#yes i am using hannibal for references of how good that framing is
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apicelladonna · 7 months ago
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late post about how Mads and Jamie have the same bdays (Nov. 22) so I'm hc-ing Gellert's bday on the same day.
Meaning he could have asked Albus jokingly/sarcastically on the fateful day of their duel (nov 2, 1945) an advance birthday gift and Albus gives him a Judas's kiss before he surrenders Grindelwald to the ICW.
Silence through the smoke of the battle. It was still as warm as he remembers Albus's lips. "Send me off with a hex instead. A curse! Anything but that," he laughed as they both watched the fog lift and the aurors come close. "Anything but this." Grindelwald would probably chose a Dementor's kiss instead of this humiliation of the loser's walk.
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collectionofcherries · 5 years ago
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👀 i see that you take requests for Billy Loomis from Scream and i am here for that. How about some intense fluff (lol)? maybe what a day spent with his s/o would be like?? could devolve into steamy if you want 👀
Honestly everyone should be here for Billy Loomis. Everyone’s favourite greasy rat boy. ---
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Pronouns: Unmentioned however this is written Female!Reader centric and contains feminine words like giggle and association with other women. Warnings: Kissing, fluff, light mention of murder, a literal sprinkle of angst, nothing out of the norm for a Slasher centric fic. Again I think I'm funny so that's a warning. Word Count: 2,226 ---
   “You know one of these days I'm gonna get a lock for that window and force you to use the door.” You remark loudly as you hear it slide open.    You don't even need to move from laying face down in your bed to know it's Billy, who else comes in through a window? “I thought it was romantic you know that whole Romeo and Juliet thing, there's a window somewhere in there, right?”    You can't help but to laugh and turn your head to look at him. “Are you talking about 'what light through yonder window breaks? It is the east, and Juliet is the sun'?” You asked.    “Sure.” He says as he plops down on the bed beside you. “Romantic right?” He teases arching a brow at you.    “Funny enough I don't think Romeo was talking about breaking and entering.” You remark.    “He broke into Juliet's place, didn't he?”    “You'd know if you didn't sleep in English class.”    “What do I need to be awake for? I speak it.”    You roll your eyes to spite your smile. “How about we skip the romantic lessons that ended up with two people dead?” You pitch.    He shrugs a little, his eyes looking around the room before settling on you. “Death can be romantic, what's so wrong with that?” He weighs in.    “I thought you liked horror not romance.” You point out as you roll yourself over onto your back. “Unless you're trying to tell me you wanna watch the Titanic instead of IT?” You tease.    He rolls his eyes at you but you can see the corners of his mouth are turned up. “We're watching IT?” He remarks.    “Yes because if I have to watch The Exorcist one more time I'm going to start puking.” You say pointedly, you love him but you can't keep watching that movie.    He lets out a scoff. “Maybe I was wrong about you liking romance seems like you're going for drama.”    You shove his shoulder and he grabs the hand you use to do so. “I thought you'd love IT, it's got your two favourite things” You point out and he arches a brow at you skeptically as he laces his fingers with your own. “Murder and clowns.” You insist.    “Clowns?”    “You're best friends with Stu, you have to love clowns.” You giggle sticking your tongue out in glee at your own joke.    “Yeah we'll stick with horror you're not great with comedy.” He says rolling his eyes.    Before you have a chance to insist you're hilarious cause you are he leans down and kisses you, guess you'll have to make a point of how funny you are later. And judging by the heat of his kisses he's hoping for much later. Billy's kisses are deep, to spite his standoff-ish nature he practically shatters bones with how close he wants to be to you in times of intimacy but even with his desperate need to lose himself in it he relishes every moment and takes his time, never in a rush, hands never too grabby as they explore you, if you let him he'll take his time for hours. But your body seems to have a different idea as to what it should be filled with as your stomach breaks the sizzling silence with a loud growl that makes you both laugh a little. “Maybe horror is what we should stick with.” You pant out.    Earning a breathy chuckle from him. "No arguments from me, long as it's rated R.”    If he wasn't so pretty above you, you'd roll your eyes. But he is so pretty. Brown hair coming down in shiny if not a little greasy strands that frame his face, warm brown eyes turned up at the corners from his smile, Billy is just...warm, everything about him is warm, especially the way he practically melts into the hand you bring up to cradle his face. “Sounds like you're trying to get out of my movie pick.” You point out, jokingly pouting out your bottom lip.    “I did bring Psycho.” He offers.    He's not pretty enough to stop that eye roll. “We've watched Psycho like a dozen times now.”    “Yeah, we know it so well we don't have to pay attention.” He points out running his tongue across his teeth and looking you over to get his point across.    “If you wanna get it, you're gonna have to watch IT.” You decide.    He sighs but his smile doesn't leave his face. “Alright, alright, we'll watch your
clown movie.”     He sits up and you follow halfway, letting go of his hand to drag yourself up to lean back on your elbows. “I thought you were gonna bring pizza this week, I brought it last week.” You point out as you realize he's empty handed.    Your stomach certainly seems to notice as it lets out another squelch. “You didn't hear?”    “Hear what?”    “Pizza place closed down, one of the workers in there got murdered.” He said his words dragging out slowly.    “Did they say who? When'd this happen?” You ask as shock rocketed through you, you were there literally last week!    “News said it was that Alex kid” And it seemed to spite his death Billy still had distain in his voice for him. “You know the one.” And you just nodded as you took that in, Alex had been working there as long as you'd been going. “He had it coming.”    “What?” Was all that made it out of you.    “He had it coming.” He said again this time looking right at you. “That kid was creep, the way he looked at you, the shit he said.” He pointed out, this wasn't the first time Billy had gotten angry about Alex or any other guy that flirted with you for that matter but Alex always made his blood boil and if you thought about it-...if you were being fair, he made you mad too, he just never knew when enough was enough. “You know I'm right, you can't tell me I'm not.”    You took what felt like a painful breath as you tried to think of what to say back, words started to form but they never finished as your brain grappled with the idea of Alex's death. “Did they say what happened?” Finally came out.    Maybe some other girl had just had enough, maybe it'd been quick...maybe then it wouldn't seem so bad. “Gutted like the pig he was.” So much for it not seeming so bad. "Happened when he was closing down, idiot left the back door open...I mean what'd he expect to happen?” He scoffed shaking his head. “Wasn't much of a fight, pretty quick...bloody though.” He said his eyes slipping from you to roam around, not particularly focused on anything. “Couldn't tell the difference from all that blood and the marinara sauce.” A quiet chuckle making it's way out of him at the end. “Found bits of him in the oven too.”    “That was all on the news?” You breathed out, the words leaving your mouth without your permission.    But the question hung in the air for what felt like too long, Billy's eyes not meeting yours for too long. “Uh-huh.” Finally made it's way out of him as he chewed on the inside of his cheek for a moment. “You know how Gale Weathers reports, that bitch loves those details.”     You nod but there's an uncomfortableness that sits in your chest that you're desperate to get away from. “Chinese it is then tonight huh?” You try to tease.    “So, you're not too sad about the Pizza place shutting down?” He asks finally looking over at you.    Out of all the things to be concerned about...but that was real concern in Billy's eyes. “It's probably for the best...I mean even if it opened up again I don't know if I could eat there again knowing about the...pizza sauce.” You said swallowing hard at the end trying your best not to picture it.    “They could rename it Hannibal Lecter's Pizza Place.” He pitched smiling at you.    Your gag is half real as you sit up fully. “Yeah, remember how I said I'm not gonna read that book? Well I'm really not gonna read it now.” You say making a disgusted face at him.    “You'd like it, Clarice makes me think of you.”     You maul over that, it's not a bad thing to be compared to Jodie Foster but not knowing the context you weren't sure how to feel. “I don't know exactly what that means but I'll take it as you saying I'm as hot as Jodie Foster and not that you're gonna eat me.”     “He doesn't eat Jodie Foster.” He points out rolling his eyes at you.    “Oh good.”    “You know one of the only reasons he even talks to her is cause one of the other guys in the nut house flicks cum at her.” Maybe it was a good thing you hadn't eaten cause another gag made it's way out of you. “And he finds it really fuckin'
rude...he doesn't say it but I think he would've killed him if he had the chance.” He says nodding a little to himself. “I would've.” He adds shrugging and before you can even really take that in he's talking again. “Anyway, the story is kinda about getting under someone's skin, understanding the way they think...the way they are...no one really does that besides Clarice you know? She understands him, she's horrified but she understands him.” And his eyes found yours once again, they're intense to spite his seemingly relaxed posture. “She makes me think of you because you get me.”    How could something so sweet come across so dark? A smile makes it's way across your lips to spite your confusion...you do get Billy, you know him, you love him. These weird horror movie references are just how he gets by in the world and comes to understand himself...how you’ve come to understand him and this is no different. You're convinced you're thinking way too much over what he's saying, he's just trying to talk to you in his own way. Yeah that's it. The breath that was painfully sitting in your chest escapes you and you reach over to hold his hand again and you realize the intense look in his eyes isn't something that should scare you, it's familiar, you've seen it before it's just the way he looks when he's yearning for physical intimacy and now it's melted into the same warm look you know so well. “I'm still not gonna read it...but next week it is your turn to pick a movie.” You point out. “Can't stop you from bringing it over.”     He smiles and you can't help but to smile back at him, he raises his free hand to cradle your face and this time its your turn to melt into his palm as he leans in and kisses you. Whatever worry you had is drowned out by the taste of love on his lips. “You're not gonna leave me too right? You can't...you're the only one who understands.” It sounds needy as it's said between kisses.    You know what he means, it's something that's been brought up before, all his anger and resentment for his mother leaving seemingly out of the blue makes him unsure of so much. It's not often he needs reminding that you're not going anywhere but every time he does it breaks your heart to hear all the desperation in his voice. “I'm not going anywhere.” You promise.    This usually leads to sex that leaves you both almost physically unable to go anywhere and as clothes are starting to be fisted off, your stomach once again decides it too has desperation its desperation to eat! And once again you both pull back to laugh. “I might go into the living room to use the phone to call for Chinese.” You half tease.    He chuckles as he rolls off of you. “Guess that's alright.” He teases back.    You both lay there for a moment trying to catch your breath and find the energy to leave this bed but the odds stack even further against you as you feel his thumb smooth over the top of your hand that he's still holding. “You know I think I can hear Stu crying.” You joke making Billy look at you like you've got 5 heads. “I'm the only one who understands you? I mean he's gotta be crying.” You clear.    He laughs shaking his head. “Yeah, comedy isn't for you.” He reminds.    “You're wrong and saying so has cost you your egg roll.” You decide and he looks at you with a look that can only be describes as 'really?' “Stu finds me funny, maybe I'll order him an egg roll.” You point out as you get up.    “Stu finding you funny doesn't mean anything, Stu thinks he's hysterical.” He scoffs    “Well, he is hysterical.” You scoff back at him. “Now tell me I'm funny or I'm taking away your dumplings next.”     “I'd kill you for that.” He says looking at you smiling a little. “So...be careful, your life could be in my hands.”     “Yeah well your Chinese Food is in my hands.” You teasingly threaten back putting your hands on your hips.    His smile broadens. “That was kinda funny.”  --- ~Admin Coral🍒 Buy Me A Coffee?
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aparticularbandit · 6 years ago
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Author Ask Game
tagged by: the wonderful @only-freakin-sunflowers who i don't get to tag below because has already done the fun thing.
author name: bandit! for my fanfic, i'm bandit. it's different on ff.net - slightly - but since i don't really post stuff there anymore, that's irrelevant. i'm also aparticularbandit on ao3.
fandoms you write for: right now, primarily jtv with a dash of the tick because i love miss lint. i sometimes pull in characters from other fandoms i've written with/for - typically hannibal, who framed roger rabbit, ouat - and i plan on pulling in characters from agent carter, supergirl, timeless, and the x-files for the upcoming epic superhero crossover series (i think it might be done like the soulmate timer au is now...sort of) and then plan to pull in hp and supergirl characters for the roisa hp au - like beyond other fandoms i normally pull characters from - but that's upcoming stuff and not current stuff.
where you post: ao3. haven't posted on ff.net recently, i don't think, and while i have posted something here (and sometimes have posted drabbles/one-shots for various rp characters on their blogs), i primarily post on ao3 now.
most popular one-shot:
by hits: lost causes
by kudos: lost causes
by comments: lost causes
by bookmarks: lost causes
i thought one of those would be different. oh well. but, yeah, lost causes far and away beats in all but the comments, where my multi-chapters have it beat.
--the kiss/fall prompts have it beat, too, but i consider that a multi-chapter anthology and not a one-shot.
most popular multi-chapter story:
by hits: jane: the real story
by kudos: A Christmas at Longbourne
by comments: luisa and the fox
by bookmarks: if you lived here, you'd be home now
favourite story you wrote: uh. um. i know I've been openly posting pretty frequently about how much i love luisa and the fox - linked above - and it's definitely a HUGE favorite of mine, especially recently - but, given that this is talking about all of my fanfic, there are others i want to mention that i particularly like and that otherwise probably wouldn't get brought up but are still definitely favorites.
grind is my favorite of my jtv one-shots - the closest to it is probably the trilogy of one-shots in it's love's illusions i recall; i really don't know love at all series but even then, grind is my favorite.
like lightning is my baby lint fic and i love my baby lint fic and i think it was actually really well-written and i just love that fic.
there are a bunch of fics that i wrote as gifts or prompts when i was more active in the rpc and a lot of them i think are good and am also really attached to:
body, body - frozen fic, prompted, also one of my top fics in terms of hits
On Christmas and Frenemies - hannibal fic, present for river, uses my will and her freddie
on aquariums and besties - crossover fic, present for river, uses my jessica rabbit and her dana scully
the mondays series - crossover fic, uses my jessica rabbit and jae's regina mills - and also henry and then also my friend willow's roger rabbit
this sinking boat - crossover fic, uses my jessica rabbit and river's dana scully
falling slowly - five times kissed prompt, uses my jessica rabbit and river's dana scully
the one you want, (not) the one you need - crossover fic, uses my jessica rabbit and jae's regina mills
points of remembrance - five times kissed prompt, uses my jessica rabbit and willow's roger rabbit
and then there's story of a girl, the noir fanfic i wrote that i still haven't published that i keep bringing up every now and again.
story you were nervous to post: parasite. i originally wrote it last november but was so worried about how the content would feel and how sensitive it might be that i left it alone until the second write for roisa week.
how do you pick your titles: uh. song lyrics or titles. references. something that seems to fit. sometimes they come with titles. it's not really an exact science. >.>
do you outline: for bigger projects, when i know they're bigger, yes. luisa and the fox had something like one in my head after a certain point, but mostly for my shorter stuff, not really. ACAL had a mental outline of what needed to happen in each chapter. mexican stud finally has an outline so that i remember what scenes are left and what chapters the scenes i have go in.
but mostly outlines are for multi-book projects or stuff that's so complicated it's hard to keep it straight with all of the details. the ouat/pmmm crossover i think had an outline; the pmmm how many timelines is it? fic definitely had one; and then the biggest outline i have for a current project is the one for the roisa hp au - which has a chapter-by-chapter outline for the first book, the beginnings of chapter-by-chapter outlines for books two and three, and then details of stuff that has to happen per book or that i might want to include per book for all seven books - including two possible endings and the results of each ending.
how many of your stories are complete: on ao3? 45.
in-progress: again, on ao3, 19.
coming soon: define soon. in terms of unposted projects, i'm hoping to have the first book of the roisa hp au up next year. i've been making more progress on mexican stud, but that one's complicated. luisa and the child, but that one's still...in progress in terms of what the plot wants to be. i have puzzle pieces that kind of fit together. there's a bunch of other stuff i've got waiting to be written or that i've been brainstorming, but of the unposted stuff, those are the primary projects.
oh, and if i can finish it, there's a Christmas fic i started last year that i hope to finish for y'all this year.
OH YEAH AND LOOK OUT FOR THE ROISA SECRET SANTA PROJECT.
mostly i want to focus on getting back to and finishing other projects i've started and not just starting a bunch of new ones.
do you accept prompts: yes, but understand that depending on the prompt it might take me a while to get the thing written - like the roisa as hannigram prompt which is still in progress in terms of brainstorming but isn't even remotely done yet and might be a while before i get to it. >.>
upcoming story you're the most excited for: roisa hp au, epic superhero crossover, and luisa and the child. the first two of those are really ambitious and really complicated so i hope i can pull them off. oh, and the unfinished Christmas project from last year, if i finish it on time. i was really excited for it last year, too, but it doesn't lend itself to word count easily.
tag five fanfic authors to answer these questions: @butimnotasexyrussian, @finehs, @pulitzerpanther, @to-hell-with-oblivion, and @andtherewerefireworks - WHO I KNOW GOT TAGGED ALREADY BUT TAG ME WHEN YOU DO THE THING SO I SEE IT YO.
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error04notfou · 6 years ago
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Queer Representation- Why Can’t 2 Men Just Be Friends
All-fucking-right, folks. Let’s sit the fuck down and listen real close for a moment. Don’t worry! I won’t take up tooooo much of your time. I know how busy it is being accidentally an asshole. I’ve been there. I’m gonna be nice, I promise. I just swear a lot.
There are same sex friendships on TV that are healthy and loving. There are a wide variety of relationships that slide themselves along a range of healthfulness and lovingness involving people of similar or same sexes having friendships. If there weren’t, we wouldn’t be having this conversation because there would be no writers making stories that queers become interested in that do not wish to create queer representation.
See the wikipedia page for the following categories: Bromance, Womance, Platonic Love, Bromantic Comedy, Buddy Cop. Google Guy Love. You’ll love it.
Merlin. Sherlock. Supernatural. Star Trek. Scrubs. Boy Meets World. Literally Every Children’s Show Featuring Sentient Creatures.
We wouldn’t have stories written that continuously hint at queer stories without providing actual representation. I’m sure none of you want to hear the term queer baiting right now but I promise ye, us queers don’t want to see it either. Fucken. SHIT, my dudes. Unless you are looking for queer representation- unless you have that reflexive search for queerness in life and in media- queer baiting is something you can miss or misinterpret as friendliness. It has to do with framing, lighting, the scoring, the word choice. There’s a lot of flags a writer can throw up that Hint at possible queerness without being explicit enough to sound any alarms for people not keyed to look for queer representation in media. 
Hannibal is Not A Good Example because their goal was to redefine intimacy and it is Gay AS FUCK.
Teen Wolf. Sherlock. Supernatural. 
Go to youtube. Type in queerbaiting. There’s lots of videos with info on it. Rowen Ellis has some shit. Sarah Z, The Fucking QueerTUBE CHANNEL EQUIVALENT OF DOES THE DOG DIE, Aretheygay, HAS A VIDEO ON IT. Somewhere in Hbomberguy’s FEATURELENGTH FILM on why Sherlock is garbage, he touches on queerbaiting. 
Because they got to eat their cake and have it too, shows, movies, and books keep doing the fucken thing. Continuously throwing out flags of possible queerness for main characters while simultaneously being offended at queer audiences for believing them and then asking where the queer representation was. As well, they get to have continuously running jokes about how haha it’s funny that these two men show affection for each other because that’s gay and they’re not they’re just guys being dudes! (Scrubs. Look. You do a great job, I’m not coming for you but I am coming for Every Film of Michael Bay’s featuring two men who are friends. Pain and Gain? Anyone?)
See Teen Wolf banning the signing of ship fan art. Literally any scene in Sherlock where John Watson no homos so hard he accidentally wraps back around to yes homo.
Here’s the skinny, my dudes. My most righteously dudely dudes. The reason why queers ask for queer representation in media is because they Actually Don’t Have Much representation. It is exceedingly rare to find queer representation. And to find queer representation that doesn’t have a tragic end? Even more difficult. Despite the rustled jimmies of people finding a singular queer in their straight salad and exclaiming about the infestation of queers in this restaurant (the health department aught to be called! Think Of The Children!) it IS rare- unlike same sex friendships in films. 
This is a capitalistic system. I know right? When is that going to stop being pointed out? Supply and demand is the basic tenant- or so I was taught in high school economics. I, as a fellow queer, will simply feel grateful that I live in a time where we can be considered a consumer base with a loud enough voice to be seen as providing pressure on an industry that has yet to supply for our demand. Especially since it is difficult for me to forget that it was not so long ago that our voices were considered an inconvenience for demanding the right to be able to live.  
What you’ve done above is simplify an incredibly complex issue into its most reductive and unhelpful parts. No one can argue that it’s good for people to be able to have friendships on TV or anywhere else. The problem comes in in that this argument ignores the part where Everyone is Arguing That It’s Not OK To Have QUEER Relationships On TV and that These Relationships are Unhealthy. That is the tacit argument here. That’s the dog-whistle you’re accidentally blowing when you say that. 
It’s similar to people who say things like: What about the children? How am I going to explain THIS to them? I’m OK with gays but do they have to shove it in my face like this? Gay marriage is alright by me but I don’t want to see them kiss! Why can’t two men just be good friends! They’re just gals being pals. Queers make up less than 4 percent of the population, why do they have to be in everything I watch? I’m not homophobic, I just don’t want to be inconvenienced. I’m all for queer representation but does it have to be in the shows I like? Why can’t they (the queers) be happy with the representation they do have? Like Brokeback (dead gay) and The Imitation Game (Historical dead gay) or Jack from Will and Grace (Gay Stereotype), or like a shit ton of Alfred Hitchcock’s villains (The Evil Queers (Dibs on that as a band name BTW))? Or the Sassy Gay Accessory Friend like in Riverdale, GBF, that weird alien dude from American Dad? 
These are dog whistles. They are silencing tactics. They are manipulation. They are used to implicitly say that queerness is not OK. 
So no. No one is going to say it’s bad to see two dudes being friends and expressing that closeness in any media. I can understand the feeling like your views and relationships are under attack. I can understand why people feel afraid to express affection. I feel afraid, too. The difference is when straight people say they’re afraid of seeming gay, what they’re saying is they’re afraid they might be mistaken for me. As if that’s somehow embarrassing or dangerous or immoral. 
The part you’re missing when you talk about how frustrating it is that queers see queerness in relationships depicted on TV that you like is that you’re afraid they might be just like you. And a part of your brain associates queerness only with sexual acts. That’s why we’re inappropriate. YOU’RE not queer so you don’t like queer sex! Why would you want to see queer sex on TV? You don’t want to see queer kissing! Queer hand holding! You’re not queer! 
That’s why it’s difficult for people to consider explaining it to their kids. That’s why it’s difficult to Accept that there are queer children. That’s why I Now Pronounce You Chuck and Larry is PG 13 despite its r*pe jokes, half naked women, and continuous references to sex, but had they included a same sex kiss as they had initially intended it, the MPAA would have made it rated R (Literally just google it. trufax.) Because these are all facets of homophobia. It’s ingrained and sometimes unconscious. You don’t have to actively hate queers to accidentally help those who do silencing them. 
So yeah. Long fucking story short. It would be cool for queers not to have to grasp at any same sex relationship on TV for hints of themselves. I agree. I’m getting fucking tired as all hell having to Read Between The Straight Lines to see the gay subtext. I’d like some straight up gay text. We’ll stop having to come for your platonic friendships when Hollywood finally gets around to inventing actual queer people in its media. And no fucking blink and you’ll miss it Le Fou doesn’t count. Neither does well-they-said-in-a-tweet Dumbledoor. 
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confessionsofanoperaghost · 7 years ago
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🎭 for the PotO meme
1. Does the name “Erik” get your attention, no matter where or in what context you hear it? ,,,,,,,,,,actually yes.  
2. Would you travel or have you traveled to certain places only because they were PotO-related? Which ones? I certainly would! And I have a long long list of places that are from my headcanon as well!  But sadly they are in Europe, Asia and the Middle East. Cost is a factor.
3. Would you see the musical by yourself because your friends or family weren’t in the mood to go with you? Have you done so already? I haven’t and I might. It really depends on how my relationship to the musical changes over the next 20-60 years. I’m not keen on most of ALW’s recent touch on the franchise and I’m worried about more and more or Maria Bjornson’s work getting dropped from the tour (and rumors say maybe from the Broadway and WE productions as well in time??). So, we’ll see. I will be happy to outlive ALW and bear witness to the various ways the The Really Useful Group shoots itself in the foot. But its so expensive to watch something that’s only going to break your heart--and not in the ways you want it to. So it REALLY depends. 
4. How often have you seen the musical?  I have seen it exactly once. It came to my hometown in 1999 (I was 15) and I spent every penny I could scrape together to get an orchestra-level ticket. And frankly I was unimpressed. I never went back. I feel bad for saying it. It might have been better for me if I had grown up with bootlegs, but I had only read the book and listened to the OLC. I literally didn’t know what to expect from the tour. I’m not sure.
5. How much PotO stuff do you own? I should just say “a lot of stuff I dunno, lol” but I suddenly want to think about this. 
My original deMattos paperback
A David Coward paperback
A Wolfe paperback (its at a friend’s house at the moment)
The “milestone collection” two DVD disc set with all the extras of the 1925 Poto with Lon Chaney Sr (my babe!!!)
The Cherik miniseries (as a bootleg copy on DVD...i paid good money for it tho, lol)
the 2004 movie cuz it was cheap as hell 
Original London Cast recording of the ALW musical on CD
This BRILLIANT book about the making of the 1925 silent film
An actual first run copy of The Phantom of Manhattan by Fredrick Forsythe (purchased for me on clearance as a joke.)
A cheap copy of Susan Kay’s book that a friend picked up for me. I’ve been asked to do a seething read-along. I figured I should probably own the book before I literally rip it a brand new shiny asshole on YouTube...
a weird, like, 14 pages long, full color, SUPER condensed version of the book with Greg Hildebrant’s drawings. This was the present our teacher purchased for the acting class that produced a weird 1970′s straight-play version of the story that no one seems to remember now (its not particularly good so don’t worry)
the “Barnes and Noble” deMattos hardcover edition that --because it started to fall apart right away--I have been using for art projects and pop-culture-based spells
A large locket with Lon Chaney’s Erik (and his Quasimodo)
one of Muirin007′s gorgeous prints
An adorable necklace made by MegLouiseGiry that’s got a slice from the book in it and a heart-shaped crystal (Poto Secret Santa 2017)
A Lon Chaney 1925 POTO T Shirt. And it glows in the dark! (I got his Quasi on a shirt too but sadly it does not glow in the dark)
a 17,000+ word Google document: a sticky rough draft of my Erik-life-story Phic that I may or may not have been working on for 2 decades.
similarly, a red and gold notebook stuffed with tangled notes and headcanons and bad phan poetry from the 1990s
A bunch of other books that look unrelated to the untrained eye (for research)
a 6 inch figure of Lon Chaney’s POTO dangling from a plastic chandelier that happens to be about to scale 
a thousand other items that may not look like references to Poto to the untrained eye... like: a red scarf and round-framed spectacles and an antique violin case and a choking kink and a skull mask and a dramatic red and gold cape and daddy issues and a balcony overlooking the sea and a black mask that covers the whole face and an attraction to the most beautiful hands........
6. Have you had dreams about the Phantom or other characters? Do you remember any in particular? I’ve only had dreams about Erik. Usually I am myself or Christine or some slurry of the two. Here’s the best one: 
Saturday, November 19, 2016. True Beauty.
There was the theatre. The wings and the lifts. Backstage lights. Curtains.
Joseph Bouquet spots the fiend in the catwalks and is--fast as lightning--slaughtered by the quickest of lassos. Other stagehands and security ascend to the tops, chasing a shadow they can barely see. Someone thinks they’ve captured his cloak only to find their fists full of nothing.They chase this shadow to the roof and find nothing but stars as the phantom killer slips away...down into the dark. 
Carved structure. The dark is black and warm. He feels near. Yes, Erik has come for you. A lucid dream, I am both player and played. 
I am playing you. 
You feel a dance. You cannot find your way out of all that warm darkness. Though she cannot see, she feels her maestro all around. Unable to retreat, unable to find light; she turns but I am already there... darkness and a warm, red, deep glow. She twists in anxiety and frustration--away! away! away!-- breathing as though she is counting her final breaths. Twisting and trying to find some cool air or a bit of sunlight.
Erik shows her that there is no escape from Erik. He is is every corner of her. 
She succumbs. 
 7. How many times have you read the book? Literally more than I can count. At 15 I had MOST of Chapter 13, Apollo’s Lyre, memorized (deMattos translation). Iv’e only read it in English and I have yet to read some of the less-recommended translations.
8. How many songs from the musical could you recite from memory? (Or just sing along to?)  So I have almost the whole thing more-or-less memorized EXCEPT that its ONLY the version as sung in the Original London Cast recording. So every single line that has been changed since then (or god forbid an unedited soundtrack where all the choruses of Hannibal are included, lol) I get wrong. But yeah i listened to that nightly for like 2 years of my adolescence and I can hardly listen to any of it now.  I burned places in my synapses.
9. Do you randomly quote lines from the book or musical in real life? Don’t you? Honestly, the most fun I have is calling up fun lines and needle them into my vocabulary throughout a regular day. Unless you do an obvious one your average person isn’t going to know.
10. Have you ever met up with another phan?  Yes but by the time I’ve me up with them its definitely about something more relevant than the Phandom that brought us together. 
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notdrhanniballecter · 4 years ago
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Responding to @greyhoundgraham: pros:-cooks well, draws well, plays music well <-These are all given facts -intelligent <-Again, that's a given -tall, nice tits, talks, pretty, is pretty, nice ass <-*preens from mongoose's flattery* -attentive <-When it comes to you, Mongoose, very much so cons: -neat freak <-I am very particular about the way I like things ordered, yes... That should be on the "pro" list -picky eater <-I have to be if you want me to continue having "nice tits" and a "nice ass" -tall <-I'm not that much taller than you -dresses better than everyone and it's embarrassing <-I make your grandfather's clothes look good and people hate me for it *smh* -framed me for murder <-I did yes, my bad -killed my best friend, or who COULD'VE been my best friend <-... I do regret that one; I'll give that to you -doesn't let me adopt more dogs <-Completely untrue. I brought home @rudythemurderpuppy and we just adopted Clifford in the last two months -renamed Buttered Chicken <-It is a ridiculous name for a cat, especially one as handsome as Hannibal Jr. -hates McDonalds <-The food? Yes. It is disgusting. The clown? Also repulsive. In this house, we do not eat clowns... They taste funny -hard to understand sometimes for various reasons <-You don't seem to mind it when I say romantic things to you in other languages such as, Aš noriu tave dulkinti or Aš tave labai myliu -gets mad when I call him a 'good boy' (it's a habit) <-I'm not a boy, I am your papa bear -serial killer <-True; is that an issue? -cannibal <-Also true; you seem to trust me just fine 😉 -got me fired twice <-Did I? Again, my bad -put us on a no fly list <-You have a boat... *shrugs* Again, I don't see the issue
Responding to @wanderingwinstonz: Pros: Protective of his family <-Very true Values respect <-Again, very true A wonderful dog and cat Papa <-*preens from the praise* Health conscious <-I am a medical professional; I need to be conscious of the entire family’s dietary needs Likes puppy licks <-I don’t mind them at all; they are endearing Really funny <-*blushes* Didn’t leave me back in the US <-Absolutely not, you are very dear to us Cons: Protective of his family <-How is that a bad thing?? Low bar for rudeness <-Should one tolerate rudeness? Papa W’s and Mama C’s brand of Southern sass doesn’t count, by the way Brushes like it’s a weapon <-Nothing personal, I’m allergic to pet dander Won’t let me eat sticks <-*rolls eyes* They have no nutritional value Isn’t a fan of puppy fur <-Are you referring to the fur that practically covers the whole house? No, I am not Only makes cannibal jokes <-Definitely not true; I make bear jokes as well: What do you call a bear with no teeth? A gummi bear Separated Papa W & I for a while <-I’ll give you that; that was my bad
Will making a Hannibal pros and cons list and the cons side is seven pages long and the pros side is just “I think he’s neat”
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kiss-my-freckle · 5 years ago
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Bedelia's character during The Dragon’s storyline. 
Bedelia sells herself as a victim like Miriam Lass, which started when Jack and Will caught up with her in Italy. 
Bedelia: I'm not concerned about me. I know exactly how I will navigate my way out of whatever it is I've gotten myself into.
Will: Oh, you know who you are and what you've done, and you know exactly how you're going to wiggle out of it. What is this? Sedatives? Hypnotics? Ethanol? Scopolamine? Midazolam? Jack: Same cocktail Dr. Lecter served Miriam Lass. You've been freebasing your alibi. And I'm not even mad at you. To tell the truth, I'm fairly impressed.
Interesting contrast, seeing her on their flight to Italy while Miriam stated, “He treated me very well, until the end... until he put me in the ground." 
Miriam: I remember a dream about drowning. And then being awake. And not awake. Being myself, and not myself.
Bedelia: I wasn't myself. You were. Even when you weren't, you were.
Miriam: I'd wake up to the smell of fresh flowers and the sting of a needle.
Bedelia: Day and evening again, the smell of fresh flowers and the vague awareness of a needle bleeding into me.
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Bedelia: Before Dante, we spoke not of the Gates of Hell, but of the Mouth of Hell. My journey to damnation began when I was swallowed by the beast. Will: Poor Dr. Du Maurier, swallowed whole. Suffering inside Hannibal Lecter's bowels for what must have felt like an eternity. You didn't lose yourself, Bedelia. You just crawled so far up his ass you couldn't be bothered.
Will was always on the other side, but that doesn't mean he didn't realize what Hannibal was.
Bedelia: I've seen enough of him. I was with him behind the veil. You were always on the other side. Will: Something we should talk about.
Hannibal: What exactly am I guilty of? Bedelia: Exactly, I cannot say. I've had to draw a conclusion based on what I glimpsed through the stitching of the person suit that you wear. And the conclusion that I've drawn... is that you are... dangerous.
He simply wasn't "with" Hannibal like Bedelia was in Italy, he was framed by. He knew what Hannibal was and imagined him a stag wearing a person suit. A nice place for the scene cut because Hannibal is an animal locked in a cage, and the audience keeps poking at him.  
Reba: We're at the zoo. Why are we at the zoo? It's cold for the zoo. Francis: Did you ever see a tiger?
Will has no idea that Hannibal intends to eat Bedelia.
Bedelia: He sends me greeting cards on Christian holidays and my birthday. He always includes a recipe. Will: If he does end up eating you, Bedelia, you'd have it coming.
He's always questioning how she's able to make a clean getaway.
Will: Mostly because you're still alive. When this fog of yours clears, I'd love to hear how you managed that.
She then contradicts her claim that she wasn't herself.
Bedelia: I obfuscate. Hannibal was never not my patient. Covert treatment suffers secrecy and disapproval. Covert because I was a cooperative psychiatrist. "Do no harm."
Hard to act as Hannibal's psychiatrist while in his bowels. 
Bedelia: You couldn't save Hannibal. Do you think you can save this new one?
I think she's talking of herself here. Will hasn’t been trying to save Hannibal, he’s been trying to kill him. Neil Frank is reintroduced, the patient she fisted to death. I consider it an act of crushing a vulnerable bird. She continues to speak in the opposite.
Hannibal: One thing I learned from Hannibal is the alchemy of lies and truths. It's how he convinced you you're a killer. Will: You're not convinced? Hannibal: You're not a killer. You're capable of righteous violence because you are compassionate. Will: How are you capable? Hannibal: Extreme acts of cruelty require a high level of empathy. The next time you have an instinct to help someone, you might consider crushing them instead.
I once spoke of her contradictions, this bit of conversation is perfect example. Bedelia will throw someone under the bus to save her own skin. She’s like Abigail, but selling herself capable of extreme acts of cruelty. Someone who’s instinct is to reject the weak. She claims Hannibal convinced Will that he’s a killer, while claiming prior, "maybe Mr. Graham doesn't know himself as well as Hannibal does." Maybe Hannibal doesn't "think" Will is a killer. Maybe he knows he is. And it was Bedelia who referred to him as a shepherd’s dog whose instinct is to savage the sheep.
Bedelia: Almost anything can be trained to resist its instinct. A shepherd dog doesn't savage the sheep. Hannibal: But it wants to.
A difference between brittle and fragile, but both are easily broken.
Bedelia: It's hard to predict when brittle materials will break. Hannibal gave you three years to build a family, confident that he would find a way to take them from you.
The fragile teacup, only capable of righteous violence.
Bedelia: You have paid dearly. It excites him to know that you are marked in this particular way.
Here, it sounds like she’s selling Hannibal as another Mason. 
Margot: They could have done what was done laparoscopically, but my brother told them to leave a scar. Will: He branded you.
They get into a conversation about Chilton.
Bedelia: You put your hand on Dr. Chilton's shoulder in the photograph. Touch gives the world an emotional context. The touch of others makes us who we are. It builds trust.
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It builds trust. Hannibal did the same when Will confronted him about Abigail killing Nick Boyle. She then explains “participation” to Will as Hannibal explained it to her. 
Bedelia: What did you think the Great Red Dragon would do? You were curious what would happen, that's apparent. Is this what you were expecting? Will: I can't say I'm surprised. Bedelia: Then you may as well have struck the match. That's participation. Hannibal Lecter does have agency in the world. He has you. Hannibal: You say you're observing, but this... this is participation, Bedelia. Did you know what he would do? I would prefer you answer honestly. Bedelia: I was curious. Hannibal: You were curious what would happen. You were curious what Mr. Dimmond would do. What I would do. Did you anticipate our thoughts? Counter-thoughts? Rationalizations? Bedelia: Yes. Hannibal: Is this what you expected? Bedelia: Yes. Hannibal: That's participation.
Why Bedelia would want to be Bluebeard's “last” wife.
Jack: Why didn't he kill you, Miriam? Why were you spared? Miriam: I wasn't spared. He was saving me for last.
Jack: She believed the Ripper brought her here to kill her. He was saving her to be his last victim. He knows we're close to catching him. Will: He's been caught before. Catch a fish once and it gets away... it's a lot harder to catch a second time.
If Will becomes the wife...
Will: The moment I convinced the chief of staff to put you in a cell next to me, you were stamped with an expiration date.
she gets stamped with an expiration date.
Will: I'd pack my bags if I were you, Bedelia. Meat's back on the menu.
Bluebeard's wife is able to make a clean getaway. Not so much for his new wife, he’s gotta break him out of the mental hospital and kill The Dragon. That’s what I love about Will’s character. His breakthrough as Chilton spoke about with Alana while she was recovering... is complete opposite everyone else. 
Chilton: Will Graham could use a breakthrough. Alana: Being broken was his breakthrough? Chilton: Being broken was yours. Will has not had his breakthrough yet. He is saving that for Dr. Lecter. Alana: It would be the best thing for his therapy, really.
Like Bedelia selling Hannibal as Mason, Alana sells Will as Margot. 
Hannibal: It would actually be more therapeutic for you to kill him yourself. You'll remember I recommended that in session.
Becoming the lion was Will’s breakthrough, and he did save it for Hannibal. 
Hannibal: Will's thoughts are no more bound by fear or kindness than Milton's were by physics. He is both free and damned to imagine anything. Jack: Now that he's imagined the worst.
And Jack is partially right. Will not only imagined the worst, he experienced it. He imagined his admirer killing him at his request. He imagined cutting his throat and feeding him to Mason's pigs. He imagined a stag pulling a rope so tight around his neck, it decapitated him. He imagined killing him while killing Randall Tier. He tried to stab him in Italy, and Mason threatened to eat him with his face.
“You dropped the mic, Will. But here you are, having to come back and pick it up again." His mic drop, like his forgiveness. “You dropped your forgiveness, Will. You forgive how God forgives.”
I view Will’s mic drop an outright lie, completely opposite his imagination. He’s free to imagine anything... imagining the best while saying the worst because it didn’t "end” as he wanted. It was good to see Hannibal, but he thought he had no reason to stay... Francis committed suicide. How great it was to have Francis attack him in his motel room. 
Hannibal: I was rooting for you, Will. It's a shame. You came all this way and you didn't get to kill anybody.
Hannibal was right.   
Hannibal: It won't be the same. You'll see it's not the same. The unspoken knowledge will live with you, like unwanted company in the house.
Will is no different than him and Chiyoh. 
Hannibal: Will you go home? Can you go home? Chiyoh: No more than you can.
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foundcarcosa · 8 years ago
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cxcvi.
Why did you close the door the last time you closed one? >> If you’re thinking about reading this, I’d consider passing unless you’re ridiculously fascinated by my every word or something -- it’s extremely long. Anyway, I actually closed it by accident, because I didn’t compensate for the change in air pressure when I swung it behind me.
Stripes or polka dots? >> I prefer stripes.
Do you care if people touch you when they’re talking to you? >> I do care. I’d prefer not to be touched. Exceptions exist, but they’re so few and so specific that it’s easier to just start from “don’t touch me” as a rule and then write in the amendments as they become relevant.
What is your gender? >> I don’t have one. Except for Sparrow’s interpretation of my gender, which is “a .gif of a twerking spider”. It’s acceptable.
Do you think that people think its obvious? >> I think that my lack of fucks given re: gender is plenty obvious by my appearance, but at the same time, it’s probably better in general if people don’t assume.
How long did your first date last? >> I don’t remember. It was almost 12 years ago.
Is your favorite color within 10 feet of you? >> I don’t have a favourite colour.
Highlight of your day? >> The high point of today was getting to three-quarters done with WoW’s Loremaster of Draenor achievement. Spires of Arak was a pain in the ass.
Would you rather be on a boat or a plane? >> That would probably depend on the length of the voyage and where to. I do love flying, though.
Can you tell when girls (or guys) have eyeliner on? >> Whether I can tell if someone has eyeliner on or not depends on how closely I’m looking at their face and also how much I care.
Can you cook? >> I can.
How high is your ceiling? >> I don’t know.
Whats the worst job you can think of? >> The worst job for me would be janitorial work, especially if bathrooms are involved.
Do you swear a lot? >> I do.
Does the last person you texted have an O in their name? >> Yes.
Is everything working in your house? >> More or less, I assume.
Would you rather have a pool or a trampoline? >> I’d rather have a trampoline, as I’m more likely to use that than a pool (seeing as I can’t swim and find the rituals surrounding pool usage -- the showering, the drying, the changing of clothing, the uncomfortable sensory bits -- to be overwhelming most of the time.
Does pop give you energy? >> Not that I’ve noticed.
TV show you love with a passion? >> Metalocalypse is one. So is Vikings. And Person of Interest. And Hannibal. And Tremé. And Carnivale. And...
Do you think you learned anything from the worst night of your life? >> There are no such things in my life. Perfect age to get married? >> The age you feel like doing so. Is it safe to say you own over 20 pairs of shoes? >> It’s not safe to say that. I own two.
Name a career path that women are known for taking. >> I’m not confident enough in the veracity of any demographic-based statistical data to answer this.
Favorite type of cookie? >> Thin Mints are the only cookies I can eat more than one of in a sitting.
A quality you look for in choosing a significant other? >> I don’t look for specific qualities, I look for well-crafted and intricate and intriguing tapestries -- and then I mine the details.
What would I find if I looked in your pocket? >> A lip balm.
What was your first word? >> I don’t know.
A musical instrument you wouldn’t mind learning how to play? >> I’m fine with not knowing how to play one. Singing is more my thing. And rhythm-based music games. :p
Last time you went to 7-eleven? >> I don’t remember. I was probably in New York.
A fast food restaurant that you hate with a passion? >> None.
Does everyone in your family have a job? >> I don’t even know everyone in my family, let alone their employment status.
Going anywhere this weekend? >> Not that I know of / can recall.
Is your room ever clean? >> The bedroom is generally some level of clean. More cluttered than I’d like, but that’s because I’m inclined to minimal possessions and Sparrow is not.
What does it mean when youre being quiet? >> It means I don’t feel like being loud. Which is usually.
Last person you had a face to face conversation with? >> Sparrow.
Wheres your phone? >> On the bed beside me.
Do you know the difference between your and you’re? >> Yes. I don’t find it worth arguing about, though.
How late did you stay up last night? >> I went to sleep sometime around 1a EST, I think.
Anyone you’re ready to kill? >> I’m ready to kill whatever mobs I need to kill to continue grinding out these achievements.
Do you need to get a tan? >> No. I certainly wouldn’t complain about getting a shade or three darker, but I don’t think I spend enough time in the sun for it to happen regardless.
What do you want? >> A slight decrease in humidity. A stone-and-glass shower that could feasibly fit a dozen people comfortably. A giant Snorlax plushie. Her.
Favorite TV show as a kid? >> I don’t think I had one. Whats a show that you absolutely refuse to watch? >> Sherlock.
How many times have you been in love? >> I don’t know.
Go camping or go to a party? >> Partying while camping is a lot of fun.
Do you remember how old you were when you started swearing? >> Yes. I started in earnest when I left my dad’s, because I wasn’t allowed to swear while I lived with him. So, 17.
How many years older than you would you date someone? >> My general guideline is no more than 10 years older than me.
What was the last thing you pinky swore on? >> I don’t.
Would you consider yourself a nice person? >> I don’t consider myself a nice person. I don’t want to be a “nice” person. I want the adjectives that describe me to be more... detailed. Less fake-sounding.
Are there a lot of mirrors in your house? >> There are three.
Has there ever been a serial killer in your house? >> As far as I know, no. Do you know anyone who looks like Adam Sandler? >> No.
True or false: Glee is annoying. >> I don’t know, I’ve never watched it.
Last thing you cooked? >> Half of a bag of frozen potatoes and onions and peppers.
Do you use slang often? >> Sure.
Wear glasses? >> Sunglasses, and sometimes clear lenses for aesthetic. About how old was the last person that hit on you? >> I don’t remember the last time I was hit on.
What color are your headphones? >> One pair is black, the other blue.
Would you make a good teacher? Why? >> I don’t know. I’ve never really thought much about it, but I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t be socially acceptable enough for any established educational system.
Don’t you hate those commercials that try too hard? >> No. I don’t understand a lot of them, or what their target demographic is, or what the hook is supposed to be, but I accept them as a quirk of modern society.
Is the fan on? >> Yes.
Any special reason why you’re taking this survey? >> No special reason. I was in the mood to take one and I found this in the tag.
What does the last text message you sent say? >> I don’t remember and don’t feel like finding out. Your friend needs you to run to the store to get a pregnancy test. Do you? >> In this highly improbable situation, I have no real problem picking up a pregnancy test for someone... as long as I have a good reason to. I’d be more interested in why they couldn’t go get it themselves.
Do you log out on facebook when you leave the site? >> Except for the very rare times I’m on a public device or someone else’s device, no.
What color are your underwear? >> Black.
How short are your nails? >> They’re about a centimeter extended past my fingertips.
Do you like the opposite sex to be dominant or you the one in control? >> I’m too lazy to manipulate this question into one remotely answerable by me.
Favorite holiday? >> Christmas.
If I asked you to point to Ohio on a map of the US do you think you could? >> Yes. I remember Ohio’s shape.
Youre locked in a room with spiders. Do you have an issue? >> How many spiders? How big are they? Are they venomous? Also, why am I locked in a room at all?
Do you wear your most expensive item of clothing often? >> I think my most expensive item of clothing is either my winter coat (which I only wear in... winter... so no, not often) or my Tripp coat (which is too small for me, so now I don’t wear it at all until I can figure out how to repurpose it).
Do you eat a lot of food? >> I eat as I’m compelled to. /shrug Have your parents ever tried to control your relationship? >> I was an adult when I started having those kinds of relationships, so there is no way he could exert control over them.
Have you ever had to give someone directions before? >> Yes.
Speaking of which, are you good at understanding driving directions? >> I don’t know how good I’d be at understanding driving directions, seeing as I don’t drive. I understand most directions pretty well, if multiple frames of reference are given (compass directions and landmarks as backup, for example).
How many people do you text daily? >> Zero, usually, unless Sparrow texts me something.
Do you play any instruments? Which instruments do you play? >> No.
Is there anyone who you call by their last name? >> No.
What did you do on your last birthday? >> On my actual birthday, I didn’t do anything. My birthday trip was at the beginning of that month.
Which of the Seven Deadly Sins do you commit the most? >> I don’t know.
Has anyone ever told you that you’re incapable of whispering? >> No.
What is your least favorite subject in school? >> All of them.
Have you ever been involved in a custody battle before? >> No. My father won custody of me pretty easily when I was a baby, considering my mother didn’t even show up to court.
Do you know a couple who constantly sucks on each other’s face? >> No.
When was the last time you watched a YouTube video? >> Earlier today. I watched the Leeroy Jenkins video.
Have you ever babysat a newborn baby before? >> No. When was the last time you held someone’s hand? >> I don’t remember.
How many meals have you eaten today, so far? >> I don’t eat meals, I just eat when I’m hungry. I ate on about four separate occasions today, but not much.
Do you think it’s stupid for people to call others “hot?” >> No.
Do you personally think Wikipedia is a reliable source? >> It’s reliable for what I use it for.
Have you ever shopped at Wet Seal before? Did you like it? >> Yes. I thought it had some cool things.
Do you care about spending money if it’s someone else’s money? >> I respect people’s financial limits, especially if they’re clearly defined (”ok I only have 20 to spend so”), but I don’t make a big deal out of trying to order the cheapest thing on the menu. I order what I want, and if they don’t want to buy whatever it is, then I’ll pick something else. --Or pay for it myself.
What is your favorite Disney movie of all time? >> Lilo and Stitch.
When you were a child, did you ever want to become a wizard/witch? >> No. I didn’t really have a context for that.
Would you rather have hardwood floors or carpet? >> I’d rather hardwood everywhere except the bedroom, I think. I just find it so much easier to keep clean, and also... I can just put rugs down if I want soft. (Rugs are also easier to clean for me, because they can be taken outdoors and beaten and aired out.)
Who was the last person you yelled at? Why? >> I don’t remember.
As a kid, did you ever go to camp? >> Day camp, sometimes. And church camp once, when I was 13.
Have you ever made out in a movie theater before? >> Yes, once. Wouldn’t mind doing it again.
Are you currently trying to learn to play any instrument? >> No.
When was the last time you went somewhere you thought was haunted? >> I don’t know.
Who was the last person to compliment you? >> I think that was Krister, on Instagram sometime in the past week or two.
How old were you when you got to go on your first date? >> I was 18.
Would you call your parents over-protective or under-protective? >> My father was overprotective and strict.
Did your parents ever let you play in the pits of those multicolored balls? >> No.
Have any of your siblings ever had a crush on your significant other? >> No.
Do you still watch cartoons on television? >> Yes. I especially like to watch them on the bathroom TV at the in-laws’ house when I use their shower.
What do you usually order at Taco Bell, if you go there? >> A couple of soft tacos and/or a quesadilla or something. Nothing too extravagant.
Is there anyone currently annoying you? >> In general, yes, but now there is a finish line in sight.
Have you ever felt like someone was following you? >> Yes. Do you like short or long surveys the best? >> I like the 30-50 question range best. Any longer than that, and questions start to weaken and get repetitive. Case in point: this survey, which has asked me about instruments three times already.
Have you ever bought fake money and tried to make it pass for real? >> No. That doesn’t strike me as an intelligent move.
Are your siblings nice the majority of the time? >> ---
Do you freak out when a thunderstorm comes along? >> No. I often get excited, though.
How often do you shower? >> Two to three times a week.
Have you ever had to sell something for a school fundraiser? >> I don’t recall ever doing that.
How many sodas do you usually drink in one day? >> Zero.
Have you ever met someone who was completely weird all-around? >> I don’t think I have a context for that kind of opinion.
Do you ever watch any soap operas? >> No.
Have you ever met someone who was mean to everyone? >> Well, probably.
Do you think long surveys are boring or entertaining? >> If the questions manage to remain interesting, as I said before, then I’m fine with them. This one is pushing my patience.
What color is your significant other’s hair? >> It’s usually purple or red or some shade in between the two.
Have you ever applied for a job at Walmart before? >> Probably at some point.
Would you ever become a foster parent? >> I’d rather become an adoptive parent. I prefer the long-term investment model of parenting; the short-term investment model does not appeal to me.
Are you ashamed of anyone in your family? >> No, but a couple of them ought to be ashamed of themselves, probably.
When you get married, will you convert your last name? >> Yes. Provided Sparrow does what I think she should do, and change hers before the legal proceedings. Otherwise it just won’t make as much narrative sense, god dammit.
Are your parents divorced, married or separated? >> My parents were never married.
Has someone ever left a relationship with you for someone else? >> Probably. I never paid too much attention to that.
What’s the most painful thing you’ve ever experienced? >> Superlatives and me don’t get along.
When was the last time you went shoe shopping? >> It’s been a while. I can never find shoes I want to wear.
When was the last time you cried? For what reason? >> I don’t remember.
What is your favorite shop to go to at the mall? >> Hot Topic, Barnes and Noble.
Would you ever consider becoming a marine biologist? >> No.
Did you carry a lunchbox as a child? >> I did. I was raised vegan and sugar-free so I had to take packed lunches.
What is your favorite ‘sweet’ to eat? >> Sea salt brownies are pretty good.
Are you someone who usually eats when you’re bored? >> Sometimes.
Have you ever eaten your way through a breakup? >> No.
Who was the last person you texted? >> Sparrow, most likely.
Do you usually buy popcorn when you eat at the movie theater? >> No. I don’t really like popcorn in the first place, but especially not for those prices.
Did you sleep alone or with someone last night? >> Alone until Sparrow went to bed. We have Venn-diagram sleep schedules.
What kind of dressing do you eat on your salad, if any? >> Balsamic vinaigrette, or Italian in a pinch.
Are you someone who constantly likes to wear hats? >> No. I like my floppy hat, but that’s it. And that’s just for winter, when my short hair can’t protect my head from the elements.
Have you ever seen a Lifetime movie that relates to your life? >> No.
Is it your summer vacation right now? >> I don’t have vacations.
Do you like traveling? >> Yes.
What color are the walls of the room you’re in right now? >> White. Do you go to church regularly? >> I did for a few months, but I don’t think it’s something I could keep up for long. Dragging myself out of bed in the morning just to go get frustrated at Christianity can sometimes be fun, but mostly I’m too lazy.
Who’s your best friend? >> I suppose that is Can Calah.
Are you determined? >> Determined to do what, exactly? My personality traits are dependent on the circumstance. Are you always looking for/in a relationship, or do you like being single? >> I have been in at least one relationship for the past five years, and I don’t see that changing any time soon.
Ever had your heart broken? >> I’ve felt like that, yeah.
Even broken someone else’s heart? >> I don’t know. No one’s ever told me that, to my recollection, so I assume not.
Are you confident? >> I don’t know. Probably. It’s not something I put a lot of mental energy into. It strikes me as a largely unimportant trait to focus on at this time in my life.
When’s the last time you smiled? >> I don’t remember. I also don’t really... keep track, ya dig.
Are you tan? >> I am dark-skinned. Any big plans for today/tonight? >> No.
What’s the background on your computer? >> It’s a slideshow. Right now, it’s some cool space art I probably found here on tumblr.
Do you have days where you just want to listen to sad songs? >> Not whole days, usually. Periods of time in general, though? Certainly.
Who’s the last person you kissed? >> Sparrow.
Are you hoping they will also be the next person you kiss? >> I mean, at this point it’s kind of assumed.
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Hugh Dancy, the P word & love in Hannibal
Okay, so I’ve had a couple of days to mull this over and I’ve come to a few conclusions that I’ll share here if you’ll bear with me.
First of all, we all know that it’s absolutely canon that Hannibal is in love with Will. Bryan has said so, Mads has said so… dogs on the street have howled it loud and long. So I’m not going to go into that here.
But what about Will? Is he canonically in love with Hannibal? YES! Apart from the fact that it’s demonstrably obvious from at least partway through Season 2 that Will is falling HARD for the great conversationalist with the nice suits and hair and the great kitchen (thank you, Hugh), Bryan AND Hugh are both on record as having said it.
But then why does Hugh keep using the P word to describe Will and Hannibal’s love? Well, based on past interviews I would say that Hugh doesn’t mean platonic as in non-romantic. That would make no sense at all, given the many, many comments that have been made to the contrary. I think that what he, Bryan and Mads are trying to say is that Hannibal and Will’s love  - up to the end of Season 3 - is so deep, so true, it’s almost BEYOND sexual. That isn’t to say it will never BECOME sexual and certainly the events at the end of TWotL point towards it evolving in that direction. But sex is incidental to the bond these two share. There almost seems to be the sense that categorising their relationship as sexual would trivialise it. Mads has referred to Hannibal feeling that Will is his ‘soulmate’ - a state that transcends sexuality. And Bryan has used similar language when describing the relationship.
Hugh also seemed to cause a bit of consternation by suggesting that Will isn’t the killer that Hannibal thinks he is. Well, I agree with him. Yes, Hannibal KNOWS and SEES Will - his empathy and his POTENTIAL as a killer. But WIll ISN’T the killer Hannibal is. They are ‘identically different’, not ‘identically identical’. Interestingly, both Mads and Hugh have described Will and Hannibal as ‘two sides of the same coin’ - being different in certain ways, they are essentially still one. And I think it’s perfectly possible for Hannibal to SEE Will and still misinterpret certain facets of his character. When it comes to Will Graham, Hannibal is, as Mads has said, ‘blinded by love’. He sees what he wants to see - just as Will does in Season 1.
For those of you asking about his marriage comment, that was made in reference to Will and Molly. Hugh never imagined them having a full-on wedding - he thinks it would have been a registry office do.
The other thing that unsettled people was the revelation that Will only realises late in Season 3 that Hannibal loves him (and that he loves Hannibal), primarily because Will ‘never thought of Hannibal as being capable of love’ and had put love ‘on a kind of pedestal’ as a ‘more perfect thing’. Will’s ‘Is Hannibal in love with me?’ question to Bedelia leads to the revelation not only that yes, Hannibal IS capable of feeling love, but also that what Will feels for Hannibal is also love. This appalls him - he sees it as ‘dirty and awful’ because of the terrible things that Hannibal has done and the terrible person that he is. Well, seriously, we can’t argue with that, can we? Hannibal, by anyone’s standards, IS a terrible person: his response to Bella’s dying wish is to toss a coin; his reaction to his boy’s betrayal is to cut the throat of their murder daughter. But he’s also terribly charming and he’s played by Mads Mikkelsen, so we love him anyway. Surely Will, though, can be forgiven for not jumping up and down in glee at the realisation that all these complicated feelings he’s had stewing inside him for years boil down to him being TRULY, MADLY, DEEPLY IN LOVE with a cannibalistic serial killer?!
Finally to the question of whether WIll is going to give himself over completely to the Dark Side in Season 4. The answer seems to be not permanently. Or, at least, not completely. Will wouldn’t be WIll, according to Hugh, without his empathy. So ‘Hannibal’s always going to have to fight for him’. Am I the only one who actually finds that really romantic?
Before I end this, I’d just like to say that Hugh came to his Q&A on Saturday after an absolutely exhausting morning of photo shoots and autograph signings. I was stewarding in the room where the photo shoots took place and it was relentless - hour after hour of non-stop standing, posing and smiling. He was PHENOMENAL throughout - cheerful, enthusiastic and generous. And then he had to go and do signing. And THEN he went to do the Q&A and found himself alone with the mic for an hour before Bryan, who was supposed to be doing it with him, finally appeared (because Bryan, bless him, doesn’t know the meaning of the word speed and wanted to give everyone he was signing for equal and significant attention). So, as he himself confessed, he was making a lot of what he said up on the spot. Let’s face it, it’s been years since they finished making the show and I highly doubt he sits rewatching episodes. In fact, I’m fairly certain there are some episodes he’s never even seen! I think, therefore, it’s likely that he filled in some replies with stuff he’s said in the past (eg. the chess metaphor) without thinking ‘oh, hang on, that only really applies to Season 1’, etc. So maybe we shouldn’t be too hung up on the answers he gave at RDC3.
I’ll give the last words to Hugh and Bryan - comments they’ve made over the years which serve to illustrate some of the points I’ve tried to make in this post. Thank you for reading and forgive me for rambling!
Hugh
In a sense, the two of them have been wandering the Earth, totally isolated, because they have such a specific and elevated mentality. Not identical, but it is as if not only are you the greatest chess player on the planet, you’re actually the only person on the planet that can play chess. And then suddenly you walk into a room one day and there’s a guy playing chess. I think that’s how they feel about each other.
If you want to frame it in terms of a kind of romance between the two of them, I guess it was like seeing each other from across a crowded room… it was like two people who have felt entirely isolated, or maybe just unique, and then they bump into each other in the course of their lives, and they’re like, ‘Oh, I’m not alone. I see some of myself in that other person.’
They’ve been alone in the world until they recognized something in the other that made them feel not alone, which is as good a description of love as you can have, I suppose.
There is kind of the feeling of falling in love, like, 'Oh, my god, I see you. I really see you.’ Of course, the fact is he doesn’t see Hannibal at that point, but, nonetheless, whatever it is between them, is there from the beginning.
They had imagined they were unique until they saw each other. Obviously it took Will longer to appreciate that because he didn’t quite realise what he was dealing with in Hannibal, but Hannibal sees it instantly… It’s two people who have been - I mean, Will probably wears it heavier - but still, essentially alone in the world and then see some kind of, maybe not mirror image, but the other side of their coin. So… that for me explains the love, really, that they have for each other… It’s a genuine, deep feeling that they have for each other… I think it’s platonic, um, but, but I think it’s a - it’s not like two guys who are friends, you know? It’s a rich, deep love.
It’s a true love.
They are in love, or they love each other. That’s unquestionable.
It’s a very rich and profound friendship, and love even. Once Will realises who Hannibal is, it complicates that but it doesn’t just wipe the slate clean. It doesn’t change the fact of their connection.
The show is about romance and it is about love between the two of them: profound and inescapable love.
I realized that the emotional arc of the show, for the second half (of Season 2), was geared towards that cutting. It was not just a horrible, nasty, “Oh, no, my guts are falling out,” but it was a type of consummation that was like an embrace and a connection between the two of them. So, that was what I clung onto. It had to be horrific, also because it was the peak of their romance, in a way.
He’s not looking for a replacement for Hannibal (in Season 3), no. I don’t think there is a replacement for Hannibal.
When Season 3 picks up, we’re both pining for each other.
It is a love story, but obviously not a very functional one.
It’s just like a really compelling but totally destructive relationship… that you keep coming back to.
I think at a certain point it’s bigger than either of them. Hannibal wants to be more in control, but actually he’s willing to burn everything down to have contact with Will. At a certain point, that covers your whole world. I don’t think it’s sexual, but I think it’s bigger than that to be honest.
I think you can always break this down to an analogy between Will and Hannibal of a really bad relationship, or a terrible breakup, or like a mistress. So yeah, in its most basic way, it is that. It’s his past that he has kind of shared with his wife, but he hasn’t fully shared it, and he has probably convinced himself that that’s in order to protect her, but in reality it’s because it’s something he’s guarding for himself.
Will comes back to Hannibal. He’s now got this family, and Will, independently and pretty quickly, starts coming to the conclusion that it’s not sustainable for him to have that family. Like, he’s not the guy. He’s not the right person to be able to look after them, to live with them. It’s not compatible with who he really is. And you could argue that Hannibal is just driving him more quickly to come to that realization. So in that sense, it is kind of brutal, tough love. His love is saying, “Know thyself.”
I think I’ve come back purely to do the job, to try to figure out the Red Dragon… That’s his conscious agenda; the subconscious agenda is probably closer to what Hannibal would say openly, which is that he pretty much couldn’t stay away.
He comes out of it and he’s just exhilarated and he’s finally broken through to that thing Hannibal has been wishing for him and he just says, “It’s beautiful.” He loves it. And that’s the most terrifying thing. Not only do I have to end him, I have to end me as well.
It wasn’t the horror that drove Will to do this. The horror was secondary; it was a horror in reaction to how much he loved what had just happened between him and Hannibal. We’ve seen so many moments of Will covered in blood and shaking and horrified and this is suddenly realizing this is my true self.
The only time in the duration of this entire show that we had the conversation (about Hannigram) before, as we were about to shoot that scene: like, we have to kind of push in that direction; there’s no point pretending otherwise. I guess we obviously both thought that was great.
I always wondered when he would come out gleaming and whole and deadly, but the bubble of his empathy always rose to the surface.
Whether it (Hannigram) came from his (Bryan’s) subconscious, or whether it’s there, sitting in the novels, or whether it’s something we created when we came together to make the first episode, but he ran with it, and we all ran with it. It is now about these two men who are completely alone in a big, bleak world, and then see, coming across the horizon, the other person who reminds them of themselves, somehow. That, to me, is endlessly fascinating.
Bryan
This is a love story.
It was a love story from the very beginning - it was romantic horror.
It’s beyond sexual. It is pure intimacy in a non-physical way.
Will accepts who Hannibal is. It’s also narcissistic, in the way that we fall in love with people who make us feel better about ourselves and who make us feel like we’re a better version of ourselves.
Will is pulled back in to the Red Dragon arc, he’s asking Bedelia, “is Hannibal in love with me?” and Bedelia is saying “is this a ‘can’t live with him, can’t live without him?'” And essentially it is, and that’s sort of the conclusion Will comes to at the end, “I can’t live with him, I can’t live without him. This is the scenario where the least amount of people can die,” meaning, “the two of us.”
There is a quality to connections that go above and beyond sexuality. You can have this intimate connection with somebody that then causes you to wonder where the lines of your own sexuality are. And we didn’t quite broach the sexuality. It was certainly suggested, but the love is absolutely on the table. There is love between these two men, and confusion between these two men.
It was Will experiencing pure joy and connection with Hannibal and realizing how terrifying that is… they’re able to acknowledge that it was beautiful. Will realizes how terrifying a thing that is for him to have enjoyed murder so much and perhaps Hannibal was exactly right for him. Bedelia says, “You can’t live with him, you can’t live without him.” That’s exactly what this is about. Will can’t live without Hannibal, and he knows that in that moment, once they’d experienced a murder together. There’s a realization of his mind being able to process that experience as a thing of beauty. With that, he knows there is very little chance of him being able to return to humanity, so off they go.
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