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Unsure

I dont think I have any real passions or goals in life

the thing i want to do most is lay in my bed, sleep and watch tv

Im lazy and unmotivated and im not sure if theres anyway to change that

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dating

ive seen a guy twice and i seldom see men more than once so this is big news for me i also like him and want to kiss him but im not sure how to tell if he wants to kiss me at all

because we met on a dating app i assume he thinks im attractive but im not sure bc hes never said like ur so pretty or u look nice or anything like that but idk be even if he did idk if i would even believe him so idk anyways what things would he say if wanted to kiss me/thinks im hot/attractive????

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ok

so ive been eating ice cream and donuts and i really want to get high but ive been getting high kind of often and im trying not to do that bc i feel like its taking away from my life - idk

i need to fix the mental disconnect on whatever is stopping me from actually making a real difference in my life

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ok so...

i low key high key didn't stick to my plan.... however i was thinking daily food logs might be a good way to track my food intake/keep myself accountable via embarrassment from others

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what people think "getting started" means

waking up at 4 AM, eating some superfood with a side of supplements, going on a 5km run, taking a 25-steps shower, doing a 30-step skincare routine, gua sha, lymphatic massage, eating just salads and protein, deleting all social media, reading only productivity and self-help books, drinking 10 liters of water a day

what getting started actually means

daily reassessments of habits, slowly reshaping your sleeping schedule, researching about better choices, learning through failures, experimenting without shame or fear, taking more walks before you run, learning how to breathe, time-limiting your phone, understanding the importance of letting go, self-criticism without self-hate, being kind with yourself throughout the process, always remembering where you started and why you decided to change, staying grateful for the journey and not just the destination. and drinking 2-3 liters of water a day

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starting overish

ok so my plan failed but truthfully i was expecting this as I've been trying, planning, and trying and planning since i was eight i feel and basically it never works but i have come up with something that might.

I wont smoke weed until I've lost 30 pounds. this is a great motivator for me as i wont get the munchies while I'm trying to diet and every time i think of getting something i know i shouldn't ill remember that it'll be stopping me from getting high (an activity i love)

i made this blog so people could/would hold me accountable but bc none follows it that's not rlly working.

anyways i want to be skinny so badly i could implode

I think i currently weight 233 - im not sure bc my scale died so current weight goal is 203

wish me luck!

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Always serve your future self ✨🍸

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extreme dieting

ok, I'm about half way through my challenge and so far i have failed i think. I've got back to drinking w friends and my dieting is non existent. so I'm going to take drastic action - I'm going to buy meal replacment shakes and have only thoses for a week and see how i fare afterwards

wish me luck

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I think that if I gave up on love, my life would be so much lighter. I wouldn't feel a constant need to be hotter or skinner.

I wouldn't feel so stupid all the time whenever I make a little mistake in public or just do something a little unusual.

I'd love to give up wanting love and a close connection - especially since it feels like the more I want it, the less I'm going to get it.

Dieting has been impossible this week, and school work is never-ending. I just don't feel good enough or smart enough or attractive enough ever.

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Finally, accepting the reason I want to lose weight is to be more attractive for men 😩

Extremely disheartening, however, I'm stuck in the mindset that male validation is sweeter than self-respect 😔

I am praying that I can soon realize and actively respect my self-worth

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better days are coming in April

better days are coming in April

better days are coming in April

better days are coming in April

better days are coming in April

better days are coming in April

better days are coming in April

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fyi being organised and prepared doesn’t have to feel rigid. it doesn’t have to be about strict schedules, endless to-do lists, or forcing yourself into systems that drain you. i see real organisation (the kind that actually makes life better) as more like a ritual.

it’s laying out your clothes the night before, not because you have to, but because it makes the morning feel effortless. it’s keeping a beautiful notebook for ideas, so inspiration never slips away. it’s setting your space in a way that invites focus, flow, and ease.

rigidity creates stress. ritual creates readiness.

remember: the goal isn’t to control every moment (i think people misunderstand this when i post about it), it’s to design a life where you are prepared enough to move through it with grace.

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Slacking big time on making healthy food choices and feeling so tired and un- motivated, but this is my spring break and I'm going to try and have a mental reset as to try and get back on track with being a skinny weight loss health queen.

And my head hurts :(((((

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Dieting is so impossible I swear to God my friends were being so sweet and bought me a peice of cake and I ate it and now I regret it sm!!!!

I've wanted to be skinny forever, and I'm finally trying really hard to get it, and I'm eating cake like an idiot 😔😔😔

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i wish that instead of being a physical entity i could be like ,,, the concept of the color pink

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This is maybe the most perfect dress I've ever seen