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Did you know that having even one good adult in your life as a child reduces the risk of ASPD?

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frankly it's very lucky that I'm pathologically avoidant of everything and everyone and borderline agoraphobic because it's the only thing that keeps me from doing insanely reckless shit when I get In A Mood. that and my total lack of money and inability to drive and 2 person social circle and tiny hometown with absolutely nothing to do. in another universe I would be great at breaking into abandoned buildings and picking bar fights

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so fucking tired of having to go to bat for my dad to his own fucking mother. like I get it he fucked your life up or whatever and all his criminal shit is very stressful for you. however have you considered the fact that you fucked him up first and he's actually making some sort of effort rn and you being like this on one of the rare occasions he's actually trying is not helpful.

she loves to throw out the old "oh I feel like it's my fault he's such a fuck up maybe I'm just a horrible parent" but somehow seems to never have actually considered it might be partially her fault in any way beyond using it as a self pity thing. idk man maybe when both of your kids ended up with severe criminal and drug problems and at least one has several trauma-based personality disorders and the grandkid you raised from infancy (me) started having severe mental health problems at 11 and has had ever since, maybe, just maybe, it's a little bit your fault.

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felt rly bad in my friendships lately + today I talked to my best friend abt it, basically just like. expressing that I was upset and why, and. it was good!! nothing bad happened. they weren't mad at me. they didnt dismiss me. we talked abt it, and they gave me space to explain what I was feeling, and by the end of it I felt better. it's weird and hard to try to navigate relationships when you're used to communication being smth that will cause more problems and solve nothing but it feels kind of amazing when you get up the nerve to do it and it works out

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System host culture is knowing you have an internalised view of yourself being the "main" guy and fighting for your life to try and get rid of that thought process because you KNOW everyone is on the same level as you.

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Do I have to say this? There is no such thing as a fake system. For fucks sake. If someone is 'faking' their system, just fucking treat them like how they want to be treated. If they want to fucking be treated like multiple people or something, TREAT THEM LIKE FUCKING MULTIPLE PEOPLE.

They aren't harming anyone by saying they're a system.

All systems are real.

No system is fake.

Why? Because if you call yourself/yourseleves a system, YOU'RE A SYSTEM. PERIOD. No questions asked. Fuck off fakeclaimers. Honestly. They're people too. Don't go around calling them fake. So, what if they made up their whole system? They're still a system if they call themself that. This is coming from a cryptoendogenic system who is monocon and can be considered median.

Fakeclaimers fuck off.

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The psychiatrist who wrote the criteria for narcissism just made an extremely important point about what’s wrong with diagnosing Trump with mental disorders

Dr. Allen Frances says in speculating about Trump’s mental health, we are doing a disservice to those who do suffer from mental illness. In a series of tweets, he explained why he doesn’t think Trump is a narcissist — and how harmful it can be for us to keep assuming that he is.

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the supplicants of the DSM-5 cult are going to murder me for my opinions about plurality

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i guess the point is - its not even really a focus on the host we're usually seeing (not that it doesnt happen), but moreso a focus on normality. the host gets focused on because the idea of there being a "real one" is more paletable. but the truth is, if that host is still "weird" they dont get better treatment just for being the host, because then they arent useful for that. at least thats out perspective.

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oh your daughter? sorry yeah we killed her. i mean, she’s still here, but she’s more bird than girl now and she doesn’t like you anymore. we? yeah we’re a we. we took your daughter and killed her and took her soul and her brain and her heart and her eyes to make us. yeah her bones are still here, but they’re hollow now.

how could you, you say? it was us? ah maybe we dealt the last blow when we laid her on the table and cut her open with the scalpel she handed us, but you made her sick first. she was dying long before we met her and now she’s soaring above the clouds and she doesn’t like you.

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Nothing like a narc crash on top of a depressive episode to make me wanna kill myself expeditiously

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The plural urge to learn to make wigs so everyone gets the hairstyle they want

The plural urge to get fake piercings of all different types so we can switch them out

The plural urge to learn makeup so we can make the body ours

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being abused or neglected really makes it clear how many things are skills that nobody really treats as. skills. exercising autonomy is a skill. listening to your body is a skill. resting is a skill. being liked and being loved are skills. nobody tells you how to do this shit because nobody even told me I was supposed to have learnt these things when I was a kid. I kind of just have to manually figure out what makes me freak out and work from there. unfair as shit

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overall we really don't experience much if any system doubt anymore, but it's still reassuring when smth Obviously Real happens and we're like oh. yeah. we couldn't fake this if we tried.

like when we get blurry and physically tired when the host has been away from front too long. it has physical side effects that we can't dismiss or convince ourselves we made up. tired as hell rn. worth it though because my boyfriend got to front for the first time in months and we got to hang out <33

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[ endo/tulpa/mixedsys safe ]

It's a bit wild to me how different fronting can feel. Sometimes it's like "hm, I use different pronouns now and I don't want to be called by that name. I need to change my clothes to something more comfortable for who I am right now."

and sometimes it's like

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daily amnesia in DID is something i don't see talked about that much, i see regular amnesia (ie not being able to remember years of your life, traumatic memories etc) talked about but never the daily things.

daily amnesia is on a day to day basis never being able to remember important things, did i take my medicine this morning? did i shower yesterday? have i eaten yet? what have i been doing for the past hour? what was i supposed to do today?

daily amnesia REALLY fucking sucks because whenever you start suffering you remember every other time you've been suffering and just scold yourself for not getting help and not getting better - but when the moment it's over? it's completely gone from your memory. it's so much suffering and you're so stuck because how can you ever get help for something you can't remember? you're always in a constant state of 'feeling fine' and when you end up getting help and going to therapy there's nothing to talk about because there's nothing you remember.

every day is groundhog day where you are forced against your will to repeat it over and over for god knows how long.

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Hi everyone, I've been talking recently about a phenomenon that has been happening to me, and after finding others who feel the same, I need to know who else feels this way:

Do you guys feel like you don't exist outside of the eyes of the people? Like your personality exists, your identity exists, your tastes exist, but the moment no one is seeing you, you become nothing, just a soulless meat machine, do you need people to see you for you to feel real? Even if it's just a passive presence like being in a silent VC with someone? Please if you do identify with this talk about your experience! I want to know more! (Especially if you have a personality disorder of any of the clusters)