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my forever angel

i miss you everyday, lola Mila. the thought of making you proud and fulfilling my promises to you is what keeps me alive. i know you are always guiding and protecting me, my angel 🪽

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Ang mahirap yung...

di mo alam kung susuko ka na ba o ipagpapatuloy mo pa. Kaso todo effort ka sa relasyon niyo, eh siya may ginagawa ba?

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I'm a simple girl, with simple wishes. how I wish that you're not going to change. I want you to be the guy I met three months ago. Witty, expressive, full of efforts, always smiling. how I wish that what you feel for me the day you fell in love with me, will continue until the end. I want it to grow, and not fade away. I'll do the best that I can to take care of our relationship. I wish you'll do the same. how I wish that you'll never get tired of holding my hands to show the world how proud and happy you are to have me as your girl. how I wish that you won't get tired of understanding me whenever I get jealous or I feel that there's something wrong with our relationship. I'm just worried, but it doesn't mean that I'm doubting your love. All I want is assurance. A tight hug, a simple "I love you", a forehead kiss, any simple act to show me you love me will be greatly appreciated. Simple acts for a simple girl from a complicated guy towards a damn fine fairytale relationship. Opposite attracts, indeed.

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I'm not saying I'll leave

I just feel tired, but no. Hell no. I will never give up.

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my biggest fears:

repetition: of saying “i love you” too often, of you considering it a chore when you have to reassure me again and again that you’re not tired of reminding me. of you getting bored of the same old conversations and dinner talk and long skirts. of mimicking the broken record players we both have that neither of us play.

heights: of being unable to stop myself from falling, being so far from the ground i can barely see it and then way too close all at once. of splintering my heart against cold concrete. of becoming a chalk outline, nothing more. maybe less.

ghosts: of being haunted by the past, of it always coming back. of holding things that aren’t there, holding things that wish they weren’t. of feeling hands on my shoulders, pushing me forwards, being walked right through. of being unable to move on, of never seeing light.

  fire: the old flames that can consume you if left unattended. of the scars that already line my ankles turning from pink to red. of holding matches and forgetting to drop them, of not stomping them out. i am afraid of third degree burns.

the dark: of reaching towards you to grab ahold of your t-shirt so you can lead me through the blackness but feeling nothing at all. of not being able to see your eyes. of not being able to see you. of being left in your basement with only my empty fingertips to guide me.

needles: of being put under, where i cannot stop myself from saying the wrong name or forgetting the things i should know by heart. of having strangers in my veins, of someone else having the ability to take me apart again. maybe this time i won’t make it. oh god, i sure hope i don’t.

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I love you so damn much that it starts to steal other word meanings

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I WISH I CAN READ WHAT'S ON YOUR MIND

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You fall in love with someone who may be someone you would’ve never pictured yourself with. He may constantly doubt you. He may break rules. He may be hard to communicate with. He may be a worrier. You might have to fight really hard for him. But you will. You will also learn to love all the things you thought you hated about him and also even the things he hates about himself. He is nowhere near perfect. He may not even be ideal to you. And sometimes you might not even trust him. But something about the expressions on his forehead and the safety you find in his smile that will make you want to keep him forever, even if he doesn’t always help you. You will find a way to translate his never-ending weakness into a message that you yourself are far stronger than you even thought you were. And you will be strong for him, because he is much weaker than you are.

the person you fall in love with is not always the person you choose; Khae S. (via escafeism)

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long time no play

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I don’t want to go to college but I also don’t want to NOT go to college

What I really want is to stop existing but you can’t do that without dying and I don’t want to die either

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Maybe one's girlfriend is also their friend?

They're probably friends with each other. But this is in regards to the boy in making his decision. Being controlled by his friends...really now? What d'you think?

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The scariest thing about distance is that you don't know whether they'll miss you or forget you.

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Friends over Girlfriend---

I'm looking for opinions. Any thoughts about this?

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Something's missing.....

and it's you. I miss you every single second of the day. Though we always see each other at the office, it's not enough. I wanna "talk" to you, I want to feel the warmth of your touch, I want to see your sleeping face, I want to hear your soothing voice, I want to smell your awe-mazing scent that makes me easily know it's you even if I'll be standing in a crowd, I want to kiss you until we run out of breath, I want to hug you until we fall asleep, but most specially, I simply want to be with you. every. single. day.

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Can't all my favorite restaurant be open 24/7?

pretty please with icing on top

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I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU

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your eyes are my favorite stars ✨