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Will binge read this over the weekend. Waiting for the other 2 volumes from another seller.

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Reading this now. Keeping me company during this BS life.

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It’s weird that I just finished season one of Violet Evergarden, while reading through Sputnik Sweetheart which one of the lead characters is named Sumire, which is Violet in Japanese. Coincidence?

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Guess what?

I am the other girl.

There is no me. I am just another body.

You needed at that time. You will forget the face tomorrow as you should. I will have no name in your stories, if I’m ever lucky to be a part of one.

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Guess what?

It is always my heart being dropped.

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My thoughts aren’t special. I used to be always conscious on how I convey these emotions but I realized, who cares? Why be special? Why exert effort? When everything goes down the drain. Whoever said that you’re eventually going to get back whatever you put in in life, might be royalty. That is bullsh*t.

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Dear friend,

I feel so alone right now. I no longer have you and it’s been more than a year. It is just hard when there was no one there who cares about your thoughts, how they unknowingly neglect you. I’d like to think ‘unknowingly’ just so maybe it eases my pain a bit. It is better to think that people did not consciously ignore you, right? Than the other way around. I always wished you never left. Because even if it’s just the two of us before, we’re alone together. And I don’t need anything else.

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I cannot remember how long I stopped reading. Hopefully, these two will bring me back.

Will update this post with my thoughts after reading

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My awkward solo trip in Japan, 2019.

I think I wanted to live in Japan but I guess with the financial capacity I have rn, I might not be able to do so. Maybe start with learning Japanese.

Or maybe someone Japanese should marry me huhu heyyyy please lol

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So how was your Valentines? It shouldn’t be much big a deal at my age but it’s as usual. I’ve never had anyone for Valentines. So I’m not sure what I am being sad about.

I’m sleeping on my couch and hugging my hotdog pillow. And I just wanted this pillow to be a person. Someone who can hug me back. But I guess it’s just not possible for some people.

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Noted.

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A villanelle I wrote almost a decade ago. It’s in Filipino. A villanelle is a form of poetry with rhyme and meter and which uses the technique of repeating refrains to heighten the metaphor between each line.

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Took these photos during my visit at Yayoi Kusama Museum in Tokyo, December of 2019 before pandemic f*cked us all up.

The museum is small but it is still worth visiting if you are a fan.

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I originally planned to put up a YouTube channel but I guessed I just wasn’t cut for that. I don’t even want to show my face. It’s hard to get people listening. Every post will be random. Sometimes it would be about my new pair of shoes, my work rants or maybe PMS thoughts.

I’d like to believe I’m many years-too-late to start writing here but f*ck it, I guess.

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