thearkkangel

[thearkkangel]

No. Emotional intelligence has nothing to do with it. It's a myth that all emotionally intelligent people can regulate their emotions. It's like saying that all introverted people hate or are uncomfortable in social events. You would never know that some people are introverts because they do exceptionally well in social settings. If they recognize the necessity of the event and learn how to mentally and emotionally process it, they can appear comfortable, even suave. Likewise, emotionally intelligent people can be aware of their emotions and the emotions of others, and be highly empathetic, but lack the ability to regulate their emotions, especially when paired with mental health issues such as depression and multiple types of anxieties. I'm one of those people. And yet I cant count the times I've understood and helped someone disguising their emotions quite well. The slightest manurism or untangling an overwhelmed person's situation when they can't explain it properly and no one else can figure it out. Sometimes the emotional intelligence can destroy my mood because I understand what's going to happen when even the person is unaware or in denial.

“Emotionally intelligent people have an ability to manage stress as it happens and remain calm through chaos.”

— Susan C. Young, The Art of Preparation: 8 Ways to Plan with Purpose & Intention for Positive Impact

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in Soviet Russia, malachite fucks you.

Polished Malachite Stalactite - Copper Crescent, Congo

[thearkkangel]

This is so right but also so f*cking g*y

It seems like the older I get, the more irrationally angry casual censorship makes me. And it isn't just the "unalive" "grape" alleged filter-dodging vernacular, but the way normal words will be peppered with asterisks, or screenshots will have words like "gay" "hell" "fuck" etc either partially or entirely blurred. Who is this helping? What is the purpose of it, except to reinforce shame and elevate a flimsy perception of purity and safety, however those things manifest. It's so tiresome and I'm sick of it.

[thearkkangel]

Attention other humans: we fucked up. As intelligent as we are, we did not foresee that we would devolve.

Gen X and early Millennials grew up hearing motivational things like "you're special in your own way" and "you can be whatever you want to be - the sky is the limit." We can't entirely blame ourselves. I mean, we were kids when we heard this shit. We didn't realize that our kids would be stupid enough to take it literally while also demonstrating Murphy's Law. We definitely didn't expect them to eat Tide pods. Unfortunately, we are just advanced enough to have moved the boundary line for natural selection. It is no longer natural. Your kid is retarded and it is only with our advancements in technology and science that he is still alive.

Climate change is mother nature being pissed off at us for upsetting natural balance. Your kid has been hit by a car twice, stabbed by himself once, been in the same water as an electrical appliance once while it was plugged in, and hit his head enough times to lose all brain function. But modern medicine, technological safety enhancements, and dumb luck happened, and your kid is now one of many just like him who will soon take over for us.

I don't support abortion, but if they legalize post-term abortions, we are going to abort that little asshole into nothingness.

Please join a cult with your kid, and try the Kool aid.

[thearkkangel]

As humans, it is poetic to believe that we are more than who we are. Another universe. Another dimension. Another reality. We like to believe that we might have made a different choice in a different life. But for you, for me, for each individual person, there is only one reality we exist in. Every moment of our life happens only and exactly once.

You should start rethinking your life choices if you try to rationalize them by pretending that in another life, everything worked out the way you're choosing to reject. Bullshit. If you make a conscious decision right now to stab me in the back and destroy the relationship between us, it is gone. Over. It doesn't happen differently in some other dimension or life. Not as far as you and I are concerned.

So know that this is the only time you will ever make this decision, and this decision will harm me so much that it would have been better to never have met you. I would like to believe that karma will make you understand, but that's not the reality of karma. The basis of karma is that a person who does bad things, does so based on their beliefs, morals, ethics, and character. And statistical probability says that the more often you take risks and the more you risk, the more your chances of losing increase. A person whose image is built on cascading lies, for example, is infinitely more likely to get caught and lose everything, than a person who does not lie.

But life is not biased. It hates, loves, creates, and kills without discrimination. And just as the liar's "destiny" is predictable, so is life. Each moment being the sum of its past.

If you are truly wicked, you will never regret or think back on this decision you are making that destroys me. In fact, even if you're not wicked, your mind may not know enough information to comprehend the pain this will cause me, and so you still may never regret it.

For a moment, I almost want to believe that in another life, you didn't make this decision, because I want to believe that I wouldn't have made enough mistakes and misjudged you to make this moment possible. Maybe a better version of me doesn't get crushed by a better version of you. But that's not the reality I live in. The reality I live in is that I trusted and loved you and you still make this choice.

This moment is happening, and I am powerless to stop it. But you can. You only live your life and I only live mine. And more than the decision you are making, I am defeated in knowing that you will never understand this moment from my perspective. This moment is happening one time and only one time. Right now. This is the only time you make this choice, and it is the only time you have this choice to make. My heart is not healed through another life I don't live.

So to tell me that in another life, you wouldn't do this, only makes it hurt more. Don't patronize me. This decision, in this moment, is the only thing I feel.

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I used to look at myself and ask, "why does she love me?" Today she said goodbye. Now I know.