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Recently received multiple diagnosis for varying ailments I’ve had throughout my life and I feel like I’m holding on by less than a thread.

I can’t go outside anymore without my skin burning from the sun, I can’t take showers without passing out, I can’t go out with friends, because I’ll get sick.

I’m so fucking shocked I’m still alive, and yet I have no body to complain to. I try to complain to my boyfriend about it but he thinks I’m exaggerating my pain. I don’t talk to my family anymore, because after I got diagnosed they stopped treating me like a human being, which is insane because I live in the same house as them. It all just sucks. My legs don’t work anymore everything burns when I walk.

Life is always barely above being considered hell to me.

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heart barely beating

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Almost!

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Snailing. Flawed ballpoint on A4

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had a dream that I met a wizard and we fell in love and became unhealthily attached to each other so we decided to meld into one single creature together but the process was horrifically slow and painful and most of the dream was us lying in bed holding hands while lesions opened up in our skin and seeped out blue and green fluid and the wizard said "this is going to take a very very long time" and I said "that's ok"

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such a pretty house, and such a pretty garden.

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this is my final fit

my final belly ache

with no alarms and no surprises

no alarms, and no surprises

no alarms and no surprises please

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It really is never over

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Twin stars always fall to earth together!

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