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glendasguidance · 2 days ago

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grunge themed tarot reading

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I was inspired to create this tarot spread while scrolling Tumblr and remembering being 16 in 2013, wishing the grunge tag was ACTUALLY grunge, lol. I remembered how much the music spoke to me and why, and I realized that the themes of this Gen X Seattle scene and social movement are coming back around. At least, that’s my opinion as someone who currently only uses YouTube, Tumblr, and Pinterest. So I might not actually have my finger on the pulse of the moment. Let me know if you also think this is back in the zeitgeist, and what you imagine the 2020's radical punk social movement and scene is growing into.

spread: Glenda’s Guidance // deck: Tarot of the Divine

Pile 1 → Pile 2 → Pile 3

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✧ Pile 1 ✧ 🥀 ✞

🛸 Why do you feel alienated?

3 of Wands: It seems like you’ve been on a new life journey, and are the only one in your circle that’s working toward your goals (either your dreams or believed obligations). You feel that no one understands the sacrifices you’ve made, or how hard you work, I sense resentment from a martyr complex. You’ve also been experiencing obstacles and challenges that have forced you to figure out work-arounds, and that has been exhausting. You’re upset these goals feel “farther away” than expected, and you’re wondering if it’s time to distance yourself from others.

💔 What are you disillusioned by?

Knight of Swords (reversed): The wide acceptance and encouragement of artificial intelligence and ruthless malice disturbs you. These rich “tech bros” are forcing AI down our throats and cutting jobs, lazy and desperate people use it to generate more income off of slop, and surprisingly, a lot of the public is excited by how easy it is to use. You may have hoped it’d be easier to convince people to stop using AI, or even simply add “-ai” at the end of a Google search. You’re also disillusioned by the American Dream and the belief that the economic system is broken (and can be fixed). Learning about the not-so-secret anti-democracy, anti-Earth, anti-basically-everything beliefs these billionaires have may have been what broke the idea in you that the system is just and fair.

💣 What's been bottling up inside you?

9 of swords (reversed): You fear that Earth is Hell, or going to Hell. You have extreme existential fear. You believe that we all are doomed to a horrible fate by climate catastrophe, war, famine, plague, genocide, and mass death. There’s some sort of layer to your fearful beliefs that you think you deserve being fated to suffer, alongside believing you’re powerless to stop these horrors from continuing and escalating. You’re experiencing a freeze response. While you’re grieving and afraid of very real things, this Hell is largely your own making. That’s good news! It means you have the power to change this Hell in your head so you can create Heaven on Earth. Others may have made you feel like only stupid people have hope, so you’re stupid if you have it. In reality, freedom fighters and activists are usually incredibly smart people. Look at how they’ve handled hopeless feelings for guidance.

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How can you connect with yourself? How can you connect with others? What can you create? How can you release what’s been bottling up inside you? How can you express yourself authentically?

♥︎ much love - Glenda ♥︎

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✧ Pile 2 ✧ 🥀 ✞

🛸 Why do you feel alienated?

9 of Swords (reversed): You’ve been experiencing extreme fear and anxiety while everyone around you seems to act like “normal”. That they’re fine and everything is fine, to the point that you wonder if you’re the crazy one. You have intrusive thoughts that feel terrorizing, consuming, and completely uncontrollable. You might also feel abandoned and ignored by others because it feels like none of them care about your plights, or take your symptoms seriously.

💔 What are you disillusioned by?

8 of Swords (reversed): Seeing that innocent people get thrown into prisons and deportation centers, and how mental health care facilities are full of horrific abuse, you’ve realized you can no longer believe this is a “justice” system. Sure, sometimes justice and healing happens, but shouldn’t that be what the system does by default? Why are innocent people sitting on death row? How can these most of these punishments truly be proportionate to most of the crime committed? And why (in the United States) is it legal to use prisoners as slaves? Why are fast food restaurants using prisoner workers in a “convinct leasing system”, yet will not rehire those same employees after release? It may help you to learn more about the prison abolition movement.

💣 What's been bottling up inside you?

Knight of Cups (reversed): You want people to recognize the good in you and that you’re worthy of being loved. This has been manifesting into hero fantasies and self sacrifice. You imagine justice will be served, and you will be respected and memorialized as a Good Person. I see a lot of images of war and battlefields. Do you fantasize about this daily to cope with your intrusive thoughts? You probably have no idea how this is negatively affecting you. It’s preventing you from being able to connect with people and it’s stopping you from living life. It’s an unintended consequence of living in these daydreams. You are also (unintentionally) putting yourself above the people you are trying to save. In reality, people who need help know what they need better than you do. Constantly imagining yourself dying for a cause is a form of self harm, and is exhausting you emotionally and physically. These fantasies do feel rooted in patriarchy and religious trauma that you may or may not realize. Try to connect with people who are processing those traumas. You can be validated and have a sense of belonging without needing to “prove it”.

Extended reading available through Patreon (in a zine)!

How can you connect with yourself? How can you connect with others? What can you create? How can you release what’s been bottling up inside you? How can you express yourself authentically?

♥︎ much love - Glenda ♥︎

♣︎★ mutual aid disaster relief - worldwide mask bloc - Doctors Without Borders ★♠︎

✧ Pile 3 ✧ 🥀 ✞

🛸 Why do you feel alienated?

7 of Pentacles: You reached a lot of success in your life, but many of the people around you haven’t yet. It’s hard for ya’ll to relate to each other now, and you may feel guilty for your success. You’re facing a crossroads in the direction your life is going in now. You’re wondering if you need to leave people behind, if they can come along with you, or if you should stay in this same situation. You don’t know anyone else facing this tough choice, so you don’t know who can help you.

💔 What are you disillusioned by?

the High Priestess: When you got into the online spiritual community, you believed you finally found a wholesome corner of the internet. You’re sad that you can’t trust everyone, and are a bit shocked at how vapid and hypocritical it can be. The spiritual community online has a lot of people who make extraordinary claims about their abilities, logical fallacies (say things that don’t make sense), manipulation, scamming, exploiting people’s loneliness, psychosis, racism, ableism, sexism, and many other “isms”. While it also has people who are committed to things like healing, growth, creation, love, kindness, peace, liberation, self actualization, and community care, it can be an adventure to find them. Some people even think AI deity chatbots are their deity, or that AI can be used as a spiritual tool. It can only feed us our desires because that’s what it’s programmed to do. This tool can’t hold us accountable, so it cannot be sacred. A helpful tool for you and others is the WebMD page on psychosis, especially the sections on warning signs and early stages. We’d like to think this could never happen to us, but vulnerability happens to us all. It’s important to know when to seek care. If you’re seeking care for these symptoms, know you’re brave and I’m rooting for you. <3

💣 What's been bottling up inside you?

2 of Swords (reversed): You’re incredibly stressed by the choice you have to make at these crossroads, to the point that you’re catastrophizing. Your current coping strategy for your overthinking is running away from the topic, and refusing to think about it. But both the “what ifs” and the denial are causing you more stress and isolation. The problems are feeding into each other, making them bigger and worse. People can probably sense something is off about you, as you insist everything is fine while also being distant. Take a pause from ruminating, and don’t force yourself to stop thinking about it either. Give your brain a break, allow your thoughts to come as they will, and be patient with the process. Your answer will come in due time.

Extended reading available through Patreon (in a zine)!

How can you connect with yourself? How can you connect with others? What can you create? How can you release what’s been bottling up inside you? How can you express yourself authentically?

♥︎ much love - Glenda ♥︎

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