Finally, he asked you to wait while processing results, giving you precious time to process your situation. Zayne was real. You'd touched him, confirming this wasn't a dream. Yet your parents and sister existed here too—non-game characters. Unless...you weren't the protagonist. That would explain the discrepancies. But if Zayne was real, then so was—

Badum. Badum. Badum.

Your heart raced painfully fast, breath hitching. Icy fingers clenched as conflicting emotions brewed within you—ecstasy, terror, bewilderment. You needed to see him. Sylus.

"Your results are ready." Zayne's voice snapped you back. Following him blindly, you crashed into him again when he stopped at his office. "God! What do you eat?" You rubbed your forehead.

"It's not dietary. Spinal rigidity can stem from muscle tension, spasms, poor posture, injuries, trauma, sedentary lifestyle, fibromyalgia, chronic pain syndromes, dehydration, or nutrient deficiencies."

"You do realise you just diagnosed yourself, right? Go see a doctor." The corners of his lips quirked briefly—a fleeting smile. Barely visible, but it was there. You’d always remember you had made him smile.

Seated across from him, he frowned at the reports. "These show drastic changes."

"Well, there's a month's gap."

"Drastic changes," he reiterated.

Shit. Does he know?

"Excellent progress. You've followed my advice." He nodded approvingly. Advice? Whatever—you were safe. As he handed you a discharge form, his stare became uncomfortable.

"Why are you staring?"

"Assessing my patient."

"That's weird."

"It's my job."

"Look over there instead." You pointed randomly, hastily completing the form. Amusingly, he actually kept gazing where directed. Beautiful and literal—just like in-game. If Zayne affected you this much, imagining Sylus might stop your heart.

"All done." You stood to leave.

"Wait." Zayne's voice halted you. "Is everything alright?"

"Of course. Why wouldn't it be?"

"You seem...different."

That was the understatement of the century. You were an imposter, clueless about your predecessor. Before you could respond, he added, "Your handwriting has improved."

My escape route! "I practiced. Anyway, bye!" You bolted.

Outside, reality sank in. Zayne was real. This world was real. But unasnwered questions remained. Who were you here? What was your life? What did you do? There was no one you could ask without seeming like a lunatic. Defeated, you headed home.

"I'm back!" Your mom appeared instantly. "You actually went? How was it?"

"I went! Zayne said I'm fine—following instructions perfectly."

"Wonderful! With the doctor's approval, you're all set!" Her cryptic joy raised more questions, but you feigned exhaustion, retreating upstairs.

Your room stopped you cold. Gone were your familiar belongings—replaced by game merchandise. Honeybee, Succulent Bunny, Comfy Peanut, Snowy Fox plushies. The bookshelf stunned you further: Types and Classes of Wanderers, Ideal Close-Combat Weapons, 50 Wanderer Confrontation Mistakes, Wanderers: Friends or Foes?

Before you could process this, the door flew open. Your sister leaned against the frame, arms crossed, scrutinizing you with a smug expression on her face. After a prolonged silence, she delivered the chilling verdict:

"You're not really you, are you?"

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[reysdriver]

Breeding | R.B.

Day 4 of Kinktober: Breeding Kink — husband!regulus x wife!reader

warnings: 18+, Minors DNI - smut, breeding kink, piv sex, unprotected sex, creampie, some light angst and fluff in certain parts

words: 0.7k

a/n: this is one day late, but i'll post 2 oneshots tomorrow after my last midterm test I promise

Regulus’ face was buried in the crook of your neck as he thrusted into you. His forehead was sweaty, but so were you, and you loved the sight of your husband’s dark curls sticking to his skin so you couldn’t care less about sweat. Honestly, all you could think about was how perfect he felt inside you. 

“You feel so good, Reg. So perfect.” You told him honestly. 

He let out a low moan before responding. “Not as perfect as you, my love. You make me feel so good. I’m gonna explode soon and fill you up just how you like.” 

You did love it when he came inside of you, but there was a sneaking suspicion in your mind that Regulus liked it more than you. Ever since you got married a few weeks ago, he had been obsessed with the idea of finishing inside of you in hopes of getting you pregnant. 

“I need it so badly.” You practically whined. 

He kept moving, hitting all of the right spots inside of you. He was letting out a series of heavy breaths and soft cusses right next to your ear, and it only increased your pleasure with every sound. 

“Are you sure you want it? You like it when I try to give you a baby?” 

Regulus got insecure sometimes; he always has. It’s been about a number of things, but no matter what it was, you tried your absolute best to help bring back his confidence and feel better about whatever he was upset about. This instance was no different than any other time, other than the fact that you were naked and in the middle of fucking. 

“I love it, honey, I really do. I want your baby so bad, then as many more as you’ll let me have.”

You were totally honest with him, even if you seemed like you were overcompensating for the sake of his comfort. You loved Regulus more than anyone in the world, that’s why you married him; there was no reason you wouldn’t want him to be the father of your kids. 

“I love you so much.” He told you as if he was reading your mind. 

“I love you too.” You promised. “You’re the best thing in my life, Reg— Oh, fuck!” Your train of thought was interrupted when Regulus sped up the pace and increased the force of his hips, plus adding a hand to your .

“You like that, my love?” 

You felt like you could only mumble words as an answer. “Yes, yes, yes. I’m getting close. Keep going.”

“So am I. I’m gonna fill you up and make sure you get pregnant for real this time.”

“Please, Reg. I really do need it.”

Just as you asked, Regulus kept up the rhythm of his thrusts so you could both finish together. He was hitting that perfect spot inside you, the spot that had you leaving scratches on your husband’s back and gripping the sheets with your other hand until your knuckles turned white. 

With a loud groan, Regulus released inside of you, but kept moving the way he was before as best as he could to help you along. After a few seconds, you reached your climax as well, and let Regulus know by letting out a moan and running your hand along his back far harder than you were before. 

You both took a moment to cool down, with Regulus laying on top of you, resting until your vitals went back to normal. Once his heart rate was back down, he pressed a sincere kiss to the part of your neck where his forehead had just been tucked, then he straightened his body and pulled out of you slowly. 

When moving out of you, he replaced his cock with his two fingers, eliciting a sharp breath from you as you jerked your head up to look at him between your legs. 

“I’m sorry, my love. I just want to make sure nothing spills out this time. We have to let this one be for real.”

You crashed your head back against the pillow. “This is gonna be the one that takes, I have a really good feeling about it.” You told Regulus. “You’ll be such a good dad, Reg.”

He tried to hide his face between your legs, but the grin was unmissable. “And you’re going to be a great mom.”

[james-is-here]

hi!!! i absolutely love your writing it's so good! please keep up the good work, i also never really see any kpop boy pussies so i'm hoping you will do this request.

i have a request, what about cock obsessed lee know who can't stand not having reader's cock not pounding his pussy. he gets so needy constantly begging and touching you very different from how he normally acts. so reader in return teases him back and it ends with lee know getting the best fucking of his life. thank you!! 

-🐰🔪

Oooh boy, thank you, after I wrote the other Minho fic, I've been motivated to write more and I am slowly but surely becoming obsessed with whiney, subby Min 🫠Also, the boys have like all the brands I know (except Han's) and I didn't want to repeat so your brand in BrandRacha is Prada :P

Also, let me know if I misinterpreted your request and I can rewrite it, I don't know why but I feel like I did by accident. There's still BoyPuss Min, just not sure if I fulfilled it to your liking.

Blogs: @belladonna6-6-6 @heartbinn @succubus-hansol @leezanetheofficial @yongbokkk @michelle4eve @dontwannaexsist (Imk if I forgot you or you want to be added.

Tags: Min is called good girl so some feminization, desperate Min, implied color system, lots of edging, Min is called princess, good boy, kitten, other members are mentioned, Minnie gets emotional and drops, brief mention of a cervix. lmk if I forgot anything.

When you have free time, it's not just your free time it's yours and Minho's free time and during this free time he flips from his usual self so fast you get whiplash and you're completely thrown off every time.

He's seemingly annoyed that you and Chan hug him but that night he's a complete 180, begging for you to hold him close and let him ride your thigh.

Absolutely killing the stage and being his usual annoyed but loving self and after he's dragging you to an empty room, shoving himself against the door and pulling you in for a kiss while pulling your hand to his crotch and grinding the best he could in his stage pants.

You're wrapping your arms around him from behind on camera or on stage and he's standing there almost begrudgingly but really he's throbbing in his pants and soaking his underwear and when alone his hands are all over you trying to pull you close.

Don't get me wrong, you love how obsessed Minho was with you. You both have equal libido and stamina and it amuses you whenever you see the needy look his eyes. It's just...oof, well, a lot. He does relax but if you had to think, he has you inside him more often then not having you inside him.

Yes, the boys know about you, unfortunately Minho's neediness can be relentless and he said himself before a movie night with the others "I'll behave, please just let me cockwarm" and next thing you knew, Minho was squirming in your lap and Chan scolded both of you before kicking you both from movie night and to your room.

Now, you've been gone for a week for a Prada event and it was really fun to do something on your own from your group but ~someone~ called you at every opportunity the first day you arrived at the location the event was at that you had to send them your schedule so they didn't interrupt anything.

When you arrived at the dorms from the airport, it seemed that no one was home. It was late but most of them usually stay up late. Walking down the hall, you knock lightly on Chan's door before opening it. "Mn!" He looks up from his laptop, taking off his headset and getting up to meet you at the door to pull you into a tight hug, a smile growing on your face as he squeals softly and rocks you back and forth. "Hi Hyung!" Your arms wrap around his shoulders as you return the hug.

He then starts to jokingly cry and pull back, holding your shoulders at arms length. "I have all my kids back!" You let a snort out as he pulled you back into his arms. "Oh, I hope you're never gone that long again." "Hyung, You're sounding like an obsessed boyfriend." "No, I'm your desperate hyung, go take care of your boyfriend please."

You laugh as he all but begs you, turning you around and pushing you towards Minho's room. "I'm so jet lagged though, can I wait until tomorrow when I'm more awake?" "No, now, please, go." You shake your head and lightly kick your bag to roll over to your door before smiling at Chan. "Not a very good welcome home, you're all settled for the night." "I think Hyunjin is still awake painting." You turn in the opposite direction to go say hi to the dancer. "Jinnie." You cheer softly but Chan grabs your wrist. "Hyung..." You pout and he pushes you back over to Minho's room. "Boyfriend first, Jinnie later." Groaning you playfully shove him before going to your boyfriend.

You open his door, not even deciding to knock, and find your boyfriend in your hoodie and his sweats, laying in his stomach with one leg extended and the other thrown over his mangled blankets. He's hugging his pillow but looking again, the pillow case doesn't match his and you realize it's your pillow.

There's enough room next to him on his left so you gently crash next to him, throwing an arm over his back and pulling him, causing him to roll onto his side and into your chest. His hand falls open and something slides out, picking it up, it's a remote. You chuckle before placing it to the side and reaching down, placing your hand on his abdomen.

Tugging his hoodie, you slip your hand underneath, his skin warm under your cold hands and he whines in his sleep. Moving down, you slip into his sweats and you were honestly expecting his boxer shorts but instead you felt lace. Tracing the delicate details, you follow them until his hip, gently taking the band between your fingers then sliding further down until your fingers are near his core. "Min~" You groan quietly and remove your hand, pulling him closer until his ass is pushed into you.

Reaching up, you grab the remote, wrapping your arms around him before pressing the button for the second setting. His body jolts and pushes back into you as he gasps, breathing heavily. You can faintly see purple in the dark room of the remote and you smile softly when you process what toy is nestled inside him, the only one he has access to, not too long but not to short and no stimulation to his clit. It was the worse one to be left with but hey, you love torturing him.

Moving the remote to the other hand, you reach back into his sweats, dragging your fingertips over the lace of his underwear then grab his thigh, carefully lifting his leg and shifting onto your back slightly so he's laying back on you.

Your hand cups his heat, causing him to choke out a gasp as his chest heaves faster and his hips start to squirm. Raising the speed, your fingers find his clit through the fabric, making tight, quick circles that pull quiet moans out of him as he parts his lips and leans his head back on your shoulder.

"Minnie~" You murmur quietly, moving the fabric to the side and touching him directly. He is soaking wet, dripping around the toy and all over your fingers. "Minnie, Princess~" His breathing picks up, chest rising and falling rapidly and as his hips squirm and push back into you and your hand. You draw a few more rapid circles before withdrawing from him completely and turning off the toy.

He lets out a choked sob, hips still moving wildly as he tries to chase his high before eventually settling down with a whine and turning his head towards you, opening his eyes and blinking away his tiredness. "Hyung..." He pouts and you kiss it away. "Hi Princess." "Please~" "How about...no."

You turn the toy on again, resting your hand above his core and holding him against you. "How about I finally get back at you being a slutty brat, huh?" "I-I'm not a brat." "Mmm, but you are, Princess, don't lie." "M'Not, fuck~" You add your fingers back into the mix, playing with his clit. "Did you really think I wouldn't get back at you for being rude to the boys?" "I-I wasn't...I'm not-" "We just want to love you, Minnie, why you gotta hate us?" He whines and shakes his head. "N-No, that's not..."

You turn off the toy again and remove your hands from him. "No, Hyung, please stop." "You want me to stop? I'll stop if that's what you want." You move slightly, making it look like you're gonna leave the bed before he turns towards you, eyes brimming with tears as he grabs your wrist. "Don't go, please, please just fill me up please, I want your cock so bad, please." "I don't know if you deserve it, Minho. You should appreciate our love."

He gasps, sitting up and pushing you onto your back before straddling your thighs. "I-I do, I really do. I swear I appreciate all of you, I love all of you." "I don't know, Min." Your left hand, extended out on the other side of the bed, you click the second setting and he squeals with a gasp, hip jolting on your thighs before you place your hands on his hip to hold him still as his upper half falls forward and his hands prop himself up on your stomach.

His moans are breathy gasps as he tries to move his hips. "How about four more?" "Four?!" Tears fall down his cheeks as his fingers tighten around your shirt and his nails dig into your skin, not painful thanks to the shirt barrier but a light sting. "No...No, please, I'm sorry. I-I do a-appreciate you all, I d-do show it, I-I'm not a liar, Hyung, please..."

You know he does, he's not that cruel but it amuses you how he teases the boys and shows distain for their affection but then 180s with you and always tries to get your cock in him.

"Four more, for the last four boys." "No, please, I'm sorry." He cries and leans down until his face is hidden in your neck, tears falling onto your skin. "This is how you'll make up for it, yeah?" "No, please...M'sorry, Hyung, please..." "I said four didn't I? You don't know what I'll do for you to make it up to me." He doesn't have to make it up to you, you know the truth, but again, you love torturing him.

"Four more times then I'll tell you what I want." He whines when you finally shut the toy off, hip shaking in your hold. "Three, my bad. Or I could start over and you could do seven and tell me what each member means to you while trying not to cum." "No! Fuck, please, I-I can't take it."

Okay, you weren't that cruel...maybe another time.

"Four more, kitten." Turning it to the fourth level this time, he jolts, slowly trying to slide his hips further up to meet your crotch but you kept him in place. He harshly tugs at your shirt with a whine. "Off, please, off." "Don't move. You move, we start back at three." He nods, his hands moving to your waistband as you sit up slightly and remove your shirt. You could barely drop it to the floor when he pushes you back by your shoulders and his hands are rubbing your chest, his nails are scratching lightly against your toned stomach, their moving to hold your waist, they're everywhere.

"Stop." "What?" He whines and brings your hands back to his hips. "I-I'm gonna cum, stop." You smile gently and stop the vibrator. "Aw, thanks for telling me, such a good girl taking her punishment." You praise, lifting a hand to cradle his face and he leans into it, your thumb wiping away his tears and you pull him down, attaching you lips to his firmly and finally kissing him since you've returned home.

His hands cradle your face, kissing back just as hard before pulling back and moving to the crook of your neck again. "T-Two more...Please." "Being such a good girl, Minnie." Before turning it back on, you tug his waistband. "Take these off, Kitten." He gets off you, quickly taking the clothing off and tossing them away before getting back on your lap. He was wearing a pair of black lace panties you bought for him. "So pretty." You murmur softly, placing your hands on his waist before turning the toy on again.

You grip his waist slightly, pulling him down to sit on your thighs properly then sliding your hand down so your thumb is just above where his clit is. His stomach twist and he whines, his heat throbbing painfully and he wishes you would just move your thumb just an inch to relieve some of the pain but he knows it's wishful thinking, you know his body, know that if you did, he'd cum instantly. You're teasing him, driving him crazy and he tries to think of anything but your thumb near where he needs to be touched.

You bumped it to four and his hips jolt forward, your thumb nudging his clit slightly and he barely gets out his words. "Shit- S-Stop, stop." You turn it off and Minho shakes above you. "Fuck, it's hurts. Hyung please." "You can do one more, Kitten. I know you can." "I-It's too much, I- I can't-" His hips squirm subconsciously and you move your hand away slightly. "I know you can, it's okay."

He drops his head, his left hand holding himself up on your stomach and his right on the bed. "Min?" He hums, sniffing softly. "Min, color." "Green...i-it's green, m'sorry." "No, No, it's okay. Can you take one more?" "Yeah, I can...I can." "You sure?" "Yeah. S'punishment." "But if you can't take it, we stop." "I-I want to." His fingertips lightly graze over your abdomen. "Can..." "Can what darling?" "C-Can I touch you?" His fingers curl into your waist band and a soft smile graces your lips. "Yeah, you've been such a good boy, you could've touched me a while ago."

He tugs down your waistbands down just enough to wrap his hand around your length and pull it out from its confinement. "One more, hyung." "Okay." You turn it on one more time, pulling a whine from him as his hands are placed on your pelvis around your length. His head tilts back slightly before rolling back down and taking you into his hand.

He strokes you lazily but just enough to send sparks up your spine, making you groan. Minho whines softly, his hips stuttering with trying not to move and your heart melts. "Ride my thigh, baby." He shakes his head, picking it up and looking up at you. "N-No, one more, I-I can do it." "Min, it's okay." "S-Stop it, Stop the-" His legs shake as he gets closer and closer but you don't stop the vibrator and he takes it from your hand and turns it off, hips jolting forward as he settles from his last denied orgasm.

"Min, I was letting you cum. You didn't have to follow the punishment anymore." "B-But I-I'm a b-brat a-and I-I don't show that I a-appreciate the others..." "Oh, Min..."

Sitting up, you pull him into your arms and turn around, laying him on his back before his hands are on your chest as you pull your sweats back up. "Wait, Hyung-" "No, Min, what color?" "Green, Hyung, please. I-I have to-" "Truth, Min, What color?" You say firmly. "Hyung..." "Minho." You push, using his name and he stops and covers his face.

He's silent for a couple seconds before his body shakes and a choked cry gets caught in his throat. "Minnie..." "I-I d-do....I do apprec-iate a-all of you...I-I l-ove a-all o-of y-you, 'm s-sorry I-I d-don't sh-show it..." He gets out through his sobs. "Y-Yellow, 'M s-sorry, H-Hyung, 'm so s-sorry." You mentally slap yourself and lay down next to him, pulling him into your arms and hugging him close and tight. "No, Minnie, I'm sorry. I know you love them, I know you care about them, I should be the one apologizing, baby, I'm so sorry." You bury your face into his neck and hold him close both for your sake and his.

You feel so bad for causing his drop, of course you know that his coldness is just an act, you were just meaning to tease him. "Hyung is sorry, Minnie. I'm so so sorry." You kiss his cheek and lean back to look down at him, cupping his face with one hand and wiping his tears away. "I'm sorry for going to far." He sniffs, taking shaky deep breaths before leaning his forehead on yours. "Minnie?" "Hyung?" "You back with me?" "Y-Yeah." "You know when you dropped?" "L-Last I-I remember...w-was asking t-to touch you..." You sigh, bringing him back into your arms and tucking him under your chin.

"C'mon, let me clean you up." "W-Wait, but..." "Min, you just dropped, darling, I don't think it's best to keep going." "I-I said yellow...not red...I-I still r-really what your cock in me...this toy is dumb..." "Min..." "Please?" "Only if you promise that when we're done, I coddle you and give you the softest of aftercare and not just laying in bed after." "It's the middle of the night..." "Okay, fine, I'll just use a rag but let me make it up to you tomorrow?" "Sure."

You kiss him softly, like he was glass, before pulling back. "I really didn't have any way for you to make it up to me, I was just gonna fuck you and make you cum so it was more of a reward for you." "Is it still a reward?" "Of course but, now, you choose the position." "Any that let me look at and hold you." You laugh and gently pull him back onto your lap.

Carefully, you move the fabric covering him out of the way and slowly pull the toy out of him. "Shit." He pushes out with a heavy breath as you gently squeeze his hip. "Fuck...s'empty..." "Hold on, won't be for long." You set it aside and hold his other hip as he pulls down your waistband out of the way for you and pulls out your cock. Dragging him forward slightly, he wraps his arm around your neck as he lines you up with his entrance before sinking down. "Ah~ Fuck." His head drops down as his hand moves up a bit and he hovers over his clit. "Touch yourself, Kitten, go ahead."

His fingers instantly circle the bundle of nerves and his head falls onto your shoulder, his thighs moving automatically to ride you and you wrap your arms around his back to take control, thrusting up into him causing wet sounds to occur every time you thrust in and out of his soaked cunt.

"Fuck~ Right there." You thrust into that spot inside him quickly and you draw continuous moans out of him with every hit with your tip. "Move you fingers faster, baby." His fingers rub faster, drawing him closer to his continuously lost high.

"Open." He lifts his head and parts his lips, letting you put your thumb into his mouth and he closes around the digit. His tongue swirls around your thumb before you remove it and bring it down, glancing down to move his hand out of the way before looking back up at him and replace his fingers with your thumb. "Oh fuck~" His legs move again and bounce inconsistently, meeting your hips every couple bounces.

Your thrusts pick up speed along with your thumb and you throw your head back, groaning as your own high approached, then look back at him. "Fuck, Hyung, m'gonna cum, shit~ Ah~" He moans softly, his hips bucking forward and your thumb becomes firm against his clit. "Me too, Minnie. Go ahead, Kitten, you took my teasing so well, such a good boy, let go baby." Your thrusts go impossibly faster, at least to Minho, and he clenches around your length so tight you unexpectedly stop with a stutter, your thumb keeping its momentum as your sunk deep inside him.

"Fuck, Fu- Hyung, don't stop, don't- Ah Shit!" His moan drags from the back of his throat, morphing into a soft squeal as his walls flutter around you and he tightens around you even tighter, his hand flying to your wrist as he rocks his hips into your hand. "Fuck, Min." His tightness, the slickness, and his absolutely lewd sounds cause you to cum deep inside him shortly after, thrusting so shallowly and deeply it's as if he could feel you fuck your cum into his cervix.

"F-Fuck...s'deep, Ah~" His hips rock against yours before he's pulling your hand away and his thighs shake. He pushes your shoulders to push you back slightly before falling onto your chest and your slip out of him. You hiss and he moans, leaning his forehead on your peck as his muscle contract and he's too weak to stop your cum from dripping out of him. "Shit." He mutters quietly and grabs the toy from before and slowly inserts it into him as a temporary plug despite the multiple drips already staining your sweats.

Laying back on your chest, he wraps his arms around you. "Can we just stay here?" "We're all yucky though." "So? That's never stopped us from cleaning up later." You sigh, both having no energy and your jet lag catching up to you. "I'm only agreeing..." You struggle but manage to kick your sweats off then cover the both of you up. "...because I think my jet lag is catching up to me and I'm tired." "Good, sleep now."

He kisses your chest where he lays and you kiss the top of his head, closing your eyes and promptly passing out.

[levis-poison-is-my-medicine]

Cat-Levi

(The Tea Lovers Pt. 6)

A Levi x reader fanfic

Crossposted from AO3

A/n: New chapter alert!

tags: fluff and humor, silly and sweet, tea-obsessed fem!reader with their head in the clouds (word count: 2.2k)

(Part one) / (Levi x reader Masterlist)

The office door fell shut with a clang. Levi tossed the envelope onto the desk, then turned around to face you. You expected him to scold you, but he said nothing. He just stood there and stared at you, one foot tapping the floor in an irritated manner, like he was waiting for something. The silence was hard for you to bear.

"So I take it the drawings are not to your liking, then?" you asked tentatively.

"Now what gave you that impression?" he deadpanned.

"Maybe the way you immediately ordered me into your office after seeing them? Though I guess it could also be to express admiration for my outstanding artistry in private…"

"Certainly not," he huffed. He was scowling again.

"Didn't think so," you murmured. So much for lightening the mood. He really was angry, after all. Maybe you should work on defending yourself.

"You asked to see them, I gave them to you. I did exactly as you told me. So what's the problem, exactly? I can't read your mind."

"Tch," he made. "Guess I need to spell it out for you."

"That would be nice," you said. Though you could already imagine what it was.

"The problem is…this." He pulled out the topmost drawing from the envelope and pushed it in your direction without looking at it. "Why am I like that?"

You gave it a quick glance. He was leaning against the wall, one hand up in his hair, making his bared chest muscles stretch. You had put a lot of attention to detail in there, so you were quite proud of it.

"Shirtless, you mean?"

He nodded, his jaw tense.

"It's a very popular theme with the ladies. I already told you these were all commissions. They want to see what you look like underneath your uniform."

He scoffed. "That's none of their business. Besides, how would you know? You've never even seen me shirtless."

"You are right, I haven't, so there might be some inaccuracies. I'm usually really meticulous, so this has been bothering me for a while, if you must know. I think I got the muscles about right, in fact I really put my heart into those abs...but you probably have some scars that I don't know about, right? Why don't you show me?"

You looked at him expectantly, your curiosity getting the better of you.

"What?!" he asked, dumbfounded. He even forgot to scowl for a moment. "Please? Just a quick peek?"

"No."

"I just want to know if I got it right," you pouted. "At least tell me."

"No."

"Then don't complain if the drawings aren't perfect next time."

His eyes narrowed. "There won't be a next time."

"Right," you mumbled. "I know."

"You apparently don't."

"These really were just drawings I had left from before. What was I supposed to do with them? Burn them?"

"Yes," Levi said.

"Do they really make you that uncomfortable?" you asked.

"They do."

"Okay," you said. "I'll burn them. They make you uncomfortable, so I'll burn them all. Satisfied?"

Levi didn't say anything. He just glared at you, arms crossed over his chest. You could tell he was still mad.

"I am sorry," you said softly.

He nodded. "When you're done burning those drawings, clean the stables. Be thorough. I'll check."

"What? That's gonna take so long!"

"This is nonnegotiable."

"But–"

"You're not happy with your punishment?" he asked with raised eyebrows.

You nodded furiously. "I don't think it's fair." "Fine. After the stables, you will now also do the women's barracks. Not just your room, but all of them."

Your eyes grew big. "You can't even check those," you muttered defiantly.

"I'll ask someone to do it for me. You're lucky, they probably won't have the same standards."

"This is impossible to do in a day," you pouted. "Not that I'm not happy with the punishment. 'Cause I am," you added quickly. You didn't want him to come up with more.

"You have all week," Levi said. He almost sounded amused. His face was back to his usual cool expression.

"Deal." You took the envelope with the drawings from the table, then hesitated, biting your lip. "Levi?"

"Yeah?"

"We'll still have teatime later, right?"

"Of course. Don't be an idiot."

You breathed a sigh of relief.

– –

"Of course he would need to have black, shiny fur", you giggled to yourself as you sat hunched over a piece of paper in a quiet corner of Hange's lab, adding some sparkles to show just how clean it was.

Instead of watching over a very slow, probably very important experiment, like you were supposed to, you were completely absorbed in perfecting your current drawing, which depicted a somewhat irritated-looking cat. Naturally, it wasn't just any cat. You were trying to capture the very essence of Levi Ackerman, distilling it into the shape of the animal on the paper in front of you.

This was your latest plan to get around his order which banned you from making or selling drawings of him. You had to be extra careful after he had chewed you out last time. You'd never seen him so mad. Well, it certainly hadn't helped when you asked him to take off his shirt. He had you scrubbing floors for all of last week. You were finally done with it, and you certainly had no desire to repeat that anytime soon. But you still found it impossible not to wonder whether your portrayal of him had been accurate. (Maybe he'd show you when he wasn't so mad.)

"Don't look at me like that", you mumbled to Cat-Levi, suddenly feeling a little guilty under his reproachful gaze.

"Don't you know I'm doing this all for you?"

If you wanted to be able to afford Levi's birthday present, you had no choice but to resort to methods like these. Surely he would understand. Better yet, he would never find out in the first place.

You nodded at the picture, satisfied. It was still in its draft stage, but it was getting there. In fact, it was kind of cute, and the longer you looked at it, the cuter it became.

"You're so precious," you gushed. "I wish you were real." Your face broke into a massive grin as you imagined what Cat-Levi would actually be like.

Chortling, you started to scribble a list of traits underneath it.

Smol

You don't choose him. He chooses you.

Perpetually grumpy (secretly a big softie but likes to keep the people around him on their toes)

Hits you with his cute little paws when you disturb him while he's sleeping

Hits you when you try to pet him without his permission

If he wants pets, he approaches you first. Then you have to give him attention. If you don't - you guessed it - he'll pout and hit you (with a cute little paw of course)

Is not afraid to draw blood (but with his special chosen person, he hits them paw only without any claws)

Others when they disturb them? They get it bad.

Did I already mention his cute little paws?

Cleanly as fuck. Don't disturb him while he's grooming himself. He will be your enemy.

Has trouble sleeping but when his chosen person is there with him he can relax

Hates being picked up. It makes him feel smol. Never make him feel smol.

Looves head scritches

Loves gourmet cat food. He's a luxury babe. (But if it comes from his favorite person, he will accept anything they feed him.)

You were so immersed in your writing that you didn't even notice Levi leaning in the doorway.

He watched you as you sat in front of the bubbling flasks, bent over your notes, your face hidden behind a curtain of your hair. Your pen was scratching furiously over the paper, exuding an air of productivity and concentration. He was almost impressed.

Then you giggled.

All of his illusions were shattered in an instant. Clearly, you were doing anything but working.

He approached you with a scowl on his face, already suspecting the worst.

"Are you drawing me again?"

You looked up, startled at the sudden presence, but your wide grin remained in place.

"Nooo! It's just a cat. Not everything's about you, you know."

You ostentatiously pushed the drawing over to him, trying to show him that you had nothing to hide. "See?"

Levi peered down at the cat which sat there with a wrinkled nose, its irritated gaze mirroring his own.

"Tch."

Your smile grew even wider. "Buut, now that you're here…lend me a hand, will you? I need help coming up with a name for this cat! What would you name him?"

You held out the drawing to him. He didn't take it. "Shouldn't you be working?" He motioned to the experiment set up in front of you.

"Ah, that," you said, like you had only just remembered it. "Nothing's been happening for the past three hours. I think it's a bust." You extended your hand even further, waggling the sheet of paper right under his nose.

"Come on, it will only take a second. Then I will get back to watching this thing like a hawk, I promise!"

Levi begrudgingly accepted the drawing and read the notes with raised eyebrows. "Who would even like this cat?"

You gasped, clutching at your chest in horror. "Excuse me? I do! Everyone does. He's precious, okay? You wouldn't know true cuteness even if it hit you in the face."

"I think I would," he said, giving you a glance.

"Obviously not. He's like, the definition of cute." You were pouting. "So, did you come up with a name?"

"Hellspawn," he said dryly.

"Noo, that's so mean! That's not even a real name."

"Fine." Levi sighed. He was quiet for a while, thinking. You looked at him expectantly.

"Herbert," he said finally, his tone serious.

You burst out laughing.

"What?" He frowned. "You wanted a real name. I gave you one."

"No, no, it's great, really. You're absolutely right," you tried to appease him.

"Herbert it is then."

Of course, this was just his undercover name. He would always be a Levi to you.

You took the paper from him and added a bowl, lovingly writing 'Herbert' on it in cursive letters.

When you were done, Levi was still standing there with his arms crossed.

You shot him a questioning look. "So, why did you come here? Did you want something?"

"Just wondering why you were late."

"Late?" You took out your pocket watch. It was just after 4 o'clock. "Oh, it's teatime already? I can't believe I almost missed it! I totally lost track of time." You jumped up from your seat. "Let's go!"

"What happened to watching your experiment with hawk eyes?"

You winced, visibly deflated as the excitement drained from your body. "You're right", you mumbled. "I did say that…" Why had you promised that, again?

You slumped back into the chair, eyes fixed on the flasks. They were still bubbling happily, almost as if they were mocking you.

Hange had told you to watch the experiment until they got back. It had seemed easy enough, while also giving you the perfect excuse to get out of today's training. You just never would've imagined they'd take this long.

"Go on without me…" you said in a dramatic, choked up voice.

Levi snorted. He pulled up a chair. "Don't be stupid. You'll get withdrawal symptoms." He knew how you got when you didn't have your afternoon tea. It wasn't pretty.

"These your notes?" He pointed at the lab journal.

You stared at him. It certainly looked like he was offering to watch the experiment for you. But that couldn't be right. You had to be dreaming again. Or hallucinating. It had been a while since you'd had your last tea. Maybe these were some new withdrawal symptoms? Still, you had to make sure.

"Don't tell me… You would give up on teatime for me?"

"Go before I change my mind."

"Wow. For real? Thank you!" You beamed at him. "I'm honestly so touched. You're the best, you know that? The best!"

You bent forward to give him a little kiss on the cheek. His eyes widened.

"I really don't know what I'd do without you," you went on, still smiling cheerfully, before getting up from your chair.

Levi cleared his throat. He wasn't looking at you. "I have work to do. So don't take too long."

"Of course not," you reassured him. "I'll be right back. You won't even notice I was gone."

He rolled his eyes. That was a blatant lie. You always took your time with tea, savoring every last drop.

You were already at the door when you suddenly turned back around.

"I just want you to know…"

"What?" Levi asked.

"I'll never forget your glorious sacrifice," you declared solemnly.

Before he could answer, you were already out the door.

Levi looked after you, absently bringing a hand up to his cheek.

"Tch. Always so dramatic," he grumbled to himself, but his gaze was soft.

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my IMMEDIATE thought is judi love, right?? her and roisin 1000% not even one show each, A SHOW WITH THEM TOGETHER 😍 and it's called JUDI & ROISIN'S DOUBLE DATES 😍

hahahaha absolutely! do you remember the stationary shop / pun guessing task that tim vine did on taskmaster s6? i always thought victoria would have enjoyed every single thing about that, just my intuition...

hahahaha this is so cute! they got married not to terribly long ago, so no worries. don't you love how sweetly they speak about each other 🥹 you know, when i saw richard at his last book signing in new york, he told a quick story about how ingrid had recently written for a doctor who publication and that she is super engrossed in & proud of the doctor who world 🥹🥹🥹 (made me so happy!!! bc i'm also a massive dw fan (i make those gifs on my main!) 🥹)

this is my modest richard and ingrid tag 🥹 i hope to flesh it out even more over time hehe

yes i've been listening to these!! they keep teasing a nish kumar one coming up that is supposed to be very special in some way?

anyways the richard osman one was very sweet because there was tons of kitten talk (LOVE) and you can tell how much richard adores david — which means he had a lot of fun teasing him hahaha that's what makes richard such a good podcast guest: he's such a comedy fan!

also enjoyed the eps with ivo and sam campbell, and i'm gonna listen to at least ed gamble, rose matafeo, and amy gledhill this weekend!

are you guys liking it??

i've def seen it (i saw the comedy blogs advertising the pilot) but i'm gonna be sooo honest and say i haven't had time to give it a listen yet TT have you?? i'm obsessed with both of them and will DEF listen to it this week! i'll post my thoughts :)

honestly, i think there are more comedy writers and comedy actors than proper comedians that i would like to read bios of. simon pegg comes to mind first! i also think it would be fascinating to read a kind of day-by-day journal of a proper circuit comedian, someone who could humorously and truthfully document the lifestyle. did you have someone in mind who hasn't written one?

as for books that are already published, i really want to read bonkers by jen saunders as well as richard e grant's semi-new autobiography (i'm worried it's going to be exceptionally sad since he'll always be dealing with the passing of his wife and he's very open about grief 🥺), so hopefully i get around to those before too long!

i haven't, tbh i never watched miranda, not going out, or even call the midwife — so even though i've obviouslyyy seen her around, sometimes on panel shows, and absolutely acknowledge how big she was/is, i don't carry enough nostalgia to read her whole bio. THAT SAID, i agree she was so so touching on graham norton and i think her stories both about her health and about finding love were SO LOVELY 💜 but if you tell me it's a must read then i'll definitely check it out!

and for anyone who's interested i added the audiobook to my drive :)

okay this scared me HAHAHA because as much as that is obviously not true if one uses a single modicum of common sense i am so easily fooled—

anyways it was a sweet episode! i don't really listen to that show but i was hoping to hear more about joe's particular approach to parenting, and even though he is clearly very private it was endearing. i love how much he loves birmingham (as someone who doesn't really have a hometown it's something i'm always fascinated by and envious of in others), and he really put his foot down about his sexuality! he was like "bi is bi, pan is pan, it's on you if you wanted to call me gay anyways" and PERIOD KING !! anyways, super happy for him. i have a feeling he won't post very much about it or even talk much about it in general, but i selfishly hope he does 🥹

it was a cute episode!! highlights for me include rob being extremely new to the concept of kimchi, rob claiming he doesn't understand why people care so much about seasoning (my fellow americans, have fun with that one), and rob roasting steve coogan lmaooo also i never get sick of the alan bennett impression i love how it's almost tom courtenay it's hilarious to me

i've loved a lot of the recent eps, especially the ones with matthew macfadyen and richard e grant (funniest man alive)! and i watched the gordon ramsay episode like 5 times, it was sooo interesting and soooooo sweet to hear about his relationship with angela!

one thing i really like about this show — besides how awesome angela is — is that nick asks the genuine questions someone who isn't big into cooking would ask. like, when they were eating the rib eye, he was like, "if someone wanted to make this at home, what would they ask the butcher for? is this a specific cut of meat?" and even though it's like 'lol yeah nick...rib eye...' people who aren't familiar with cooking beef wouldn't have known that! he asks about cuts, measurements, cooking times, that sort of thing in a way that feels genuine and curious, which i appreciate (as someone who doesn't cook a lot lmao)

for sure!

hello anon! these are always posted on reddit every single night that they air, i recommend sending a polite "hello would you kindly add me to the sub?" message (you don't need to get fancier or more specific than that; they have to keep the sub private for obvious reasons so no need to feel intimidated) to r/TV_NCA so you can snag those links each week

sure anon i'll work on that for you this weekend xx

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This could just be my own lack of understanding of British culture and nuances in class dynamics... but sometimes I see posts saying things along the lines of "the marauders were not cool kids, they were nerdy dorks with silly nicknames and niche and extremely ambitious academic obsessions!"

My reading of this is that in the context of Hogwarts being the magic version of a posh boarding school, inspired by books like Tom Brown School Days... academic success is actually absolutely seen as a virtue, and it does not make you nerdy or uncool? Of course you can be "swotty" like Hermione, but Sirius casualness when taking his OWLs and by the lake when Remus asks if he wants to revise... I think it's an indicator of a kind of effortless and suave academic success.

I don't mean to imply they did not study or anything, I just think people might be applying American high school dynamics to what I can only imagine is more like very old-timey British boarding school culture.

I don't know because I am not british or american! Just my guess.

Also, my girlfriend never read Harry Potter before and she just finished OOTP... never once she referred to Sirius, Remus, Peter or James as "marauders". She always says "Harry's dad's friends". Could the whole "they call themselves marauders" be fanon? Am I in too deep to see?

I'll be honest I have no idea what boarding schools are like anywhere in the world haha. I went to state school in London for first and middle, and a public high school in America. (confusingly public school means the opposite in the UK and US haha)

But I agree, I think that the Marauders were considered cool kids and they were popular in general. They were intelligent and good at school but not obsessed with school the way Hermione is-- I mean they're the rule breakers of all time, and Sirius acts as if he doesn't have to study for anything lmao. I think their effortless academic success would absolutely be considered a virtue and not 'nerdy.'

I attended high school in America so I'm probably in a good position to compare! And even in my school I'd say that there were popular boys who were intelligent and admired for their intelligence. Maybe the school I went to just didn't care about jocks haha-- and also this might be tinged by my own experience because I was friendly with some of those boys, but I can't really remember many boys who were on sports teams. The group I was adjacent to were popular because they were funny/intelligent/outgoing/liked to party, basically. The class clown type. So personally I don't think this is even a boarding school thing in particular.

I get asked this a lot here in Spain and in the UK, but my high school experience in America wasn't much like the dynamics you see in films-- there were cheerleaders running around in their little skirts which was so wild to me haha but also nobody cared. In general it was cool to not care and be apathetic about life. All of this could be that the city where I lived is pretty culturally alternative, I guess.

Anyway that was a tangent. You could be right that it's somewhat based on at least the film tropes of an American high school. But in the three countries I've lived and gone to school in, including America, what generally determined popularity is how outgoing, funny, and charming you were-- and I think being funny and charming requires a certain level of intelligence. The exclusivity the Marauders had, their untouchable status and their mystery, probably also added to their popularity. Not to mention Sirius was attractive and James was a talented quidditch player.

Right now... I can't remember if they ever call themselves the Marauders apart from on the Map. And that's interesting because the Map is very much addressed to an external audience, as if they made it in order to pass it on to future Marauders lol. They absolutely had dorky nicknames but that was very much an in-group thing-- and also my headcanon is that they started using 'Moony' first in 2nd year, and then eventually came up with the other nicknames to make him feel more included haha.

Even if them calling themselves the Marauders is technically fanon I think it's fanon that works and is also pretty likely intended to be canon tbh. I typically don't have other people in the school refer to them as 'Marauders' though, rather 'that lot' or whatever lol

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I found some poses on Pinterest and you can guess what happened✨ Also taking this time to show the full-body full-designs of the teetlez+Usagi✨ And to talk about the designs and choices that were made. Also behind them is basically the shapes I imagined as I drew them all

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Leo- The most I can say about his design is like.. He wears wrappings either to have support for his wrists or just because. I have sketches of all their masks from behind but Leo's is based on, when I looked up traditional ninja designs, and saw a ninja with a warrior man-bun type deal so ye✨

Raph- His rough and "spiky" look is more just to show his aggressive demeanor most of the time. At first I just added the armor because I saw some ninja outfits where they wore armor (mostly on their shins and forearms), but after drawing this I realized it can be good for ramming into people and having that protection. Also the instant I finished designing him I knew I wanted him to be DARK, and I am OBSESSED with how dark he is✨ Also the short mask tails are because I see so many ppl giving Rise Raph specifically his tails tied to a bow so ye. Also it wasn't just a pentagon, it's more that I just thought about polygons.

Donnie- I actually designed Donnie first, because he's my favorite, heheh✨ His design is simple, I wanna talk more about his Bo-Staff. As I drew this I just made this area that stuck out from the staff where the wrap is, and it reminded me of those pencil grips. So now it's that Donnie doesn't like holding the rough staff for too long and has that little area to give his hands a break as he continues to fight. The armor on his shins I do not yet have an explanation for. Maybe it's so his kicks can hurt more.

Mikey- Again, simple design. When I designed him I wanted him to look round and a lil chubby maybe~✨ Quick tip: if he doesn't look baby then you drew him wrong.

Usagi- For the most part I just did my own thing, the outfit design, more specifically how the blue cloth bits are designed, were entirely based on how @okumura-senseixxx draws Usagi (love how they did it✨, obviously). Using that design because I wanted Usagi to look pretty, and that design of clothing is very pretty✨ Other than that it's a matter of just flipping Usagi's hair because trust me it doesn't look good any other way. I didn't think heart when designing Usagi, but when I think of Usagi I think "heart" so ye.

Teetlez- I am thinking of doing one of those "art study" sheets for my teetlez and characters if you guys ever want, I'll just do a mini worded version for now since I'll be working on something else. Overall their bodies are based on the first concept designs of my "Turtlier" Teetlez which was the Rise Boys just.. "Turtlier". Those designs changed but I loved the body type and used it here✨ The beaks are personally a must✨ I find it more interesting to draw beaks than normal mouths for the teetlez✨ The tails are also just a personal must, I just like them✨ Took a while to figure how I'd draw the individual pieces of their outfits, I thought doing brown or grey (ew) but both matched Raph's red in greyscale so it would never work. Then I looked back at my sketched design of Donnie and noticed to differentiate the pieces of clothing I had shaded his arm and leg bits. ✨Lightbulb✨ Just make the other pieces darker variations of the main color✨

I have a lot of information that I'm still trying to hash out, so ye✨

References (if it's important at all, from Pinterest except the nunchaku one, google):

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Obsession 憑 Ch56

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(The song used is Young and Beautiful by Lana Del Rey linked below. I did switch around some of the words out to fit the setting more tho. The outfit Y/n wears is also linked.

Outfit

https://www.tumblr.com/itshauntedtoon/775223124419624960?source=share

Song

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=79c2pSvz8IE&pp=ygUbWW91bmcgYW5kIGJlYXV0aWZ1bCBseXJpY3Mg   )

                                                                                     Part 7 Eclipse 

You couldn't bring yourself to eat anything. 

It was like you've lost your appetite completely just hearing the crushing news. The mountain of dread filling up every inch of space in your stomach. So you just sat there staring down at the plate of bland vegetable soup in your hands that only the servants were allowed to eat. Uta had suggested you'd get something to eat too after just following them around all day numbly and doing everything they asked for on autopilot. 

You couldn't even think. Just staring at the green slop watching as a wilted carrot top and lump of potato just floating in the sorry excuse for food. How did it come to this? Why? Those two questions were the only things that really bounced around in your head as you stared down at the bowl. Your reflection sadly staring up to you with sorrowful eyes. 

You never wished for the comforting hugs of your family more than now. 

"Miss Kamado."

You gasped jolting up at the voice before whirling your head around, soup sloshing in its bowl as red eyes widened at who was right behind you. ...And then immediately calmed down a little bit at seeing the beautiful face of a familiar behind you.

"L-Lady Haruhime." Said woman stood there silently as usual. Her hands clasped together in those long sleeves. Her dark eyes regarded you with a neutral look. "Oh. I-..Um." You looked between the bowl in your hands and her before awkwardly smiled. "I didn't hear you there. Are you in need of something?"

Her brow rose staring at the slop. "..I asked for you to run me a bath while I was discussing something with my fiance. When you didn't-" She looked back up to you. "-I came looking for you. What are you doing?"

"Oh. I'm just.." Going numb? Can't think of anything? Scared? "Thinking about what you asked me to do."

"What about it?," she asked stepping closer, her silks dragging behind her. "Everyone has spoken of your performances and I very much wanted to see you perform myself."

"That's just it. I haven't performed in months. Not since-.." Not since they discovered you, ruined your town, and kidnapped you and forced you to work here. "Not since I retired from singing. I don't know if I'm still good at it. Not at least without practice and rehearsing."

"Oh." Her eyes glanced up for a few seconds. "..Then perhaps that's why you look nervous."

"Nervous?"

"I'm not oblivious to your emotions," she calmly stated. "Im also not a cruel woman. Does it bother you enough that you need to back away from the offer?"

You blinked wide eyed. "Are you...offering me to back out of this?"

"I did say I am not a cruel woman did I not?" 

You both stared at one another for a silent moment before with a sigh you turned away. "No. I'll sing."

"I was under the impression that you did not want to. I can always find a different singer."

"Yes but then I might get in trouble with Lord Tsugikuni more if he hears I refused to perform at his sons' joint engagement banquet."

"Are you in trouble with him?"

"You can say that yes. It's the entire reason why I'm here in the first place."

"I see."

There was silence again for a moment before you sighed and turned away. "I'll sing for your guests. It's a special day for you and Lady Uta so I don't want to ruin it."

She seemed surprised at your words raising her brows. "Are you certain? I heard the flute player sings along with the musicians sometimes."

"It's alright. Really."..You looked back to her. "I hope you don't mind me speaking my mind, but you are a very considerate person, Ma'am."

"I try to be fair to the less fortunate. As future empress, it will do good for my public image next to my husband," she explained. Considering the Tsugikunis' reputation that might be a good idea if she was going to be married to Michikatsu of all people. "As much as I love my fiance, his actions are going to hurt his future unless I lessen the damage."

Ah. Sounded about right. That reminded you you. "How did you two come to meet if you don't mind me asking?" You remembered that someone mentioned that she was in an arranged engagement with Michikatsu but you didn't remember ever seeing them together when staying in the palace.

"We're childhood friends," she explained turning back to give a grimace at your pathetic soup. "We used to play together often as children because my father is the Minister of Treasury for his majesty. Our engagement was predetermined from the moment we were born."

"And..Is he in love with you too?"

To your surprise her face smiled before looking at you and nodding. "Yes. I can read emotions very well. He loves me just as he also fell in love with another but for the sake of everyone he chose the option that would hurt less people."

You.. didn't know how to take that. Does that mean she knew what he did or who you were to him? Or does she not know it was you? You decided to not push your luck in that department and change the topic.

"That's good. You both deserve to be happy. What about Lady Uta? How did she come to be engaged to Prince Yoriichi? I would've thought that he also would've been engaged to a noble or wealthy lady."

Haruhime hummed in thought looking up at the ceiling. "From what I was told, Miss Uta was sent to Prince Yoriichi as a part of the peace treaty between the two kingdoms of war. It's not uncommon for kingdoms to marry two important figures together or send a concubine as a sign of trust between them."

"But..Lady Uta's not-"

"No. She's just a simple farm girl. Apparently Lord Kibutsuji thought it would be a good last jab to insult them by sending what many to consider a low class woman picked at random from his poverty riddled people."

"Couldn't they not refuse?"

"Not without causing unnecessary tension. Lord Kibutsuji insulted them by sending a commoner but it would've been seen as an even bigger insult to send back the woman and look ungrateful. It would just be easier to have her remain a concubine and then not have anything to do with her. Lord Tsugikuni was quite angry."

"But it seems that Yoriichi really seems to love her."

"Yes. It would seem so. Everything works itself out in the end." Her eyes again glanced at the bowl. "Are you going to feed the royal hunting dogs with that?"

"Huh?" You looked back to the food. "Oh. Miss Uta dismissed me to go eat dinner, but this is all the servants are served."

"Is that right?" Her grimace came back seeing probably a long after expired turnip bubbled up to the surface. "..Discard that immediately and come run my bath."

You sighed. "Yes, Ma'am." Not like you were planning on eating it anyways.

"When you're finished, go get dinner for myself and Lady Uta and bring it to my room."

Lady Uta? You blinked. "But she's dining with Prince Yoriichi in the garden tonight."

"The cook doesn't need to know that. You'll be needing to eat well if you're going to perform." You only stared at her stunned. "Oh. I was told you suffered an accident not too long ago. How are you fairing?"

She knows about you getting pushed off the balcony? Well other than the scars on your back and the mysterious disappearance of the sisters that still sent shivers down your spine, you were doing rather well. 

"I'm much better. Thank you for asking. Shinobu already told me that I'm fully healed."

She smiled. Her smile was tiny but it was sweet and suited her slim features. "That's good. I wouldn't want my lady in waiting to get hurt again. Now run along and do as I say please."

You smiled brightly at her. "Yes, Ma'am. Thank you. You're a very beautiful person inside and out."

Her eyes blinked, widening slightly before her head turned and a large sleeve covered her face. "*ahem* Yes..Th-Thank you. Please take care of what I asked."

"Will do!"

You felt better after having the talk with Lady Haruhime and later eating some cooked beef and rice from the kitchen to help settle your nerves. That still didn't get away you'd nerves though. Because now you only had three days to figure out what you were going to do instead of four. The guts churned every time you thought about it. 

The only things you knew was that they wanted you to sing for them and Lady Haruhime wanted a love song. That alone wasn't too hard. You knew some love songs from your days performing so choosing one wasn't too hard, one of your favorites actually. You just hoped that you weren't too rusty. 

Life didn't change too much after your talk with Lady Haruhime. You still slept in the maids' courters and learnt to get up earlier than a lot of people and slap yourself together to look somewhat presentable so you had enough time to get TWO royal ladies ready for the day. Really you only had to follow them around, serve them, clean their rooms, and do things they asked. It wasn't easy by any means especially with two women but it was arguably better than being a maid.

Most of the time you just stood off to the side as they interacted with the world around them or discussed wedding preparations with the princes within a month's time. Guess Lord Tsugikuni wasn't waiting any longer for getting his sons married off and becoming a grandfather. You weren't bothered by that. At least with them focused on other women, you'd be free of half hour problems. Three days turned into two and an influx of guests arrived to stay at the estate. Ministers and their wives and children, Court ladies, nobles' official consorts, high ranking army generals, and a few people whom were technically commoners but their families were wealthy or owned large businesses enough to be higher regarded.

You were barely able to register them all from the sudden crowd of strangers roaming around the halls and arriving in carriages or on horses two days or the day before the engagement ceremony. Honestly you almost lost Uta and Haruhime in the crowds a few times. The dizziness and gut churning nerves were enough to make you pale but you sucked it up and did nothing but follow them around silently and help them out. Luckily no one seemed to notice the servant girl standing behind them as they just greeted the guests, thanking them for coming, or clinging to the princes' sides of things became overwhelming. 

Breath. Just breath. It was only one night and one song that wouldn't be even ten minutes long. You would be perfectly fine. 

Then the day finally arrived. The night of engagement banquet. From what you could recall, it'd be just a giant banquet to celebrate the joint engagements of the princes and the future princesses. There was going to be a lot of food, (gossip-) talking, some performances, and some gifts given to the couples or Tsugikuni Clan in general as is customary for these things. Sounded easy enough. 

Most of the servants were already decorating the large dining hall or preparing food for the big night. As for you- You were currently standing off awkwardly to the side watching as Uta and Haruhime were being practically swarmed by women like bees to two beautiful flowers. Tailors had been called in to personally make custom beautiful dresses for each woman, with professional makeup artists and hairstylist. You heard that they came all the way from the Entertainment District and we're responsible for the most beautiful Oirans' looks but you weren't sure how true that was. Wouldn't surprise you if that was the case however. 

Both ladies looked absolutely stunning in the flowing silks with detailed floral patterns, and their hair held up in kogai(hair sticks) and intricate floral kanzashies to match along with their sakura flower and spider lily themed dresses. You thought they both looked rather beautiful. The hired help was doing a very good job with making them stand out amongst all the other female guests attending tonight.

"I'm not sure about this," Uta mumbled looking very nervously at herself in the mirror and placing a hand to her cheek, "Is all this really nessacary?"

"My lady! Refrain from touching your face! You'll ruin your makeup!"

"Ah!" Immediately her hand retracted from her face smudging some of the blush used already. "I'm so sorry! I forgot!"

Who must've been the head stylist was already shooing her hands at the women fussing over them. "Wash it off and fix it immediately! I'll be a laughing stock if she goes out looking like a cheap geisha after a tavern fight!"

Uta looked hurt by the comment looking down in shame as someone pressed a cloth to her cheek cleaning up the makeup she smudged. 

"You shouldn't talk to her like that," you spoke up looking at the head woman with annoyance. "She's going to be your princess soon." 

"Then perhaps she should've learnt to-"

"Finish that sentence and I have no fear in punching you in the face!" An uncomfortable silence fell upon the room as practically everyone turned to stare at your face scowling hard at the woman. Uta especially went wide eyed at you in awe. "If you're afraid of your precious reputation getting tarnished by her just looking a little smudged then I wonder what would happen if anyone told Prince Yoriichi you disrespected his fiance! So keep your mouth shut and make them look beautiful. THAT is why you were hired! No one gives a shit about your opinions here! So shove them down your throat before I do it myself!"

They looked at you stunned other than It's whom was staring at you in awe and Haruhime whom looked both very surprised and amused by what was going on. After a moment of staring the elderly woman just scowled harder at you before turning back around and clapping her hands jolting the ten something women into scrambling to finish up their looks. You weren't going to tolerate them bringing down Uta like that. She was one of the only people here that's been so nice to you and you weren't going to tolerate her getting defamed like that. She looked thankful for the help before Haruhime turned to look at you.

"Have you decided to not sing after all?," she questioned.

"Huh?" You blinked. "No. I'm st-still going to perform." No matter how much it made you nervous.

Her dark eyes looked you up and down clearly judging the bland white yakata all female servants were forced to wear in the palace. ".. You're going to perform for our guests dressed like that?"

You blinked looking down at yourself.  "But ..these are the only clothes I have." 

She regarded you for a moment before pointing a hand at her. "Make her look presentable."

"My lady?"

"If she were to look like that while entertaining my guests, I'll be seen as money guzzling for providing cheap entertainment. Not to mention it'll look terrible on the name I'm already trying to establish." She waved her hand off at them. "Make her look decent at least. This is my engagement party, not just any celebration."

....The older woman sighed before gritting her teeth and bowing at the actual noble woman. "As you wish, My Lady."

You didn't have any time to give a counter argument for them before you were suddenly grabbed by two girls whom dragged you away to a changing divider immediately. You blinked. One moment you looked nothing but a typical poor maid, the next you were literally squeezed into a flowing silk dress and having your hair yanked through to be styled and brushed. Yelps and curses escaped your throat from the rough treatment your scalp was receiving as two girls yanked through the hair before just putting it up in a too tight bun and shoving a comb in your black locks. 

By the time you were shoved in front of the mirror, your head throbbed from the pain and your face was lightly pink from how harshly they cleaned it before slapping on makeup. If you knew you were going to be going through heck then you would've just done it yourself. 

"Whoa! You look so pretty, Y/n!," Uta gaped as she stared at you.

You stared back at the reflection in the mirror. You.. didn't look so bad. The dress you wore was pretty, sky blue at the top before fading to pretty pink with pink and orang flowers scattered about it. Your hair in a too tight but neat bun and a decorative white flower comb was shoved in it. You looked nice, not as nice as Uta or Haruhime but you weren't expecting to out stage the women at their own engagement party. Compared to them even your makeup was light. 

"There. Now that's more like it." Haruhime stated looking satisfied with how you looked now slowly standing up. "I think it's time we go make an appearance. It'd be very rude to keep our guests waiting."

You only bowed obediently and made sure to follow the two ladies as they exited. Lady Haruhime was gracefully walking while Uta looked like she was trying not to fall over the long silks dragging around her. Poor Uta. It was rather clear to see who wasn't the noble woman amongst the two of them. Your outfit was rather plain compared to theirs or any of the other female guests you passed so you wouldn't know about that but you were glad at least you wouldn't be standing out...

At least not until you sang like you promised.

You followed the two down the halls and towards the crowded areas of the estate. The sudden shift of amount of people made your guts churn but you sucked it up and bit down your anxiety for now. 

"Lady Haruhime!," an older woman faked a smile to the lady. She must've been the wife or mother to one of the nobles here. "You look as radiant as ever. The Minister must be very proud to have such a beautiful woman as his daughter." She faked pleasantries but even you could tell it was just flattery to get on her good side.

However she only smiled from behind her sensu fan. "Thank you. I do hope you enjoy the festivities. Please excuse me. I must find my fiance."

Actually (and you can't believe you were thinking this-) finding Yoriichi wasn't such a bad idea. Uta was floundering around taking awkward steps to not trip over, and looking scared like a lost fawn in a field of wolves. It'd be best to find Yoriichi and push her into his arms so the crazy bear can beat off the wolves for her. So tho it may have looked improper, you shooed the wobbly Uta after Haruhime. If Michikatsu was nearby then Yoriichi wouldn't be far behind, and if he wasn't then at least one scary prince would be enough.

Honestly you were starting to feel very bad for Uta whom probably didn't know anything about royal educate or how to navigate these things. Neither did you to be honest but at least you knew how to somewhat act from your time being a soldier and maid here. Poor woman kept her head down and followed her soon to be sister-in-law like a lost duckling reaching out to grab her dress. Maybe to not loose her in the crowd and gaining quite a few looks from people, and holding up her dragging silks with the other. Haruhime paid no attention to her actions and just kept walking towards the center of the crowd with you following up the rear. You wanted to partially face palm at her and partially help hide her but there was limited things you could do but just follow her and catch her if she tripped.

The three of you pushed through the crowd feeling stares and hearing compliments or congratulations towards the two ladies making even you uncomfortable and you weren't the one being stared at. You felt very sorry for Uta, but you can't say you were relieved that for once you were off the radar. Guess the commoner princess was a bigger deal than the traitor woman who dressed up as a man in the army now. The crowd seemed to go on forever until the three of you reached the middle of the room. 

Ah. There they were.

The two princes looked to be in the middle of a conversation with the Minister of Foreign Affairs until Yoriichi happened to look boredly and in an instant his face lit up happy seeing the wobbly awkward woman there.

"UTA!!" He happily turned around without a second thought. Arms out and in just a few seconds his towering form was holding his woman by her upper arms. "There you are! I was waiting for you all night! Look at you." His plum eyes ran over her beaming with a smile. "You look absolutely gorgeous!" ..His eyes blinked upon noticing the equally dressed up woman next to them. "Oh. You both do."

"I thank you, Your Majesty." Haruhime bowed her head lightly to him.  "You look rather dashing yourself tonight. I don't think I've seen you this handsome since the celebration of peace at last between our nations. I do hope you're fairing better these days."

Yoriichi nodded. "Yes. I am. Thank you, Lady Haruhime. I assume you're looking for, Brother."

"That's right. Oh. Here he comes now."

Michikatsu had said something to the Minister before turning and coming  over to your group. "Haruhime." He greeted calmly with a head bow to her. "You look lovely."

"Thank you, Husband. The servants did an excellent job so the credit should go to them."

He hummed, probably still not too trusting of the staff after what they pulled. "I see... Well then they may have beef and bread for their dinner tonight as reward."

Beef and bread to go along with the vegetable slop. How generous of them. You couldn't help but roll your eyes looking away and sighing. That was a mistake however because it had caught Michikatsu's gaze. And then he stopped. And stared. His eyes going wide looking you up and down in seemingly awe.. before he quickly switched back to his neutral face, turning back to his fiance. 

"I hope your lady in waiting has been good to you."

"Y/n has been amazing help." She smiled at him. "She's very hard working and responsible."

He hummed again, glancing to you, before looking back to her and extending an arm. "Come. The feast is about to begin. You should eat something."

Oh thank goodness. You thought they'd never use that as a distraction. You ignored the way Yoriichi practically let his jaw drop seeing you for a brief moment and the side glances Michikatsu gave you throughout the next three hours. You kept your mouth shut, and just stood off to the side unless one of the ladies needed you refill their cups or grab them something. Maybe, just maybe they'd be so busy talking to guests and themselves that they'd completely forget about you singing. After all the evening has been filled with so many other beautiful performances. The royal musicians had been playing so many beautiful tunes this whole time, and someone had brought in professional Kabuki actors to put on one of Prince Yoriichi's favorite shows. Geisha women danced and got lots of laughter and smiles from the audience.

You were quite enjoying yourself as well. The shows were pleasant to watch and a relaxing feeling washed over you from where you stood. Until you felt a tug on your sleeve to get your attention. You looked down. You made eye contact with Haruhime. And she smiled at you.

"Y/n, I would like you to sing for us next." You froze. "I've been looking forward to hearing your lovely voice all night. Do go sing for us."

"...O-Of course."

The crowd is a river of people, everyone moving in the same direction. There are only joyful faces as she heads toward the stage, full of adrenaline pumping her heart with nerves as she shook and trembled from the head down. Each person in the crowd moved as if unseeing hands drag them this way and that, pulling their eyes to one thing and then another. They respond in predictable ways, each of them with their own thoughts on the evening.  But underneath her body trembled and shook the moment her foot stepped into the center of the room. A ghost hand grabbing her throat and squeezing her words back cruelly and coldly. Stares of many on her trembling face and threatening to not let a peep get out of her.

Over with. Just get this over with. Be still her pumping heart. Gulp down air no matter how dry her throat was and ignore the stares given here.

"I've seen the world.~ Done it all.~ Had my share now.~ Diamonds, brilliance, and pure love now.~" The voice softly spoke. Drifting up on the air and echoing off the polished walls like a echoing heaven. "Hot summer nights, mid-July when you and I were forever wild.~ The crazy days, star lit nights.~ The way you'd play with me like a child.~"

Singing had a way of releasing the emotions that were held within, of showing them both door and key. Of keeping an instrument no one else could match or sing but yourself where no one else could play it. The silence of the world around her twisted with nothing but her own tune carrying out into the room and with it came the spectacle eyes of the audience she was trying so hard to not become afraid of. To just sing and let the sound paint a color of their own accord for others to see with hearing. 

"Will you still love me when I'm no longer young and beautiful?~ Will you still love me when I got nothing but my aching soul?~ I know you will, I know you will, I know that you will.~ Will you still love me when I'm no longer beautiful?~" A delicate neck bobbed in a gulp noticing the intense stares of the two men sat in the middle of the table staring at her without blinking unmoving statues. "I've seen the world.~ Built it up as my stage now.~ Channeling a love in the new age now.~ Hot summer days.~ You and me.~ The way I'd play for you at my show.~"

She felt like collapsing  on the stage, her legs shaking beneath her elegantly flowing dress. The makeup hid her pale beneath a blanket of make up. She heard the deep inhales taken at the sight of her. The intensity of the weight of those stares was mostly coming from the center as the colors of pomegranate and black pierced through the veil and seemed to seize her mind, body, and soul in the moment.

"And all the ways I got to know your pretty face and pure hearted soul.~Will you still love me when I'm no longer young and beautiful?~ Will you still love me when I got nothing but my aching soul?~" Red eyes made contact once more between two other pairs. Feminine black pairs. One of awe and one of adoration as the wives beside the princes seemed to pierce her like thorns on a rose."I know you will, I know you will, I know that you will.~ Will you still love me when I'm no longer beautiful?~"

Fear seized her as she took gentle steps on stage. Red eyes closed and then she sang and her fears melted. The words rolled off her lips as though she had known them her whole life. The crowd sat mystified by her angelic voice as she sang the words they knew only so well.

Her initial fears driven away, the evening faded into a swirl of color and song. 

"Oh gods, when I get to Heaven, please let me bring my man.~ When he comes, tell me that you'll let him in.~ Oh gods, tell me if you can.~ All that grace.~ All that body.~ All that face makes me want to love him.~ He's my sun.~ He makes me shine like diamonds.~"

The rising highschool were lowered with each new emotion added to the song as the moment faded in and out of minds and the almost whoozy looks yearning for the last bit of taste the song would give them. 

"Will you still love me when I'm no longer young and beautiful?~ Will you still love me when I got nothing but my aching soul?~ Iknow you will, I know you will, I know that you will.~Will you still love me when I'm no longer beautiful?~Will you still love me when I'm no longer beautiful?~Will you still love me when I'm not young and beautiful?~"

The tempos and echoes dispersed. The silence replacing the sorrowful noise from before and turning the room into an unavoidable entropy of quietness. No one moving or looking away until one noise did come from.

A clap.

A slow small sound going off again and again as a small sound from a person. Until he was joined by another and another until the room was filled with the sounds of an uproar of smiles allowing you to force a shaking smile, bow, and then quickly exit the center of attention to go back to your spot in the corner. Please don't bother you. Please don't bother you. Please don't let anyone ask for a second song. It's bad enough that a couple of them seemed to stare at you like cats at mice. 

Unfortunately you wouldn't be left alone for now (or ever-)-

"You sing so pretty!" You were really hoping Uta wouldn't gush at you catching the attention of multiple other people.

Instead you smiled awkwardly at her. "Ahehe. Tha-Thank you. I'm glad your highnesses like my singing enough to compliment me."

"Could you sing at our wedding too?!", she blurted out without thinking making you freeze again. "It'd be just like a fairytale!"

"Oh. I- Uh-.." You looked between her large smiling face, Haruhime, and the two twins staring at you. Trying to think of an excuse to refuse. "I'm sure there's plenty other singers that are way more elegant than I am-"

"She will perform." Michikatsu turned back to his food as you gaped at him. "I will give you that as a wedding gift."

Immediately you glared at the back of his head. That stupid son of a- !! He was making you sing for their wedding so he wouldn't have to bother with getting his brother and Uta a wedding gift. Yoriichi perked up. 

"Thank you, Brother. That's very thoughtful of you. I'll have her play an instrument.as well as my gift to you."

You gaped at him as well. Oh those two sons of a b-

"Y/n?" You flinched looking back to Uta holding a cup. "I don't like this wine. Can you get me some milk or water instead?"

You sharply inhaled putting on a strained smile. "Of course, Lady Uta. I'll be right back." You gritted your teeth before turning and stomping off to a different part of the table. 

Those asses! Mule faced jerks!! Curse them and their father too!! You seethed walking your way down the tables passing guests, guards watching for suspicious behavior, and other servants serving the guests. You just ignored them all until you saw what you were looking for. A pitcher of water. As much as you'd like to dump water on one twin and hit the other one over the head with the pitcher, you'd just satisfy your wrath by imagining it in your head. With the pitcher in your hands, you turned around, only to freeze seeing the front of a silk haori cost. You blinked staring at the pretty zig zag pattern of colors on it before looking up and realizing that it was a person.

A man with a mustache looked down at you.  He smiled. A smirking smile with horrible intent that you hated immediately. 

"You are the singer that sang just now yes?," he asked with a head tilt. "I must say that it was a very good performance."

"..Thank you." You made to side step but stopped when he moved to block your path. 

"Are you related to the Tsugnakunis by chance?," he questioned without a second thought to your glare. "I haven't seen you before. So are you a neice or their cousin?"

"Neither. I'm lady in waiting to the princesses." Or soon to be princesses as they aren't married yet. "Now please stand ahead. I must tend to Princess Uta right away."

"What's the hurry? That girl can spare a servant for a little while." He reached out towards your face making you lean back from him. "You're so beautiful..I can't help but what to feel your soft skin-"

"Y/n."

You both jumped and looked behind the man. Your red eyes widened. "Lady Haruhime!"

The woman stood there with an expression on her face that you couldn't decipher. "You were taking too long. Must you make a fool of me to come get you in front of our guests."

Taking too long? You hadn't even been gone ten minutes. Whatever. You'd use the excuse to get away from this creep. "I'm very sorry for keeping you waiting, My Lady." You quickly side stepped him to go up to her. "I was caught up in conversation."

"Do not let it happen again. Now go. Lady Uta is in need of your service."

"Yes, Ma'am."

Thank the gods! You quickly slipped past her mouthing a thank you to her earning a smile similar to Shinobu's. Easily slipping back into the crowd and out of sight. Leaving the two nobles standing there..The man stumbled back in horror as her head snapped inhumanly at him and doll like eyes stared at him with evil wrath.

"D o    n o t    t o u c h   w h a t    i s n t    y o u r s."

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[suffarustuffaru]

Hey, how are you doing? Firstly, i'll understand if you choose not to answer this ask since the subject is controversial and kinda heavy

We currently have at least two pedos in the story, like, actual pedos (the guy obsessed with Liliana and the creepy butler that i forgot the name) and then tappei's writing in some things is just... weird?

I get that subaru and beatrice are supposed to have a sibling relationship, but it just weirds me out

And he keeps adding loli characters with questionable designs too

What is your opinion on this? Its something i manage to ignore, but it still weird me out a little

hi anon!! :o thanks for asking how im doing pfft im doing pretty well - though i am a college student and its This Time of Year (end of semester) so im hanging in here lmao 👍

also ok as for the topic at hand!! yeah no i 100% hate it. ive been thinking about rezeros flaws lately because the further you get into watching/reading rezero the Clearer it gets. its mostly fine at say, arc 1, but by the time you get to arc 5 or arc 8 its like. What the hell. This again?? so yeah its 100% understandable to be weirded out and uncomfortable by it because tappeis writing is frankly Gross sometimes.

(okay also yes this ask has minor or major arc 5+ spoilers yes and also. You know. detailed discussion regarding rezero sexualizing children.)

yeah so tappei writes problematic things into rezero regarding both women and children especially, and while theres exceptions its like. very Prevalent in rezero. i talked about it a bit in my last ask if youd like to check that out!! but yeah like. i hate how children are treated in rezero. its very Problematic a lot of the time.

tappeis writing follows very similar patterns regarding treatment of children and women that you see in a Lot of other anime/manga/japanese media - and media in general, really, but im sure most anime watchers / manga readers will know what im talking about because its unfortunately That common. we're all seen this. like fan service shots, lolis and shotas, etc etc. but rezero is a little more insidious i think, just because tappei is capable of writing good characters regardless of age or gender. and theres Less of stuff like fan service - or at least rezero is a little less obvious about it or its just seen less in rezero, but thats also because media in general is so in your face about it and Unfortunately Common so rezero looks like a tiny bit of paradise in the middle of a barren desert.

i mean look at the amount of people who've thought rezero was a harem anime until they watched rezero - rezero seems like an outlier but thats only because its just a tiny bit less gratuitous and it still has a lot of good writing. and also because i am pretty sure the bar for media like this - especially media in rezeros genre (isekai) is Extremely Low. like depressingly low. and despite rezero being a deconstruction of isekai, rezero also contradicts its own damn messages sometimes about treating others like the People they are, respecting others Personhood, treating women well, etc. and its easy to see that the moment you look at some of otsuka's artwork and designs for rezero or if you look at all the rezero merch mainly based around the girls and Sexualizing the girls and its like. my god this is a little depressing to look at. rezero is just a tiny step in the right direction away from say, misogynist shounen/seinen media thats also weird about kids or something, but then rezero trips and falls on its own face after taking several right moves.

the problem is that these problematic aspects are still there, theyre still clear to see if youre paying attention, and often character arcs start well but then fall flat despite the good foundation. and then the problematic aspects hammer the already Poor/Inconsistent Writing into the ground which it makes it Even Worse.

like louis is a great character. shes fascinating, really. and then you hit arc 7 and she regresses immediately into the mind of a toddler so we only get to see her amnesiabaru/Suffering From Rbd arc in arc 6, her confrontation with subaru, and then BAM its arc 7 time and now she is an entirely different person????? i remember raging the further i got into arc 7/8 and realizing she hasnt gotten any development, she just changed instantly. it just feels lazy to me!! unless tappei proves me wrong and writes her developing but right now louis has spent two goddamn arcs being subaru and rems loli prop/daughter prop/a plot device to use in battle, basically. okay sorry i got passionate there but i SWEAR it gets on my nerves a bit. the louis/spica conflict now would feel so much more thrilling if she didnt have her weird half assed arc 7 development.

like if i was really in the fantasy world, of course i wouldnt vote to kill spica, shes innocent now. she doesnt know shit about her crimes, shes a whole other person now. she didnt do those things. she is an innocent child. i did a poll on this a while back actually haah and yeah a lot of rz tumblr, including myself, voted to let her live for this reason!! but also like. narratively speaking. i do not care about spica at all. shes a blank slate, shes just there to move the plot, she is taking up space in the plot right now and she does not need to be here forever. i 1000% want her dead hah. yeah shes this cute little kid now, but again, she got zero development. why should i care about her?? all the interesting things about her in arc 6, all the potential that couldve happened out of her gradually going from her arc 6 self to someone who genuinely cares about rem and subaru is gone. If we actually saw this change, personally id care more about spica and be invested in her character but as it stands im really Not. and i think if we saw her actually Develop a lot of us readers would be more invested to see this conflict out - not only because our Favs are fighting over it, but also because we’d actually care about spica. Like. im not sure how many people actually care about louis past arc 6, but yeah thats just my personal thoughts on it.

And also the Other big flaw with louis’s character is tappei once again being creepy regarding kids and. Okay im gonna show an excerpt from the arc 6 WN (iirc ch60 to be exact?) and yeah fair warning because it is once again sexualizing a child (louis). But also im putting it here in case anyone wants to see some vivid proof of rezero being weird about kids. Im not sure if this was cut from the LN version or not but the fact that it exists At All makes me want to put tappei on a watchlist.

And okay i know you might be thinking about how louis represents the sin of gluttony anyway and gluttony includes sexual or romantic desire too and how having louis, who looks like a child, say this makes it even more Offputting - like. Yeah. but is it Necessary? because making louis, WHO LOOKS LIKE A CHILD, say all this and then use descriptors like “expressed a bewitching smile unsuited to her age” - is this Actually necessary? You have to be careful writing this sort of thing, because a child/character who looks like a child saying things like this due to being, you know, Mentally Unwell, is different from Emphasizing What Theyre Saying By Sexualizing Them via the narration and descriptions. And why is the sexologist line there?? its just frankly uncomfortable, to an unnecessary extent, i think. I just dont think we need all this emphasis on louis’s body, louis’s apparent “arousal”, or how her smile is “unsuited to her age” (this is the narrative once again sexualizing a child), and plot-related sex/sexual content in rezero is kept to a minimum anyway so you could also literally just have louis be weird about “loving subaru” without the sexual aspect. Because she literally just said that she was aroused by him. she looks like shes twelve at most and then in the arc immediately after this one she regresses back to having the mentality of a toddler!!! and then shes subaru’s daughter there.

And again, i know that the whole point of this scene is to be off-putting and disturbing and wrong in all sorts of ways (and also subaru tries to kill louis a page later so like.) but i think if youre going to keep the appetite=sexual desire detail (which IS a good point about gluttonys nature, on its own), then this scene absolutely needed to be handled better than what we got when the character saying this is a child. you can write a child sexualizing herself because shes frankly Unwell or Doesnt Know Better, because this is fiction and you can write sensitive topics like this with proper care, but if you, the author, are sexualizing this child, then that is a Whole Other Thing.

or you can entirely dodge this whole debate over whether or not this is actually okay to write by making louis look older. but tappei went with this route once again in a sea of rezeros various child characters despite the fact that tappei then decides to link sexual desire to the sin of gluttony, which is a sin occupied in rezero by three children. I know ley has a very traumatic backstory, and the specific details are escaping me but iirc he was likely a slave or something along those lines, with implications that hes been abused by adults, so you could delicately handle what kind of abuse he Couldve unfortunately had to go through, and also of course roy and louis are clearly not okay in the head either, but. Once again. Children in rezero Not Being Sexualized in some way is a rarity. Unfortunately.

you see this pop up again and again and again. petra? Yeah iirc theres a side story where shes weird about subarus underwear. Correct me if im wrong on that but also i would not be surprised if that was a real side story. Unfortunately. Also theres Uncomfortable lines regarding petras chest.

according to rezero wiki, schult is… well iirc al makes creepy comments about schult being a shota (and of course this isnt really called out in canon), and theres also these two details about schult:

also regarding sin archbishops who look very young, capella represents lust and yet she also looks like a child. i know the point of her design is to make her a bit grotesque, but you can get that point across without making her look fifteen years old at most. this is the sin of lust too. and shes already called “Mama” in canon—she doesnt need to look that young!!**

also side note about pandora. she also looks like a child, which—its okay with her, except for the frankly lazy outfit design imo?? why is she wearing a bedsheet??**

** another edit: its easy to see capella and pandora as women also, but again, tappei and otsuka In General keep mixing up short/young women and Children and it should be easy to tell if pandora and capella are children or young women or not. but i dont feel that its clear enough given tappei and otsuka’s Track Record.

and typhons design with the see through skirt is so creepy and disturbing that im Really glad the anime fixes it most of the time. heres the fixed version:

but also the anime Really doesnt fix it as much as it probably should, because her dress is Still see-through in some shots. you can even see a bit in this shot—we dont need to see her lower body area like That!! this skirt doesnt need to be see-through!! and the bar was already in hell anyway because otsuka makes typhon’s skirt Really see-through.

theres also this photo of typhons design and its Way better without that see-through skirt.

granted, there is some good child character designs—felt’s arc 1 design frankly sucks though purely because of the way her outfit is handled. like its Really bad. it takes only like one look to see that. but her arc 5 design is a Huge Improvement:

characters like meili, schult, child subaru, etc have good designs too, but you know, this doesnt change the Creepiness regarding children, because this also applies to subaru and Some Lines about him in arc 8 iirc. if i find them again ill talk about it another time (or if someone else finds it feel free to add on to this post?) but yeah just. urgh.

regarding felt again, theres a scene in a felt camp side story where she wakes up naked in bed, post arc 1, after reinhard kidnaps her to his mansion. and yeah, the whole point of the scene is to show reinhard is kind of dense and bad at reading social cues because hes still trying to talk to her very civilly while shes covering herself with the bedsheets and she Literally just got kidnapped by him, but, say it with me, she doesnt need to be naked. she couldve woken up in bed in her usual clothes and the point still wouldve come across!! WHY is she naked??? shes fourteen.

and also like capella, liliana looks like a child. and of course theres kiritaka, as anon said, whos obsessed with liliana, and then theres clind, the creepy butler. and of course tappei has “deniability” because lilianas not Really a child (she STILL looks like one), and clinds not Really a pedophile, he just likes youthful souls!! (this is literally disgusting.) and clind may have interesting lore or whatever about how hes kind of involved with the sin archbishop of melancholy but i just dont give a shit about him when hes a pedophile that tappei keeps excusing.

also mimi? mimi is a Special Case.

the thing with mimi and her brothers is that its implied in the kararagi girl and cats eye side stories that kittypersons (??) are fully grown by age 1. theyre rescued from dying on the streets but they insist theyre “fully grown” (at age 2-3). they havent changed physically at all. and they dont change physically at all later, because now in the Present Day they all look Exactly the same as they did when they were 1, 2, 3 years old. did they grow mentally???? theyre like 14-15 in the main route. and then you look at aganau route from the lost in memories mobile game which takes place around twenty (??) years after arc 3, and mimi is a grown woman and she looks exactly the same as she did when she was 14 or 2 years old. and then this makes her romance with garfiel a little weird because hes a normal fourteen year old??? but mimis been fully grown all this time??? what??

this is mimi. yeah, she and her brothers look EXACTLY this age their WHOLE LIVES.

and meili? yeah shes definitely one of the better child characters, though she does have an Extremely Traumatic backstory and has had a habit of copying elsa. this on its own is fine and understandable. elsa was her only support and shes a child, of course shes gonna copy elsa. though iirc she also copies elsa’s “flirtatious” aspects, which is honestly also understandable given elsa is a Questionable Influence, but this detail about meili’s character gets worse when you think about it in the context of all the other child characters—

why is it that all the children tappei (and otsuka) keep sexualizing are in the same age range? theyre about 9 or 10 to 14. louis stops being sexualized when she reverts to being a toddler and becomes subarus daughter. felt stops being sexualized when she turns 15 in arc 5. emilia is the main love interest to subaru and shes apparently “mentally 14”?? and shes tappeis favorite character too? but also mimis case is so weird because shes been “fully grown” since the tender age of ONE YEARS OLD?? well also i sure hope im wrong on this point but given the amount of child characters that fall in this age range and also how Often theyre all sexualized and also the majority of them are Young Girls—yeah its. its not a great look.

(and again a side note about meili again—tappei uses similar descriptors that he used for louis: that its “inappropriate for her age” and that she’ll “attract many men in the future”. tappei stfu. please.)

subaru’s lolimancer title is kind of funny. maybe. until you remember rezero being creepy about kids. and also like—i dont like the idea of tying a word like “loli” to the literal main character of the story anyway skdnd. theres just Connotations to it.**

**EDIT: i was told that “loli” is apparently a fan translation thing, while in japanese its “little girl user”, but in an inoffensive way (like Jojo’s “stand user”). make of that what you will!! (not great that the fan translation makes rezeros already poor treatment of kids Even Worse.)

and also—was subaru, al, medium, etc turning into children really necessary?

like in subarus case, its so he can have more ego, more confidence, more recklessness while being nerfed a bit and being mistaken as the emperor’s son—but at the same time, this just feels like a watered down version of the amnesiabaru arc to me where he has more ego, more confidence, more recklessness, and hes nerfed, but then he learns to love himself more. it just feels too similar to the amnesiabaru arc imo. him turning into a child feels very unnecessary imo and it doesnt look great when you remember tappei and otsuka’s fixation on children. literally arc 8 would be exactly or almost exactly the same if subaru was back to his usual 18/19-year old self. but he has to keep being a kid right now because Plot, apparently. then again if anyone disagrees with me on this feel free to explain your stance!! but yeah as of rn i just want subaru to be back to his usual age.

also tappeis weird about young priscilla/prisca and lamia but i havent read the ex novels about them yet so i cannot go in depth 👍 but just know you get nice lovely lines (sarcasm) like “flirty way she caresses her own thighs”. great!!! thanks tappei for fanservicing underage teenage girls once again!!

and again, treatment of child characters / characters who look younger than they are in rezero—this is so so creepy also as someone who does in fact look younger than my age. and im also Very Short (4’11) too. so like. thanks tappei and otsuka!! i feel very comfortable right now 👍

and women are often infantilized in rezero which you can. Easily connect to the pedophilia, yeah. theres also age gap romances in general, and i mentioned emilia already (yeah. emisuba is an age gap romance.), but theres also ram and roswaal, frederica and clind, anastasia iirc gets described Weirdly sometimes because shes a short flat-chested woman, and recently theres been madeline and balleroy having a small moment (that feels. Romance coded. iirc.) in an arc 8 chapter.

they look like this by the way:

thanks tappei and otsuka once again for the creepy writing and designs that actively work against all the good parts of the damn story 👍

on a lighter note, i think beatrice in general + beatrice and subarus relationship is one of the better parts of rezero—iirc theres nothing creepy about it, and beatrice and subaru are very easy to read as a sister and brother relationship. theyve helped each other out in many ways, and theyve grown Very close by the time we see them in arc 5!! you could. Technically see their relationship as a father-daughter one too, but i dislike that take—not for bad reasons, but just because i feel like it doesnt fit them.

the thing with beatrice though is that shes simultaneously A Child but shes also like. 400 years old. so i do wish the narrative balanced that more post-arc 4–not in a creepy way of course. god no. but in the sense that shes mature in a lot of ways!! shes familiar with death and suffering!! shes intimately known Isolation!! that sort of thing. shes the one whos closest to subaru because of how he helped her in arc 4 (“choose me”), and also because she knows about his self-harm and heals his injuries. shes someone who can deeply understand subaru in a lot of ways in this sense, at least. the way they support each other feels more like a sibling bond to me and not a Parent-Child one just because youre not Really supposed to be leaning this much on your child for support. theres a power dynamic to a Parent-Child relationship, and beatrice and subaru are Equals.

plus echidna gaslight gatekeep girlbossed both of them, so theyre also siblings in that sense hah…

but yeah correct me if im wrong on that though regarding beatrice and subaru and im missing something?? but yeah as far as i remember and as far as i can tell, i think theyre actually one of the least creepy parts of rezero hah :,)

and then because this sort of thing is Unfortunately so common in media like rezero, we’re kind of conditioned to try and ignore it so we can keep reading or watching because its Everywhere. i still enjoy some of rezero, but its hard to ignore All Of This. and i think its important not to turn your brain off to it and recognize whats Wrong here, yeah. (unless it makes you so uncomfortable that you have to stop looking at rezero, which is very understandable.)

but yep. thats rezero for you.

[grossdyke]

"I thought that going away from here I have you at least," Ivan said suddenly, with unexpected feeling; "but now I see that there is no place for me even in your heart, my dear hermit. The formula, 'all is lawful,' I won't renounce--will you renounce me for that, yes?"

Alyosha got up, went to him and softly kissed him on the lips.

"Listen, Alyosha," Ivan began in a resolute voice, "if I am really able to care for the sticky little leaves I shall only love them, remembering you. It's enough for me that you are somewhere here, and I shan't lose my desire for life yet. Is that enough for you? Take it as a declaration of love if you like. And now you go to the right and I to the left. And it's enough, do you hear, enough. I mean even if I don't go away to-morrow (I think I certainly shall go) and we meet again, don't say a word more on these subjects. I beg that particularly. And about Dmitri too, I ask you specially, never speak to me again," he added, with sudden irritation; "it's all exhausted, it has all been said over and over again, hasn't it? And I'll make you one promise in return for it. When at thirty, I want to 'dash the cup to the ground,' wherever I may be I'll come to have one more talk with you, even though it were from America, you may be sure of that. I'll come on purpose. It will be very interesting to have a look at you, to see what you'll be by that time. It's rather a solemn promise, you see. And we really may be parting for seven years or ten. Come, go now to your Pater Seraphicus, he is dying. If he dies without you, you will be angry with me for having kept you. Good-bye, kiss me once more; that's right, now go."

This is their conversation in The Grand Inquisitor, which is also a great poem.. I’ll link it for you: https://www.ccel.org/d/dostoevsky/karamozov/htm/book05/chapter05.html

I am torn in deciding which God the wizards pray to (like u said ,especially in pureblood culture,it would make sense for One to exist. or multiple) I was thinking of a sort of Platonic interpretation.. Plato wrote that there was one supreme god, whom he called the "Form of the Good", which he believed was the emanation of perfection in the universe. Or maybe closer to Jesus.. what do u think?

I would have liked to make a comparison between Dmitri and Vega but sadly they’re far too different, for once Dmitri is a male and I feel like Vega’s entire character is based on being a Woman. it feels like doing her a disservice. though they share being passionate, headstrong, reckless, leading a life mostly driven by sin. Dmitri gets a spiritual redemption at the end tho.

What I specifically love about the 3 siblings is that no matter how good they start, each and every one of them ends in the dark, driven by sin ..like every Black before them and after them will. they make me insane

Also the 2 books u mentioned are in my tbr list!! I am also on a journey to read incest literature and its incredibly hard to find non-tacky ones. thank U for creating these characters 🤍

thank you for sending me that excerpt of their conversation and thank you for sending me the poem, its so so so so lovely. im feeling weak in the knees. 🧎i can picture perseus & arcturus in a similar setting so well and it’s making me feel sick to my fucking stomach. like to the point where i want to open up google docs… write a little something.. arcturus kissing perseus softly on the lips either before he runs away (as a goodbye, or an apology), or when he gets back, just once m, to declare his unconditional love for his little brother because he can’t put into words that he loves him unconditionally even if he’s losing him. oh i feel SICK. now you go to the right and i go to the left!!!!!!!!! 😵‍💫

and RIGHT, it’s so hard to like figure out what kind if god wizards have. i do like the idea of there being several (<- to no ones surprise im obviously obsessed with the asoiaf saying ’praying to the old gods and the new’ i think it’s so beautiful…) i used to study religion at uni before i studied film, and ive always liked hinduism because they have so many gods and different religious structures depending on your leniency/beliefs. i was going to write my bachelors essay on shaktism (specifically kali), which is the third biggest hindu denomination, entirely centered around worshiping the goddesses. it would be so interesting if vega had a couple of powerful goddesses she prayed to. guys i can’t believe we’re not only coming up with oc children, but now an entire religion. grrm call us 📞. I do also love the Plato take on god, that there’s one supreme god, ’form of the good’, and it could especially cause a lot of internal conflict if it’s the emanation of perfection in the universe. and this could also allow for several gods, where there’s one supreme god at the core of it. WAAAHHHHH i love talking about this 🧍

im so excited about getting back to you once ive read brothers karamazov… im not entirely against drawing parallells between a male character and vega, but i agree that she shouldnt be based off of a male character because the foundation of her entire character is that shes a woman and a male character could never mirror that kind of experience. like i feel like neither arcturus or perseus truly view vega as a person. she’s sister, girl, heir, untouchable, sin, beauty, perversion. she’ll never be part of the boy’s club, never share their brotherhood.

and YAYYY, literally me too!!! i’ve been having such a hard time trying to find books about incest where it’s not just tacky or used as a horror concept/to shock or disgust the readers. im not necessarily looking for romanticised incest, either. i want it unhealthy and complicated and heartbreaking… if you have any more recs please send them to me !! 🤍

[ryuichirou]

Replies

As many as I can write in 30 minutes let’s go!

Starting with a couple of asks about our post from yesterday.

Anonymous asked:

I'm guessing the bunny is because of Deuce's hometown event and the fox is because of Ace dealing with Fellow.

Yes and no! It’s one of the reasons, but these two also have pretty strong vibes of these animals, especially Ace. He is such a sly little fox pup sometimes lol

Anonymous asked:

That recent Ace/Deuce post had my mind absolutely working overtime with ideas.

But they all just kept coming back to the White Rabbit Fest, even when it didn't really fit a fox Ace kinda thing.

Anyway, besides that, I really love Ace/Deuce ship stuff, so seeing you do art of them is an absolute treat!

Thank you so much, Anon! <3 I am very happy that you like it!

They couldn’t allow Ace-the-fox to enter the rabbit arena lol poor foxy.

I really like this theme for these two. Should draw it again at some point…

Anonymous asked:

Hi! Have any of you considered posting fanfics (novels)? 👀 Love your work as always btw, take care

Hi, Anon! Thank you for your kind words :)

I am not really a writer, so I haven’t considered it. I love coming up with headcanons and I think I am pretty good with dialogues for our comics, but writing a proper story (even a very short one) is just way too difficult for me. I can’t even write these replies fast enough… so I’ll stick to what I do best and keep drawing <3 Out of the two of us, Katsu is the writer, but Katsu’s main focus right now is Nebula. To be completely honest, fanfics in general aren’t our cup of tea… (That being said, Katsu did write a couple of fanfics before, albeit not twst-related)

eh-nonnie-mouse asked:

Do you have a Cara account or is it only bluesky?

Only bluesky for now :(

It seems like Cara is mainly a portfolio app, which is good (especially if it’s AI free), but right now we don’t really see the point in posting there – it’s not for art of yaoi boys kissing, which is the majority of things I draw. Things could change of course, but right now we’re sticking to bsky.

unofficialwheatdog asked:

The the way you draw Fellow Honest

My husband

it makes him so much more handsome like I have to kiss him the second he's on screen

How dare you worsen my obsession/j

(jkjk I love your art and if it's ok with you, I very much want to save the fellow honest image just so I can stare at it for five hours pls and thank you)

I am so happy you like how he looks in my style!! Especially if it worsens your obsession lol

Of course, feel free to save it and look at it; enjoy your fluffy husband lol

blackbutlerfandomnerddomain asked:

FELLOW AND GIDEL ARE HERE!!! They look so good in your style!!

Thank you so much!

Anonymous asked:

Just saw your recent replies and IT MAKES ME SOOO HAPPY!

Let's GOOOOO fellow (heh) Top!Gidel x Bottom!Fellow likers!!!

And reading your replies about their ship! UGH👌👌👌 Ryu such good taste you have! Oh dear.. I love it all!

I am honestly (..heh) looking forward if you have more art of them specially the shippy ones 👀 I'll be on the lookout. Also thank you for the food! 🙏

Hehe I am happy you’re happy Anon!!

Thank you so much for being so excited, I hope we’ll post a lot of stuff with these two in the nearest future…! <3

Anonymous asked:

OOOOH I SAW MOBS BOSSES X FELLOW ADDED TO THE LIST.... I do rly like the idea of fellow & gidel, but mob bosses x fellow is soooo juicy for art and hcs...... thoughts? plans?? plz plz plz this is living in my head RENT FREE... 😍

Thank you so much, Anon!! <3

Well we do have a lot of sketches with Fellow and his bosses (nsfw ones)… and we do have an ask with hcs about them, so if everything goes well, you’ll get more juicy stuff soon. Let’s hope! 💪

[roseapov]

Streamer

Idia Shroud x GN!Reader

Tw: stalking, invading privacy, being delusional, mentions of obsession, collarbones fetish

Povtober 2023, Day 13 [Masterlist]

You two met just by chance, getting paired up against each other, in a game you decided to play, as a game streamer.

You used a typical supporting character, with not much attacking capabilities, meant to be power and hp boost to your teammates, but even then you were making kill after a kill.

Idia couldn't believe it, you managed to kill him, him of all people! with a support character no less.

Someone actually managed to surprise him in a game? Are you serious? That can't be happening. That made him so enraged, focusing all his attention on you, to take his revenge.

After he and his team unexpectedly lose, he starts to look through your account, and sees in your bio your streamer name with a link, such a normie thing to do.

He starts to stalk through your social media, and with a pain in his heart admits, that his defeat was recorded on your actual live, it's nothing he can't take down anyway.

Hm? You're streaming with a camera? Oh, how bold of you, but don't worry, he won't stop hacking your phone camera and microphone even after you beg for it, falling into paranoia.

It's your unlucky day, he took an interest in you, slowly treating you as a character from his beloved games. Your merch on the shelf, his phone littered with your photos and edits, a special spying program made by him personally, to see your activity on your devices.

Soon you're the only one he can think about, you, your voice, your hair, your face and your.. collarbones. Such an exciting sight for this shutted in otaku.

If you're counting for a high donates from your newest follower, Gloomurai, then you hit the jackpot, literally.

Tons of money flowing into your bank account, each one of the descriptions more unnerving than the other, but hey at least you got the money. Yeah, no, you're terrified.

You started to wear blouses for your streams, afraid of more uneasy commenters on your donations, contemplating quitting your side job for good. Your sanity was worth more than some money.

Yet you still felt endangered, so to ease your worries you bought cameras and installed them inside and outside of your home, wrong move.

He, of course easily hacked into it, feeling delighted that you decided to do so, the fact that you liked him enough to make it easier for him to observe you, how thoughtful of you, he's so delusional.

If you like him this much, then he mustn't deny you his presence any longer, he may be afraid of humans, but you're an exception.

When he heard you talk with your friends about quitting, all hell broke loose. The next thing you know, you're in Shroud manor, not allowed to leave.

Yes, the thought of you leaving the media was enough to make him snap and be really daring, doing things he normally would've never done, the effect you have on him is insane. After all he loved your streams very, very much.

Ortho is super supportive of this as a cute sibling he is, after all his older brother finally took an interest in someone real!

You have no idea how relieving it was for him, maybe his brother won't have to be alone? Of course not, you two live together already, should he plan your future with Idia already? Maybe you can date, and later on marry his brother! He's so happy!

Don't you dare disappoint him.

Ugh, after my sickness I lost my enthusiasm and motivation to write even tho I had a lot of ideas😭(it's better since I added Roxana, but still). It's not fair, even more so since I am already way in the back of my Povtober writing challenge.😭😭 Not sure of how this one came out tho, I'm writing this at 3 am💀 I'm not exactly proud of this, I'll probably rewrite it in the distant future (he's so hard to write smh)

~roseapov

[heartberrydog]

I HAVE A QUESTION!

Do you have any soukoku fic recs? 👀👀👀

HI HELLO YES I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS MOMENT!! o( > ᗜ < )o ₊˚⊹♡

I'm gonna put a cut here because this list is fucking LONG.

Smut Fic Recs (in no particular order):

a leash binds both ways (drag me with you, hound, I've nothing to do but follow) by nyxi_pixie → I AM ABSOLUTELY IN LOVEEE WITH THIS FIC!!! GAHHH!!! This is like. Genuinely everything I’ve ever wanted in a fic. I am so so obsessed with it. I haven't gotten around to reading the author's other works just yet but I’ve heard that they're also really good. And I'm sure they fucking are just based on this one, so I'd recommend just checking out this account in general

our bodies, possessed by light by lowlightt → another fic I absolutely ADOREE. AAAASBEJJSJS!!! Once again, basically everything I could've wanted in a fic <33

devil's backbone by Cisza → THIS ONE IS ALSO SO FUCKING GOOD ABSJWJSK I love the subversion of gender roles here because Chuuya's in a dress but he's also the one in charge <3

At a Gunpoint by black00cat → Ughh the way I LOVE THIS FUCKING FIC. Skk gunplay my BELOVED.

Poker Face by rustingroses → Series. On the topic of gunplay, this series has a LOT of it. This writer also gets mentioned like once or twice more somewhere in here I think? A lot of their fics are on my to read list so probably just check them out in general

you raise the gun and I'll fire by ag_sasami → Since we're already here, even more gunplay 🫶 Also, this author does make various other appearances in these recs so you should probably just check out their account all together

Le repos éclairé by salvage → This is not for people with a short attention span shsjsj It's an absolutely gorgeously written fic, but that makes it incredibly slow-paced and hard to get through if your attention isn't solely on it. I had to set time aside to read this one so I could fully appreciate it but it was so worth it 💕

*we are indelibly fated, you and i (let me drown in the absurdity of you) by oforpheus -> Still not finished by the time I’m adding it but this fic is so fucking good. Toe curling. Chapter 1 is particularly a highlight.

*Emulsion by PurpleJellyFrogs -> Less known fact about me. I am… Particularly into cheating tropes. Especially with skk. This FED me fr 🙏🙏

Twin Primes by run_mello → This is just one of my personal favorites from this author, but their writing style is really beautiful in general and, again, I'd recommend checking out the account all together. Another fic I personally love from them is Musical Chairs

A Tainted Desire by bluemango00406 → The series this fic is from has some really nice fics as well, but I do believe most of them to be out of character 😭 This one is the most accurate characterization-wise, I think. Though the series is also generally worth checking out

*like to be trapped in the feeling, i feel it now by hyperfixationsfordays -> DAZAI GETTING SPANKED FIC LET’S FUCKING GO!! Bonus points for the good characterization 💕

*Ten Minutes in Hell by PreppyVampire -> the dialogue in this is SO good 😭🙏

*i am a sinner (who’s probably gonna sin again) by persimmonsandcats -> This is honestly such good and beautiful relationship exploration. MWAH MWAH

don’t let bitterness become you by persimmonsandcats → I'd also recommend setting some time aside for this one, not necessarily because it's hard to read but just because this HITS so much harder when you take the time to savor it properly. This has some of the most beautiful figures of speech I’ve ever seen written for these two, but, you really don’t get to enjoy it unless you’re in the right headspace ansjsjs

State of Seduction by vvampyre → Vampire Dazai AU. I remember this being written in a really nice poetic way, and I also don’t think I’ve ever seen another vampire bottom Dazai fic so 🙏🙏

Skk's Great American Roadtrip by ag_sasami → Series. The writing is absolutely wonderful all throughout. Second work has some really good smut (you can just read it as a standalone if you want) 🙏

may all your wounds be mortal by ag_sasami → ATLA AU. Really nice and soft. The series also has another fic, but I haven't read that one yet.

silence strikes like a hurricane by silverinerivers → Haven't read this one in a while so I don’t have a lot of commentary BUT I do remember this having a certain nice atmosphere and some amazing writing!!

Divine Little Deaths by BanishedImmortal → Reallyyyy nice atmosphere in this one too.

hey man I miss your collarbones by oktsukki → Skk band AU!! You love to see it <3

made for me by kyttsune → High-school AU. This is very soft but in a fitting way, you know?

*The Remote Game by Idle_Pointless -> I don’t tend to enjoy fics with sex toys, but this one. This one wins. This one is an exception.

mind if i resent you for a year tonight? by tsuosamu → Bonus points for the CSH title!!! Fuck yeah!! The relationship exploration and views on skk's relationship in this one are INCREDIBLY interesting

Surrender by StarshipDancer → I don’t remember if I have read this entire series or not but this is the only fic from it I have bookmarked so I'm going to guess no? Either way, you should also probably check that out

the enormity of my desire by ag_sasami → Some really nice and healthy (but also angsty) kink exploration. I haven't read everything in this series but it is on my to read list, and the fics do seem promising, so you should probably check that out.

*pull by degradedpsychotic -> Just reading the summary for this made me IMMENSELY excited. And, ofc, the fic has DELIVERED!!! The symbolism of Chuuya choking Dazai with a noose… Save me. 🙇‍♀️

Black is the Color by rustingroses → Boss Dazai AU. I haven't read this one in a while so I don’t have a lot of commentary? Though I do remember that it has a few things other than the smut going on, and that it's really nicely written, so.

Burning Pile by TheGnomeThief → I'd advise you to tread carefully with this one, it does have the Dead Dove tag and, yeah, I can confirm that it is exactly what the label says. More fucked up than anything I've written so far, that's for sure, but I do still love it and it's really nicely and realistically written!!

Also, I do have some bottom Chuuya fic recs too if anyone is interested?? Haven't read most of these in a long while, but I do remember really liking them back in the day.... + New addition that I read and like recently <3

*Selfish devotion by Asphxdelus -> This is literally the only top Dazai fic in existence that I actually liked nowadays. Wholeheartedly recommend

*Seven Stars by andtheheir -> Series. The writing of this is absolutely gorgeous, and while I don’t agree with… kind of… any of the characterization, I do think it has some very interesting character opinions that I was able to enjoy in a more detached sense. Also has a chuuango interlude which didn’t bother me because I can see this guy having sex with basically the entire adult cast, but that is skippable

you set my soul alight by daffodilassassin → Modern AU. This one is just. Very very vibey. I adoree the atmosphere it builds 💓

Anything by Memos but I specifically remember liking Tyrant and I Only Love You When I'm Drunk

Drunk on Shadows And Lost in Light by the_most_happy

His Queen by black00cat

Non-smut Fic Recs (in no particular order):

Genuinely ANYTHING from themadtree. Best writer ever. I fucking LOVE this guy. Heavy emphasis on Akai, music for our funeral and Mors Vincit Omnia!!!!!!!

tastes like whiskey kissing you by diphylleias → This is so beautifully written and so poetic and UGHSHSJEJEJ I adore this fic. I’ve reread it, like, 100 times.

Backstage Pass by the_most_happy → Musician AU. The way I am OBSESSED with this fucking fic GOOD GOD. Please read it. It's so good SJSKSN And also please check out this writer in general!!!!

Melodies of the Fated by SandgrassBagel → Soulmates AU, and musician AU (Just Chuuya in this one but shh). Again. THIS IS SOO GORGEOUS AND WELL WRITTEN AND I'M GONNA FUCKING DIEEESJJSJD

*Heart Strings by Seedus -> As you can tell, I’m a musician AU fanatic… A lot of implied sex, though I’m sure that’s not a problem if you’re coming to ME for recs ahsjs 😭

The Intricacies of Humanity by shroomsprouts → Really nice character study!!! <3

room on fire by daffodilassassin → Beautifully written character study!!!! HELL YEAH

give me a kiss like a kick in the teeth by communist_sasuke → this is so AJKSNSJWKS Once again. Love this fic. So fucking good. So nicely written. MWAH 💋

Paint it black (and take it back) by the_most_happy → Beast AU. Chuuya marries Dazai ghost. Very fucking sad but goddamn do I love this fic 😭🙏💓 AUGH

Rum-Flavoured Tales by black00cat → I have a bit of a pirate!skk obsession that this fandom is NOT feeding well enough, so very grateful for this fic.

unspool my heart by oursorrows → The writing in this is fucking MAGNIFICENT AAAJEJS. Not the biggest fan of the ending but it is what it is.

the most unfortunate souls on earth by roadsidehorror → Once again. AMAZING writing this community is so fucking talented 🫶

Trick or Treat, Lie or Kiss by black00cat → Modern AU. Soukoku are exes. STARTS GOING FERAL

*laid bare by daggerfight -> This is surprisingly soft. I really love it 💕 Bonus points to Chuuya being a respectful KING as he should 😎

I'll Make A Home In Your Gut Because its Somewhere Warm to Sleep by arahabakii → Once again. Beautiful writing.

take the dark (and carve me out a home) by angstinspace → Very angsty, but still an absolutely amazing fic. GAH

OK THIS IS FINALLY DONE SHSJDN Thank you so much for the ask!! Have a wonderful dayy 💕

* = later additions <3

[galaxyphoenix23]

Why Six left

Okay, this is my first post here but figured I’d give tumblr a try because it is severely lacking Six and Claire content. The whole fandom is really…. And its sad that their relationship is downsized. I'm obsessed with these two, and I’ll just start postingstuff that I've written about them because they're my comfort duo. #Daddy issues?

But onto the fic, in the movie, it's implied that Six hadn't had much contact with them since Fitzroy retired, and I like to think that Six distanced himself to protect Claire since Fitzroy could finally be at home with her and live “a normal life” with her instead of being gone all the time. He wouldn't want to intrude on their peace, or have anyone somehow finding out about his attachment to them and use it against him (obviously it doesn't work because… well we all watched the movie, if you haven't go watch it it’s really good!). But again, I like to think that beforehand he would drop in if he was nearby on a job and got injured or just wanted to not be alone, (obviously post-bodyguard job) deepening his bond with Claire, which probably made leaving her all the more painful for him. They don't address this in the movie but I'm addressing it now dang it because I'm a teenage girl with emotions and a stoic strong father figure going soft for the daughter figure makes me wanna cry (plus its RYAN GOSLING)

I'm done with my rant now, if you're reading this part, I'll make a part two soon. We all know how it ends up, but I feel like writing a second part. (this is kinda a song fic? Miley Cyrus' Angels Like You) (yes part two will also be a song fic)

Angels Like You

It's not your fault I ruin everything

Six thought back to her eyes sparkling with innocence and curiosity. The last thing he wanted was to corrupt that.

And it's not your fault I can't be what you need

He was no longer innocent like her. He was broken beyond repair.

Baby, angels like you can't fly down here with me

He had to leave eventually. No matter how much he didn't want to, he didn't have a choice.

I'm everything they said I would be

He sighed as he made his way to her bedroom, wincing at his wound freshly stitched.

Fitz was retired, and Claire no longer needed him, much less him showing up bruised and bloody at 2 am. She deserved better than that. She deserved a normal life.

He paused in front of her door before opening it. She was on her bed with her Polaroids and smiled at him as soon as she looked up.

“Hey, feeling better?”

Gonna wish we never met on the day I leave

“A little.” Six gave her a strained smile.

“So, when are you popping in next time? Wait no don't tell me, I like surprises.”

Six sat down on her bed. “About that….” Six hesitated and Claire watched him, her smile slowly fading.

“What is it?” She asked.

“I won't be coming around anymore.” Six let it sink in before adding. “Surprise!” It sounded lame, even to him.

I brought you down to your knees

“What?” She asked, and Six made the mistake of meeting her teary gaze and he looked away.

‘Cause they say that misery loves company

“Fitz is retired. There's no reason for me to come around anymore.”

“What about me?” She asked, her voice wobbly. Claire didn't want to be that girl, but in the face of never seeing Six again…. “Am I not a reason?”

“Of course you are.” Six met her eyes once more, determined to get that through her head.

“Then why?”

It's not your fault I ruin everything

“Because I… I just have to Claire. It's part of the job. No attachments.”

Claire bowed her head, tears slipping down her face as she sniffed.

And it's not your fault I can't be what you need

“I should've known not to get attached.” She whispered. “But I did.”

Six sighed. “Ditto.”

Despite herself Claire looked up and smiled. “I did rub off on you.”

Six scoffed, but a small smile appeared on his face. “Yeah well, you're special. You see a side of me no one else does.”

“Now I won't even get to see it.” She sadly whispered.

Six’s heart broke. “Claire, I'm sorry.” He opened his arms and she eagerly burrowed herself into his arms.

“It wasn't anything I did was it?”

Six squeezed his eyes shut. “No. I'm trying to keep you safe.”

Baby, angels like you can't fly down here with me

“What if I need you and you're not here?”

Six tightened his grip on her. “Fitz will be here.”

“But what if—”

“Hey, stop overthinking. If the worst case were to happen, I hope you know that I would drop everything and go to the ends of the earth and fight against entire armies to reach you.”

“Until then?” She sadly asked, sniffing and Six felt a tear fall on his neck.

“Until then, I have to be… not here.”

Angels like you can't fly down here with me.

When Six tried to pull away Claire tightened her grip. “Claire, you have to let go at some point.”

“I don’t want to.” She tearfully replied. “You don’t have to leave. I know you’re only doing this to punish yourself.”

Six pressed a soft kiss to her head, refusing to answer. He couldn’t, if he did, he was afraid she would talk him into staying. Then she really would be in harm's way. People would find out about her and then…. She was only a kid.

“You don’t have to do this.” She pleaded with him.

“Go to sleep Claire.” He softly coaxed.

She violently shook her head. “Not until you agree to stay.”

“I’m not going to lie to you Claire.” Six started to gently rock her, stroking her hair before humming a tune he remembered hearing somewhere.

“S’not fair. Trying to lull me to sleep.” She murmured.

“Goodnight Claire.”

“M’ not tired.”

“Hush little baby don’t you cry,” Six searched for the rest of the lyrics in his mind. “Daddy’s going to buy you a mockingbird, and if that mockingbird don’t sing, daddy's going to buy you a diamond ring.” Six glanced down and softly smiled as Claire was asleep in his arms.

“Goodnight Claire.” He softly repeated, tucking her in.

She shifted and sighed. “G’nigh’ Dad.”

Six stared at her and closed his eyes for a long moment, bowing his head.

He wasn’t sure who was hurt more, him when he left her bedroom then, or Claire when she woke up.

I'm sorry😭