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Need this bed

How we feeling abt the bed chat

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BOOOOOBS and NO BOOBS

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GIVE ME THAT FAT BOY NOW !!!

he's perfect 2 me

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I’m making a silly short comic about what would happen if Skwisgaar was intersex and Murderface would 100% be weird about it “M-MAN WITH BOOBS😱😱😱”HAHAHAHA

It’s not done yet but here’s a couple panels from it 😆

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Mannn I feel this so hard. It’s hard to even think of a future because I can barely remember anything. I forget my past too. I feel like I’m just floating through life

DID symptoms that people don't talk enough about

The cycle of forgetting and then re-remembering trauma memories

Constant depersonalization and derealization

Feeling as if you're stuck living someone else's life

Failure to plan for the future because nothing feels real + losing time

Thinking a flashback is over when you've actually just dissociated away from it, and having it resume as soon as you stop dissociating

Dissociative stupor/trance

Alexithymia

Identity issues outside of alters

Inability to connect with other people

Being unable to tell if you've healed from a past problem/trauma or if you've just dissociated away from it

Not learning from past mistakes because of amnesia and dissociation

Feeling nothing psychologically despite physical shaking, racing heart, nausea, crying, etc

The extreme disorientation + identity confusion that comes with co-consciousness and co-fronting

Somatic flashbacks

Being triggered by your own DID symptoms because you know the only reason you're experiencing any of this is because of what they did to you

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CHAT give me ideas of what to draw

I really wanna draw funny Dethklok stuff

Also I can’t stop drawing intersex Skwisgaar

But I also wanna draw Toki with his toys or his deddy bear

HELP help what should i draw

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LORD HAVE MERCY CHAT IM GONNA SCREAM

these drawings are a bit older. like a few months old. this was a while after i began watching metalocalypse and i really liked skwisgaar and started headcanoning him as intersex and i was just trying to figure stuff out and get a grasp of his design and whatnot. i dont like the drawing on the top left but i do enjoy the one in the bottom right. maybe ill redraw it, who knows ill try making something that doesnt involve his boobs for one HAHA

uncensored below

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HOLY SHIT !!

uncensored beneath the cut, as per usual the shape of skwisgaar is hard to figure out but thats a part of his charm

i hope you guys arent getting tired of intersex gaar already its all ive been posting

sorry for the ass photo too

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🖤🖤🖤

you are valid.

you are valid if you dont switch often.

you are valid if you switch extremely often.

you are valid if you are fictive heavy.

you are valid if you are introject heavy.

you are valid if you arent open about your system.

you are valid if you are very open about your system.

you are valid if your headmates date inside your system.

you are valid if your headmates date outside your system.

you are valid if you have no partner systems.

you are valid if you have a ton of partner systems.

you are valid if you are constantly blurry.

you are valid if you always know whom is fronting.

you are valid. ღ

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do any other systems have this happen with male alters in AFAB bodies? We do a LOT

getting both wet AND hard because i don't let my physical form limit my self expression

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THIS IS BEAUTIFUL OMG

Kitten's sketches~

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NSFW WIP !!! Probably never posting the full body photo on this acc because errrm it’s too freaky😶

Skwisgaar (alter) wants to make an NSFW art account but I don’t know how I feel about that yet

Censored version and then uncensored below

Anyone else with sexual trauma feel like it’s healing yet uncomfortable drawing nudity? We’re trying to get more comfortable with it but it still brings a lot of shame. Well for many of us who aren’t sexual alters like the Swedish man himself

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This is so fucking funny

Wanted to add my own headcanon as well-

I think Toki (and Nathan cause that fucker is huge) are the only ones who can carry Skwisgaar. Toki likes to get revenge by going up behind Skwisgaar and grabbing him in a bear hug and dragging him off to his room. Yeah Skwisgaar’s legs are dragging on the ground and he could try to stand up and get away- but Toki is is way stronger than the tree guy sorry I don’t make the rules

I also think Toki likes to rile Skwisgaar up by challenging him to arm wrestling and fist fights or wrestling after Skwisgaar does something irritating like putting Deddy Bear on top of the cabinet and laughing as Toki screams. So then when he finially caves and gives Deddy back, Toki shoves him on the floor or grabs a fist full of his hair and yanks Gaar away.

Skwisgaar knows his limits when messing with Toki because unlike everyone else who will get annoyed but has a bit more self control (well not Murderface) Skwisgaar knows when he deserves the punch or body slam. Sometimes he likes that Toki is the only one willing to challenge him like that. But it also bruises his ego.

Hi good morning, I think a lot about Skiwisgaar having a huge height difference with the members, so what do you think about how people act around him like because he is very tall, do they ask him to reach for objects and things like that?

I fw this

For reference I think he's around 6'10 (208.28 cm)

His tagline isn't "taller than a tree" for nothing

Right off the bat, I think Toki bothers him the most for it

They act like me and my siblings, so Lord knows he's asking Skwisgaar for things he can literally reach

Pickles has to get fireman carried to bed sometimes, and of course Skwisgaar gets volunteered

I think Murderface doesn't care that much

He threatens to chop him down like a tree sometimes/j

I think Nathan is around 6'5 (195.58cm) so he probably doesn't care too much

Gets similar treatment too

They both get asked to have someone on their shoulders to play chicken

When Skwisgaar inevitably fucks up his shoulder, Nathan has to take over, and vice versa

They have to carry regressed Toki sometimes (and you can't get mad because it's canon that Norwegian bastard regresses)

Skwisgaar throws people.

That's it.

He's thrown Murderface across the room before, and then everyone else wanted him to do it to them😭

I think that's probably another reason women like him

Most of the band will ask how he gets so many chicks and he just puts his arm on their head or something

That's another thing he does too

I don't care that the rest of the band is probably between 6'-6'5 (182.88-195.58cm)

If one of them is bent over or sitting in front of the couch he puts his feet on them

People get treated like ottomans when he's around he thinks it's fuckin hilarious

He's probably weaker than Toki and I just KNOW it pisses him off

Because why is he weaker than a shorter person

Sometimes they arm wrestle to see if Skwisgaar got any stronger

News flash: he didn't

He storms off like a little girl and hides in his room for a week/j

He looks like the type of mf to block doors when someone has to go to the bathroom

Or block the tv when someone's favorite show is on

"Hmm.... What ams on...."

"SKWISGAAR. MOVE YOUR FATASS."

That sentence alone makes him stand there for another five to ten minutes

He finds himself absolutely hilarious

TL;DR - the band all suffer under the mighty wrath of Skwisgaar Skwigelf's height

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I hope this is like good I had no idea how to execute this and was pulling straws

Anyway I hope yinz have a good day

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Yep :”) it be like that. DID and OSDD aren’t as rare as people think and often times they’re a lot more covert. We’re a covert system although some of our fictives like to be more open/out there because they want to feel as “real” to their Introject as possible. We try to assure them they don’t need to be exactly like their source to be valid, because at the end of the day I as the host acknowledge they aren’t the “real” characters, they are fictives, but some of them get a little delusional with it and are like “NO I AM “insert character” IN THE FLESH. They are me I am them. We aren’t alters we are really them!”

that’s okay tho😆🖤 I know as the host that it helps them cope with being in a body that doesn’t match their mental version. DID is whack man. Child us got so traumatized our brain was like you know what, give em little guys.

DID ISNT RARE! OSDD ISNT RARE! ALL SYSTEMS HAVE DIFFERENT EXPERIENCES SO ITS HARD TO GET RECOGNIZED! YOURE SEENN!!!

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This is so true we literally have no order it’s all at random these days 😭

Headspace but its just:

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This- I still have to be reminded to breathe by my therapists and friends. My abuser used to scream at me and say I was breathing in a way that angered him, or that my breathing was “off” and I was trying to be disrespectful or huffing at him. It makes no sense but I still struggle with breath holding to this day and I almost pass out a lot

parents will make u feel guilty about absurd shit like breathing too much air or smth. and it will work too like you'll be laying on the ground years later paralyzed by the guilt that you're breathing too much until someone grabs u by the shoulders and tells u that is fucking stupid. and then you'll need to remind yourself of that every day for the rest of your life to function

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Vent art by Skwisgaar alter